Intuitive AIntuitive A Ajahn Sumedho eBUDDHANET'S BOOK LIBRAR E!mai"# $dea%$uddhanet&net 'e$ site# www&$uddhanet&net Buddha Dharma Edu(ation Asso(iation In(& Intuitive Awareness Ajahn Sumedho Dedi(ations Dedi(ated to Ajahn Sumedho on his seventieth $irthda) with "ove and res*e(t& In "ovin+ memor) o, m) *arents- David and Shei"a .i"es& And m) son Ri((ardo /atta$iani- with +ratitude ,or ever)thin+ the) have tau+ht me& 'ith +ratitude ,or the "i,e o, Sritorn Ha+)ard& .a) she 0now the *ea(e o, Nirvana& Intuitive Awareness Ajahn Sumedho Intuitive Awareness Ajahn Sumedho ) A AAAAAwar AAAAAeness is )our r eness is )our reness is )our reness is )our reness is )our reness is )our re,u+e# e,u+e#e,u+e#e,u+e#e,u+e#e,u+e# A AAAAAwar warwarwarwarwareness o, the (han+in+ness o, ,ee"in+s- eness o, the (han+in+ness o, ,ee"in+s-eness o, the (han+in+ness o, ,ee"in+s-eness o, the (han+in+ness o, ,ee"in+s-eness o, the (han+in+ness o, ,ee"in+s-eness o, the (han+in+ness o, ,ee"in+s- o, attitudes- o, moods- o, materia" (han+e o, attitudes- o, moods- o, materia" (han+eo, attitudes- o, moods- o, materia" (han+eo, attitudes- o, moods- o, materia" (han+eo, attitudes- o, moods- o, materia" (han+eo, attitudes- o, moods- o, materia" (han+eand emotiona" (han+e# and emotiona" (han+e#and emotiona" (han+e#and emotiona" (han+e#and emotiona" (han+e#and emotiona" (han+e# Sta) with that- $e(ause it1 Sta) with that- $e(ause it1Sta) with that- $e(ause it1Sta) with that- $e(ause it1Sta) with that- $e(ause it1Sta) with that- $e(ause it1s a r s a rs a rs a rs a rs a re,u+e that is e,u+e that ise,u+e that ise,u+e that ise,u+e that ise,u+e that isindestr indestrindestrindestrindestrindestru(ti$"e& u(ti$"e&u(ti$"e&u(ti$"e&u(ti$"e&u(ti$"e& It1s not somethin+ that (han+es& It1s not somethin+ that (han+es&It1s not somethin+ that (han+es&It1s not somethin+ that (han+es&It1s not somethin+ that (han+es&It1s not somethin+ that (han+es& It1 It1It1It1It1It1s a r s a rs a rs a rs a rs a re,u+e )ou (an tr e,u+e )ou (an tre,u+e )ou (an tre,u+e )ou (an tre,u+e )ou (an tre,u+e )ou (an trust in& ust in&ust in&ust in&ust in&ust in& This r This rThis rThis rThis rThis re,u+e is not somethin+ that )ou (r e,u+e is not somethin+ that )ou (re,u+e is not somethin+ that )ou (re,u+e is not somethin+ that )ou (re,u+e is not somethin+ that )ou (re,u+e is not somethin+ that )ou (reate& eate&eate&eate&eate&eate& It1 It1It1It1It1It1s not a (r s not a (rs not a (rs not a (rs not a (rs not a (reation& It1 eation& It1eation& It1eation& It1eation& It1eation& It1s not an idea"& s not an idea"&s not an idea"&s not an idea"&s not an idea"&s not an idea"& It1 It1It1It1It1It1s ver s vers vers vers vers ver) *ra(ti(a" and ver ) *ra(ti(a" and ver) *ra(ti(a" and ver) *ra(ti(a" and ver) *ra(ti(a" and ver) *ra(ti(a" and ver) sim*"e- $ut ) sim*"e- $ut) sim*"e- $ut) sim*"e- $ut) sim*"e- $ut) sim*"e- $uteasi") over"oo0ed or not noti(ed& easi") over"oo0ed or not noti(ed&easi") over"oo0ed or not noti(ed&easi") over"oo0ed or not noti(ed&easi") over"oo0ed or not noti(ed&easi") over"oo0ed or not noti(ed& 'hen )ou1r 'hen )ou1r'hen )ou1r'hen )ou1r'hen )ou1r'hen )ou1re mind,u"- e mind,u"-e mind,u"-e mind,u"-e mind,u"-e mind,u"- )ou1r )ou1r)ou1r)ou1r)ou1r)ou1re $e+innin+ to noti(e- e $e+innin+ to noti(e-e $e+innin+ to noti(e-e $e+innin+ to noti(e-e $e+innin+ to noti(e-e $e+innin+ to noti(e- it1 it1it1it1it1it1s "i0e this s "i0e thiss "i0e thiss "i0e thiss "i0e thiss "i0e this& 2or 2ree Distru$ution 3u$"i(ations ,rom Amaravati are ,or ,ree distri$ution& In most (ases- this is made *ossi$"e $) individua"s or +rou*s ma0in+ donations s*e(i,i(a"") ,or the *u$"i(ation o, Buddhist tea(hin+s- to $e made ,ree") avai"a$"e to the *u$"i(& Amaravati 3u$"i(ations Amaravati Buddhist .onaster) 4reat 4addesden Heme" Hem*stead Hert,ordshire H35 6B7 En+"and ISBN 5 89:;:< 59 : = Amaravati 3u$"i(ations ;::> www&amaravati&or+ www&,orestsan+ha&or+ www&dhammata"0s&or+ /ontents Editor1s 3re,a(e 5 Introdu(tion 6 Intuitive Awareness 5? Identit) 69 'hen ou1re an Emotiona" 're(0 <5 Su,,erin+ Shou"d $e 'e"(omed @< Sound o, Si"en(e 8< The End o, Su,,erin+ is Now ?9 Don1t Ta0e it 3ersona"") 555 /ons(iousness 566 Trustin+ in Sim*"i(it) 5>9 O$servin+ Atta(hment 5@5 Not Loo0in+ ,or Answers- Not as0in+ 2avours 5@? 4"ossar) 59< Bio+ra*h) 585 Editor1s 3re,a( e This $oo0 is (om*i"ed ,rom ta"0s +iven most") in ;::5 $) Ajahn SumedhoA the) (onve) an intuitive understandin+ o, the Buddha1s tea(hin+ whi(h has arisen ,rom over 6< )ears o, *ra(ti(e as a Buddhist mon0& This a**roa(h starts with a((e*tin+ ourse"ves as we are- not as some idea" o, whom we thin0 we shou"d $e& B) doin+ this a re"aBation (an ta0e *"a(e that (reates s*a(e ,or insi+ht to arise& 2or some *eo*"e this s*a(e arises as the sound o, si"en(e- or sim*") a Cuiet or em*t) mind& However it mani,ests- this *oints to the un(onditionedA $e)ond $od) and mind o$je(ts& 2rom this *"a(e o, s*a(iousness- so(ia" and *ersona" (onditionin+ (an $e investi+ated or re,"e(ted u*on- thus ,reein+ the heart ,rom the de"usion o, identi,)in+ with the *ersona"it)& This is not a *ro(ess o, reje(tin+ ourse"ves or o, (onsiderin+ (ertain thou+hts and ,ee"in+s as wron+- $ut o, "earnin+ to $e a si"ent witness to a"" that arises without atta(hin+ to that eB*erien(e or reje(tin+ it& In essen(e it1s a$out trust- a((e*tin+ what arises in eB*erien(e as Dthe wa) it isE or- as Ajahn Sumedho Intuitive Awareness "i0es to sa) a "ot- Dwe"(omin+ the su,,erin+E& It is a$out "istenin+- $ein+ re(e*tive to and ,u"") in("udin+ ever)thin+& "i0es to sa) a "ot- Dwe"(omin+ the su,,erin+E& It is a$out "istenin+- $ein+ re(e*tive to and ,u"") in("udin+ ever)thin+& So the re,u+e is not in a tea(her or s(ri*tures $ut in the heart1s own *urit)- the *oint that never (han+es- whi(h has no views and o*inions and is not a,,e(ted $) an)thin+ and )et is ,u"") a"ive- res*onsive- s*ontaneous and (om*assionate F ,u"") here and now& This $oo0 has $een trans(ri$ed- edited and desi+ned $) various San+ha mem$ers and "a) *eo*"e& The editor wou"d "i0e to than0 them ver) mu(h ,or the hours o, wor0 *ut into this& 'hi"st the ta"0s have $een edited to aid ("arit)- the) ma) not $e +rammati(a"") ,"aw"ess& This is to 0ee* the teBt as ("ose as *ossi$"e to Ajahn Sumedho1s manner o, s*ea0in+& An) misunderstandin+s or errors arisin+ ,rom this rest with the editor& This $oo0 is o,,ered as a sharin+ ,rom the various *eo*"e who have $ene,ited ,rom Ajahn Sumedho1s tea(hin+s- his +reat devotion to dhamma and his en(oura+ement& .a) whatever merit that arises ,rom this $oo0 $e dedi(ated to the $ene,it o, a"" sentient $ein+s& Intuitive Awareness Introdu(tion T'ENT EARS A4O- in 5?8>- the +ermina" monasti( (ommunit) o, the new") o*ened Amaravati Buddhist /entre sett"ed into a ("uster o, $arra(0!"i0e $ui"din+s on a wind) hi""to* in Hert,ordshire& The name o, the new monaster) Gmeanin+ DThe Death"ess Rea"mEH had $een (hosen $oth as a resonan(e o, the an(ient Buddhist (it) in Andhra 3radesh- in southern India- and as a (ountera(tive ,or(e to the D.utua"") Assured Destru(tionE o, the nu("ear arms ra(e- then +"ee,u"") $ein+ *ursued $) Rona"d Rea+an- .ar+aret That(her and the Soviet Union& The meditation s*a(e that we used at that time was the ,ormer s(hoo" +)mnasium and assem$") ha""& The windows were (ra(0ed- *at(hed with *"asti( and se""ota*e- dra,t) or missin+ (om*"ete")A +)m mar0in+s (riss!(rossed the (o"d wooden ,"oorA the "ar+e +o"den Buddha ima+e sat u* on the o"d s(hoo" sta+e- s*ot"it and surrounded $) ,i"m) $"ue (urtains that we had introdu(ed in an attem*t to $eauti,) the shrine and su++est the Cua"it) o, in,inite s*a(e& Sin(e 5?85- when the (ommunit) was "ar+e") $ased at /ittavive0a .onaster)- in /hithurst- 'est SusseB- it had $een our (ustom to set aside the mid!winter Intuitive Awareness months- a,ter the New ear- to $e a time o, (ommuna" retreat& At that time o, )ear the En+"ish weather does not a""ow mu(h in the wa) o, $ui"din+ wor0 to +o on- visitors are ,ew and the da)s are short and dar0 F it is thus a *er,e(t situation to use ,or turnin+ the attention inward and ta0in+ time to (u"tivate ,orma" meditation *ra(ti(e in a ver) thorou+h wa)& months- a,ter the New ear- to $e a time o, (ommuna" retreat& At that time o, )ear the En+"ish weather does not a""ow mu(h in the wa) o, $ui"din+ wor0 to +o on- visitors are ,ew and the da)s are short and dar0 F it is thus a *er,e(t situation to use ,or turnin+ the attention inward and ta0in+ time to (u"tivate ,orma" meditation *ra(ti(e in a ver) thorou+h wa)& The winters o, 5?8>- 18<- and I8@ were s*e(ta(u"ar") i()A winds how"ed down ,rom Si$eria- seemin+") uninterru*ted $) an) so"id o$je(t unti" the) $it into our $ones& It was not un(ommon to $e wearin+ siB or seven "a)ers o, ("othin+ throu+h the da) and then to ("im$ into our s"ee*in+ $a+s at ni+ht with most o, it sti"" on& 'e sat $und"ed u* in thi(0 ro$es and $"an0ets ,or meditation and to "isten to instru(tiona" ta"0s& The air was i() $ut vi$rant as there was a *ower,u" and *ervasive sense o, (ommunit) s*irit amon+ us& Sometimes- in those da)s- it seemed that the main sour(e o, ener+) in the who"e s)stem- and (ertain") what our hearts were warmed and +uided $)- was Intuitive Awareness Ajahn Sumedho1s a**arent") "imit"ess (a*a(it) to eB*ound on the Dhamma- es*e(ia"") durin+ the winter retreats& Natura"") enou+h in that situation a "ot o, +uidan(e was needed F the majorit) o, us were ,air") new to meditation and monasti( trainin+ and needed a"" the he"* we (ou"d +et- *arti(u"ar") within a routine o, no$"e si"en(e and wa"0in+ and sittin+ meditation a"" da) F thus Ajahn Sumedho +ave eBtensive instru(tion- o,ten two or three times a da)& There wou"d $e Dmornin+ re,"e(tionsE durin+ the ,irst sittin+ o, the da) $e,ore dawn- o,ten more re,"e(tions a,ter the $rea0,ast o, +rue" and tea- sometimes DCuestions J answersE at a,ternoon tea!time- and ,ina"") a ,orma" Dhamma ta"0 in the evenin+& Ajahn Sumedho1s a**arent") "imit"ess (a*a(it) to eB*ound on the Dhamma- es*e(ia"") durin+ the winter retreats& Natura"") enou+h in that situation a "ot o, +uidan(e was needed F the majorit) o, us were ,air") new to meditation and monasti( trainin+ and needed a"" the he"* we (ou"d +et- *arti(u"ar") within a routine o, no$"e si"en(e and wa"0in+ and sittin+ meditation a"" da) F thus Ajahn Sumedho +ave eBtensive instru(tion- o,ten two or three times a da)& There wou"d $e Dmornin+ re,"e(tionsE durin+ the ,irst sittin+ o, the da) $e,ore dawn- o,ten more re,"e(tions a,ter the $rea0,ast o, +rue" and tea- sometimes DCuestions J answersE at a,ternoon tea!time- and ,ina"") a ,orma" Dhamma ta"0 in the evenin+& K K K Even thou+h those da)s now seem a "on+ wa) o,, in some res*e(ts- and mu(h has (han+ed- there are some e"ements that have remained sta$"e to the *resent da)- "i0e a (onstant") returnin+ *hrase or rh)thm in a musi(a" *ie(e or- more a((urate")- "i0e the de,inin+ st)"e o, a master *ainter that instant") te""s )ou# this is a .onet- that is a Lan 4o+h& Intuitive Awareness Now at Amaravati the site o, the o"d Dhamma Ha""M +)mnasium is o((u*ied $) the Tem*"e- the new meditation ha"" (onstru(ted in sta+es throu+h the ?:1s& The orientation is s"i+ht") di,,erent F the $ui"din+ now ,a(es the east rather than the north F and it is a soarin+ *)ramida" stru(ture- rather than a uti"itarian re(tan+u"ar $oB& The +reat "i+ht o*en s*a(e within is *un(tuated with a $road rin+ o, so"id oa0 *i""arsA it is so si"ent and sti"" it seems to sto* the minds o, those who visitA the ,"oor is a $"an0et o, warm white ro(0- and a $arn!"i0e "atti(e o, thi(0 trusses and $eams "a(es the hi+h (ei"in+ and the wa""s& However- the trees a(ross the (ourt)ard are sti"" the same- just a "itt"e ta""er and ,u""er- and the $rown weather!$oardin+ on the remainin+ o"der $ui"din+s is ed+ed $) ,rost in the winter mornin+ "i+ht just as it was $e,ore& Now at Amaravati the site o, the o"d Dhamma Ha""M +)mnasium is o((u*ied $) the Tem*"e- the new meditation ha"" (onstru(ted in sta+es throu+h the ?:1s& The orientation is s"i+ht") di,,erent F the $ui"din+ now ,a(es the east rather than the north F and it is a soarin+ *)ramida" stru(ture- rather than a uti"itarian re(tan+u"ar $oB& The +reat "i+ht o*en s*a(e within is *un(tuated with a $road rin+ o, so"id oa0 *i""arsA it is so si"ent and sti"" it seems to sto* the minds o, those who visitA the ,"oor is a $"an0et o, warm white ro(0- and a $arn!"i0e "atti(e o, thi(0 trusses and $eams "a(es the hi+h (ei"in+ and the wa""s& However- the trees a(ross the (ourt)ard are sti"" the same- just a "itt"e ta""er and ,u""er- and the $rown weather!$oardin+ on the remainin+ o"der $ui"din+s is ed+ed $) ,rost in the winter mornin+ "i+ht just as it was $e,ore& Intuitive Awareness 2irst o, a""- these ta"0s were +iven to eB*erien(ed monasti(s and a ,ew we""!seasoned "a)!*eo*"e& .an) who were "istenin+ 0new Ajahn Sumedho1s ,avourite themes ver) we""- and he 0new that the) 0new them we""- there,ore o,ten eB*"anator) materia" is "e,t unsaid and mu(h 0now"ed+e is assumed& Nust as a musi(ian mi+ht *"a) a ,ew notes to evo0e a ,ami"iar *ie(e and 0now o, their audien(e# The) (an ,i"" in the rest- the) 0now that o"d themeO Or a *ainter mi+ht use a trademar0 moti, thin0in+# 3o* in that $ow"er hat a+ain- the) 0now a"" the other *"a(es it a**earedP Simi"ar") here- Ajahn Sumedho is o,ten eB*"orin+- des(ri$in+ and eBtem*orisin+ on ver) ,ami"iar themes so that- i, the reader o((asiona"") ,ee"s a "a(0 o, eB*"anation- i, the meanin+ es(a*es one- the en(oura+ement is to "et the musi(- the $a"an(e o, tones and (o"ours tide )ou over& 2irst o, a""- these ta"0s were +iven to eB*erien(ed monasti(s and a ,ew we""!seasoned "a)!*eo*"e& .an) who were "istenin+ 0new Ajahn Sumedho1s ,avourite themes ver) we""- and he 0new that the) 0new them we""- there,ore o,ten eB*"anator) materia" is "e,t unsaid and mu(h 0now"ed+e is assumed& Nust as a musi(ian mi+ht *"a) a ,ew notes to evo0e a ,ami"iar *ie(e and 0now o, their audien(e# The) (an ,i"" in the rest- the) 0now that o"d themeO Or a *ainter mi+ht use a trademar0 moti, thin0in+# 3o* in that $ow"er hat a+ain- the) 0now a"" the other *"a(es it a**earedP Simi"ar") here- Ajahn Sumedho is o,ten eB*"orin+- des(ri$in+ and eBtem*orisin+ on ver) ,ami"iar themes so that- i, the reader o((asiona"") ,ee"s a "a(0 o, eB*"anation- i, the meanin+ es(a*es one- the en(oura+ement is to "et the musi(- the $a"an(e o, tones and (o"ours tide )ou over& ver$a" e"ement F the mood in the room- the ener+eti( eB(han+es $etween the s*ea0er and the "isteners- the season- the hour o, the da) or ni+ht- a"" that has +one $e,ore within the +rou* F so it is wiser to treat a (o""e(tion o, ta"0s su(h as this as i, eB*"orin+ an art +a""er)- or "istenin+ to a musi(a" *ie(e- rather than as a s)stemati( eB*"anation o, a ,iBed su$je(t& As Ajahn Sumedho himse", (ommented- DThe $oo0 is meant to $e su++estions o, wa)s to investi+ate (ons(ious eB*erien(e& It1s not meant to $e a dida(ti( treatise on 3a"i Buddhism&E Intuitive Awareness So- as )ou ma0e )our wa) throu+h these *a+es- and )ou en(ounter Intuitive Awareness- The End o, Su,,erin+ is Now- The Sound o, Si"en(e- and a"" the others- the su++estion is to "et them $e re(eived into the heart- to a""ow them to resonate- and to "et the intuitions and +uidan(e that the) s*ar0 ri*en as the) wi""& Nust as- when we *ro+ress throu+h an art +a""er) we don1t thin0- D'hat1s the eBa(t in,ormation that this *aintin+ is im*artin+ to meQE So- as )ou ma0e )our wa) throu+h these *a+es- and )ou en(ounter Intuitive Awareness- The End o, Su,,erin+ is Now- The Sound o, Si"en(e- and a"" the others- the su++estion is to "et them $e re(eived into the heart- to a""ow them to resonate- and to "et the intuitions and +uidan(e that the) s*ar0 ri*en as the) wi""& Nust as- when we *ro+ress throu+h an art +a""er) we don1t thin0- D'hat1s the eBa(t in,ormation that this *aintin+ is im*artin+ to meQE Over time an individua" tea(her wi"" tend to ta0e a *arti(u"ar Dhamma theme- or meditation te(hniCue- and s*end )ears- sometimes de(ades eB*"orin+ and eB*andin+ on that to*i(& 2or eBam*"e Luan+ 3or Sim was noted ,or his em*hasis on death (ontem*"ationsA Ajahn Buddhadasa s*ent severa" )ears dis(oursin+ on ida*a((a)atR F the "aw o, (onditiona"it)A Ajahn Toon Khi**a*aSSo vi+orous") insists the 3ath shou"d $e re*resented as 3aSSa- ST"a SamRdhi- NOT as ST"a- SamRdhi- 3aSSaA Ajahn 2un was 0nown ,or his in,inite eBtra*o"ations on the word DBuddhoE F as a (on(entration te(hniCue- and investi+ation o, awareness or as a devotiona" *ra(ti(eA Luan+ 3u Dun Intuitive Awareness was 0nown ,or his tea(hin+s on D/itta Gthe heartH is BuddhaAE and Ajahn /hah was ,ond o, *uttin+ (onundrums to *eo*"e- su(h as DI, )ou (an1t +o ,orward- )ou (an1t +o $a(0 and )ou (an1t stand sti"" F where (an )ou +oQE Or DHave )ou ever seen sti""- ,"owin+ waterQE was 0nown ,or his tea(hin+s on D/itta Gthe heartH is BuddhaAE and Ajahn /hah was ,ond o, *uttin+ (onundrums to *eo*"e- su(h as DI, )ou (an1t +o ,orward- )ou (an1t +o $a(0 and )ou (an1t stand sti"" F where (an )ou +oQE Or DHave )ou ever seen sti""- ,"owin+ waterQE F that have ta0en on su(h distin(tive meanin+s over the )ears& The ,irst o, these- Dthe sound o, si"en(e-E is des(ri$ed in the o*enin+ Dhamma ta"0 o, the same name in Cuite some detai"& However- as it is not a meditation method ,ound in ("assi(a" TheravRda hand$oo0s- it mi+ht $e he"*,u" to *rovide a "itt"e $a(0+round to the wa) in whi(h Ajahn Sumedho (ame to deve"o* it- and to re,er to some o, the other s*iritua" traditions that use it as *art o, a meditation *ra(ti(e& Intuitive Awareness It was in the winter retreat o, Nanuar) 185- at /hithurst .onaster)- that Ajahn Sumedho ,irst started to tea(h this method to the monasti( (ommunit)& He said that he had $e+un to noti(e the hi+h!*it(hed- rin+in+ tone when he "e,t Thai"and in 5?99 and s*ent his ,irst winter in En+"and- in the Ham*stead Buddhist Lihara& He *ointed out that- as Thai"and was su(h a nois) (ountr)- *arti(u"ar") amidst the (ri(0ets and (i(adas in the ,orest at ni+ht Gwhen one does most ,orma" meditation *ra(ti(eH- that he had not noti(ed this inner sound $e,ore& However- when he (ame to London- des*ite $ein+ a "ar+e metro*o"is- he ,ound that it $e(ame ver) Cuiet "ate at ni+ht- es*e(ia"") when the air was mu,,"ed $) the *resen(e o, a $"an0et o, snow& It was in the winter retreat o, Nanuar) 185- at /hithurst .onaster)- that Ajahn Sumedho ,irst started to tea(h this method to the monasti( (ommunit)& He said that he had $e+un to noti(e the hi+h!