france valentine: what was the purpose of creation?

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16: ahh

incantevole_la_cantante16: sige go on

incantevole_la_cantante16: lol

france valentine: what is the meaning or essence of life when we are all going to die anyway?

incantevole_la_cantante16: so basically... doubt?

france valentine: if you knew everything that happened and what will happen from the very beginning,
then why do you allow suffering?

france valentine: ms pia defined it as yun nga yung existential angst

incantevole_la_cantante16: ahhh

incantevole_la_cantante16: is that a term coined by her or technical term talaga siya sa theology?

incantevole_la_cantante16: ah

incantevole_la_cantante16: term nga

incantevole_la_cantante16: searched it on google

france valentine: http://lifemyths.com/existential-angst/505/

france valentine: me too

incantevole_la_cantante16: sige sige

france valentine: tapos if ya wanna know what i felt and went through... then sa 2nd paragraph yun
nung theo paper ko

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16: yeap, all right i'll useit as a reference

france valentine: how i am dealing with it is in the third... pero it's vague...

incantevole_la_cantante16: ay yeah, kailangan ko ng elaboration yun

incantevole_la_cantante16: how you cope w

france valentine: some of the people who helped me through that are ms pia
france valentine: and ayun, si papa r

incantevole_la_cantante16: kung ok lang

incantevole_la_cantante16: haha

france valentine: ms pia through theo 7 -- by making us watch diff christ films and exposure trips to a
synagogue and a prayer meeting

france valentine: si rama -- by teaching me how to meditate, lending and referring spiritual books
(siddhartha, baba's grace, dalai lama), sharing what he had learned and is learning... we have the
occassional life or spiritual talk...

france valentine: rama kasi was an initiated monk... he was supposed to be a monk na ehhh things
changed. he's also a certified yoga instructor... which is relational to meditation

incantevole_la_cantante16: i don't think his libido is suited for a celibate life

incantevole_la_cantante16:

france valentine: he also opened up buddhism and hinduism, and practices vegetarianism

france valentine:

france valentine: damn right!

france valentine:

france valentine: he believes in reincarnation

incantevole_la_cantante16: hahaha. mangyari man yun he'll be like an Abelard

incantevole_la_cantante16: haha. i blogged about that on multiply dati

incantevole_la_cantante16: i like the concept of reincarnation as well

incantevole_la_cantante16: ayoko lang maging insect

france valentine: whats an abelard?

france valentine:

france valentine: well... reincarnation in a sense na we will still be born humans, as long as we continue
to perfect ourselves

incantevole_la_cantante16: abelard's a fictional character (or i think based siya sa true character?) he's
a monk who fell in love with a girl who converted to a nun to be with him and they did it and she bore
him a child
incantevole_la_cantante16:

incantevole_la_cantante16: i like the orient's view on reincarnation

france valentine: kasi, as he said, one lifetime is not enough to achieve perfection (which is going back to
God's mind)

incantevole_la_cantante16: ahh..

france valentine: all the info daw we know by instinct or whatever natural talents we have were
cultivated in our past life

incantevole_la_cantante16: sabagay. i thought about that, too

france valentine: and the reason daw why we feel good / bad about some people is bec we had a either
good/bad history with them before

incantevole_la_cantante16: i've actually watched several documentations on reincarnation before. it's

really amazing

incantevole_la_cantante16: so...

incantevole_la_cantante16: we were married before as well?

incantevole_la_cantante16:

france valentine: kaya daw ang gaan ng loob ko kay mishca

france valentine: who knows?

incantevole_la_cantante16: awkward ako with kids. i have no patience with them. i may have had a lot
of children in my past

incantevole_la_cantante16: lol

france valentine: sabi nga niya... he may have been a prostitute before. sabi ko, i can believe that

incantevole_la_cantante16: i can, too

incantevole_la_cantante16:

france valentine: hahahahaha

france valentine: ako daw, in my recent past life might have been a man

france valentine: siya raw babae coz he's so domesticated

france valentine: you may have been a mother brad

france valentine: you have that motherly type of affection sometimes

incantevole_la_cantante16: err, i'm not exactly the nurturing type.

incantevole_la_cantante16: talaga?

france valentine: pero pagod ka na nga siguro sa mga bata

incantevole_la_cantante16: i feel so awkward nga most of the time eh

incantevole_la_cantante16: lol

incantevole_la_cantante16: baka nga. they must've driven me crazy so much that i vowed i will never
have children again

incantevole_la_cantante16: hahahahahaha

france valentine: ilan kaya naging anak mo (natin?) noon?

