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30th anniversary
roundtable
abstract
This article is extracted from a discussion between Camel Gupta, Jay Bernard and
Sita Balani. We took as our starting point Becoming visible: Black lesbian discussions
(Carmen et al, 1984), featured in the 1984 special issue of Feminist Review on black
feminism. Here, we reflect on the political, cultural and technological transformations of
queer life since the publication of Becoming visible. The original discussion focused on
questions of identity, safety, the public and the private, and the tensions between race
and sexuality. The discussants took personal and political risks to be active organisers.
As the beneficiaries of that activism, we interrogate not only the broader ideas of race,
sexuality and feminism, but critique some of the discussions circulating within our own
ranks. We also consider our responsibility to follow our predecessors and to learn from
their mistakes. We are more visible than ever, but at what price? What has been gained
and lost? Beyond visibility, what is our responsibility? In an attempt to understand these
questions we cover contemporary notions such as QTIPOC, monolithic whiteness and
online activism.
keywords
disability; queer/QTIPOC/QPOC; race; sexuality; social media; whiteness
h o w di d w e g e t h e r e ?
Camel: I was nine in 1984. Now Im at a point where Im reading, meeting people
from that scene, participating in conversations and work that explicitly names
itself as black lesbian, having a black lesbian therapist (for the first time in more
than a decade of therapy.) So Im excited to be here. It feels like joining in on a
conversation that Ive been needing to have for a long time.
Sita: I was three years away from being born when Pratibha, Carmen, Shaila and
Gail sat down for the original of this roundtable discussion! And reading their
conversation I could feel the vast differences in the world they inhabit and the one
we live in now. But nonethelessand perhaps this is because Ive met most of
them and found them hugely generous and interesting peopleI can see how their
lives have shaped my own. And I feel very drawn to that time, to its aesthetic. I was
looking at the Do You Remember Olive Morris? book this morning and this quotation
captured some of my own attraction to this work: It began with a photograph. A
picture without colour, of a lone Black girl, barefoot, holding a placard that read:
Black sufferer fight police pig brutality. A Black girl who came before the words
and aesthetics of Black resistance became commodified for white, middle-class
audiences via mainstream pop and HBO, before anti-racist politics became
institutionalised in ivory towers and non-governmental organisations. Ive also
noticed that thirty years is often a key moment when people feel compelled to look
back. The spate of documentary films made in the last couple of years about the
AIDS epidemic, for example. So it seems fitting that, thirty years on, Feminist
Review are revisiting Many Voices, One Chant.
Jay: As someone who was very readily embraced by several of the writers who
appear in the original issue, and whose adult life is better because of what they
did, Im wondering about how I feel speaking back. Im imagining myself at 55,
reading the sixtieth anniversary response to the original, and the thirtieth
anniversary response to what weve recorded here. There are many things I would
be happy to see us achieve: a truly democratic, socially oriented, pro-immigrant
government with a genuine range of people from all walks of life; smarter ways of
lesbian
C: I have never been a lesbian. I have been a straight woman, then a bi and queer
one. Im now a transgender person, somewhat male identified.
Ive written down the phrase counternarrative within a counternarrative, which is
something I feel pretty much everywhere. Ive almost always been isolated or within
a group which welcomes some of me, but requires me to chop off other bits.
Lesbian is a word that for a long time meant youre not queer enough or youre a
tourist/traitor, because of my involvement with/attraction to cis men. The term
woman is one I have a really complicated relationship to, it has mostly been
imposed onto me. Ive largely been really alienated from queer/lesbian writing and
politics that seemed to have no conception that bi women might be partners in the
struggle, not traitors to it.
But then Pratibha Parmar pointed me at June Jordan. And I found a black bisexual
woman talking in terms of race, class, gender and identity as inherently political. It
was like a homecoming. I didnt find any awareness of Jordan in a decade in a bi
scene thats very white, middle class, normative. So, the first time I was in a room
with women naming themselves as black lesbians was the first time I was pointed
towards a possible home. So lesbian has meant some very different things to me,
and no doubt will continue to do so!
J: Yes, I remember going to York Lesbian Art Festival when I was 17 and going to a
talk in which I said I did not like the term lesbian. At the time I used the term gay.
Lesbian, as it turned out, was too direct. With gay, I was able to avoid some of the
truth of my situation. Then I discovered queer and when I heard that term, I was
like wow, this is something that does not assume you are anything in particular.
Like you, Camel, Ive always had a funny relationship to being a woman.
Particularly a black woman. I ID as such, I use female pronouns, but that doesnt
mean that I believe being a woman is a fixed thing, you know what I mean? I have
always found the cultural, political and spiritual expectations of a black woman
t r e a c h e r y an d t el ol ogi cal t h i n k i n g
J: In the original, Carmen makes a brave admission: I was one of the women who
didnt stand up and declare my bisexuality, but it all depends where you are at the
time. You know, Ive been heterosexual and anti-lesbian, Ive been bisexual and
now Im lesbian and coming on strong. I love that she admits her homophobia,
though she does play into the idea of bisexual as a transitionary period.