*it(hed- rin+in+ tone when he "e,t Thai"and in 5?99 and s*ent his ,irst winter in En+"and- in the Ham*stead Buddhist Lihara& He *ointed out that- as Thai"and was su(h a nois) (ountr)- *arti(u"ar") amidst the (ri(0ets and (i(adas in the ,orest at ni+ht Gwhen one does most ,orma" meditation *ra(ti(eH- that he had not noti(ed this inner sound $e,ore& However- when he (ame to London- des*ite $ein+ a "ar+e metro*o"is- he ,ound that it $e(ame ver) Cuiet "ate at ni+ht- es*e(ia"") when the air was mu,,"ed $) the *resen(e o, a $"an0et o, snow& Intuitive Awareness and end"essA ,orm"ess- to some de+reeA and s*atia"") un"o(ated& and end"essA ,orm"ess- to some de+reeA and s*atia"") un"o(ated& Seein+ that it was a *ra(ti(e that was ver) a((essi$"e to a num$er o, *eo*"e- and as his own eB*"orations o, it dee*ened over the )ears- Ajahn Sumedho has (ontinued to deve"o* it as a (entra" method o, meditation- ran0in+ a"on+side su(h ("assi(a" ,orms o, *ra(ti(e as mind,u"ness o, $reathin+ and investi+ation o, the $od)& The Buddha1s en(oura+ement ,or his students was to use s0i",u" means that are e,,e(tive in ,reein+ the heart& Sin(e this ,orm o, meditation seems to $e ver) su**ortive ,or that- des*ite not $ein+ Intuitive Awareness in("uded in "ists o, meditation *ra(ti(es in the 3a"i /anon or antho"o+ies su(h as the Lisuddhima++a- it seems who"") a**ro*riate to +ive it its due& 2or sure") it is the ,reedom o, the heart that is the *ur*ose o, a"" the *ra(ti(es that are done F and that ,reedom is the ,ina" ar$iter o, what is use,u"- and there,ore +ood& in("uded in "ists o, meditation *ra(ti(es in the 3a"i /anon or antho"o+ies su(h as the Lisuddhima++a- it seems who"") a**ro*riate to +ive it its due& 2or sure") it is the ,reedom o, the heart that is the *ur*ose o, a"" the *ra(ti(es that are done F and that ,reedom is the ,ina" ar$iter o, what is use,u"- and there,ore +ood& There are numerous *"a(es throu+hout the $oo0 where- when the *hrase Dintuitive awarenessE is used- the words Dsati!sam*ajaSSaE are *ut in *arentheses a,ter- meanin+ that the ,ormer is a trans"ation o, the "atter& The Cua"it) o, sati!sam*ajaSSaMintuitive awareness is used to re,er to *art o, a (ontinuum whi(h $e+ins with DsatiE- the raw mind,u" (o+nisan(e o, an o$je(tA the se(ond e"ement $ein+ Dsatisam*ajaSS aE- re,errin+ to the mind,u"- intuitive awareness o, an o$je(t within its (onteBtA the ,ina" e"ement is Dsati!*aSSaEF usua"") trans"ated as Dmind,u"ness!and!wisdomE F whi(h re,ers to the a**re(iation o, an o$je(t in res*e(t to its essentia" nature as transitor)- unsatis,a(tor) and not!se",& Ajahn /hah used to (hara(terise the re"ationshi* $etween these three e"ements as $ein+ "i0e the hand- arm and Intuitive Awareness $od)# sati is that whi(h *i(0s thin+s u*- sam*ajaSSa is "i0e the arm that ena$"es the hand to +et to the reCuired *"a(e- *aSSa is the $od) whi(h *rovides it with the "i,e ,or(e and the dire(tive e"ement& $od)# sati is that whi(h *i(0s thin+s u*- sam*ajaSSa is "i0e the arm that ena$"es the hand to +et to the reCuired *"a(e- *aSSa is the $od) whi(h *rovides it with the "i,e ,or(e and the dire(tive e"ement& awareness&E His (hie, (on(ern is- as he states on *&5?- that this *hrase does not +ive a sense o, the true $roadness o, that ("arit)& Thus he is eB*erimentin+ with an eB*ression that (onve)s a de"i$erate") eB*ansive Cua"it) and that in("udes the e"ement o, m)ster)A ,or it is im*ortant ,or the En+"ish wordin+ a"so to im*") an attunement o, the heart to eB*erien(es that the thin0in+ mind (annot understand or that- as he sa)s- are D,o++)- (on,used or un(ertain&E The word DintuitiveE is used $e(ause it *er,e(t") (onve)s the miBture o, a +enuine a**rehension o, rea"it)- )et a"so that the reason wh) thin+s are the wa) the) are mi+ht not $e at a"" a**arent& The ,ina"- and *erha*s most si+ni,i(ant- term to "oo0 at in this "i+ht is D(ons(iousness&E The 3a"i word DviSSRUaE is a"most invaria$") trans"ated into En+"ish as D(ons(iousness&E In Buddhist *s)(ho"o+) DviSSRUaE +enera"") means a dis(riminative (ons(iouness that a(ts via one o, the siB sense!doors# e)e- ear- nose- ton+ue- $od) or mind& It means the a(t o, (o+nisin+ a 0nowa$"e o$je(t& However- this is not the on") wa) that the Buddha uses the term& Intuitive Awareness As Ajahn Sumedho mentions on *&56> there are two *"a(es in the dis(ourses where a su$stantia"") di,,erent set o, Cua"ities are asso(iated with the term& The *hrase that he Cuotes GviSSRUaV anidassanaV anantaV sa$$ato *a$haVH Di+a Ni0R)a 55&8<- in the Kevaddha Sutta and- in *art- at .ajjhima Ni0R)a As Ajahn Sumedho mentions on *&56> there are two *"a(es in the dis(ourses where a su$stantia"") di,,erent set o, Cua"ities are asso(iated with the term& The *hrase that he Cuotes GviSSRUaV anidassanaV anantaV sa$$ato *a$haVH Di+a Ni0R)a 55&8<- in the Kevaddha Sutta and- in *art- at .ajjhima Ni0R)a The ,ormer *assa+e (omes at the end o, a (o"our,u" and "en+th) tea(hin+ ta"e re(ounted $) the Buddha& He te""s o, a mon0 in the mind o, whom the Cuestion arises# DI wonder where it is that the ,our +reat e"ements F Earth- 'ater- 2ire and 'ind F (ease without remainderQE Bein+ a s0i""ed meditator- the $hi00hu in Cuestion enters a state o, a$sor*tion and Dthe *ath to the +ods $e(omes o*en to him&E He $e+ins $) *uttin+ his Cuestion to the ,irst +ods he meets- the retinue o, the 2our Heaven") Kin+s- the +uardians o, the wor"dA the) demur- sa)in+ that the) do not 0now the answer- $ut that the 2our Kin+s themse"ves *ro$a$") do# he shou"d as0 them& He does- the) do not and the sear(h (ontinues& Onward and u*ward throu+h su((essive heavens he trave"s- (ontinua"") $ein+ met with the same re*")# D'e do not 0now $ut )ou shou"d tr) as0in+&&&E and is re,erred to the neBt hi+her "eve" o, the (e"estia" heirar(h)& 3atient") endurin+ the *rotra(ted *ro(ess o, this (osmi( (hain o, (ommand- he ,ina"") arrives in the *resen(e o, the retinue o, .aha!BrahmR- he *uts the Cuestion to themA on(e a+ain the) ,ai" to *rodu(e an answer $ut the) assure him that The 4reat BrahmR Himse",- shou"d He dei+n to mani,est- is (ertain to *rovide him with the reso"ution he see0s& Sure enou+h- $e,ore too "on+- .aha!BrahmR a**ears $ut Intuitive Awareness he too does not 0now the answer- and he (hides the mon0 ,or $ein+ a dis(i*"e o, the Buddha )et not +oin+ to his own tea(her with su(h a Cuestion& he too does not 0now the answer- and he (hides the mon0 ,or $ein+ a dis(i*"e o, the Buddha )et not +oin+ to his own tea(her with su(h a Cuestion& F Earth- 'ater- 2ire and 'ind F (ease without remainderQ1 Instead- this is how the Cuestion shou"d have $een *ut# I'here do earth- water- ,ire and wind- And "on+ and short- and ,ine and (oarse- 3ure and im*ure no ,ootin+ ,indQ 'here is it that $oth nRma GnameH and rW*a G,ormH ,ade out- Leavin+ no tra(e $ehindQ1 DAnd the answer is# IIn the awa0ened (ons(iousness F the invisi$"e- the "imit"ess- radiant& XviSSRUaV anidassanaV anantaV sa$$ato *a$haVY There it is that earth- water- ,ire and wind- And "on+ and short- and ,ine and (oarse- 3ure and im*ure no ,ootin+ ,ind& IThere it is that $oth nRma and rW*a ,ade out- Leavin+ no tra(e $ehind& 'hen dis(riminative (ons(iousness (omes to its "imit- The) are he"d in (he(0 therein&1E Intuitive Awareness The term anidassana!viSSRUa has $een trans"ated in various other wa)s# Dwhere (ons(iousness is si+n"essE G'a"sheH Dthe (ons(iousness that ma0es no showin+E GZanamo"iH and- most he"*,u"")- $) Bhi00hu ZRUananda- in his $oo0 /on(e*t and Rea"it) G* <?H- as Dnon!mani,estative (ons(iousness&E It is un"i0e") that the En+"ish "an+ua+e has a sin+"e term that (an a((urate") (onve) the (onste""ation o, meanin+s that anidassana!viSSRUa *ossesses- however it is +enera"") this set o, Cua"ities that Ajahn Sumedho is re,errin+ to when he uses the sim*"e term D(ons(iousness&E The term anidassana!viSSRUa has $een trans"ated in various other wa)s# Dwhere (ons(iousness is si+n"essE G'a"sheH Dthe (ons(iousness that ma0es no showin+E GZanamo"iH and- most he"*,u"")- $) Bhi00hu ZRUananda- in his $oo0 /on(e*t and Rea"it) G* <?H- as Dnon!mani,estative (ons(iousness&E It is un"i0e") that the En+"ish "an+ua+e has a sin+"e term that (an a((urate") (onve) the (onste""ation o, meanin+s that anidassana!viSSRUa *ossesses- however it is +enera"") this set o, Cua"ities that Ajahn Sumedho is re,errin+ to when he uses the sim*"e term D(ons(iousness&E viSS RUaH- ,or eBam*"e- on *568- D'hen we are $orn into a *h)si(a" $irth- we have (ons(iousness within this ,ormPE& In addition- Ajahn Sumedho a"so o((asiona"") uses the word in the ordinar) En+"ish sense- i&e& des(ri$in+ the state o, not $ein+ un(ons(ious- $ein+ awa0e and aware o, one1s surroundin+s and identit)& An o$vious *ara""e" to Ajahn Sumedho1s usa+e o, the word D(ons(iousnessE is the Thai *hrase D*oo rooE as em*"o)ed $) man) o, the 2orest Ajahns& The "itera" Intuitive Awareness trans"ation is# D*ooE [ D*ersonE \ DrooE [ D0nowin+&E It has $een various") rendered as D0nowin+E Dthe one who 0nowsE DawarenessE or even DBuddha wisdom&E It is a"so a term that (an $e used to (onve) a "ar+e s*e(trum o, meanin+s ,rom- at one end- the sim*"e a(t o, the mind (o+nisin+ an o$je(t Gas in ("assi(a" de,initions o, viSSRUaH- throu+h var)in+ "eve"s o, re,inement Gas in $ein+ the witness o, *henomena arisin+ and *assin+ awa)H- u* to the utter") uno$stru(ted awareness o, the ,u"") awa0ened heart& trans"ation is# D*ooE [ D*ersonE \ DrooE [ D0nowin+&E It has $een various") rendered as D0nowin+E Dthe one who 0nowsE DawarenessE or even DBuddha wisdom&E It is a"so a term that (an $e used to (onve) a "ar+e s*e(trum o, meanin+s ,rom- at one end- the sim*"e a(t o, the mind (o+nisin+ an o$je(t Gas in ("assi(a" de,initions o, viSSRUaH- throu+h var)in+ "eve"s o, re,inement Gas in $ein+ the witness o, *henomena arisin+ and *assin+ awa)H- u* to the utter") uno$stru(ted awareness o, the ,u"") awa0ened heart& er+o- (aveat "e(torO Sin(e there are su(h a variet) o, meanin+s (ontin+ent u*on the one word D(ons(iousnessE in this $oo0- it wou"d thus $e wise ,or the reader a"wa)s to re,"e(t on the (ir(umstan(e that the word is $ein+ used in& In this "i+ht- it mi+ht $e ,e"t $) some that it wou"d have $een more he"*,u" not to have used D(ons(iousnessE in su(h a $road ran+e o, wa)s- that *erha*s sti(0in+ to more ,ami"iar termino"o+) mi+ht have $een easier on the "isteners and readers F *erha*s usin+ a word "i0e D(itta-E the heart- as de,inin+ the a+ent o, *ure awareness- instead o, Danidassana viSSRUaE F however this is not the wa) that su(h or+ani( and ,reest)"e methods o, tea(hin+ usua"") wor0& Intuitive Awareness As said a$ove- it has $een the eB*"i(it aim o, the editor o, this $oo0 to maintain the s*ontaneous and in,orma" st)"e o, Ajahn Sumedho1s s*o0en words& A"" o, his ta"0s are eBtem*oraneous- ta0in+ sha*e as the) are eB*ressed a((ordin+ to the needs o, the "isteners *resent& And *art o, this methodo"o+) o, instru(tion is that it o,ten demands that the "istenerMreader eB*and their ran+e o, view o, what the tea(hin+ and *ra(ti(e is- and how (ertain words (an and shou"d $e used& 2urthermore- this s*ontaneous and dire(t method o, eB*oundin+ the Dhamma en(oura+es the *arti(i*ants to a""ow themse"ves to $e (han+ed $) what the) see and hear- rather than jud+e it a((ordin+ to whether or not it (om*"ies with ,ami"iar and ,avoured *atterns o, thin0in+& Are we +oin+ to (om*"ain to Lan 4o+h that DA (hur(h $ui"t "i0e that wou"d never stand u*OEQ 3ro$a$") notP As said a$ove- it has $een the eB*"i(it aim o, the editor o, this $oo0 to maintain the s*ontaneous and in,orma" st)"e o, Ajahn Sumedho1s s*o0en words& A"" o, his ta"0s are eBtem*oraneous- ta0in+ sha*e as the) are eB*ressed a((ordin+ to the needs o, the "isteners *resent& And *art o, this methodo"o+) o, instru(tion is that it o,ten demands that the "istenerMreader eB*and their ran+e o, view o, what the tea(hin+ and *ra(ti(e is- and how (ertain words (an and shou"d $e used& 2urthermore- this s*ontaneous and dire(t method o, eB*oundin+ the Dhamma en(oura+es the *arti(i*ants to a""ow themse"ves to $e (han+ed $) what the) see and hear- rather than jud+e it a((ordin+ to whether or not it (om*"ies with ,ami"iar and ,avoured *atterns o, thin0in+& Are we +oin+ to (om*"ain to Lan 4o+h that DA (hur(h $ui"t "i0e that wou"d never stand u*OEQ 3ro$a$") notP Amaro Bhi00hu- A$ha)a+iri .onaster) De( 5:th ;::6 Intuitive Awareness Intuitive Awareness In (ontem*"atin+ ri+ht understandin+ GsammR!di]]hiH I "i0e to em*hasise seein+ it as an intuitive understandin+ and not a (on(e*tua" one& I have ,ound it ver) he"*,u" just (ontem*"atin+ the di,,eren(e $etween ana")ti(a" thin0in+ and intuitive awareness- just to ma0e it ("ear what that is- $e(ause there is a hu+e di,,eren(e $etween the use o, the mind to thin0- to ana")se- reason- (riti(ise- to have ideas- *er(e*tions- views and o*inions- and intuitive awareness whi(h is non!(riti(a"& It in("udes (riti(ismA it1s an in("usive awareness& It1s not that (riti(ism isn1t a""owed in it- (riti(ism is in("udedA so the (riti(a" mind is seen as an o$je(t& This is the tenden() to (riti(ise or (om*are- to ho"d one view- to sa) that this is $etter than that- this is ri+ht and that is wron+- (riti(ism o, )ourse", or others or whatever ^ a"" o, whi(h (an $e justi,ied and va"id on that "eve"& 'e1re not interested in just deve"o*in+ our (riti(a" ,a(u"t)- $e(ause usua"") in (ountries "i0e this it1s hi+h") deve"o*ed a"read)- $ut to trust in intuitive awareness Gsati!sam*ajaSSaH& Sam*ajaSSa is a word that is trans"ated into En+"ish as I("ear!(om*rehension1- whi(h is so va+ue and even thou+h it sa)s I("ear1- it doesn1t +ive me a sense o, Intuitive Awareness the $roadness o, that ("arit)& 'hen )ou have ("ear de,initions o, ever)thin+- then )ou thin0 )ou have ("ear (om*rehension& So that1s wh) we don1t "i0e (on,usion- isn1t itQ 'e don1t "i0e to ,ee" ,o++)- (on,used or un(ertain& These 0ind o, states we rea"") dis"i0e- $ut we s*end a "ot o, time tr)in+ to have ("ear (om*rehension and (ertaint)& But sati!sam*ajaSSa in("udes ,o++iness- in("udes (on,usion- it in("udes un(ertaint) and inse(urit)& It1s a ("ear (om*rehension or the a**er(e*tion o, (on,usion ^ re(o+nisin+ it1s "i0e this& Un(ertaint) and inse(urit) are "i0e this& So it1s a ("ear (om*rehension or a**rehension o, even the most va+ue- amor*hous or ne$u"ous menta" (onditions& the $roadness o, that ("arit)& 'hen )ou have ("ear de,initions o, ever)thin+- then )ou thin0 )ou have ("ear (om*rehension& So that1s wh) we don1t "i0e (on,usion- isn1t itQ 'e don1t "i0e to ,ee" ,o++)- (on,used or un(ertain& These 0ind o, states we rea"") dis"i0e- $ut we s*end a "ot o, time tr)in+ to have ("ear (om*rehension and (ertaint)& But sati!sam*ajaSSa in("udes ,o++iness- in("udes (on,usion- it in("udes un(ertaint) and inse(urit)& It1s a ("ear (om*rehension or the a**er(e*tion o, (on,usion ^ re(o+nisin+ it1s "i0e this& Un(ertaint) and inse(urit) are "i0e this& So it1s a ("ear (om*rehension or a**rehension o, even the most va+ue- amor*hous or ne$u"ous menta" (onditions& Intuitive Awareness whatever the) mi+ht $e# I, )ou thin0 )ou1re the $est- +reatest- 4od1s +i,t to the wor"d- or )ou thin0 )ou1re the a$so"ute $ottom o, the sta(0A i, )ou don1t 0now who )ou are and what )ou wantA or sometimes )ou thin0 )ou1re su*erior $ut sometimes )ou ,ee" that )ou1re in,erior ^ these thin+s (han+e& whatever the) mi+ht $e# I, )ou thin0 )ou1re the $est- +reatest- 4od1s +i,t to the wor"d- or )ou thin0 )ou1re the a$so"ute $ottom o, the sta(0A i, )ou don1t 0now who )ou are and what )ou wantA or sometimes )ou thin0 )ou1re su*erior $ut sometimes )ou ,ee" that )ou1re in,erior ^ these thin+s (han+e& .) insi+ht (ame when I was a sRmaUera Gnovi(e mon0H& DHow do )ou sto* thin0in+Q Nust sto* thin0in+& 'e""- how do )ou sto*Q Nust sto*& How do )ou just sto*QE The mind wou"d a"wa)s (ome $a(0 with DHowQ How (an )ou do itQE- wantin+ to ,i+ure it out rather than trustin+ in the immanen(e o, it& Trustin+ is re"aBin+ into it- it1s just attentiveness- whi(h is an a(t o, ,aith- it1s a Itrustin+ness1 GsaddhRH& It +ives )ou *ers*e(tive on an)thin+ )ou want to do- in("udin+ other st)"es o, meditation& Even trainin+ the *h)si(a" $od) with these various mind,u" *ra(ti(es ^ o+a- Tai /hi- /hi Kun+ and thin+s "i0e that ^ (an ,it we"" Intuitive Awareness into the intuitive a**roa(h& U"timate")- when we deve"o* these te(hniCues- it ends u* that one has to trust in the mind,u"ness rather than in just Dme and m) wi",u" e,,ortsE tr)in+ to do a"" these thin+s& into the intuitive a**roa(h& U"timate")- when we deve"o* these te(hniCues- it ends u* that one has to trust in the mind,u"ness rather than in just Dme and m) wi",u" e,,ortsE tr)in+ to do a"" these thin+s& In TheravRda Buddhism- as (e"i$ate a"ms!mendi(ants es*e(ia"")- we (an easi") see sensua" *"easure in terms o, somethin+ we shou"dn1t enjo)& The 'estern mind wi"" easi") see it in terms o, den)in+ *"easure- ha**iness and jo)& 'e do the asu$ha *ra(ti(esA we sa) the $od) is ,ou"- "oathsome- ,i""ed with eB(rement- *us and s"ime and thin+s "i0e that& I, )ou1re a mon0 )ou shou"d never "oo0 at a woman- 0ee* )our e)es down- and )ou shou"dn1t indu"+e in the *"easures o, $eaut) ^ o, an)thin+& I remem$er in Thai"and hearin+ Intuitive Awareness that I shou"dn1t even "oo0 at a ,"ower- $e(ause its $eaut) wou"d (a*ture me and ma0e me thin0 wor"d") thou+hts& Be(ause I1m ,rom a /hristian $a(0+round whi(h has a stron+ *uritani(a" ethi( to it- it1s eas) to assume that sense!*"easure is $ad and that it1s dan+erous- )ou1ve +ot to tr) to den) it and avoid it at a"" (osts& But then that1s another o*inion and view that (omes out o, an ana")ti(a" mind- isn1t itQ that I shou"dn1t even "oo0 at a ,"ower- $e(ause its $eaut) wou"d (a*ture me and ma0e me thin0 wor"d") thou+hts& Be(ause I1m ,rom a /hristian $a(0+round whi(h has a stron+ *uritani(a" ethi( to it- it1s eas) to assume that sense!*"easure is $ad and that it1s dan+erous- )ou1ve +ot to tr) to den) it and avoid it at a"" (osts& But then that1s another o*inion and view that (omes out o, an ana")ti(a" mind- isn1t itQ Intuitive Awareness Some o, )ou have seen auto*sies& I do not ,ind that these "ead to de*ression or aversion& /ontem*"atin+ a dead human $od) at an auto*s) when the)1re (uttin+ it u*- i, )ou1ve never seen it $e,ore- it (an $e *rett) sho(0in+& The sme""s and the a**earan(e ^ )ou (an ,ee" averse to it at ,irst& But i, )ou (an sta) $e)ond the initia" rea(tion o, sho(0 and aversion- and with sati!sam*ajaSSa $e o*en to a"" o, this- then what I ,ind is a sense o, dis*assion- whi(h is a (oo" ,ee"in+& It1s ver) ("ear- ver) (oo" and ver) *"easant to $e dis*assionate& It1s not dis*assion throu+h du""ness or just throu+h inte""e(tua" ()ni(ism# it1s just a ,ee"in+ o, non!aversion& Dis*assion arises when we no "on+er see the human $od) in su(h a standard wa) as $ein+ either ver) attra(tive and $eauti,u" or u+") and ,ou"- $ut o, $ein+ a$"e to re"ate to it- whether our own- some$od) e"se1s or a (or*se- in terms o, satisam*ajaSS a& Sati!sam*ajaSSa o*ens the wa) to the eB*erien(e o, dis*assion GvirR+aH& Lust- on the other hand- is a "a(0 o, dis(rimination& The eB*erien(e o, seBua" "ust is a stron+ *assion that ta0es )ou over and )ou "ose )our dis(riminative a$i"ities& The more )ou a$sor$ into it- the "ess dis(riminator) )ou +et& It1s interestin+ that (riti(a" *eo*"e Gthe dosa(arita or an+erMaversion t)*esH usua"") "i0e the asu$ha *ra(tises& The) "i0e ver) methodi(a" meditations# Dou do this and then )ou do that-E ver) inte""e(tua"") we"" *resented DSta+e one- sta+e twoE- in a ni(e "itt"e out"ine& I, )ou1re (riti(a"- it1s eas) to see the $od) as ,ou" and dis+ustin+& A 0RmarR+a(arita- a "ust,u"- +reed) t)*e *erson- the) "i0e mettR meditation the $est& ou tea(h mettR Intuitive Awareness G"ovin+!0indess meditationH and the) +o DOohOE with de"i+ht $e(ause mettR is not (riti(a"- is itQ 'ith mettR )ou are not $ein+ (riti(a" a$out an)thin+& G"ovin+!0indess meditationH and the) +o DOohOE with de"i+ht $e(ause mettR is not (riti(a"- is itQ 'ith mettR )ou are not $ein+ (riti(a" a$out an)thin+& 'hen )ou tr) to (on(eive mettR as D"oveE- "ovin+ somethin+ in terms o, "i0in+ it- it ma0es it im*ossi$"e to sustain mettR when )ou +et to thin+s )ou (an1t stand- *eo*"e )ou hate and thin+s "i0e that& .ettR is ver) hard to (ome to terms with on a (on(e*tua" "eve"& To "ove )our enemies- to "ove *eo*"e )ou hate- who )ou (an1t stand is- on the (on(e*tua" "eve"- an im*ossi$"e di"emma& But in terms o, sati!sam*ajaSSa- it1s a((e*tin+- $e(ause it in("udes ever)thin+ )ou "i0e and dis"i0e& .ettR is not ana")ti(a"A it1s not dwe""in+ on wh) )ou hate some$od)& It1s not tr)in+ to ,i+ure out wh) I hate this *erson- $ut it in("udes the who"e thin+ ^ the ,ee"in+- the *erson- m)se", ^ a"" in the same moment& So it1s em$ra(in+- a *oint that in("udes and is non!