incantevole_la_cantante16: probably a dozen. sunod sunod pa siguro

incantevole_la_cantante16: kaya siguro i hate loud noises

france valentine: HAHAHAHAAH

france valentine: no wonder you're so sick of 'em

incantevole_la_cantante16:

france valentine:

france valentine: ngayon, ayaw mo na

incantevole_la_cantante16: learned my lesson.

incantevole_la_cantante16: kaya siguro awkward din ako sa lalaki

france valentine: hahahaha

france valentine: we may also have been japanese

incantevole_la_cantante16: that primitive part of my brain must be telling me "no, they'll only screw
you over and give you torture in the form of kids and childbirth!"

france valentine: LOL

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16: baka nga brad. i really feel a strong connection with japan
france valentine: yeah

france valentine: when you think about life this way, it doesnt seem as bad

france valentine: kaya gumaan loob ko and tried to see it on how he does

france valentine: he also said that at one point, jesus came to india and the middle east to perfect
himself as well

france valentine: havent read up on this though yet

incantevole_la_cantante16: sure ba yun..?

france valentine: and the possibilities of jesus being vegetarian are also high

france valentine: ... well... dunno. havent read up on it

incantevole_la_cantante16: if jesus did go there, then he would've proclaimed the 'good news' and
spread it like wildfire being the charismatic man that he is

france valentine: pero its possible

incantevole_la_cantante16: and i don't think that far of a travel was possible that time..

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16: hahaha

incantevole_la_cantante16: oh well, let's just research on that

france valentine: the bible states something about focusing on your one eye and being still

incantevole_la_cantante16: i have a book here, btw. how christians demonized jesus christ (something
along that line). haven't read it yet though i bought it i think last year

france valentine: that's meditation

france valentine: oooh

incantevole_la_cantante16: ay

incantevole_la_cantante16: mali pala

incantevole_la_cantante16: the origin of satan: how christians demonized hews, pagans, and heretics

incantevole_la_cantante16: lol

incantevole_la_cantante16: looks promising. i'll read up on it this summer

france valentine: ahhh

france valentine: go go! and tell me all about it

france valentine:

france valentine: sige brad

france valentine: i think you got good material

france valentine: go go go!

incantevole_la_cantante16: i'm partly interested in religion is 'cause it's such an integral part of
european history (which i actually study extensively whenever i can). i have here psychology of religion
as well

france valentine: shower lang ako but will stay online

incantevole_la_cantante16: pero hindi yun ang emphasis ko for my paper

france valentine: interesting....

france valentine:

france valentine: i meant yung background ni rama

incantevole_la_cantante16: i have some follow up questions later, i'll leave it on your fb or here na lang
brad

france valentine: and his influence on me so far

france valentine: yep, sure

incantevole_la_cantante16: ahh

france valentine: hahahaha

france valentine: ligo muna me... itsssohot

incantevole_la_cantante16: all right

incantevole_la_cantante16: how do you cope with stresses from academics? (i.e what do you do to get
out of a rut) how about stresses from family relations? from peer relations? from your intimate
relationship?

incantevole_la_cantante16: (ok na yung sa spiritual dilemma)

france valentine: hmmm...

france valentine: sa academics

france valentine: i make it a point to take a break once in awhile

france valentine: sa family...

france valentine: thats hard kasi i really cant get away from it, and i dont have my own room

france valentine: sooo

france valentine: i just try not to think about it and just focus on other things

france valentine: sa peers... when i cant handle it or if i want to just let it out, i talk to you

france valentine: sometimes my mom

france valentine: from my intimate relationship...

france valentine: i talk to you or my mom...

france valentine: and recently... i just cry it out, even in front of my mom

france valentine: she allows me to

france valentine: and actually encourages me to sometimes shout it out

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16: have you had any insecurities about yourself or about your capabilities?

france valentine: now?

france valentine: a lot

france valentine: looks, not being intelligent or talented enough

incantevole_la_cantante16: erm.. concrete example brad. kahit from before

incantevole_la_cantante16: and how you dealt with it

incantevole_la_cantante16: kahit one or two lang

france valentine: physically... well, my height and weight

france valentine: short and fat

france valentine: how i deal with it...

france valentine: hm

france valentine: well, dieting i suppose... and i plan to take up martial arts again by march hopefully
incantevole_la_cantante16: about your capabilities

incantevole_la_cantante16: kahit insecurities from before

incantevole_la_cantante16: and how you overcame it

france valentine: sa height... cant really do anything about that but wear heels sometimes or just by
wearing clothes that suit me

france valentine: capabilities...

france valentine: then and even now, i always think i'm never good enough

incantevole_la_cantante16: in terms of..?

