Dont Believe In Anything

Details: Quarterlogy Title : Dont Believe In Anything

Genre : Family, Friendship, Romance Rating : General Language : Indonesia and English

Theme song : YUI- Good Bye Days Author : Amel Chan

Synopsis: Human is a pupil, pain is the teacher. -Ryosuke Yamada-

Cats: Ryosuke Yamada Dyan patricia P.P as as Ryosukey Diyanu (Out Character)

Aneri (Diyanus best friend) Otousan (Ryosukes Dad) Furata (Ryosukes Brother) Ishida Mura (Rival-male)

Part 4

Hi Key, How Are You?

June, 11st "Key, your face looks pale." Taka approached me in the kitchen. As a waitress I should not be in the kitchen. But now I'm not at work. After delivering an order of pasta on the table 9, I struggled with a bit of rest kitchen. Senior chef was busy with a menu. Sound oil splashing mastering the kitchen atmosphere. Assistant chef knows exactly what to do, without any clue they move with the desired head chef. I stood leaning against the wall near the kitchen door, "Suddenly my body a little feverish, perhaps fatigue."

Taka check my body temperature with the back of his hand. "Oh god, your body gets very hot. Do not work, you'd better go home Key. I will replace your job tonight. "Taka pulled my arm to the dressing room. "Change your clothes and i will stop the bust for you." "No, this is not the first time you take my work. I still can do it." "You idiot. Hurry go home, I'll tell the boss later. Besides boss did not come tonight." Actually I was reluctant with the kindness of Taka. But what could I do, my body is not able to compromise. Even now it feels could no longer stand. Cold sweat flowed from his hand. My breath has started to be irregular. "Please your help tonight Taka, I'm go home now." Joints my legs tremble, slowly losing power. Do not be here. As soon as possible I forced myself out of the restaurant and toward the bus stop. I climbed the blue bus is always i use when I go home. Quiet as usual. My breath feels hot. One ... two ... three stops are skipped. And now the bus stop at the stop to the four. I stood sustain the body by holding on to the chairs. Then swiping the card at an automatic machine near the door as payment transactions. To get home I have to go on foot as far as 700 meters. Tonight was very tortured. No sound an owl, no sound of car, not even the sound of the breeze. Time was running very slow, very slow until I could not feel my breath itself. "Bughh!" A strong blow hit my stomach, followed by three others who managed to make me blow fell without a fight. "I've been waiting for you here". A man the same age as me standing in the middle of the road. "Key's your name? Look, this is a warning. Never approach Diyanu again! " "Approaching Diyanu? What is wrong? I do not feel like serving nonsense." The words just to escape from his condition that increasingly can not be controlled, making the core blows the pain had grown raged. One point in stomatch react quickly spread pain throughout the body. "So grab sweetheart of other people think it's just nonsense? Wow terrific. Me and Diyanu have one year of dating, the last before moving here he promised only going to paint my face. But what? All sketch book filled with your face. There is not his intention to paint myself. If you're smart you should know what the meaning of it all. "He pulled my arm which was lying forced weak. "Why not fight? Scared? Coward! Do not just dare to act from behind, if it is really great opponent me now! "With great emotion these people slamming my face few punches again. It seemed eager to fight. How dare he stepped on my pride. But where could I ask for break time and told me I was sick. Can not move. Memory and my vision is not very clear tonight, because my body and my mind busy pounding overcome burning in the stomach. There was the faint sound of people I know. He defended me. His voice was angry. There was a crash of heavy metals, such as a slamming noise bins. There is a tone of threat in his words. "Once again disturb my friend, I will bring this case to the police! Got it? "The man turned out to Taka. With bar-bar towards him swinging a wooden boy who does not know me. The man fled with a few bruises on his body.

"At first I was just worried about your condition. Fear of falling in the middle of the road. And it had nothing to attack you. Could still stand? "Taka helped me sit down and lean my hand. "Hehh ... damn .. shit ... other times will not release me." I winced. "It's no good tomorrow. Why you can not puch people like that hah? I take you go to home now. "He reached out to help me stand up. I greeted him and ... Can not move. Move makes me more sick.

