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SOUL
PROMISE
Ruby Bedi
Foreword / viii
Introduction / x
Prologue / xiv
Chapter One
he Early Years / 1
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Grandfather Time / 6
My name calls out to me / 8
Om Baba / 10
Chapter Two
he Family Years / 15
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Marriage, Canada, Children, Divorce / 25
Starting Over / 27
Madras Baba / 28
Chapter Three
he Awakening / 32
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The Gift Emerges / 36
Shirdi Sai Baba, Christ and my mission / 40
Begin working as a Spiritual Advisor / 46
The Three Steps to Healing and the Masters / 53
Chapter Four
he Masters Put Me To Work / 60
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Premas Story /
Back to India Pilgrimage to thank the Masters / 68
Monicas story / 73
The Karmic Sweeper / 76
Chapter Five
I nto the Valley of Death / 78
Journey to Ladakh / 83
Manifesting My Being / 87
Chapter Six
I meet Ma ji / 90
Inder my Soulmate / 94
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Ruby
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The deeper you go, the more aware you will become.
Life was not the same after Bindu left. I was sad and scared.
There was no one else who could penetrate my shell and
enter within. And then a new friend arrived. One night I was
engrossed in knee-deep communication, talking away loudly
when I heard a voice from nearby. When I looked up I found
an elderly man sitting on the other twin bed in my room.
Who are you? I asked with curiosity.
A friend, he replied gently. I was not irked or surprised,
and he seemed increasingly familiar.
I have been with you for a long time, and now it is time
for you to see me, he continued.
Are you God, I asked? Are you the one I often talk to?
Is it you who tells me everything? I wanted badly to know
him.
Yes, and no, he replied. In time you will find out what
you want to know. I am here to comfort you and let you
know you are not alone. I have been, and will be, with you
always. Sensing my need for assurance, he continued, You
can call me by any name. I will show you everything and
teach you what I know. We will walk, talk, and go many
places together.
With these few words, a deep connection was established.
To me he appeared ancient, wise, kind, and strong. I felt like
he knew everyone and everything, even God. I called him
Grandfather Time because I felt him to be the timekeeper, a
witness to everything that had and was occurring simultane-
ously in multiple dimensions. Eventually I realized he was a
spiritual master, and his role was to be my spiritual guide.
I would be alone in my room or playing somewhere, and
he would simply appear and we would talk for hours. And
he came and went from my life. Sometimes he would be with
of not being present for me. Where are you when I need you
most? I shouted angrily, dropping big tears.
In your tears, he said softly. When you cry I comfort
and touch you. I am with you till you wipe me off.
I cried and cried, but this time with love and understand-
ing. I did not want to wipe off my tears because I did not
want him to go away. I would often sleep with them on a long
lonely night. To this day, I think of Grandfather Time as my
dear friend, confidant, and wise mentor. Because of this pre-
cious connection, when I was only four my true name sur-
faced from within me.
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Baba used this way is used as a mark of respect to Sufi saints and
Hinduism ascetics (sannyasi) and can also be used as a suffix or prefix
to their names. (Wikipedia)
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A tonga is a horse buggy - it was common to travel by tonga to Old Delhi
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Indira Gandhi was the former Prime Minister of India, then
broadcasting minister.
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Kirtan: Singing praises to God.
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b Shukla, My Mother
As much as my mothers spiritual influence helped me find
inner peace, her nervous mind would soon destroy that peace.
She suffered from the abandoned wife syndrome and could
not feel my fathers love. She started by feeling low, then she
became depressed, and then finally very sick. She developed
bad nerves, hypertension, and diabetes. I would be by her
side comforting her, but with time the disease got worse. I felt
responsible because it was after my birth that things got really
out of hand. Not fully realizing it, I had started to share her
feelings - both of faith and mistrust. She connected me to
God but the connection was through pain, a pattern that
would last for many years.
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Prasad: Sanskrit: is both a mental condition of generosity, as well
as a material substance first offered to a deity (in Hinduism) and
then consumed (Hinduism and Sikhism). Literally, a gracious gift.
Anything, usually edible, given by a saint, Perfect Master or the Avatar
to their followers. The Prasad has the deitys blessing residing within it.
Wikipedia
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Then I will leave him. I was determined that the only way
to be my fathers daughter was to hold on to my name, Ruby
Bedi.
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her and for her. But no matter how much care and attention
I offered, it was not enough. I found ways to cope with pain;
hers and mine. All my sisters were now married and I was
the only one still at home. But despite constant threats, my
mother never left my father or went to Haridwar. She sur-
rounded herself with a full-time nurse, and because of either
the medication or the depression, she isolated herself com-
pletely.
I was now eighteen and it was at this very low and desperate
point that I agreed to an arranged marriage with my second
cousin. It all happened very quickly. Within three weeks of
meeting him, I was engaged and then married. A few months
later, I landed in Calgary, Alberta, Canada to start my new
life. It was 1969. With me, I had a new wardrobe with the
choicest jewellery, a new person who would offer me the
life many could only dream of, and going to North America
could bring about the freedom I desired. I was thrilled and
ecstatic when nine months later, I gave birth to a little girl we
named Rachna.
Still in my teens, I struggled to be a responsible mother.
When Rachnas second birthday arrived, so did my depres-
sion. Again, I started to lose interest, and this time fell even
deeper into the cracks. I made excuses, lied, and the pretence
soon became the veil I hid behind. I began having migraine
headaches. The allergies returned with a passion and I found
refuge in sickness and now had a good reason to with-
draw and hide from others. Eventually, I thought perhaps
having another child might help. Seven years after Rachna,
I gave birth to my daughter, Sona. Holding her in my arms,
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b Starting Over
I set up a new stage. I gave myself another chance to resur-
rect my life. I started a fashion accessory and fine jewellery
business with two retail and wholesale stores. I bought a new
BMW hoping to drive away from the old memories.
I invited my cousin, Vinod, from Dubai to live with us in
Canada and take care of my girls whenever I was away. For
the next five years, I travelled while I sought the bright star,
the young child lost within me who was magical and creative.
While on buying trips to India and Southeast Asia, I made a
point to seek out holy persons, yogis, astrologers, and even
psychics and channellers. I had a strong intuition that some-
thing major was about to happen and soon my world would
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b Madras Baba
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your true business will start. You will make more than what
you want and your health will be restored. By the way, you
have a lot of loans and a pending legal suit. Is that correct?
Yes, Baba. The revelation sent shock waves through my
body.
Return home, Child, he instructed. Look after your
girls. God will find you and all your loans will be paid. Also,
Girl, you should know you have a very pure Soul and anyone
who fights you is fighting God. The man who is in litigation
with you is soon to become bankrupt. He is on his way out of
the country.
He handed me a rosary and assured, It will help you sleep
well. And by the way, are you reciting your Gayatri Mantra?
The Divine Mother tells me you are not.
There was nothing more to ask or say. Baba had said it all.
Even though I did not understand how a loan or a case could
disappear, I believed I was on my way to recovery.
One last thing Baba, I asked as he rose to leave. Can I
reach you if I need you? I spoke as I bowed down to touch
his feet for the blessing.
Yes, and if its not me, someone will appear for you, he
said, giving me a number. His eyes were half open.
Open the door and let God in
Fingering the rosary he had given me, I felt a strong bond
with it. Then I remembered that just a month ago in Calgary
I had lost my wallet that for so many years had carried Om
Babas holy ashes.
Upon reaching Delhi, I met with a friend of my brother-
in-law. This man owned a prime tea estate near Calcutta
and Assam, and said to me, Why dont you try selling some
of our high quality tea? I can send you a shipment of fancy
packages we are promoting for Christmas, and you can pay
me after you have sold it.
I was not surprised. Madras Baba had proven to be extraor-
dinary, and I tried to reach him that week at the phone
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the AWAKENING:
A Dream Come True
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Sink into your Soul and it will lift you to the top.
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b Help Arrives
I met Dr. Noel at his holistic centre in Calgary. He was a
homeopath and metaphysician and I was impressed by his
knowledge and skills in the healing arts. His interest and
experiments began as a child and now as a master, he taught
and helped others with his unique gift.
He showed me around his holistic center and introduced me
to few of his colleagues, acupuncturists, naturopaths, Reiki
Masters, massage therapists, and different energy healers. He
listened to my story and understood everything I was experi-
encing. Nothing was beyond him. He was not surprised when
I told him about visitations from masters. Ruby, if you feel
you met Jesus Christ then thats who you met. Follow the
message and go back to work and see what happens.
Do you think I am going crazy? If I actually lose my mind
Im going to kill myself. Whatever I am seeing and experienc-
ing, is it real?
He would just shrug his shoulders and say, If you believe
it is real, then it is. But if you dont live out your belief, then
you will be crazy for sure. I will help you become strong to
do your work healthily but I do want to warn you that this is
not easy, many a healers have lost their grounding working
as channels. You need control over what comes through your
channel, you need boundaries and a lot of strength and self
discipline.
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tunity to travel in time and experience the past, this time con-
sciously was especially exciting.
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pain. Only a few wanted true spiritual insight into the Soul.
These few wanted to know who they were at a deeper level,
and what they were born to do.
My work was simple yet complicated and I fell into it rap-
idly, without hesitation. In a few more weeks, I gave up my
retail business altogether. Before I knew it, I had become part
of a healing project, which later turned into a way of living
and a way of being. I knew I was being watched and sup-
ported by greater minds to help my clients and myself.
Soon I began having visions images, energy patterns relat-
ing to events and experiences beyond our known space and
time. All manifestation is physical and has history and chem-
istry, and the visions gave me the inside story. I developed
a way to decode the images and energy patterns by feeling
them with my physical senses, body and mind and retrieved
the story that felt most truthful to me. And I was accurate
every time; my clients confirmed my findings. I had become a
Soul detective with insight into any mind and body and could
resolve matters internally with the help of the Soul.
Soon I was accessing Soul prints as well as their Soul pur-
pose. After retrieving information I would create visions for
my clients to influence their chemistry, psychology and physi-
ology. Each vision had a personal story that served as spiri-
tual medicine to complete, fulfill and heal the clients.