france valentine: there are times when i dont try my hardest... bec before, when i did and i failed, i feel
bad

france valentine: in terms of academics and writing

france valentine: and... i'm jealous of others for their talents

incantevole_la_cantante16: what certain talent?

france valentine: singing's my frustration... and i feel bad that i dont dance as well now like i used to

france valentine: i dont even speak as well as i used to

france valentine: confidence level's pretty down

france valentine: i just try not to let it show

incantevole_la_cantante16: hmm. ganito na lang. were you naturally talented in writing?

france valentine: maybe..?

france valentine: i wouldnt have won my first journalism contest if didnt, i suppose

incantevole_la_cantante16: what made you decide to pursue writing? i mean, when did you first noticed
that you had a flair for it?

france valentine: but... reading others' work, i think "damn they're a lot better than i am"

incantevole_la_cantante16: *notice

france valentine: i've always been writing since i was a kid... poems, stories

france valentine: i was writing fanfiction even then and didnt know it was called as such

incantevole_la_cantante16: when did you start comparing your work to others?

france valentine: then just tried to join young writers club in 6th grade... participated in journalism
contests, wrote for the school paper... ayun.

france valentine: hmm... since grade school pa

france valentine: was friends with honor students

incantevole_la_cantante16: were you better than others or were some better than you?

france valentine: both...

france valentine: better than most... but my co-writers were always better i think

france valentine: but that was just in school... my own batch...

france valentine: now... i'm just... meeeh T____T

france valentine: parang... i write. period

france valentine: whether i'm good or not... i dont really know

incantevole_la_cantante16: so, thinking that others were a little better than you (or a lot better), did
you use that as a sort of leverage to become better?

incantevole_la_cantante16: brad, im not asking if you're good or not. i already know you are, that's for
sure.

incantevole_la_cantante16: :_

incantevole_la_cantante16:

france valentine: i always joined and participated extra-curricular activities bec i wanted to know what i
was good or capable of

incantevole_la_cantante16: what im interested in knowing is how to strove to reach where you are now,
where you think you are now, and where you want to go and how to want to achieve that

incantevole_la_cantante16: so.. in going back to my question

incantevole_la_cantante16: did you use that comparison as a leverage of sorts to become better at
writing?

france valentine: hmmm... in a way

france valentine: wanted to be just as good if not better

france valentine: but realized that you shouldnt compare yourself to others

france valentine: sooo... i compete with myself

france valentine: i base my growth or improvements by looking back on how i was then... in writing, i
reread my past works

france valentine: then compare 'em to my recent ones

france valentine: i see the improvement and... pwede na

france valentine: but i know i'll still improve

france valentine: and have a lot to learn still

incantevole_la_cantante16: so, how do you see yourself now? do you think you're good? yes, there is
still room for improvement for you, but in looking at your current station, on a one to ten, how would
you rate your writing?

france valentine: hmmm... a 6 or a 7

france valentine: still not satisfied where i stand

incantevole_la_cantante16: how about in other aspects? say, overall

incantevole_la_cantante16: how would you rate yourself? (physicality aside)

france valentine: overall capabilities...? maybe a 4

incantevole_la_cantante16: why do you think that?

france valentine: bec i know what i'm capable of but i feel they're not good enough still...

france valentine: aaaand... i try to avoid high expectations

france valentine: even from myself

france valentine: so if i do really well... then great

france valentine: if not then, i wont feel as bad by putting such a high standard of myself then end up
not delivering as good

france valentine: *as well

france valentine: ayyy brad... you're digging into my soul here

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16: lol

incantevole_la_cantante16: i'm just getting you warmed up brad

france valentine:
incantevole_la_cantante16:

france valentine: ano toh, retreat?

incantevole_la_cantante16: i'm going to dig deeper into your past

incantevole_la_cantante16: pero i'll try to keep it light, just for the things i think i'll be needing

incantevole_la_cantante16: so, in light of that, let's go back to your childhood

incantevole_la_cantante16: do you remember what type of discipline your parents used on you (if any)?

incantevole_la_cantante16: physical? rewards and punishments?

france valentine: rewards were material

france valentine: toys mostly, like most kids

france valentine: aaaand... i tried not to be a real pain, seeing mae being punished and all, sooo i mostly
just got lectured

incantevole_la_cantante16: so as a kid, have you ever tried anything that went against your parents'
wishes or teachings? even during gradeschool or highschool

france valentine: not that i remember as a kid... mostly sumpungin lang talaga ko. in high school

france valentine: hmmm

france valentine: there was a point na ang dalas ko mag absent bec i didnt want to go to school

france valentine: and my grades went down

france valentine: then got a boyfriend... didnt tell my mother until nung kami na for a few day...
although she really didnt get mad kasi i opened up and she saw i wasnt really that serious about him

incantevole_la_cantante16: what did your parents do as punishment for that misbehavior?

