SHE NEEDS TO SACRIFICE WHITE

PEOPL BECAUSE of her white privilege

guilt...by picking on white people she can
prove to minorities how fair she is to them,
she hasn't done a thing of anything
noteworthy in her life, besides being white, so
she has to go sacrifice some whites to prove
how fair she is to minorities
re " if yu get out of line, you can't get back in,
must go to end of line" HEY OC FAIR
LADY, U CAN'T JUST MAKE UP
KINDERGARTEN RULES...Ive been going
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to the oc fair for YEARS now..and I always

try to make it to opening day at 12 noon
where they let everybody in free for the 1st
hour, but as you can imagine there's also a
LONG LINE..., so I did what I've done the
past few years, I arrived at 10am, sat in my
car for an hour, then walked to the entrance
and arrived at 11am for the 12 noon opening,
and as I expected, there was already a long
line...and I found a spot and focused on
reading news on my smartphone...brushed up
on what was happening in Sudan...and
waited for the line to start moving...last year
they actually opened before noon ...but this
year they apparently decided to be punctual
and waited until 12 noon sharp...and as the
line started moving this lady without a
nametag showed up by me and a group of
black people. I was behind the black people
assuming they were in line. The lady didn't
say anything, but smiled, and said "Is
everything ok?" It was a bit strange but I
just smiled back and nodded, the black
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family said a few things...and she left...but the

line was moving VERY SLOW..however,
suddenly I saw the far left line open up, or so
I thought, just like last year, after the vendors
had arrived they opened up the vendor line to
the public, or so I thought, so I jumped out of
my line and hoped to be whisked thru this
new line...but then somebody yelled out "This
is the vendors line" ..I spoke with a young
man who apparently saw the cross on my
neck and said "Are you with the mission
group?" The mission group? was he being
sarcastic? I said I am just a regular citizen
waiting to get in. It actually seemed like he
was trying to trap or trick me into saying I
was something that I'm not. Earlier they had
handed us tickets while we waited in line and
I assumed this was for inventory and showed
him the ticket, and he said, sarcastically,
That's not the ticket they sell...it's a long
white one. Actually, they weren't giving out
tickets at all for the 1st hour because
everybody is free, ...another gal explained to
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me that these were for some sort of raffle...;

whatever the case may be, I walked away
disappointed and tried to go back to my spot
in line behind the black family..and found
them ...they were nearing the check-point to
enter..and I got behind them again...and there
were a few ladies in wheelchairs sort of next
to them...not sure what line was what..but
sort of thought there were 2 lines and I was
side-by-side the wheelchair ladies..then the
white no nametag lady re-appeared right
next to me...she seemed to have an agenda..
she seemed to be agitating the wheelchair
ladies against us or me...suddenly one of the
wheelchair ladies said "You could at least go
behind me..." I didn't think I was even in her
line.. then I said to the no nametag white
security lady with white privilege all over her
face what had happened...that I got out of
line because I thought they were opening up
the new line...suddenly she blurted out, "If
you get out of line, you can't get back in...u
need to go to the back.." I was stunned! I had
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already waited over an hour, or two hours if

you include waiting in the car. To go to the
back of this line meant probably 2 more
hours of standing in line. Did she have a
rulebook that said "you can't get back in
line"? And if so, a LOT of other people
needed to go back too...lots of families and
kids had been getting in and out of line the
whole time. I realized I was being picked on
and despised the smug look on her face, and
wondered if she in fact had been waiting for
the last moment to re-appear to pick on me
for some reason, just as I was about to get
into the fair. It seemed like it. I was
absolutely angry and said to her, "You f---k-g hate me because I'm a white boy". I don't
normally use the f word but it seemed to just
blurt out of me in a moment of anger. Fact is
I'm 49-years old, a grown man, but it was
clear she was treating me like a boy, a white
boy, so that's what I referred to myself as,
expecting her to object, but she said "That
has nothing to do with it" without conviction.
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In fact , this is a common Orange County

problem. The white govt workers, especially
police, LOVE to pick on whites over anybody
else...it's sickening, and I could never figure
out why, because I thought they would want
us to be on their side, not against them. But I
now realize that white govt workers in OC
and some in L.A. despise non-government
white people because they think of us as a
different class...and these white govt workers
have a TON of white privilege...they have
been hired not because of any great
achievements or excellence in education or
anything.. but because they are white
compliant people who are actually quite
average. They DESPISE AND ACTUALLY
HATE white people who don't work for the
govt because we represent a threat...; because
we expose their white privilege, so they will
try to find any very slight infraction to pick
on to try to PROVE to minorities (persons of
color) that they are unbiased and fair to
everybody even though this proves nothing,
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in their minds they seem to think it proves

their point...it's actually a "human sacrifice"
that they feel compelled to perform
periodically in front of a large group ...its
disgusting and despicable...their white
privilege is sickening. But it's not just whites
with white privilege , they just happen to be
the majority..but you will find latinos ,
Asians, even a few blacks working for the
govt who also have that same "white
privilege guilt which compels them to need to
find a white person to periodically sacrifice
thinking they are proving something.
I actually decided to LEAVE the fair AFTER
she gave me an "order" which I could not
comply with...I could have asked to speak to
her supervisor but I'm not sure it would have
done much good...if she had an agenda
against me, she would have manipulated the
situation and made things worse for me...so I
bit my tongue and walked away towards my
car.
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However, I add that I had the LAST LAUGH

because the line on the north side had only 10
people in it, so I got in quicker than I would
have had I continued to wait in line where the
white privilege lady had confronted me.
Nonetheless, the "sting" remains...IT was
another act of emasculating me as a 49-yearold man here in Orange and L.A county.
That's how they control non-govt white
workers around southern California...they
issue orders and give hostile treatment that
ultimately leaves us with 2 choices: to 1)
fight/confront or 2) back off walk away feel
beaten down & emasculated . Of course we
cannot choose option #1 because that means
we are aggressive and they will be happy to
arrest us. ; but option #2 is just about as
impossible.
And this leads me to the issue of "black lives
matter" and makes me think that blacks feel
this emasculation on a regular basis (albeit
statistics show whites actually get killed as
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much or more than blacks in police

encounters) ...so it's really not a black/white
thing but an "us v them" thing, and certain
types of white males seem to get the brunt of
the negative treatment , along with blacks, all
with the purpose of "defeating" us. There are
two ways of defeating people...1) either
literally by physically defeating or even
killing us; or 2) by emotionally emasculating
and abusing us.
I suspect that some of the periodic backlash
we see against police partially stems from too
much of #2 treatment (emasculation,
emotional abuse). It's just human. It was
difficult for me to be abused by this lady at
the OC Fair...and I'm a 49-year-old white
male with college and graduate school
degrees who has endeavored to treat all
people respectfully including police, even
though I haven't always felt it in return.
So I end up silently writing about things like
this, hoping it does some good...maybe even
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getting to the lady's supervisor ...if he or she

has any integrity to do something about it.
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