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Nitzan Rotenberg
University Writing
21 September 2017
Formal Draft
In his essay “A General Feeling of Disorder,” Oliver Sacks transforms from a doctor who
comprehends scientific minutiae and has had patients with migraines to a patient who has
undergone palliative treatment for terminal liver cancer. Sacks establishes the expectation that
these illnesses will only be detrimental, with descriptions of migraines as painful, cancer
treatment as excruciatingly tiring, and disorders generally as “intrusive [and] unpleasant” (1).
But he soon subverts that very expectation, as he details the creative energy some, including
himself, have experienced in the recovery from similar episodes of illness. By suggesting that
illnesses transcend beyond our physical symptoms, he bridges the gap between our subjective
As a physician, Sacks recounts his experiences with patients and cites the self-
“something amiss,” or what he characterizes as “a general feeling of disorder” (2). Sacks initially
cites the typical presentation of the common migraine: a “slight” but “bearable” pain which
usually subsides towards evening (2). The preoccupation with the feelings associated with
migraines conditions the readers think about illnesses in those same terms. But these descriptions
become increasingly morbid, as migraines can reduce patients to “lying in a leaden haze, feeling
half-dead,” or, in worst of cases, make them feel as if “death would be preferable” (2). His
minds for any positive possible outcome from the resolution of a migraine.
This trend continues as Sacks spirals into a much more personal discussion with his own
bout with cancer. In the aftermath of his palliative treatment, he experiences a similar general
feeling of disorder except the displeasure is “raised to an almost infinite degree” (3). He would
experience a “tiredness beyond anything [he has] had ever felt before,” attacks of delirium,
swelling of the feet so severe that “they were almost unrecognizable as feet,” and unstable
temperature regulation so that he would be “hot one minute [and] cold the next” (3). The feeling
of disorder is so extreme that he thinks he “would sooner be dead” (3). Certainly, we hope for
Sacks’ peaceful recovery, but the word choice that Sacks employs leaves little room for us to
expect that. Furthermore, the vivid imagery of disorder and the repetition of a death-like feeling
parallels the descriptions of migraines, elucidating that although migraines and cancer differ
drastically in terms of lethality, all diseases share universal qualities of general feelings of
But if Sacks’ goal is to complicate these general feelings of disorder, he has yet to do so.
Sacks introduces, defines, and describes these general feelings of disorder, setting up the
expectation that the text will be constrained to those same descriptions. After all, when people
hear the term disorder, they typically imagine the negative symptoms associated with an illness.
However, he abruptly shifts in both tone and content immediately after describing the symptoms
of migraines and cancer treatment, and they are no longer only painful, nearly death-inducing
diseases. Instead, he describes the instances of creative energy individuals have experienced
from the recuperation of such illness. By problematizing the descriptions of general feelings of
disorder as not only negatively impacting our physical states but also possibly contributing to our
identities, he exemplifies that illnesses not only describe how one feels but also can tell us who
we are.
For some, these illnesses have somehow situated themselves into a central part of their
hosts’ identity. Sacks cites someone who often feels “dangerously well” and “full of energy”
after a migraine (2). Some patients can channel this energy into whatever pursuits they wish.
Sacks provides the example of one of his patients, a mathematician, who, in the resolution of a
migraine, experiences “a burst of original mathematical thinking” and “creativity” (2). This surge
in energy has become so important to him that he is willing to disregard the physical discomfort
and decides to keep both the migraine and its resolution. Ironically, his physical sickness has
become his mental cure. The two are no longer separate entities; rather, they affect and inform
one another. The juxtaposition of descriptions of a general feeling of disorder and the possible
energy experienced in its recovery illuminates how disorders can both impact how we feel and
The overall pattern of the text supports the claim that sickness informs our identity. The
beginning of the text establishes a clear dichotomy between thinking and feeling: the central
nervous system “tells one who one is” (1) but the autonomic nervous system “tells one how one
is” (1). Ralph Waldo Emerson also reinforces that dichotomy when he states, “‘I have lost my
mental faculties but am perfectly well’” (1) after he developed Alzheimer’s. Similarly, migraines
provide “the essential features of being ill… without actual illness” (1) in that they influence
only feeling and not thinking. How we think is the foundation of our identity, since thinking
dictates how we perceive and experience the world around us. But these excerpts build a pattern
that feeling and thinking are seemingly disparate, with illnesses only affecting the former, to
build an expectation that general feelings of disorder are unable to influence who we are.
However, the division between thinking and feeling becomes blurrier as individual
examples break that established pattern. For the mathematician, migraines do not only provide
the physical features of being ill; rather, he has accepted and welcomed them. When Sacks refers
to his own recovery from the pains of palliative treatment, he is unsure how much of it to
attribute to a natural “reestablishment of balance in the body,” “an autonomic rebound,” “other
physiological factors,” or simply “the sheer joy of writing” (3). By placing various physiological
factors, a type of feeling, in the same list as the joy of writing, a type of thinking that is central to
Sacks’ identity, as the causes for his recovery, he suggests that both how one thinks can be just
His personal examples of illness culminate in lessons for our species as a whole. He
concludes his essay with an excerpt from Nietzsche’s The Gay Science: “Gratitude pours forth
tomorrow” (4). By invoking a philosopher like Nietzsche in the very last paragraph, Sacks
advocates that his personal anecdote should not be remembered as a singular example but as
having philosophical importance for humankind at large. Feeling and thinking are
interconnected, as both the unexpected convalesce creates a reawakened faith in the future and
such a trust in what lies ahead paves the mental conditions for a physical recovery.
Nietzsche forwards that suffering is inevitable, and only by overcoming such suffering can we
satisfy our innate desire to expand our own power (Nietzsche). Similarly, illness is inevitable, as
we are bound to eventually get sick. In that situation, should we embrace illness in our pursuit
for our will to power? No, Sacks is not advocating for giving up modern medicine and letting
illnesses run rampant. Rather, he takes a more nuanced approach, suggesting we should
understand how general feelings of disorders situate themselves in us and realize their impact
Works Cited
Sacks, Oliver. “A General Feeling of Disorder.” The New York Review of Books,
Nietzsche, Friedrich Wilhelm, Walter Kaufmann, and R. J. Hollingdale. The Will to Power. New