C: I homed in on that instantly because its my experience too. I agree thats risky
and brave, but it shouldnt have to be. So often lesbian/queer womens things seem
either to have never heard of bi women, or to vilify them.
I figured out I was queer and bi when I was 23, moved to London to do an MA. Im a
straight feminist woman, Ive never (knowingly) met anyone gay/queer and
suddenly Im in this totally different world and realising how clueless I am.
So, because Im a nerd (and Im at Goldsmiths, where its offered on my MA), I do a
queer theory course, because I want to get less clueless. Somewhere in the middle
of all of that the penny finally drops that I really fancy girls. A well-meaning gay
male friend of mine says, Oh, I dont really know where women go, but theres this
place called the Candy Bar. I go there, very nervous, having had a couple of Dutch
courage drinks at home. I go in, have a pint, women are lovely and say, Oh wow,
you came on your own, good on you, thats really brave and introduce me. All is
great until the word bi comes up and I can immediately tell that somethings wrong:
the social temperature of the group drops. They say Obviously its all new, bi is just
QTI POC
J: On this topic, I wanted to say that the term QTIPOC, although I understand
and use it, is not a term that I identify with. I am black. Im not a person of
colour. Coloured is an Americanism that elides the racial dynamics among non-
whites.
C: Its a conversation that I dont think particularly needs to have a definitive
answer, but we need to talk about it.
Its not an identity category for me; I might say Im a QTIPOC but it doesnt signify
fixed identity any more than Im a queer. Queer has always made sense to me as a
verb, not a noun. Queer is a doing. I am a QTIPOC only insofar as words are useful
to describe me, which they mostly arent; these again are the best I can find.
J: I queer.
S: Queer as verb is powerful rhetoric, but I rarely see it in action. What does it mean
to queer something? What are the things we want to queer? I think we need bigger
political ambitions that could live up to the big claim of queering as an action.
whiteness as monolith
J: Among those included in the term QTIPOC, I feel we understand that we are
different. Whereas among white people I feel like that difference isnt felt in quite
the same way, despite the historical and present-day racism towards Eastern
Europeans, Jews. If you break up whiteness then in what world does QTIPOC make
sense? It still makes whiteness monolithic and I think as long as whiteness is
monolithic it will always be extremely difficult to tackle.
C: I use alpha whiteness in my thinking now to try and complicate it. White
supremacy has been hugely scary and traumatic for me, but I dont want to invest
any more energy in something that doesnt take into account different whitenesses
nor re-centre whiteness.
J: Yes, but what Im really talking aboutthe fact that you mentioned Irish, now
you wouldnt mention an Irish person as a QTIPOC.1 1 This part of the
discussion has been edited
out and is not included in
C: No. this article.
J: It doesnt make sense and thats because Irish people have become white, as
Noel Ignatiev puts it, by embracing racism. We define it by the one drop rule, which
is a racist rule.
S: And this is the thing: if you take on the logic of the oppressor, then how do you
ever transcend that? What always comes to mind is Wendy Browns work on the
wounded attachment to ones own oppression. In Paul Gilroys Between Camps
(Gilroy, 2000), theres a line that always comes back to me which is suffering
confers no virtue on the victim: yesterdays victims are tomorrows executioners.
I cant think of a truer statement. The obvious example is the logic of Israeli
citizenship: you can be a citizen if you have one Jewish grandparent, which is the
logic of the Nazis. What does it mean to use Nazi logic? I think that we also need to
consider the implications of defining ourselves by our not-whiteness as an act that
could be seen to prop up whiteness. Nonetheless, obviously some acts of racial
categorisation are more dubious than others.
J: I wonder about racial primacy in the context of conquest. The Englishthe
Angles and the Saxonsmurdered and enslaved the indigenous Brits before they
ever sailed over to Africa. Did the same to Scots, Irish, Welsh. Bristol became a
major port for black slavery, but from the eleventh century it was actually a
notorious port for white slaves.
S: Yes, and this moment of Scottish independence as something that chips into the
monolith of Britishness. What difference it will make to Scotland I have no idea, but
I think it will do something to chip into the foundational establishment of
Britishness, because a bunch of people have said
C: No thanks.
s e c u r i t y, pr e c a r i t y a n d wa y s of li v i n g
S: I think your question about the security, or lack of, in being black and queer
is very important. I think that what were going to see is more and more
representation in various forms, while our material situations become more
precarious. As we see ourselves enshrined in culture and celebrated, we will see
our benefits go, we will see the state being dismantled: itll be very easy to be out
and proud in the Guardian and it will be very difficult to get a job with a proper
contract. After decades of this political framework, it is becoming increasingly
difficult to think outside of that and to connect these cultural struggles to material
struggles around borders and wealth and access.