This is when I took to writing. I would sit with paper and
pen, and soon I could feel the push or a force from within
start to express itself on paper. I would follow the flow and
soon become conscious of what was being written. I would
stop writing when the force began to diminish. It was magical
to experience the knowledge as I wrote. The content usually
would give me history of events and behind the scene knowl-
edge. My soul was becoming more and more visible through
these writings. In a matter of months, I had wisdom and
knowledge of many lifetimes.
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The life I was now living was one I could never have imag-
ined. Using my intention, I was able to locate other Soul
beings, entities, and guides in both the physical and the non-
physical realms and communicate with them. My intuition
expanded by leaps and bounds.
Two years into my work as a spiritual consultant, I met
Joan Churcher, a practicing psychologist. Her interest in my
work was triggered by a client of hers who decided to follow
my advice and suspend her therapy with Joan to heal her
broken heart and marriage. It did not take long for Joan to
show up at my office for a session herself. I had instant rec-
ognition; I had known her for many lifetimes. We were now
back to complete the work we once started. I could feel the
stress of her ambitious soul trying to balance between dark-
ness and light. The effort it takes to hold that space makes the
strongest vulnerable and fragile. Joans integrity outweighed
the struggles; she was ready to unburden herself. Joan made a
conscious decision to put her clients first, she referred almost
all her clients to me and in turn I invited her to be present for
their past life sessions. We worked with over hundred clients
to resolve issues relating to health, relationships, and life pur-
pose. Through their stories we had the opportunity to work
on our residual business. In Joan, I found a friend, a partner
with whom I could share my inner world. This is also when
Joan inspired me to raise my fees from forty five dollars to
seventy five.
Joan, I would call, how about a session and some lunch
at the Egyptians Restaurant? We would meet at least once
a week at a small caf whose owner Steve, cooked something
special each time we were there. Back in the office we would
finish off by taking a soul guided tour to visit friends and sup-
port others in need on other planes. I would start the session
with a prayer.
We pray to God, the holiest of the holy, to the sages and
saints and masters who guide us and protect us. Let there be
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All I could for him was to show him the mirror and that I did
repeatedly. However, in the process he mentioned my work
to several of his clients who he chose to visit me. I had the
opportunity to utilize my gift with various medical condi-
tions. I knew the modus operandi of the Soul; it will create
disorder and stress when it loses the conscious connection
with the mind and body organism. Sometimes a mere prom-
ise to honor the soul was enough to ignite the flame within;
other times I would have to investigate and revisit the experi-
ences where the breakdown occurred. Good health requires a
person to be centered in their vital core, the Soul has to be the
master, the mind has to clear and doubt free and the body has
to be alert, aware and awake. I soon developed a three-step
formula that would serve my gift of healing most.
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the MASTERS
PUT ME TO WORK
Hold my hand and together we will walk
through the garden of paradise.
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Such was the case when I was in the company of Sathya Sai
Baba from Puttaparti, India.
Ruby, would you like to visit the Sathya Sais Satsang this
morning? said my friend, Doug, when I answered the phone.
I could pick you up in thirty minutes.
Sure! I gulped down my hot tea and dashed for the
shower. Standing before my open closet, I considered my
wardrobe. Purple it would be for that day I felt and twenty
minutes later I was ready at the door.
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Chuni: Traditional Indian Head Scarf.
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The suffix ji is added to a name to indicate respect, often to a
spiritual teacher.
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I saw you. By now the tears were rolling down her cheeks,
and she made no attempt to stop them.
What is the problem? I asked simply.
My ex-husband, he will hunt me down. I know he will.
He beat and abused me for many years. He went to prison for
violence and drugs, but was released just a few weeks ago. He
threatened me, saying no one can save me now. She was hys-
terical and blurting out words I could not understand.
Hold it, hold it! I said, and asked her to slow down while
I scanned the situation.
Just relax now, and meditate with me, I instructed her. I
guided her into a quieter space where she could let down her
guard and relax. As I connected her to her guides, I spent ten
minutes bringing her back to being brave and strong.
Repeat the vision I give to you for ten days, I said, and
everything will be okay. And dont worry, your husband
will not hurt you; rather, he will start to pay you child sup-
port and alimony. In just ten days? How will you? She
started to question but then she suddenly quieted. Should I
meditate twice a day? she asked.
Perfect, I said without thinking. I was in a spot. I had
promised the woman retribution from an estranged husband
who had put her in hospital with a broken arm and ribs sev-
eral times. And it all would change in ten days.
Whatever, I spoke out loud. Divine intervention can
resolve matters in seconds. I had made a promise that God
would have to keep, of that I was sure. The woman asked me
for my address and after giving me a big hug, rushed away.
Then she stopped.
Ruby, I almost forgot, she said, and dug into her purse
for a small jewellery bag. This is for you, and thank you for
being here.
In the bag was wrapped a beautiful wooden rosary with
turquoise beads. Thank you, I said, kissing it as I gazed at
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Instances like this kept me fed at the Soul level and filled
with Spirit. All these experiences, including my clients were
part of a magical world. The awe and wonder gave me ample
energy to work twelve to fourteen hours a day. In my free
time I would write pages upon pages, filling many notebooks
with inspiration. Mostly, I kept to myself and had very little
contact with anyone other than my clients.
The visitations from different masters continued. They
would send me individuals they wanted to help. I would act
as their masters voice to share the messages and then would
find a solution for their problems. Clients came for their own
reasons, but I felt compelled to first connect them to their
source and then work with their wish list. After a while,
I noticed there was a considerable gap between what they
wanted and what they actually needed. I realized the deepest
desire each client had was to get to know themselves and live
out their full potential, but this desire was usually masked
behind other desires.
The masters were of the same mind. They also wanted to
help their clan members (probably Soul groups) by first bring-
ing awareness. Healing took on a new meaning. It now meant
not just having a disease-free mind and body, but freeing the
Soul to express its creativity without any karmic burden, illu-
sion, or duality.
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the first gate with the help of a little lie about my status, but
at the second the guards were adamant, and said, Bhandariji
is in the Puja. Moreover, he does not meet with anyone after
sundown.
At this point, I stepped in. Here, its Canadian, I said,
handing him a twenty dollar bill. Which way?
The guard pointed to a complex as he stuffed the bill in his
pocket. We ran and joined a group of saffron-robed priests
that were moving to the inner quarters. No one questioned
us, and I couldnt believe I was actually here, in the inner
chambers of the high priest. This was not the first time I had
found myself on foreign land with unknown people, waiting
for an unknown person, for the unknown to happen. Seated
on straw mats, we waited for more than an hour before the
high priest appeared.
Because I was the only woman in the crowd, he fixed his
attention upon me. Then he mumbled something to his assis-
tant, another priest.
Bhandariji wants to know, why have you come?
I spoke to the high priest directly. Its my birthday tomor-
row and I want you to do a special Puja for me. I was a bit
embarrassed to speak in front of all those others, but I was
not going to lose this opportunity.
The assistant began to respond, He wants to know your
name and your birth date, just when Bhandariji stopped
him.
Ruby, I shouted out, along with my birth date. Bhandariji
closed his eyes for a few minutes. I knew he was checking
me out, just as I did my clients. He whispered something
to the priest who then said, Tomorrow is Shivaratri, and
Bhandariji will be conducting Puja for the temple at four-
thirty. But he will personally make the offering for you if you
arrive at three-thirty in the morning.
Great! I said. I was born at three-thirty a.m. too. I will
be here.
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Rudraksh Mala: Rosary Beads used in meditation.
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its way, but it found me. I was shocked, but hadnt I asked for
proof? And what better than God adorning me with this spe-
cial garland. This was a day I will never forget. Not long after
that my visit to India came to an end, and I returned home to
Canada.
Once home, I was inspired and eager to share myself. This
time I was ready to take on more, knowing God was really
on my side. It was now my turn to inspire others so they too
could feel the love and trust as I did. It was shortly after my
return to Canada that I first met Monica.
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into the
VALLEY OF DEATH
The Soul speaks again, and yet again.
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anxiety. I knew this was more than a dream, and this place
existed somewhere on the planet. The physical intensity and
the fear I felt convinced me this dream was real. That I gave
in to my fear made me feel stupid. I prayed for the dream to
return so I could have another chance to go wherever I was
supposed to.
Flying and traveling in the Soul body was natural for me.
I would often travel over houses, cities, land, and water. I
would even stop and check out whatever caught my interest.
This mostly happened in both waking and dream state, and I
often remembered my excursions afterwards. After a certain
time I could not tell the difference between the two states,
they were both real. Occasionally, I would be forced to return
against my will. Once the connection was broken I was not
always able to reconnect, and this made me hopping mad.
I shared the dream with my psychologist friend, Joan
Churcher, who tried to work with it. But we eventually
decided it was best not to disturb the energy. I was still
unaware that this dream contained a Soul message.
The same dream occurred a few weeks later.
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for help. Many hours later, I finally made my way to the bath-
room where I vomited until there was nothing left in me.
I knew for sure now it was more than a dream, but was
unable to connect the dots. I was annoyed for becoming
fearful and falling again. And even though I determined to
complete the mission the next time with grace and strength,
I could not. Discouraged, I also felt weak and vulnerable
and not worthy of spiritual adventures. This time I requested
guidance and my prayers were answered.
The final dream began as the others. This time I cross the
snow clad mountains and spot a small mud hut in a village
below. I descend and approach the hut. A mother in her late
thirties with her young daughter welcomes me. They escort
me into a cold, dark room where the only source of heat and
light is a wood-burning stove. I have trouble breathing in
the high altitude, and the woman and her daughter cover me
with blankets. I notice the young girls rosy cheeks shining in
the firelight, as they offer me hot milk and sweets.
Then as they sit with me near the fire, the mother asks my
name and my mothers name. She seems to recognize my
mothers name, but not mine. Then I hold out my hand and
show her the symbol of OM written on my palm in golden
light. As she looks at me with remembrance, I feel I have
arrived at the right place.
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Winter had set in and all the other birds were flying to
warmer places except this tiny thing. She stayed back await-
ing a message and soon she became covered with snow and
there, buried in her nest, she froze to death.
