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here this is the conversation i had with trent..
all the referances are at the bottom

with an explanition behind them.
psyclown02 (12:13:55 am): im debating on going to kelseys party

lloyddarkheartx (12:14:02 am): debating?
lloyddarkheartx (12:14:05 am): doushite?
lloyddarkheartx (12:14:11 am): (and please not in japanese)
psyclown02 (12:16:00 am): cause
psyclown02 (12:16:03 am): im not sure i wanna go
lloyddarkheartx (12:16:11 am): why?
lloyddarkheartx (12:16:24 am): i'll keep asking if it doesn't get a bit more awnsering-
like
psyclown02 (12:16:50 am): certain ppl..
psyclown02 (12:16:54 am): i get around them and..
lloyddarkheartx (12:16:57 am): and?
psyclown02 (12:16:58 am): well i feel like shit
lloyddarkheartx (12:17:16 am): can you give examples, or would that be too much?
psyclown02 (12:18:27 am): i get...
psyclown02 (12:18:33 am): sigh* u fonna be up later/
lloyddarkheartx (12:18:58 am): how later?
lloyddarkheartx (12:19:03 am): i'll be up for a bit
psyclown02 (12:19:27 am): 130am
lloyddarkheartx (12:19:56 am): sure, most likely
psyclown02 (12:20:07 am): k
psyclown02 (1:49:10 am): still up?
auto-response from lloyddarkheartx (1:49:10 am): wow is at hand!
the time is : 1:47:31 am on 8/12/2006. lloyddarkheartx (1:49:19 am): yeah
psyclown02 (1:49:24 am): mmm give it 20 mins?
lloyddarkheartx (1:50:14 am): kay
psyclown02 (2:01:52 am): anyway i dont think im going
lloyddarkheartx (2:02:05 am): allright, yer loss
lloyddarkheartx (2:02:10 am): or win, depending
psyclown02 (2:02:16 am): hrhr
psyclown02 (2:02:26 am): good wall's make good neighbors?
lloyddarkheartx (2:02:50 am): only if you can punch through them and rebuild it for
free afterwards
psyclown02 (2:03:06 am): .....
lloyddarkheartx (2:03:18 am): what?
lloyddarkheartx (2:03:22 am): frustration?
lloyddarkheartx (2:03:25 am): frying pans?
lloyddarkheartx (2:03:30 am): old monitors?
lloyddarkheartx (2:03:33 am): people?
psyclown02 (2:03:37 am): hehe nothing
psyclown02 (2:03:59 am): i may see you tomorrow i may not... and ur busy sunday...
u busy monday?
lloyddarkheartx (2:04:08 am): not sure
lloyddarkheartx (2:04:20 am): wednesday, yes though
lloyddarkheartx (2:04:29 am): most other days just come and go
psyclown02 (2:05:08 am): umm
psyclown02 (2:05:11 am): u busy sunday?
psyclown02 (2:05:15 am): moday is a maybe
psyclown02 (2:05:24 am): depending on if somebody else is bust
psyclown02 (2:05:26 am): busy*
lloyddarkheartx (2:05:30 am): sunday is a maybe here too
lloyddarkheartx (2:05:37 am): mwe's "party"
psyclown02 (2:05:48 am): ugh
psyclown02 (2:05:52 am): same damn reason i wouldnt be going
lloyddarkheartx (2:06:32 am): one favor i'd ask? name one of the worst people from
both parties. i just want to mull it over. no reason needed.
psyclown02 (2:06:46 am): worst?
psyclown02 (2:06:51 am): as in reason i dont want to go?
lloyddarkheartx (2:07:01 am): no, people
lloyddarkheartx (2:07:09 am): people are the reaon yer not going
lloyddarkheartx (2:07:12 am): right?>
psyclown02 (2:07:14 am): yes
psyclown02 (2:07:18 am): btu not the worst ones
psyclown02 (2:07:23 am): well...
lloyddarkheartx (2:07:36 am): doesn't ave to be worst
lloyddarkheartx (2:07:43 am): but you know what i mean.
psyclown02 (2:07:56 am): fucking jeff... /shoots self in head with frusteration
lloyddarkheartx (2:08:07 am): heh, he's why?
psyclown02 (2:08:13 am): ya
lloyddarkheartx (2:08:25 am): mm, that isn't suprising
psyclown02 (2:08:32 am): why not?
lloyddarkheartx (2:08:41 am): yer joking right?
lloyddarkheartx (2:08:52 am): jeff.
psyclown02 (2:08:57 am): do explain ur logic
lloyddarkheartx (2:08:59 am): think.
lloyddarkheartx (2:09:16 am): mull it over with mass amounts of people and his
personality.
psyclown02 (2:09:26 am): that isnt the problem
psyclown02 (2:09:37 am): its the afterword that i dont want... and some of the during
i guess
lloyddarkheartx (2:09:56 am): afterword of the party?
psyclown02 (2:10:00 am): mm hmmm
lloyddarkheartx (2:10:45 am): my logic is his asshole personality and the fact that
there's been something going on between the two of you for a week or so, that i
cann't decipher.
psyclown02 (2:10:53 am): lol a week?
psyclown02 (2:10:56 am): week?!
lloyddarkheartx (2:11:05 am): that's all i've seen of the trouble
psyclown02 (2:11:08 am): hehe
psyclown02 (2:11:12 am): try sense freshman year bud
lloyddarkheartx (2:11:15 am): ignore...problems
lloyddarkheartx (2:11:27 am): well...lets puit it this way
lloyddarkheartx (2:11:40 am): people can mask things up well.
lloyddarkheartx (2:11:44 am): you are one of them
psyclown02 (2:11:50 am): and jeff is another.
psyclown02 (2:11:53 am): i know that well
lloyddarkheartx (2:11:55 am): yes.
psyclown02 (2:12:17 am): meh i'll give you the same deal i gave joe
psyclown02 (2:12:20 am): if you want to know ill tell you
psyclown02 (2:12:24 am): just pick date/place
psyclown02 (2:12:31 am): but its a long story
lloyddarkheartx (2:12:55 am): does it have to be future and not present told?
psyclown02 (2:13:03 am): as in can u pick now?
lloyddarkheartx (2:13:17 am): you catch on quick at 2 am
lloyddarkheartx (2:13:26 am): woo
psyclown02 (2:13:29 am): meh brain on overdrive :p
lloyddarkheartx (2:13:31 am): extra slice of pizza
lloyddarkheartx (2:13:40 am): found one, that is
psyclown02 (2:13:40 am): oh btw
lloyddarkheartx (2:13:43 am): mm?
psyclown02 (2:13:49 am): jeff stopped by with mike at 10 pm tonite
psyclown02 (2:13:55 am): til about 1130
lloyddarkheartx (2:14:08 am): talk about random
psyclown02 (2:14:12 am): not really
lloyddarkheartx (2:14:17 am): for me
psyclown02 (2:14:18 am): i said mike could come over and he dragged jeff
lloyddarkheartx (2:14:22 am): ahhhh
psyclown02 (2:14:28 am): still thinking if you can ask now or not
lloyddarkheartx (2:14:28 am): (brothers, bleh0
lloyddarkheartx (2:14:36 am): oh, i know i can
lloyddarkheartx (2:14:48 am): it all depends on wether or not you tell me
lloyddarkheartx (2:15:03 am): ah
lloyddarkheartx (2:15:08 am): before you decide
psyclown02 (2:15:09 am): seeing as how justin is sitting right behind me playing with
some plunger/broom invention
lloyddarkheartx (2:15:17 am): never mind
psyclown02 (2:15:18 am): im deciding weather or not i want to deal with that
lloyddarkheartx (2:15:34 am): multitask time!
lloyddarkheartx (2:15:45 am): can you tell a story while fending off a broom?
psyclown02 (2:15:51 am): more of a plunger
lloyddarkheartx (2:15:53 am): oh, what is the highest iq and yours?
lloyddarkheartx (2:16:01 am): plungerize me cappin!
psyclown02 (2:16:10 am): highest human iq?
lloyddarkheartx (2:16:14 am): hai
psyclown02 (2:16:17 am): einstein was expected to be aound 212
psyclown02 (2:16:27 am): mine is just below genuis lvel (140)
lloyddarkheartx (2:16:29 am): average?
psyclown02 (2:16:32 am): 100
lloyddarkheartx (2:16:37 am): heh, 120 here
psyclown02 (2:16:39 am): 150 is like... wow
lloyddarkheartx (2:16:54 am): maybe i'm just a late bird
lloyddarkheartx (2:16:59 am): took it at 11
psyclown02 (2:17:12 am): intarnet test?
lloyddarkheartx (2:17:20 am): yeah
psyclown02 (2:17:33 am): doesnt count
psyclown02 (2:17:37 am): i payed 150$ for mine
lloyddarkheartx (2:17:56 am): yeah...the dollar sign is on the left...and yer on
overdrive
psyclown02 (2:18:11 am): i was just gona say dollars
psyclown02 (2:18:35 am): ugh still thinking
psyclown02 (2:18:43 am): ... hmm wanna know in da mornin?
lloyddarkheartx (2:19:02 am): not really...gonna leave in the mornin and you may not
be up before the time i leave
lloyddarkheartx (2:19:12 am): but it all depends on when too
psyclown02 (2:19:13 am): when u leaving?
lloyddarkheartx (2:19:21 am): not sure, that's why
psyclown02 (2:19:25 am): abgoot when
lloyddarkheartx (2:19:36 am): what?
psyclown02 (2:19:43 am): aboot when*
psyclown02 (2:20:39 am): and for where?
lloyddarkheartx (2:20:56 am): about when and where am i going?
psyclown02 (2:21:00 am): chya
lloyddarkheartx (2:21:12 am): i hurt you south park man
lloyddarkheartx (2:21:20 am): (and canadian man)
psyclown02 (2:21:23 am): what?
lloyddarkheartx (2:21:26 am): yes
lloyddarkheartx (2:21:59 am): prolly do all of the upcoming school shoppin tomorrow,
so we'll leave in the mornin before it gets hot
psyclown02 (2:22:05 am): ah
psyclown02 (2:22:13 am): then onto kelseys?
lloyddarkheartx (2:22:26 am): yeah
psyclown02 (2:23:03 am): well
psyclown02 (2:23:07 am): how late u wanna stay up tonite?
psyclown02 (2:23:10 am): cause i can fake going to bed
psyclown02 (2:23:14 am): then justin will
psyclown02 (2:23:17 am): and i can get back on compy
lloyddarkheartx (2:23:23 am): how long will that take?
psyclown02 (2:23:26 am): 20 mins?
lloyddarkheartx (2:23:29 am): sure
psyclown02 (2:23:34 am): k be back in 20 mins
lloyddarkheartx (2:23:36 am): i'm out of foda though
psyclown02 (2:23:40 am): lol
psyclown02 (2:23:42 am): workin on it
psyclown02 (2:23:45 am): cya in 20
lloyddarkheartx (2:23:48 am): luck to you
psyclown02 (2:37:49 am): back
lloyddarkheartx (2:38:06 am): fast, you be
lloyddarkheartx (2:38:11 am): nto even 20
psyclown02 (2:38:34 am): usefull having a couch outside of comp room for them to
sleep on
lloyddarkheartx (2:38:48 am): oh, so thats what i'm there for, eh?! =p
psyclown02 (2:38:54 am): always
lloyddarkheartx (2:38:56 am): <3
psyclown02 (2:39:36 am): ok
psyclown02 (2:39:47 am): so 8th grade i was fine, stupid, and careless
psyclown02 (2:40:02 am): never thought about anything and didnt give a care in the
world
psyclown02 (2:40:17 am): had a bunch of idiotic philisophies too
lloyddarkheartx (2:40:31 am): grats?
psyclown02 (2:40:39 am): anyway 9th grade i meet jeff first day
psyclown02 (2:41:07 am): i end up sitting behind him and of corse being me...
me- "you got a pencil?"
"thanks" ...
...
... "you got paper?"
lloyddarkheartx (2:41:24 am): nice
psyclown02 (2:41:48 am): anyway so he ends up takeing 50 cents a day from me for
school supplies and we become his idea of friends
psyclown02 (2:42:27 am): he comes over once or oso a month and things are fine...
lloyddarkheartx (2:42:49 am): to yer house?
lloyddarkheartx (2:43:00 am): (keep typing and i'll enter after you finish)
psyclown02 (2:43:13 am): cept, cause he's jeff, he's alot less ... frequent about it
psyclown02 (2:43:18 am): wich is just stupid
psyclown02 (2:43:21 am): anyway
psyclown02 (2:43:55 am): so then ..... i think it was during that summer me and him
start talking a lil more... whats the word... openly
psyclown02 (2:44:21 am): and he starts hiding things. so being my nosey self i wan
tto find out
psyclown02 (2:44:43 am): he says he has to trust me... well it just so happens that
they day before that i made up a myspace blog...
psyclown02 (2:44:59 am): (oh also he said trust was a "give and take" and i hadnt
trusted him with anything)
psyclown02 (2:45:14 am): oh also
psyclown02 (2:45:19 am): forgot to introduce karen into things
lloyddarkheartx (2:45:34 am): ooh, and i know a little, horray.
lloyddarkheartx (2:45:44 am): but, continue
psyclown02 (2:45:45 am): yaya ur gonna know much more
psyclown02 (2:46:06 am): so i was semi friends with karen didnt really care that
much cause she wasnt all that fun
psyclown02 (2:46:49 am): she reds the blog the day i post it cause it happened to be
about how somebody was kinda invading my brain (i really liked somebody and ya.)
psyclown02 (2:47:15 am): and she goes "aww well you wont tell me now but whoever
it is ill help" and i just kinda go whatever....
psyclown02 (2:47:23 am): so jeff reads it, he thinks the blog is about karen
psyclown02 (2:47:28 am): (you getting picture yet?)
lloyddarkheartx (2:47:54 am): so, let me summarize
lloyddarkheartx (2:47:58 am): (so far)
lloyddarkheartx (2:51:09 am): you and jeff met on the first day, charged you for
excessive use(only word for now) of supplies. he starts hiding things, you want to find
out, but he says that he can't trust you yet. then, the day after you set up the blog,
jef reads your blog thinking its karen who wrote it? (capsed for convienience)
psyclown02 (2:52:09 am): he thought it was karen who the blog was about
psyclown02 (2:52:25 am): twas a very emo blog
psyclown02 (2:53:21 am): a "i really like somebody and it fucking sucks" blog.
karen finds out who it was refering to with assistance from me
lloyddarkheartx (2:53:38 am): /sigh
lloyddarkheartx (2:53:43 am): hold on
lloyddarkheartx (2:54:18 am): who wrote the blog
lloyddarkheartx (2:54:20 am): ?
psyclown02 (2:54:21 am): me
lloyddarkheartx (2:54:50 am): and this was you writing about her...or?
psyclown02 (2:54:57 am): im tellin the story
psyclown02 (2:55:48 am): i assist karen in finding out who it was by point out the fact
that when i wrote it... whenever i reffered to the subject... i replaced the subject (of
the blog) with a ____
psyclown02 (2:56:06 am): the part she didnt get was that i also repalaced the
pronouns (the ones that refered to the subject of the blog) with a _____
psyclown02 (2:56:34 am): i pointed that out and she got it fast
lloyddarkheartx (2:57:19 am): "and this was you writing about her...or?"
lloyddarkheartx (2:57:26 am): was that right?
psyclown02 (2:57:38 am): now why would i replace pronouns when writing about
her?
psyclown02 (2:57:42 am): her is a pronoun; and one i dont need to replace
psyclown02 (2:57:54 am): but there is also a antithesis to the word her wich is also a
pronoun
psyclown02 (2:58:12 am): an*
psyclown02 (2:58:52 am): comon
psyclown02 (2:58:58 am): use the brain
lloyddarkheartx (2:58:59 am): i get it
psyclown02 (2:59:03 am): there ya go
lloyddarkheartx (2:59:15 am): karen read it thinking you were talking about jeff,
which was reversed
psyclown02 (2:59:24 am): er....
psyclown02 (2:59:29 am): no
psyclown02 (2:59:34 am): jeff was wrong
psyclown02 (2:59:37 am): and karen was right
lloyddarkheartx (3:00:14 am): karen knew the pronoun was "her" and jeff thought the
pronoun was "him"?
lloyddarkheartx (3:00:17 am): yes?
lloyddarkheartx (3:00:30 am): it's almost 3 w/o caffiene, sorry
psyclown02 (3:01:00 am): edit to correction
lloyddarkheartx (3:00:14 am): karen knew the pronoun was "him" and jeff thought
the pronoun was "her"
lloyddarkheartx (3:01:20 am): continue the story
lloyddarkheartx (3:01:31 am): you put me in a hole w/o a ladder
lloyddarkheartx (3:01:44 am): i understand, but it leads nowhere
psyclown02 (3:02:10 am): karen read it naturally assuming the pronoun was her, as
did jeff, beause in sentances like "i just wish i could tell ___" you naturally read it that
way
lloyddarkheartx (3:02:27 am): yeah, as i did, until i thought.
psyclown02 (3:02:42 am): so i had to bring krens attention of "why couldnt i (me) just
say her?"
psyclown02 (3:02:54 am): and there is only 1 reason for that
psyclown02 (3:03:08 am): must i spell it out for you? iw ould prefer not to
lloyddarkheartx (3:03:51 am): i'll try and spell it...it helps me
lloyddarkheartx (3:04:05 am): wait...were they in a 'relationship' then?
psyclown02 (3:04:14 am): umm no
lloyddarkheartx (3:05:14 am): i think you'll have to spell it...or give me parts if you
insist on not spelling
psyclown02 (3:05:43 am): im trying to get you to realize who the "someone" in this "i
like someone and it really sucks" blog was
psyclown02 (3:06:01 am): i used underscores to reffer to this someone even when
pronouns could have been used
psyclown02 (3:06:12 am): and i did it for a reason
psyclown02 (3:06:36 am): lloyddarkheartx (3:00:14 am): karen knew the pronoun
was "him" and jeff thought the pronoun was "her"
psyclown02 (3:06:46 am): and that should be all you need
psyclown02 (3:07:07 am): 120 iq isnt that bad
lloyddarkheartx (3:07:34 am): at three with no caffiene, you'd be suprised if i did
anything but robot movement
lloyddarkheartx (3:07:47 am): i'm actually putting forth effort now
lloyddarkheartx (3:07:59 am): let it sit for a bit
psyclown02 (3:08:24 am): it done yet?
lloyddarkheartx (3:08:43 am): define "like", in this scenario. a bit general for this
hour.
lloyddarkheartx (3:08:54 am): (i kept hitting the / key when i wanted a period)
psyclown02 (3:08:59 am): sort of close to a crush but a lil more
psyclown02 (3:09:04 am): at that point in time
psyclown02 (3:10:34 am): get it yet?
lloyddarkheartx (3:11:24 am): my thoughts:
lloyddarkheartx (3:11:44 am): waaaahhhhh
psyclown02 (3:11:55 am): thats on the right track
psyclown02 (3:12:00 am): keep goin
lloyddarkheartx (3:12:00 am): i come up with a theory and then look back at this line:
lloyddarkheartx (3:12:12 am): karen knew the pronoun was "him" and jeff thought
the pronoun was "her"
lloyddarkheartx (3:12:20 am): then the thory goes boom
psyclown02 (3:12:26 am): what was theory?
lloyddarkheartx (3:12:50 am): the theory that you really didn't want to reveal who or
what it was that you were posting in that blog
psyclown02 (3:12:57 am): well that was true
psyclown02 (3:13:05 am): almost
psyclown02 (3:13:15 am): i intende to reveal it to karen and jeff
lloyddarkheartx (3:13:23 am): but...?
psyclown02 (3:13:24 am): but i couldnt just flat out tell them
psyclown02 (3:13:32 am): much like i cant just flat out tell u
lloyddarkheartx (3:13:32 am): just not you?
lloyddarkheartx (3:13:38 am): (grrrrr)
lloyddarkheartx (3:13:46 am): so, i'm trying to guess who?
psyclown02 (3:13:46 am): im leaving so many hints
psyclown02 (3:13:57 am): ya pretty much
psyclown02 (3:14:18 am): and considering that only 3 ppl are in the story.. the 3rd i
almost forgot to introduce....
lloyddarkheartx (3:14:26 am): grr.
psyclown02 (3:14:31 am): and
psyclown02 (3:14:34 am): this line exists
psyclown02 (3:14:35 am): karen knew the pronoun was "him" and jeff thought the
pronoun was "her"
psyclown02 (3:15:01 am): see the "knew" and the "thought"?
lloyddarkheartx (3:15:13 am): thoughts:
lloyddarkheartx (3:15:23 am): jeff read this, right?
lloyddarkheartx (3:15:47 am): jeff thought you were talking about karen, right?
psyclown02 (3:15:57 am): keep goin
lloyddarkheartx (3:16:15 am): and karen knew that you were writing about jeff.
lloyddarkheartx (3:16:19 am): point?
psyclown02 (3:16:41 am): question: would you have concluded that any gaster had
we been doing this at a normal hour?
lloyddarkheartx (3:17:02 am): rephrase that.
psyclown02 (3:17:21 am): would you have realized that any faster?
lloyddarkheartx (3:17:26 am): mind you, my will is keeping me awake, i pulled an all
nighter, only had 1 hour of sleep.
lloyddarkheartx (3:17:33 am): i realized that in the beginning.
lloyddarkheartx (3:17:41 am): when you first spouted that line.
psyclown02 (3:17:50 am): you would have saved us alot of time
lloyddarkheartx (3:17:54 am): when you corrected my line.
lloyddarkheartx (3:18:01 am): not my fault?
psyclown02 (3:18:10 am): now for rest of story
psyclown02 (3:18:20 am): so i end up having to correct jeff
psyclown02 (3:18:28 am): just like i had to correct you just now
psyclown02 (3:19:01 am): and jeff gets to realize "hey danny likes me" but he
assures me nothing will change
psyclown02 (3:19:23 am): well the problem with that is ... i became.... whats the
word
psyclown02 (3:19:35 am): dependant? on him....
lloyddarkheartx (3:19:40 am): huh?
lloyddarkheartx (3:19:48 am): how?
psyclown02 (3:20:11 am): by sophmore year i didnt care about anything but him...
not friends... not family... nothing
lloyddarkheartx (3:20:26 am): why?
lloyddarkheartx (3:20:35 am): that hasn';t been awnsered.
psyclown02 (3:20:49 am): cause thats just kinda what happened
lloyddarkheartx (3:21:13 am): dependant on him for what? there is a medium here.
psyclown02 (3:21:22 am): idk
psyclown02 (3:21:29 am): i just wanted to be around him
psyclown02 (3:21:31 am): all the time
psyclown02 (3:21:52 am): but of corse we know jeff doesnt like being around the
same person very long ever
psyclown02 (3:22:02 am): thats 1/2 of what fucked everything
lloyddarkheartx (3:22:14 am): summary:
lloyddarkheartx (3:23:17 am): you wrote the blog. jeff was confused and karen got a
bingo. you corrected jeff. jeff knew you were his friend. jeff's true personality is shown
and...(personal question coming)
lloyddarkheartx (3:23:27 am): were the amount of friends an issue then?
psyclown02 (3:23:49 am): rephrase ur last question
lloyddarkheartx (3:24:25 am): did you not have many friends sophmore year or
somethin?
psyclown02 (3:24:31 am): no i had plenty
psyclown02 (3:25:19 am): u get that i was in love with him? if it's a simple crush you
can usually deal with the object of said crush not knowing... but it was a little
different
lloyddarkheartx (3:25:49 am): allright, i get it.
psyclown02 (3:25:55 am): the amount of friends i had was not an issue
psyclown02 (3:26:06 am): i had tyler pat all my friends from middle school
lloyddarkheartx (3:26:07 am): its when the good one strays and you can't get it back.
psyclown02 (3:26:21 am): lol i was never interested in getting anythin
lloyddarkheartx (3:26:40 am): that was a phrase, not the actual truth
psyclown02 (3:26:44 am): i had my other friends but didnt care about them
psyclown02 (3:27:04 am): i just wanted to be around jeff... so i ended up annoying
the fuck out of him
psyclown02 (3:27:11 am): thats 1/2 of what fucked everything
psyclown02 (3:27:19 am): then theres summer of freshman year
lloyddarkheartx (3:27:19 am): now we have a whole
psyclown02 (3:27:30 am): summer of freshman year he met kara
lloyddarkheartx (3:27:43 am): byebye closeness, hello distance
psyclown02 (3:27:48 am): nope
psyclown02 (3:27:50 am): not yet
psyclown02 (3:28:14 am): kara's story that jeff wanted to keep hidden from
everybody....everybody that is.. but karen
psyclown02 (3:28:23 am): (who in turn told me as a favor)
psyclown02 (3:28:38 am): was that kara had somebody she really liked (the name i
later learned was victor) but he was in texas
psyclown02 (3:28:52 am): victor knew that jeff liked kara and threatened to kill jeff
psyclown02 (3:29:35 am): but because kara was... physical love deprived... when jeff
asked kara out she said sure
lloyddarkheartx (3:29:37 am): (that you told me)
psyclown02 (3:29:59 am): so jeff hinted to me that somthing was wrong
lloyddarkheartx (3:29:59 am): by the way
lloyddarkheartx (3:31:16 am): he knew that jeff liked kara and threatened to kill jeff
lloyddarkheartx (3:31:18 am): that worked
lloyddarkheartx (3:32:33 am): got it, back on track, continue
psyclown02 (3:32:34 am): so victor knew that jeff liked kara and threatened to kill jeff
psyclown02 (3:32:43 am): jeff told me this much
lloyddarkheartx (3:32:47 am): just continue from the last point
psyclown02 (3:33:03 am): of corse i wanted to offer help but he was not giving me
information
psyclown02 (3:33:22 am): what jeff wouldnt tell me
psyclown02 (3:33:36 am): is weather or not kara wanted victor, or jeff
