How I was changed...

No one really knew on how every one of us started, until we all realized that we
think of ourselves that we are changed. From what weve started, from childhood to
adolescent, can we really retrace our steps? From what I remembered, my elementary
days were unforgettable, I was a star pupil, I was a bright student, and I have good
moral values as well. Then it came my high school days, when I was still a freshman, I
was finding a difficult time to adjust myself in a different surrounding, I couldnt know
where to go or even make friends with. From my differences, specifically physical
differences I became a victim of bullying. I was teased from day until night, hurt from
inside and out. I didnt know if I could fight back, or not. That factor affected me very
much, my family my school performance, most of all my self-esteem. There even was
the time when I was about to give up and end all of these. I was lost, I wasnt close to
my parents that time, I didnt know who to approach, it kept me thinking that there would
always be that someone, no matter what circumstances, that someone would always be
there, and that is the Almighty God. Everything is possible with him, my thanks to him
have no words to describe. Then he blessed me to have more faith even when trials
may come. After that experience, he blessed me with a good and memorable high
school years. And whenever there was a blessing that I achieved, still I dedicated it to
him.
Then, it came where I had to choose the course of nursing. Again, I became a
freshman, but this time it was different, it became the other way around. That time, I
wanted to be brave, to be tough and show everyone that I could do it, since I am in the
profession of nursing everyone needs to be smart or even intelligent. Maybe from my
experience, this time I need to be tough, I need to show everyone that I can do it too.
But that lead them the impression of me as mayabang or Ms. Know-it-all. It was
starting all over again, but why did it lead to this? Was it because I have a bad attitude?
Or because I have a bad past from me. I couldnt let go from it, I just do what I did from
the last time. I just prayed and nothing else. I prayed for the people to have a better
understanding of me and to always guide me. He even blessed me with loving parents
and a special person that would teach how to be humble, how to be sensitive, and how
to know when to say youre sorry. That changed everything, people may say that you
cannot change a person from what they are, when in fact you still can. As long as we
seek guidance first, then the rest would be your achievement.