I grimaced as he bent over holding his stomach. "The blow was so hard ya? Can not even stand up. "Taka squatting," rapid rise, I'll pick her up to the house." ***

How can the sound of silence was very loud and makes my ears awake. My body still feels not powered. White and blue, and the antiseptic smell of this makes me realize where now. Hospital. Why is he here? "Ryosukey, well you're awake?" Asked a nurse who was old enough. "Who brought me here?" "At midnight yesterday you were picked up by a friend named Taka. At that time your condition is almost critical. What are you fighting with the thugs so black and blue?" Obviously. "Aa ... well ... "I remember when Taka carried me on his shoulder. My guess was he would transport me to come home. But it turns out in hospital ... "Sister ... What I've come home now? " "Ryosukey, wait a minute, you will meet doctors who deal with you." Unfinished nun spoke at length the door opened, 50 years old doctor smiled warmly. "Doctor Won?!" I'm a little surprised to see a doctor who had very often met.

"Good morning Key, actually I do not want you lying here, but there are serious issues to talk about now. You've been too long to gain time. "Said the doctor Won. Physician's full name is Ji Won Young. He was a North Korean who got a college scholarship at the University of Tokyo Department of Medicine, specialist in internal medicine. And in return for Doctor Won scholarship must serve to the Japanese government to work in this hospital. We have long known about one and a half years ago. The first time I felt the lack the stomach, the father said magh disease. During treatment with all I ask for advice and solutions to physicians to help disabled leg of father. They are a lot of talk about it, it may not regrow legs father who was in amputation. When using a prosthetic father still have to use a cane. For a while the father only uses a wheelchair. I plan to seek the father to be made robot legs. So they can walk without a cane, although not be as flexible as real legs. I guess it's better, so his father could run the activity, work, and go where he wants to light. But it all takes a huge cost. Doctor Won may not bear for all the costs. After all he is a specialist in internal medicine, leg amputation, or manufacture of robots instead of the field. But doctor Won promised will contact the doctor who could deal with it and talk about what is needed, how much it costs to collect. I asked for help time and again to friends who will handle father later on when it's time to want to wait for the money it collected. "Give me about 2 years", that's what I told him first, then I start going crazy working. At the same time I told the doctor Won about brother who was blind because of a step as a child. Doctor Won help me again in earnest. He introduced the new kid who just graduated from Junior High School to his friend ophthalmologist. Ophthalmologists ask my brother or Furuhata brought to the hospital to be examined how experienced severe blindness. With great difficulty I managed to take him to the hospital, but Furuhata provide terms, the cost of inspection will Furuhata own risk. Okay, no problem for Key, an important action after investigation that later. Doctors have obtained data of Furuhata health conditions. He said if amplatasi eye surgery, Furuhata still have a chance to heal. Glad to hear the opportunities that, Key asked for more time also to the doctor to give him 2 years. 2 year he will try to collect the fee and study the procedures to be undertaken during the operation will be carried out. Big fortune, the three doctors were willing to help children who are new to high school seniors like me. Even though I knew they were skeptical of the plans and effort that will I do. The doctor Won skeptic Key waste with hard work. doctor Won know any job that I wrestled including make scientific papers and thesis. Even if it's the wrong job. But I need the job, because the wages earned can be up to tens of millions for 1 piece paper. That's all I did for my father and brother. "Nurse, please leave us alone." The doctor smiled at the nurse and find a comfortable sitting position beside the mattress. "It seriously?" My brow furrowed. "Before that I please talk to your doctor first?" "Of course Key, just say" "I wish my father and brother carried out the operation this week. I please do the inspection and operating procedures. Be made a robot leg that fit to my father. I'm afraid there's no time anymore for it. I think the money collected was enough. " i miserably.