This was a strong sign for me that I should leave the cold
Calgary winter for a warmer place. I jumped out of the sofa
chair, and immediately booked my ticket to New Delhi,
India. It was late February 1995, and on the day my plane
took off, Calgary was hit by a storm with temperatures of
minus thirty Celsius. Whew! Id escaped!
About a week later, my aunt invited me to her home for
lunch to meet a swami from the Aurobindo Ashram. When I
arrived, I found Swamiji seated with another man in his mid-
forties.
This is Sushil Kumar, said Swamiji. He is a senior crimi-
nal lawyer at the Supreme Court of India. Sushil spent many
years studying different religions and philosophies. He has
had the opportunity to live with masters, and all this with
his busy law practice. He was on the team of lawyers defend-
ing Indira Gandhi, our prime minister, when she was placed
behind bars.
Sushil gave me a warm smile and said, I am honoured to
meet you. I knew Mr. Bedi, your father. I had the opportunity
to meet him many years ago in the caf at the courthouse. I
was a junior then and I still remember how I mustered up all
my courage and walked over to his table to introduce myself
and express my admiration for him.
I was touched, but I moved my attention to Swamiji who
was gazing inquiringly at me. I told him about my awakening
and my work.
What do you exactly do? he asked.
I help people manifest their dreams, I said casually.
Have you fully manifested yourself? he asked.
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b Journey to Ladakh
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They took me to the same tiny room with the wood stove and
warmed me up with the same old blankets.
By this time, I was in very bad shape and with no medi-
cal assistance whatsoever. It was the young girl who then
began to rub my feet with the special oil. Being in touch
with another body was somewhat comforting; this is when I
noticed her rosy cheeks glowing in the light of the fire. It was
exactly as I had seen it in my dream.
It was freezing cold and at one point I did not think I
would make it. Not being acclimatized to the high altitude, I
was unable to breathe. Just then, I felt the presence of Shirdi
Sai Baba. Baba, I pleaded, please release me from this
anguish. I cant take it anymore.
Its not over, he said. There is more and this journey will
bring wholeness. You will become who you are. Be in sur-
render and let go, and you must leave here before ten a.m., I
heard him say.
Sushil, please hold my hand, and dont leave until I regain
consciousness. Get me out of here before ten a.m. tomorrow
and for the next three days dont let anyone touch my body;
even if I die. I will be back.
With these words, I left myself in the hands of a stranger
who did not know my journey or me. Sushil silently followed
my orders and at ten in the morning we began the journey
back to Leh.
I struggled to breathe and remain conscious. My aware-
ness shifted outside my body. It was the smoothest movement.
I could see that my body was struggling to stay awake, not
wanting to slip into the darkness.
Suddenly I was everywhere, in the snow, the sunlight, the
clear blue sky, the car, the driver, and even Ruby. I was pres-
ent as everything and in everything. There was no sense of
separation, no filters, and no mind.
It is impossible to capture this experience in words.
Everything I describe is my take on what happened, limited
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b Manifesting My Being
Back at my aunts house, the swami had asked, Can you
manifest yourself? and I realized I could not. When I saw
Jesus during the ordeal he had said, You came here to mani-
fest the vibration you need and it could not have been awak-
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ened any other way. This environment carries the stimuli you
need to manifest your being.
And so with this new vibration induced by the near death
experience, a new, or perhaps the true Ruby was finally
manifesting. I carried the memory as a vibration in my being.
Within a short time, this vibration began to take on a life of
its own as it expanded through my entire being. I was full of
presence that could be touched, felt, and experienced, and
this experience was alive within me and through me.
It was never more obvious than now that inspiration can
source the experiences that feed our Soul and help us develop
our potential. Our thoughts and actions are in line with our
purpose and our spiritual intelligence. Our timing is impec-
cable and we are attuned to both the exterior forces and envi-
ronment, and our interior mind and Soul space. Inspiration
also gives us spontaneous peak or peek experiences, which
reveal the bigger picture.
Transformation occurs in the blink of an eye, but the
human mind is too slow to catch the movement. We usually
catch the tail-end and through memory, work our way back
and trying to recapture the essence in our own way. In doing
so, we lose out on the direct experience. At best, we have an
idea of what happened; and from that we usually fabricate the
story.
Our conceptual mind designs the plot and our creative
thinking, makes the happening seem real. Our intellect and
senses provide the sound and light effects. In the process, the
experience is reduced from a cosmic act to a personalized act.
We now adopt the happening as our story and since it is our
creation we become attached to it. This is stage one.
Stage two occurs when we revisit the happening and give
it a meaning. The same story gains a new twist. So now we
have three things going: What actually happened; how we
perceived what happened; and third our interpretation of
what happened. Now multiply this by the number of times
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and no of people you expose this story to, now what you get
is a beautiful fiction but not the truth. Not the whole picture;
just scraps and fragments of it.
While a collective picture produced by mass thinking
should be close to the whole truth, it is not, because whole
is when each and every aspect of the whole is original and
authentic and not put together by some conditioned fic-
tion. Since each story is a twist on the original, putting them
together does not constitute the whole truth. To see truth, a
deeper, higher, and wider perspective is required.
When I was a young girl, I spent a lot of time within myself,
in silence. I loved spiritual alchemy. Sometimes I would fast-
forward my life and pretend to be dead. By stepping back and
looking at myself from a distant perspective, I could detach
myself from emotion and see a bigger picture. Then I would
look back at my life from this vantage point.
Had I done everything I wanted to do? Was there more I
could have done? If not, I would rearrange my life the way
I wanted it to be, until I could see myself as complete, fully
functioning, and whole. Then I would settle into a feeling of
total satisfaction and peace. Even though the game of play-
ing dead may have been a bit morbid, it kept me detached so I
could enjoy a world beyond my ordinary perception.
Even now, I perceive my body as a spiritual playground
where body, mind, and Soul are in a three-way partnership.
On a good day, I become the player, the observer, and the
playground. I listen to Soul as it speaks through visions, ques-
tions, and dreams. I allow its inspiration to guide my actions.
But mostly, I give Soul centre stage and allow it to orchestrate
my life.
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After I bid them farewell, with love and respect we all left
the hall where we had gathered many times for discourses
and workshops.
One more time, I was giving up what I had created and
developed to step into the unknown. I had no idea what I
wanted, where I was going, or how I would get there, but I
had faith that as I left the old, the new would appear. For
most of my life I had been unaware of the entry, but I always
knew the exit. I would begin by connecting with my Soul and
trust that whatever I needed would find me.
I felt a strange sense of abundance and freedom in giving
up something I cherished so much. My friends and relatives,
on the other hand, were worried sick. They thought I was
losing my mind to voluntarily give up a successful and desir-
ous practice, and my only financial resource. But success had
another meaning for me. Success meant fulfilling my promise,
whether taking or giving. The freedom to explore my inner
realm, and to say no when the going was good was proof that
I had reached the pinnacle of my success.
I set up a non-profit organization and started to promote
other teachers and healers. Now taking a back seat, surpris-
ingly, I felt the same amount of pleasure as I did before. I
rather enjoyed supporting others in their calling. Seeing an
opportunity, I used the time to write my first book, The
Divine I, where I described my awakening and experiences.
Then, I took out a line of credit on my house and made plans
to head back to my roots, New Delhi, India.
b Soul Partner
Before leaving for India, I participated in a workshop in
Kelowna, British Columbia, where many teachers and heal-
ers made presentations. This event proved to be the beginning
of another journey. In attendance were about over a dozen
Sikh men and women from Edmonton. They were shocked to
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see the gurus and guides, receive direct messages from them,
and interpret them for others. With me, she shared her child-
hood stories about her guides and how they would wiggle her
big toe at two-thirty every morning so she would awaken to
meditate and pray. She daringly followed her guides and lived
her life intuitively from within.
She had given the family the green light, and the entire
family was now free to embrace me. Within hours, they had
accepted me into their hearts and their home.
This is my grandson, Inder, said Ma ji, handing me a
photograph of a young man. Rajinder is his mother and we
call him Sunny. Tell me something about him.
In that first glance, I realized that my meeting this family
was no coincidence. I was meant to meet this man. It was a
full body confirmation I often received from within when
encountering truth. I could not help focusing on the photo as
I shared the guidance with everyone there.
You will soon meet Inder, predicted Rajinder. He will
support your work, and help you in whatever you need. He
will love and care for you and be with you. Wait until you
meet Sunny; you will know what I mean.
While Inders mother was making external promises on
his behalf, I felt the same words being repeated from within.
Something within was promising me a bright future and it
would all begin when I met this man. But I was also picking
up that as much as our paths were connected, the way would
not be without challenge.
And then the thought came, if anyone can get into me and
destroy me, it will be him. I dont know why this thought
came. Although tempted to look into it, I ignored it. My body
sensations became ecstatic and exhilarating, and I began
receiving images and thoughts of relationship, work, purpose,
responsibility, promise, and fulfillment.
Stop! I commanded my mind. Breathe, and Be.
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him, his Soul script. But what I was sure of was still a matter
of choice for him. I was more restrained than I would be with
my clients. Here I was part of the cast and played a signifi-
cant role. As I read him, I read a part of my own script. I was
thrilled that finally I would have a dynamic, vibrant, and
youthful partner to play it with, and we could do wonders
together. Along with this would come a life I had dared not
dream of.
Even so, I was deeply concerned about how difficult it
would be to manifest this plan breath-by-breath, moment-
to-moment. Ahead I could see a lot of hard work and tough
times, and in order to successfully materialize the intended
results, I would need to be alert and strong.
I could lose myself, I thought in dismay. I was simply not
ready for more challenges. The more information I retrieved
for Inder, the more my role became visible, and the more
nervous I became. At one point in anger, I asked my guides
if it was possible to change my Soul plan and do something
else! Then I thought, once a duck, always a duck, at least for
that one incarnation. My history, biology, psychology, and
chemistry were all designed and chosen for my purpose. Even
the geographical locations, along with culture, religions, and
environment had been selected to my choice. I had to muster
the courage to live the choices I had made with full conscious-
ness.