incantevole_la_cantante16: why did you not want to go to school in the first place?

france valentine: matinding lecture lang... yelled at me

france valentine: stayed mad for about a week

france valentine: "grounded"

france valentine: though that never really meant anything since bahay-school lang ako

incantevole_la_cantante16: (lol me too. never really got that one)

incantevole_la_cantante16: why did you not want to go to school?

france valentine: well... tinamad. and was feeling a bit "rebellious" that time. yun na pagrebelde ko... i
know, it's lame

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16:

incantevole_la_cantante16: buti nga ikaw eh, ako talagang hindi eh. ngayon tuloy... hahahaha

incantevole_la_cantante16: anyway

incantevole_la_cantante16: so after that, you learned your lesson?

france valentine: there was nothing to be learned

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16: ......

incantevole_la_cantante16:

france valentine: hahaha

france valentine: seryoso

france valentine: ehhh ayaw ko pumasok eh

incantevole_la_cantante16: eh di what got you to come to school again?

france valentine: the sense of responsibility and love for parents

france valentine: had to go back to making them proud again

incantevole_la_cantante16: gising pa ba mom mo?

france valentine: yep

incantevole_la_cantante16: can you ask her what kind of temparament you had as a child? here are the
choices: Easy (easily soothed, more or less regular in sleeping, waking, eating schedules; adaptable to
change, easily soothed when distressed) Difficult: (irregular inschedule more or less, crabby, easily
distressed) and Slow-to-warm-up: less grumpy and quieter and more regular than difficult babies but
slow to adapt to change

incantevole_la_cantante16:

incantevole_la_cantante16: as an infant pala

france valentine: difficult daw

incantevole_la_cantante16:

incantevole_la_cantante16: seryoso?

incantevole_la_cantante16: difficult ka nung baby?

france valentine: yeah... kasi iyakin ako

france valentine: always crying

incantevole_la_cantante16: mahirap patahanin?

france valentine:

france valentine: oo daw

incantevole_la_cantante16: HAHAHAHAHA CRABBY

incantevole_la_cantante16: )))

france valentine: my pics daw as baby were either of me sleeping or crying

incantevole_la_cantante16: (lol i really can't be your shrink. hahahahha)

incantevole_la_cantante16: hmm

incantevole_la_cantante16: that's actually interesting

incantevole_la_cantante16: i would've thought you were an easy baby

france valentine: bawal magbago?? hmph

incantevole_la_cantante16: or slow to warm up

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16: pwede naman syempre. pero there have been studies that temparaments
are really indicative of adult personality. sure ball na yun.

incantevole_la_cantante16: ay sabagay

incantevole_la_cantante16: oo nga, it makes sense

incantevole_la_cantante16:

incantevole_la_cantante16: difficult ka nga noon

incantevole_la_cantante16: lol

incantevole_la_cantante16: crybaby
incantevole_la_cantante16: hahahahaha

incantevole_la_cantante16: anywah

incantevole_la_cantante16: y

france valentine: T_______T

incantevole_la_cantante16: bago magtampo (dapat pala crabby tawag sayo ni papa r, not bunny ), how
was your attachment as a child? mom close mo noon diba?

incantevole_la_cantante16: (well, till now)

france valentine: yep

incantevole_la_cantante16: say, nung first day of school (pre-school)

incantevole_la_cantante16: were you secure in yourself?

france valentine: yep... she was always with me

incantevole_la_cantante16: or did you cry and didn't want your mother to leave?

incantevole_la_cantante16: naalala pa ba ng mom mo yun? (if she could narrate it, mas okay sana)

france valentine: secure bec she was there

france valentine: ayyyy

france valentine: oo. i cried

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16: till when?

france valentine: hmm... she was with me all throughout nursery eh

france valentine: tapos... mga a week daw of kinder. had to go through that adjustment

incantevole_la_cantante16: huh

incantevole_la_cantante16: interesting

incantevole_la_cantante16: were you very pampered during infancy?

france valentine: yesss

france valentine: as in ganyan pagkasabi

incantevole_la_cantante16:
incantevole_la_cantante16: diba you cried a lot as a baby? what did your parents do whenever you
cried? did they come rushing to your aid everytime?

france valentine: karga lang kailangan ko

france valentine: once carried, okay na

incantevole_la_cantante16: pero that was every time you cried?

france valentine: most of the time

france valentine:

france valentine: never had a straller or walker... was always carried. haha

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16:

incantevole_la_cantante16: diva ka teh

france valentine: opkorz!