psyclown02 (3:33:44 am): so i beg for that information...
lloyddarkheartx (3:33:50 am): (begged)
psyclown02 (3:33:54 am): and he just said fuck off in caps everytime
psyclown02 (3:34:01 am): and then i would get ignored for about 10 min (begging
done thru wow chat usually)
psyclown02 (3:34:23 am): (ya thats when i started doing the whole /wrists thing)
psyclown02 (3:35:05 am): so jeff was making me work blindly and telling karen
everything wich... hurt like fuck. because karen was a good friend
psyclown02 (3:35:12 am): of mine
lloyddarkheartx (3:35:21 am): pause
lloyddarkheartx (3:35:23 am): summary
psyclown02 (3:35:32 am): i told u it was long
lloyddarkheartx (3:35:40 am): i know, thats why i keep summarizing
lloyddarkheartx (3:35:49 am): makes it easier to digest
lloyddarkheartx (3:36:18 am): kara had a boyfriend in texas, but was love deprived
so, she went out with jeff
lloyddarkheartx (3:36:25 am): cont)
psyclown02 (3:36:34 am): jeff wanted to help kara (ara was kind of afraid of victor
but still infatuated with him)
lloyddarkheartx (3:37:03 am): victor found out and threatened to kill. jeff wouldn't tell
you wether kara liked victor or jeff, but was telling karen all of this (wich as i said... at
the time just ate me up inside)
lloyddarkheartx (3:37:17 am): good, continue
psyclown02 (3:37:26 am): everytime i would try to say anything related to this i
wouldget put on ignore
lloyddarkheartx (3:37:37 am): from then up to present?
psyclown02 (3:37:46 am): story is still long
lloyddarkheartx (3:37:56 am): no, the ignore thing.
psyclown02 (3:38:02 am): story is still long
lloyddarkheartx (3:38:05 am): kay
lloyddarkheartx (3:38:07 am): gogop
psyclown02 (3:38:10 am): and i have ups and downs with important events in both
psyclown02 (3:38:39 am): so at about that point i told jeff to find out if she loves him
so i could advise him further (and tell him to ask her a few other things)
psyclown02 (3:38:51 am): so he calls her up....
psyclown02 (3:39:06 am): and then comes back saying "so i asked her your
questions..."
psyclown02 (3:39:11 am): i reply with "and"
psyclown02 (3:39:16 am): he says "thats not for your ears"
lloyddarkheartx (3:39:25 am): ...
psyclown02 (3:39:27 am): you have any idea how frusterating that is?
psyclown02 (3:39:31 am): any idea?
lloyddarkheartx (3:39:34 am): yes.
lloyddarkheartx (3:39:42 am): i do that to people and get it constantly.
psyclown02 (3:40:05 am): when you care about somebody as much as i do him... it
feels great when they say that youcan do somthing for them... then just as i started
he ripped it away... that provoked alot of... uber death emoness for about 2 weeks
psyclown02 (3:40:16 am): so i spend 2 hours on the phone and pry it from him
(kara's reply to his questions, mostly finding out if she really feels somthing for him
as opposed to victor)
psyclown02 (3:41:00 am): he says "we started talking about pointelss things..."
(refering to him and kara)
i reply "and?"
him: "she says... 'im going to go call victor' and hangs up"
lloyddarkheartx (3:41:31 am): ~pause~
lloyddarkheartx (3:41:38 am): timeframe, if possible?
psyclown02 (3:41:47 am): middle soph year
lloyddarkheartx (3:41:50 am): before or after spoh playathon?
psyclown02 (3:41:51 am): post soph playathon
psyclown02 (3:42:02 am): about 3 months
lloyddarkheartx (3:42:26 am): and karen gettin upset was about...i remember she
confided a bit in me, but not enough for me to remember it all...
psyclown02 (3:42:41 am): she was also in love wit hjeff
psyclown02 (3:42:46 am): but..
lloyddarkheartx (3:42:48 am): *nods*
psyclown02 (3:42:50 am): she had everyhitn i wanted (she was his confidaunt, friend
etc.)
psyclown02 (3:42:53 am): and she was content with it
psyclown02 (3:43:01 am): just as i would have been
psyclown02 (3:43:18 am): but all i got were... well nothing... while i watched her get
everything
lloyddarkheartx (3:43:26 am): her is who?
psyclown02 (3:43:29 am): karen
psyclown02 (3:43:35 am): jeff was confiding in her
lloyddarkheartx (3:43:36 am): get everything?
psyclown02 (3:43:42 am): i told him that i would be much better at it
lloyddarkheartx (3:43:46 am): *understands now*
psyclown02 (3:44:02 am): and when i askhim to use me the reason he isnt was, "she
has a vagina"
lloyddarkheartx (3:44:10 am): summary time
lloyddarkheartx (3:44:14 am): rest the ahnds
lloyddarkheartx (3:44:53 am): jeff talks to kara, with the questions you had...doesn't
tell you, but confides in karen 100% and the only reason that he goes to her is
because she "has a vagina"
psyclown02 (3:45:03 am): btw
psyclown02 (3:45:05 am): in the end
psyclown02 (3:45:09 am): that ends up fuckign him over
psyclown02 (3:45:12 am): but we'll get to that
lloyddarkheartx (3:45:35 am): the "vagina"?
psyclown02 (3:45:49 am): the fact that he used karen instead of me
psyclown02 (3:45:59 am): and no i dont like the fact that he screwed himself
completely by using the wrong person and following the wrong advice. i wish every
damn day that karen would have advised him correctly
psyclown02 (3:46:23 am): where were we/
lloyddarkheartx (3:46:42 am): vagina.
lloyddarkheartx (3:46:47 am): continue
psyclown02 (3:47:00 am): we got way off track
lloyddarkheartx (3:47:10 am): calling victor says kara
psyclown02 (3:47:16 am): ah
psyclown02 (3:47:54 am): so awhile after that any many attempts for me to pry
things out of him using "i love you and i would be able to turn everything yourway if
you would jsut let me" as an excuse...
psyclown02 (3:48:15 am): he informs me that im not to mention kara again
psyclown02 (3:48:23 am): (i dont know kara at this point)
psyclown02 (3:49:03 am): i say fine and for about 3 months we are normal friends....
well... i find out later that kara told him they were never talking again
lloyddarkheartx (3:49:47 am): keep typing
psyclown02 (3:50:02 am): btw jeff claims to have these "walls" around his heart
lloyddarkheartx (3:50:05 am): who wasn't talking again? jeff and kara? or vicotr and
kara?
psyclown02 (3:50:11 am): jeff and kara
lloyddarkheartx (3:50:14 am): walls my ass
psyclown02 (3:50:21 am): those break later in the story
lloyddarkheartx (3:50:42 am): continue, please.
psyclown02 (3:51:11 am): then 3 months later kara calls him back.... they start
talking... victor broke her heart and jeff eventually asks her out again...
psyclown02 (3:51:15 am): she says ok out of pity
psyclown02 (3:51:22 am): because she knows he really likes her
psyclown02 (3:51:36 am): i am happy for him finally....
psyclown02 (3:51:42 am): but.. i always kept tabs on jeff
psyclown02 (3:51:53 am): knew where he was going and when.. that kinda thing
psyclown02 (3:51:58 am): just so i could identify lies
lloyddarkheartx (3:52:00 am): (creepy?)
lloyddarkheartx (3:52:04 am): heh
psyclown02 (3:52:10 am): (not like every hour of the day)
psyclown02 (3:52:12 am): but on trips
psyclown02 (3:52:13 am): and things
psyclown02 (3:52:10 am): and mostly to identify when he makes up some bullshit
excuse so i can know when to back off
lloyddarkheartx (3:52:36 am): i tend to take everyhting out of context in my mind
and put it into 20 different scenarios
lloyddarkheartx (3:52:41 am): you know that
psyclown02 (3:53:05 am): so jeff say's he's busy one day
psyclown02 (3:53:10 am): and i get a feeling that its kara...
psyclown02 (3:53:25 am): oh and he sent me this... one of those things i pried
psyclown02 (3:53:28 am): lemme find
lloyddarkheartx (3:53:48 am): what is it?
psyclown02 (3:54:03 am): i had to take it out of code
psyclown02 (3:54:31 am): cant find it but it was a conversation between him and
kara
psyclown02 (3:54:34 am): or a part of one...
psyclown02 (3:54:48 am): where she was saying ppl use her and she wanted a
lobotmy so she could not care
lloyddarkheartx (3:55:01 am): is that the jist?
psyclown02 (3:55:25 am): and jeff basically said if you would get that i would prefer
the same
lloyddarkheartx (3:55:41 am): *awwwwww8
lloyddarkheartx (3:55:44 am): *barffff*
psyclown02 (3:55:48 am): so he keeps trickling this information about kara to me...
but the thing he sent me had her screen name on it
psyclown02 (3:55:58 am): and not barf, thats how he really felt
psyclown02 (3:56:02 am): ...ass
psyclown02 (3:56:12 am): but i promised i would never use her screen name (as in
contact her)
psyclown02 (3:56:29 am): one day i wanted to check somthing and she was only one
i could contact so i did...
psyclown02 (3:56:39 am): but idiotically i told karen that...
psyclown02 (3:56:45 am): and karen is in love with jeff.. so
lloyddarkheartx (3:56:51 am): oh shit.
lloyddarkheartx (3:56:55 am): shit hit the fan
psyclown02 (3:57:13 am): jeff says i went to far
psyclown02 (3:57:21 am): wich maybe i did but i just wanted to help him
psyclown02 (3:57:35 am): and jeff goes into ignoring me mode #2
lloyddarkheartx (3:57:39 am): summary time
lloyddarkheartx (4:00:18 am): after kara calls victor, jeff and kara stop talking. 3 mos
later, kara calls him back and out of pity, goes out with him again. you kept tabs, like
you normally do, the major things anyway. after getting a im session, you messaged
kara, because she was the only one on(what did you say?) and karen told jeff
because she was in love with him. you went too far says jeff and you get ingored for
a bit again
lloyddarkheartx (4:00:21 am): that was long.
psyclown02 (4:01:10 am): anyway i back off for awhile and jeff starts talking to me
again
psyclown02 (4:01:15 am): not nearly as much tho
psyclown02 (4:01:41 am): so then one day post this year playathon kara tells me she
cant stand jeff anymore
lloyddarkheartx (4:02:06 am): so, this was after the junior playaton whenabouts?
psyclown02 (4:02:15 am): 3 months?
psyclown02 (4:02:20 am): rob was coming over then
lloyddarkheartx (4:02:23 am): about winter
psyclown02 (4:02:27 am): and started talking with her
psyclown02 (4:02:37 am): no a lil before then i guess...
psyclown02 (4:02:54 am): ill get exact memorized dates in a few more events
psyclown02 (4:03:16 am): so sehe tells me she wants to break up wtih jeff...
lloyddarkheartx (4:03:23 am): she*?
psyclown02 (4:03:32 am): and she also tells me she wants to make it so he makes
me happy instead of treating me like shit
lloyddarkheartx (4:03:45 am): *gasp*?
psyclown02 (4:03:58 am): i told her not to bother...
psyclown02 (4:04:08 am): so she decides to do it at my house...
psyclown02 (4:04:59 am): on the eve of feburary the 11th (a friday) jeff calls me and
says "apperently me rob and kara are crashing your house tomorrow" and i act
surprised
psyclown02 (4:05:03 am): (im a great actor)
lloyddarkheartx (4:05:20 am): i know...romeo.
lloyddarkheartx (4:05:23 am): =o
psyclown02 (4:05:24 am): ....
psyclown02 (4:05:26 am): ...
lloyddarkheartx (4:05:28 am): shh
lloyddarkheartx (4:05:31 am): gogo
psyclown02 (4:05:35 am): what do you know that i didnt want you to know?
psyclown02 (4:06:06 am): that word has some significance at the very end of this
story... but ok ill leave it be
lloyddarkheartx (4:06:20 am): actor?
psyclown02 (4:06:39 am): so that day they come over
psyclown02 (4:07:00 am): everything is fine and kara said she was going to end with
kissing rob and walking our
psyclown02 (4:07:02 am): out*
psyclown02 (4:07:13 am): of corse leaving me alone wth a broken spirit and hearted
jeff
psyclown02 (4:07:37 am): so as she starts doing it kara really starts ripping hima new
one
psyclown02 (4:07:48 am): going you try to lauigh everything off and i cant stand it
psyclown02 (4:07:51 am): you are so fake
psyclown02 (4:08:03 am): jeff was begging her to go outside and talk about it
psyclown02 (4:08:19 am): she wouldnt do it and i couldnt stand it anymotr so i went
into my room and sat on my bbed
psyclown02 (4:08:48 am): i heard her slam the door after really breaking him... and i
was 1/2 crying
psyclown02 (4:08:56 am): jeff comes in slowly pretending to be ok
psyclown02 (4:09:05 am): i look at him and say "stop faking it"
psyclown02 (4:09:13 am): he goes "im not faking it at all"
psyclown02 (4:09:28 am): when i can just look at his eyes and know when he is in
pain
psyclown02 (4:10:07 am): he just wnts to make sure kara is getting home.. i inform
him that "she's smart she probably has a ride already waiting... she probably had this
planend sense this is the first time she has been over heere" (i knew exactly where
she was and was going to do)
psyclown02 (4:10:18 am): but jeff insists that we go look for them
psyclown02 (4:10:23 am): this is at night
lloyddarkheartx (4:10:29 am): how late?
psyclown02 (4:10:36 am): so we go down my street and look toward marshall
psyclown02 (4:10:43 am): we see them way down there (kara and rob)
psyclown02 (4:10:54 am): oh btw she kissed rob and walked out with him
psyclown02 (4:11:26 am): and the entire time they were here rob was like holding
her. i had to sit thru watching jefff try not to wince at that and not wince at it myself..
it wasnt easy
psyclown02 (4:11:56 am): anyway so jeff wants to walk down almost to marshall and
i tell him to go and i would wait for him on the stairs outside of my arartments...
psyclown02 (4:12:07 am): then wehen we get back in karen calls
psyclown02 (4:12:17 am): (jeff never found them)
psyclown02 (4:12:38 am): he asks to talk to her and i hear him say "ill tell you when i
get home.. be up"
psyclown02 (4:12:58 am): wich of corse makes me visibily wince
psyclown02 (4:13:17 am): we walk into my room and jeff is still trying to keep it cool
and show no emotion
psyclown02 (4:13:24 am): cause its me.. he cant show emotion around me (thats a
kind of depressed sarcasim)
psyclown02 (4:13:33 am): knife in head
psyclown02 (4:13:47 am): anyway so while hes sitting with his fist against the wall
thinking..
psyclown02 (4:13:52 am): he punches a hole in my wall
psyclown02 (4:14:18 am): he had said he was okay earlier so i look at him after he
punches the wall adnd say "ya, you look okay"
psyclown02 (4:14:27 am): he replies "i had to do somthing"
psyclown02 (4:14:34 am): then he sits in my computer chair...
psyclown02 (4:14:41 am): and starts blasting music...
psyclown02 (4:14:53 am): turns it down and starts talking about justin au!
lloyddarkheartx (4:15:08 am): quoi?!
lloyddarkheartx (4:15:11 am): au?
psyclown02 (4:15:33 am): but he starts talking about how asian justins family is and
tears start rolling down his cheecks and goes "im in tears cause i want his familty so
much"
psyclown02 (4:15:50 am): i just look at him and say sarcastically "im sure thats
exactly what those tears are from (thats the only time i've seen him cry... and i
couldnt do a damn thing about it... god i'll never forget that feeling)
psyclown02 (4:16:04 am): he goes "really do you have any idea how asian his familty
is?"
lloyddarkheartx (4:16:38 am): i ahve a question.
psyclown02 (4:16:47 am): what?
lloyddarkheartx (4:16:58 am): do you know if he wants a future family?
psyclown02 (4:17:06 am): he isnt thinking about it
lloyddarkheartx (4:17:09 am): and how asian was kara
psyclown02 (4:17:14 am): pretty damn
lloyddarkheartx (4:17:14 am): nevermind
lloyddarkheartx (4:17:39 am): sorry, psyche brain invading and talking over
lloyddarkheartx (4:17:44 am): taking*
psyclown02 (4:17:53 am): so he leaves and fucking karen marches over to his house
the next day and when me and her are taking a walk together she goes "i checked
his wrrists made sure he was okay that kind of thing"
psyclown02 (4:18:04 am): do you have any idea how much all i wanted to do was
make him feel better!
psyclown02 (4:18:07 am): any fucking idea
lloyddarkheartx (4:18:23 am): heh...you sound like me.
lloyddarkheartx (4:18:31 am): in a different way
psyclown02 (4:18:41 am): so a lil later i talk to kara
psyclown02 (4:18:49 am): and jeff said he sent her an email
psyclown02 (4:18:51 am): this email
lloyddarkheartx (4:19:27 am): yer sending it via file, yes?
psyclown02 (4:19:39 am): be ready to read
lloyddarkheartx (4:19:47 am): ready and waitin
psyclown02 (4:19:50 am): get unaway
psyclown02 (4:18:33 am): >kara,
>
>i love you its plain and simple. i can't change this fact nor do i wish
to.
> people have told me that i truly do love you for what i have done for
you
>and what i will still do for you. so read this letter with your heart.
>
>you know what i have wished for in this relationship we have had kara.
all
>i ever wanted was you love, caring, and kindness which is what i gave to
you.
>i never yelled at you i never hurt you and i will try never to do either.
>but one thing i do not want is for you to throw this all away. i realize
you
>do this for my own good and some of yours but are you ready to throw it
away.
> you put so much trust into me you told me your secrets... your past and
i
>keep those secrets. but i worked so hard for that trust kara and you
gave it
>to me. you gave me your trust because i was the only one you trusted
with it.
> do you want to throw that away? i don?? want you to.
>
>you hope that by doing this.. cutting me off that i will forget about you
and
>you the same about me. but kara that won?? happen. you want me to
stop
>loving you which is something i won?? do. i know that you don?? love
me the
>same way i love you or you did at one point and it is no more. i have
>accepted that fact kara...this past month i distanced myself as far away
from you as
>possible. i was letting go as best as one in love can. but you know in
your
>heart kara you can?? let go of that love. i think that you still love
victor
>somewhat and he you. i think that you love me for what i was for you and
i
>really wish you will not throw that away.
>
>i could say a million things kara that could take up pages but i won??.
we
>have our lives to live but there are some things i do need to say.
remember
>kara all the good times we had together. remember the fun we had at some
>points. remember what i gave you...love, kindness, and caring and that
all i
>asked for in return was the same. you trusted me with your past and your
>secrets kara but you couldn?? trust me with your heart. i hoped you
would be
>able to share that last bit of trust with me but that is completely up to
you.
>if nothing else let me be there for you kara. let me be your friend. i
don
>?? want to lose you.. if nothing else i can always be there for you...
as
>someone you can trust with your secrets, someone who will hold you when
you are
>sad, someone who will try to protect you, as someone who loves you with
all
>his heart. i can?? say much else kara.... i really hope we can talk.
as for
>tuesday i won?? bring you your gift. just know that i will be thinking
of you
>that night and i hope you will do the same. i wish to wish you a happy
>birthday when it comes please don't deny it.
>the last things i have to say kara.....
>don?? throw this away please. its to much to throw away. if we can
do
>anything i only ask one thing of you. let me talk to you in person or on
the
>phone one last time. let me hear your voice and you hear mine. i have
never
>asked much of you kara but this is one thing i will ask. i ask for a
phone
>call... one phone call where i can talk to you. i would say you owe it
to me
>but you owe me nothing. but find it in your heart to let me have one
last
>talk with the girl i love..because kara you never realize what you had
until it
>slips away from you fingers. but i am asking you don?? let this slip
kara don
>?? let me slip through your fingers. one phone call is not much to
ask.
>lastly kara remember that i will be here for you. i want you by my side
>like i am at yours. please give me the one phone call. i have so much
more to
>say will you let me?
>
>i love you kara... and you are beautiful.
>
>remember.... i love you with all my heart kara....
>
>love,
>jeff
lloyddarkheartx (4:18:47 am): wow, now i have to scroll
psyclown02 (4:18:47 am): i cant read tat or ill start crying
lloyddarkheartx (4:21:44 am): to be honest, tears started, but never finished.
lloyddarkheartx (4:21:58 am): i understand the pain.
lloyddarkheartx (4:22:01 am): yet...
lloyddarkheartx (4:22:10 am): you must continue.
psyclown02 (4:22:30 am): so kara doesnt want t ogive it to him
psyclown02 (4:22:32 am): but...
psyclown02 (4:22:39 am): as had happened so many times in the past
lloyddarkheartx (4:22:47 am): ]give what?
psyclown02 (4:22:57 am): doesnt want to contact him again
lloyddarkheartx (4:23:03 am): and...
psyclown02 (4:23:11 am): as i have so many times in the past...
psyclown02 (4:23:37 am): i make his life easier only to be treated like shit
psyclown02 (4:23:48 am): i convince kara to call him one last time
psyclown02 (4:24:07 am): i also told her to not completely let him go
psyclown02 (4:24:14 am): and she finally says ok
psyclown02 (4:24:20 am): so she preposed a deal to him
lloyddarkheartx (4:24:21 am): hmm...
psyclown02 (4:24:39 am): 3 months again she would leave him without contact from
her, but she would be watchign him
psyclown02 (4:25:19 am): he had to make me happy... and she was gonna be
watching me nad i didnt know about this deal
psyclown02 (4:25:35 am): but he had 3 months to make me happy.... if he ever
wanted to talk to her again...
lloyddarkheartx (4:25:47 am): and you had no knowledge of this deal?
lloyddarkheartx (4:25:50 am): none?
psyclown02 (4:25:54 am): he decided not to take it and when i found out oh did i get
pissed at her
psyclown02 (4:26:01 am): no knolege
psyclown02 (4:26:51 am): ahh yes
psyclown02 (4:26:55 am): then i really poissed him off
psyclown02 (4:27:09 am): and thanks to stupid pentz he found out i was keeping tabs
on him
lloyddarkheartx (4:27:16 am): you were pissed at kara why?
psyclown02 (4:27:23 am): cause of the deal she offred him
lloyddarkheartx (4:27:29 am): no, why.
psyclown02 (4:27:43 am): cause that deal ended up being my undoing
lloyddarkheartx (4:27:57 am): is that explained in the rest of the story?
lloyddarkheartx (4:28:17 am): (this could be a novel, geez.)
psyclown02 (4:28:39 am): told ya
psyclown02 (4:28:50 am): so then this happens
lloyddarkheartx (4:29:04 am): psyclown02 (4:27:43 am): cause that deal ended up
being my undoing
lloyddarkheartx (4:27:57 am): is that explained in the rest of the story?
lloyddarkheartx (4:29:34 am): allright, pleae continue.
psyclown02 (4:29:36 am): it pissed him off
psyclown02 (4:29:40 am): and he couldnt take it anymore
psyclown02 (4:29:52 am): trying to make me happy
psyclown02 (4:29:58 am): ready to scroll?
psyclown02 (4:30:03 am): i suggest you fullscreen the window
psyclown02 (4:30:03 am): so he finds out i've been keeping tabs on him... this is
what ensued
(ill make edits in bold... s bold lettering in the conversation was what i added in
afterword... so ppl coud understand it. it wasnt in our conversation)
psyclown02 (4:30:38 am): swrdmastr666 (12:38:19 pm): were u getting at something