It was more troubling to know that I would be letting down
others involved and compromise their and my purpose. When
I found myself getting tense and stressed, I decided to give up
thinking. It was futile and would create an unnecessary drain
on my life force.
A few weeks later, as a birthday gift, I invited Inder to
attend his first healing workshop in Agra. One evening after
the workshop, we sat in the car and watched the sun go down
on the Taj Mahal. The white monument shining in silver-blue
light in the reflection of the full moon and the river beside it,
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the SERPENT
Knowledge empowers my mystery,
and awareness makes it grow.
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Kuber Swami: not his real name I have changed it.
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Siddhi: A Sanskrit word meaning perfection, accomplishment,
attainment, or success.[1] Also used as a term for spiritual power
(or psychic ability.) These spiritual powers may vary from relatively
simple forms of clairvoyance to being able to levitate, be present at
various different places simultaneously, to become as small as an atom,
to materialize objects, to have access to memories from past lives, and
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after which I went to Inder and said, Now, call the Swami
and ask him to return our money.
That day, the Swamis secretary put the call through. Tell
Ruby I am not afraid. I know what she is up to. She is trying
to influence me but I am not threatened. And by the way,
where is she? he asked.
Swamiji, Ruby is visiting her friend, the law ministers
wife. Inder purposely threw in the name to influence him.
To me it was part of a miracle that, within those nine days of
inner work, I worked outwardly with a woman whose hus-
band happened to be the law minister. Unbeknownst to us,
the Swami was scheduled to appear in court a few weeks later
for a hearing in regard to foreign funds.
Dont threaten me with names, he growled. Come and
get your money, and do not bring Ruby.
On the third day we had our money back, in cash.
My belief in the inner work was again confirmed. I knew
once again that when Soul is in charge, anything becomes
possible. I thanked the Master who helped me, and began our
return to Canada, very grateful and more than a little wiser.
The Swami experience disturbed me. I was unable to fully
comprehend all the reasons for our entanglement, but one
result was I lost all fear of being hurt. Every astrologer Id
ever had a reading from had warned me not to trust people
when it came to money and love. The very idea had been crip-
pling for me. I hated not to love and this experience had given
me the freedom to play without worry.
There were other gifts from this experience. I realized a
needy person is vulnerable and can fall prey to any tempta-
tion. I also realized I needed no protection; no one could take
anything away from me and that deceit and falsehood can
bring down the strongest of the strong, while honesty and
purity open the door to paradise, and even God bows his
head to you. I remembered the poet Iqbals words to man-
kind: Become so strong that even God surrenders and says,
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The years had passed and now she was over ninety-eight
years old. For the past year, she had been confined to a nurs-
ing home and her health was deteriorating rapidly.
Ma ji had led a very full life in business, politics, and ser-
vice to humanity. She was known as a supporter of the disad-
vantaged and had fought for womens rights. In fact, she was
the first East Indian woman in Malaysia to get her drivers
licence. Ma ji had no fears, at least none that were visible to
me. She had tremendous faith in God and had always voiced
her truth.
She truly believed God had brought us together for a higher
purpose. She believed in me and had high expectations of me,
wanting me to reach great spiritual heights and help others.
However, her expectations had included a lifestyle I could
not live and so I disappointed her. When she learned about
my relationship with her grandson, she withdrew from me as
quickly as she had embraced me. At first I was angry with her
for abandoning me, but then I realized my love was greater
than my hurt. Even though I was not able to meet her, I could
still love her.
It was now almost four years since Id had any direct con-
tact with Ma ji. Knowing she was in a nursing home a thou-
sand miles away in Edmonton, I was naturally shocked to see
her in our bedroom. She spoke softly, not wanting to disturb
Inder who lay by my side. With no formalities, she came
straight to the point.
I want your help. My body is about to collapse and I still
have many things to do. I need a spiritual form. I need you to
help me make the transition from this life to the next.
I wondered exactly what kind of help she wanted. Without
waiting for a reply, she spoke again as if reading my mind. I
promise that in return, you will get back what you have lost.
The love and respect you deserve will be yours.
Then both of us became silent, and in the dark of the night
we struck a deal that needed no words. I closed my eyes,
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Secretly, I was excited and hoped for her quick return so she
could fulfill her promise. But not wanting to raise my expec-
tations too high, I decided not to think about it and turned
my focus back to my everyday life. Inder returned home and
several days passed uneventfully.
However, on the fourteenth day, at Inders insistence I
agreed to look for Ma ji. I simply thought of her and put out
the intention for her to call us. It did not take very long for
her to answer. We connected instantly and I was shocked
when she appeared.
Ma ji looked absolutely different. Head held high, she stood
straight, youthful and full of vigour. There was no sign of
stress on her bright and glowing face.
Well! How did it go? I was eager to know.
Ma ji admitted she did not yet have all the dots connected,
but she recounted her experience of dying and death. She had
assumed her death would be easy because of her strong spiri-
tual connection. Instead, she had found it hard to separate
from her family. She had not expected the bodily pain or the
mental anguish. Unable to see her guides, she had panicked.
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Thats when she thought of me, and never for a split second
did she doubt my spiritual strength which would help carry
her over the threshold. She wanted to do this without any loss
of conscious memory, and for this she needed a strong, unpol-
luted, unconditioned spiritual carrier. She felt she needed a
physical ally for the work she still needed to do, and wanted
to transfer to another body of intelligence before her body
weakened and disintegrated.
Ma ji admitted she was nervous before coming to see me,
but relieved after we connected. Like me, she was not fully
aware of how the attuning would take place but she was not
concerned about it. Even though her frail body was giving
way and her organs were shutting down, she felt peaceful and
strong in my presence and that helped her relax. This was the
point when she wanted to be left alone and not be disturbed.
As I listened to Ma ji describing her experience, I knew
exactly what she was talking about. She said for a long time
she was quiet and there was no movement. She felt safe and
knew she would be taken care of, but she had still not seen
her guides. She did not know whether to wait and rest or to
make a move and maybe pray. How does one act in the face
of death?
It was not that she feared death, but not knowing when
and how it would happen was wearing her down. She began
thinking about her future. What would she do if she had
another chance, another opportunity at life? What was next?
No sooner had the thought occurred when she began seeing
images of different possibilities. She quickly selected some-
thing close to her heart, envisioning herself working as a
spiritual science educator.
But even in that semi-conscious state, she realized that first
she needed to open her heart and step into a bigger picture.
Ma ji admitted she could have done a lot more if she had been
more open and accepting. Her religious teachings had given
her some awareness but they were culturally conditioned. Her
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beliefs about how people should act had closed her heart and
capped her potential. She had fallen short. I was surprised she
had been able to see a bigger picture so near to her death.
These new realizations must have triggered something
deeper and brought forth clarity because soon after, she told
me, the room filled with light and she could sense movement
and presence. She then felt herself lifting, and then watching
from above as her sickly body drew its last few breaths. There
was commotion in the room, a few nurses running around,
someone making calls to her family. It was like walking out
of one dream she said, into another.
Her death was not instantaneous, like a plug being pulled.
It took time. As her awareness shifted away from her body,
the pressure and burden of her physical body released. The
light created an anesthetic effect, enabling her to move into a
deep presence. Then she lost awareness. Ma ji could not tell
me what happened after that; she called it the unconscious
state.
When she regained consciousness, her guides were beside
her. As were others - her husband, brothers and friends, no
longer in physical form. By this time, her perception had
changed and she could not relate to anyone at a deep level.
She quickly wrapped up the meeting by wishing everyone the
best on their journey and suggesting they move on and to
work towards their development and growth.
I was surprised. I was used to Ma ji being bossy and over-
bearing, and imposing her truth upon others. But that physi-
cal personality was gone. Now she was more self-focused.
This was certainly not the same person I had known.
Ma ji kept repeating that her memory was intact. At first,
I did not understand what she meant but she persisted.
The process of death she explained, had brought back her
memory. She could remember even the tiniest details of her
life with acute awareness. Additionally, she was able to con-
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our blind spots. They cause things to happen that seem like
miracles because they mostly remain invisible.
There was too much to absorb. All I could say was, Wow!
Really? Oh no, ah yes, and oops! I was like the flute; the
information was simply passing through me. At first, I did
not realize how this information was affecting me; it was too
subtle to be noticed. But then I noticed some changes. I felt
more confident and clear, a bit lighter and brighter. I started
to become more aware and noticed a big difference in my
attitude and way of living. It was like someone had switched
on the headlights, and I could see and understand a lot more.
Every night I went to bed with anticipation, waiting for Ma
ji to appear. And every day I observed more changes within
myself. I felt as light as a butterfly; my passion was growing
wings right before my eyes. I did not want it to stop.
This went on until early October, when she disappeared for
a week or so. She returned with a twinkle in her eye as if she
had found a missing treasure. I was eager to listen.
We each have a personal link to connect with the greater
field of intelligence, she said. In addition, each of us has
four personal guides who act as connectors to the greater
field of intelligence. However, if and when our personal link
gets clogged and we are unable to access the intelligence that
serves our creativity, we can call upon these guides to help us.
They are in waiting and will not interfere, but when called
upon will create the circumstances for a breakthrough.
She went on to explain more, but I was unable to compre-
hend what she was describing. Even so, I was thrilled to know
about the guides. I had connected with guides and angelic
realms before and knew the power of asking but this time it
felt different. I told her I would give it a try.
Theres more, she said. Do you want to be fully con-
scious of your life purpose? Do you want to live it intention-
ally and willfully?
Of course, I replied with growing excitement.
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me. Now I could see the path ahead. This created a flow I had
not experienced earlier.
What now? I wondered. Just then I remembered Ma ji s
last words, The guides are waiting for you. All you have to
do is ask.
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of PAST LIVES
I realized the process of awakening is not
to learn more, but to remember more.
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well lie the corpses of other women who have met a similar
fate. I want to see more but I am frightened and in shock.
I understand she is a social worker, who has been trying
to stop the Hindu practice of Sati, whereby a widow is burnt
alive on her dead husbands funeral pyre. The reasons for this
barbaric practice are social, financial, and cultural, and based
in mythology and superstition. There are many theories about
its origins. Society declines the burden of a widow. Shunned
as bad luck, such a woman loses her place in the family and
society. Dying with her husband is considered the womans
way of honouring and respecting him. As much as the widow
herself steps into the funeral pyre, but actually this decision is
forced upon her by the elders.