(riti(a"& ou1re not tr)in+ to ,i+ure out an)thin+- $ut just to o*en and a((e*t- $ein+ *atient with it& Intuitive Awareness 'ith ,ood- ,or instan(e- we eat here in the dhutan+a tradition ^ that is- eatin+ ,rom a"ms $ow"s ^ I- at "east- (an no "on+er (onvin(e m)se", that I1m on") eatin+ one mea" a da) an) more $e(ause o, this $rea0,ast thin+O But however man) mea"s a da) )ou eat- there1s a "imitation& Not $e(ause there1s an)thin+ wron+ with enjo)in+ a mea"A it1s not that ,ood is dan+erous and that an) 0ind o, *"easure )ou re(eive ,rom eatin+ wi"" $ind )ou to re$irth a+ain in the samsRra!va]]a Gthe (ir("e o, $irth and deathH ^ that1s another view and o*inion ^ $ut is a matter o, re(o+nisin+ the sim*"i(it) o, the "i,e that we have& It1s sim*"i,)in+ ever)thin+& This is wh) I "i0e this wa)& 'ith ,ood- ,or instan(e- we eat here in the dhutan+a tradition ^ that is- eatin+ ,rom a"ms $ow"s ^ I- at "east- (an no "on+er (onvin(e m)se", that I1m on") eatin+ one mea" a da) an) more $e(ause o, this $rea0,ast thin+O But however man) mea"s a da) )ou eat- there1s a "imitation& Not $e(ause there1s an)thin+ wron+ with enjo)in+ a mea"A it1s not that ,ood is dan+erous and that an) 0ind o, *"easure )ou re(eive ,rom eatin+ wi"" $ind )ou to re$irth a+ain in the samsRra!va]]a Gthe (ir("e o, $irth and deathH ^ that1s another view and o*inion ^ $ut is a matter o, re(o+nisin+ the sim*"i(it) o, the "i,e that we have& It1s sim*"i,)in+ ever)thin+& This is wh) I "i0e this wa)& sam*ajaSS a& So it1s not ma0in+ eatin+ into an) hass"e& 'hen I used to +o on ,asts- Luan+ 3or /hah wou"d *oint out that I was ma0in+ a hass"e out o, m) ,ood& I (ou"dn1t just eatA I was ma0in+ it more di,,i(u"t than it needed to $e& Then there is the +ui"t that (omes u* i, )ou eat too mu(h or )ou ,ind )ourse", tr)in+ to +et the +ood $its& I remem$er tr)in+ to +et the +ood *ie(es ,or m)se", and then ,ee"in+ +ui"t) a$out that& There1s a +reed that rea"") wants the tast) $its and then ,ee"s +ui"t) a$out it& Then it +ets (om*"i(ated& I (ou"dn1t just $e +reed) and shame"ess- I a"so had to have a stron+ sense o, +ui"t around it and ho*e that no$od) wou"d noti(e& I had to 0ee* it a se(ret- $e(ause I didn1t want to "oo0 +reed)- I wanted to "oo0 as i, I wasn1t& Intuitive Awareness I remem$er that whi"st sta)in+ with Luan+ 3or Nun- I was tr)in+ to $e a rea"") stri(t ve+etarian then- rea"") stri(t& At the monaster) G'at Bun+ Khao Luan+H the) had (ertain 0inds o, dishes that didn1t have an) 0ind o, ,ish sau(e in them- or an) 0ind o, meat or ,ish& But- as most o, )ou 0now- in Thai"and most o, the ,ood has ,ish sau(e in it or some 0ind o, anima" miBtures in it& So it was di,,i(u"t $e(ause I had ver) "itt"e (hoi(e and *eo*"e wou"d a"wa)s have to ma0e s*e(ia" thin+s ,or me& I a"wa)s had to $e s*e(ia"& It had to $e 3hra Sumedho1s ,ood and then the rest& That was hard to dea" with ^ to $e a ,orei+ner- a D3hra 2aran+E- and then to have a s*e(ia" diet and s*e(ia" *rivi"e+es& That was hard ,or me to im*ose on the +rou*- as I was he"*in+ to *ass out the ,ood- I1d +et ver) *ossessive& The ve+eta$"e dishes the) did have- I ,e"t I had a ri+ht to have a "ot o,- $e(ause the other mon0s were eatin+ a"" the ,ish- (hi(0en and thin+s "i0e that& I ,ound m)se", aimin+ ,or the ve+etarian dishes ,irst so that I (ou"d *ass them out a((ordin+ to m) own needs& It $rou+ht u* a rea"") (hi"dish tenden() in me& Then one da) another mon0 saw me doin+ this- so he +ra$$ed the ve+etarian dish ,irst and on") +ave me a "itt"e s*oon,u"& I was so an+r) when I saw that& I too0 this ,ermented ,ish sau(e- this rea"") stron+ stu,, and when I went *ast his $ow"- I s*"attered it a"" over his ,oodO 2ortunate")- we were ,or$idden to hit ea(h other& This is an a$so"ute ne(essit) ,or men ^ to have ru"es a+ainst *h)si(a" vio"en(eO I remem$er that whi"st sta)in+ with Luan+ 3or Nun- I was tr)in+ to $e a rea"") stri(t ve+etarian then- rea"") stri(t& At the monaster) G'at Bun+ Khao Luan+H the) had (ertain 0inds o, dishes that didn1t have an) 0ind o, ,ish sau(e in them- or an) 0ind o, meat or ,ish& But- as most o, )ou 0now- in Thai"and most o, the ,ood has ,ish sau(e in it or some 0ind o, anima" miBtures in it& So it was di,,i(u"t $e(ause I had ver) "itt"e (hoi(e and *eo*"e wou"d a"wa)s have to ma0e s*e(ia" thin+s ,or me& I a"wa)s had to $e s*e(ia"& It had to $e 3hra Sumedho1s ,ood and then the rest& That was hard to dea" with ^ to $e a ,orei+ner- a D3hra 2aran+E- and then to have a s*e(ia" diet and s*e(ia" *rivi"e+es& That was hard ,or me to im*ose on the +rou*- as I was he"*in+ to *ass out the ,ood- I1d +et ver) *ossessive& The ve+eta$"e dishes the) did have- I ,e"t I had a ri+ht to have a "ot o,- $e(ause the other mon0s were eatin+ a"" the ,ish- (hi(0en and thin+s "i0e that& I ,ound m)se", aimin+ ,or the ve+etarian dishes ,irst so that I (ou"d *ass them out a((ordin+ to m) own needs& It $rou+ht u* a rea"") (hi"dish tenden() in me& Then one da) another mon0 saw me doin+ this- so he +ra$$ed the ve+etarian dish ,irst and on") +ave me a "itt"e s*oon,u"& I was so an+r) when I saw that& I too0 this ,ermented ,ish sau(e- this rea"") stron+ stu,, and when I went *ast his $ow"- I s*"attered it a"" over his ,oodO 2ortunate")- we were ,or$idden to hit ea(h other& This is an a$so"ute ne(essit) ,or men ^ to have ru"es a+ainst *h)si(a" vio"en(eO Intuitive Awareness was a vindi(tive a(t to s*"atter a"" that stron+ (hi"i sau(e with rotten ,ish in it over some mon01s ,ood& It was a vio"ent a(t in order ,or me to 0ee* a sense that I1m a *ure ve+etarian& So I $e+an to Cuestion whether I wanted to ma0e ,ood into su(h a $i+ dea" in m) "i,e& 'as I wantin+ to "ive m) "i,e as a ve+etarian or whatQ 'as that the main ,o(us that I was aimin+ atQ Nust (ontem*"atin+ this- I $e+an to see the su,,erin+ I (reated around m) idea"ism& I noti(ed Luan+ 3or /hah (ertain") enjo)ed his ,ood and he had a jo),u" *resen(e& It wasn1t "i0e an as(eti( tri* where )ou1re eatin+ nett"e sou* and reje(tin+ the +ood $itsA that1s the other eBtreme& was a vindi(tive a(t to s*"atter a"" that stron+ (hi"i sau(e with rotten ,ish in it over some mon01s ,ood& It was a vio"ent a(t in order ,or me to 0ee* a sense that I1m a *ure ve+etarian& So I $e+an to Cuestion whether I wanted to ma0e ,ood into su(h a $i+ dea" in m) "i,e& 'as I wantin+ to "ive m) "i,e as a ve+etarian or whatQ 'as that the main ,o(us that I was aimin+ atQ Nust (ontem*"atin+ this- I $e+an to see the su,,erin+ I (reated around m) idea"ism& I noti(ed Luan+ 3or /hah (ertain") enjo)ed his ,ood and he had a jo),u" *resen(e& It wasn1t "i0e an as(eti( tri* where )ou1re eatin+ nett"e sou* and reje(tin+ the +ood $itsA that1s the other eBtreme& Or is the o**osite eBtreme the aim the 0Rmasu0ha""i0Rnu)o+a one o, DEat- drin0 and $e merr)- ,or Intuitive Awareness tomorrow )ou ma) dieQ Enjo) "i,e& Li,e is a $anCuet and most o, the su(0ers are starvin+ to deathE& This is a Cuote ,rom a ,i,ties move (a""ed Auntie .a)& Auntie .a) mana+ed rea"") to enjo) "i,e to the hi"t- in the movie an)wa)& She1s a 0ind o, i(on- not a rea" woman $ut an i(on o, inte""i+en(e and $eaut)- one who just "ives "i,e to the hi"t and enjo)s ever)thin+& That1s a ver) attra(tive ido"# to see this "i,e is meant to $e ,u"" o, *"easure- ha**iness and "ove& So +ras*in+ that is the 0Rmasu0ha""i0Rnu)o+a& tomorrow )ou ma) dieQ Enjo) "i,e& Li,e is a $anCuet and most o, the su(0ers are starvin+ to deathE& This is a Cuote ,rom a ,i,ties move (a""ed Auntie .a)& Auntie .a) mana+ed rea"") to enjo) "i,e to the hi"t- in the movie an)wa)& She1s a 0ind o, i(on- not a rea" woman $ut an i(on o, inte""i+en(e and $eaut)- one who just "ives "i,e to the hi"t and enjo)s ever)thin+& That1s a ver) attra(tive ido"# to see this "i,e is meant to $e ,u"" o, *"easure- ha**iness and "ove& So +ras*in+ that is the 0Rmasu0ha""i0Rnu)o+a& Li,e is "i0e this& ou (an1t sa) it1s a $anCuet a"" the time& Breath +oin+ in&&& I wou"dn1t des(ri$e it as a $anCuet- or that the sound o, si"en(e is "i,e at its $est- where it1s just one "au+h a,ter another& It1s just "i0e this& .ost o, our eB*erien(e is neither one eBtreme nor anotherA it1s "i0e this& .ost o, one1s "i,e is not *ea0 moments- either in the hei+hts or the de*ths- $ut it1s Intuitive Awareness neitherMnor- it1s that whi(h we don1t noti(e i, we1re *rimed to the eBtremes& neitherMnor- it1s that whi(h we don1t noti(e i, we1re *rimed to the eBtremes& 'e "ive on a *"anet that is Cuite $eauti,u"& Nature is Cuite $eauti,u" to the e)e& So seein+ it ,rom satisam*ajaSS a I eB*erien(e jo) ,rom that& 'hen we s*ea0 ,rom *ersona" ha$its ^ then it (an +et (om*"i(ated& It1s (om*"i(ated- no dou$t- with wantin+ and not wantin+- with +ui"t- or just not even noti(in+& I, )ou +et too invo"ved with what1s in )our head- a,ter whi"e )ou don1t even noti(e- an)thin+ outside& ou (an $e in the most $eauti,u" *"a(e in the wor"d and not see it- not noti(e it& So then $eaut) as eB*erien(e- or sense!*"easure- is seein+ somethin+ ,or what it is& It is *"easura$"eA +ood ,ood does taste +oodA tastin+ a +ood- de"i(ious ,"avour is "i0e thisA it1s *ure") enjo)a$"e& That1s the wa) it is& So )ou ma) (ontem*"ate DOh- I shou"dn1tE ^ then )ou1re addin+ more to it& But ,rom sati!sam*ajaSSa it is what it is& It1s eB*erien(in+ the Intuitive Awareness ,"ow o, "i,e ,rom this (entre!*oint- ,rom the sti"" *oint that in("udes rather than ,rom the *oint that eB("udes- the eBtreme where we want on") the $eauti,u" and the +ood- just to have one $anCuet a,ter another& 'hen we (an1t sustain that de"usion we +et de*ressed& 'e +o to the o**osite- wantin+ to 0i"" ourse"ves or annihi"ate ourse"ves in some wa)& ,"ow o, "i,e ,rom this (entre!*oint- ,rom the sti"" *oint that in("udes rather than ,rom the *oint that eB("udes- the eBtreme where we want on") the $eauti,u" and the +ood- just to have one $anCuet a,ter another& 'hen we (an1t sustain that de"usion we +et de*ressed& 'e +o to the o**osite- wantin+ to 0i"" ourse"ves or annihi"ate ourse"ves in some wa)& Intuitive Awareness to $e where there are $"ue s0ies and sunshine a"" the time&E to $e where there are $"ue s0ies and sunshine a"" the time&E /ons(iousness is "i0e a mirrorA it re,"e(ts& A mirror re,"e(ts ^ it doesn1t just re,"e(t the $eauti,u" or the u+")& I, )ou rea"") "oo0 into a mirror- it1s re,"e(tin+ whatever# the s*a(e- the neutra"it)- ever)thin+ that is in ,ront o, it& Usua"") )ou (an on") noti(e the outstandin+ ones- the eBtremes o, $eaut) or u+"iness& But to awa0en to the wa) it is- )ou1re not "oo0in+ at the o$vious- $ut re(o+nisin+ the su$t"et) $ehind the eBtremes o, $eaut) and u+"iness& The sound o, si"en(e is "i0e a su$t"et) $ehind ever)thin+ that )ou awa0en to- $e(ause )ou don1t noti(e it usua"") i, )ou1re Intuitive Awareness see0in+ the eBtremes& see0in+ the eBtremes& These are idea"sA *ositions that we mi+ht ta0e& The) are the Itrue $ut not ri+htA ri+ht $ut not true1 *redi(ament that we (reate with our dua"isti( mindA not that the)1re wron+& In 4eor+e Orwe""1s nove" Anima" 2arm there is a s"o+an# DEver)one is eCua" $ut some are more eCua" than othersE& In the (onditioned rea"m- this is how we thin0& 'e a"" thin0 a"" human $ein+s are eCua"- idea"")& A"" human $ein+s are eCua"- $ut with the Intuitive Awareness *ra(ti(a"ities o, "i,e- some are more eCua" than others& ou won1t ,ind the a,,"uent 'estern 'or"d wi""in+ to +ive u* mu(h ,or the sa0e o, eCua"it) in the Third 'or"d& *ra(ti(a"ities o, "i,e- some are more eCua" than others& ou won1t ,ind the a,,"uent 'estern 'or"d wi""in+ to +ive u* mu(h ,or the sa0e o, eCua"it) in the Third 'or"d& Intuitive Awareness Identit) Is there an)one- an) *erson or an) (ondition that is a$so"ute") ri+ht ^ or a$so"ute") wron+Q /an ri+ht and wron+ or +ood and $ad- $e a$so"uteQ 'hen )ou disse(t it- when )ou rea"") "oo0 at it in terms o, the wa) it is now- there is nothin+ to itA it1s ,oam on the sea- it1s soa* $u$$"es& et this is how we (an +et ourse"ves (om*"ete") (au+ht u* in i""usions& 'e1"" sa(ri,i(e our "i,e ,or an i""usion- to tr) to *rote(t our identities- our *ositions- our territories& 'e1re ver) territoria"& 'e thin0 this En+"and here $e"on+s to the En+"ish& 'hen we ta0e that a*art- does this *"ot o, "and here sa) it1s En+"andQ 'hen I do jon+rom Gwa"0in+ meditationH outside- does the earth (ome u* and sa)- Dou1re wa"0in+ on me ^ En+"and&E It1s never said that- neverO But I sa) I1m wa"0in+ here in En+"and& I1m the one who1s (a""in+ it En+"and- and that is an identit)- a (onventiona" identit)& 'e a"" a+ree to (a"" this *"ot o, "and here IEn+"and1- $ut it1s not rea"") thatA it is what it is& et we1"" ,i+ht- torture and (ommit the most atro(ious a(ts over territor)- Cui$$"in+ a$out just one in(h o, *ro*ert) on a $order& The "and doesn1t $e"on+ to an)$od)A even i, I own "and "e+a"") ^ DThis $e"on+s to Ajahn SumedhoE ^ it doesn1t rea"")A that1s just a (onvention& Intuitive Awareness 'hen we $ind ourse"ves to these (onventions and these i""usions- then o, (ourse we1re trou$"ed $e(ause these are so unsta$"e and not in "ine with Dhamma& 'e end u* wastin+ our "ives around tr)in+ to in(rease this sense o, identi,i(ation- the sense o,- DIt1s mine- it $e"on+s to me and I want to *rote(t it& I want to hand it down to ,uture +enerations&E On and on "i0e this- into ,uture "ives and the +enerations that ,o""ow& 'e (reate a who"e rea"m o, i""usion- *ersona"it) and identit) with the *er(e*tions that we (reate in our minds- whi(h arise and (ease- whi(h have no rea" (ore to them- no essen(e& 'hen we $ind ourse"ves to these (onventions and these i""usions- then o, (ourse we1re trou$"ed $e(ause these are so unsta$"e and not in "ine with Dhamma& 'e end u* wastin+ our "ives around tr)in+ to in(rease this sense o, identi,i(ation- the sense o,- DIt1s mine- it $e"on+s to me and I want to *rote(t it& I want to hand it down to ,uture +enerations&E On and on "i0e this- into ,uture "ives and the +enerations that ,o""ow& 'e (reate a who"e rea"m o, i""usion- *ersona"it) and identit) with the *er(e*tions that we (reate in our minds- whi(h arise and (ease- whi(h have no rea" (ore to them- no essen(e& Intuitive Awareness this "a$e"- with this *er(e*tion& this "a$e"- with this *er(e*tion& Then there is this en(oura+ement to what we (a"" Imeditation1& This word Imeditation1 (an mean a"" 0inds o, thin+s& It1s a word that in("udes an) 0ind o, menta" *ra(ti(es- +ood or $ad& But when I use this word- what I1m main") usin+ it ,or is that sense o, (entrin+- that sense o, esta$"ishin+- restin+ in the (entre& The on") wa) that one (an rea"") do that is not to tr) and thin0 a$out it and ana")se itA )ou have to trust in just a sim*"e Intuitive Awareness a(t o, attention- o, awareness& It1s so sim*"e and so dire(t that our (om*"i(ated minds +et ver) (on,used& D'hat1s he ta"0in+ a$outQ I1ve never seen an) sti"" *oint& I1ve never ,ound a sti"" *oint in me& 'hen I sit and meditate- there1s nothin+ sti"" a$out it&E But there1s an awareness o, that& Even i, )ou thin0 )ou1ve never had a sti"" *oint or )ou1re a (on,used- messed!u* (hara(ter that rea"") (an1t meditate- trust in the awareness o, that ver) *er(e*tion& That1s wh) I en(oura+e- whatever )ou thin0 )ou are- to thin0 it de"i$erate")A rea"") eB*"ore the 0ind o, *er(e*tions )ou have o, )ourse",- so that the)1re not just ha$itua"") +oin+ throu+h )our mind and )ou1re either $e"ievin+ them or tr)in+ to +et rid o, them& The more we tr) to +et rid o, *ersona"ities- the more (on,used we +et& I, )ou assume that )ou1ve +ot to +et rid o, )our *ersona"it) in some wa) $e(ause it1s an i""usion- then )ou1re (au+ht in another i""usion- that DI1m someone that has a *ersona"it) that I1ve +ot to +et rid o,A I1m the *ersona"it) that1s +ot to +et rid o, m) *ersona"it)&E It doesn1t +et an)where ^ ridi(u"ous& It1s not a matter o, +ettin+ rid o,- $ut o, 0nowin+& a(t o, attention- o, awareness& It1s so sim*"e and so dire(t that our (om*"i(ated minds +et ver) (on,used& D'hat1s he ta"0in+ a$outQ I1ve never seen an) sti"" *oint& I1ve never ,ound a sti"" *oint in me& 'hen I sit and meditate- there1s nothin+ sti"" a$out it&E But there1s an awareness o, that& Even i, )ou thin0 )ou1ve never had a sti"" *oint or )ou1re a (on,used- messed!u* (hara(ter that rea"") (an1t meditate- trust in the awareness o, that ver) *er(e*tion& That1s wh) I en(oura+e- whatever )ou thin0 )ou are- to thin0 it de"i$erate")A rea"") eB*"ore the 0ind o, *er(e*tions )ou have o, )ourse",- so that the)1re not just ha$itua"") +oin+ throu+h )our mind and )ou1re either $e"ievin+ them or tr)in+ to +et rid o, them& The more we tr) to +et rid o, *ersona"ities- the more (on,used we +et& I, )ou assume that )ou1ve +ot to +et rid o, )our *ersona"it) in some wa) $e(ause it1s an i""usion- then )ou1re (au+ht in another i""usion- that DI1m someone that has a *ersona"it) that I1ve +ot to +et rid o,A I1m the *ersona"it) that1s +ot to +et rid o, m) *ersona"it)&E It doesn1t +et an)where ^ ridi(u"ous& It1s not a matter o, +ettin+ rid o,- $ut o, 0nowin+& Intuitive Awareness However- there is that whi(h (an $e aware o, the *ersona"it) as a (onstru(tion& I de"i$erate") thin0- DI am a s(rewed!u* *erson that needs to meditate in order to $e(ome en"i+htened in the ,uture&E I thin0 that- $ut I1m "istenin+ to itA I1m de"i$erate") thin0in+ it and I1m investi+atin+ it& I have (reated that *er(e*tion& I have (hosen to thin0 that and I (an hear m)se", thin0in+ it& That whi(h is aware and "istens to that *er(e*tion I don1t (reate& It1s not a (reation- is itQ I (reate this *er(e*tion- $ut that whi(h is aware o, the *er(e*tion&&& ou (an investi+ate- $e+in to 0now the di,,eren(e $etween awareness and thin0in+& 'hat is the sti"" *oint- the (entre- the *oint that in("udesQ This 0ind o, thin0in+ is re,"e(tive- isn1t itQ I1m just as0in+ m)se", this Cuestion to $rin+ attention to this& I1m not "oo0in+ ,or an answer in terms o, some$od) to +ive me an answer to that Cuestion- $ut that1s a re,"e(tive Cuestion that ("ari,ies m) attentionA it he"*s me to ,o(us- to $e aware& However- there is that whi(h (an $e aware o, the *ersona"it) as a (onstru(tion& I de"i$erate") thin0- DI am a s(rewed!u* *erson that needs to meditate in order to $e(ome en"i+htened in the ,uture&E I thin0 that- $ut I1m "istenin+ to itA I1m de"i$erate") thin0in+ it and I1m investi+atin+ it& I have (reated that *er(e*tion& I have (hosen to thin0 that and I (an hear m)se", thin0in+ it& That whi(h is aware and "istens to that *er(e*tion I don1t (reate& It1s not a (reation- is itQ I (reate this *er(e*tion- $ut that whi(h is aware o, the *er(e*tion&&& ou (an investi+ate- $e+in to 0now the di,,eren(e $etween awareness and thin0in+& 'hat is the sti"" *oint- the (entre- the *oint that in("udesQ This 0ind o, thin0in+ is re,"e(tive- isn1t itQ I1m just as0in+ m)se", this Cuestion to $rin+ attention to this& I1m not "oo0in+ ,or an answer in terms o, some$od) to +ive me an answer to that Cuestion- $ut that1s a re,"e(tive Cuestion that ("ari,ies m) attentionA it he"*s me to ,o(us- to $e aware& Intuitive Awareness As soon as we identi,) with it- we have a ne+ative thou+ht and it hoo0s us& I ,ee" some ne+ative ,ee"in+# DOh- here I +o a+ain- $ein+ (riti(a" and ne+ative a$out some$od) and I shou"dn1t do that& I1ve $een a mon0 a"" these )ears and how (an I sto* doin+ thatQ I1ve "ost it&E I1ve identi,ied with a ne+ative thou+ht and it tri++ers o,, a"" 0inds o, ,ee"in+s o, des*air& Or DI shou"dn1t $e "i0e this- I shou"dn1t thin0 "i0e this& A +ood mon0 shou"d "ove ever)$od)&&&E- then- with awareness- )ou sudden") sto* that and )ou1re $a(0 in the (entre a+ain& As soon as we identi,) with it- we have a ne+ative thou+ht and it hoo0s us& I ,ee" some ne+ative ,ee"in+# DOh- here I +o a+ain- $ein+ (riti(a" and ne+ative a$out some$od) and I shou"dn1t do that& I1ve $een a mon0 a"" these )ears and how (an I sto* doin+ thatQ I1ve "ost it&E I1ve identi,ied with a ne+ative thou+ht and it tri++ers o,, a"" 0inds o, ,ee"in+s o, des*air& Or DI shou"dn1t $e "i0e this- I shou"dn1t thin0 "i0e this& A +ood mon0 shou"d "ove ever)$od)&&&E- then- with awareness- )ou sudden") sto* that and )ou1re $a(0 in the (entre a+ain& Intuitive Awareness the ha$its or the *ersona"it) that we have& 'e1re not jud+in+ or (ondemnin+- *raisin+- adu"atin+ or eBa++eratin+ an)thin+& It is what it is& As we do that- our identit) with it $e+ins to s"i* awa)& 'e no "on+er see0 identit) with our i""usionsA we1ve $ro0en throu+h that& 'hen we1ve seen throu+h that i""usion o, se",- what we thin0 we are& Then our in("ination is towards this (entre *oint- this Buddho *osition& the ha$its or the *ersona"it) that we have& 'e1re not jud+in+ or (ondemnin+- *raisin+- adu"atin+ or eBa++eratin+ an)thin+& It is what it is& As we do that- our identit) with it $e+ins to s"i* awa)& 'e no "on+er see0 identit) with our i""usionsA we1ve $ro0en throu+h that& 'hen we1ve seen throu+h that i""usion o, se",- what we thin0 we are& Then our in("ination is towards this (entre *oint- this Buddho *osition& Intuitive Awareness I, one o, )ou shou"d (ome to me and sa)- DAjahn Sumedho- I1m rea"") s(rewed u*& I was ver) $ad") treated when I was a (hi"d& I1ve +ot so man) neuroti( *ro$"ems and ,ears& I rea"") need to +o to thera*) and +et these thin+s strai+htened u* in some wa) $e(ause I (an1t rea"") meditate the wa) I am-E and I sa)- D'e""- )eah- )ou shou"d& ou1re rea"") s(rewed u*O I thin0 )ou shou"d +o to a thera*ist and strai+hten )ourse", out ,irst- then meditate a,ter that&E 'ou"d that $e ver) he"*,u"Q 'ou"d I $e *ointin+ to the sti"" *oint or wou"d I $e *er*etuatin+ )our own se",!viewQ That view mi+ht even $e ri+ht on a wor"d") "eve"- I1m not sa)in+ )ou shou"dn1t& This is $est# not to te"" )ou- sa)in+ )ou are this wa) or that wa)- not to +ive )ou some 0ind o, identit) to atta(h to- $ut to em*ower or en(oura+e )ou to trust in )our own a$i"it) to wa0e u*- to *a) attention& The resu"t o, that I don1t 0now& I ho*e it wi"" $e a +ood one& But it1s true# )our true identit) isn1t de*endent u*on an) (ondition& I, one o, )ou shou"d (ome to me and sa)- DAjahn Sumedho- I1m rea"") s(rewed u*& I was ver) $ad") treated when I was a (hi"d& I1ve +ot so man) neuroti( *ro$"ems and ,ears& I rea"") need to +o to thera*) and +et these thin+s strai+htened u* in some wa) $e(ause I (an1t rea"") meditate the wa) I am-E and I sa)- D'e""- )eah- )ou shou"d& ou1re rea"") s(rewed u*O I thin0 )ou shou"d +o to a thera*ist and strai+hten )ourse", out ,irst- then meditate a,ter that&E 'ou"d that $e ver) he"*,u"Q 'ou"d I $e *ointin+ to the sti"" *oint or wou"d I $e *er*etuatin+ )our own se",!viewQ That view mi+ht even $e ri+ht on a wor"d") "eve"- I1m not sa)in+ )ou shou"dn1t& This is $est# not to te"" )ou- sa)in+ )ou are this wa) or that wa)- not to +ive )ou some 0ind o, identit) to atta(h to- $ut to em*ower or en(oura+e )ou to trust in )our own a$i"it) to wa0e u*- to *a) attention& The resu"t o, that I don1t 0now& I ho*e it wi"" $e a +ood one& But it1s true# )our true identit) isn1t de*endent u*on an) (ondition& Intuitive Awareness that )ou need to do is to wa0e u* ^ sim*"e as that^ that is in itse", a (onvention o, "an+ua+e& This is where this em*owerment or en(oura+ement is *ointin+ to an immanent a(t o, awa0enin+- not to te"" )ou that )ou are some 0ind o, *erson- )ou1re as"ee* and )ou shou"d wa0e u* or that )ou shou"d +ras* that idea- $ut that sense o, a(tua"") $ein+ that& that )ou need to do is to wa0e u* ^ sim*"e as that^ that is in itse", a (onvention o, "an+ua+e& This is where this em*owerment or en(oura+ement is *ointin+ to an immanent a(t o, awa0enin+- not to te"" )ou that )ou are some 0ind o, *erson- )ou1re as"ee* and )ou shou"d wa0e u* or that )ou shou"d +ras* that idea- $ut that sense o, a(tua"") $ein+ that& Intuitive Awareness That was a si+n to o, me where I had somethin+- it was a 0ind o, si+n that drew me into this "i,e& But then the +ood thin+ a$out $ein+ hi+h") individua"isti(- s(e*ti(a" and dou$t,u" is that )ou do tend to Cuestion ever)thin+& That whi(h is sa(red and never Cuestioned o,ten times in re"i+ions was a""owed to $e Cuestioned& One thin+ I a**re(iated with Luan+ 3or /hah was that ever)thin+ was u* ,or Cuestionin+& He was never one ,or a *erem*tor) a**roa(h o, Dou have to $e"ieve in this and )ou have to $e"ieve in that&E There was never that hard- heav)!handed- di(tatoria" st)"eA it was mu(h more this re,"e(tive Cuestionin+ and inCuir)& One o, the *ro$"ems with 'esterners is that we1re (om*"i(ated $e(ause o, the "a(0 o, ,aith& Our identities +et so (om*"i(ated in so man) wa)s and hi+h") *ersona"- we ta0e ever)thin+ *ersona"")& SeBua" desire and the seBua" ,or(es in the $od) are re+arded as ver) *ersona"& The same is true with hun+er and thirst- we identi,) with hun+er in a ver) *ersona" wa)& The $asi( ,or(es that are just natura" we ta0e on and jud+e them *ersona"")# D'e shou"dn1t $e (oward") and wea0- *usi""animous&E 'e +et ver) (om*"i(ated $e(ause we jud+e ourse"ves end"ess")- (riti(ise ourse"ves a((ordin+ to ver) hi+h standards- ver) idea"- no$"e standards that we (an never "ive u* to& 'e +et ver) se",!dis*ara+in+- neuroti( and de*ressed $e(ause we1re not in tou(h with nature& 'e1ve (ome ,rom the wor"d o, ideas rather than ,rom rea"isin+ the natura" "aw& That was a si+n to o, me where I had somethin+- it was a 0ind o, si+n that drew me into this "i,e& But then the +ood thin+ a$out $ein+ hi+h") individua"isti(- s(e*ti(a" and dou$t,u" is that )ou do tend to Cuestion ever)thin+& That whi(h is sa(red and never Cuestioned o,ten times in re"i+ions was a""owed to $e Cuestioned& One thin+ I a**re(iated with Luan+ 3or /hah was that ever)thin+ was u* ,or Cuestionin+& He was never one ,or a *erem*tor) a**roa(h o, Dou have to $e"ieve in this and )ou have to $e"ieve in that&E There was never that hard- heav)!handed- di(tatoria" st)"eA it was mu(h more this re,"e(tive Cuestionin+ and inCuir)& One o, the *ro$"ems with 'esterners is that we1re (om*"i(ated $e(ause o, the "a(0 o, ,aith& Our identities +et so (om*"i(ated in so man) wa)s and hi+h") *ersona"- we ta0e ever)thin+ *ersona"")& SeBua" desire and the seBua" ,or(es in the $od) are re+arded as ver) *ersona"& The same is true with hun+er and thirst- we identi,) with hun+er in a ver) *ersona" wa)& The $asi( ,or(es that are just natura" we ta0e on and jud+e them *ersona"")# D'e shou"dn1t $e (oward") and wea0- *usi""animous&E 'e +et ver) (om*"i(ated $e(ause we jud+e ourse"ves end"ess")- (riti(ise ourse"ves a((ordin+ to ver) hi+h standards- ver) idea"- no$"e standards that we (an never "ive u* to& 'e +et ver) se",!dis*ara+in+- neuroti( and de*ressed $e(ause we1re not in tou(h with nature& 'e1ve (ome ,rom the wor"d o, ideas rather than ,rom rea"isin+ the natura" "aw& Intuitive Awareness $od) is "i0e thisA it1s a seBua" $od) so it1s +oin+ to have these ener+ies& It has seBua" or+ans- it1s made "i0e this- this is the wa) it is- so it1s not *ersona"& I didn1t (reate it& 'e $e+in to "oo0 at the most o$vious thin+s- the $asi(s- the human $od)- in terms o, the wa) it is rather than identi,)in+ with it *ersona"")& Hun+er and thirst are "i0e this ^ we investi+ate the instin(tua" ener+ies- the ur+e ,or surviva"& 'e have stron+ surviva" and *ro(reative instin(ts# hun+er and thirst- the ur+e to *rote(t ourse"ves- the need ,or sa,et)& 'e a"" need to ,ee" some 0ind o, *h)si(a" sa,et)- whi(h is a surviva" instin(tA these are $asi( to the anima" 0in+dom- not just the human& It +ets more (om*"i(ated $e(ause we identi,) with it and jud+e it a((ordin+ to ver) hi+h standards and idea"s& Then we $e(ome neuroti(- it +ets a"" over the *"a(e- we (an1t do an)thin+ ri+ht& This is the (om*"i(ated mess that we (reate in our "ives ^ ver) (on,usin+& $od) is "i0e thisA it1s a seBua" $od) so it1s +oin+ to have these ener+ies& It has seBua" or+ans- it1s made "i0e this- this is the wa) it is- so it1s not *ersona"& I didn1t (reate it& 'e $e+in to "oo0 at the most o$vious thin+s- the $asi(s- the human $od)- in terms o, the wa) it is rather than identi,)in+ with it *ersona"")& Hun+er and thirst are "i0e this ^ we investi+ate the instin(tua" ener+ies- the ur+e ,or surviva"& 'e have stron+ surviva" and *ro(reative instin(ts# hun+er and thirst- the ur+e to *rote(t ourse"ves- the need ,or sa,et)& 'e a"" need to ,ee" some 0ind o, *h)si(a" sa,et)- whi(h is a surviva" instin(tA these are $asi( to the anima" 0in+dom- not just the human& It +ets more (om*"i(ated $e(ause we identi,) with it and jud+e it a((ordin+ to ver) hi+h standards and idea"s& Then we $e(ome neuroti(- it +ets a"" over the *"a(e- we (an1t do an)thin+ ri+ht& This is the (om*"i(ated mess that we (reate in our "ives ^ ver) (on,usin+& Intuitive Awareness the (om*"i(ated se", that we have (reated and identi,) with& the (om*"i(ated se", that we have (reated and identi,) with& Intuitive Awareness o, attention and awareness rather than end"ess") tr)in+ to sort it out on the turnin+ whee" with a"" its (om*"i(ated thou+hts and ha$its- where )ou just +et di__) and tota"") (on,used& o, attention and awareness rather than end"ess") tr)in+ to sort it out on the turnin+ whee" with a"" its (om*"i(ated thou+hts and ha$its- where )ou just +et di__) and tota"") (on,used& Intuitive Awareness 'hen ou1re an Emotiona" 're(0 A"thou+h ri+ht now were in a *er,e(t retreat situation where we1ve +ot ever)thin+ under (ontro" and *er,e(t ,or what we re+ard as a *ro*er- ,orma" retreat& In (ontrast to this neBt wee0 there wi"" $e a "ot o, (omin+s and +oin+s- and thin+s ha**enin+ that we (an1t (ontro"& Nust $e aware o, eB*e(tation- a view a$out what a *ro*er- ,orma" retreat shou"d $e& 'hatever views or o*inions )ou ma) have- just 0now the wa) the) are& 'hatever 0ind o, irritation- ,rustration or aversion )ou mi+ht ,ee"- )ou (an use a"" o, that ,or meditation& The im*ortant thin+ is the awareness that Dit is the wa) it isE ^ rather than tr)in+ just to su**ress )our ,ee"in+s- to i+nore- or just +et ver) u*set and an+r) a$out thin+s not +oin+ the wa) )ou want- and then not "oo0in+ at that- not ta0in+ the o**ortunit) to o$serve the wa) it is& I, one is u*set a$out the wa) it is- one (an use that- that is a *art o, the meditation& Unwanted thin+s ha**en in an) retreat& Li0e the window in the Tem*"e- the e"e(tri( motor that o*ens and ("oses it doesn1t wor0& Hi+h!te(h- isn1t itQ 'e (ou"d use a "on+ *o"e- or we (ou"d +et 0notted ro*es and han+ them ,rom the $eams and "earn to ("im$ them to o*en and ("ose the windows& It wou"d $e +ood *h)si(a" eBer(iseO Then the s*ot"i+ht went out& I noti(e Intuitive Awareness in m) own mind that when thin+s +o wron+- thin+s $rea0 or thin+s are +oin+ in a wa) ,ee" that ma0e me ,rustration or ma)$e irritation- then I "i0e to use those situations& I, the window doesn1t ("ose- and the s*ot"i+ht doesn1t +o on- I (an ,ee" a (ertain wa)& I1m aware o, that ,ee"in+ o, not wantin+ the s*ot"i+ht to $e $ro0en or the window or whatever& This ,ee"in+ o, wantin+ to +et it ,iBed ri+ht awa)# D'e (an just +et some$od) in to do it ri+ht now $etween $rea0s so it doesn1t inter,ere with m) *ra(ti(e&E But noti(e in a"" o, this that mind,u"ness is the im*ortant ,a(tor- $e(ause (on(entration (an +et disru*ted $ut mind,u"ness- i, )ou trust it- o*ens to the ,"ow o, "i,e as an eB*erien(e- with its *"easure and *ain& in m) own mind that when thin+s +o wron+- thin+s $rea0 or thin+s are +oin+ in a wa) ,ee" that ma0e me ,rustration or ma)$e irritation- then I "i0e to use those situations& I, the window doesn1t ("ose- and the s*ot"i+ht doesn1t +o on- I (an ,ee" a (ertain wa)& I1m aware o, that ,ee"in+ o, not wantin+ the s*ot"i+ht to $e $ro0en or the window or whatever& This ,ee"in+ o, wantin+ to +et it ,iBed ri+ht awa)# D'e (an just +et some$od) in to do it ri+ht now $etween $rea0s so it doesn1t inter,ere with m) *ra(ti(e&E But noti(e in a"" o, this that mind,u"ness is the im*ortant ,a(tor- $e(ause (on(entration (an +et disru*ted $ut mind,u"ness- i, )ou trust it- o*ens to the ,"ow o, "i,e as an eB*erien(e- with its *"easure and *ain& Intuitive Awareness o, Buddhism that doesn1t ,it into what we (onsider ri+ht is then wron+- or that other re"i+ions are wron+& That1s the thin0in+ $ehind se",!ri+hteous views- and noti(e how "imitin+ it is& ou1re o,ten then stu(0 with these thou+hts and *er(e*tions and o,ten times ver) in,erior *er(e*tions o, )ourse",& 'e (an $e atta(hed to ver) ne+ative *er(e*tions o, ourse"ves and thin0 that1s ri+ht& A**er(e*tion means $ein+ aware o, *er(e*tion& 3er(e*tions o, m)se",- or that Buddhism is ri+ht- is "i0e this& DBuddha1s tea(hin+s are ri+htE ^ that a"" rises and (eases- and what1s "e,t is this& There1s sti"" (ons(iousness- awareness- inte""i+en(e& It1s *ure- $ut it1s not m) *urit) as a *ersona" a(hievement- it1s natura"") *ure& o, Buddhism that doesn1t ,it into what we (onsider ri+ht is then wron+- or that other re"i+ions are wron+& That1s the thin0in+ $ehind se",!ri+hteous views- and noti(e how "imitin+ it is& ou1re o,ten then stu(0 with these thou+hts and *er(e*tions and o,ten times ver) in,erior *er(e*tions o, )ourse",& 'e (an $e atta(hed to ver) ne+ative *er(e*tions o, ourse"ves and thin0 that1s ri+ht& A**er(e*tion means $ein+ aware o, *er(e*tion& 3er(e*tions o, m)se",- or that Buddhism is ri+ht- is "i0e this& DBuddha1s tea(hin+s are ri+htE ^ that a"" rises and (eases- and what1s "e,t is this& There1s sti"" (ons(iousness- awareness- inte""i+en(e& It1s *ure- $ut it1s not m) *urit) as a *ersona" a(hievement- it1s natura"") *ure& ^ I (an (ertain") ,ee" it& Awareness in("udes emotiona" states- no matter the) are& 'hether )ou1re ha**) or sad- e"ated or de*ressed- (on,used or ("ear- (on,ident or dou$t,u"- jea"ous or ,ri+htened- +reed) or "ust,u"- it in("udes a"" those- $ut just $) noti(in+ in a Intuitive Awareness wa) that is not (riti(a"& 'e1re not sa)in+- Dou shou"dn1t have "ust,u" emotionsE or an)thin+ "i0e that& 'e1re not ma0in+ mora" jud+ments- $e(ause we1re usin+ satisam*ajaSS a& I, )ou +et (au+ht u* in )our $rain- )our inte""e(t- then it sa)s- DOhO ou1re havin+ "ust,u" thou+hts in the Shrine RoomO ou shou"dn1t do that& ou1re not a ver) +ood mon0 i, )ou do thin+s "i0e that& ou1re im*ureOE 'e1re ver) atta(hed to these jud+ments- this jud+menta"- (riti(a" ,un(tion that we have- $ut sati!sam*ajaSSa in("udes that- it in("udes the jud+ement& It doesn1t jud+e jud+ementA it1s just noti(in+ the 0ind o, t)ranni(a"- se",!ri+hteous su*ere+o that sa)s- Dou shou"dn1t $e the wa) )ou are& ou shou"dn1t $e se",ish& ou shou"d $e (om*assionate and "ovin+-E a"" that 0ind o, thin+& DBuddhism is ri+ht&&& I1m +ettin+ nowhere in m) *ra(ti(e-E sati!sam*ajaSSa em$ra(es that& It1s just noti(in+ the wa) it is& I (an "isten to m) inte""e(t- m) su*er!e+o ^ DI 0now that- I 0now )ou-E emotiona" states and the $od)& It1s a matter o, $ein+ *atient with a"" this& It1s not tr)in+ to (ontro" or ma0e an) *ro$"em out o, it- $ut just as we re"aB and o*en to these thin+s- then we a""ow them to (han+e on their own& The) have their own 0armi( ,or(e- and we1re +ivin+ them that o**ortunit)& Our re,u+e is not in thin0in+ or emotions or the *h)si(a" $od)& So just see this re,u+e as this sim*"e a$i"it) to "isten to $e attentive to this moment& I a"wa)s use the *ra(ti(e o, "istenin+ to the sound o, si"en(e ^ that su$t"e- (ontinuous inner rin+in+ tone in the $a(0+round o, eB*erien(e ^ $e(ause ever) time I o*en the mind- that1s what I hear& Its *resen(e (ontains and em$ra(es the $od)- the emotiona" Cua"it) Intuitive Awareness or the thin0in+ mind a"" at on(e& It1s not "i0e A!B!/ or an)thin+ in tandem or seCuen(e- $ut in just the wa) it is- as a who"e- it in("udes- it doesn1t *i(0 and (hoose- DI want this $ut I don1t want thatE& Nust noti(in+- trustin+ and va"uin+ this a$i"it) that ea(h one o, us has& It1s somethin+ to rea"") treasure and (u"tivate& or the thin0in+ mind a"" at on(e& It1s not "i0e A!B!