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From the corner of my eyes I saw someone with an object in his hands. It looked like a baseball bat.
Before I could react, it was coming straight at me.
I felt the immense and heavy pain from the back of my head before losing conscious.
--In the darkness of unconsciousness, there was no light, neither was there any stars.
The sudden pain that I was feeling was branching. From my fingertips, slowly to the rest of my body.
It was as if my sleeping cells had come alive, protesting and wreaking havoc with my bloodstream.
This was a nightmare.
But, reality was the real torture.
When my opened my eyes, my vision was fogged.
My brain was blank and I could not recall what had happened. I squinted my eyes, trying to take in
my surroundings.
But there were men surrounding me. They were looking down at me from above.
As I lay on a foreign bed.
I looked to the place where I felt pain, it was my hand, drooping over the edge of the bed. There was a
cut and blood was dripping out of it. Drop by drop.
I wanted to lift my hand to observe the injury, yet I had no energy to do so.
What is going on?...
Sorry, we wanted to maintain your appearance for later on so we didnt splash cold water on you to
wake you up. We didnt want to hurt you either. One of the men said.
My head pulsated with the pain as the memory of the alley came back to me.
Whowho are you?... And where am I? Why dont I have any energy to move at all? Why is it
that I can barely speak?
Lets start. One of the men said. Suddenly, two of them approached me and started to rip my clothes
off.
Whatwhat are you doing? I wanted to avoid them, but I had no energy to move, at all.
What the fuck is going on?
I couldnt think, and the man in front of me took out a camera.
Oh fuck no
Nonop-p-please dont do this
Do anything to me, but please dont take the pictures, please I cant have such picturesI
The hands were still working on my bare body, ignoring all my pleas.
As soon as all my clothes were off, the camera flashed a few times.
Afterwards, one of them unbuckled his belt and climbed on top of me.
What happened afterwardsI dont want to remember for the rest of my life.
All I could remember was pain. Pure fucking pain. It was more excruciating than anything I had ever
experienced.
I wanted to vomit as they stuffed their parts down my throat and I felt absolutely disgusted as they put
their hands all over me.
There was also the camera flash.
I was at my breaking point. And nothing but tears came, and it was immediately wiped off roughly but
one of their hands.
I wanted to scream, but all that came out of me was the gasps and groans of pain. I felt so dirty.
Why am I still alive.
--I lost track of time as they continued on. I had no idea how long they had went on until they stopped.
I was barely conscious and all the pain seemed to have dulled my nerves.
This is a message from someone: One of the men said before they left, his hand gripping my chin,
this was a present to satisfy you, dont go around again seducing men.
What does that mean?...I dont understand
P-pleasethe picturesI beg you, please dontI plead him again as I tried to pull on the hem
of his shirt.
He only let out a cold laugh and swiped my hand away before leaving with the rest of the gang.
All of a sudden, I was the only one left in the dark room.
I felt my body slowly gaining energy again, yet it was still just a little. I pulled my shirt over to cover
my body. Then I dragged myself out of bed, but the moment my feet touched the floor, my feet gave
out and I fell to the floor.
The pain from my behind made me see black. And so I sat there on the floor for a while.
I noticed my phone some distance away, beside it lay an empty needle syringe, I finally realised why I
was completely without energy just now.
I grit my teeth and crawled with much effort over to my phone. When I switched it on, there were
over ten missed calls.
Seriouslyyou jerk. Why arent you picking up? Is your phone out of battery? Ill tell you via
text then.
I just wanted to say Im sorry. Goodnight.
I felt my eyes moisten.
I felt so shameful and weak.
Tilting my head and holding my tears back, I tried to arrange my emotions.
I couldnt go back now looking like this. Maybe tomorrow.
I stood by the bed, not knowing what to do. I could not lie down and fall asleep.
I shifted to the chair and sat down slowly, but the pain sent shivers down my spine.
I finally supported myself with the table. Whenever I closed my eyes, the horrifying image would
come back again to grab me with its hands.
--Somehow, I made it through the night.
Was the sky brightening?
But my life could no longer.
--Original Writer:
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