The womans eyes and mine are locked. I notice her rich
brown skin and her long dark hair rolled in a bun. Her slim
tight body is wrapped in a white cotton sari. The woman is
about to lose her life but there is no fear or anger within her.
She is focused and determined.
I am aware that she came to educate the villagers and help
bring social reforms. But charged with inciting mind and
making trouble, her house was burnt and she was ordered to
leave. Now she is about to be hanged.
I feel nauseated and want to leave the scene. But the fire
in the womans eyes holds me firmly and forces me to wit-
ness and experience what is about to come. At first, I am
angry, hurt, and distressed. I want to punish the assailants.
But then I connect with the message she is conveying to me.
She is compelling me to go beyond the anger and connect
with something deeper. It is here that I remember a forgotten
promise.
I have always felt the need to become a powerful instru-
ment of transformation for myself and others. In this life, my
personal struggle has always been to combat unhealthy inter-
nal and external influences, to rise above cultural and social
conditioning, and to connect with my spiritual intelligence.
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My mind could only see the small picture, but as Soul I had
access to the whole truth of my past, present, and future.
I had always craved freedom and now I could feel true
spiritual freedom within my reach. It was not freedom from
things, people, or situations, but rather freedom from a way
of thinking and the limitations of a smaller perspective.
The image of a bird trying to escape from a cage came to
me. She kept flapping her wings to get away. In her struggle,
she failed to see that the cage door was already open. She had
always been free; she just did not know it.
Each succeeding vision was loaded with multiple meanings.
The deeper I went, the more meaningful they became. They
brought clarity, gave me direction and guidance and became
a most effective tool for self-realization. It is possible I could
have seen them in a dream but seeing them in a conscious
state brought spontaneous clarity and courage.
I was on a roll. Ma jis information about the Soul guides
was real; the visions and meditations proved it beyond doubt.
The Soul meditations were a vehicle and I was going some-
where. The destination was not important; the journey itself
was now the big thrill.
The nights were intoxicating. I enjoyed the adrenaline surge
coursing through my body. I reveled in the field of orgasmic
potentiality, making love to all possibilities. The intention
or the asking was the foreplay. It made my juices flow. Not
wanting to disturb the ecstatic mating of consciousness and
energy, I would sometimes purposely postpone asking for
anything. Just to be present in the field was enough. I wanted
to tickle every chord in me and play out the music.
The deeper I sank into the timeless presence, the more
addictive it became. Within seconds of feeling the presence,
my crown chakra would open and I would enter an infinite
sea of spaciousness. By resting in this space, I could separate
myself from emotional and mental preoccupations, creating a
freedom to enjoy meditating without any attachment. It was
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with lanterns and red and blue silk banners, she gives a solo
performance.
Her eyes, noticeably soft yet fiery, are inviting, and the
music soft. As she dances, she is mesmerizing, her arms
moving effortlessly in slow intentional moves. Her steps are
small and precise; her moves are calculated yet free. She
moves her body gracefully, like a serpent. Each part of her
moves in a separate yet synchronized way. She seems to be
taunting and teasing the elements with her natural moves. I
can tell as I experience her that every move has been struc-
tured, planned and rehearsed, yet she is flowing with ease and
spontaneity.
This geisha loves her work, and although she performs for
an audience, she dances first for her herself. She surrenders to
everything outside and inside. Elemental nature guides her,
providing the natural flow that makes her dance a fluid work
of art, and giving her the grace to be both the dance and the
dancer. Her intention builds the foundation and purpose;
her surrender creates the spontaneous flow. This is when the
dancer becomes an artist and the dance becomes an artwork.
The vision returns to the porch. This time I sit down to
experience the serenity and detachment of that space. I look
up at the full moon and night sky laden with tiny stars. I sit
for a long time until I am wrapped in the inky darkness and
drift into the silent space.
When I awoke from this vision, I was possessed by the gei-
shas dance, wondering what made it so magical and heav-
enly. The answer came instantly. It was not the geisha who
performed the dance I witnessed; it was Soul completing the
final dance.
My Soul-self had spoken. I was in touch. Light flashed from
within and sparks flew out of me as I cried out, Me too! I
too want to complete my last dance!
You already have, I heard the whisper from within. It is
the geishas last dance that has brought you here and now.
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though I was getting ready for something. But I did not know
what that something might be.
I did not expect more visions. I was still meditating, but
despite this, I was soon restless again. My mind was active
again, like a curious puppy wanting to chew on every idea
that came up. I noticed I was losing interest in concentrating
or meditating for a full forty-one minutes. Maybe this is the
end, I thought. But soon after that I had three more visions,
one right after the other.
Unlike the previous visions, I connected instantly to what
I was seeing. There was not the slightest separation between
myself and the individuals in my visions. The familiar envi-
ronments and images comforted my heart. The information
unfolded rapidly each time and I had the ability to live the
entire experience while also witnessing it.
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I wonder how my friends, the big cats, are doing. The sun is
about to go down and soon the moon will rise. I wait for the
night sky to turn deep blue and for the stars to twinkle.
I sit down on a big rock in front of the shed and begin to
cry. I do not know whether it is separation or union that
brings this painful pleasure. My tears are uncontrollable now
but the louder I howl, the more connected I feel. It takes me
awhile to settle down, and only then do I remember to go
looking for the jewels of this experience, the memories that
will help me manifest my Soul gifts.
How little conflict I feel in the old mans body and environ-
ment. I am intimately connected with everything. There is
nowhere that is not home. The plants and flowers serve their
purpose as much as I serve mine. My special ability to com-
municate with plants, animals, and all of the elements is at its
peak. Natures intelligence is totally transparent and acces-
sible to me.
The old man and I shared many similarities. The stories I
told my clients and that brought extraordinary results had
included birds, animals, trees, and flowers and all of nature.
As simple as they were, they influenced psychology, physiol-
ogy and chemistry.
I too knew about the chemistry of visualizations, although
not consciously. The exact visual details I gave my clients
were designed to suit their personal chemistry and to stimu-
late healing. For example, I might ask a client to visualize
the light of the sun at nine oclock in the morning instead
of at noon or four oclock in the afternoon. These visualiza-
tions were season specific too. They worked their magic just
like specially created potions. Somehow, I had known that
this magic was not new to me, that I had used it before. I
also knew that when we are in attunement with the sun and
moon, we can channel high amounts of quality energy.
The old storyteller boosted my energy and awareness; I had
a new appreciation for what I knew. The old mans no mind
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I stand facing the sun. The sun is staring back at me. Its
light is falling upon me and is now entering me. Light trick-
les everywhere inside me, touching every cell. As it moves
through each cell of my being, I feel a tickling and pinch-
ing. Something is opening; the doors and shutters within me
are flying open. As the light touches my heart, I feel full and
tears well up in my eyes. The light moves downward and
touches my reproductive organs. I feel sensations of tickling
and begin to feel great joy. My arms and legs begin to expand
and I stretch in all four directions - north, south, east, and
west. The small bones in my neck are stretching and the space
between them is opening. There is more room in my being
now. My facial bones and other bones move and readjust. I
am both observing and experiencing. As I stand in the light
of the sun, dripping in golden light, I breathe the light in and
out. Then I merge with the light.
I feel greater awareness. The light extends beyond me and I
can see everything within its radius. But I cannot see into the
dark space beyond the rim of light. My perception is only as
good as my level of conscious awareness. I am light, condi-
tioned with specific cut and design to serve my purpose. I
take a deep breath and feel my Soul light. Afterward, I cannot
think for the longest time.
The effects of this powerful vision were immediate. I no
longer wished to be ignorant of the dark and unremembered
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existence (sattva) or enlightenment-being Also, Wisdom-Being.
It is the name given to anyone who, motivated by great compassion,
has generated bodhichitta, a spontaneous wish to attain Buddhahood
for the benefit of all living beings. From Wikipedia.
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Dear God, let no day pass with
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I was not anticipating any more visions, but a few days later
another came that seemed to confirm my inner state. This
time, my vision took me to a place I had yearned to be for
over half my life.
I am a few feet away from reaching the top of Mt. Everest.
Only a few more moves and I will be there. But I am strug-
gling. My foot keeps slipping and I could fall any second. At
the same time, I have no choice but to reach the top.
At the bottom of the mountain, I had help and support as
I prepared for the climb but once I began climbing I found
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am. That part is not willing to let go of the peace and grace
of this moment.
For the first time in my life, I say no to the temptation of
continually seeking. I say no to the ascending current, no
to moving forward. For the first time, I have the strength to
choose. In the past I was possessed by an obsession to keep
moving, growing, and learning, deluded that I was acting
out of choice. But today my inner voice tells me I must rest in
this place and enjoy the completion of one goal before I move
on to another. Perhaps I no longer have the energy to keep
searching or perhaps the search is no longer necessary.
I recall a conversation with my aunt a few years ago while I
was visiting New Delhi.
Ruby, she asked, Do you think it is necessary to have a
living guide?
I hummed and hawed and then began to philosophize. She
stopped me short. To become free of your ego, it is necessary
to have someone above you, she said. It keeps you humble.
Your guide may or may not always have all the answers but
your very act of surrender opens the heart and mind. It is our
openness to receiving, not the content of what we receive, that
connects us to spirit.
I take a deep breath. Today, I am happy to have the eagle
soar above me; it feels protective. As the vision comes to
a close, I find myself standing on top of Mt. Everest with
out-stretched arms. The sun showers its brilliance upon the
mountain and I am covered in blinding white light. Just then
the eagle glides over me, shading me from the sun. I open my
eyes, able to stand in the light and see at the same time.
After the vision faded I felt refreshed and rejuvenated, as if
a cool breeze had wafted over me. Only later did I realize the
vision was a message from Soul telling me I had completed
the task of returning home. There was nothing more I needed
to learn. I had what I needed and was exactly where I needed
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It was time to travel again. Inder and I were off to India for
a winter holiday. My plan was to meet each and every rela-
tive. For the first time I had a yearning to connect with all of
them, even though most did not respect my choice of lifestyle.