/ or an)thin+ in tandem or seCuen(e- $ut in just the wa) it is- as a who"e- it in("udes- it doesn1t *i(0 and (hoose- DI want this $ut I don1t want thatE& Nust noti(in+- trustin+ and va"uin+ this a$i"it) that ea(h one o, us has& It1s somethin+ to rea"") treasure and (u"tivate& ` ana")ti(a" tea(hin+s o, the Buddhist (anon Intuitive Awareness whi(h is (onsidered (ommon and vu"+ar- "ower!rea"m hone) ^ )ou mi+ht 0now a"" that $ut not 0now the ,"avour o, an) o, it& ou (an have *i(tures and *ortraits o, it- the who"e "ot& The taste o, hone) in terms o, intuition is "i0e this& I, )ou just taste hone)- then )ou are intuitive") aware that it tastes "i0e this& whi(h is (onsidered (ommon and vu"+ar- "ower!rea"m hone) ^ )ou mi+ht 0now a"" that $ut not 0now the ,"avour o, an) o, it& ou (an have *i(tures and *ortraits o, it- the who"e "ot& The taste o, hone) in terms o, intuition is "i0e this& I, )ou just taste hone)- then )ou are intuitive") aware that it tastes "i0e this& I used to eB*eriment with this- $e(ause o, m) $a(0+round& I s*ent so man) )ears stud)in+ in universit) and was so (onditioned $) that to want to de,ine and understand ever)thin+ throu+h the inte""e(t& I was a"wa)s in a state o, dou$t- $e(ause Intuitive Awareness the more I tried to ,i+ure ever)thin+ out GI1m Cuite +ood at ,i+urin+ thin+s outH I sti"" wasn1t (ertain whether I had +ot it ri+ht or not- $e(ause the thin0in+ *ro(ess has no (ertaint) to it& It1s ("ean and neat and tid)- $ut it is not "i$eratin+ in itse",& Emotiona" thin+s are a $it mess)& 'ith emotions )ou (an (r)- )ou (an ,ee" sad- )ou (an ,ee" sorr)- )ou (an ,ee" an+r) and ,ee" jea"ous and a"" 0inds o, mess) ,ee"in+s- $ut a ni(e inte""e(tua" ,rame o, re,eren(e is so *"easura$"e $e(ause it1s so tid) and neat& It isn1t mess)- doesn1t +et sti(0)- wet and so++) ^ $ut it doesn1t ,ee" an)thin+ either& 'hen )ou1re (au+ht in the inte""e(t- it su(0s )ou awa) ,rom )our ,ee"in+s- $e(ause )our emotiona" "i,e doesn1t wor0 an)more- so )ou su**ress it $e(ause )ou1re atta(hed to thou+ht- reason and "o+i(& It has its *"easure and its +i,ts- $ut a"so ma0es )ou ver) insensitive& Thou+hts do not have an) sensitive (a*a$i"it)- do the)Q Thou+hts are not sensitive (onditions& the more I tried to ,i+ure ever)thin+ out GI1m Cuite +ood at ,i+urin+ thin+s outH I sti"" wasn1t (ertain whether I had +ot it ri+ht or not- $e(ause the thin0in+ *ro(ess has no (ertaint) to it& It1s ("ean and neat and tid)- $ut it is not "i$eratin+ in itse",& Emotiona" thin+s are a $it mess)& 'ith emotions )ou (an (r)- )ou (an ,ee" sad- )ou (an ,ee" sorr)- )ou (an ,ee" an+r) and ,ee" jea"ous and a"" 0inds o, mess) ,ee"in+s- $ut a ni(e inte""e(tua" ,rame o, re,eren(e is so *"easura$"e $e(ause it1s so tid) and neat& It isn1t mess)- doesn1t +et sti(0)- wet and so++) ^ $ut it doesn1t ,ee" an)thin+ either& 'hen )ou1re (au+ht in the inte""e(t- it su(0s )ou awa) ,rom )our ,ee"in+s- $e(ause )our emotiona" "i,e doesn1t wor0 an)more- so )ou su**ress it $e(ause )ou1re atta(hed to thou+ht- reason and "o+i(& It has its *"easure and its +i,ts- $ut a"so ma0es )ou ver) insensitive& Thou+hts do not have an) sensitive (a*a$i"it)- do the)Q Thou+hts are not sensitive (onditions& Intuitive Awareness ou (an1t trust them-E and ,ee" em$arrassed& DIt1s em$arrassin+O I don1t want to $e (onsidered emotiona"& Ajahn Sumedho is ver) emotiona"&E 'oh ou (an1t trust them-E and ,ee" em$arrassed& DIt1s em$arrassin+O I don1t want to $e (onsidered emotiona"& Ajahn Sumedho is ver) emotiona"&E 'oh I don1t want an)one to thin0 that& DI1m reasona$"e&E Now I "i0e that& DInte""i+ent- reasona$"e- 0ind&&&E But sa)- DAjahn Sumedho is emotiona"-E it ma0es me sound "i0e I1m wea0 and wet- doesn1t itQ DAjahn Sumedho is emotiona"& He (ries- he wee*s and he1s wet& He1s a"" over the *"a(e& U+hOE So ma)$e )ou thin0 o, Ajahn Sumedho as mind,u"& That1s ni(eO Emotions then are o,ten times just i+nored or reje(ted and not a**re(iated- we don1t "earn ,rom them- $e(ause we1re a"wa)s reje(tin+ or den)in+ them& At "east I ,ound this eas) to do m)se",& So in this- sati!sam*ajaSSa is "i0e o*enin+ and $ein+ wi""in+ to $e a mess& Let a mess $e a messA a mess is "i0e this& 'et- wea0- a"" over the *"a(e- $ein+ ,oo"ish and si"")- stu*id and a"" that- it1s "i0e this& Sati!sam*ajaSSa em$ra(es a"" that- it1s not *assin+ jud+ement or tr)in+ to (ontro"- to *i(0 or (hoose- $ut is just the a(t o, noti(in+ that it1s "i0e this& I, this is the emotion that is *resent- this is the wa) it is- it1s "i0e this& So the *oint that in("udes ^ noti(e that it1s the here! and!now G*a((u**anna!dhammaH- just swit(hin+ on this immanent 0ind o, attention& It1s a s"i+ht shi,t- it isn1t ver) mu(h- just re"aBin+ and o*enin+ to this *resent- "istenin+- $ein+ attentive& It1s not +oin+ into some 0ind o, rea" su*er!du*er samRdhi G(on(entrationH at a""- it1s just "i0e this- it doesn1t seem that mu(h at a""& As )ou re"aB- trust and rest in it- )ou ,ind it sustains itse",& It1s natura"- it1s not (reated $) )ou- )ou are not (reatin+ it& In this o*enness- in this Intuitive Awareness one *oint that in("udes- then )ou (an $e aware o, emotions that )ou don1t usua"") $other with- "i0e ,ee"in+ "one") or sad- or su$t"eties su(h as resentment or disa**ointment& EBtreme ones are Cuite eas) $e(ause the) ,or(e themse"ves into attention- $ut as )ou o*en- )ou (an $e aware o, su$t"e emotions& Not jud+in+ this- just em$ra(in+ it- so that it1s not ma0in+ a *ro$"em a$out the wa) it is- it1s just 0nowin+ the wa) it is& It1s "i0e this- at this moment the ,ee"in+- the vedanR!saSSRsaa0hRrR G,ee"in+- *er(e*tion- menta" ,ormationsH are "i0e this- the $od) GrW*aH is "i0e this& Noti(e what it1s "i0e when )ou o*en to emotiona" ,ee"in+- to moods- without jud+in+ it- not ma0in+ an) *ro$"em out o, it- whatever its Cua"it) is- whether it1s emotiona" or *h)si(a"- $) "earnin+ to em$ra(e it- to sustain )our attention $) ho"din+ it without tr)in+ to +et rid o, it- (han+e it or thin0 a$out it& Nust tota"") a((e*t the mood )ou1re in- the emotiona" state- or the *h)si(a" sensations "i0e *ain- it(hin+ or whatever tensions- with this sense o, we""!$ein+- o, em$ra(in+& 'hen I do this- I noti(e the I(han+in+ness1& 'hen )ou are wi""in+ to "et somethin+ $e the wa) it is- it (han+es& Then )ou $e+in to re(o+nise or rea"ise non! atta(hment& 'e sa) Iem$ra(in+1# in this wa) satisam*ajaSS a is not atta(hin+ Gu*RdRnaH to them- it1s em$ra(in+& This sense o, widenin+- it in("udesA it1s not *i(0)!(hoos)- it1s not sa)in+- D3i(0 on") the +ood thin+s $ut the $ad ones I won1t-E it ta0es the $ad a"on+ with the +ood- the who"e thin+- the worm and the a**"e- the sna0e and the +arden& It a""ows thin+s to $e what the) are- it1s not a**rovin+& It1s not sa)in+ that )ou have to "ove worms and want them in )our a**"es- to Intuitive Awareness "i0e them as mu(h as )ou "i0e a**"es& It1s not as0in+ )ou to $e si"")- ridi(u"ous or im*ossi$"e- $ut it1s en(oura+in+ )ou to a""ow thin+s to eBist- even the thin+s we don1t "i0e to eBist- $e(ause i, the) eBist- that1s what the) do- the)1re eBistin+& The who"e thin+- the +ood and the $ad- $e"on+s& Sati!sam*ajaSSa is our a$i"it) to rea"ise that- to 0now that- in a dire(t wa)- and then the *ro(esses ta0e (are o, themse"ves& It1s not a (ase o, Ajahn Sumedho tr)in+ to +et his a(t to+ether- tr)in+ to ("eanse his mind- ,ree himse", ,rom de,i"ements- dea" with his immature emotions- strai+hten out his wron+- (roo0ed views- tr)in+ to ma0e himse", into a $etter mon0 and $e(ome en"i+htened in the ,uture& That doesn1t wor0- I +uarantee ^ I1ve tried itO "i0e them as mu(h as )ou "i0e a**"es& It1s not as0in+ )ou to $e si"")- ridi(u"ous or im*ossi$"e- $ut it1s en(oura+in+ )ou to a""ow thin+s to eBist- even the thin+s we don1t "i0e to eBist- $e(ause i, the) eBist- that1s what the) do- the)1re eBistin+& The who"e thin+- the +ood and the $ad- $e"on+s& Sati!sam*ajaSSa is our a$i"it) to rea"ise that- to 0now that- in a dire(t wa)- and then the *ro(esses ta0e (are o, themse"ves& It1s not a (ase o, Ajahn Sumedho tr)in+ to +et his a(t to+ether- tr)in+ to ("eanse his mind- ,ree himse", ,rom de,i"ements- dea" with his immature emotions- strai+hten out his wron+- (roo0ed views- tr)in+ to ma0e himse", into a $etter mon0 and $e(ome en"i+htened in the ,uture& That doesn1t wor0- I +uarantee ^ I1ve tried itO One o, m) s0i",u" means was "istenin+ to m) thou+hts as i, the) were nei+h$ours ta"0in+ on the other side o, the ,en(e& I1m just an inno(ent $)stander "istenin+ Intuitive Awareness whi"st the) (arr) on these (onversations& A"" the +ossi*- o*inions and views I1m a(tua"") *rodu(in+ in m) own mind- $ut I1m "istenin+ to it& I1m not invo"ved- not +ettin+ interested in the su$je(t matter- $ut just "istenin+ as it +oes on and on a$out what it "i0es and doesn1t "i0e- and what1s wron+ with this *erson and what1s wron+ with that *erson- and wh) I "i0e this $etter than that- and i, )ou want m) o*inion a$out this&&& I just 0e*t "istenin+ to these inner voi(es- these o*inionated- arro+ant- (on(eited- ,oo"ish voi(es that +o on& Be aware o, that whi(h is aware and noti(e- ma0e a note o, that whi(h is aware& The awareness is m) re,u+e- not these +ossi*s- these arro+ant voi(es or o*inions and views& That1s a s0i",u" means- I ,ound& whi"st the) (arr) on these (onversations& A"" the +ossi*- o*inions and views I1m a(tua"") *rodu(in+ in m) own mind- $ut I1m "istenin+ to it& I1m not invo"ved- not +ettin+ interested in the su$je(t matter- $ut just "istenin+ as it +oes on and on a$out what it "i0es and doesn1t "i0e- and what1s wron+ with this *erson and what1s wron+ with that *erson- and wh) I "i0e this $etter than that- and i, )ou want m) o*inion a$out this&&& I just 0e*t "istenin+ to these inner voi(es- these o*inionated- arro+ant- (on(eited- ,oo"ish voi(es that +o on& Be aware o, that whi(h is aware and noti(e- ma0e a note o, that whi(h is aware& The awareness is m) re,u+e- not these +ossi*s- these arro+ant voi(es or o*inions and views& That1s a s0i",u" means- I ,ound& U*R)a Gs0i",u" meansH is "earnin+ that )ou do have the wisdom to do it& I, )ou (onsider that DI1m not wise enou+h to do that-E don1t $e"ieve thatO But a"so don1t $e a,raid to as0 ,or he"*& It1s not that one is $etter than Intuitive Awareness the other- just trust $) )our own eB*erien(e o, su,,erin+& I, )ou ,ind )ou o$sess- sudden") thin+s wi"" o$sess )our (ons(iousness- memories wi"" (ome u*- (ertain emotions or rea"") si"") thin+s (an just *ursue )ou- ,oo"ish thou+hts or whatever& 'e (an sa)- DI don1t want to $other with that stu*idit)- I1m tr)in+ to +et m) samRdhi G(on(entrationH and $e ,i""ed with "ovin+! 0indness and do a"" the ri+ht thin+sE ^ and not see what we are doin+& 'e1re tr)in+ to $e(ome- we1re tr)in+ to ma0e ourse"ves ,it into an ima+e that is unrea"- it1s ima+ined- it1s an idea"ised ima+e& The Buddha (ertain") did not eB*e(t that& 'hatever wa) it is ,or )ou is the wa) it is- that1s what )ou "earn ,rom- that1s where en"i+htenment is ^ ri+ht there ^ when )ou1re an emotiona" wre(0& the other- just trust $) )our own eB*erien(e o, su,,erin+& I, )ou ,ind )ou o$sess- sudden") thin+s wi"" o$sess )our (ons(iousness- memories wi"" (ome u*- (ertain emotions or rea"") si"") thin+s (an just *ursue )ou- ,oo"ish thou+hts or whatever& 'e (an sa)- DI don1t want to $other with that stu*idit)- I1m tr)in+ to +et m) samRdhi G(on(entrationH and $e ,i""ed with "ovin+! 0indness and do a"" the ri+ht thin+sE ^ and not see what we are doin+& 'e1re tr)in+ to $e(ome- we1re tr)in+ to ma0e ourse"ves ,it into an ima+e that is unrea"- it1s ima+ined- it1s an idea"ised ima+e& The Buddha (ertain") did not eB*e(t that& 'hatever wa) it is ,or )ou is the wa) it is- that1s what )ou "earn ,rom- that1s where en"i+htenment is ^ ri+ht there ^ when )ou1re an emotiona" wre(0& Intuitive Awareness @> Su,,erin+ Shou"d Be 'e"(omed One o, the e*ithets ,or the Buddha we (hant is "o0avidW G0nower o, the wor"dH& O, (ourse we (an see that this is a Cua"it) o, the Buddha- $ut somethin+ mu(h more *ra(ti(a" than just (hantin+ the *ositive Cua"ities o, some$od) (a""ed IBuddha1 is to re,"e(t on what is the wor"d- the situation that we are eB*erien(in+ now& This entai"s (ontem*"atin+ or re,"e(tin+ on "i,e as we eB*erien(e it rather than des(ri$in+ how "i,e shou"d $e& I, we1re rationa"ists- then we have theories a$out how thin+s shou"d $e& But in re,"e(tive awareness we1re noti(in+ how thin+s are& Breathin+ is "i0e this when we $e(ome aware o, the $reath& 'e1re not sa)in+ )ou shou"d $reathe a (ertain wa)- that there1s some standard o, $reathin+ that is idea"- that we must a"" strive ,or& 'e (ontem*"ate the eB*erien(e o, D sensitivit) is "i0e this&E 'hen we $e+in to noti(e the ,a(t that the human $od)- this $od) that we1re in with its e)es- ears- nose and ton+ue- is sensitive and that sensitivit) is "i0e this- then we "oo0 inward& 'hat is it to $e sensitiveQ 'e1re "oo0in+ at and noti(in+ what it is to ,ee"- to see- to hear- to sme""- to taste or tou(h- to thin0- to remem$er& 'e (an have ideas a$out $ein+ sensitive- Iour1 sensitivit)- or we (an tr) and ma0e ourse"ves insensitive $e(ause we mi+ht Intuitive Awareness see it as a wea0ness& To $e too sensitive to some *eo*"e is a si+n o, wea0ness& 'e1re not *"a(in+ an) jud+ement on sensitivit)- $ut just noti(in+ that it1s "i0e this& see it as a wea0ness& To $e too sensitive to some *eo*"e is a si+n o, wea0ness& 'e1re not *"a(in+ an) jud+ement on sensitivit)- $ut just noti(in+ that it1s "i0e this& ^ the wa) it is ^ we ,ind that it "eads towards just re(o+nisin+ the im*ermanent nature o, our (ons(ious eB*erien(e- how thin+s rise and (ease- $e+in and end& This is I0nowin+ the wor"d1- not jud+in+ the wor"d a((ordin+ to some standard- $ut seein+ that the wor"d is "i0e this# it is sensitive& The wor"d is a$out $irth and death- a$out meetin+ and *artin+- (omin+ and +oin+- +ood and $ad- ri+ht and wron+- $eaut) and u+"iness- and a"" the various +radations o, eB*erien(e and Cua"ities that we are su$je(t to in this ,orm& Even thou+h this seems to $e an o$vious rea"it) when )ou re(o+nise it- how man) *eo*"e rea"") are aware o, the wor"d in terms o, eB*erien(eQ 'e inter*ret it usua"") in a *ersona" wa)& The ha$itua" *attern is to inter*ret it a"" in terms o, *ersona" "imitations- *ersona" ,ee"in+s or *ersona" ideas& In noti(in+ the wor"d as it is- we1re seein+ that it is not a *ersona" thin+& A *erson is a (reation o, the mind- to whi(h we are $ound i, we don1t awa0en& I, we just o*erate within the emotiona" (onditionin+ that we have- then we see it in terms o, DThis is ha**enin+ to me-E or DI am +ood- $ad &&&E It is ver) im*ortant to re(o+nise and to 0now that the wor"d is the wor"d& It1s a ver) stron+ eB*erien(e- ,or havin+ a human $od) is a (ontinuous eB*erien(e o, $ein+ irritated& /ontem*"ate what (ons(iousness is Intuitive Awareness in su(h a ,orm as a human $od) whi(h is made u* ,rom the ,our e"ements o, earth- water- ,ire and air& 2rom $irth to death- ,rom the time )ou are $orn- the moment )ou (r) when )ou1re out o, )our mother1s wom$- )ou start s(reamin+& Then the sensitivit)- im*in+ement and the irritations (ome throu+h this sensitive ,orm unti" it dies& I en(oura+e )ou to (ontem*"ate what $irth into this wor"d is- rather than to jud+e it a((ordin+ to an) idea"s or ideas that )ou mi+ht have& This is (a""ed the state o, awa0ened awareness& To Dwa0e u*E means to 0now the wor"d as it isA it1s not jud+in+ the wor"d& I, we have ideas a$out how the wor"d shou"d $e- then the wa) it is o,ten seen throu+h our (riti(a" mind is DIt shou"dn1t $e&&&E& 'hen )ou see how (ountries shou"d $e- +overnments shou"d $e- *arents- *artners or whatever- then we are (omin+ ,rom idea"s- usua"") Cuite hi+h standards o, DI, ever)thin+ were *er,e(t&&&E& But this rea"m1s *er,e(tion doesn1t "ie in ta0in+ (onditioned eB*erien(e to some 0ind o, *ea0 moment& 3ea0 moments are just thatA the)1re wonder,u" in their wa)- $ut the)1re not sustaina$"e& The ,"ow and movement o, our "i,e is around the I(han+in+ness1 o, the (onditioned rea"m that im*in+es on us- that we1re invo"ved in- that we1re immersed in- in this (ons(ious ,orm& in su(h a ,orm as a human $od) whi(h is made u* ,rom the ,our e"ements o, earth- water- ,ire and air& 2rom $irth to death- ,rom the time )ou are $orn- the moment )ou (r) when )ou1re out o, )our mother1s wom$- )ou start s(reamin+& Then the sensitivit)- im*in+ement and the irritations (ome throu+h this sensitive ,orm unti" it dies& I en(oura+e )ou to (ontem*"ate what $irth into this wor"d is- rather than to jud+e it a((ordin+ to an) idea"s or ideas that )ou mi+ht have& This is (a""ed the state o, awa0ened awareness& To Dwa0e u*E means to 0now the wor"d as it isA it1s not jud+in+ the wor"d& I, we have ideas a$out how the wor"d shou"d $e- then the wa) it is o,ten seen throu+h our (riti(a" mind is DIt shou"dn1t $e&&&E& 'hen )ou see how (ountries shou"d $e- +overnments shou"d $e- *arents- *artners or whatever- then we are (omin+ ,rom idea"s- usua"") Cuite hi+h standards o, DI, ever)thin+ were *er,e(t&&&E& But this rea"m1s *er,e(tion doesn1t "ie in ta0in+ (onditioned eB*erien(e to some 0ind o, *ea0 moment& 3ea0 moments are just thatA the)1re wonder,u" in their wa)- $ut the)1re not sustaina$"e& The ,"ow and movement o, our "i,e is around the I(han+in+ness1 o, the (onditioned rea"m that im*in+es on us- that we1re invo"ved in- that we1re immersed in- in this (ons(ious ,orm& ^ and as a resu"t o, this we eB*erien(e its $eaut)- its u+"iness- *"easure and *ain& But even *"easure is Intuitive Awareness irritatin+ when )ou thin0 a$out it& 'e "i0e *"easure- $ut havin+ a "ot o, *"easure is a"so ver) eBhaustin+ and irritatin+& This is not a (riti(ismA it1s just noti(in+ that havin+ a human $od) is "i0e thisA $reathin+ is "i0e thisA (ons(iousness is "i0e this& irritatin+ when )ou thin0 a$out it& 'e "i0e *"easure- $ut havin+ a "ot o, *"easure is a"so ver) eBhaustin+ and irritatin+& This is not a (riti(ismA it1s just noti(in+ that havin+ a human $od) is "i0e thisA $reathin+ is "i0e thisA (ons(iousness is "i0e this& Bein+ $orn as a human $ein+ is a rea" (ha""en+e in terms o, how to use this eB*erien(e o, $irth- human eB*erien(e- this sensitive state that we1re "ivin+ in& Some *eo*"e thin0 a$out (ommittin+ sui(ide# Djust +et it over withE ^ it1s just too hard to $ear- too mu(h to stand- a "i,etime o, this (ontinuous irritation and +ui"t- remorse and ,ear o, the un0nown& It (an $e so utter") de*ressin+ that we thin0 it1s $etter to 0i"" ourse"ves& Or- as the Buddha en(oura+ed us- we (an wa0e u* to it- "earn ,rom it- see it as an o**ortunit)- as a (ha""en+e- as somethin+ to "earn ,rom& 'e (an deve"o* wisdom in terms o, the (onditions and the eB*erien(es that we have in this "i,e ^ whi(h are not +uaranteed Intuitive Awareness a"wa)s to $e the $est& .an) o, us have had to eB*erien(e a"" 0inds o, ,rustrations- disa**ointments- disi""usionments and ,ai"ures& O, (ourse i, we ta0e that *ersona"")- we want to end it a"" ver) Cui(0")& But i, we *ut it in the (onteBt o, 0nowin+ the wor"d as the wor"d- we (an ta0e an)thin+& 'e have in(redi$"e a$i"ities to "earn ,rom even the most un,air and misera$"e- *ain,u" and nast) (onditions& These are not o$stru(tions to en"i+htenmentA this issue is whether we we use them to awa0en or not& a"wa)s to $e the $est& .an) o, us have had to eB*erien(e a"" 0inds o, ,rustrations- disa**ointments- disi""usionments and ,ai"ures& O, (ourse i, we ta0e that *ersona"")- we want to end it a"" ver) Cui(0")& But i, we *ut it in the (onteBt o, 0nowin+ the wor"d as the wor"d- we (an ta0e an)thin+& 'e have in(redi$"e a$i"ities to "earn ,rom even the most un,air and misera$"e- *ain,u" and nast) (onditions& These are not o$stru(tions to en"i+htenmentA this issue is whether we we use them to awa0en or not& Now the tea(hin+s o, the Lord Buddha are tea(hin+s *ointin+ to this& The)1re to awa0en )ou rather than to (ondition )ou& It1s not a matter o, tr)in+ to +ras* them as do(trina" *ositions to ta0e ho"d o,- $ut as eB*edient means to use to deve"o* and to en(oura+e awa0ened awareness- mind,u"ness- intuition& Rather than ,ear Intuitive Awareness sensitivit)- rea"") o*en to it# $e ,u"") sensitive rather than tr)in+ to *rote(t )ourse", end"ess") ,rom *ossi$"e *ain or mis,ortune& sensitivit)- rea"") o*en to it# $e ,u"") sensitive rather than tr)in+ to *rote(t )ourse", end"ess") ,rom *ossi$"e *ain or mis,ortune& ^ as i, it is $ad- that there1s somethin+ wron+ with it& That1s not 0nowin+ the wor"d as the wor"d& DKnowin+D is a matter o, stud)in+ and ta0in+ an interest- investi+atin+- eBaminin+ eB*erien(e- and rea"") $ein+ wi""in+ to "oo0 at and ,ee" the ne+ative side o, eB*erien(e& It1s not a$out see0in+ sensor) *"easures- *"easura$"e eB*erien(es- $ut a$out seein+ even )our most disa**ointin+ ones- )our worst ,ai"ures as o**ortunities to "earn- as a (han(e to awa0en# one (an sa) that the)1re devadWtas or Imessen+ers1 that ta* us on the shou"der and sa)- D'a0e u*OE That1s wh) in Buddhism a+ein+- si(0ness- disa$i"ities and "oss are not seen as thin+s to ,ear and des*ise- $ut as devadWtas or Iheaven") messen+ers1& This word devadWta is a 3R"i wordA dWta means a messen+er o, some sort- deva is Ian+e"i(1 or Iheaven")1A so the)1re heaven") messen+ers sent to warn us& A /hristian as0ed me on(e i, we had an+e"s in Buddhism& D'e have an+e"s in /hristianit)A a"" 0inds o, white and $eauti,u" $ein+s that *"a) har*sA the)1re ver) radiant- "i+ht $ein+s&E I re*"ied- D'e""- Buddhist an+e"s are not that wa)& The)1re o"d a+e- si(0ness and deathOE The ,ourth devadWta is the samaUa G(ontem*"ativeH- the human $ein+ who