incantevole_la_cantante16: how was your relationship with your peers during childhood? were you
sociable and friendly?

incantevole_la_cantante16: did you get along with them?

france valentine: errrr

france valentine: only a few

france valentine: suplada ako nun eh

france valentine:

france valentine: maldita

incantevole_la_cantante16: panong maldita? snobbish or medyo bully-ish?

france valentine: snobbish... and malandi

france valentine: was into makeup then

incantevole_la_cantante16: ahh

incantevole_la_cantante16: sus

incantevole_la_cantante16: ako rin naman eh

france valentine: can ya believe that?

incantevole_la_cantante16:

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16: and heels

france valentine: wearing lipstick since nursery

france valentine: oh ye!

incantevole_la_cantante16: pero ngayon awkward na

incantevole_la_cantante16: lol

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16: till what time ka online brad?

france valentine: all night... cause doing stuff too

incantevole_la_cantante16: ah.. baka masyado ako nakakaabala ah?

france valentine: sige lang brad... para sa proj mo yan eh.

france valentine: might reply slow at times

france valentine: though

incantevole_la_cantante16: haha. okay lang brad

incantevole_la_cantante16: sige

incantevole_la_cantante16: i got some of the things i currently need

incantevole_la_cantante16: later na lang ulit

incantevole_la_cantante16:

france valentine: alrighty

france valentine: make it good brad

france valentine: no

france valentine: make it greeeeaaaat!

france valentine: would like to read it

incantevole_la_cantante16: hahahaha

incantevole_la_cantante16: i'll try brad

incantevole_la_cantante16: i have such limited time >.<

incantevole_la_cantante16: one more thing brad, have you gotten any job offers recently? (yes, needed
din sa paper ko. haha)

incantevole_la_cantante16: if so, how many?

france valentine: 2 -- kung san ako nag-ojt

france valentine: and sa company where my aunt's husband works for

france valentine: ojt ko is production (commercial)... yung sa tito ko is advertising

incantevole_la_cantante16: what is your parents' reason for having english as the primary language
used in the household?

france valentine: sosyal kasi kami

incantevole_la_cantante16:

france valentine: hahahaha

incantevole_la_cantante16: yun lalagay ko sa paper? lol

france valentine: why not? LOL

france valentine: actually, my dad kasi was raised that way

incantevole_la_cantante16: why?

incantevole_la_cantante16: what was his parents' reason?

france valentine: ehhhh

france valentine: it's always been that way

france valentine: his parents were raised like that din

france valentine: soooo... ayun nga

france valentine: sosyal kami

france valentine: HAHAHAHAHA

incantevole_la_cantante16: AMP
incantevole_la_cantante16: i'll make a foot note here: Sorry miss, sosyal talaga sila eh

incantevole_la_cantante16:

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16: brad? as a toddler, did you already exhibit self-control and self-confidence?

incantevole_la_cantante16: were you capable of approaching new people and situations with relative
ease?

france valentine: toddler

france valentine: uhhh

incantevole_la_cantante16: (better ask your mom about this para accurate )

france valentine: sort of, yeah... but not sociable

france valentine: suplada eh

france valentine: didnt really care about others

france valentine: as long as i was with my parents, all was good

france valentine: nothing else mattered

incantevole_la_cantante16: let's say i gave you a marshmallow as a kid, and left you in a room with that
marshmallow and an instruction that you can eat that marshmallow now or you can wait for 20 minutes,
and when i come back and you haven't eaten your marshmallow yet, you get to have two
marshmallows, what would you have done?

france valentine: would have eaten it when i could

incantevole_la_cantante16: would you say Mae is impulsive and reckless?

france valentine: Oo naman -- mama

incantevole_la_cantante16: LOL

incantevole_la_cantante16:

incantevole_la_cantante16: baka lang kasi hindi justified nilagay ko dito

incantevole_la_cantante16: haha

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16: ugghhh. thinking of submittng this saturday na lang. my head is exploding -.-
france valentine:

france valentine: pwede ba?

france valentine: baka naman may minus yan?

france valentine: anong time ba raw ba?

incantevole_la_cantante16: yun nga lang

incantevole_la_cantante16: 2 pm

incantevole_la_cantante16: -.-

france valentine: super haba ba? as in? well... i feel it is

france valentine: pero marami pang questions?

incantevole_la_cantante16: 5-7 pages eh

incantevole_la_cantante16: eto na kasi finals namin

france valentine: at least til 5

france valentine: double spaced?

incantevole_la_cantante16: nope

france valentine: 1.5?

france valentine: why dont ya take a nap first?