last night?
psyclown02 (12:39:05 pm): ...
swrdmastr666 (12:39:20 pm): bfore i cut u off?
psyclown02 (12:39:54 pm): for some reason my logs arent
working... so i have no idea what i was saying
swrdmastr666 (12:40:37 pm): *virus* cough
psyclown02 (12:40:45 pm): no
psyclown02 (12:41:04 pm): i probably killed the log
process in one of my process killing sprees
swrdmastr666 (12:42:48 pm): .was that a yes or a no? <- refering to his earlier
question
psyclown02 (12:42:58 pm): thats a "i have no clue"
psyclown02 (12:43:12 pm): wait got logs bak hold on
psyclown02 (12:43:46 pm): "fine then tell me this... are you
planning on meeting the condition yourself? without me
making it happen?" <- "the condition" at the time i didnt know what it was
but i later learned he was supposed to just make me happy
psyclown02 (12:43:48 pm): that?
swrdmastr666 (12:44:08 pm): possibly
psyclown02 (12:44:11 pm): i just wanted a yes or no... and
if it was a yes then i was going to stop worrying about it
swrdmastr666 (12:45:11 pm): oh really?
swrdmastr666 (12:45:18 pm): like u being really nosy
about where i went? <- totally took me yby surprise... i had no idea he knew
about that... so i go into damage control mode
psyclown02 (12:45:33 pm): lol i knew
psyclown02 (12:45:38 pm): i was just seeing mikes
reaction
swrdmastr666 (12:45:55 pm): bullshit
psyclown02 (12:46:07 pm): disneyland... its not that hard...
i found out on dan's site
psyclown02 (12:46:23 pm): then afterword i asked mike
swrdmastr666 (12:46:26 pm): so y u bother askinf?
psyclown02 (12:46:47 pm): because i ask questions to
wich i already know the answers
psyclown02 (12:46:50 pm): often
psyclown02 (12:47:07 pm): ppl's reaction makes me know
more about how they work.. thus i can use that
information later
psyclown02 (12:47:34 pm): i wanted to see if mike was
going to tell you... and hey guess what i just did
swrdmastr666 (12:48:16 pm): u kno y
swrdmastr666 (12:48:20 pm): cause its called respect
psyclown02 (12:48:25 pm): yup
psyclown02 (12:49:10 pm): i needed to see what i could
use and what i couldnt
psyclown02 (12:49:14 pm): it isnt that hard of a concept
psyclown02 (12:49:42 pm): i suppose there is no reason
not to tell you.. i knew where you were going when i
asked you aswell
swrdmastr666 (12:50:06 pm): so stop bitching if i don't
tell you
psyclown02 (12:50:12 pm): /grin
psyclown02 (12:50:15 pm): all part of the act
psyclown02 (12:50:42 pm): you make things difficult, i
make things complicated
swrdmastr666 (12:52:30 pm): all right
swrdmastr666 (12:52:35 pm): since its all part of te act
psyclown02 (12:52:49 pm): not all of it... just some of
it...
swrdmastr666 (12:52:50 pm): as u kkindly set this up
swrdmastr666 (12:53:01 pm): lets c if ur smart enough to
see where this is going
swrdmastr666 (12:53:05 pm): take a guess?
psyclown02 (12:53:22 pm): i assume the worst... always...
so im going to say you start ignoring me again
psyclown02 (12:54:18 pm): am i correct?
swrdmastr666 (12:54:20 pm): nope
psyclown02 (12:54:39 pm): care to tell?
swrdmastr666 (12:55:16 pm): of coutse
swrdmastr666 (12:55:23 pm): lets bring the house down
shall we
swrdmastr666 (12:55:34 pm): the end of act *insert #
here*
swrdmastr666 (12:56:21 pm): not playing along?
psyclown02 (12:56:34 pm): im waiting for you
swrdmastr666 (12:57:26 pm): oh of course
swrdmastr666 (12:57:31 pm): i'm the phantom here
swrdmastr666 (12:58:03 pm): so mr. playwright
swrdmastr666 (12:58:14 pm): lets c i quit
psyclown02 (12:58:28 pm): u know
psyclown02 (12:58:38 pm): comparin one incident to a
play isnt going to do mch
swrdmastr666 (12:59:22 pm): umm ok
swrdmastr666 (12:59:24 pm): but i quit
psyclown02 (12:59:29 pm): whats your point
swrdmastr666 (12:59:42 pm): we r done
psyclown02 (12:59:52 pm): how is that you not ignoring
me?
swrdmastr666 (1:00:08 pm): oh itd not just that
swrdmastr666 (1:00:13 pm): ur no longer my friend
swrdmastr666 (1:00:49 pm): cause u showed me what a
friend isn't and thats what u r
psyclown02 (1:01:08 pm): you realize you never
considered me as one?
psyclown02 (1:01:30 pm): whats the point of saying that if
i never was in the first place?
swrdmastr666 (1:01:48 pm): oh u were at one pt
psyclown02 (1:01:58 pm): ya maybe freshman year
swrdmastr666 (1:02:13 pm): so lets c i quit
psyclown02 (1:02:15 pm): so just because i gather
information im no longer a friend
swrdmastr666 (1:02:20 pm): ur officially no longe my
friend
swrdmastr666 (1:02:29 pm): because u never stayed out
of it
psyclown02 (1:02:37 pm): yes i did
swrdmastr666 (1:02:42 pm): and i'm tired of your
bitching
psyclown02 (1:02:53 pm): just not when you needed
sombody most... even tho you refused to accept help
from me
psyclown02 (1:03:01 pm): me and karen agreed you
needed help from somebody
psyclown02 (1:03:08 pm): and it wasnt her because she
could do nothing
swrdmastr666 (1:03:44 pm): so u assumed it was u?
psyclown02 (1:03:52 pm): nobody else was going to help
you
swrdmastr666 (1:03:54 pm): hah
psyclown02 (1:03:55 pm): nobody
swrdmastr666 (1:03:58 pm): u don't kno all my friends
swrdmastr666 (1:04:03 pm): u don't kno my close friends
psyclown02 (1:04:06 pm): maybe people could let you
talk to them
swrdmastr666 (1:04:07 pm): cept like 2
psyclown02 (1:04:14 pm): but bottom line... nobody could
do anything
swrdmastr666 (1:04:20 pm): oh really?
swrdmastr666 (1:04:27 pm): so u had to butt in when i
said no?
swrdmastr666 (1:04:37 pm): about 20 times
psyclown02 (1:04:40 pm): just like lying to a friend for
them betterment
psyclown02 (1:04:52 pm): everytime i did it made you
happier
psyclown02 (1:05:00 pm): and it was 4 times
psyclown02 (1:05:28 pm): rob did the same thing... and
you consider him a better person for it
psyclown02 (1:05:36 pm): he just went on the opposite
end of the spectrum
swrdmastr666 (1:06:08 pm): no he was moral about
everything he did
psyclown02 (1:06:11 pm): haha
psyclown02 (1:06:16 pm): you don't know the 1/2 of it
swrdmastr666 (1:06:25 pm): he rejected her 2 times
psyclown02 (1:06:34 pm): thats all you know
psyclown02 (1:06:42 pm): like i said... not the half of it
psyclown02 (1:07:10 pm): he butted in to hurt you
swrdmastr666 (1:07:14 pm): i don't need more
psyclown02 (1:07:14 pm): wich you are ok with
psyclown02 (1:07:24 pm): but when sombody butts in to
help you
psyclown02 (1:07:27 pm): you freak out
swrdmastr666 (1:07:35 pm): actually he was a tool
psyclown02 (1:08:09 pm): i cant believe you think that
psyclown02 (1:09:03 pm): kara didnt use any tools
swrdmastr666 (1:09:09 pm): so anyways
swrdmastr666 (1:09:21 pm): u r no longer welcome in my
house
psyclown02 (1:09:44 pm): so then its not worth getting
kara back?
swrdmastr666 (1:11:01 pm): cept on pledge party day
swrdmastr666 (1:11:26 pm): u will never c me outside of
school cept at other peoples houses
psyclown02 (1:11:49 pm): wich means you really are over
her?
psyclown02 (1:12:19 pm): on one hand you can be friends
with her again
psyclown02 (1:12:29 pm): on the other hand you no longer
have to be friends with me
swrdmastr666 (1:13:05 pm): u r not welcome to call me
swrdmastr666 (1:13:08 pm): or to talk to me
swrdmastr666 (1:13:27 pm): nor email or im me
psyclown02 (1:13:40 pm): so then you choose hand 2?
psyclown02 (1:13:46 pm): giving up everything you can
have with kara
psyclown02 (1:13:53 pm): ... so you dont have to be
friends with me?
swrdmastr666 (1:14:08 pm): it was already given up a
long time ago
psyclown02 (1:14:12 pm): nope
psyclown02 (1:14:15 pm): thats where your wrong
psyclown02 (1:14:21 pm): she wouldnt budge on the
condition
psyclown02 (1:14:30 pm): but she said if you stopped
being an asshole like you are now
psyclown02 (1:14:38 pm): she would let you have her
friendship
swrdmastr666 (1:14:52 pm): ok
psyclown02 (1:15:10 pm): oh and one more thing...
psyclown02 (1:15:14 pm): her and rob are going out now
psyclown02 (1:15:17 pm): and she may be pregnant
swrdmastr666 (1:15:30 pm): is that to fester?
psyclown02 (1:15:39 pm): huh?
swrdmastr666 (1:16:21 pm): fester that in the wound
swrdmastr666 (1:16:26 pm): leave it there so i come
back?
psyclown02 (1:16:56 pm): i've always only tried to help
you
psyclown02 (1:17:01 pm): nothing more
psyclown02 (1:17:29 pm): if you are taking this path
psyclown02 (1:17:34 pm): that means you are over her
swrdmastr666 (1:17:36 pm): and i never asked for it
which is where u went wrong
swrdmastr666 (1:17:42 pm): this time though
swrdmastr666 (1:17:44 pm): there is no 2nd chance
swrdmastr666 (1:17:52 pm): i'll not give u a condition
psyclown02 (1:17:53 pm): that is where you are wrong
swrdmastr666 (1:18:00 pm): oh plz i'll never b over her
psyclown02 (1:18:06 pm): you can have her as a friend
psyclown02 (1:18:23 pm): she told me that if you werent
such an asshole she would let that happen
swrdmastr666 (1:18:26 pm): any last words?
swrdmastr666 (1:18:32 pm): she said the chance
psyclown02 (1:18:37 pm): the chance?
swrdmastr666 (1:18:58 pm): i would have a chance at
friendship
psyclown02 (1:19:08 pm): thats what she told you
psyclown02 (1:19:14 pm): i have sense convinced her
otherwise
swrdmastr666 (1:19:31 pm): c its this meddling thing
psyclown02 (1:19:41 pm): im not talking to her only for
you
swrdmastr666 (1:19:51 pm): what for u for rob?
psyclown02 (1:20:12 pm): it doesnt matter my point is im
not trying souly to meddle
swrdmastr666 (1:20:50 pm): well i think i've summed it up
psyclown02 (1:20:53 pm): you want to be friends with her
i know that... and without me you wouldnt get that...
weather or not you asked me it doesnt matter...
psyclown02 (1:20:58 pm): if you had a bullet in your chest
psyclown02 (1:21:14 pm): do you think any1 would wait
for you to ask?
psyclown02 (1:21:17 pm): before taking it out?
swrdmastr666 (1:21:30 pm): stone heart
psyclown02 (1:21:34 pm): not my point
psyclown02 (1:22:01 pm): you know my point
swrdmastr666 (1:22:11 pm): i don't care
psyclown02 (1:22:15 pm): im doing for you the same thing
i would do for pat
psyclown02 (1:22:19 pm): or ttyler
swrdmastr666 (1:22:25 pm): ok
swrdmastr666 (1:22:31 pm): but i asked u not 2 and u
didn't
swrdmastr666 (1:22:36 pm): i told u to leave the bullet
there
swrdmastr666 (1:22:45 pm): for a quick death instead of
a slow agonizing 1
psyclown02 (1:22:55 pm): you dont have to have that slow
agonizing death
psyclown02 (1:22:59 pm): why wont you see
that
psyclown02 (1:23:08 pm): ive set things up for you to
where you can live...
swrdmastr666 (1:23:13 pm): u think i want 2 c her again?
swrdmastr666 (1:23:15 pm): after the lies
swrdmastr666 (1:23:21 pm): now shes with rob?
psyclown02 (1:23:39 pm): yes, you do want to see her
again... no matter how much you will deny it
swrdmastr666 (1:23:43 pm): with some1 who did
absolutely no work
psyclown02 (1:24:02 pm): she looked at him and he
helped her and she liked him
swrdmastr666 (1:24:08 pm): when i worked so hard for a
lie
swrdmastr666 (1:24:17 pm): i kept her from suicide
psyclown02 (1:24:22 pm): no it wasnt you
swrdmastr666 (1:24:22 pm): u kno how hard that is?
psyclown02 (1:24:36 pm): she's told me alot of thigs
psyclown02 (1:24:46 pm): and that was one of them... it
was never you who kept her from suicide
swrdmastr666 (1:24:50 pm): u kno how hard it was to talk
with victor?
swrdmastr666 (1:25:11 pm): to worl with him when he
first words to me were what the fuck is wrong with you y did u threaten kara
psyclown02 (1:25:33 pm): and do you know how hard it
is to try and make you be with some1 you love even tho
that person isnt me
psyclown02 (1:25:37 pm): ive worked just as hard as you
have
psyclown02 (1:25:45 pm): she never asked for what you
did
psyclown02 (1:25:53 pm): but she is willing to be friends
with you
psyclown02 (1:25:58 pm): as long as you give me the
same deal
swrdmastr666 (1:26:16 pm): she was cutting herself
though unlike me
psyclown02 (1:26:23 pm): you told her you wouldnt
swrdmastr666 (1:26:29 pm): and victor asked it off me
psyclown02 (1:26:30 pm): you are basically tearing
yourself up inside
psyclown02 (1:26:34 pm): ya
psyclown02 (1:26:37 pm): well karen asked me
psyclown02 (1:26:43 pm): same thing
swrdmastr666 (1:26:46 pm): and i'm saying back off
psyclown02 (1:26:58 pm): just as she was
swrdmastr666 (1:27:23 pm): i'm not hurting myself
thjough
swrdmastr666 (1:27:30 pm): she never actualyl said back
off
psyclown02 (1:27:42 pm): you've made it apperent that
you want me to back off... fine no more lies.. no more
secret setups to make you happier
psyclown02 (1:27:47 pm): if you say to late then ill never
back off
swrdmastr666 (1:28:00 pm): nope we r done
swrdmastr666 (1:28:05 pm): i'm closing kara's chapter
swrdmastr666 (1:28:11 pm): technically more like a book
swrdmastr666 (1:28:18 pm): and everything with it
psyclown02 (1:28:25 pm): mission accomplished then...
you are over her
swrdmastr666 (1:28:38 pm): only people new at the end
of the book get to b in the next book
psyclown02 (1:28:43 pm): i really hoped i didnt have to
take the fall for it
swrdmastr666 (1:28:44 pm): guess what ur in the middle
swrdmastr666 (1:29:04 pm): ur book is closed too
swrdmastr666 (1:29:38 pm): cept urs is being burned
swrdmastr666 (1:30:08 pm): i will b kind enough to let u
have last words though
swrdmastr666 (1:30:10 pm): go?
psyclown02 (1:30:25 pm): ...
swrdmastr666 (1:30:38 pm): there will b no email no call
psyclown02 (1:30:44 pm): why not
swrdmastr666 (1:30:45 pm): last chance
psyclown02 (1:30:47 pm): she gave you one
psyclown02 (1:30:53 pm): actually both
swrdmastr666 (1:30:54 pm): no u did
psyclown02 (1:31:00 pm): i convinced her to
swrdmastr666 (1:31:09 pm): any words?
swrdmastr666 (1:31:11 pm): i have pklaces to b3
psyclown02 (1:31:12 pm): thats all.. it was her that
ultimatly decided it wa just
psyclown02 (1:31:32 pm): fine if it is done...
psyclown02 (1:31:38 pm): then can i have my ps2 back?
swrdmastr666 (1:31:43 pm): no
swrdmastr666 (1:31:45 pm): its not yours
psyclown02 (1:31:52 pm): i thought you were closing my
book
psyclown02 (1:31:56 pm): that is somthing from that book
swrdmastr666 (1:32:05 pm): ahh but tis at the end of the
book
swrdmastr666 (1:32:11 pm): remember i write the story
here
swrdmastr666 (1:32:29 pm): and h ow would u get it back
u can't c m outsid of skool
swrdmastr666 (1:32:36 pm): but i will give u ff11 guide
psyclown02 (1:32:55 pm): im refusing to let this end... so
there will be no last words...
swrdmastr666 (1:33:05 pm): ur choice
swrdmastr666 (1:33:24 pm): so now e get my words
psyclown02 (1:33:31 pm): e?
swrdmastr666 (1:33:35 pm): we
swrdmastr666 (1:34:01 pm): i'll say this i have had fun
with you in the past
swrdmastr666 (1:34:08 pm): i don't regret that
swrdmastr666 (1:34:18 pm): but thats past
swrdmastr666 (1:34:40 pm): if u kill yourself i don't care
swrdmastr666 (1:34:44 pm): my mind and ody are clean
and cleansed
swrdmastr666 (1:35:11 pm): if we wern't a natin of laws
i would slit your throat right now with my nw knife
swrdmastr666 (1:35:27 pm): this is what happens danny
swrdmastr666 (1:35:37 pm): when u meddle with
something that is stone and doesn't like you
swrdmastr666 (1:35:45 pm): it hits you back
psyclown02 (1:35:59 pm): ...
psyclown02 (1:36:11 pm): why?
swrdmastr666 (1:36:13 pm): u kno these to b true
psyclown02 (1:36:16 pm): it wasnt nessesary
swrdmastr666 (1:36:47 pm): u can try to intrude on my
life again
swrdmastr666 (1:36:53 pm): but then i will hurt you
psyclown02 (1:36:58 pm): you know you can do no more
psyclown02 (1:37:09 pm): i told you the card you have
psyclown02 (1:37:11 pm): it was only one
swrdmastr666 (1:37:15 pm): i can always get pleasure
off or hurting you
psyclown02 (1:37:19 pm): if what you say is the truth...
swrdmastr666 (1:37:20 pm): what?
psyclown02 (1:37:26 pm): then you can no longer hurt me
swrdmastr666 (1:37:30 pm): k
swrdmastr666 (1:37:41 pm): i can hurt u physically which
is just as good
psyclown02 (1:37:51 pm): go for it
psyclown02 (1:38:08 pm): after this phisical pain would be
a nice reprieve
swrdmastr666 (1:38:12 pm): if i ever find u in a dark
alley alone ur as good as dead
psyclown02 (1:38:28 pm): then i will set that up..
psyclown02 (1:38:32 pm): because you know i can
psyclown02 (1:38:43 pm): rob wont tell you a damn thing
about him and kara
psyclown02 (1:38:48 pm): i can see to that
swrdmastr666 (1:38:48 pm): mmm
swrdmastr666 (1:38:53 pm): anything else to say?
psyclown02 (1:39:23 pm): ill save it for another day
swrdmastr666 (1:39:49 pm): if u insist but there
won't....even if u set me upwith the hottest girl ever
psyclown02 (1:40:03 pm): that isnt how im going to do it
psyclown02 (1:40:09 pm): my plans have always worked
for you
psyclown02 (1:40:13 pm): i can make them work for me
aswell
swrdmastr666 (1:40:35 pm): i now leave u
psyclown02 (1:40:41 pm): ill see you tomorrow
swrdmastr666 (1:40:52 pm): i don't turn back from paths
psyclown02 (1:41:02 pm): that is why you get hurt
swrdmastr666 (1:41:14 pm): what doesn't kill you makes
you stronger
swrdmastr666 (1:41:26 pm): and in order to grow
stronger u must bring down the walls
swrdmastr666 (1:41:48 pm): good bye maestro danny
psyclown02 (1:41:58 pm): ill see you tomrrow
swrdmastr666 (1:42:14 pm): i'm closing it now last
chance for words
psyclown02 (1:42:29 pm): ill have another chance for
words
swrdmastr666 (1:42:32 pm): closed now
psyclown02 (1:42:35 pm): for now i save it
swrdmastr666 signed off at 1:42:46 pm.
psyclown02 (4:37:49 am): herro?