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master artist. The pink and red roses seemed especially large
this year. Raj could barely conceal his pride and joy, smiling
shyly like a young boy. Oh yes, God is telling me I have been
blessed, he said more than once.
One night, as he sat in the family room in his favourite spot
overlooking the sea of lights in the valley below and sipping
his favourite scotch, he seemed more reflective than usual.
I could see him swaying in and out of his inner space and
gazing into the dark night. Speaking softly, he said, I am
tired and want complete rest. I am going to soon retire and
take a holiday. I want to go to a remote place where there
is no phone and where I cannot be reached. I want to be at
peace.
Will you be taking Roma with you? I asked. Raj merely
smiled.
I could still see the smile. Raj, you must have found your
peace, I said to him in my thoughts.
Then my thoughts flew to Roma. I quickly entered her
world, scanning present and upcoming events, and felt
relieved that all was well, now and in the future. Romas
unusual calmness and composure did not speak of denial.
Rather, she was rising to the occasion and caring for others as
they expressed their grief and shock. I knew she would grieve
the loss of her husband in her own time and way.
I called Roma. Just as I had envisioned, she was calm,
describing Rajs passing with the equanimity of an observer.
As I consoled her, I felt I was doing so more for my sake than
hers.
After the call, it took me a few moments to settle down. I
noticed I was quickly absorbing the sadness and shock. And
then, I suddenly felt lightened, as though someone had wiped
the emotions off my forehead and cleared the mental space.
I closed my eyes to tune in to Raj. As I did so, a large cloud
of light came straight at me. My eyelids tightened upon
impact, and as the cloud penetrated my being, I could feel
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lap. I felt a sharp nudge in my Soul- this was it. This gather-
ing would push through the old to give birth to the new.
I decided to be a silent observer, at this event and I was
determined to absorb the new intelligence to my fullest.
The next day Raj showed up, but it was to deliver personal
messages to his family. He was sensitive about my time and
energy and very cautious as to how he expressed himself to
his relatives. He was probably the most courteous Soul I have
ever met. He regretted that while he was living, he had not
expressed things in a way his loved ones could receive. He
told me to pass on the messages exactly as he relayed them. I
assured him I was a qualified delivery person; he could trust
me to be accurate.
After relaying the messages, Raj told me about his death.
He told me he did not know until the last few breaths that he
was dying. He was in shock. The last time he suffered a heart
attack he had prayed and asked God to give him more time
to live. He wanted to work on himself and become a better
human being. He wanted to feel worthy of Gods grace and
reach spiritual realization while still in physical form. That
makes sense, I thought. What good is spirituality without
physical form?
Raj continued, God granted my wish and I got better.
After that, I prayed daily, thanking God and asking for guid-
ance. I did my best to share my blessings with each and every
person I met. I followed a daily practice and tried to be better
than the previous day. I tried to be helpful to everyone, he
said. Raj seemed profoundly content. He had cleared his
issues before he had passed on and was ready for a fresh start.
Raj said his death had been fast and easy, that the transit
time was mercifully minimal. I was horizontal and then ver-
tical again, he said. He told me hed stood up straight with-
out any scars, trauma, fear, or loss of memory, and ready for
a new assignment. He was not surprised about his new work
because he had put in a request to work with ascended mas-
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ters and teachers. His purpose was to learn and share knowl-
edge simultaneously. And now he was doing just that.
Before he left, Raj said that God had given him a sign; he
should have guessed the end was near. He was at peace inside
and his garden was finally full of flowering scents and fruit-
laden trees. He had not seen God, but felt the Presence and
that was enough for him. Then his eyes filled with tears, he
smiled shyly, and with his head down left as quietly as he had
come.
On the appointed day of the special Soul group gathering, I
stationed my inner being in silence along with the other par-
ticipants. The process of the silent migration of intelligence
was familiar to me. The body and mind had to be on empty
for the download with no external stimuli. The inner mind
through silence is tuned in to the space, its like plugging into
the galatic brain that once plugged in transmits the frequen-
cies of light and sound of the new intelligence.
Interestingly, the download is natural and effortless; it
is full and complete transference and not just fragmented
thoughts or a few channelled messages. By being one with
that dimension the messages arise as insights and life force .
This is what I used when I wanted to be with another mind.
It eliminates the need to retain information at a mental level
and there is no loss due to interpretation as would be the case
in any other transmittance.
I maintained the silence and tried not to use my sense at all.
I knew that everything that was being transferred would soon
become integrated in me in a way best suited for me.
Freedom without responsibility is as absurd as placing a
stop sign on a ten lane highway.
The new input turned my focus to freedom and responsi-
bility. I realized that only a mind burdened with stress and
conditioning seeks freedom because it does not recognize its
true identity, Source and power. Further, the onset of tem-
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This time I worked with clients, I could witness that the Soul
life begins with intention and ends with the fulfillment of
the intention, it is the earth plane where the action happens.
The earth plane is truly a spiritual playground where we
require, acquire, and retire, all within a short period of time.
Whatever we hold, possess, or own must be given away, we
can enjoy the pleasure of giving or not, either way it is simply
taken away.
Every Souls desire is to materialize the dreams and live a
signature life. Fulfilling the Soul Promise exhausts our old
debts, past promises. It cleans the slate and gives us a fresh
and peaceful.
Learning from Raj, I wanted to utilize my Soul potential
while still in a physical body so I became determined to fully
unveil my Soul Promise. I suspected there were many like
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JUNE 2006,
MONICA RETURNS
IT WAS NOW ABOUT ten years since my client Monica
had died from cancer, leaving her dream of building a heal-
ing centre unfulfilled. Over the years, she had appeared to me
several times in her light body, always while I was in session
with a client. She would enter gracefully and silently observe
the interaction between my client and me. Occasionally, she
would whisper, Dont mind me. Im just here to learn. She
would then position herself to my left in a sort of medita-
tive mode, carefully staying outside my clients energy field.
I would simply acknowledge her presence and make sure she
was receiving exactly what I was sending out.
I realized what she saw and felt depended upon how strong
and pure my connection with Spirit was. In this mode, I
would transport her energetically into the realm of guides,
sages, and masters where the vibrations were beyond human
conditioning and the life force and intelligence were in abun-
dance. In this zone, we would anchor ourselves and leap
into the unknown to create manifestations. Little would my
client know, there were more than just the two of us pres-
ent for these sessions. Occasionally, there were times when I
would actually repeat a thought or even rephrase it purely for
Monicas benefit.
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just become aware of the raging fire and the destruction being
caused by the burn. And between them both was another
Ruby, who simply witnessed everything.
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their dreams for the joy and happiness of others was consid-
ered good-natured. There was no room to be different.
But I was different. I wanted to know God and I wanted to
know myself. I wanted to know why I had taken birth, what I
needed to do, and what surrender really meant. I wondered if
the will of the majority was the will of God. If that were true,
then I might as well be dead.
My religious upbringing had delivered mixed messages.
I was taught to pray and ask for anything and everything I
wanted. At the same time, I was taught that asking for too
much was greedy and selfish. Many of my desires were exter-
nally driven and as I tried to keep up with social trends, my
priorities became confused. My life became full of things
and people in which I had little interest. I often forgot what I
had asked for. Before one thing had manifested, I would find
myself asking for another.
Many of my clients were so obsessed with manifesting a
particular relationship or job, they could open their minds to
nothing else. Im sure many of us manifested our intent but
Im not sure how many of us found lasting value in what we
got.
However, while I was so busy asking and intending what I
desired, I paid no attention to the underlying spiritual prin-
ciples. Many teachers and healers were offering different
methods for working with intention and it took me a while
to figure out that something was missing in the process.
Eventually, I became aware that I was choosing from my ego
rather than from my spiritual intelligence, without the bigger
picture, I was likely wasting my time and energy.
I also began to realize I needed to chart my own path. I
recalled Sri Aurobindos words, Do not step into my shoes
because they will not fit you. Do not follow my footprints
for they lead to my destination, not yours. Just meet me in
spirit and you will be inspired. Now, years after meeting
Sri Aurobindo in spirit, I felt his presence; even though our
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paths were different, we both had what it took which was the
inspiration to follow our dream. A few nights later the words
beyond personal intention came to me. When the air
crackled with electricity, I knew I was on to something.
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see the elder Fakir as clearly as I saw the young one. I told my
mother of the vision, and said I might not recognize the elder
Fakir but I will certainly recognize the young one. I know his
eyes. And I also know he will return.
Each day for five years I waited, hoping the young Fakir
would return. I know it was not just a vision. This actu-
ally happened. I blamed my mother for her arrogance in not
accepting the gift, even though it happened in my vision. And
then as Ruby guided us into meditation just now, it all came
back. I recognize your eyes. Now that you are back, I know
everything will be okay.
Priya, what colour of robes was the young Fakir wear-
ing? asked Inder gently.
Black, answered Priya, her gaze locked with his.
No, they were grey, corrected Inder in the timeless space
that had opened between them.
Yes I am sorry, the elder Fakir wore black and you were in
grey, she said softly.
And time hung.
It is almost impossible to capture such moments with
words, however, these rare and exquisite occurrences open
the door to the unknown. Here, time stands still and one
glimpse is enough to generate faith for several lifetimes. Inder
wept. And he knew that what Priya experienced was real.
After that, Priya showed us her Juhu Beach house. This
is where I spend every evening. It is my way of being present
until we can sell the house. Chetans sons come here later,
after I have gone, she explained.
Why dont they simply buy your share? I asked.
They wont, she answered. They dont want to share it
with me at all.
Priya, I will help you get the house sold without any con-
flict and without lawyers. I promise you will get your share,
but you must promise me you will not return to this property
again until I have finished my work.
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was filled with high energy and a creative presence and I was
thrilled to feel a familiarity and comfort in being there.
My guest today is Ruby Bedi, who has been called a
modern day oracle. With these words, Adrienne welcomed
me onto her show. Fascinated, I felt there was just something
in the way she pronounced my name. It felt like a reminder of
sorts, but I put the thought on hold, and for the next ten min-
utes became fully engaged in the conversation with my host. I
was really starting to enjoy the ride when we had to stop for a
commercial.