Doctor Won paused, quite shocked. And touched. From the initial meeting with Key he was feeling very loved like a son. "That's not what I'm talking about Key" said the doctor Won. "But this is what I'm talking about doctors. It is more important than anything for me in this world. Although there is little concern the cost of making the feet the father will be less. But please do me, I implore. "Key bow deeply while sitting on a hospital mattress. Her hand cramps because infus. "If it costs less, I would sell my cornea for people who need them. I will sell at high prices. Physicians do not worry I'll make a stamp of approval on this recognition. "I said frantically. "Stop it Key." Doctor Won holding my hand. It felt like a father's hand. I do not remember when my father holding my hand like this. "From the words sound like you are familiar with the condition itself Key. Are you suffering colon cancer nearly a year since this was on the brink of chronic. I've explained to you before that this is a vicious cancer of all types of cancer. Until now there is no survivor of colon cancer. But we've been trying to provide care and medications that you need. I just regret why you did not want to follow the chemotherapy? I already think like a child himself. Do not worry about the cost of chemotherapy because I will pay it for you. But ur character indeed stubborn. "Said Dr. Won slowly. "It's not important doctor, who are in my head only father and brother. Useless doing chemotherapy in diseases that are likely heal just 0.1 percent. For what? At least I want to do something useful before I die. Now all I need is your support doctors, please. "Key bowed his head, not to beg. But as her tears flowed. Why these tears flow? what fear doctors Won will not help him? Is it because his father and brother eventually moved to the surgery? What is sad because I did not try to bet with chemotherapy and recovered a small chance? What I'm sad for fear of death? What I'm sad because fear can not see my father and brother again? Or am I sad that fate should I live? Why is this my tears flow? 've Come this far why should cry? The first time saw Key crying, feelings of regret and affection turmoil move his arm to embrace the Key into the muscular arms that are no longer. "You're my boy Key" he whispered. Key cried silently.

June, 17th Medical treatment for his father and brother carried the same week but different hospital in the city. I submit the issue of financing to the doctor Won, all results are given all of her savings. Because I worry about that big at all if I did not hand over the money. Dad takes the process a more relaxed and time long enough for the formation of electric prosthetic limbs. Nothing to note. Furuhata fifteen minutes ago, entered the operation room to undergo eye transplant. A woman who died due to accident donated his corneas for furuhata. The night was hot. Concerns fulfill my chest. Then a woman wearing a white sweater and skirt purple sitting next to me.

"Please apologize to Ishida actions yesterday. I do not know if he hit you that night. I just found out this afternoon from Taka. I asked him why you have a week off work, then he told me everything. "Diyanu spoke hesitantly. "It's okay, forget it." Key to see the leaves rustling in the wind tonight. His voice was soothing, like singing a lullaby. "From the beginning you always stalk Diyanu?" I said flatly. Diyanu looked very shocked. "That, it .... I just ... " "It's okay. I know and just let you follow me everywhere. Apparently the note was fun too." The sentence was ejected in the same position as I see the whisper of leaves. We sat in a chair under a tree ex. I did not wait inside because Furuhata operation will only make me more chest tightness. "Please apologize me" persuasion Diyanu. "Diyanu what do you want to help me?" Slightly puzzled by the attitude of Key, Diyanu disturbing, "Well, for what?" "You already know what I'm doing every day. Is there any want you ask? Just ask. Because then if anything happens to me. And if anyone asks about me please tell them everything you know. So ask what you want to ask. "Key shifted his gaze from the leaves of the tree toward Diyanu. "What is this? I do not know what happened. And you talk weird would happen as if a big thing. " "Do not deny an appointment, you said it would help me." Diyanu really surprised. He's like dealing with a deadly genius mind. "Well, you're not hospitalized. But why still here? "She asked "Ooh, now Furuhata eye transplant surgery. I hope the operation was successful. " "Correct? You should have told me earlier. We're neighbors. So I can take accompany the mother and Aneri here. Then where is your father? " "My father is now being treated for the manufacture of his new leg. I hope it will also succeed. " Diyanu glared upset with Key, "For this important thing that you did not notify the neighbors close to you huh?" Key silently stared at his hands trembling. "Key you cold?" Diyanu ask, he brought about providing a scarf in the bag to me. "Thank you" I welcome her shawl. "There again, why do you always fight with my father and Furuhata?" "It turns out you were distracted by a fight that well." Key sad smile. "Most of the commotion it