lloyddarkheartx (4:38:03 am): i'm not scrolling yer waiting
lloyddarkheartx (4:41:05 am): heh
lloyddarkheartx (4:41:29 am): that conversation opens up a lot of thoughts for me. i
thank you for that.
lloyddarkheartx (4:41:33 am): however.
lloyddarkheartx (4:41:45 am): you did realize that i cannot look at jeff the same way i
once did?
lloyddarkheartx (4:41:51 am): correct?
psyclown02 (4:41:57 am): correct
psyclown02 (4:42:18 am): perhaps i should have warned you
lloyddarkheartx (4:42:19 am): that was your manipulation of the system, to get me to
see the truth, to be on your side.
lloyddarkheartx (4:42:24 am): however.
lloyddarkheartx (4:42:28 am): i said that bluntly.
psyclown02 (4:42:28 am): i no longer need a side
lloyddarkheartx (4:42:41 am): it doesn't matter.
lloyddarkheartx (4:42:50 am): there are sides to everything in the world.
psyclown02 (4:42:53 am): u asked for the truth
psyclown02 (4:42:56 am): did you not?
lloyddarkheartx (4:43:01 am): i did, and i am fine with it.
lloyddarkheartx (4:43:17 am): your thoughts on my mood right now?
psyclown02 (4:43:23 am): thoughtful
psyclown02 (4:43:38 am): u know story is not yet over?
lloyddarkheartx (4:43:38 am): more specific, yet more general then that.
lloyddarkheartx (4:43:46 am): oh?
lloyddarkheartx (4:43:49 am): do continue.
psyclown02 (4:43:52 am): not by a long shot bud
lloyddarkheartx (4:43:55 am): but, let me say this.
lloyddarkheartx (4:44:02 am): and listen well.
lloyddarkheartx (4:44:12 am): i don't not care who, or what you are.
lloyddarkheartx (4:44:23 am): if you decieve me, which i will find out, i can tell.
lloyddarkheartx (4:44:30 am): even if you cannot tell that i know.
lloyddarkheartx (4:44:38 am): you will regret it.
lloyddarkheartx (4:44:41 am): fair?
psyclown02 (4:44:44 am): you are right to be suspicious
lloyddarkheartx (4:44:51 am): and you knew that.,
psyclown02 (4:44:52 am): i am almost impossible to predict
lloyddarkheartx (4:44:53 am): yet.
lloyddarkheartx (4:45:13 am): i knew that i could trust you. i have nothing to be
meddled with for now.
lloyddarkheartx (4:45:23 am): as a friend...i am one, yes?
psyclown02 (4:45:29 am): i will tell you why i told you this when it is over
psyclown02 (4:45:48 am): but yes
psyclown02 (4:45:49 am): you are....
lloyddarkheartx (4:46:28 am): then do me a favor, and let me meddle with my own
'path', so to speak. i will come to you, or someone if i do need help.
lloyddarkheartx (4:46:46 am): you also knew that i would percieve you as i do now.
psyclown02 (4:46:52 am): im not in love with you, its jeff ... and he's the one whom i
meddeled with
lloyddarkheartx (4:46:57 am): i know.
lloyddarkheartx (4:47:01 am): but...
psyclown02 (4:47:04 am): and i know exactly how ost ppl are going to take things
lloyddarkheartx (4:47:05 am): i am cautious.
psyclown02 (4:47:25 am): may i continue/
psyclown02 (4:47:33 am): your thoughts will be different when all is said and done
lloyddarkheartx (4:47:39 am): yes, but one thing?
psyclown02 (4:47:47 am): u mean a third thing :p
psyclown02 (4:47:49 am): and sure
lloyddarkheartx (4:48:23 am): your actions may not be predictable, but when a chain
of events are compared to basic genres of novels, it can match almost identically.
psyclown02 (4:48:34 am): haha
lloyddarkheartx (4:48:35 am): truly amazing, no?
psyclown02 (4:48:47 am): you'll be hard pressed to find a novel with a stpry like mine
psyclown02 (4:48:49 am): may i?
lloyddarkheartx (4:49:02 am): yes, you may. thank you in advance. how much longer
is this?
psyclown02 (4:49:10 am): er
psyclown02 (4:49:11 am): idk
lloyddarkheartx (4:49:20 am): well, type away, the stall calls.
psyclown02 (4:49:25 am): k
lloyddarkheartx (4:49:32 am): /afk
psyclown02 (4:52:29 am): so i come back to school.. .. and decide to try to get to talk
to me again.. mostly by not annoying him and just talking near him to other ppl
about subjects he would like to challenge me on. and after about a month jeff slowly
starts talking to me again
psyclown02 (4:53:37 am): then about a month after that akra has a presentation to
edit and we need a mac
lloyddarkheartx (4:54:08 am): oh boy.
psyclown02 (4:54:12 am): so she works some magic and gets me and her over to his
housefor about 6 hours. that was an interesting day
psyclown02 (4:55:02 am): that time i was absent for about 5 days straight... and mac
was... near end of school this year
lloyddarkheartx (4:55:22 am): do you know when those five days were around?
psyclown02 (4:55:30 am): 4 months before school ended
psyclown02 (4:55:34 am): .. 7 months ago
lloyddarkheartx (4:55:39 am): ...
lloyddarkheartx (4:55:43 am): jan?
psyclown02 (4:55:51 am): march
psyclown02 (4:55:54 am): early march
psyclown02 (4:56:03 am): cause that convo i sent u was feb 29th
lloyddarkheartx (4:56:05 am): blank month. continue
psyclown02 (4:56:22 am): ok so after that jeff clearly still wanted to be with kara
psyclown02 (4:56:23 am): so
psyclown02 (4:56:27 am): i move to make that happen
psyclown02 (4:56:28 am): again
lloyddarkheartx (4:56:41 am): (novels, i tell you.)
psyclown02 (4:56:45 am): me and kara talked
psyclown02 (4:56:56 am): she basically says that if jeff were to have used me as
advice
psyclown02 (4:57:00 am): she would be in love with him
psyclown02 (4:57:09 am): wich is great to knwo now
psyclown02 (4:57:14 am): sarcasim
psyclown02 (4:57:19 am): so i say ok
lloyddarkheartx (4:57:40 am): (where's my pipe, damnit?!)
psyclown02 (4:57:48 am): and i convince her to not be with rob and instead let
herself be with jeff for a month. during that month and the month or so before that
let me handle jeff and teach him how to act
lloyddarkheartx (4:58:24 am): that sound like labirynths with labyrinths.
lloyddarkheartx (4:58:32 am): second is right, i think.
psyclown02 (4:58:32 am): swrdmastr666 (2:36:08 am): so what is teh deal?