I love this! I said. It will be perfect for me. Stepping
into the future, I instantly envisioned myself talking on line
with others.
Yes! Adrienne finished the thought for me, and both of
us broke into a big enthusiastic smile. Then she was on again,
seducing the listeners (including me) with her words, pres-
ence, and style. The room was certainly small for a big per-
sonality like hers.
Ruby Bedi, she said again, and again I felt it - this odd,
distinct feeling of reminder. It felt like I was being called. I
also realized there was some good reason for me being here
on the air with her. With no time to mull over it, I made a
mental note to later check my inner mailbox for messages.
Something was up.
There was a presence in the room indicating there were
more than just two of us here. When I looked at Adrienne,
she now seemed even more familiar. I knew her from some-
where and there was more to this than what I was remem-
bering. I knew she had done much more than just announce
my name; she had introduced the person who Ruby Bedi was
meant to be. But we were on air again and there was no time
to ponder this as we discussed spirituality, relationships, and
my upcoming book.
All too soon we were done, but my mind was occupied with
the deep response that hearing her speak my own name had
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the other side. He was in as much pain and fear as she. I was
trying to bring peace to them both and at the same time pray-
ing silently to God to step in quickly and take over. The wifes
sobbing was ripping me apart. Her pain was waking me up
from inertia and lethargy, compelling me to become involved.
I was left with no choice but to become responsibly engaged.
This vision dissolved any guards I had built around myself.
I was pain-struck, but unlike my own personal pain, here I
could do something to help. I felt no fear of taking on some-
one elses karma or energy; rather, it was meaningful to
become involved. I knew my role. The greater purpose of my
work was to bring peace to those who were suffering. I might
not be able to change their destiny, but I could follow my own
destined path, helping however I could.
I must give my fullest here, I thought. The thought of being
present for someone else in pain was humbling and I remem-
bered the times in my work when I was doing just that. But
somewhere along the line I had become distant and detached
myself from the work; it happened when I did not get the
results I wanted. But now, I let go of the outcome and was
once again sought pleasure and purpose in the journey.
I decided to take on whatever Gods plan was for me; I
think I was being a bit self-serving. Yes, God had to be a
partner in this and I made sure I included all three in the
healing triangle: God, others, and myself. I called it the X
factor.
Oooooh! Breathing deeply, I stretched out - giving my heart
more space. I could feel the opening and fresh air in my lungs
and after a time, there was a gentle mellowness in me. I guess
this is what acceptance does. By living out my purpose, even
through a vision, I had earned grace. Feeling empowered, I
made a decision to handle these responsibilities with pride
and spiritual poise. Ready to make amendments to my life
plan, I made a personal commitment that my heart would no
longer ache for personal reasons. Instead, my own heartache
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Each occurrence was awakening me to see and sense things
in new ways. My visions were confirming and revealing
my inner truth. I was in wonder. When I turned inwards, I
noticed my body was like the Christmas tree with every cell
lit in white light. I could feel the electrical current flowing
from one cell to another. All the cells were lit with the same
intensity, all alive, with memory, recognition, power, force,
and will. It was now impossible to tell the original cell from
the copy. It was a long awaited miracle. All LIGHTS ON, and
I was thrilled!
By this time, I had realized it was not my personal will
working this wonder. Yes, I had a dream. But this was so
much more than what I could dream of. I remembered a
night, two weeks prior when I sat up writing until early
morning. Around five oclock as I gazed out the big picture
window of the living room, it was dark, and then in a split
second, there was light. All in one stroke, I had seen the first
ray of light come in and the first streak of darkness disappear.
The fact that I had been able to catch a glimpse of the subtle
and experience the first rays of light and darkness made me
part of the wonder. In form I was in touch with the formless.
And I had an inkling there was more to see. My subtle sense
was developing; meaning I was ready to witness more.
With my introspective nature, I was able to witness the
break in awareness, consciousness, energy and life force.
When we are one with the continuum, we spontaneously
enter the space where we transcend it. Some call that the
gap. The same principle must exist between two lives, as in
two thoughts and actions. My mind cried out for more! I felt
it was only a matter of time before I witnessed the journey
of a Soul in one life and then another, the wonder of rein-
carnation. The possibility was too good to be true, so before
I killed it with my thinking I decided to drop it, and revisit
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into the illusion. What remains are hard facts that are visible,
true, and transparent. A new understanding is born that I call
the new dawn.
I realized that spirituality is not just a tool for consciousness
to manifest in the physical. It has a transforming quality that
can separate the gold from the dust; it can decipher the true
from the false. I could the feel the essence of this Soul intel-
ligence within me. It is not ego that causes us to believe we
can live forever. Death is a higher state of awareness where
Soul may witness both the subtle and the physical. At death
we shed our body and take on new dreams to live our prom-
ise; the sequence does not break as we continue to live our
intention. But we lose the memory to know ourselves as one
continuous being. We are consciousness and we know that
consciousness never dies. Physical death opens the portal to
live our immortality repeatedly.
The more I saw, the more I was able to see. With interest, I
noticed that everything was in the light but I could only see
what I could see. Despite having all lights on, I could only be
aware of what I was conscious of. Even though there was a
lot more to see, nothing else was visible to me. I could not see
eternity but I could see in the moment. I realized the eye I had
developed could not experience eternity without living it one
moment at a time. Wow! Here was another closure for want-
ing to see more than necessary. I realized my desire to live
eternally was being manifested by living each moment. Each
moment, in fact, was eternal. The need to go forward and
the reason to go backward both crashed and I found myself
waking up from a dream and stepping into another dream,
this time consciously.
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LIVING the
SOUL PROMISE
I FIRST RECEIVED THE KEY to my Soul and my promise
when Maji gave me the Four Pillars Meditation. It had long
been my secret desire to deliver a genius formula to unleash
our full potential and live an enlightened life. This meant a
full and conscious connection with the Source, intelligence,
and life force to create and enjoy everything that Soul desired.
I had promised myself I would not rest until my mind and
body had fully awakened. Once awakened, I would then pass
the torch to others. One by one, we would gradually light up
our lives, our world, and eventually, the entire planet.
This was not simply wishful thinking or my overactive
mind; this wisdom came from pure knowing. At times, it felt
like I was romancing with idealism and building my founda-
tion on ideologies. This is natural when we think ahead. But
my inspiration was rooted in intelligence and awareness; I
could recognize the signs and observe the patterns.
My dream was real and very doable, but it is only as good
as the dreamer. So I would build up the dreamer in order
to house a bigger dream. Soon my Soul provided me with
another vision:
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this miracle and, at some level, get proof that Monica and
Melissa were the same Soul.
As I found myself becoming stressed and anxious, I decided
to let go of wanting proof, to test, or look for similari-
ties. I decided to simply observe and let the chips fall where
they may. I trusted that I would know the truth when I saw
Melissa.
When the doorbell rang Saturday morning at eleven sharp,
I jumped from my seat to open the door for young Melissa
and her parents. And in the moment I first saw her, I knew
instantly that Monica had returned to life as young Melissa.
It was all in her eyes. The force and the fire in them was the
same as Monicas. As I took her hand, the physical contact
hit me like bolt of lightning. Currents of energy were running
through my body and I began to shake. As I invited them into
the house, I tried to manage my state.
Melissa quickly became comfortable and answered me
easily as a seven year old would, descriptively expressing her
frustrations at home and school. When I asked about her
dreams, she told me she could fly in her dreams and visit
other people. She said that in her sleep, she was strong and
had POWER, yet during the day she was not able to access
this power. This confused and frustrated her. She told me she
could talk to the rain, sun, and clouds, and felt she had a spe-
cial relationship with the elements.
As she spoke, I listened carefully. Without her being aware,
I asked the questions and within seconds she would blurt out
the information I was seeking. At one point in the conversa-
tion, I silently requested to Monica that she give me more
proof. Immediately, Melissa held her head from both sides
and said, I cant remember! just the way Monica had done
when I asked if she remembered her Soul Purpose. This was
a gesture that Monica had and Melissa then demonstrated
exactly same habit and more than once. I realized I was
looking at a person who was almost identical to me, except
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she had clarity and an openness I did not have at her age. I
needed no further proof; she confirmed things only I knew.
For a few moments, I wondered if I was being tested and
tricked into some wishful miracle and falling prey to some
delusion. But my skin, my largest organ, was confirming
that this was no psychotic interlude; I was in the presence of
truth. Her facial expression, her words, the configuration of
her sentences, her gestures, and more than all that, her per-
sonal energy all signaled she was Monica reincarnated. There
was no doubt in my mind that Monica and Melissa were the
same Soul. At the same time, there was something about her
desires, dreams, and nature that were very much like mine.
Her similarity to me too was uncanny and I wondered what
further connection I might have with her.
And then suddenly I remembered Monicas last words.
I want to be just like you, Ruby, she had said.
I asked Melissa to name three flowers in the sequence that
came first to her. Without hesitation she blurted the answer.
I was stunned. The three flowers in the sequence she chose
had special meaning for me. They were special codes from
my Spirit Guides and teachers in the subtle realm and were
part of my healing work. No one but I knew their order and
meaning.
Melissa, when is your birthday? I asked, trying to con-
nect the dots.
December sixth, she responded, and I gasped.
It cant be, was my first thought. And then, Why not?
was my second.
She was born on the same day as me. I was still trying to
understand, to put the puzzle together. Why did Monica
choose Don and Julia as parents?
Looking at both of them I asked, What is your Soul
desire?
We want to be part of a healing centre, he began, and
then proceeded to repeat word for word Monicas Soul
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MORE MIRACLES
IT WAS REALLY TOUCH AND GO.
Do I ever have a cocktail for you! were the last words
I heard from the anesthesiologist, shortly before the doctor
began my hysterectomy in Calgary Foothills Hospital.
Lets go for it, I replied, confident this surgery would be
an in-and-out visit to the hospital from which I would leave
stronger than before. Was I wrong! Four months later, I was
still struggling with complications from the surgery. While it
was true the surgery rid me of the initial stages of cancer, five
days later I went home with symptoms I did not have before.
