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Letters from the Road
GuillermoG6mez-Pena
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1. "El BinationalBoxer"
back wall. The bartendersare two blond female bodybuilderswith designerbod- (G6mez-Pena)in a "video-
ies and minds. There are no Latino customers other than myself; but the music graffitti"by G6mez-Pena
and Chicanofilmmaker
coming from the originaljukebox is pure Latino '5os lounge, including Esquivel,
Perez Prado, Acerina, and Javier Cugat. Occasionally, we hear a tune by Herb Daniel Salazar (2000).
Daniel Salazar)
Alpert & the Tijuana Brass,who, as far as I'm concerned, is an honorary Latino. (Photoby
I wait for my friend, City Lights editor Elaine Katzenberger,while sippingMyers
rum.
Suddenly, in the middle of this typical Bay Area vignette, the door opens
abruptlyand an old Mexican homeless man pulling a shopping cart enters, hold-
ing what appearsto be a sharpened stick. He begins to scream in Spanglish at
the crowd: "I'm tired of all of you, yuppies del carajo!"He begins to theatrically
threaten some customers with his handmade "weapon." He is clearlyacting out,
but the Femme Nikita bartendershave a different opinion. They grab baseball
bats from behind the counter and go for the man's head. I cannot believe my
eyes. I instinctivelyjump in between them and manage to persuade Las Anime
Amazons that, "I'll take care of the situation." They back off reluctantly.I grab
the old man's arm, take him outside and tell him in Spanish, "Life'sa drag, ese.
You must be real tired, que no?"The man nods affirmatively."So am I." I try to
commiserate with him. He gives me a hug and begins to cry. "Carnal,"he says,
"all I need is a little pincheattention. I've been walking these streetsforever,but
since last year, no one looks at me anymore. These kids are arrogantand selfish.
They don't even imagine this was my hood just a few months ago."
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The reasonsbehind my third tattoo were many. I hadjust turned 43, and I was from
tesy of PochaNostra
becoming hyperconscious of my own mortality. Two of my favorite uncles had
just died; I had separated from a three-year-long relationship; and, as if this Archives)
weren't enough, a grumpy border patrolmandecided to invalidatemy green card
when I was coming back from Mexico. As you can imagine, these incidents
clearly marked the end of a chapter in my life, and the beginning of a new era.
And all this is now scripted on my body for good, as a performance script.
Lastyear, I got my most recent tattoo on the right side of my chest, opposite
the skull. It's a curious hybrid character,half samuraiand half lowrider, metic-
ulously rendered in traditionalYacuzza style by artistEddie Deutch. My "Pacific
Rim Vato Loco" is wearing a pachucohat pierced by a dagger whose handle reads
in Japanesecalligraphy:(phonetically):nan-jin, gay-juska,han-neen, which means,
"madman, artist, criminal." This artwork documents my renewed commitment
to radical art and social change in the dangerous era of globalization; and in
dialogue with the other tattoos, it constitutes a ritual affirmation of life on the
edges of an ever-dying Western civilization.
People often ask me if my tattoos affect my social interactions. Sure they do,
especially with cops. Despite the fact that tattoos have become commonplace,
and even Ivy League students and sugary pop singers wear them ostensibly,law
enforcement agents tend to observe me with suspicion. Why? A tattooed brown
body has very specific connotations for them. It is not just a bold act of social
defiance from a dark-skinnedmale, but a signifier of a criminalpastspent between
gang warfareand jail. Now, if to be a politicized Chicano performance artistin
102 Guillermo G6mez-Pena
the U.S. can be misconstrued as an act of social defiance and criminality,I fully
embrace the cops' misunderstanding.It gives me a strange kind of power.
Generation "MeX"
(I997)
I love my Generation MeX nephews madly. There is Ricardo, AKA "Ricar-
diaco," the skinny 25-year-old rockero from Mexico City; and Cristobal, the 22-
year-old existentialist grunge surferofrom San Diego. Our relationshipis crucial
from both ends. They are my philosophical heirs and indirect performance dis-
ciples, and by default, I am their surrogate father. My sweet but pusillanimous
brother Carlos, Ricardo's father,lives in TJ (Tijuana)and does not have the means
to support him; and Cristobal'sfather, don Fernando, has long been dead.
They are also my toughest critics. If one of my performances or Spanglish
poems does not fly in their eyes, I tend to kill it. Why do I pay so much attention
to them? In a way, they are my ideal audience. They are the "children gone
wrong" of globalization, the orphans of Chicanismo, Zapatismo, and any other
"ismo" you can imagine. I am analog, they are digital. Gleefully disconnected
from their roots, they are cyber-literate, fully bilingual, furthermore, biconcep-
tual-smart but monosyllabic-and their attention span is under Io seconds.
They were born in Mexico, true, though one may agree with Mexican writer
Carlos Monsivais that "they belong to the first generation of gringos born in
Mexico." Experts on transnationalpop culturaltrivia, they know very little about
what we boring adults call "life." They've seen many more guns and much more
blood than we have, yet they aren'treallytough. They never cry at family funerals,
but they always attend. Deep inside they harbor good feelings. Their sense of
loyalty to family and friends is thin but real.