caused me. I always come home late, denied the words father and Furuhata, antisocial, casually. I guess it's a natural thing when they are angry. But that's all for them " "You mean?" Diyanu furrowed his brow. "Before moving to Kagoshima i live in Yokohama. I am a naughty student and often make noise together my gang. We Tauran and fights to show his power and strength of each gang. Well then, my gang is very famous because the people in it. My family hassles because of problems that arise ...." hahahaha I laughed softly. "Until the attack took place. I myself come home from my friend's house. Gang up and beat my opponent out for revenge because I burned the money they robbed from elementary school children. The money was not a lot really. But they all turned out revenge. When the father came to help me, and one of the rival gang pushed father and fell from the bridge crossing. And not unexpectedly, a car ran over my father's legs so lame as it is now. It's all wrong for me. "I paused long enough before continuing the story.

"Since then I curse myself. I regret deeply. My mother is dead, Furuhata blind and need more attention, and my father is now crippled for life. My father lost his job. Greater regret when I realized that I already no one can work for a living in family. Treatment father took many months until he can sit the wheel chair. Need for living expenses. At the time I just could drain all the savings to cover medical costs dad and daily necessities. Then the more I realize, money is thin and almost gone. I started looking for a job and lied about age to be accepted to work. Initially I worked in Yokohama as dishwashing and cleaning in a nursing home. With the depressed state of mind and family, still looking for rival gang problem and fishing scene. They managed to get me fired three times from the workplace. Then I asked my father to move from Yokohama anywhere, to start a new life and promise not to throw tantrums anymore. " Diyanu see key rubbed his hands, maybe he cold. "Eventually we moved to Kagoshima. And as a promise to my father, I'm not throwing a tantrum. After moving a lot of what I thought. Disability father is my responsibility. So I think the plan of rescue for father's leg. I want to later be Furuhata can work and help my father, so I'm also thinking about how to transplant surgery for his eyes. Then I realized something was wrong with my body. That's what drives me crazy work without thinking of the time. Because I have to collect large amounts of money quickly."

"Something is wrong with your body? What is "Diyanu asked cautiously.

"At first doctors Won think magh disease and more chronic. But a few weeks after that he found the cancerous cells. and said that you were suffering from early symptoms of colon cancer. Lately I feel it getting worse. So I begged my father and Furuhata surgery done this week. " "How are you now?" Diyanu worry, she's like no matter what the operating Furuhata or father. He worried about Key. "Thank you for listening to me, but I'm not going to answer this one question. Because if someone asks me about my illness, the doctor Won who the most know and understand what he said. "Key glanced at his watch. Already half an hour since they talked. "What father and furuhata know you're a fund and plan this operation?" "No, they would not if know that I finance them. Doctors say that there are volunteers who are willing to fund. Ah I'm tired, will you keep Furuhata here served until the operation is complete? I've called Taka to accompany his father in the hospital. Now I want to go home, shower and rest. Tomorrow after school I take care of permits will be back here. "Clearly Diyanu me on that looked a little confused and empathy. "Yeah, go home. Furuhata Trust in me. "Diyanu assured. I handed the Diyanu purple scarf and headed home.

*** June 18th Voice alarm clock has been ringing since five minutes ago. Under normal circumstances it sounded a loud alarm sound and deafening. But the voice sounded faint my ears. I got up and turned off the alarm. Immediately wash my face with slow motion. I promised Diyanu after school care will soon permit the hospital. Do not let Diyanu school not because of him. The plan I would say to the principals that helped my family keep Furuhata at hospital and will soon come to school when I arrived at the hospital. The school principal will definitely allow Diyanu although late to class two hours. I was wearing a blue jacket favorites. Without buying time I ran towards the stairs. But just two steps down the stairs, I felt a strong pain throughout the body. Pounding tight head. And the blood