psyclown02 (2:36:37 am): sigh*
swrdmastr666 (2:36:51 am): btw late night tv rules
psyclown02 (2:37:10 am): she saw taht she treated you way unfairly compared to rob
swrdmastr666 (2:37:30 am): can u like examplize that?
psyclown02 (2:37:35 am): umm..
swrdmastr666 (2:37:52 am): or do i need to go get my brain outta the jar?
psyclown02 (2:37:56 am): she never told you much about her.. so you ahd no way of
knowing waht she likes/doesnt like
swrdmastr666 (2:38:06 am): mm k
psyclown02 (2:38:16 am): as opposed to the fact that she basically told rob all he
needed to know
psyclown02 (2:39:38 am): im not logging this btw
psyclown02 (2:39:44 am): she asked me to turn them off
swrdmastr666 (2:39:45 am): so am i
swrdmastr666 (2:39:52 am): u kno
swrdmastr666 (2:40:00 am): i log it so you can turn urs off and i can send it to you
psyclown02 (2:40:07 am): ...
swrdmastr666 (2:40:28 am): i don't like lying to kara
psyclown02 (2:41:28 am): basically she said she'd give you one more month with
her... and that if you wanted to make that longer then she would have to like what
you do for her more than rob, she also stressed how not probable that was. and then
she said ... sigh* she basically said that if you were going to have any chance you
would have to let me teach you how to make her happy... if you want i can tell her
taht i have... and let you do your own thing
psyclown02 (2:42:44 am): i dont want to endanger whatever friendship we may have
now... so i will lie for you in a second
psyclown02 (2:43:59 am): she wants you to make me happy... she has for awhile...
but she doesnt have to know taht isnt happening. i would rather be semi shallow
friends with you than watch you be forced to take advice from me
swrdmastr666 (2:44:24 am): amusing
psyclown02 (2:44:29 am): ?
swrdmastr666 (2:44:50 am): when i first saw her again and we made a deal about
talking and such
psyclown02 (2:44:57 am): ?
swrdmastr666 (2:45:04 am): i made a promise not to get karen involved in any way
swrdmastr666 (2:45:12 am): and she promised the same about you
psyclown02 (2:45:39 am): like i said
psyclown02 (2:46:01 am): this time round if you want me to stay out it would not be
hard to trick her into thinking that youa re doing waht she wants
swrdmastr666 (2:46:18 am): tell me this have i treated fairly these past weekish?
psyclown02 (2:46:26 am): huh?
psyclown02 (2:46:37 am): have you been treated fairly?
swrdmastr666 (2:46:46 am): me treating u
psyclown02 (2:46:49 am): oh
swrdmastr666 (2:46:54 am): missed the u key
psyclown02 (2:47:05 am): its apperent that you are forcing yourself but yes.
psyclown02 (2:47:32 am): ?
psyclown02 (2:47:47 am): what do you want me to tell her?
swrdmastr666 (2:48:15 am): she says she is giving me a month right?
swrdmastr666 (2:48:22 am): when does that moonth start?
psyclown02 (2:48:33 am): not until you talk to me for awhile
psyclown02 (2:48:42 am): and i have to ok it
swrdmastr666 (2:48:54 am): ok what?
psyclown02 (2:49:17 am): i decide... she told me to get you ready to have the best
chance and then tell her
swrdmastr666 (2:49:40 am): oh what bad karma i must have built up to deserve this
lovely fiasco
psyclown02 (2:50:10 am): i say this with as much sympathy as possible... but you
havnt been the nicest person
swrdmastr666 (2:50:30 am): what to her? to you? to everyone i kno
psyclown02 (2:50:44 am): you think of yourself as a "dark" person...
swrdmastr666 (2:50:46 am): don't blunt the truth
psyclown02 (2:51:01 am): you try to be mean... you try to lack sympathy
psyclown02 (2:51:48 am): and you try to seem apathetic... "mm k"
swrdmastr666 (2:52:02 am): thats more my universal piss off or ok thingy
psyclown02 (2:52:22 am): you asked for the truuth... then tell me to piss off?
swrdmastr666 (2:52:46 am): fair enough
psyclown02 (2:53:08 am): i need to know waht to tell kara
psyclown02 (2:53:13 am): we basically talk daily
psyclown02 (2:53:20 am): and for awhile...
swrdmastr666 (2:53:44 am): ur a smart kid
swrdmastr666 (2:53:52 am): tell me if you think this is worth it
swrdmastr666 (2:53:56 am): i mean
psyclown02 (2:53:57 am): if waht is worth it?
swrdmastr666 (2:54:08 am): i've spent 1 and a half years trying to b with her
swrdmastr666 (2:54:16 am): and what has it gotten me
swrdmastr666 (2:54:24 am): a shattered heart or 2
swrdmastr666 (2:54:31 am): broken friendships
swrdmastr666 (2:54:39 am): grief i could have lived without
psyclown02 (2:54:46 am): jeff... ive spent 2 and a half years trying just to be friends
with you. even if i cant do anymore than that.
psyclown02 (2:55:06 am): im willing to endure anything just for an extension of a
pseudo friendship
psyclown02 (2:55:15 am): if you fel the same way about her.
psyclown02 (2:55:20 am): then yes every second is worth it
swrdmastr666 (2:56:07 am): ahh yes but y is she giving me this chance? if she
knows i will most likely fail?
psyclown02 (2:56:16 am): she is like me
psyclown02 (2:56:21 am): she wants the world to be fair
psyclown02 (2:56:27 am): and will do whatever is needed to make it so
swrdmastr666 (2:56:32 am): a dream that can nevr come true
psyclown02 (2:56:36 am): im going to speak bluntly
psyclown02 (2:56:57 am): before i do promise me that you will continue this pseudo
light hearted semi fake friendship we seem to have
swrdmastr666 (2:57:17 am): i take it your logs r still on?
psyclown02 (2:57:33 am): i kept her privacy and i will keep yours
swrdmastr666 (2:57:45 am): ahh but do u still want the logs from me?
swrdmastr666 (2:58:16 am): yes i will keep this friendship going because believe it or
not i enjoy it minus some of the burns
swrdmastr666 (2:59:15 am): anyways yes i promise
psyclown02 (2:59:24 am): rob takes wrong steps
psyclown02 (2:59:30 am): i can set him up to fall... hard
psyclown02 (2:59:38 am): and in kara's eyes aswell
psyclown02 (3:00:05 am): he isnt hard to play with. i hate him... i don't kmnow why
but when he got with kara he changed
psyclown02 (3:00:06 am): alot
swrdmastr666 (3:00:14 am): ya he was like me
swrdmastr666 (3:00:19 am): you become quiet
swrdmastr666 (3:00:22 am): reserved
swrdmastr666 (3:00:29 am): calm
swrdmastr666 (3:00:42 am): you don't feel like burning ppl even
psyclown02 (3:00:46 am): heh
swrdmastr666 (3:00:53 am): i'm serious
psyclown02 (3:01:12 am): i can observe what he does for her. i have been taking
mental notes for the past month or so
swrdmastr666 (3:01:16 am): i'd put money on it if i had any that kara recommened
those books to him that he is reading
psyclown02 (3:01:27 am): so would i
psyclown02 (3:01:30 am): its pethetic...
psyclown02 (3:01:32 am): he is so...
psyclown02 (3:01:35 am): urgh i dont likeit
swrdmastr666 (3:02:00 am): mm ur not the only 1
swrdmastr666 (3:02:05 am): and i ain't talking about me
psyclown02 (3:02:10 am): soo?
swrdmastr666 (3:02:14 am): she is 1
psyclown02 (3:02:21 am): meh... not gonna play guess who
psyclown02 (3:02:43 am): if u want e to i will take her up on her offer
swrdmastr666 (3:02:45 am): anyways u were saying
psyclown02 (3:04:06 am): and i may be able to get u what you want.. but it would
involve taking some weekends... spending saturday with me while doing wahtever
but i will see how you act and tell you how to change it. then sunday we will meet
kara (we can split her bill) in wherever and i will basically tell you everything you do
wrong then last month of summer i will ok it
psyclown02 (3:04:24 am): but you have to be able to spend at least every other day
with her
psyclown02 (3:04:48 am): that is somthing i will warn you that you need to make her
happy... and if you have to tell your parents to fuck off you have to be ready to do it
swrdmastr666 (3:04:55 am): havn't you met my parents?
psyclown02 (3:05:01 am): you are your own person
swrdmastr666 (3:05:13 am): uhh last time i checked mike ain't my ride bitch
psyclown02 (3:05:30 am): ok?
psyclown02 (3:05:32 am): doesnt stop rob
swrdmastr666 (3:05:41 am): rob has parents that don't care
psyclown02 (3:05:50 am): you make excuses for yourself you loose her
swrdmastr666 (3:06:05 am): i lost her so long ago its not even funny
psyclown02 (3:06:08 am): haha
psyclown02 (3:06:10 am): no you didnt
psyclown02 (3:06:18 am): trust me, me and her talk about you alot
swrdmastr666 (3:06:34 am): lol u kno thats something i always like hearing
swrdmastr666 (3:06:41 am): ppl talking about me
psyclown02 (3:06:44 am): i get made fun of alot
swrdmastr666 (3:07:01 am): but then i wonder is it a good thing ppl talk about me?
swrdmastr666 (3:07:24 am): can u like hold on a sec?
psyclown02 (3:07:27 am): yup
swrdmastr666 (3:08:10 am): much better
psyclown02 (3:08:21 am): look
psyclown02 (3:08:25 am): you can have her back
psyclown02 (3:08:34 am): its just a long shot and you do have to be willing to do
antthing for her
psyclown02 (3:09:05 am): problem with your last try was u never let it get anywhere
past nervous hesitation
swrdmastr666 (3:09:28 am): ya i kno
psyclown02 (3:09:34 am): do you know why?
swrdmastr666 (3:09:47 am): cause i am a self conscious bastard?
psyclown02 (3:09:56 am): becaue you didntspend enough time together
swrdmastr666 (3:09:57 am): (good guess)
psyclown02 (3:10:47 am): you need to break away from your parents... nto jsut for
her but you need to have time to yourself without them down your throat
psyclown02 (3:11:00 am): even once you graduated hs you are still their bitch
swrdmastr666 (3:11:29 am): i have plenty of time to myself just nothing to do with it
psyclown02 (3:11:39 am): you ned hours at a time
psyclown02 (3:12:01 am): if we were to compare it to this situation
psyclown02 (3:12:13 am): you need to be able to give her the kind of time rob does
psyclown02 (3:13:26 am): im oging to ask you this and i know i will be dissappointed
in the answer but...
psyclown02 (3:13:28 am): can you?
swrdmastr666 (3:13:53 am): yes but...
swrdmastr666 (3:13:58 am): i'm still not sure i want to
psyclown02 (3:14:18 am): do you know why she did what she did lat time/
swrdmastr666 (3:14:52 am): i have my speculations and my conclusions but shoot
anyways
psyclown02 (3:15:22 am): there was a specific event..
psyclown02 (3:15:25 am): and an attitude
psyclown02 (3:15:36 am): lets start with the attitude
psyclown02 (3:15:43 am): you treated her like your trophy
psyclown02 (3:15:48 am): like she was yours
swrdmastr666 (3:15:54 am): ya i kno....
psyclown02 (3:16:23 am): and then we come to the next one... a mistake you made
that im sure when i tell you you will regret it
swrdmastr666 (3:16:42 am): the list is short but it can always grow
psyclown02 (3:16:50 am): you told her to fucking cut herself if it made her happy
psyclown02 (3:16:54 am): and handed her a knife
psyclown02 (3:17:05 am): i know you just wanted her to feel better... but... sigh*
psyclown02 (3:18:05 am): look you have been givin another chance... if you dont
take it you will regret it fo the rest of your life
psyclown02 (3:18:22 am): if you do take it.. whats the worst that can happen?
psyclown02 (3:18:26 am): another broken heart?
psyclown02 (3:18:30 am): like you havnt delt with that before
swrdmastr666 (3:18:49 am): ahh but its worse each time
swrdmastr666 (3:19:10 am): and my walls rn't rdy for it
psyclown02 (3:19:14 am): jeff, i live my life in more pain than you can imagine
psyclown02 (3:19:18 am): you dontneed walls
psyclown02 (3:19:29 am): i dont use them
psyclown02 (3:19:55 am): oh and that is yet another thing she didnt like about you
psyclown02 (3:20:00 am): you were afraid to show yourself
psyclown02 (3:20:31 am): you think cowering behind a mask is attractive to any girl?
swrdmastr666 (3:20:41 am): (btw i hope ur happy this is your talk you asked fo a
while ago)
psyclown02 (3:21:29 am): if you dont actually want to do this then i wont give you
any advice
swrdmastr666 (3:21:39 am): ahh but this is useful
psyclown02 (3:22:15 am): i will give you advice as a friend... or as sombody who
loves you. but i will not be a fucking survey for you
psyclown02 (3:22:31 am): if you would like my help then i will give it
swrdmastr666 (3:22:36 am): u should kno that i take in information
swrdmastr666 (3:22:43 am): and store it for later
psyclown02 (3:22:47 am): hey jeff
psyclown02 (3:22:51 am): how well did that work for you?
swrdmastr666 (3:23:00 am): nver said it orked well
psyclown02 (3:23:06 am): baka dayo
swrdmastr666 (3:23:16 am): hontou
psyclown02 (3:23:25 am): if you want her then you will stop and listen to somebody
who knows her
psyclown02 (3:23:37 am): karen - oh buy her shit that would make me happy
psyclown02 (3:23:39 am): ............stupid!
swrdmastr666 (3:23:51 am): you have yet to convince me why i should do this
psyclown02 (3:23:56 am): you pissed her off she never even opened her movie its on
her nightstand
psyclown02 (3:24:12 am): you love her and i dont want you regretting it
psyclown02 (3:24:38 am): u are seriously going to toss your last chance with her
away?
swrdmastr666 (3:24:42 am): and what about you danny? when are you going to start
worrying baout yourself
psyclown02 (3:24:56 am): i do
psyclown02 (3:25:07 am): jeff, i dont get a chance with you.
psyclown02 (3:25:15 am): i have it now, as good as im ever going to get it
swrdmastr666 (3:25:49 am): on a positive note i was thinking about kool game stuff
we could do in the future me with my craziness and ur comp smarts
psyclown02 (3:26:03 am): dont change the subject
swrdmastr666 (3:26:03 am): u r a smart guy with a lot of talent
swrdmastr666 (3:26:08 am): just saying
psyclown02 (3:26:33 am): psyclown02 (3:24:38 am): u are seriously going to toss
your last chance with her away?
psyclown02 (3:26:36 am): you neveranswered
psyclown02 (3:26:43 am): you told me to worry about myself and i showed that i was
swrdmastr666 (3:27:19 am): mm
swrdmastr666 (3:27:59 am): i'm not sure
psyclown02 (3:28:02 am): look
psyclown02 (3:28:20 am): what if i were to get her to promise to go back to how it is
now with you and her
psyclown02 (3:28:31 am): afterwords you guys still are friends nd still hng out
psyclown02 (3:29:41 am): ya u may fail
psyclown02 (3:30:45 am): but i promise you i will devote my entire brain to making
sure that does not happen if you let me. you say i have talent... you have a charm
that is undeniable... and i have brains and know how
swrdmastr666 (3:30:58 am): i have charm?
psyclown02 (3:31:23 am): your smile... your act... your eyes... you have it... and you
have more than most
swrdmastr666 (3:31:33 am): my act?
psyclown02 (3:31:41 am): they way you hold yourself
swrdmastr666 (3:31:47 am): ??
psyclown02 (3:31:50 am): confidance
psyclown02 (3:31:54 am): and lots of it
swrdmastr666 (3:31:57 am): all high en mighty?
psyclown02 (3:32:10 am): that is one of your downfalls
swrdmastr666 (3:32:10 am): :-(
psyclown02 (3:32:29 am): if you make a mistake... you will be cute about it and
acknolege it
swrdmastr666 (3:32:36 am): dur i made 1
psyclown02 (3:32:56 am): its a remote chance that you can make her happier than
rob does
psyclown02 (3:33:11 am): but... the chance is there and the price of failure isnt
edvastating
swrdmastr666 (3:33:43 am): how do you kno me so well?
psyclown02 (3:33:54 am): i know everybody well
psyclown02 (3:34:01 am): its just somthing i do
swrdmastr666 (3:34:11 am): aww but u once said i was harder than most
psyclown02 (3:34:19 am): jeff
psyclown02 (3:34:23 am): i have stuart pinned
psyclown02 (3:34:27 am): ive been talking to him for 2 days
psyclown02 (3:34:31 am): you took me 2 years
psyclown02 (3:35:10 am): and i still have to be careful around u
swrdmastr666 (3:35:14 am): tell me what you know about me
psyclown02 (3:35:19 am): ? wtf
swrdmastr666 (3:35:20 am): no one will ever tell me
psyclown02 (3:35:22 am): thats a stupid question
psyclown02 (3:35:26 am): what do you want to know
psyclown02 (3:35:29 am): i dont know everything
psyclown02 (3:35:33 am): and i can be wrong
swrdmastr666 (3:35:42 am): tell me what you kno
psyclown02 (3:35:52 am): you are afraid of showing waht you feel
psyclown02 (3:35:58 am): you dont like to gie people control over you
psyclown02 (3:36:26 am): you are self concious at heart about anything serious but
love the fact that people see you as weird
psyclown02 (3:36:34 am): you like to seem dark and mean
psyclown02 (3:36:41 am): and you trick yourself into thinking you are
psyclown02 (3:36:48 am): anything else?
swrdmastr666 (3:36:57 am): ur the one telling me
psyclown02 (3:37:08 am): why are you doing this?
swrdmastr666 (3:37:30 am): ur the only 1 who will tell me
psyclown02 (3:37:42 am): do you look to know more about yourself?
swrdmastr666 (3:38:04 am): yes
psyclown02 (3:38:12 am): start by taking off the masks
swrdmastr666 (3:38:13 am): its part of a never ending cycle to better yourself
psyclown02 (3:38:26 am): you want to better yourself first stop lying to yourself
psyclown02 (3:38:50 am): you love kara... and you only hesitated because you are
afraid of seeing yourself without your defenses
psyclown02 (3:39:28 am): when you put your heart out... you feel naked and
voulnerable
psyclown02 (3:39:35 am): you hate it so you dont do it
swrdmastr666 (3:40:11 am): anything esle you kno about me?
psyclown02 (3:40:39 am): meh ur smarter than you let yourself be
swrdmastr666 (3:41:13 am): that all?
psyclown02 (3:41:27 am): no replies to any of those?
psyclown02 (3:41:36 am): im tired of one sided conversations with you jeff
swrdmastr666 (3:41:43 am): seems pretty accurate
swrdmastr666 (3:41:49 am): i could argue about one or 2
swrdmastr666 (3:41:57 am): but it would take longer than i want to
psyclown02 (3:42:26 am): tell me you arent going to throw this chance away
swrdmastr666 (3:42:38 am): and if i am?
psyclown02 (3:42:47 am): its your choice
psyclown02 (3:43:18 am): from somebody who you aknolege knows you.. and loves
you... and knows what can and cant be done
psyclown02 (3:43:27 am): im telling you this can be done and have a good comeout
swrdmastr666 (3:43:49 am): and then what happends after high school?
psyclown02 (3:44:04 am): if its a good comeout?
swrdmastr666 (3:44:23 am): ya if i get her back
psyclown02 (3:44:29 am): the only way you guys will fail is if you loose interest
psyclown02 (3:44:49 am): jeff you are never stuck in one place
psyclown02 (3:44:57 am): that is only an illusion
psyclown02 (3:45:02 am): you take a few leaps
psyclown02 (3:45:10 am): you get where you want to be
psyclown02 (3:45:21 am): kara does not know what she is doing agfter hs
psyclown02 (3:45:29 am): and if i were you i would take a year to self analyze
psyclown02 (3:45:49 am): she will probably do the same. you have that year to make
her keep interest in you
psyclown02 (3:46:41 am): you get lost look to me i will always have a plan. you
choose somebody else... well once again speaking honestly... there are so very few
people who know both of you better than i
swrdmastr666 (3:47:00 am): both of me?
psyclown02 (3:47:06 am): no kara and you
psyclown02 (3:47:22 am): why do you think she asked me to help you along
swrdmastr666 (3:47:37 am): so she could break her rpomise?
psyclown02 (3:47:46 am): she wont
psyclown02 (3:48:06 am): do you think she wont give you this month?
swrdmastr666 (3:48:50 am): whats your gain in this danny?
psyclown02 (3:49:05 am): ...
psyclown02 (3:49:09 am): im not... sure
psyclown02 (3:49:14 am): i guess...
psyclown02 (3:49:43 am): ive wanted to see you two together sense i learned you
loved her. my gain is seeing that
swrdmastr666 (3:50:03 am): and what about karen i love her too
psyclown02 (3:50:16 am): you treated her like shit
psyclown02 (3:50:26 am): she made the descion to get out of your life
psyclown02 (3:51:27 am): you really do need to learn how to treat people jef
swrdmastr666 (3:51:32 am): do you kno who she talked to before she did what she
did?
psyclown02 (3:51:46 am): rob
swrdmastr666 (3:51:52 am): bsides him
psyclown02 (3:51:55 am): who?
swrdmastr666 (3:52:06 am): i was asking you
swrdmastr666 (3:52:11 am): cause there were more
psyclown02 (3:52:19 am): probably her friends at el camino
psyclown02 (3:52:30 am): she told them stories about u and they told her to get the
hell away
swrdmastr666 (3:52:53 am): guess i need better stories
psyclown02 (3:53:01 am): you need to learn how to treat people
psyclown02 (3:54:42 am): if you want to change how you act to aviod more karen
situations... i know how to do that to
psyclown02 (3:55:33 am): if you refuse to tap into what i know and observe that is
your choice ive learned that trying to change that is useless and crying over it even
more so
psyclown02 (3:56:02 am): you know...
psyclown02 (3:56:09 am): i think kara see's the same thing
swrdmastr666 (3:56:23 am): as you do?
psyclown02 (3:57:31 am): one more thing...
psyclown02 (3:57:43 am): a month with kara who is a self admitted nympho?
swrdmastr666 (3:58:12 am): lovely argument swayer there
psyclown02 (3:58:52 am): really ... what would be the point in not doing it?
swrdmastr666 (3:59:08 am): because if karen taught me one thing
swrdmastr666 (3:59:22 am): its that you can't give up everyone for just one person
psyclown02 (3:59:31 am): you won't be
swrdmastr666 (4:00:30 am): truy what are the chances i could actually get her back?
psyclown02 (4:00:46 am): if you reallylistened to everything i told you
psyclown02 (4:01:08 am): and didnt try to argue but just realized im guiding you to
get her back.
psyclown02 (4:01:13 am): i would say 1/4
swrdmastr666 (4:01:41 am): not very good chances if you ask me
psyclown02 (4:01:44 am): if i could actually be you and act for you... 3/4 but i cant
psyclown02 (4:01:56 am): it depends on how you act
psyclown02 (4:02:25 am): honestly if you can do waht i tell you .. then 3/4 and if i
can make rob seem like the skin obsessed asshole he is... she is yours
swrdmastr666 (4:02:43 am): skin obbsessed assho;e?
psyclown02 (4:02:51 am): she has him pussy whipped
psyclown02 (4:03:08 am): rob will do anything just to get back into her pants
psyclown02 (4:03:15 am): she cant see it because she doesnt want to
swrdmastr666 (4:03:35 am): i take it you've told her this?
psyclown02 (4:03:39 am): many times
psyclown02 (4:03:44 am): she hates it
psyclown02 (4:03:56 am): and refuses to see it...
swrdmastr666 (4:05:00 am): so ur saying rob is shallow?
psyclown02 (4:05:28 am): she wanted to go to prom... she was going to pay for it..
she told him to pick up the ticket papers...
psyclown02 (4:05:36 am): he forgot every damn day for a week
psyclown02 (4:05:40 am): "forgot"
psyclown02 (4:06:01 am): he didnt feel like going... so he didnt go. i mentioned it to
him many times during that week
swrdmastr666 (4:06:15 am): ggggrah i want to kill him
psyclown02 (4:06:58 am): you plan on leaving her with him or taking your chance
and trying to get her out of that? you arnt the only reason i want you to do this
swrdmastr666 (4:07:19 am): give me a min
swrdmastr666 (4:07:26 am): i need to get killing rob outta my system
swrdmastr666 (4:09:29 am): ok go
psyclown02 (4:09:30 am): she deserve's better than him.. she does love him but she
is going to regret it later. she is a nympho but she wants love... rob can satisfy the
nympho very well.. but she needs somebody who can satisfy both sides. if you'll let
me i would like to turn you into that
psyclown02 (4:09:49 am): for her and for you
psyclown02 (4:11:19 am): start comeing over again ill show you everything you need
to know. it will take awhile and i really wish you hadnt signed up for band camp and
china. but i dont want her with somebody who wants only her body. and i dont want
you unhappy
swrdmastr666 (4:11:30 am): i didn't do band camp
psyclown02 (4:11:36 am): nor did i
swrdmastr666 (4:11:49 am): i got 2 lazy
psyclown02 (4:11:54 am): join the club
psyclown02 (4:11:58 am): dmnit
psyclown02 (4:12:12 am): i thought i did good cause i didnt do somthing for the soul
reason of "cause jeff's doing it"
psyclown02 (4:12:19 am): .... now i find out your not going?
psyclown02 (4:12:20 am): ass
swrdmastr666 (4:13:41 am): sorry
swrdmastr666 (4:13:45 am): ur fat blocked me
psyclown02 (4:13:49 am): im sure
psyclown02 (4:14:03 am): are you going to do this or not?
psyclown02 (4:14:14 am): your caution is what fucked you over in the first place
swrdmastr666 (4:14:54 am): does she even like me anymore?
psyclown02 (4:14:57 am): kara?
swrdmastr666 (4:14:57 am): i mean a lot?
swrdmastr666 (4:15:18 am): hai
psyclown02 (4:15:20 am): umm... about that would u be up for working on your
body?
swrdmastr666 (4:16:11 am): do i need a 6 pack or something
swrdmastr666 (4:16:16 am): cause thats ez
psyclown02 (4:16:22 am): you need to not be a stick
psyclown02 (4:16:29 am): according to her there is nothing to huf
psyclown02 (4:16:31 am): hug*
swrdmastr666 (4:16:49 am): and how do you propose i become un stickish?
swrdmastr666 (4:16:55 am): (plz no jokes about my dick)
psyclown02 (4:17:05 am): lol there is a time and a place for dick jokes
psyclown02 (4:17:15 am): however there is very littlethatisnt opssible
psyclown02 (4:17:21 am): i look aruond on the net look at a few books
psyclown02 (4:17:27 am): we can find somthing
swrdmastr666 (4:17:55 am): so i am just spose to build up body weight eh? not
happening
psyclown02 (4:18:03 am): hey jeff
psyclown02 (4:18:22 am): do you think if you told me "hey get down to 160 pounds