is havin+ the s*iritua" rea"isations& It a"wa)s interested me- $e(ause I thou+ht that it was Cuite amusin+ seein+ an o"d *erson as an an+e"- the Intuitive Awareness si(0- the menta"") si(0- (or*ses or mon0s and nuns as devadWtas& Loo0 at ea(h other as devadWtas- otherwise we $e(ome *ersona"ities- don1t weQ In "oo0in+ at the shaven heads and the sa,,ron ro$es- this is seein+ them in terms o, devadWtas rather than when )ou *ut it into terms o, mon0s and nuns- senior and junior and a"" thatA it +ets into *ersona"it) view Gsa00R)a!di]]hiH& Do we see ea(h other a(tua"") he"*in+ ea(h other to awa0en- or do we see ea(h other as a *ersonQ DThis mon0 is "i0e this- and that nun is "i0e that&E 'e (an either see it in a ver) wor"d") wa) or just (han+e the *ers*e(tive to seein+ others as devadWta& si(0- the menta"") si(0- (or*ses or mon0s and nuns as devadWtas& Loo0 at ea(h other as devadWtas- otherwise we $e(ome *ersona"ities- don1t weQ In "oo0in+ at the shaven heads and the sa,,ron ro$es- this is seein+ them in terms o, devadWtas rather than when )ou *ut it into terms o, mon0s and nuns- senior and junior and a"" thatA it +ets into *ersona"it) view Gsa00R)a!di]]hiH& Do we see ea(h other a(tua"") he"*in+ ea(h other to awa0en- or do we see ea(h other as a *ersonQ DThis mon0 is "i0e this- and that nun is "i0e that&E 'e (an either see it in a ver) wor"d") wa) or just (han+e the *ers*e(tive to seein+ others as devadWta& Noti(e in some o, the Buddhist meditationa" eBer(ises- the wa)s o, visua"isin+- o, usin+ )our mind to (reate Intuitive Awareness visions o, thin+s- to (ontem*"ate the thirt)!two *arts o, the $od)& I remem$er that when I was ,irst ,a(ed with this in Thai"and- I 0e*t wantin+ to thin0 o, the thirt)!two *arts o, the $od) as $ein+ *h)sio"o+i(a"") a((urate a((ordin+ to 'estern s(ien(e& /ontem*"atin+ m) own thirt)!two *arts- it was easier ,or me to ,ind a $oo0 on anatom) and "oo0 at a *i(ture& But to (ontem*"ate the rea"it) o, those or+ans and (onditions eBistin+ here and now in this ,orm that I (a"" m)se",- the thin+ I assume to $e me& It is a di,,erent use o, "earnin+- it reCuires us to ,"eB the mind a $it& visions o, thin+s- to (ontem*"ate the thirt)!two *arts o, the $od)& I remem$er that when I was ,irst ,a(ed with this in Thai"and- I 0e*t wantin+ to thin0 o, the thirt)!two *arts o, the $od) as $ein+ *h)sio"o+i(a"") a((urate a((ordin+ to 'estern s(ien(e& /ontem*"atin+ m) own thirt)!two *arts- it was easier ,or me to ,ind a $oo0 on anatom) and "oo0 at a *i(ture& But to (ontem*"ate the rea"it) o, those or+ans and (onditions eBistin+ here and now in this ,orm that I (a"" m)se",- the thin+ I assume to $e me& It is a di,,erent use o, "earnin+- it reCuires us to ,"eB the mind a $it& Intuitive Awareness it is ver) $ad tasteA it1s em$arrassin+& ou never see in an En+"ish home *eo*"e *uttin+ their ,ramed Universit) de+rees u* on the wa""s- do )ouQ The) wou"d $e too em$arrassed $e(ause it1s "i0e $oastin+& There is a sense o, modest) here in Britain whi(h is a"so Cuite "ove") in man) wa)s& But it (an $e ta0en to the eBtreme where )ou have no wa) o, a(0now"ed+in+ an) +oodness in )ourse", or to a**re(iate )our own su((esses- virtues and +ood Cua"ities& it is ver) $ad tasteA it1s em$arrassin+& ou never see in an En+"ish home *eo*"e *uttin+ their ,ramed Universit) de+rees u* on the wa""s- do )ouQ The) wou"d $e too em$arrassed $e(ause it1s "i0e $oastin+& There is a sense o, modest) here in Britain whi(h is a"so Cuite "ove") in man) wa)s& But it (an $e ta0en to the eBtreme where )ou have no wa) o, a(0now"ed+in+ an) +oodness in )ourse", or to a**re(iate )our own su((esses- virtues and +ood Cua"ities& Intuitive Awareness 3uttin+ it in terms o, *ersona" Cua"ities- it1s "earnin+ to $e honest- to admit to and ma0e a (ons(ious a**re(iation o, )our own humanit) and )our individua"it)& It he"*s to +ive )ou a (on,iden(e that )ou don1t have i, )ou1re too o$sessed- over!interested or too (ommitted to $ein+ (riti(a" and seein+ )ourse", throu+h ne+ative *er(e*tions& This is $ein+ a$"e to use our (riti(a" mind- our dis(riminative a$i"ities and our thou+hts not just to ana")se and (om*are one thin+ with another- $ut to eBamine and investi+ate in terms o, eB*erien(e& 'e awa0en to the $reath ^ DIt1s "i0e thisE ^ awa0en to the sensitive state that we1re in 3uttin+ it in terms o, *ersona" Cua"ities- it1s "earnin+ to $e honest- to admit to and ma0e a (ons(ious a**re(iation o, )our own humanit) and )our individua"it)& It he"*s to +ive )ou a (on,iden(e that )ou don1t have i, )ou1re too o$sessed- over!interested or too (ommitted to $ein+ (riti(a" and seein+ )ourse", throu+h ne+ative *er(e*tions& This is $ein+ a$"e to use our (riti(a" mind- our dis(riminative a$i"ities and our thou+hts not just to ana")se and (om*are one thin+ with another- $ut to eBamine and investi+ate in terms o, eB*erien(e& 'e awa0en to the $reath ^ DIt1s "i0e thisE ^ awa0en to the sensitive state that we1re in DIt1s "i0e thisE ^ awa0en to the irritations that we eB*erien(e as (onditions that (onta(t and irritate our senses- to our own o$sessions and emotiona" ha$its- whatever the) mi+ht $e- *uttin+ them in *ers*e(tive rather than seein+ them as somethin+ to +et rid o,& It1s somethin+ to awa0en to- a (han+e ,rom *ushin+ awa)- resistin+ and den)in+- towards awa0enin+- a((e*tin+ and we"(omin+& In the 2irst No$"e Truth- the Buddha *ro("aimed that there is du00ha Gsu,,erin+H& It is *ut into the (onteBt o, a INo$"e Truth1 rather than a disma" rea"it)& I, we "oo0 at it as a disma" rea"it)- what ha**ensQ DLi,e is just su,,erin+- it1s a"" just su,,erin+& ou +et o"dA )ou +et si(0 and then die& ou have to "ose a"" )our ,riends& IA"" that is mine- $e"oved and *"easin+- wi"" $e(ome otherwise- wi"" $e(ome se*arated ,rom me&1 That1s a"" it1s a$outA it1s just du00ha ,rom $e+innin+ to endE& There1s nothin+ no$"e in that- is thereQ It1s just *essimisti( and de*ressin+ seein+ it in terms o, DI don1t "i0e it& I don1t want su,,erin+& 'hat a $ad jo0e- Intuitive Awareness what a "ous) jo0e 4od *"a)ed on us (reatin+ this mess- and me $ein+ $orn in this mess- to "ive just to +et o"d& 'hat am I "ivin+ ,orQ Nust to +et o"d- +et si(0 and dieE& O, (ourse- that1s ver) de*ressin+& That1s not a No$"e Truth& ou1re (reatin+ a *ro$"em around the wa) thin+s are& 'ith a No$"e Truth Dthere is su,,erin+&E And the advi(e- the *res(ri*tion to dea" with this su,,erin+- is to we"(ome it- to understand it- to o*en to it- to admit it- to $e+in to noti(e and a((e*t it& This +ives rise to the wi""in+ness to em$ra(e and "earn ,rom that whi(h we don1t "i0e and don1t want# the *ain- the ,rustration and the irritation- whether it1s *h)si(a"- menta" or emotiona"& what a "ous) jo0e 4od *"a)ed on us (reatin+ this mess- and me $ein+ $orn in this mess- to "ive just to +et o"d& 'hat am I "ivin+ ,orQ Nust to +et o"d- +et si(0 and dieE& O, (ourse- that1s ver) de*ressin+& That1s not a No$"e Truth& ou1re (reatin+ a *ro$"em around the wa) thin+s are& 'ith a No$"e Truth Dthere is su,,erin+&E And the advi(e- the *res(ri*tion to dea" with this su,,erin+- is to we"(ome it- to understand it- to o*en to it- to admit it- to $e+in to noti(e and a((e*t it& This +ives rise to the wi""in+ness to em$ra(e and "earn ,rom that whi(h we don1t "i0e and don1t want# the *ain- the ,rustration and the irritation- whether it1s *h)si(a"- menta" or emotiona"& Intuitive Awareness )ourse", and )ou thin0- D'h) does 4od a""ow thisQ 'h) did He (reate a rea"m where there is so mu(h *ainQ I, I were 4od and I (reated the wor"d- I wou"dn1t have (reated *ain&E .) mother (ou"d never answer that Cuestion ver) we""- $e(ause the *ain is somethin+ that shou"dn1t $e- there1s somethin+ wron+& Or is *ain a No$"e TruthQ Is o"d a+e a No$"e TruthQ Is "oss- se*aration and a"" these eB*erien(es that we a"" have to have in this ,orm- in this human rea"mQ Seein+ it in terms o, (om*"ainin+ and $"amin+- or in terms o, a No$"e Truth ^ this is what I1m *ointin+ to& )ourse", and )ou thin0- D'h) does 4od a""ow thisQ 'h) did He (reate a rea"m where there is so mu(h *ainQ I, I were 4od and I (reated the wor"d- I wou"dn1t have (reated *ain&E .) mother (ou"d never answer that Cuestion ver) we""- $e(ause the *ain is somethin+ that shou"dn1t $e- there1s somethin+ wron+& Or is *ain a No$"e TruthQ Is o"d a+e a No$"e TruthQ Is "oss- se*aration and a"" these eB*erien(es that we a"" have to have in this ,orm- in this human rea"mQ Seein+ it in terms o, (om*"ainin+ and $"amin+- or in terms o, a No$"e Truth ^ this is what I1m *ointin+ to& I, I de*ended on m) *ersona"it)- I (ou"dn1t do an)thin+& I1d never ho*e to +et en"i+htened $e(ause m) *ersona"it) (an1t *ossi$") (on(eive o, m)se", as a *erson that (ou"d $e en"i+htened& .) *ersona"it) is (onditioned to thin0 o, m)se", in terms o, what1s wron+ Intuitive Awareness with me- (omin+ ,rom a (om*etitive so(iet) where )ou are ver) mu(h aware o, who1s $etter and who1s worse- who1s a$ove and who1s $e"ow& So I (an1t trust that& .) *ersona" ha$its are (onditioned thin+s- so the)1re not ,"eBi$"e in themse"ves& I, )ou just atta(h to or inter*ret eB*erien(e throu+h those *er(e*tions and never "earn to "oo0 at thin+s in an) other wa)- then )ou are stu(0 with a "imited view and that (an $e a ver) de*ressin+ wa) to "ive )our "i,e& with me- (omin+ ,rom a (om*etitive so(iet) where )ou are ver) mu(h aware o, who1s $etter and who1s worse- who1s a$ove and who1s $e"ow& So I (an1t trust that& .) *ersona" ha$its are (onditioned thin+s- so the)1re not ,"eBi$"e in themse"ves& I, )ou just atta(h to or inter*ret eB*erien(e throu+h those *er(e*tions and never "earn to "oo0 at thin+s in an) other wa)- then )ou are stu(0 with a "imited view and that (an $e a ver) de*ressin+ wa) to "ive )our "i,e& 'e (an "oo0 at thin+s in di,,erent wa)s& 'e don1t have to "oo0 at somethin+ a"wa)s ,rom the (onditionin+ that we have a(Cuired& So when the Buddha ta"0s a$out the Buddha!mind- it1s ver) ,"eBi$"e and ma""ea$"eA it1s universa"& 'e (an see thin+s in so man) di,,erent wa)s& The mind has a radiant Cua"it) to it& /ons(iousness has a radian(eA it has a "i+ht itse",& So when we $e+in to "et +o o, a"wa)s "imitin+ ourse"ves throu+h the distortions o, our (onditioned menta" states- then we $e+in to understand- see thin+s as the) rea"") are- 0now the Dhamma ^ en"i+htenment& This is not Intuitive Awareness somethin+ distant- remote and im*ossi$"e ^ un"ess )ou want to ho"d to those views ,rom a *ersona" attitude a$out them& ou (an $e ho"din+ these *er(e*tions so hi+h that it1s wa) $e)ond )our *ersona" a$i"it) to a(hieve them& This then is $e(ause )ou haven1t awa0ened to what )ou1re doin+& ou1re mere") o*eratin+ ,rom a (onditioned view o, ever)thin+& somethin+ distant- remote and im*ossi$"e ^ un"ess )ou want to ho"d to those views ,rom a *ersona" attitude a$out them& ou (an $e ho"din+ these *er(e*tions so hi+h that it1s wa) $e)ond )our *ersona" a$i"it) to a(hieve them& This then is $e(ause )ou haven1t awa0ened to what )ou1re doin+& ou1re mere") o*eratin+ ,rom a (onditioned view o, ever)thin+& DSo I sa) Iwe"(omin+1 now $e(ause I ,ound the rea" trans"ation ,or this- and an)one who +oes $a(0 to usin+ Iunderstand1 is somehow not ri+ht& .) view- m) *arti(u"ar trans"ation is&&&E Then that is +ettin+ into another ri+id- arro+ant a**roa(h& I1m not interested in *rovin+ that I1m ri+ht- that m) trans"ations are the $est- $ut just seein+ how the) wor0- what the e,,e(t is in the here!and!now& I am sharin+ this with )ou as a wa) o, en(oura+in+ )ou to have that ri+ht and that ,reedom Intuitive Awareness to 0now )ourse",& ou don1t a"wa)s have to tr) and ,it )ourse", into the views and o*inions even o, our tradition with its orthodoB ,orms or de,initions- whi(h are our *arti(u"ar +rou*1s wa) o, "oo0in+ at thin+s& to 0now )ourse",& ou don1t a"wa)s have to tr) and ,it )ourse", into the views and o*inions even o, our tradition with its orthodoB ,orms or de,initions- whi(h are our *arti(u"ar +rou*1s wa) o, "oo0in+ at thin+s& 'e (an +o around tr)in+ to ma0e *eo*"e ma0e us ,ee" +ood& Te"" me the +ood thin+s- $e(ause that ma0es me ,ee" +ood& Don1t te"" me the $ad stu,,- $e(ause that ma0es me ,ee" $ad& I don1t want to ,ee" $ad& I don1t want su,,erin+A I don1t we"(ome it- I want to +et rid o, it& There,ore- I1m +oin+ to tr) and "ive m) "i,e so that I (an +et as mu(h o, the +ood stu,, as I (an and *ush awa) Intuitive Awareness the $ad stu,,& But in this new trans"ation o, DThere1s su,,erin+ and su,,erin+ shou"d $e we"(omed-E it (han+es- doesn1t itQ ou see the su,,erin+ ^ )our own- or others1 *ro$"ems- di,,i(u"ties and so ,orth ^ as thin+s to we"(ome rather than as thin+s to run awa) ,rom or to *ush awa)& the $ad stu,,& But in this new trans"ation o, DThere1s su,,erin+ and su,,erin+ shou"d $e we"(omed-E it (han+es- doesn1t itQ ou see the su,,erin+ ^ )our own- or others1 *ro$"ems- di,,i(u"ties and so ,orth ^ as thin+s to we"(ome rather than as thin+s to run awa) ,rom or to *ush awa)& Intuitive Awareness $ear thisE- then the wor"d is "i0e that& I have to immediate") turn around a+ain and "oo0 at the shrine& I,- on the other hand- when I1m "oo0in+ at the shrine- I $e+in to a""ow the awareness to ta0e me to non! +ras*in+- to the rea"it) o, non!atta(hment& I, I rea"") 0now this- rather than mere") de*end on the "a(0 o, stimu"ation ,or it- then rather than havin+ to turn awa) ,rom the (ommunit) in order to +et it- I (an turn toward the (ommunit)& It1s not de*endent on ,a(in+ the shrine& In this wa) we1re $e+innin+ to awa0en to rea"it) rather than toward a (onditioned eB*erien(e that we $e(ome ver) de*endent u*on& $ear thisE- then the wor"d is "i0e that& I have to immediate") turn around a+ain and "oo0 at the shrine& I,- on the other hand- when I1m "oo0in+ at the shrine- I $e+in to a""ow the awareness to ta0e me to non! +ras*in+- to the rea"it) o, non!atta(hment& I, I rea"") 0now this- rather than mere") de*end on the "a(0 o, stimu"ation ,or it- then rather than havin+ to turn awa) ,rom the (ommunit) in order to +et it- I (an turn toward the (ommunit)& It1s not de*endent on ,a(in+ the shrine& In this wa) we1re $e+innin+ to awa0en to rea"it) rather than toward a (onditioned eB*erien(e that we $e(ome ver) de*endent u*on& ma++a- sotR*anna!*ha"a- sa0adR+Rmi!ma++a- sa0adR+Rmi!*ha"a- anR+Rmi!ma++a- anR+Rmi!*ha"a- arahatta!ma++a- arahattR!*ha"a`Q 'hi(h one are )ouQ How (an I ta0e re,u+e in ,our *airs and ei+ht 0inds o, no$"e $ein+sQ It1s ver) a$stra(t& These sa+es- idea" $ein+s somewhere ^ ma)$eQ Or are the) hereQ This mon0- or that nunQ 'hat1s the re,u+e in San+ha thenQ Do we want to ma0e it a$stra(tQ Is it u* to me to de(ide who1s a sotR*anna- sa0adR+Rmi and so ,orth- to ,i+ure out who I (an ta0e re,u+e withQ `These are the 8 0inds o, no$"e $ein+s# one rea"isin+ the *ath o, stream!entr)- one rea"isin+ the ,ruition o, stream!entr)A one rea"isin+ the *ath o, on(e!return- one rea"isin+ the ,ruition o, on(e!returnA one rea"isin+ the *ath o, non!return- one rea"isin+ the ,ruition o, non!returnA one rea"isin+ the *ath o, arahantshi*- one rea"isin+ the ,ruition o, arahantshi*& Intuitive Awareness Then it1s just a matter o, m) e+o a+ain& Here I am ^ this *erson- tr)in+ to de(ide what some$od) e"se is& Then it1s just a matter o, m) e+o a+ain& Here I am ^ this *erson- tr)in+ to de(ide what some$od) e"se is& Intuitive Awareness Intuitive Awareness 8> The Sound o, Si"en(e Some$od) re,erred to the sound o, si"en(e as a (osmi( hum- a s(inti""atin+ a"most e"e(tri( $a(0+round sound& Even thou+h it1s +oin+ on a"" the time we don1t +enera"") noti(e it- $ut when )our mind is o*en and re"aBed )ou $e+in to hear it& I ,ound this a ver) use,u" re,eren(e $e(ause in order to hear it- to noti(e it- )ou have to $e in a re"aBed state o, awareness& 3eo*"e tr) to ,ind this on a des(ri*tiona" "eve"& The) +o on a ten da) retreat tr)in+ to ,ind the sound o, si"en(e and then the) sa) D I (an1t hear it- what1s wron+ with meQE The) are tr)in+ to ,ind some thin+& But it1s not some thin+ )ou have to ,ind ^ rather )ou just o*en to it# it1s the a$i"it) to "isten- with )our mind in a re(e*tive state- whi(h ma0es it *ossi$"e to hear the sound o, si"en(e& ou1re not tr)in+ to so"ve an) *ro$"ems $ut just "istenin+& ou1re *uttin+ )our mind into a state o, re(e*tive awareness& It1s awareness that is wi""in+ to re(eive whatever is- and one o, the thin+s )ou $e+in to re(o+nise in that- is the sound o, si"en(e& Some *eo*"e $e(ome averse to the sound o, si"en(e& One woman started hearin+ it and she wanted it to sto*- so she resisted it& She said- DI used to have *ea(e,u" meditations& Now a"" I hear is that $"asted sound and I1m tr)in+ to sto* it& Be,ore I never heard it- now I sit down and immediate") I hear ____&E She was Intuitive Awareness (reatin+ aversion toward the wa) it is# DI don1t want thatE& She was (reatin+ su,,erin+ around the sound o, si"en(e& Rather than (reatin+ su,,erin+- the sound o, si"en(e (an he"* to ,o(us the mind- $e(ause when aware o, it- the mind is in a ver) eB*anded state& This state o, mind is one whi(h we"(omes whatever arises in (ons(iousnessA it1s not a state where )our are eB("udin+ an)thin+& The sound o, si"en(e is "i0e in,inite s*a(e $e(ause it in("udes a"" other sounds- ever)thin+- it +ives a sense o, eB*ansion- un"imitedness- in,init)& Other sounds (ome and +o- (han+e and move a((ordin+") $ut it is "i0e a (ontinuum- a stream& (reatin+ aversion toward the wa) it is# DI don1t want thatE& She was (reatin+ su,,erin+ around the sound o, si"en(e& Rather than (reatin+ su,,erin+- the sound o, si"en(e (an he"* to ,o(us the mind- $e(ause when aware o, it- the mind is in a ver) eB*anded state& This state o, mind is one whi(h we"(omes whatever arises in (ons(iousnessA it1s not a state where )our are eB("udin+ an)thin+& The sound o, si"en(e is "i0e in,inite s*a(e $e(ause it in("udes a"" other sounds- ever)thin+- it +ives a sense o, eB*ansion- un"imitedness- in,init)& Other sounds (ome and +o- (han+e and move a((ordin+") $ut it is "i0e a (ontinuum- a stream& I noti(ed the sound o, the water,a"" and the stream& The sound o, si"en(e was in the $a(0+round as we""& In ,a(t the sound o, si"en(e $e(ame the stron+er and more o$vious sound $ut it did not o$"iterate the sound o, the stream- the) wor0ed to+ether& The sound o, the stream did not o$"iterate or (over u* the sound o, si"en(e& Intuitive Awareness So it1s "i0e a radar& The mind is in a ver) wide- eB*ansive state o, awareness# in("udin+ o*en to and re(e*tive- rather than shut o,,- ("osed and (ontro""ed& So noti(e this and (ontem*"ate this eB*erien(e and then just (on(entrate )our attention on the sound o, si"en(e& I, )ou thin0 a$out it- thin0 o, it in terms o, $ein+ "i0e a $"essin+- +ra(e- or a "ove") 0ind o, ,ee"in+- o, $ein+ o*ened- rather than as a $u__ in the ear- in whi(h (ase )ou thin0 that its tinnitus or some diseases& I, )ou start (ontem*"atin+ it as the sound o, an+e"s- a (osmi( or *rimordia" sound- $"essin+ ever) moment as we o*en to it- we then ,ee" this sense o, $ein+ $"essed& So re,"e(tin+ in this wa)- in a *ositive wa) toward it- he"*s us to ta0e an interest in it and +et a +ood ,ee"in+ ,rom it& So it1s "i0e a radar& The mind is in a ver) wide- eB*ansive state o, awareness# in("udin+ o*en to and re(e*tive- rather than shut o,,- ("osed and (ontro""ed& So noti(e this and (ontem*"ate this eB*erien(e and then just (on(entrate )our attention on the sound o, si"en(e& I, )ou thin0 a$out it- thin0 o, it in terms o, $ein+ "i0e a $"essin+- +ra(e- or a "ove") 0ind o, ,ee"in+- o, $ein+ o*ened- rather than as a $u__ in the ear- in whi(h (ase )ou thin0 that its tinnitus or some diseases& I, )ou start (ontem*"atin+ it as the sound o, an+e"s- a (osmi( or *rimordia" sound- $"essin+ ever) moment as we o*en to it- we then ,ee" this sense o, $ein+ $"essed& So re,"e(tin+ in this wa)- in a *ositive wa) toward it- he"*s us to ta0e an interest in it and +et a +ood ,ee"in+ ,rom it& Re"aB into the sound- don1t tr) to ,or(e attention onto it& Nust have a sense o, re"aBin+ and restin+- *ea(e,u"ness& Tr) (ountin+ to sa)- ten to sustain "istenin+ to the sound o, si"en(e& Ione- two- three &&& nine-ten&1 The mind is not used to restin+ in that wa)- it1s used to thin0in+ and to rest"ess menta" a(tivities& It ta0es a whi"e to (a"m- to re"aB and to rest in this si"en(e o, the mind& Intuitive Awareness In the si"en(e- )ou (an a"so $e aware o, an) emotions that arise& It1s not an annihi"atin+ em*tiness- it1s not a steri"e nothin+ness- it1s ,u"" and em$ra(in+& ou (an $e aware o, the movements o, emotions- dou$ts- memories or ,ee"in+s that start to $e(ome (ons(ious& It em$ra(es them- it1s not jud+in+ them- resistin+ or even $ein+ ,as(inated with them& It1s just re(o+ni_in+ and rea"i_in+ the wa) it is& In the si"en(e- )ou (an a"so $e aware o, an) emotions that arise& It1s not an annihi"atin+ em*tiness- it1s not a steri"e nothin+ness- it1s ,u"" and em$ra(in+& ou (an $e aware o, the movements o, emotions- dou$ts- memories or ,ee"in+s that start to $e(ome (ons(ious& It em$ra(es them- it1s not jud+in+ them- resistin+ or even $ein+ ,as(inated with them& It1s just re(o+ni_in+ and rea"i_in+ the wa) it is& Then )ou start to rea"i_e that it1s ever)where and not just in the ears& That *er(e*tion o, the sound o, si"en(e $ein+ heard in the ears is the same mis*er(e*tion as thin0in+ that the mind is in the $rain& ou1re (han+in+ ,rom that ver) (onditioned wa) o, eB*erien(in+ "i,e- whi(h arises throu+h this sense o, se", and the (u"tura"") (onditioned attitudes we ho"d- to a mu(h wider understandin+ o, the wa) it is& It1s "i0e the *er(e*tion o, the mind as $ein+ in the $od)& Throu+h intuitive awareness we (an see that the $od) is in the mind& Ri+ht now )ou are in m) mindA a"" o, )ou in this ha""- )ou1re in the mind& On the (onventiona" "eve"- ,or ea(h one o, us our mind is in our head ^ )ou1re sittin+ over there with a mind in )our head ^ Intuitive Awareness a"" these di,,erent heads with minds in them& But then in terms o, mind- I1m sittin+ here on the hi+h seat- I (an see )ou with m) e)es- and )ou1re in the mind- )ou1re not in m) head& I (an1t sa) )ou1re a"" in m) $rain& The mind has no "imit to it& a"" these di,,erent heads with minds in them& But then in terms o, mind- I1m sittin+ here on the hi+h seat- I (an see )ou with m) e)es- and )ou1re in the mind- )ou1re not in m) head& I (an1t sa) )ou1re a"" in m) $rain& The mind has no "imit to it& The sound o, si"en(e isn1t mine- nor is it in m) head- $ut this ,orm is a$"e to re(o+ni_e it and 0now thin+s as the) are& This 0nowin+ is not a (u"tura" 0nowin+- it1s not "i0e inter*retin+ ever)thin+ ,rom m) (u"tura" (onditionin+A it1s seein+ thin+s as the) are- in a dire(t wa)- whi(h is not de*endent on (u"tura" attitudes& So we rea"") $e+in to understand anattR Gnot!se",H- whi(h ena$"es us to see that we are a"" (onne(ted- we are one& 'e are not- as we a**ear to $e- a (o""e(tion o, tota"") se*arate entitiesA i, )ou start (ontem*"atin+ "i0e this- )ou $e+in to eB*and )our awareness to in("ude rather than to de,ine& So in terms o, meditation- we are esta$"ishin+ awareness in the *resent- (o""e(tin+- re(o""e(tin+- (ontem*"atin+ one!*ointedness in the *resent ^ the Intuitive Awareness $od)- the $reath- the sound o, si"en(e& Then we (an $rin+ to this an attitude o, mettR G"ovin+!0indnessH- whi(h is a wa) o, re"atin+ to and re(o+ni_in+ (onditioned *henomena without jud+in+ them& 'ithout this attitude we tend to ma0e va"ue! jud+ements a$out what we eB*erien(e on a *ersona" "eve"& One *erson is ,ee"in+ *ea(e- another *erson is ,ee"in+ rest"ess- another *erson is ,ee"in+ ins*ired- another *erson is ,ee"in+ $ored- another *erson hi+h- another "owA or )ou1re havin+ +ood or $ad thou+hts- stu*id or use,u" thou+hts- whi(h are jud+ments a$out the Cua"it) o, the eB*erien(e that ea(h one o, us is havin+& In terms o, 0nowin+- we are 0nowin+ that thou+ht is a (onditioned arisin+ and (easin+& Even $ad thou+hts or horri$"e thou+hts arise and (ease- just "i0e +ood thou+hts& It1s not a matter o, *assin+ jud+ement a$out how $ad )ou are $e(ause )ou are havin+ $ad thou+hts- it1s a$out the a$i"it) to re(o+nise thou+ht- and to see that the nature o, thou+ht is im*ermanent- (han+in+- not!se",& So now just use this (osmi( hum- this +ent"e stream o, ,"owin+ s(inti""atin+ sound& Nust +et ,ami"iar with it& $od)- the $reath- the sound o, si"en(e& Then we (an $rin+ to this an attitude o, mettR G"ovin+!0indnessH- whi(h is a wa) o, re"atin+ to and re(o+ni_in+ (onditioned *henomena without jud+in+ them& 'ithout this attitude we tend to ma0e va"ue! jud+ements a$out what we eB*erien(e on a *ersona" "eve"& One *erson is ,ee"in+ *ea(e- another *erson is ,ee"in+ rest"ess- another *erson is ,ee"in+ ins*ired- another *erson is ,ee"in+ $ored- another *erson hi+h- another "owA or )ou1re havin+ +ood or $ad thou+hts- stu*id or use,u" thou+hts- whi(h are jud+ments a$out the Cua"it) o, the eB*erien(e that ea(h one o, us is havin+& In terms o, 0nowin+- we are 0nowin+ that thou+ht is a (onditioned arisin+ and (easin+& Even $ad thou+hts or horri$"e thou+hts arise and (ease- just "i0e +ood thou+hts& It1s not a matter o, *assin+ jud+ement a$out how $ad )ou are $e(ause )ou are havin+ $ad thou+hts- it1s a$out the a$i"it) to re(o+nise thou+ht- and to see that the nature o, thou+ht is im*ermanent- (han+in+- not!se",& So now just use this (osmi( hum- this +ent"e stream o, ,"owin+ s(inti""atin+ sound& Nust +et ,ami"iar with it& Intuitive Awareness u*& I "i0e that word I,ed!u*1- )ou (an sa) it with su(h (onvi(tion& u*& I "i0e that word I,ed!u*1- )ou (an sa) it with su(h (onvi(tion& 'ith the sound o, si"en(e- )ou $e+in to hear it wherever )ou are ^ in the midd"e o, London- in a tra,,i( jam in Ban+0o0- in a heated ar+ument with some$od)- when the (hainsaw is +oin+- when the *neumati( dri""- the "awn mower and the (hain saw are +oin+ at the same time- even when there is musi(O So "earnin+ to dete(t it and tunin+ into it is "i0e a (ha""en+e& Sometimes *eo*"e sa)# DI (an1t hear itA there1s too mu(h noise&E I, )ou are resistin+ the noise )ou (an1t hear the sound o, si"en(e- $ut i, )ou o*en to it then )ou $e+in to hear the +ent"e s(inti""atin+ hum- even with the *neumati( dri"" $"astin+ awa)& Intuitive Awareness Listenin+ to the sound o, si"en(e a""ows us to inte+rate mind,u"nessMmeditation into movement- wor0- $usiness& I, )ou are in the 0it(hen washin+ dishes- wa"0in+ ,rom here $a(0 to )our room or drivin+ a (ar- )ou are a$"e to "isten to the sound o, si"en(e at the same time& It does not ma0e )ou heed"ess& It a""ows )ou to $e ,u"") with what )ou are doin+& It is not a distra(tin+ thin+ that ma0es )ou heed"ess when )ou are washin+ the dishes- it in(reases )our mind,u"ness& It he"*s )ou to wash the dishes ,u"") and rea"") $e with the washin+ o, the dishes- rather than just washin+ the dishes and $ein+ with a"" 0inds o, other thin+s& 'hen )ou1re wa"0in+ ,rom here $a(0 to )our room- )ou (ou"d $e thin0in+ a$out ever)thin+ e"se- $ut usin+ the sound o, si"en(e he"*s )ou to $e with wa"0in+- $ein+ mind,u" and with the ver) a(tion that1s ha**enin+ in the *resent& Listenin+ to the sound o, si"en(e a""ows us to inte+rate mind,u"nessMmeditation into movement- wor0- $usiness& I, )ou are in the 0it(hen washin+ dishes- wa"0in+ ,rom here $a(0 to )our room or drivin+ a (ar- )ou are a$"e to "isten to the sound o, si"en(e at the same time& It does not ma0e )ou heed"ess& It a""ows )ou to $e ,u"") with what )ou are doin+& It is not a distra(tin+ thin+ that ma0es )ou heed"ess when )ou are washin+ the dishes- it in(reases )our mind,u"ness& It he"*s )ou to wash the dishes ,u"") and rea"") $e with the washin+ o, the dishes- rather than just washin+ the dishes and $ein+ with a"" 0inds o, other thin+s& 'hen )ou1re wa"0in+ ,rom here $a(0 to )our room- )ou (ou"d $e thin0in+ a$out ever)thin+ e"se- $ut usin+ the sound o, si"en(e he"*s )ou to $e with wa"0in+- $ein+ mind,u" and with the ver) a(tion that1s ha**enin+ in the *resent& s*"ittin+& I thou+ht Dsomethin+1s +oin+ wron+&E Then it (han+ed and I tried to +et it "oud a+ain and (ou"dn1t& It1s not somethin+ that is dan+erous& It de*ends how )ou "oo0 at it- I, )ou resist it or are ne+ative to it- )ou1re (reatin+ that ne+ativit) towards it& I, )ou re"aB and o*en- then )ou ,ee" this +ent") s(inti""atin+ $a(0+round sound that is *ea(e,u"- (a"min+ and rest,u"& ou $e+in to re(o+nise em*tiness ^ it1s not some va+ue idea that i, )ou *ra(tise meditation )ou mi+ht eB*erien(e em*tiness some da)& It1s not a va+ue 0ind o, thin+- its ver) dire(t& Intuitive Awareness Then in that em*tiness (ontem*"ate what Ise",1 is& 'hen )ou $e(ome a *ersona"it) what ha**ensQ ou start thin0in+- +ras*in+ )our ,ee"in+s- then )ou $e(ome a mon0 or nun- man or woman- a *ersona"it)- 3is(es- Aries- an Asian or a Euro*ean- an Ameri(an- o"d man- )oun+ woman- or whatever& It1s throu+h thin0in+- +ras*in+ at the 0handhas- that we start +ettin+ wound u* into that- and then we $e(ome somethin+& But in this em*tiness there is no nationa"it)& It1s a *ure inte""i+en(e- it does not $e"on+ to an)$od) or an) +rou*& So then )ou start re(o+nisin+ when )ou1ve $e(ome some$od) and no$od)- when there is attR and anattR& Then in that em*tiness (ontem*"ate what Ise",1 is& 'hen )ou $e(ome a *ersona"it) what ha**ensQ ou start thin0in+- +ras*in+ )our ,ee"in+s- then )ou $e(ome a mon0 or nun- man or woman- a *ersona"it)- 3is(es- Aries- an Asian or a Euro*ean- an Ameri(an- o"d man- )oun+ woman- or whatever& It1s throu+h thin0in+- +ras*in+ at the 0handhas- that we start +ettin+ wound u* into that- and then we $e(ome somethin+& But in this em*tiness there is no nationa"it)& It1s a *ure inte""i+en(e- it does not $e"on+ to an)$od) or an) +rou*& So then )ou start re(o+nisin+ when )ou1ve $e(ome some$od) and no$od)- when there is attR and anattR& Nust $) eB*"orin+ this )ou rea"") +et to understand what attR Gse",H is- how )ou $e(ome a *ersona"it) and a"so to see that when there is no *erson there is sti"" awareness& It1s an inte""i+ent awarenessA it1s not an Intuitive Awareness un(ons(ious du"" stu*idit)- it1s a $ri+ht- ("ear- inte""i+ent em*tiness& 'hen )ou $e(ome a *ersona"it) throu+h havin+ thou+hts "i0e# ,ee"in+ sorr) ,or )ourse",- views and o*inions- se",!(riti(ism and so ,orth- and then it sto*s ^ there is the si"en(e& But sti"" the si"en(e is $ri+ht and ("ear- inte""i+ent& I *re,er this si"en(e rather than this end"ess *ro"i,eratin+ natterin+ that +oes on in the mind& un(ons(ious du"" stu*idit)- it1s a $ri+ht- ("ear- inte""i+ent em*tiness& 'hen )ou $e(ome a *ersona"it) throu+h havin+ thou+hts "i0e# ,ee"in+ sorr) ,or )ourse",- views and o*inions- se",!(riti(ism and so ,orth- and then it sto*s ^ there is the si"en(e& But sti"" the si"en(e is $ri+ht and ("ear- inte""i+ent& I *re,er this si"en(e rather than this end"ess *ro"i,eratin+ natterin+ that +oes on in the mind& That1s a wa) o, $rea0in+ a "ot o, these emotiona" ha$its we have that *"a+ue us and o$sess our minds& ou (an a(tua"") train )our mind- not throu+h reje(tion or denia" $ut throu+h understandin+ and (u"tivatin+ this si"en(e& So don1t use this si"en(e as awa) o, Intuitive Awareness annihi"atin+ or +ettin+ rid o, what is arisin+ in eB*erien(e- $ut as a wa) o, reso"vin+ and "i$eratin+ )our mind ,rom the o$sessive thou+hts and ne+ative attitudes that (an end"ess") *"a+ue (ons(ious eB*erien(e& annihi"atin+ or +ettin+ rid o, what is arisin+ in eB*erien(e- $ut as a wa) o, reso"vin+ and "i$eratin+ )our mind ,rom the o$sessive thou+hts and ne+ative attitudes that (an end"ess") *"a+ue (ons(ious eB*erien(e& The End o, Su,,erin+ is Now On a (onventiona" "eve" we easi") (on(eive the (onditions whi(h we atta(h to& 'ith sati!*aSSR and sati!sam*ajaSSa we $e+in to awa0en ourse"ves to the wa) it is- rather than $ein+ (ommitted to the (onventiona" rea"ities# just to em*hasise the awareness $e,ore )ou $e(ome somethin+& I1m tr)in+ to +et this *oint a(ross- so I thin0 it needs to $e re*eated man) times- $e(ause even thou+h it "oo0s ver) sim*"e- the mind!set is de,inite") +eared to $e"ieve in the *ersona"it) view as our rea"it)& .ost o, )ou are ver) (ommitted to )ourse"ves as *ersona"ities and the rea"it) o, )ourse", as a *erson is ver) mu(h in+rained& The term sa00R)a!di]]hi (an $e trans"ated as I*ersona"it)!view1 or Ithe e+o1& It means that the *er(e*tions that we ho"d in re+ard to our identit) with the ,ive 0handhas G+rou*sHA the $od)- the ,ee"in+s- the *er(e*tions- the (on(e*tions and (ons(iousness- as $e"on+in+ to this *erson& In investi+atin+ this we are not +ras*in+ the *er(e*tion o, Ino *erson1 either& 'e (an ta0e the (on(e*t o, anattR and +ras* that- and sa)- DThere1s no se", $e(ause the Buddha said there1s anattROE $ut then we1re a"so +ras*in+ a *er(e*tion& 4ras*in+ a *er(e*tion o, )ourse", as a non!se",- +ets to $e a $it ridi(u"ousO 4ras*in+ *er(e*tions is not the Intuitive Awareness wa)& I, )ou +ras* whatever (onditions )ou (reate- )ou1"" end u* in the same *"a(e- su,,erin+- as the resu"t& Don1t $e"ieve me either- this is ,or )ou to eB*"ore& wa)& I, )ou +ras* whatever (onditions )ou (reate- )ou1"" end u* in the same *"a(e- su,,erin+- as the resu"t& Don1t $e"ieve me either- this is ,or )ou to eB*"ore& 'hen )ou are (au+ht in the wanderin+ mind- )ou "ose )ourse",A )ou just +o ,rom one thou+ht to another& One thou+ht (onne(ts to another and )ou just +et (arried awa)& But de"i$erate thin0in+ is not "i0e wanderin+ Intuitive Awareness thin0in+- is itQ It1s intentiona"- ,or )ou are (hoosin+ whatever )ou are +oin+ to thin0& The im*ortant thin+ is not the thou+ht- or even the Cua"it) o, the thou+ht- whether it1s stu*id or inte""i+ent- ri+ht or wron+- it1s the attention- the a$i"it) to "isten to the thin0in+ that )ou are de"i$erate") doin+& Bein+ aware o, thin0in+ in this wa)- what ha**ens to me Gand I assume wi"" ha**en a"so to )ou ^ I don1t 0now- ma)$e I1m just an eB(e*tiona" (aseOH ^ is that $e,ore I start thin0in+ DI am an unen"i+htened *erson&&&E there is a s*a(e- isn1t thereQ There is an em*t) *ause $e,ore )ou de"i$erate") thin0& So noti(e that& That is just the wa) it isA there is no *er(e*tion in that s*a(e- $ut there is attention to it- there is awareness- )ou are (ertain") aware o, this $e,ore DI am an unen"i+htened *erson&&&E arises& Thin0in+ a$out this is not wanderin+ thin0in+- it1s not jud+in+ or ana")sin+- $ut just noti(in+# DIt1s "i0e this&E So when )ou de"i$erate") thin0- )ou (an a"so use thou+ht to 0ee* *ointin+ to this- noti(in+ the wa) it is& thin0in+- is itQ It1s intentiona"- ,or )ou are (hoosin+ whatever )ou are +oin+ to thin0& The im*ortant thin+ is not the thou+ht- or even the Cua"it) o, the thou+ht- whether it1s stu*id or inte""i+ent- ri+ht or wron+- it1s the attention- the a$i"it) to "isten to the thin0in+ that )ou are de"i$erate") doin+& Bein+ aware o, thin0in+ in this wa)- what ha**ens to me Gand I assume wi"" ha**en a"so to )ou ^ I don1t 0now- ma)$e I1m just an eB(e*tiona" (aseOH ^ is that $e,ore I start thin0in+ DI am an unen"i+htened *erson&&&E there is a s*a(e- isn1t thereQ There is an em*t) *ause $e,ore )ou de"i$erate") thin0& So noti(e that& That is just the wa) it isA there is no *er(e*tion in that s*a(e- $ut there is attention to it- there is awareness- )ou are (ertain") aware o, this $e,ore DI am an unen"i+htened *erson&&&E arises& Thin0in+ a$out this is not wanderin+ thin0in+- it1s not jud+in+ or ana")sin+- $ut just noti(in+# DIt1s "i0e this&E So when )ou de"i$erate") thin0- )ou (an a"so use thou+ht to 0ee* *ointin+ to this- noti(in+ the wa) it is& Intuitive Awareness DI am an unen"i+htened *erson who needs to *ra(tise meditation in order to $e(ome an en"i+htened *erson in the ,uture&E One assumes that DI am this $od)- with this *ast& I have this histor)& I am so man) )ears o"d- $orn in su(h and su(h a *"a(e- I1ve done a"" these thin+s and so I have a histor) to *rove that this *erson eBists&E I have a *ass*ort and a $irth (erti,i(ate- and *eo*"e even want me to have a we$!site on the InternetO But rea"") there doesn1t seem to $e an) *erson in the awareness& DI am an unen"i+htened *erson who needs to *ra(tise meditation in order to $e(ome an en"i+htened *erson in the ,uture&E One assumes that DI am this $od)- with this *ast& I have this histor)& I am so man) )ears o"d- $orn in su(h and su(h a *"a(e- I1ve done a"" these thin+s and so I have a histor) to *rove that this *erson eBists&E I have a *ass*ort and a $irth (erti,i(ate- and *eo*"e even want me to have a we$!site on the InternetO But rea"") there doesn1t seem to $e an) *erson in the awareness& Intuitive Awareness Unim*ortant 3ersonO Unim*ortant 3ersonO I have ,ound this ver) revea"in+& 'hen I did this eBer(ise it $e(ame ver) ("ear what awareness is F sati!sam*ajaSSa- mind,u"ness- awareness- a**er(e*tion& Then the thin0in+- the *er(e*tions arise& So de"i$erate") thin0in+- DI am an unen"i+htened *erson&&&E arises in this awareness& This awareness is not a *er(e*tion- is itQ It1s an a**er(e*tionA it in("udes *er(e*tion& 3er(e*tions arise and (ease& It1s Intuitive Awareness not *ersona"- it doesn1t have an) Ajahn SumedhoCua"it) to it- it1s not ma"e or ,ema"e- $hi00hu or ST"adharR GnunH- or an)thin+ "i0e thatA it has no Cua"it) on the (onventiona"- (onditioned "eve"& It is "i0e nothin+- "i0e nothin+& This awareness ^ DI am an unen"i+htened *erson&&&E ^ and then nothin+- there1s no *erson& So )ou are eB*"orin+- )ou are investi+atin+ these +a*s $e,ore DIE and a,ter DIE& ou sa) DIE ^ there1s sati!sam*ajaSSa- there1s the sound o, si"en(e- isn1t thereQ DI amE arises in this awareness- this (ons(iousness& That- as )ou investi+ate it- )ou (an Cuestion& This awareness is not a (reation- is itQ I am (reatin+ the DI am&&&E& 'hat is more rea" than DI am an unen"i+htened *ersonE is this awareness- satisam*ajaSS a& That is the (ontinuous one- that1s what sustains- and the sense o, )ourse", as a *erson (an +o an) whi(h wa)& As )ou thin0 a$out )ourse", and who )ou are- who )ou shou"d $e- who )ou wou"d "i0e to $e- who )ou do not want to $e- how +ood or $ad- wonder,u" or horri$"e )ou are- a"" this whir"s around- it +oes a"" over the *"a(e& One moment )ou (an ,ee" DI am a rea"") wonder,u" *ersonE- the neBt moment )ou (an ,ee" DI am an a$so"ute") ho*e"ess- horri$"e *ersonE& But i, )ou ta0e re,u+e in awareness- then whatever )ou are thin0in+ does not ma0e mu(h di,,eren(e- $e(ause )our re,u+e is in this a$i"it) o, awareness- rather than in the +)rations and ,"u(tuations o, the se",!view- o, )our sa00R)a!di]]hi ha$its& Nust noti(e how $ein+ a *erson is rea"") "i0e a )o!)oA it +oes u* and down a"" the time& 'ith *raise )ou ,ee" Intuitive Awareness )ou1re wonder,u"- )ou are wonder,u" ^ then )ou1re a ho*e"ess (ase- )ou1re de*ressed- a ho*e"ess vi(tim o, (ir(umstan(es& ou