incantevole_la_cantante16: basta APA format daw, she didn't stress anything else other than we have to
have at least 5 references. kaso pinoproblema ko lang kailangan kasi at least one reference should have
been made by the theorist himself

incantevole_la_cantante16: i checked with the library, yung book nung theorist na napili ko wala na sa
lib kasi 1954 pa daw yun

incantevole_la_cantante16: -.-

incantevole_la_cantante16: kaya nga i was supposed to change the questions. kaso gahol na msyado sa
oras

incantevole_la_cantante16: hayy

incantevole_la_cantante16: baka nga mag-nap muna 'ko

france valentine: wala ba sa net?

incantevole_la_cantante16: i doubt it. kung 1950's pa

incantevole_la_cantante16:

france valentine: apa format can be found sa net

france valentine: malay mo lang brad

incantevole_la_cantante16: mga hanggang anung oras ka brad?

france valentine: the internet's powerful O.O

france valentine: no idea

france valentine: will try not to sleep if i can

france valentine: i'll ask rama to keep me up for as long as he can

incantevole_la_cantante16: yun din kasi eh, baka may follow up question pa 'kong maisip kaso tulog ka
na or something

incantevole_la_cantante16: if ever, baka sa saturday ko na lang ipass

incantevole_la_cantante16: may minus man at least maganda pagkakagawa 'ko

france valentine: well... wont be able to sleep naman din until i finish everything i need to do

incantevole_la_cantante16: i usually get a line of 1 for her homeworks naman eh

incantevole_la_cantante16: bahala na

incantevole_la_cantante16: lol

incantevole_la_cantante16: will try as hard as i can but if i can't, saturday na lang

france valentine: sige lang

france valentine:

france valentine: im just here

incantevole_la_cantante16: all right. thanks brad

incantevole_la_cantante16: brad, diyan pa mom mo?

france valentine: bumaba lang

incantevole_la_cantante16: can you ask her when she comes back if you were wary of strangers as an
infant and if you were playing, you ddn't mind if your mother is there or not or if you were playing, any
one of your parents will do just as long as you weren't alone?
france valentine: hahaha. will do

france valentine: i'm here brad

incantevole_la_cantante16: hi brad

france valentine: to answer your text... she was only slightly shocked... kasi she kind of figured
something fishy happened with my body being sore right now

france valentine: but i guess she didn't expect lang siguro that it would be that

france valentine: we're good.

france valentine: just felt that i had to tell her kasi it was not telling her that made me feel guilty... and i
was thinking of my own safety about what to do afterwards and so on. will have mae's old ob-gyne now
too. and just didnt want to create disparity again by not being open to her...

france valentine: soooo ayun.

incantevole_la_cantante16: err.. how do you think your dad would feel about it?

france valentine: he won't know

france valentine: pero syempre, since we see each other at least once a week... he asked me before
kung ano ko siya... sabi ko wala, we're just dating. again, kanina, he asked... sabay kami ni inay... wala

france valentine: why brad..?

incantevole_la_cantante16: don't you think your mom's going to tell him? or no? (just curious about
your family dynamics. masanay ka na brad. i'm even more curious and observant now 'cause of my
course )

france valentine: huh? of course not brad

france valentine: i've done many things before that itay has no idea about

incantevole_la_cantante16: ahhh..

france valentine: and kanina, while we were out, inay asked me how i felt... while talking, siya pa yung
nagpapatahimik sakin when itay was approaching

france valentine: di naman ganun nanay ko... otherwise, i wouldnt be so open

incantevole_la_cantante16: ahh. most moms kasi would

incantevole_la_cantante16: i kind of now know how your parents fight over you siblings
incantevole_la_cantante16: haha

france valentine: and she's actually the one who slowly easing him into the idea na raymond and i are
spending time together

incantevole_la_cantante16: wise woman

france valentine: yep...

france valentine: itay always say bakit ka ba laging umaastang abogado nila... that was before

france valentine: *said

incantevole_la_cantante16: haha. well, a wise woman always controls the strings from behind the
scenes

france valentine: .. and itay knows i often talk to her so di siya talaga nagddoubt na kulang ako sa payo

france valentine: and paalala

incantevole_la_cantante16: ahh..

france valentine: soooo...

incantevole_la_cantante16: soo...

france valentine: ano na brad? musta paper mo? your status better not be the subject for this paper...
sasabunutan kita!

incantevole_la_cantante16: what status? o.O

france valentine: na ang sarap ibagsak

incantevole_la_cantante16: aaaahhh

incantevole_la_cantante16: hindi

incantevole_la_cantante16: iba

france valentine: dapat lang

france valentine: LOL

incantevole_la_cantante16: aba, pnaghirapan ko 'to

incantevole_la_cantante16: umayos ka

incantevole_la_cantante16: mamamatay ako

incantevole_la_cantante16: lol
france valentine: aba... buhay ko yan. uno dapat yan!