and ill be with you" that i would say "not happening" ?
swrdmastr666 (4:18:44 am): fair enough
swrdmastr666 (4:19:03 am): so what am i spose to do to my body eh?
swrdmastr666 (4:19:06 am): tell me that
psyclown02 (4:19:18 am): taht i can find out within a week
psyclown02 (4:19:34 am): prolly less
swrdmastr666 (4:19:43 am): cause last time i checked i like my stickness.
psyclown02 (4:20:01 am): i never said get fat
psyclown02 (4:20:27 am): lol i like your stickness too... ill find a way to preserve it
swrdmastr666 (4:20:44 am): mm
swrdmastr666 (4:20:49 am): just a quick question
swrdmastr666 (4:20:57 am): in a fight who do you think would win rob or me no
weapons
psyclown02 (4:21:16 am): i think you would fuck everytihng up if you did that
psyclown02 (4:21:28 am): and kara would take robs side
swrdmastr666 (4:21:38 am): this is theoretical
swrdmastr666 (4:21:45 am): not gonna happen
psyclown02 (4:22:04 am): in that case my opinion is baised
psyclown02 (4:22:07 am): but i would say u
swrdmastr666 (4:22:10 am): ok how about me n mweluke? who would win?
psyclown02 (4:22:17 am): mweluke
swrdmastr666 (4:22:35 am): k thank you
psyclown02 (4:22:54 am): heh... i think thats the second time you actually fully typed
out thank you
swrdmastr666 (4:23:02 am): prob
psyclown02 (4:23:02 am): at least to me... my memory is too good
swrdmastr666 (4:23:29 am): i've given u lots of thanx
swrdmastr666 (4:23:33 am): that count?
psyclown02 (4:23:42 am): lol typing it actually means somthing
swrdmastr666 (4:24:01 am): y do u think i never use it
psyclown02 (4:24:10 am): heh
psyclown02 (4:24:28 am): you have yet to give me an answer
psyclown02 (4:24:43 am): if you are doing this and we are aiming for last month of
summer.. we have very little time anyway
psyclown02 (4:24:54 am): i cant wait for you to spin your wheels another week
swrdmastr666 (4:25:20 am): y not?
psyclown02 (4:25:52 am): i have research to do if you want my help.. wich is only
way you have chance of getting kara away from rob
swrdmastr666 (4:26:43 am): hey a little off topic but relevant what does stuart think
of me?
psyclown02 (4:27:10 am): he really likes me... and has no idea what to think of you
swrdmastr666 (4:27:28 am): is that as off meeting me?
psyclown02 (4:27:42 am): he thinks you're weird
psyclown02 (4:27:47 am): as does everybody as of meeting you
swrdmastr666 (4:28:02 am): *insert sarcastic comment of your choice here*
swrdmastr666 (4:28:35 am): anything else?
psyclown02 (4:28:40 am): ?
psyclown02 (4:28:48 am): r u doing this or not?
swrdmastr666 (4:29:56 am): anwser my question first
psyclown02 (4:30:08 am): there is always somthing else
psyclown02 (4:30:19 am): its jsut weather or not i feel its the time and place to say it
swrdmastr666 (4:30:30 am): thats a dodge
psyclown02 (4:30:46 am): that is a "yes there is but im not going to say it unless i get
an answr"
swrdmastr666 (4:31:42 am): one sec
swrdmastr666 (4:31:55 am): give me a min i need to do something
psyclown02 (4:31:59 am): mm hmm
swrdmastr666 (4:32:17 am): i'll b back in less than 2 mins
psyclown02 (4:34:42 am): late
swrdmastr666 (4:34:55 am): b
psyclown02 (4:35:32 am): well?
swrdmastr666 (4:35:59 am): do i need to even answer?
psyclown02 (4:36:12 am): i will nto work on an assumption
psyclown02 (4:36:41 am): and i know you
psyclown02 (4:36:49 am): if i give you an out
psyclown02 (4:36:52 am): you will get scared
psyclown02 (4:36:53 am): and take it
swrdmastr666 (4:36:55 am): i'll try it
psyclown02 (4:37:03 am): leaving yourself an out...
swrdmastr666 (4:37:38 am): if i don't like it i'm going to back out
psyclown02 (4:37:53 am): you mean if you get scared?
psyclown02 (4:38:02 am): fuck next week is your birthday
swrdmastr666 (4:38:19 am): r u brining her?
psyclown02 (4:38:43 am): umm.. it wouldnt be smart... you would be obligated to 1/2
ignore her
psyclown02 (4:38:48 am): wich would screw things up
psyclown02 (4:39:11 am): i need to see you... then the next day we need to do
somthing with her to test you out and that needs to happen as soon as possible
swrdmastr666 (4:39:19 am): yes or no?
psyclown02 (4:39:44 am): ill try to make it a yes for you if you want
psyclown02 (4:39:50 am): but i need to make that yes work out
swrdmastr666 (4:40:06 am): is my suprise coming or not danny?
swrdmastr666 (4:40:10 am): either way i am fine
psyclown02 (4:40:32 am): you are hinting. stop
psyclown02 (4:40:41 am): tell me what you want or are hinting at
swrdmastr666 (4:41:13 am): i want you to keep mike outta this as uch as possible
psyclown02 (4:41:35 am): if you intend to keep acting like that and not tell me what
is going on... you are making me work blindly. i will start to assume things that are
untrue. that will lead to misjudgment on my part
psyclown02 (4:42:11 am): you need to stop hinting and ask me waht you want.
otherwise i will misconstrude things and we will fuck this up
swrdmastr666 (4:42:39 am): is mike picking u 2 up next satrday and bringing kara
here as a suprise birthday present?
psyclown02 (4:42:49 am): here
swrdmastr666 (4:42:59 am): here= my house
psyclown02 (4:43:05 am): showing you somthing
swrdmastr666 (4:43:18 am): btw don't get mad at mike
psyclown02 (4:44:04 am): lessness543 (2:53:20 am): ohh and can i have a form ro
way to get ahold of kara plz iw want to take her over to jeffs party as my gift to him
psyclown02 (2:53:32 am): she wants to be with rob on saturdays
psyclown02 (2:53:47 am): and she is not a fucking object
psyclown02 (4:44:25 am): lessness543 (2:54:28 am): damb now i have to get jeff
soemthing
psyclown02 (4:44:42 am): jeff i stopped lying to you that sunday
swrdmastr666 (4:45:12 am): er what sunday?
psyclown02 (4:45:19 am): lol my memory is to good
swrdmastr666 (4:45:24 am): bfore valentines day?
psyclown02 (4:45:31 am): no that was teh feb 12th
swrdmastr666 (4:45:43 am): bfore valetines day
psyclown02 (4:45:47 am): im talking the 26th
psyclown02 (4:45:51 am): when you.. ya
swrdmastr666 (4:46:03 am): ok
psyclown02 (4:46:38 am): you need to find a way for me to see you and talk to you
one day... then the next we need to see kara so i can test you out
swrdmastr666 (4:46:50 am): so i am the object now?
psyclown02 (4:47:00 am): you are currently the recon
swrdmastr666 (4:47:18 am): or am i the clay that is being remolded by someone
psyclown02 (4:47:41 am): look i want rob away from kara
psyclown02 (4:47:45 am): i want you to be happy
psyclown02 (4:47:49 am): i think you want the same 2 things
psyclown02 (4:47:55 am): except
psyclown02 (4:47:57 am): if we do this right
psyclown02 (4:48:00 am): kara will be happy too
swrdmastr666 (4:48:05 am): have i n ot been happy this past month?
psyclown02 (4:48:12 am): not when you were with kara
swrdmastr666 (4:48:19 am): i thought i was
psyclown02 (4:48:24 am): you had to hold yourself back
psyclown02 (4:49:01 am): and not when you saw rob with kara
swrdmastr666 (4:49:13 am): ya i kno
psyclown02 (4:49:26 am): ive promised kara i would try not to be an asshole to rob
psyclown02 (4:49:45 am): i sugget you do the same
psyclown02 (4:49:55 am): otherwise kara will mentally cross you out
swrdmastr666 (4:49:59 am): i've kept my tongue since febuary
psyclown02 (4:50:02 am): i know
psyclown02 (4:50:13 am): you're better at it than i am
psyclown02 (4:50:45 am): he was getting pissy and looked at me while he was next
to her
psyclown02 (4:50:55 am): "its really hard to contain myself from hitting you right now
danny"
psyclown02 (4:50:58 am): "oh raelly rob?"
psyclown02 (4:51:32 am): "you know if you loved her as you say you do my
comments wouldnt effect you at all... if you raelly are effected this much.. then hit
me see where it gets you"
psyclown02 (4:51:38 am): ... ya kara reached over and slapped me
swrdmastr666 (4:51:54 am): ok seriously u need to believe this if rob did attack you
in my presence i would attack him
swrdmastr666 (4:52:01 am): or at least b on ur side
psyclown02 (4:52:16 am): onlybecause its the opposite of robs side
swrdmastr666 (4:52:30 am): and ur technically the good guy
swrdmastr666 (4:52:48 am): ur trying to play god and doing a pretty good job at it
swrdmastr666 (4:52:55 am): well in your case jesus
psyclown02 (4:53:01 am): isnt that what fucked me over in the first place?
swrdmastr666 (4:53:14 am): ur doing better than i could do
psyclown02 (4:53:22 am): i guess the difference is if you say no i'll stop
psyclown02 (4:53:26 am): last time i wouldnt have
swrdmastr666 (4:53:42 am): oh goody i taught you something
psyclown02 (4:53:48 am): you tought me alot
psyclown02 (4:53:55 am): you have shapped who i was sense freshman year
psyclown02 (4:54:09 am): thats why im so callous around mostppl
swrdmastr666 (4:54:12 am): ok thats a really bad typo
psyclown02 (4:54:24 am): lmao
psyclown02 (4:55:15 am): its 5 am... if/when you come over take this as you will but
chances are wut would work the best is u spending the night on a saturday and us
heading for a movie with kara or somthing inthe morning
psyclown02 (4:55:41 am): take that as you will you know i wont do anything and i
need to be able to have alot of time... just this alone took 3 hours
swrdmastr666 (4:55:53 am): well i am being difficult
psyclown02 (4:56:10 am): if you want to get this rolling you are going to have to stop
psyclown02 (4:56:31 am): same thing as was with matt you no spend night = we run
out of time
swrdmastr666 (4:56:53 am): matt?
swrdmastr666 (4:57:04 am): so lost
psyclown02 (4:57:07 am): he came over for like 4 hours at a time and we never got
anything done
psyclown02 (4:57:14 am): then he spent the night and we bet halo2 on leg
psyclown02 (4:57:18 am): beat*
psyclown02 (4:57:27 am): btw
swrdmastr666 (4:57:40 am): no i don't play multiplayer halo
psyclown02 (4:57:50 am): if you arent ready by last month of summer...
psyclown02 (4:58:24 am): all i know is im not starting the month without you being
ready
psyclown02 (4:58:33 am): because it will be a waste
psyclown02 (4:58:51 am): not to mention i have to set rob up for a fall just before
hand...and somehow make kara not be sympethetic
swrdmastr666 (4:59:19 am): don't mention him again
swrdmastr666 (4:59:20 am): .
swrdmastr666 (4:59:21 am): .
swrdmastr666 (4:59:22 am): .
swrdmastr666 (4:59:23 am): .
swrdmastr666 (4:59:24 am): .
psyclown02 (4:59:57 am): no jeff he will need to be mentioned.. i know it pisses you
off... but he is a player in this game and the least predictable variable
psyclown02 (5:00:23 am): if we do this without introducing him we are finished
before we began
swrdmastr666 (5:00:38 am): don't mention him again in this convo
psyclown02 (5:00:42 am): fair enough
psyclown02 (5:01:06 am): so when do you want to do this my house saturday kara
sunday?
psyclown02 (5:01:13 am): i suppose your house works too
swrdmastr666 (5:01:27 am): hah
psyclown02 (5:01:36 am): meh i spend night = we have time we need
swrdmastr666 (5:01:46 am): parents
psyclown02 (5:01:53 am): what about em?
psyclown02 (5:01:57 am): you have a room do you not?
swrdmastr666 (5:02:24 am): mayb
psyclown02 (5:02:30 am): closed minds = bad
psyclown02 (5:02:47 am): if i had a closed mind i would just doom kara to being with
rob
swrdmastr666 (5:02:51 am): fine i'll make it ez piss off not at my house
psyclown02 (5:03:34 am): im sure if we genuinly have a need for that you will realize
that.. i dont think we will tho
psyclown02 (5:04:17 am): give me a time? weekend after next?
swrdmastr666 (5:04:36 am): mmm
swrdmastr666 (5:04:40 am): lemme check
psyclown02 (5:04:59 am): we have... 8 weekends you are both here before last
month of summer
swrdmastr666 (5:05:12 am): uhh one sec
psyclown02 (5:05:15 am): fuck.. there is no way that is enough time
swrdmastr666 (5:05:16 am): i'm gone a weekend
swrdmastr666 (5:05:28 am): in late july
psyclown02 (5:05:37 am): jeff...
psyclown02 (5:05:46 am): i... grr... we can try but...
swrdmastr666 (5:05:53 am): what do u want me to do
swrdmastr666 (5:06:09 am): say fuck u mom and dad i'm not going on are family
vacation we do every year?
psyclown02 (5:06:29 am): you need to do whatever i say ill think of somthing but you
need to not be bitchy about it. and it will be within reason
psyclown02 (5:06:40 am): fuck this is going to be impossible
swrdmastr666 (5:06:42 am): i'm not getting outta this vacation
psyclown02 (5:06:51 am): and your not getting out of china
swrdmastr666 (5:07:08 am): hell no
swrdmastr666 (5:07:13 am): i have stuff to buy there
psyclown02 (5:07:16 am): ill work around that but we may have to come up with a
plan b
swrdmastr666 (5:08:30 am): btw odn't tell any1 but i am buying her something in
china
psyclown02 (5:08:36 am): dont
psyclown02 (5:08:50 am): wait what is it
swrdmastr666 (5:09:23 am): depends on what i find hopefully a jade necjlace or
something
psyclown02 (5:09:40 am): don't you dare make her think you are trying to buy her
heart
psyclown02 (5:09:49 am): thats what victor di dand thats another thing you fucked
up on
swrdmastr666 (5:09:50 am): its called being nice
psyclown02 (5:09:57 am): how is she going to look at it?
psyclown02 (5:10:00 am): thats what matters
swrdmastr666 (5:10:39 am): y does every1 think i am just money money money
swrdmastr666 (5:10:49 am): i don't flaunt it cept when other ppl bring it up
psyclown02 (5:11:01 am): i dont... i know you are more.. but if she does then you
need to avoid that at all costs
swrdmastr666 (5:11:27 am): fine but i'm still buying it
psyclown02 (5:11:42 am): ok but you will needto not give it to her for awhile
psyclown02 (5:11:47 am): she doesnt like being bought things
psyclown02 (5:11:58 am): she has told me this straight up at least 12 times
psyclown02 (5:12:55 am): she isnt like other girls
psyclown02 (5:13:00 am): that is somthing that is alluring about her
swrdmastr666 (5:13:20 am): and what would u call me?
swrdmastr666 (5:13:24 am): just plain wierd?
psyclown02 (5:13:49 am): i would call you fun to be around
psyclown02 (5:14:23 am): don't u need to go to bed?
swrdmastr666 (5:14:36 am): don't u need another hobby?
psyclown02 (5:14:54 am): oh please im sure you know thefeeling
swrdmastr666 (5:15:31 am): and don't presume i don't kno what its like
psyclown02 (5:15:55 am): i presumed you did know what is was like
swrdmastr666 (5:16:42 am): tell me is it worth it?
psyclown02 (5:16:53 am): is what worth it
swrdmastr666 (5:17:10 am): this whole kara deal
swrdmastr666 (5:17:16 am): is it worth it
swrdmastr666 (5:17:26 am): even if it only last for high school is it worth it
psyclown02 (5:17:42 am): if you want it to and we get past the month...
psyclown02 (5:17:47 am): i promise you it will go beyond hs
swrdmastr666 (5:17:56 am): is it worth it?
psyclown02 (5:18:28 am): ... but even if it does only last for high school... i know i
would do absolutly anything ebven if i could just be with you for high school...
anything. yes it is
psyclown02 (5:18:44 am): if you really believ you love her
swrdmastr666 (5:18:47 am): so its worth it?
psyclown02 (5:18:54 am): do you love her?
swrdmastr666 (5:19:09 am): yes
psyclown02 (5:19:16 am): then yes it is worth anything
swrdmastr666 (5:19:36 am): and what about her how does she feel towards me?
psyclown02 (5:20:00 am): she loved you at one point
swrdmastr666 (5:20:09 am): tisn't the question
psyclown02 (5:20:22 am): now? she doesnt love you. she isnt repelled by you
swrdmastr666 (5:20:46 am): you still havn't anwsered the question
psyclown02 (5:20:53 am): i dont get the question
swrdmastr666 (5:21:06 am): u've told me what isn't
swrdmastr666 (5:21:08 am): but what is?
psyclown02 (5:21:31 am): .. id ont know how to describe
psyclown02 (5:21:52 am): umm... friend wouldnt describe it because she loved you
psyclown02 (5:22:15 am): you are fishing
psyclown02 (5:22:29 am): you expect me to say somth truth that really hurts
psyclown02 (5:22:39 am): the truth at this point isnt going to hurt
swrdmastr666 (5:22:50 am): and y not
psyclown02 (5:23:00 am): because you have a chance
swrdmastr666 (5:23:59 am): the truth is you still don't kno me the truth is you still
don't kno what can hurt me. my walls are not as strng as they were bfore nor are
they as numerous and i haven no intention of makiing it that way again
swrdmastr666 (5:24:22 am): so don't tell me what won't hurt me
psyclown02 (5:24:43 am): then what were you fishing for
psyclown02 (5:25:08 am): in asking me what she feels for you
swrdmastr666 (5:25:19 am): exactly that
swrdmastr666 (5:25:46 am): like you i've got respect for you but i also hate you in
ways
psyclown02 (5:26:00 am): explain the hate
swrdmastr666 (5:26:31 am): mm hate
swrdmastr666 (5:26:36 am): such a complicated area
psyclown02 (5:26:44 am): was it jealousy?
swrdmastr666 (5:26:58 am): lets just sum it up as i don't like how you kno me so well
psyclown02 (5:27:04 am): once again
psyclown02 (5:27:07 am): you are afraid
psyclown02 (5:27:30 am): tell me this
swrdmastr666 (5:27:33 am): u kno me better than i want
psyclown02 (5:28:00 am): if it was another person who knew you so well? pentz,
kara, karen
psyclown02 (5:28:06 am): would you be ok with it?
swrdmastr666 (5:28:19 am): if i let them kno me
psyclown02 (5:28:38 am): i cant help that i am perceptive
psyclown02 (5:28:44 am): and i know people in general
swrdmastr666 (5:28:51 am): but u delved
psyclown02 (5:29:02 am): jeff
psyclown02 (5:29:06 am): i have paid my price for that
psyclown02 (5:29:12 am): ... i tried to kill myself
swrdmastr666 (5:29:33 am): really now?
psyclown02 (5:29:57 am): please you know i wont delve anymore. you know that. im
done going where i am not welcome
swrdmastr666 (5:30:19 am): i'm curious if ur willing how?
psyclown02 (5:31:59 am): i had a bottl of tylenol and a bottle of ibuprofin... pat was
the only one i told... i was going to take the tylenol (95% fatality rate on overdose)...
pat convinced me to take the ibuprofin (45%) ... i took all of the ibuprofin... it fucked
me up for a few days (i was able to hide it) but it didnt kill me
swrdmastr666 (5:32:42 am): do you regret it?
psyclown02 (5:32:49 am): not for a second
swrdmastr666 (5:32:59 am): and y did u listen to pat?
psyclown02 (5:33:19 am): he seemed like he needed me
psyclown02 (5:33:25 am): and other ppl needd me...
psyclown02 (5:33:33 am): remember how i try to make everything fair?
swrdmastr666 (5:33:47 am): the good simaritain
psyclown02 (5:33:48 am): they deserved a fair chance.
psyclown02 (5:34:18 am): that night...
psyclown02 (5:34:20 am): i got so little sleep
psyclown02 (5:34:27 am): i realized so much
psyclown02 (5:35:12 am): the next time i saw u it threw me off guard... because i
didnt see you as attractive as i did. you seemed different, your voice hoarse.
psyclown02 (5:35:26 am): i realized i can live without u
psyclown02 (5:35:29 am): even if i dont want to
swrdmastr666 (5:37:01 am): welcome to emo avenue after hours with no sleep
psyclown02 (5:37:20 am): you asked me why and how i tried to kill myself
psyclown02 (5:37:25 am): did you expect an un emo answer?
swrdmastr666 (5:37:32 am): no
swrdmastr666 (5:37:47 am): i expected an anwser
psyclown02 (5:38:13 am): we have very little time to prepare you. very little
psyclown02 (5:38:22 am): as soon as possible you need to get over here
psyclown02 (5:38:30 am): and stopid 4-6 hour blocks are useless
swrdmastr666 (5:38:44 am): what are u planning to do to me?
psyclown02 (5:38:49 am): that a joke?
psyclown02 (5:39:09 am): im planning to teach you how to change yourself to get
kara away from rob
swrdmastr666 (5:39:18 am): what am i changing
psyclown02 (5:39:36 am): they way you act, and hopefully think
psyclown02 (5:39:39 am): its possible
psyclown02 (5:40:05 am): and i cant be the one to get her away from who she needs
to not be with
swrdmastr666 (5:40:35 am): btw if u hadn't noticed i am being nicer to ppl these
days
psyclown02 (5:40:45 am): that isnt all that needs changing
swrdmastr666 (5:41:03 am): btw is combing my hair on the list?
psyclown02 (5:41:10 am): growing it longer?
swrdmastr666 (5:41:36 am): u don't answer questions with questions unless ur in a
theological debate or in politics
psyclown02 (5:41:47 am): no it isnt but combing it longer may be
psyclown02 (5:41:55 am): growuing it loner*
swrdmastr666 (5:42:16 am): imma have loner hair?
swrdmastr666 (5:42:17 am): bleh
psyclown02 (5:42:31 am): i wont let you get too ugly
swrdmastr666 (5:42:36 am): u said loner
swrdmastr666 (5:42:39 am): not longer
psyclown02 (5:42:46 am): longer* asshole
swrdmastr666 (5:42:53 am): there ya go
swrdmastr666 (5:42:59 am): cept technically it would need 2 *
swrdmastr666 (5:43:27 am): : p
psyclown02 (5:43:36 am): im going to be dead honest with you from here on out.
and if i cant expact the same from you... idk where this is going to go
swrdmastr666 (5:44:12 am): u want me 2 b honest eh?
swrdmastr666 (5:44:17 am): i can deal with that
psyclown02 (5:44:30 am): ive told you what happens if you're not
psyclown02 (5:44:56 am): lmao u scrolling up?
swrdmastr666 (5:45:02 am): huh no
swrdmastr666 (5:45:05 am): changing music
swrdmastr666 (5:45:48 am): so i'm spose to b honest then ask me i'll start now
psyclown02 (5:45:56 am): i mean dont be ambigous
swrdmastr666 (5:46:16 am): then i've got to start now or i'll never get over my habit
swrdmastr666 (5:46:21 am): neh?
swrdmastr666 (5:47:10 am): so ask me a question
psyclown02 (5:47:28 am): you dont know how honesty works do you?
psyclown02 (5:47:41 am): think of it this way.. you can t be difficult
psyclown02 (5:47:44 am): or we are fucked
swrdmastr666 (5:47:57 am): so ask me a question whats so difficult
psyclown02 (5:48:06 am): i have no questions
psyclown02 (5:48:16 am): unless u are fishing for somthing
swrdmastr666 (5:48:19 am): i have a hard time believing that
psyclown02 (5:48:24 am): in wich case stop fishing and be honest
swrdmastr666 (5:48:35 am): i want to kno what u want to kno
psyclown02 (5:48:44 am): i know what i want to know
swrdmastr666 (5:49:07 am): then ask
psyclown02 (5:49:10 am): ?
psyclown02 (5:49:15 am): why ask when i already know?
swrdmastr666 (5:49:30 am): do u kno until you hear the answer?
swrdmastr666 (5:49:40 am): do you know what will kill you bfore it does?
psyclown02 (5:49:40 am): you've told me all the answers before
psyclown02 (5:49:54 am): you are doing what i asked you not to
swrdmastr666 (5:50:05 am): there are always more answers
psyclown02 (5:50:12 am): then give me them
psyclown02 (5:50:16 am): and stop making me work blindly
swrdmastr666 (5:50:17 am): ask
psyclown02 (5:50:23 am): i dont know what to ask
psyclown02 (5:50:29 am): jeff you are being diffivult
psyclown02 (5:50:39 am): exactly what i told you you couldnt do
psyclown02 (5:50:55 am): if you dont tell me waht to ask... then i will misconstrude
this... and it will throw off my judgement
swrdmastr666 (5:50:58 am): i'm telling you to ask a question that i will b honest
about. anything you want
psyclown02 (5:51:10 am): you are fishing
swrdmastr666 (5:51:29 am): i'm waiting for you to ask something
psyclown02 (5:51:34 am): a certain somthing
swrdmastr666 (5:51:39 am): anything
psyclown02 (5:51:41 am): fine
psyclown02 (5:51:51 am): are you thinking i will ask a specific thing?
psyclown02 (5:51:57 am): ok then
swrdmastr666 (5:52:32 am): .....
psyclown02 (5:52:40 am): look this is when i ask a favor for just myself of you.
psyclown02 (5:53:21 am): could you let me say "i love you" when i want to? without
being afraid of your reaction? it makes things much more controllable... and i want an
answer not somthing difficult
psyclown02 (5:53:31 am): not in public cause i would fail anyway
psyclown02 (5:54:18 am): i have to go to bed anyway
swrdmastr666 (5:54:32 am): btw
swrdmastr666 (5:54:39 am): 27/28 works
psyclown02 (5:54:42 am): ?
swrdmastr666 (5:54:42 am): or should
swrdmastr666 (5:54:54 am): kara wants 2 c x-men
psyclown02 (5:55:09 am): the 27th?
psyclown02 (5:55:11 am): thats...
psyclown02 (5:55:18 am): jesus... a week before school gets out
swrdmastr666 (5:55:24 am): thats a saturday don;t u need a day to work on me
psyclown02 (5:55:31 am): but... god so little time
swrdmastr666 (5:55:43 am): i'm a fast learner
psyclown02 (5:55:44 am): im not sure i will be able to get you read by when we need
u ready by
psyclown02 (5:55:50 am): yes but you dont change easily
swrdmastr666 (5:56:03 am): ye of little faith
psyclown02 (5:56:22 am): damnit lemme leave with i love you! i would like to end on
an ok note
swrdmastr666 (5:56:49 am): ur on an ok note
psyclown02 (5:56:57 am): bleh prz?
swrdmastr666 (5:57:16 am): iye
psyclown02 (5:57:22 am): wow
psyclown02 (5:57:25 am): its spelled iie
psyclown02 (5:57:43 am): goodnight then
psyclown02 (5:57:53 am): gah! /explode
psyclown02 (5:58:19 am): oh comon cant even say gnite back?
swrdmastr666 (5:58:38 am): mornin'
psyclown02 (5:58:51 am): bird fru! (srry watching channel 10)
psyclown02 (5:58:58 am): and fuck u im staying up for a lil longer
psyclown02 (5:59:07 am): /grumbles and opens wow
swrdmastr666 (5:59:11 am): good u owe me weapon chants
psyclown02 (6:00:11 am): ok sense when am i your bitch?
swrdmastr666 (6:00:21 am): since i sent u like a bajillion greens
psyclown02 (6:00:26 am): fair enough
psyclown02 (5:10:16 am): u read slow
end
lloyddarkheartx (5:10:22 am): dude

