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The cell shut with intentional and eternal force. I knew my feelings of captivity and loss
were insignificant compared to the feelings of my ancestors who once lay there. The everlasting
darkness and damp heavy ocean air revealed a place that I wish was kept unknown. The
transatlantic slave trade used to just be a thought sculpted into my history, but pushed behind
what the present has brought. The disturbing awe in the pleasing sounds of the ocean. Everything
I usually appreciated about nature changed. The faint voices on the other side of the thick tomb
looking door have seemed to grow unrecognizable. The passionate need for light and fresh air
made evident the internal disappointment I felt for not being built to endure the surrounding my
ancestors were once confined in. Initially, I went to Ghana in hopes to stumble upon a history
that felt more familiar than the one I was exposed to in the US. I thought that in visiting the Cape
Coast Slave Castles there would be turning point in the way I looked at my history. The many
white-washed history lessons my public school education provided me did not reveal all of the
rooted history that came with my ancestry. This rooted history did not consume me in the castle.
Walking around in the dungeon like tunnels touched a piece of me that I didn’t know was
there. The captivity, the pain, the blood, the steel, the chains. Was it a cause for gratitude over
the fact that those were no longer the circumstances people had to endure or a cause of mourning
at the hurt? I am a product of this history that I was not even sure how to react to. I went to
Ghana looking for a piece of myself that I knew was present but I wasn’t ready to face,
especially alone. I longed for familiarity in complexion, faith, and ancestry. I soon found that I
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was wrong to correlate the three. My time abroad was a designated learning experience that was
filled with lectures and statistics that I vaguely remember, but my time in the cell will always
As I walked outside the dungeon part of the castle out into the open air. I continued
toward the large balcony and caressed the canons while avoiding the chains on display. I looked
out into the immense ocean. All the water. It was terrifying. I no longer saw the Cape Coast
Castle as beautiful. I could only see death. I could only imagine the life lost. Furthermore, I did
not want to. I did not find as much comfort and awakening as my peers who were of no African
descent. I ached at the history lessons and interactive tour. How could such an abstract history
bring so much pain and familiarity? I found it odd that I was at a place that reflected black
history, but did not know the detailed story of what happened. Unlike when I am at home and the
evolution of technology allows every story my grandmother has told me to be proven with an old
picture or scrap from a local newspaper. This realization caused me to question why is it that in
this Ghanaian history I couldn’t match my last name or distinctions in facial features with
The European culture, ideals, and purpose that influenced that castle was something that
was never made so evident in the history lessons I was taught in America. During the tour, it
became harder and harder to take in the facts and statistics that the tour guide was spouting out.
The difference in social construct and what was accepted in our texts in American made history
books deterred from me knowing the whole truths of my history. Mahiri’s and Sablo’s study on
the African American Youth in an urban community in “Writing for Their Lives”, many
arguments they made reflected my disconnect. Through cross-cultural research, they “argued that
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literacy is ultimately political and that it has different implications within different sociocultural
contexts” (16). This was my first time hearing of the great economic prosperity slavery brought
colonialism all over the world, beyond North America. The extent of the unknown made the tour
even more unpleasant. I felt lied to about something that I knew nothing about. The oral
storytelling within the black community never seemed to reach this far back, though everyone
I was supposed to come to a place that everyone dreamed of because there was a common
notion in the black community that it held more of who I am than the place I was born, but that
doesn’t seem to be true. It was hard finding any part of who I wanted to be in within the walls of
that castle. It was hard to see a culture that treated me better than the one at home. It was difficult
to find the faces that looked like mine that didn’t shed remnants of sadness and despair. A place
where everyone knew everyone and the roots of the people were unbroken. I could not find
comfort. I did not find peace. I had to realize the past lead to the present, but does not define the
future. The black floors and blood stains were the beginning to a story that has ended. I must
now be open to the influenced present. I couldn’t find it in myself to force a smile for the
pictures, though I am now capable of reflecting and taking from the experience all it was willing
to give. History isn’t always as clear and concise as I would like it to be.
Ultimately, I traveled to a different continent with the intention of finding who I thought I
was in efforts of teaching others and attaining the ability to be present an new perspective for
people in my community. The process of “identity construction” that Mahiri and Sablo talks
about is seen through the experiences that I have already acquired that determines how I take in
and reflect upon new information (29). Through my actions during an unfamiliar experience, I
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also portray what I am built from. I learned I was built from a strong people that made it through
unimaginable conditions and lived through a system that was built against them. A people who
never gave up. I am built of resilience and life. Ironic that seeing and learning of the pain has
taught me that. I found determination and grit. In Ghana, I did not find my tribe or the precise
geographical location of my ancestry, but everything inside me has changed. I know there is a
lack of influence from African culture in the way the history is taught in the US. The way I strive
to be a better version of myself can be shown through the hours I spent walking around a place
of where my people were hurt. I became open to the old. I was willing change and replace what I
thought to be true.
Works Cited
Mahiri, Jabari, and Soraya Sablo. “Writing for Their Lives: The Non-School Literacy of
California’s Urban African American Youth.” Visons and Cyphers, edited by David F. Green,