incantevole_la_cantante16: (well actually di ko masyado napaghirapan kasi nag-bum out ako nung
friday at saturday. HAHA)

incantevole_la_cantante16: annnnyywayyy

incantevole_la_cantante16: bago ako mabatukan

incantevole_la_cantante16: alam mo ba kung pano gawing quote format isang paragraph sa word?

incantevole_la_cantante16: (did that make any sense at all?)

france valentine: apa ba?

incantevole_la_cantante16: yes

france valentine: everything you need to know is in here

france valentine: http://owl.english.purdue.edu/owl/resource/560/01/

france valentine: check mo yung reference list part

france valentine: ay

incantevole_la_cantante16: di, i mean, yung indentation, alignment, etc

france valentine: in-text citattion pala

france valentine: dyan nga brad

france valentine: trust meeeh

incantevole_la_cantante16: wala ba sa word nun? yung automatic na? lol

france valentine: T_____T

france valentine: actually, sana nga

france valentine: meron

france valentine: that would've been so convenient

france valentine: dont forget to read on the general format

incantevole_la_cantante16: all right

incantevole_la_cantante16: meron kasi for citations eh

incantevole_la_cantante16: anyway
incantevole_la_cantante16: were you pampered as a kid? (segway lang, mas impt content eh ) i mean,
not with material things. were you allowed to explore on your own?

france valentine: yeah... dun nga lahat

france valentine: hmmm

incantevole_la_cantante16: did they let you experience many things?

france valentine: pampered... with attention. experience what?

france valentine: hmm... if money could afford it then yeah

france valentine: they supported me nung kinukuha akong muse sa mga school or brgy events, and a
couple of pageants before

france valentine: and whatever activity i got myself into

france valentine: ... ganun ba? tama ba pagkaintindi ko?

incantevole_la_cantante16: hmm. pwede na rin

incantevole_la_cantante16: haha

france valentine: anong experience ba kasi yung tinutukoy mo?

incantevole_la_cantante16: pero were you able to experience other things normal for a kid? like playing
with other children your age (like neighbors), playing outside (or were you always playing inside), being
dirty, etc

incantevole_la_cantante16: with emphasis on toddlerhood age

france valentine: yeah... was playing with other kids, got dirty at times...

france valentine: toddler..?

france valentine: isnt that too young?

incantevole_la_cantante16: nope, toddlerhood's what i need

france valentine: ano ba age range nun?

incantevole_la_cantante16: depends on which book you're reading. but generally 2-4

incantevole_la_cantante16: generally, yung question is were you able to assert your independence in a
child's way? like, were you able to explore much or very little?

france valentine: well... i had my sister then

incantevole_la_cantante16: (children 2-3 years explore inside the house and sometimes outside if
supervised by parents)

france valentine: got to explore the house, sure... pero that's such a young age, and i was always with
my mother

incantevole_la_cantante16: playground?

france valentine: i remember going to a playground... di ko lang sure kung toddler ako nun

incantevole_la_cantante16: so.. you weren't smothered or anything? pampering was just in terms of
material things and comforts?

incantevole_la_cantante16: 2-5 can already go outside and play (with caregiver's full supervision
though)

france valentine: smothered with attention... when you say smothered it means spoiled eh

incantevole_la_cantante16: you were able to assert your own independence in a way?

incantevole_la_cantante16: kaya nga

incantevole_la_cantante16: but you were able to explore right?

incantevole_la_cantante16: hindi yung, bawal yan, di pwede, no

incantevole_la_cantante16: constantly

france valentine: i guess, yeah...

france valentine: exploring with makeup especially

france valentine: as long as i dont eat anything nasty or put my ditry hands in my mouth... then all's
good

incantevole_la_cantante16: ahh.. ayun. you weren't pampered to the extreme

incantevole_la_cantante16: w/c contributed to your assertiveness and confidence as an adult

incantevole_la_cantante16: if children were pampered senseless and never got to experience the world
during a tender age, it'll contribute to a very, very dependent personality

incantevole_la_cantante16: anyway

incantevole_la_cantante16: what else..

incantevole_la_cantante16: how long will you be online brad..?

france valentine: i dunno

france valentine: go lang brad

france valentine: will help ya as much as i can

france valentine:

incantevole_la_cantante16: what's your ideal self?

incantevole_la_cantante16: doesn't have to be too realistic or too far-fetched. just who or what do you
envision your ideal self to be? or someone/something you want to become?