lloyddarkheartx (5:10:30 am): you almost locked up my comp
lloyddarkheartx (5:10:34 am): i can read it now
psyclown02 (5:10:38 am): ...
psyclown02 (5:10:39 am): /sigh
lloyddarkheartx (5:11:04 am): yes, sigh.
loyddarkheartx (5:17:56 am): i'm reading the beginning of this and he sounds
sensible.
psyclown02 (5:18:02 am): he is
psyclown02 (5:18:08 am): this is after i got him frierndly again
lloyddarkheartx (5:18:29 am): your jeff faction has increased to neutral!
psyclown02 (5:18:39 am): read
psyclown02 (5:22:36 am): psyclown02 (3:44:49 am): jeff you are never stuck in one
place
psyclown02 (3:44:57 am): that is only an illusion
psyclown02 (3:45:02 am): you take a few leaps
psyclown02 (3:45:10 am): you get where you want to be
im awsome
lloyddarkheartx (5:23:29 am): lawllersawse
psyclown02 (5:23:34 am): shaddup and read
lloyddarkheartx (5:23:42 am): i am, stop imin me
lloyddarkheartx (5:31:36 am): swrdmastr666 (4:52:30 am): and ur technically the
good guy
swrdmastr666 (4:52:48 am): ur trying to play god and doing a pretty good job at it
swrdmastr666 (4:52:55 am): well in your case jesus
lloyddarkheartx (5:31:38 am): <3
psyclown02 (5:31:42 am): reaf
lloyddarkheartx (5:35:50 am): can i ask you a question?
psyclown02 (5:35:56 am): shoot
lloyddarkheartx (5:36:16 am): is one of the reasons yer showing me all this to
understand jeff? something i can do as a middleman?
psyclown02 (5:36:39 am): this story does have an end
lloyddarkheartx (5:36:48 am): doubtful.
psyclown02 (5:36:52 am): or a beggining of another story... wich isnt written yet
lloyddarkheartx (5:36:54 am): life stories never have ends.
psyclown02 (5:36:55 am): thank god
lloyddarkheartx (5:37:08 am): they just don't get parts published. =p
psyclown02 (5:37:19 am): read
lloyddarkheartx (5:39:07 am): please. you know it's annoying me.
lloyddarkheartx (5:39:22 am): "read"
psyclown02 (5:39:31 am): ur almost done with it
psyclown02 (5:39:51 am): and story is almost over
lloyddarkheartx (5:40:06 am): fine...but please do not tell me to plain "read".
psyclown02 (5:40:16 am): srry its my impatient
psyclown02 (5:40:18 am): ness
lloyddarkheartx (5:40:36 am): i share the same fair idea.
lloyddarkheartx (5:40:42 am): please respect it.
lloyddarkheartx (5:40:48 am): oh..
lloyddarkheartx (5:40:58 am): sleeping tonigh...err today?
psyclown02 (5:41:05 am): eventually
lloyddarkheartx (5:41:12 am): allright, i'll speed me upa little.
lloyddarkheartx (5:44:45 am): hmm...
lloyddarkheartx (5:44:50 am): *mulls it over*
lloyddarkheartx (5:44:53 am): so.
lloyddarkheartx (5:45:06 am): can jeff be this sensible normally?
psyclown02 (5:45:17 am): rarely
psyclown02 (5:45:22 am): after that he never took me up on the offer
psyclown02 (5:45:27 am): he got really bitchy
lloyddarkheartx (5:45:31 am): fool.
psyclown02 (5:45:33 am): and said not ultil after china
psyclown02 (5:45:43 am): of corse knwing what he was giong to do there
post edit* he told cat he really like her in china... because she reminded
him of kara... then on theplane ride home cat basically told everybody that
he said he liked her and then continually bashed him for it...
lloyddarkheartx (5:45:48 am): yeah...