C: If, for example, you are white and middle class and monied and British and able
to work, there still isnt equality in your queer life, but you can find your way to
other people who might share your experience. The more intersections you throw
onto a single persons life the harder it is; isolation is a massive fear for me.
And of course all of this directly affects how well, or wealthy, or stable we are,
which is my answer to the question about precarity: that Im on disability benefits,
because Im not able to work. I feel very frightened and very insecure about that,
because the disability system in the UK is being hammered into the ground.
J: You make a good point about precarity. A lot of the structures that allow for
straightforward living are being eroded. You brought up June Jordan earlier, and
theres a line from her book of essays, Civil Wars ( Jordan, 1981), which I love: Im
not sure any longer that there is a difference between writing and living. She hints
at the absolute connection between art and life, that life is an art. And art is full of
conflict because its a problem-solving tool: how to make this piece of wood reflect
the lived experience? How to make this patch of wilderness feed my family? The mix
and the chaos and the arguments, its part of an artistic life, its part of any life,
yet the kinds of problems people are facing now are designed to make us live
C: Yes: because of the work Ive done as an activist and the positions I occupy, and
the work it takes me just to live, Im always struggling. I have to be constantly
advocating for my right to exist without being endlessly grateful.
Losing access to places is a huge loss. I was diagnosed recently with likely Fibromyalgia,
very likely from the PTSD. And a lot of us (where us is multiply marginalised queer/
trans people) are sick. Because this kind of life on the margins takes a toll.
S: Yes, these implosions and divisions of groups always feel catastrophic and
I agree with you, Jay, theyre inevitable. I think this is why I am opposed to the
utopian politics of separatism. In the original conversation, they talk about
internationalism, which seems to have fallen out of favour. Mandela dying this
week and seeing the way that people are rewriting their own history in relation to
that global struggle has really revealed the diminishing purchase that internation-
alism has had on our imaginations. I wonder if this links to the desire to retreat
into walled gardens of cultural similarity, rather than engaging on a wider level.
J: Completely. Consider Lesbiana, which was at the film festival this year. What
was really striking, and very beautiful, was that absolute connection between the
lesbian identity and the economic vision. In the text they talk about socialism and
capitalism and I feel like queer people generally are kind of leftist, but anti-
capitalismall the hallmarks of differenceare sold back to us.
S: Yes, there is a general feeling of dissatisfaction, if you take the leftist to be
leftish ...
J: But its a leftishness that is based on identity and culture.
S: Not based on
C: Economics.
S: And being involved in a fight against the neoliberal market economy, which isnt
happening. The queers are not leading that fight.
J: No, I dont know where or how that happened, how those identities got pulled
apart. Indifference, theory over practice, but also facing new levels of belli-
gerence?
S: I think this is about autonomy and funding. The state was never going to fund a
socialist movement. Particularly as the link between the Labour Party and the
unions is all but totally severed. The state cannot fund anti-capitalism but it can
fund identity politics, and so organisations based on identities became NGOs, that
t r a v e l a n d mo b i l i t y
S: Jay, you and I have talked about how travel while brown or black and queer, gay,
whatever, is a peculiar thing. You get very used to how you are read in one place,
and then you get off a plane elsewhere and think Fucking hell, this does not
translate. I do not translate. Because it feels as though whiteness has achieved
the impossible and got the monopoly on both foreignness and not-foreignness
which is like
J: Un fait accompli.
S: Un fait accompli. Its strange to be in another part of the world and not be able
to explain where youre fromand not in the way that one might be asked that
question in the UK. In Guatemala, being asked where I was from meant something
wildly different and my answers were unsatisfactory and I can see why, because
India didnt really exist in the cultural imagination there. Britain kind of existed,
but didnt look like me. My age and my appearance didnt match up, my
unmarriedness was peculiar, my lack of children, and so on. And yet, these
questions seemed rather reasonable, in a way that they dont when asked in the UK,
as I actually was a stranger, a tourist there.
authors biographies
Jay Bernard is a Londoner and is part of the Complete Works II, was joint winner of
the Caf Writers Poetry Competition 2014 and was Cityread Young Writer in
Residence at the London Metropolitan Archives 2013.
Camel Gupta is a South Asian bi and trans person, an activist, scholar and artist
based in London.
references
Carmen, Gail, Shaila and Pratibha (1984) Becoming visible: black Lesbian discussions Feminist
Review, Issue 17: 5372.
Gilroy, P. (2000) Between Camps: Nations, Cultures and the Allure of Race, London: Allen Lane.
Jordan, J. (1981) Civil Wars: Observations from the Front Lines of America, New York: Simon & Schuster.
doi:10.1057/fr.2014.27