france valentine: i have always wanted to become a celebrity... that hasn't changed

france valentine: but it's not that easy... so when asked, that's my ideal career... and in a way, the ideal
person i want to become

incantevole_la_cantante16: can you specify? like, specific traits

incantevole_la_cantante16: and talents

incantevole_la_cantante16: (refers to who, not what)

france valentine: one who is talented (in this case -- acting, singing, writing, maybe a bit of dancing), a
charmer (charismatic and influential), beautiful inside and out, known and loved by many, wealthy (in
love, friends, money and a bit of power)

france valentine: oh and family of course

incantevole_la_cantante16: so.. do you think those characteristics are far from your current self or are
they within reach (perception of yourself lang)

incantevole_la_cantante16: ?

france valentine: so far... attainable but extremely difficult and opportunity-bound

france valentine: ... okay ba brad?

incantevole_la_cantante16: yep, just writing. (i think of follow-up questions as i go along)

incantevole_la_cantante16: baka busy ka brad?

france valentine: di naman masyado. go lang

france valentine: hirap ng life,...

france valentine: hayyy

france valentine: just sayin'

incantevole_la_cantante16: brad, i'll give you a list of traits, tell me which you most likely are: tough,
aggressive, excitable, impulsive, active, sociable, outgoing, responsive, lively, leader, calm, reliable,
controlled, thoughtful, passive, quiet, pessimist, unsociable, rigid, moody

incantevole_la_cantante16: haha. i know right

france valentine: kahit ilan ah...

france valentine: hmmm

incantevole_la_cantante16: yep

france valentine: reliable, controlled, thoughtful, pessimist, rigid, moody

incantevole_la_cantante16: yan lang?

incantevole_la_cantante16: okay, so can you say that you're kind of the peacemaker in the house..?

incantevole_la_cantante16: say when your parents fight or when your siblings fight?

incantevole_la_cantante16: (or if you get in a fight with a sibling, are you the one who makes peace
first?)

france valentine: nope. let things be and resolve themselves... i'm more of a comforter for my mom...
she can let out some stress on me

incantevole_la_cantante16: do you sometimes feel like you're on the outside looking in? like for
example with fights. you say you let things be and watch it resolve itself, does it feel that way? like an
observer?

france valentine: i guess so

france valentine: or maybe cause ayoko lang sumingit dahil sakin naman magagalit

incantevole_la_cantante16: do you use your writing as a sort of release sometimes (or always)?

france valentine: maybe always... subconsciously

incantevole_la_cantante16: do you think your parents have been overprotective of you while growing
up?

france valentine: YES

incantevole_la_cantante16: how so?

incantevole_la_cantante16: brad..?

france valentine: di ako pinapayagan lumabas dati

france valentine: parents were more strict then

france valentine: more easily angered

france valentine: sorry... went down for a bit brad...

france valentine: talking to him... ehhh ang ingay kanina sa kwarto

incantevole_la_cantante16: haha

incantevole_la_cantante16: okay lang brad

incantevole_la_cantante16: do you sometimes curl up in a sort of fetal position when you feel
depressed or when you cry?

france valentine: yep

incantevole_la_cantante16: most of the time, sometimes, or always? (when you cry or are depressed)

france valentine: most of the time

incantevole_la_cantante16: brad, is it too much to ask to recollect your earliest memories? the earliest
one you can recall

france valentine: that of playing...

france valentine: just playing in the house... singing on the bed with a mic, playing blocks with itay

france valentine: okay na yun?

incantevole_la_cantante16: yep

france valentine: probably 3 or 4 years old ako nun

incantevole_la_cantante16: so wait, you were playing together with your dad while singing?

france valentine: nope

france valentine: one at a time

france valentine: pero those are the specific playing memories

incantevole_la_cantante16: so separate memories siya?

france valentine: i can remember

france valentine: yep

france valentine: brad... matagal pa ba?

incantevole_la_cantante16: erm.. okay na 'to brad. i got all the info i need, i think. i'm already halfway
through my 6th page

france valentine: naks

france valentine: diba 5-7?

incantevole_la_cantante16: 1.5 space eh

incantevole_la_cantante16:

incantevole_la_cantante16: yeap

france valentine:

france valentine: at least

france valentine: pero grabe yan ah

france valentine: ang bibigat

incantevole_la_cantante16: i know. and to think i'm going to be doing this forever

france valentine: pinasok mo yan eh!

incantevole_la_cantante16: lol

incantevole_la_cantante16: fun naman

france valentine: i know

incantevole_la_cantante16: sarap lang magpakamatay minsan

france valentine: i like psychology