Soon after that I lost total control and was overtaken by fear
and panic along with pain, fever, cough, hypertension, and
more. It was not long before I was rushed back to emergency
and re-admitted with a severe infection. Then it happened
again, and then again. Apparently, I was one of the rare cases
who incurred kidney damage due to medical error. And as
if this was not enough, I also reacted to the medication and
painkillers resulting in inflammation of my esophagus.
There was more. While inserting the stent, the second sur-
geon managed to cut a hole in my bladder which required
yet another corrective surgery. All of these procedures were
accompanied by a cocktail of medications. The entire expe-
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This saga certainly shook me before the infection finally
cleared, and it was several months before I began to find
peace again. Then one day while I was at home recuperating,
I got a call from one of my favourite friends, Ted.
Are you ready for some work? he asked. My friend,
Horace, could really use your help.
Horace (not his real name) arrived at my place, accom-
panied by his wife and his in-laws. He was a scientist and
I soon discovered he had a way with words! It took him an
enormous number of words and at least thirty minutes just
to explain how he found me and we were still nowhere close
to the reason why. I realized that, as much as he wanted help,
he was even more in need of confirming some of his powerful
experiences. But he was secretive and for some reason fearful
of revealing his whole story.
Stop! I finally interjected. Horace, please just answer my
questions. I was direct without sounding too rude.
Horace, I dont like what I see. Its like you have been
jolted with light and lost your equilibrium. The shock must
have impacted your power to observe. I have no doubt your
experience is true but I am afraid it has shattered your ner-
vous system and it feels like you are on the verge of a break-
down. I sense you are trying to protect your story but I need
to protect you first, otherwise we will lose both.
Horace continued to share his truth. His experience was
indeed extraordinary. He had literally been hit by light. A few
years ago, he narrated, while working in Hawaii, he met a
fellow scientist with similar interests and they became good
friends. Joining forces, they decided to work on some mind-
boggling technological breakthroughs. During their long
escapades, they shared time, secrets, and more. Eventually
Tom (not his real name) revealed his true identity. A true
genius with early PhDs when he was still very young, NASA
had scooped him up for special assignments. One of these
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his and Toms dream and share the unique intelligence from
the light beings.
Horace, I want you to start to journal everything in third
person and this will help separate you from the event, I said.
It will also help create balance and restore your observing
skill. In this way, you can be an effective channel without you
getting in the way. As it is now, the information is filtered
through your attached state so it becomes tainted with your
personal limitations.
I then gave him a few visions to connect him to a peaceful
state and clear his mind-space and help him receive and trans-
mit information rapidly and efficiently. This would not stress
his mind and body and yet maintain the flow.
I promise to support you in your lifes work, but you must
listen to me and follow all the advice I give you, I stressed.
In this way, you will not lose your mind but in fact, you will
enjoy the journey as you fulfill this unfinished task.
There was much more but sharing it all was not my place.
As Horace and I continued to work together, I was able to
confirm many of the messages he was receiving with my own
skills. Using the techniques I gave him, Horace began to sleep
and be more restful, and regain his balance.
He is writing his story as it comes through but always in
the third person. Much of it pertains to the upcoming events
around the year 2012. At the time of this writing, his story
is not yet complete but he continues to turn to me for sup-
port and balance when he needs it. He attended a few of my
meditation circles and no longer feels troubled. I have recom-
mended that he publish his work as fiction. Those who are
ready will see the truth in it.
After my first session with Horace, I was not shocked or
even surprised, rather I felt like a child in a toy store. I could
sense a freeness and joyfulness. Something in me was happy
and fun; it felt like playtime. That night after my meditation,
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ing in return. There were times when she wanted a favour but
it was always for someone else. And so it was this time.
Howard Lyman, the famous animal activist, a Montana
rancher turned vegetarian, is our guest speaker for Earth Save
and the Vegetarian Society. He has just arrived from the U.S.
and I am right now driving him to the radio interviews. He
has an important message to share and a fascinating story. I
told him about you and he wants to meet with you. He has
time before his presentation; do you think you could see him?
Of course, Valerie, bring him to the office at three. And
if I like him, I may just make it to the presentation tonight.
Although I was not much involved with Valeries affiliations,
once in a while I would accompany her for the love of food
and my interest in inspirational matters. However, I ended up
consulting with several of Valeries guests.
At three sharp, I opened the door and in walked a tall,
heavy, broad-shouldered man with the sweetest smile.
I am Howard Lyman and you are Ruby, just like I thought
you would be, he said. Valerie dropped me here; she has
some errands to run before the presentation this evening.
Please come in, have a seat, I said indicating the chair.
Can I have a hug first? He surprised me, so unlike my
other clients.
Of course, I smiled and stood on my tippy toes to hug
him. The hug was more of a transmittance of tons and tons
of gentle lovingness. I felt like a cub in the arms of the mother
lioness; it was a feeling of returning home. We sat across from
each other for what seemed quite a while, just looking at each
other. Usually, silence like this can be a bit unnerving, but
not this time. There was a strange togetherness and we both
knew we knew each other. This recognition removed any
distance or separation there may have been between us. There
was nothing I needed to say and instead Howard said, We
are Soul friends.
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possible for me. I only have to ask. But you dont actually
need to understand all this. If you do your envisioning, your
job will be done. My friends, especially air and space, will
effectively and promptly transmit your message. I suspect
it will be through television and it might take three to four
months. But you must promise to convey your message grace-
fully. This means you will not pollute the air or space with
words or deeds that could hurt anyone or anything. Keep it
clean and do it with respect and soon you will have your wish
granted.
I promise I will convey my message with respect. I am just
making people aware and offering them options and choices I
believe will help all.
There is one more thing. This vision will be a one-time
deal. There will be one opportunity. You will have a short
time to present your views, after which this opportunity may
not repeat itself. But from this will arise many smaller but
effective opportunities. In other words, youll be able to lever-
age this one for a long time to come.
I understand, replied Howard.
Hmm, okay, I think I have explained it all. Im ready to
give you the vision if you are ready to receive it.
Yes, Im ready. Howard closed his eyes and adjusted his
posture for comfort. Then I guided him through the vision. I
could feel his state change as he entered a deeper Soul dimen-
sion. The vision was intended to connect him to his vital core,
memory, and presence where he would access intelligence and
other gifts needed to fulfill his purpose. The vision would
also align him with the elemental power for accelerated
results. After the vision, I let him soak in the centredness
for quite a while. When he opened his eyes, there were tears
rolling down his cheeks.
Ruby, you have the gift; God is with you. He kept look-
ing at me and then very humbly, he said, Please tell me what
I can do for you. Is there anything at all that you need?
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roles and content best suited for that particular time. The cast
will change, so will the stage appearance, but the message
will not change much from before. The elements keep churn-
ing the same cycles in a periodic manner; the cause and effect
illusion keeps building the mystery, and we keep buying into
the concept of time, and individualism rather than experienc-
ing the collective and the timelessness. Only when the veil of
ignorance lifts and the illusions are broken, we move shift
duality and become one with the continuous play of con-
sciousness.
I am pretty sure this story too is not yet over. In time,
another epidemic related to this very subject will rise, the
story will continue bringing the past alive, Howards message
will again be repeated, and Oprah will be quoted, but then
these two would have been replaced by other characters. It
will be their turn.
Since then, I have met Howard a few more times. After
he was on Oprah, his message went out far and wide. He
authored The Mad Cowboy and another book. I am sure a
major crisis of Mad Cow disease was averted and some regu-
latory measures have been implemented, because of the expo-
sure being on Oprah provided.
Once, he stayed at my home and again he asked if there
was anything he could do for me. My answer was the same,
No, but I will call you when I need you. Up until now, I
have never once consciously reflected upon the story. But once
I did, I felt a sudden expansiveness. I realized the life I keep
trying to live, I have lived. The message I wanted to share
with others, I have. Not in words or concepts but through
energy, intelligence, awareness and purpose with many
others. Part of my purpose is conscious recognition of the
Soul and the personal role in the grand cosmic orchestration.
Each story has an unknown factor and is often written off
as fate but fate too has a face. I see in myself and everything
else. It is the face of God.
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I found Rubys book hard to put down once I started reading it.
Even though Ive read TONS of personal growth, spiritual and
inspirational books, Rubys is different. Her unique perspective,
descriptions of other worldly experiences and truly amazing
stories were like a breath of fresh air as she reminds us of the
resources always available to all which can enlighten, support
and guide us on our path.
Michele Bowen
Manager International Partnerships
The Secret
Call her a healer, call her an oracle, call her a mystic or a spiri-
tual intuitive, Ruby Bedi defies definition. In The Soul Promise
she shares her incredible experiences of discovering her special
gift, her own spiritual identity, and the Promise she made as Soul
before incarnating into this life. Her personal journey of heal-
ing, growth and miracles will enlighten, teach, and inspire you.
Read this book, and as you do you may realize that you too are
a divine being and have made a promise, and it is possible to
awaken the memory of that promise and begin to live it.
Janet Matthews
Co-author of Chicken Soup for the Canadian
Soul, Licensed Heal Your Life Workshop
facilitator, based on the work of Louise Hay
Writer, Editor, Spiritual Mentor
Having had the great pleasure of working with the worlds most
renowned mystics, I can tell you first hand that not only are
Rubys abilities second-to-none, but more importantly, the inten-
tion behind her work is as pure as the Soul that resides within us
all. Ruby was the match that lit the spiritual fire that I am today.
After my first meeting with her, I was awakened to a thirst for
the Truth about Life that has yet to be quenched, nor can it be,
nor do I want it to be. Ruby sparked the journey I began years
ago that led me to the inner peace and literally out-of-this-world
awareness I so cherish today. I know that Ruby Bedi is here to
awaken the same magnificence within anyone with the oppor-
tunity to hear her life-altering message. Not only is The Soul
Promise a book you should read, but you owe it to your Soul-self
to do so.
Daniel King
Visionary, Spiritual Teacher, Revolutionary,
Promoter of Lightworkers