lloyddarkheartx (5:45:54 am): and the worst part...
psyclown02 (5:45:56 am): he promised to see me alone after china.. within 5 days
lloyddarkheartx (5:46:09 am): i witnessed almost everything in china.
psyclown02 (5:46:17 am): trent...
psyclown02 (5:46:23 am): you have no idea how much i wanted to be there with him
lloyddarkheartx (5:46:29 am): no, i do.
psyclown02 (5:46:35 am): you will never know how much one could want somthing
lloyddarkheartx (5:46:38 am): realize that i do.
lloyddarkheartx (5:46:46 am): stop for a second.
lloyddarkheartx (5:47:05 am): how can i put this into words...
psyclown02 (5:47:05 am): honestly trent..... you cant know how much i wanted to go
psyclown02 (5:47:24 am): i pulled the crying act in front of murray and funianni... to
get into 1st period band
psyclown02 (5:47:29 am): it got me there
psyclown02 (5:47:50 am): but they already had everybody they could fill
lloyddarkheartx (5:47:55 am): i know how much you wanted to go as much as i want
to share my love with someone else. to take care of someone...that emptiness that
i've been missing.
lloyddarkheartx (5:48:21 am): do me a favor...and consider that others share an
equal amount of pain and want.
psyclown02 (5:48:28 am): i cant see that
lloyddarkheartx (5:48:36 am): you can't.
psyclown02 (5:48:41 am): you are going through normal problems
psyclown02 (5:48:47 am): look at mine
psyclown02 (5:48:52 am): its not guy likes girl
lloyddarkheartx (5:48:53 am): oh, i look at yours.
psyclown02 (5:48:56 am): it's not guy likes guy
lloyddarkheartx (5:48:57 am): i see it.
lloyddarkheartx (5:49:06 am): it's...complicated.
lloyddarkheartx (5:49:14 am): there isn't any description.
lloyddarkheartx (5:50:14 am): take a second and look at the pain of everyone as they
strive for something they want. it ends out equal. everyone in the world shares and
equal amount of pain.
psyclown02 (5:50:22 am): see trent...
psyclown02 (5:50:28 am): ive never been striving for somting i want
psyclown02 (5:50:37 am): i never tried to be with jeff....
psyclown02 (5:50:51 am): i tried for somthing he wanted.... gave up my life for it
psyclown02 (5:50:54 am): and got nothing in return
psyclown02 (5:51:00 am): but i loved him so no matter how mcuh it hurt
psyclown02 (5:51:06 am): i kept doing it...
lloyddarkheartx (5:51:14 am): no need to describe further.
psyclown02 (5:51:22 am): lets finish shall we?
lloyddarkheartx (5:51:26 am): i do feel that pain, wether you believe it or not.
lloyddarkheartx (5:51:35 am): yes, then finish that, for i still ahve somethign to say.
psyclown02 (5:51:44 am): wwell say it
psyclown02 (5:51:52 am): cause when ur done i would like to continue
lloyddarkheartx (5:52:36 am): do you believe that everyone is born with a single
purpuse in life? that there is one thing that they set out to do? i'm not saying that this
thing is the only thing that they can do, but it's their main objective.
lloyddarkheartx (5:53:10 am): then what?
psyclown02 (5:53:21 am): i believe every man has control of his life
psyclown02 (5:53:24 am): completely and entirely
psyclown02 (5:53:49 am): if i wanted to go to china... i could have gone... but it
wasnt worth jeff's reaction at me bing there unplanned
psyclown02 (5:53:57 am): planned he could have delt with
psyclown02 (5:54:50 am): but not so much me just howing up

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here this is the conversation i had with trent..

all the referances are at the bottom

psyclown02 (12:13:55 am): im debating on going to kelseys party

me- "you got a pencil?"

psyclown02 (4:30:38 am): swrdmastr666 (12:38:19 pm): were u getting at something

psyclown02 (4:37:49 am): herro?

psyclown02 (4:58:32 am): swrdmastr666 (2:36:08 am): so what is teh deal?

lloyddarkheartx (5:10:22 am): dude

lloyddarkheartx (5:45:48 am): yeah...

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