Ricardo and Cristobal were born respectively in 1975 and '78, when their
parents' "counterculture"had already gone sour and the incipient punk move-
ment was emerging out of the ruins of modernity. Their "progressive"parents
were so "hip" that they decided to leave them alone to their own fate, without
a compass or existential structure.They grew up in complete silence, immersed
in a soliloquy of despair,with the permanent temptation of suicide, the reality
of hard drugs, and the ephemeral redemption of self-destructivelove a la Kurt &
Courtney (the film, not the albums). They now live stalking us with distrust,
unable to talk back-or rather tired of talking back-and with a much more
developed sense of style. In fact, everything in their lives is about style. From
1993 to 1997, Ricardiaco went through at least 25 different temporaryidentities
and corresponding hairdos. Among others, he became a designer cholo,a dyed-
blond rasta,a gangsterrapper,a lounge lizard,and a "skinheadfor peace" without
any (apparent)organic logic to these changes. He was merely "sampling"culture.
Content was secondary.The "look" was what mattered.
What my nephews and their friends lack is fear of death and mortality. To
them, death isjust ajoke, a good image, a rock tune. Death is...cool, and condoms
are a nuisance. The reasonsfor this are not lack of responsibilityor sex education,
but rathera nihilistic spirit of defiance. It's a neo-Aztec thang. They know very
well the risks of casuallove and are more than willing to take them.
Luckily, my Generation MeX nephews have found temporary redemption in
true love. Ricardo just found Paola, a beautiful ballet dancer and cyber-designer
who happens to be as skinny, skeptical, sarcastic,and aloof as he is; and Cristobal
found Jennifer, an unconditional accomplice to his contemplative sense of or-
phanhood. I love both couples though I feel awkwardaround them. I think that
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beyond our borders, in distant lands like Bogota, or Baghdad. At our farewell
party, one of Carolina'sfriends told me something that blew my mind. When I
asked him if he was planning to go to America in the near future, he responded:
"No, I don't like it up there. It's very violent. Everyone is armed, and racists
shoot people of color, just because." He had a point: violence is relative to who
you are and what you representat a given time and place. In this sense, someone
like me, a brown-skinned Mexican with a thick mustache and an even thicker
accent, might be saferin the streetsof Bogota than in Idaho, Wyoming, or Geor-
gia. Am I making my point?
If people in the '9os are having such a hard time distinguishing a right-wing
secessionist movement from an indigenous movement of political self-
determination, our ideological compass may not be working that well. I mean,
I just can't imagine a Mexican farmworker or a Zapatistasubcomandante arriving
unannounced at the Montana Militia camp and asking Trockman, "Oiga Sefior,
let's join forces. You are probably aware we have the same enemy." And him
answering: "Sure amigou. Let's organize the first binational guerrilla summit in
Tijuana."
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person who touches him or talks to him will instantly become an involuntary
actor, or rather, an ethnographic specimen. This "dogumentary"will certainly
provide me wth crucal i nformation about a rare species, El Homo Canofilus
Americanus.
On Dual Citizenship
(zooo)
It's late December, 1999, and my wife Carolina and I are sitting at the San
FranciscoINS office, waiting for my turn to get interviewed for citizenship. My
"resident alien card" was invalidatedby a border patrolmanwho couldn't deal
with an uppity Mexican. Besides, for the first time ever, Mexico and the U.S.
accepted dual citizenship and my lawyer suggested that instead of applying for
another green card (which may take me up to two and a half years to receive), I
should apply directly for citizenship.
It suddenly dawns on me: After o20 years of living in America, I'm gambling
everything I've got, including my family and friends, my art projects, even my
voice on National Public Radio. I hear my name in the loudspeaker:"Guermo
Comes Pennis." I enter a nondescript office with my heart pounding real fast. A
Chinese American INS officer welcomes me with a huge smile, as if I were some
kind of undocumented celebrity. "Aren't you... G6mez-Pefia...the performance
artist!?"No puedocreerlo,ya me cacharon coiio!(untranslatable)."Well...yes." I try
not to express my surprise. "I, I, love your, your book, The New WorldBorder,"
she tells me. "I didn't know that INS officers actually...read,"I said. I truly didn't
know how else to respond. "In fact," she tells me, "I am a writer myself. I've
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got two books out on Chinese American diasporic literature.""What are you
doing here? Researching the source of our immigrant pathos?" I ask her. She
cracks up, suddenly nervous, and then answers apologetically, "Well, there are
not that manyjobs availablein academia."It's one of those casesin which reality
is much strangerthan any of my writings.
Ten minutes later, I walk out of the INS office with my brand-new dual
citizenship. In a sense, I just exchanged my green card for the gold one. I give a
humongous kiss to Carolina. Our kiss is heard through the entire INS building.