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Throughout time we see man go through the hurdles of time. Man’s evolution
around the world is one of a kind through his motivation to survive until man became
superior species in earth. At his very best, he wanted to do more and focused on the
materials aspects – even if wasn’t necessary to his basic survival. Man’s moral quest is
inevitable that the way he was formed to keep seeking happiness and Augustine states
that man can find happiness only in God as He provides what the soul needs to be content
through love. Man inevitably loves. He goes beyond oneself because of love with objects
of love that could be his favorite guitar, or his best friend, or maybe even himself.
However, this love may be misguided as this type of love might result to a false happiness
and would bring man to the hate, temptations, guilt, or misery of mankind.
This love as Augustine would call this disordered love. A “love” that destroys and
takes hold of the incomplete person as he keeps chasing that “satisfaction” only to feel
that fallback leading him to push more until he falls in a depressive state. This is very
problematic as man sees happiness as a possession rather than a state. Loving material
things would only bring man so far and he wouldn’t achieve happiness if he keeps this
up. To Augustine, being happy is to love God. Love Him in a sense that man will dedicate
his service to Him that Augustine would like to point out that man should go beyond
himself to the supernatural, that he must let go of the material world and live his life
according to the laws of God. Thus, man should know what he should desire to be happy
for living with the physical world will not bring him true happiness but only God can provide
point of my life. Before this fall, life was great and fun. Never had to experience any major
suffering in my life. I was having fun playing for Babble back then. In Youth For Christ -
Ateneo I would serve alongside my closest friends. My family was in perfect shape and
we would always have a Sunday family time. My girlfriend-then and I celebrated our 4th
anniversary together. Everything seemed to fit into the picture until November 2017 when
my ex-girlfriend broke up with me because she was tired and wanted to focus on her
career as she would graduate before me. I was hurt, lost, and at shock. It didn’t help when
I learned that she had a one-night stand with someone and dated the said person. I was
so full of anger, insecurity, and resentment that I was motivated by the wrong idea. I
wanted to be happy but the means I had to go through wasn’t love. I forced myself to lose
weight. Often starving myself or overworking to lose a lot of pounds rapidly. Motivated by
hate, I thought I’d be “happy” if I get that revenge by showing that I was better than her.
This affected my relationships with my dearest friends, family, and ultimately to Him. I
I kept this toxic lifestyle until my father suddenly had a stroke and half his body
was stagnant. Seeing my dad at the hospital bed broke my heart. Trying to lie to myself
that everything was fine, I was still chasing that “happiness” even though everything was
falling apart. I thought that by getting a girlfriend I would remove my sadness. I forced the
idea and instead I hurt someone very significant to this day we haven’t been in touch with
each other I was lost. In efforts in being “happy” I ended up being so miserable that I had
a lot of sleepless nights and even thoughts of just ending my life with my insecurity at its
peak. This persisted until I finally decided to be vulnerable and letting go in controlling
everything in my life and just surrendered to Him. From there onwards, I accepted that I
was sad, that I was suffering, that I needed help. With finding that peace, I’ve eventually
forgave and asked forgiveness with my ex with everything that has happened, we shared
a moment in tears apologizing and laughing to each other with all the pain we’ve done to
each other. I’ve also mustered up the courage to forgive myself with all the pressure I’ve
placed upon myself, that I didn’t need to prove something off to be happy and just decided
to let go. I finally learned how to rest while the world is on fire and I wasn’t scared because
I knew in the end the day He wouldn’t leave my side that through living my life through
Modern life has been rapid. Oftentimes one would lost sense of time as one would
be busy with their personal agendas. With the fast paced of life, its easy to forget how to
live. How disordered love ruin relationships with our friends, family, significant others,
ourselves, and most importantly with Him. In a way, disordered love could be seen as
hate as it brings us to discord with the various aspects of our lives. It is the opposite of
love as an act that harmonizes these needs and their objects. The act of harmony
becomes a challenge in a world full of misunderstandings making it hard for people to see
Sometimes it be like that. We keep chasing that happiness that we want in life as
if it was like a possession of some sort so we tread the rough waters to “own it”. However
we get caught in a tsunami of burdens of life that keeps of weighing us down and as we
keep fighting against the waves, it becomes harder and harder as it starts to hurt us each
step we take only to realize that the more we push ourselves, the more we lose ourselves
against the currents of life. In times like this, it is best to be taken by the wave. Of course
you would get hurt and gasp for air – but the wave will eventually subside and we will
arrive at the shore. Exhausted yet across it is the sun setting down – a moment of serenity.
We must learn how to be vulnerable in life, to weep with the hardships in life, and
be honest about these challenges because in doing so will give us a clearer heart and
clearer mind when it comes to deciding our life decisions. Because when we choose to
acknowledge that we are hurt it shows that we have a strong character in adversity.
If we don’t let ourselves become vulnerable we are prone to close our doors as a
way of protecting ourselves. This prevents us from seeing God as the way to our true
happiness which might bring us to distorted views of how we live, of how one attains
happiness. Vulnerability in this case allows us to be open to our friends, family, ourselves,
and God. That vulnerability highlights our incompleteness which God will complete thus
I carry this pain of mine now and lift it up to him but then I realize that a lot of people
in the world are also suffering. With that, I’d like to show people that it is okay to be hurt
and vulnerable and it is nothing to ashamed of. In fact, it is one of the bravest things one
can do. I want to share to people that God completes your incompleteness, that He would
give you the happiness that you deserve because he created us in His likeness. By
making him our foundation of our life is only when we become truly loving like Him.
To end this reflection I would like to quote the bridge of Build My Life by Housefires
to summarize my response. “And I will build my life upon Your love it is a firm foundation
and I will put my trust in You alone and I will not retake it.” Thank you Lord, Amen.