running from his nose without unstoppable. My eyes spinning. My body was totally numb and sore. I can not feel the body's balance and tumbled off the ladder. My head hit the floor under the stairs. The pain is actually not due to the impact. But from the whole body. My stomach hurts. I curled up on the floor, holding his stomach. My head dizzy. Feels going to explode. Viscous liquid was inhibiting the respiratory tract. I coughed to remove red spots. God help .... I want to know whether the operation succeeded brother. I want to know the state of the father. Please give me a little longer as you have done so far. Please god .... Unwittingly, my tears flowing, flowing naturally and sincerely. If anything should go okay. I've done my job. My task has been completed. Father, brother ..... Please forgive me. I always made you hard. Please do not be mad at me anymore. Because now I miss laughing with you. I miss the joke while watching television. Please do not hate me for going this way. Believe me, I want to be with you, I want to see the brother get married. I want to see my father work again. And someday I want the three of us together back to Yokohama to visit my mother as it once was. At that time my father guiding hand. I held the tip of older clothes. And brother holding a bouquet of flowers for Mom. We pray and laugh together at the vortex of Mother. Although there is a sense of sad but happy at the surprise? My body vibration control. I cough uncontrollably and felt my body start to twitch. Motion system was dead. Moving body to harden. But I could feel my face still bear the pain. Slowly my body went limp and one second later my mind is lost. Everything is gone ...... .................

*****

Five years later

"Key, how are you? Are You okay right? "I laid a wreath on the tombstone of Key. Vortex that looks clean and well groomed. There are still residual water droplets of rain last night on his tombstone. Diyanu looked deep inside photo of the tombstone. I touched his face in the photo with a soft and full of hope. "Love at Key ....... We all really miss you. I, father, Furuhata, Taka, Doctor Won. Overall, we miss you. What you do not feel Key? "Single point of tears flowed and tears followed by another. "Excuse me well, after five years, only now I can visit you here. Really I'm sorry. I swear every time I miss you. Recorded day by day that I passed after your departure. "Hey, do you know. Your father is now opening a store selling toys this downtown Kagoshima. In the middle of her store and display your pictures herself the mother of all. And each will open and close the shop he always staring at you with a photo inside. Everyone knows the meaning of that look .... loving gaze .... I think your dad often visit here, right? "

Diyanu smiling, happy and sore. "Oh yes, what Furuhata you've ever visited here? He now lives in Yokohama. Re-buy the first house you occupy. The good news two years ago he married my best friend Aneri premises and now their child are six months old. Handsome boy they named Sora Key, there is great hope behind the name Key. Huuh turned out to people who Aneri ahahha your beloved brother ....." I laughed with feeling ..... I do not know .... I'm happy for them, for you, but based care, there is residual pain that can not be lost Key .... I thought about all the sacrifices painful if you do. You're sacrificing your happiness and life .... Are you happy for this key? And what you're happy now? Right? Are you happy? If you're happy, I can continue this life in peace. "You want to know my news is not? Another year I will finish college at Tokyo University medical school. I'll try to help people who suffer from cancer. I promised to you Key. When meeting with the children in the nursing of cancer, I met some kids who are desperate and pessimistic. I'm confused how to entertain them, but the figure you always control my mind. Spontaneously I tell them your story. And it turns out you are inspirational figure who could arouse their enthusiasm for life. " I've planted the promise that in the heart. I still remember my favorite place watched you from bedroom window. I always sit near the window and watch everything you do. From there I saw you in the morning delivering newspapers by bicycle and came home from work at night.

Should on that night, I said the thing the most I want to say. Key I love you, sincerely, from myheart. Yeah .. Well, another hour flight to Tokyo would set off. I had to go home and resume my life. Key Do not worry, I will visit you again. Trust me ....

Before walking away leaving the cemetery, I kissed Keys headstone poignant longing. See you again Key.

***** "Key, how are you? You're okay right? "

The End ------------------------------------------------ ----------------------------------

I just try the make the story the which can be our inspirate. Its not really good. But I love Key character here. He is strong, smart. But he is stupid because he think can feel all the pain and walk alone. I Could writen this story Because in my mind Key is Ryosuke Yamada. .......... "Key Hi, How are you? Are you okay? We all miss you. "

-Amel Chan, September 2011 -