win the "otter) and )ou1re e"atedA then some$od) stea"s a"" the mone) and )ou1re sui(ida"& This is $e(ause the *ersona"it) is "i0e thatA it1s ver) de*endent& ou (an $e hurt terri$") on a *ersona" "eve"& Or )ou (an $e eBhi"arated# *eo*"e ,ind )ou just the most wonder,u"- thri""in+- eB(itin+ *ersona"it)- and )ou ,ee" ha**)& )ou1re wonder,u"- )ou are wonder,u" ^ then )ou1re a ho*e"ess (ase- )ou1re de*ressed- a ho*e"ess vi(tim o, (ir(umstan(es& ou win the "otter) and )ou1re e"atedA then some$od) stea"s a"" the mone) and )ou1re sui(ida"& This is $e(ause the *ersona"it) is "i0e thatA it1s ver) de*endent& ou (an $e hurt terri$") on a *ersona" "eve"& Or )ou (an $e eBhi"arated# *eo*"e ,ind )ou just the most wonder,u"- thri""in+- eB(itin+ *ersona"it)- and )ou ,ee" ha**)& ^ DHow +ood a mon0 am IQE Then some$od) sa)s DOh- Ajahn Sumedho is eBem*"ar)A a to*!not(h mon0OE and that1s wonder,u"& DHe1s a ho*e"ess (aseA doesn1t 0ee* +ood Lina)aE and I want to murder& This is how untrustworth) the se", is& 'e (an rise to +reat a"truism and then sin0 to the most de*raved de*ths in just a se(ond& It1s a tota"") untrustworth) state to *ut )our re,u+e in- $ein+ a *erson o, an) 0ind& Even ho"din+ the view that DI am a +ood mon0E is a *rett) dod+) re,u+e& I, that is a"" )ou 0now then someone sa)s that )ou are not a ver) +ood mon0 and )ou1re an+r)- )ou1re hurt- )ou1re o,,ended& Sati!sam*ajaSSa- des*ite a"" the ,"u(tuations- is (onstant& This is wh) I see it as a re,u+e& As )ou Intuitive Awareness re(o+nise it- rea"ise it- 0now it- and a**re(iate it- then it1s what I (a"" a re,u+e- $e(ause a re,u+e is not de*endent on *raise and $"ame- su((ess and ,ai"ure& re(o+nise it- rea"ise it- 0now it- and a**re(iate it- then it1s what I (a"" a re,u+e- $e(ause a re,u+e is not de*endent on *raise and $"ame- su((ess and ,ai"ure& 'hen the se", starts to $rea0 u*- some *eo*"e ,ind that it $e(omes ver) ,ri+htenin+- $e(ause it1s "i0e ever)thin+ )ou have re+arded as so"id and rea" starts ,a""in+ a*art& I remem$er )ears a+o- "on+ $e,ore I was even a Buddhist- ,ee"in+ threatened $) (ertain radi(a" ideas that tended to (ha""en+e the se(urit) o, the wor"d that I "ived in& 'hen it seems that some$od) is threatenin+ or (ha""en+in+ somethin+ that )ou de*end Intuitive Awareness u*on ,or a sense that ever)thin+ is a"ri+ht- )ou (an +et ver) an+r) and even vio"ent $e(ause the) are threatenin+ Dm) wor"d- m) se(urit)- m) re,u+e&E ou (an see wh) (onservative *eo*"e +et ver) threatened $) ,orei+ners- radi(a" ideas or an)thin+ that (omes in and (ha""en+es the status!Cuo or what )ou are used to- $e(ause i, that1s )our wor"d that )ou are rea"") de*endin+ on to ma0e )ou ,ee" se(ure- and then when )ou are threatened )ou +o into *ani(& u*on ,or a sense that ever)thin+ is a"ri+ht- )ou (an +et ver) an+r) and even vio"ent $e(ause the) are threatenin+ Dm) wor"d- m) se(urit)- m) re,u+e&E ou (an see wh) (onservative *eo*"e +et ver) threatened $) ,orei+ners- radi(a" ideas or an)thin+ that (omes in and (ha""en+es the status!Cuo or what )ou are used to- $e(ause i, that1s )our wor"d that )ou are rea"") de*endin+ on to ma0e )ou ,ee" se(ure- and then when )ou are threatened )ou +o into *ani(& Intuitive Awareness In terms o, this (onditioned rea"m that we *er(eive- (reate and ho"d to- it is a ver) unsta$"e- un(ertain- unde*enda$"e and (han+in+ (ondition in itse",& That1s just the wa) it is& In terms o, this (onditioned rea"m that we *er(eive- (reate and ho"d to- it is a ver) unsta$"e- un(ertain- unde*enda$"e and (han+in+ (ondition in itse",& That1s just the wa) it is& DI am an unen"i+htened *erson who has to *ra(tise meditation hard& I must rea"") wor0 at it- +et rid o, m) de,i"ements and $e(ome an en"i+htened *erson some time in the ,uture& I ho*e to attain stream!entr) $e,ore I die- $ut i, I don1t- I ho*e that I wi"" $e re$orn in a $etter rea"m&E 'e +o on "i0e that- (reatin+ more and more (om*"i(ations& 3eo*"e as0 me- D/an we attain stream!entr)Q Are there an) ArahantsQE $e(ause we sti"" thin0 o, stream!entr) and Arahantshi* as a *ersona" Cua"it)- don1t weQ 'e "oo0 at some$od) and Intuitive Awareness sa)- DThat mon0 over there is an ArahantOE 'e thin0 that *erson is an Arahant or stream!enterer& That1s just the wa) the (onditioned mind o*erates- it (an1t he"* it- it (an1t do an)thin+ e"se than that& So )ou (an1t trust it- )ou (an1t ta0e re,u+e in )our thou+hts or )our *er(e*tions- $ut in awareness& That doesn1t seem "i0e an)thin+- it1s "i0e nothin+ ^ $ut it1s ever)thin+& A"" the *ro$"ems are reso"ved ri+ht thereO sa)- DThat mon0 over there is an ArahantOE 'e thin0 that *erson is an Arahant or stream!enterer& That1s just the wa) the (onditioned mind o*erates- it (an1t he"* it- it (an1t do an)thin+ e"se than that& So )ou (an1t trust it- )ou (an1t ta0e re,u+e in )our thou+hts or )our *er(e*tions- $ut in awareness& That doesn1t seem "i0e an)thin+- it1s "i0e nothin+ ^ $ut it1s ever)thin+& A"" the *ro$"ems are reso"ved ri+ht thereO .an) o, )ou ma) thin0- DOh- I don1t have an) wisdom& I1m no$od)& I haven1t had an) rea" insi+htE& So )ou thorou+h") (onvin(e )ourse", that )ou (an1t do this& That1s the wa) it seems on the *ersona" "eve"- ma)$e )ou don1t ,ee" that )ou have an)thin+ to o,,er on that "eve"- $ut that1s another (reation& That1s the same as DI am an unen"i+htened *erson&&&E& 'hatever )ou thin0 Intuitive Awareness )ou are- whether it1s that )ou are the $est or the worst- it1s sti"" a (reationA )ou (reate that into the *resent& 'hatever assum*tions )ou have a$out )ourse",- no matter how reasona$"e the) mi+ht $e- it1s sti"" a (reation in the *resent& B) $e"ievin+ it- $) thin0in+ and ho"din+ to it- then )ou1re (ontinua"") (reatin+ )ourse", as some 0ind o, *ersona"it)& )ou are- whether it1s that )ou are the $est or the worst- it1s sti"" a (reationA )ou (reate that into the *resent& 'hatever assum*tions )ou have a$out )ourse",- no matter how reasona$"e the) mi+ht $e- it1s sti"" a (reation in the *resent& B) $e"ievin+ it- $) thin0in+ and ho"din+ to it- then )ou1re (ontinua"") (reatin+ )ourse", as some 0ind o, *ersona"it)& A"so re(o+nise the endin+- when DI am an unen"i+htened *erson who has +ot to *ra(tise meditation in order to $e(ome an en"i+htened *erson some time in the ,utureE sto*s& Then there is the rin+in+ si"en(eA there1s awareness& /onditions a"wa)s arise and (ease now in the *resent& The (essation is now& The endin+ o, the (ondition is now& The end o, the wor"d is now& The end o, se", is now& The end o, Intuitive Awareness su,,erin+ is now& ou (an see the arisin+- DI am&&&E- then the endin+A and what remains when somethin+ has $e+un and ended is awareness& It1s "i0e this& It1s $ri+ht- it1s ("ear- it1s *ure- it1s a"ive& It1s not "i0e a tran(e- it1s not du""- it1s not stu*id& So this is just an en(oura+ement- an Iem*owerment1 a((ordin+ to modern jar+on& Do itO 4o ,or itO Don1t just han+ around on the ed+es thin0in+ DI am an unen"i+htened *erson who has to *ra(tise rea"") hard in order to $e(ome an en"i+htened *ersonE and then a,ter a whi"e start +rum$"in+- DOh- I need more timeOE and +o into the usua" *"ans and *"ots- views and o*inions& I, )ou start with i+noran(e )ou wi"" end u* with su,,erin+& DAvijjR*a((a)R saa0hRrRE in the tea(hin+s on de*endent ori+ination G*a]i((asamu**RdaH# AvijjR1 is i+noran(e- and that (onditions G*a((a)RH the saa0hRras Gmenta" ,ormationsH- that then a,,e(ts ever)thin+ and )ou end u* with +rie,- sorrow- des*air and an+uish Gso0a!*arideva!du00ha!domanassu*R)RsRH as a resu"t& This is en(oura+in+ )ou to start not ,rom avijjR- $ut ,rom awareness GvijjRH- ,rom wisdom G*aSSRH& Be that wisdom itse",- rather than a *erson who isn1t wise- tr)in+ to $e(ome wise& As "on+ as )ou ho"d to the view that DI1m not wise )et- $ut I ho*e to $e(ome wiseE- then )ou1"" end u* with +rie,- sorrow- des*air and an+uish& It1s that dire(t& It1s "earnin+ to trust in $ein+ the wisdom now- $ein+ awa0e& Even thou+h )ou ma) ,ee" tota"") inadeCuate emotiona"")- dou$t,u" or un(ertain- ,ri+htened or terri,ied o, it ^ emotions are "i0e that& But $e the awareness o, the emotions# DEmotion is "i0e thisE& It1s Intuitive Awareness a rea(tion- $e(ause emotiona"") we are (onditioned ,or i+noran(e& I am emotiona"") (onditioned to $e a *erson& I am emotiona"") (onditioned to $e Ajahn Sumedho& DAjahn Sumedho- )ou are wonder,u"OE and the emotions +o# DOhQE- DAjahn Sumedho- )ou are a horri$"e mon0 with terri$"e Lina)aOE and the emotions +o D4rrrrrOOE Emotions are "i0e that& I, m) se(urit) de*ends on $ein+ *raised and "oved- res*e(ted and a**re(iated- $ein+ su((ess,u" and hea"th)- ever)thin+ +oin+ ni(e") and ever)one around me $ein+ in harmon)- the wor"d around me $ein+ so utter") sensitive to m) needs- then I ,ee" a"ri+ht when ever)thin+ e"se seems a"ri+ht& But then it +oes the other wa) ^ the earthCua0es- the *erse(ution- the a$use- the disro$in+- the $"ame- the (riti(ism and then I thin0 DU+hO Li,e is horri$"e& I (an1t stand it an) moreO I1m so hurt- so wounded& I1ve tried so hard and no$od) a**re(iates me- no$od) "oves me&E That1s the emotiona" de*enden() o, the *ersonA that1s *ersona" (onditionin+& a rea(tion- $e(ause emotiona"") we are (onditioned ,or i+noran(e& I am emotiona"") (onditioned to $e a *erson& I am emotiona"") (onditioned to $e Ajahn Sumedho& DAjahn Sumedho- )ou are wonder,u"OE and the emotions +o# DOhQE- DAjahn Sumedho- )ou are a horri$"e mon0 with terri$"e Lina)aOE and the emotions +o D4rrrrrOOE Emotions are "i0e that& I, m) se(urit) de*ends on $ein+ *raised and "oved- res*e(ted and a**re(iated- $ein+ su((ess,u" and hea"th)- ever)thin+ +oin+ ni(e") and ever)one around me $ein+ in harmon)- the wor"d around me $ein+ so utter") sensitive to m) needs- then I ,ee" a"ri+ht when ever)thin+ e"se seems a"ri+ht& But then it +oes the other wa) ^ the earthCua0es- the *erse(ution- the a$use- the disro$in+- the $"ame- the (riti(ism and then I thin0 DU+hO Li,e is horri$"e& I (an1t stand it an) moreO I1m so hurt- so wounded& I1ve tried so hard and no$od) a**re(iates me- no$od) "oves me&E That1s the emotiona" de*enden() o, the *ersonA that1s *ersona" (onditionin+& Intuitive Awareness Don1t Ta0e it 3ersona"") 'e have just three wee0s "e,t o, the Lassa Grains retreatH& The words in this senten(e are *er(e*tions o, time and (han+e- in the (onditioned rea"m& ILassa1 is a (onvention& The Autumn doesn1t sa)- DI1m AutumnEA we (a"" it Autumn& This is a (onvention that we use ,or (ommuni(atin+ our (u"tura" attitudes or mora" a+reements& 3aramattha!sa((a is u"timate rea"it)A this is where we1re +ettin+ $e)ond (onventions& /onventions are made- the)1re made u* and are de*endent on other thin+s& Thin+s that are (onsidered +ood in one (onventiona" ,orm are not (onsidered a**ro*riate in another& 'e have various $iases or *rejudi(es that we +et ,rom our (u"ture and the (onventions that we have& Nust "ivin+ in Euro*e we have the o"d $iases o, what the 2ren(h are "i0e and the 4ermans- Ita"ians and so ,orth& 'e have (u"tura" attitudes as a wa) o, *er(eivin+ thin+s& 'e ,orm these various o*inions and views& That is wh) it1s eas) to have ethni( war,are and ra(ia" *rejudi(es- ("ass sno$$er) and so ,orth- $e(ause we never Cuestion the (onventiona" rea"it) that we have ado*ted& 'e just +o a"on+ with it& 'e ho"d various views a$out our re"i+ion and our ra(e and our (u"ture and then (om*are it to some$od) e"se1s& On that "eve" Intuitive Awareness we have idea"s- sa) o, demo(ra()- eCua"it) and a"" that $ut we1re sti"" ver) mu(h in,"uen(ed $) the (onventiona" rea"ities that we1re (onditioned $)& we have idea"s- sa) o, demo(ra()- eCua"it) and a"" that $ut we1re sti"" ver) mu(h in,"uen(ed $) the (onventiona" rea"ities that we1re (onditioned $)& It1s hard to +et $e)ond these assum*tions- these thin+s we *i(0 u*& 'e don1t even 0now we have these atta(hments unti" the)1re re,"e(ted in some wa) and that1s wh) "ivin+ in di,,erent (u"tures he"*s& Livin+ in Thai"and he"*ed me to see a "ot o, these thin+s $e(ause the (u"ture was so di,,erent& There was the who"e attitude that (ame ,rom "ivin+ in a Buddhist monaster)- where the em*hasis was on re,"e(tion- mind,u"ness and wisdom& So that I wasn1t just $e(omin+ a 0ind o, ersat_ Thai- D+oin+ nativeE as the) sa)- $ut was "earnin+ to see the su$t"eties o, attitude and assum*tions that I was (onditioned $)- that ma) not $e a"" that easi") seen unti" one ,inds onese", su,,erin+ a$out somethin+& Intuitive Awareness One o, the *ro$"ems that we have in meditation is (om*u"siveness& In our so(iet) we are $rou+ht u* to $e ver) o$sessed and (om*u"sive& There are so man) Ishou"ds1& 'hen )ou1re (omin+ ,rom ideas and idea"s the resu"t is that there are so man) Ishou"ds1 in )our vo(a$u"ar)& This idea"ism has its $eaut) and it1s not a matter o, disre+ardin+ it- $ut o, re(o+ni_in+ its "imitations& This ,ee"in+ that there is a"wa)s somethin+ we1ve +ot to do- that there1s somethin+ we haven1t done that we shou"d $e doin+- that we shou"d $e wor0in+ harder than we1re wor0in+- that we shou"d $e *ra(tisin+ more than we1re *ra(tisin+- that we shou"d $e more honest than we are- more o*en- more devout- $etter!natured and on and on "i0e that& A"" o, these are true& The Ishou"ds1 are usua"") ri+ht& I, thin+s were *er,e(t- then I wou"d $e& Ever)thin+ wou"d $e just *er,e(t& I wou"d $e an idea" and m) so(iet) wou"d $e idea"& AmarRvatT wou"d ,it the idea"A we wou"d a"" $e *er,e(t& Then there is nothin+ more )ou shou"d do $e(ause )ou1ve a"read) rea(hed the to*& But that1s not the wa) "i,e is& One o, the *ro$"ems that we have in meditation is (om*u"siveness& In our so(iet) we are $rou+ht u* to $e ver) o$sessed and (om*u"sive& There are so man) Ishou"ds1& 'hen )ou1re (omin+ ,rom ideas and idea"s the resu"t is that there are so man) Ishou"ds1 in )our vo(a$u"ar)& This idea"ism has its $eaut) and it1s not a matter o, disre+ardin+ it- $ut o, re(o+ni_in+ its "imitations& This ,ee"in+ that there is a"wa)s somethin+ we1ve +ot to do- that there1s somethin+ we haven1t done that we shou"d $e doin+- that we shou"d $e wor0in+ harder than we1re wor0in+- that we shou"d $e *ra(tisin+ more than we1re *ra(tisin+- that we shou"d $e more honest than we are- more o*en- more devout- $etter!natured and on and on "i0e that& A"" o, these are true& The Ishou"ds1 are usua"") ri+ht& I, thin+s were *er,e(t- then I wou"d $e& Ever)thin+ wou"d $e just *er,e(t& I wou"d $e an idea" and m) so(iet) wou"d $e idea"& AmarRvatT wou"d ,it the idea"A we wou"d a"" $e *er,e(t& Then there is nothin+ more )ou shou"d do $e(ause )ou1ve a"read) rea(hed the to*& But that1s not the wa) "i,e is& Intuitive Awareness it out and +et another one& it out and +et another one& To "isten to Ishou"d1 is a ,air enou+h wa) to thin0 a$out somethin+& Some *eo*"e thin0 we shou"dn1t even thin0 Ishou"d1O To re(o+ni_e how thin+s a,,e(t us- just noti(e the ,ee"in+ that there is somethin+ more that I thin0 I have to do& An eBam*"e o, this is the stor) a$out a re(urrin+ dream that I used to have when I ,irst went to sta) with Luan+ 3or /hah& In 5?@6- I ,inished m) Intuitive Awareness .aster1s De+ree in Ber0e"e) and that was a )ear o, rea"") (om*u"sive and intense stud)& I (ou"dn1t enjo) an)thin+ $e(ause ever) time I went out and tried to enjo) m)se", I wou"d thin0- Dou1ve +ot )our eBam (omin+& ou1ve +ot to *ass )our .aster1s De+reeE& I1d +o to a *art) and tr) to re"aB and this voi(e wou"d sa)- Dou shou"dn1t $e here& ou1ve +ot to ta0e this eBam and )ou1re not read)& ou1re not +ood enou+h ,or itE& So that who"e )ear- I (ou"dn1t enjo) m)se",& I just 0e*t drivin+ m)se",& A,ter I ,inished m) .aster1s De+ree I (ou"dn1t read a $oo0 ,or a$out siB months& .) mind just wou"dn1t (on(entrate& I went throu+h 3ea(e /or*s trainin+ in Hawaii a,ter that and the) wanted me to read a"" these thin+s and I (ou"dn1t read them& I (ou"dn1t even read the instru(tions& I was over"oaded& But that "e,t a 0ind o, intensit)A the wa) I wou"d a**roa(h an)thin+ wou"d $e either to thin0- DI (an1t do itE and +ive u* tota"") or +et into the o"d (om*u"sive mode& .aster1s De+ree in Ber0e"e) and that was a )ear o, rea"") (om*u"sive and intense stud)& I (ou"dn1t enjo) an)thin+ $e(ause ever) time I went out and tried to enjo) m)se", I wou"d thin0- Dou1ve +ot )our eBam (omin+& ou1ve +ot to *ass )our .aster1s De+reeE& I1d +o to a *art) and tr) to re"aB and this voi(e wou"d sa)- Dou shou"dn1t $e here& ou1ve +ot to ta0e this eBam and )ou1re not read)& ou1re not +ood enou+h ,or itE& So that who"e )ear- I (ou"dn1t enjo) m)se",& I just 0e*t drivin+ m)se",& A,ter I ,inished m) .aster1s De+ree I (ou"dn1t read a $oo0 ,or a$out siB months& .) mind just wou"dn1t (on(entrate& I went throu+h 3ea(e /or*s trainin+ in Hawaii a,ter that and the) wanted me to read a"" these thin+s and I (ou"dn1t read them& I (ou"dn1t even read the instru(tions& I was over"oaded& But that "e,t a 0ind o, intensit)A the wa) I wou"d a**roa(h an)thin+ wou"d $e either to thin0- DI (an1t do itE and +ive u* tota"") or +et into the o"d (om*u"sive mode& Intuitive Awareness thin0in+ this was a messa+e te""in+ me there is somethin+ I1m not doin+ that I shou"d $e doin+& I 0e*t tr)in+ to thin0- D'hat (ou"d it $eQE I (ou"dn1t drive m)se", an) more than I was a"read) doin+& I (ou"dn1t ,i+ure it out& Then one mornin+ a,ter I had this dream- I wo0e u* and I had the answer and the answer was that there wasn1t an) eBaminationO thin0in+ this was a messa+e te""in+ me there is somethin+ I1m not doin+ that I shou"d $e doin+& I 0e*t tr)in+ to thin0- D'hat (ou"d it $eQE I (ou"dn1t drive m)se", an) more than I was a"read) doin+& I (ou"dn1t ,i+ure it out& Then one mornin+ a,ter I had this dream- I wo0e u* and I had the answer and the answer was that there wasn1t an) eBaminationO So I had the insi+ht that there wasn1t an) eBam- that I just thou+ht there was- and that I had a"wa)s "ived m) "i,e with this attitude that there was +oin+ to $e a $i+ test that I wasn1t *re*ared ,or& .a)$e it was a"so ,rom m) re"i+ious $a(0+round# )ou1re +oin+ to $e tested when )ou die- to see whether )ou1ve $een +ood enou+h to +o to heaven and i, not )ou1"" +o to he""& There1s a"wa)s this sense that )ou1ve +ot to do somethin+& ou1re not +ood enou+h& I1ve +ot too man) ,au"ts& I1ve +ot to +et rid o, them& I1ve +ot to $e(ome somethin+ that I1m not& The wa) I am is not +ood enou+h& Intuitive Awareness 'hen I (ame into monasti( "i,e- I $rou+ht this tenden() o, $ein+ driven into how I *ra(tised and I (ou"d do it ,or a whi"e $ut then I rea"i_ed that i, I was +oin+ to $e a mon0 that wasn1t the *ur*ose o, the "i,e& It wasn1t meant to $e that wa)& It was just how I was inter*retin+ monasti(ism ,rom this (om*u"sive view*oint& So I sto**ed havin+ the dream on(e I +ot the answer to the ridd"e& 'hen I (ame into monasti( "i,e- I $rou+ht this tenden() o, $ein+ driven into how I *ra(tised and I (ou"d do it ,or a whi"e $ut then I rea"i_ed that i, I was +oin+ to $e a mon0 that wasn1t the *ur*ose o, the "i,e& It wasn1t meant to $e that wa)& It was just how I was inter*retin+ monasti(ism ,rom this (om*u"sive view*oint& So I sto**ed havin+ the dream on(e I +ot the answer to the ridd"e& 'hen the Buddha em*hasi_ed mind,u"ness as the wa)- he was*ointin+ to the wa) thin+s are- rather than to the $est& In the mornin+ at 'at 3ah 3on+ the)1d have these readin+s ,rom the suttas a$out what a mon0 shou"d $e and the) were a"" a((ordin+ to the idea" standard& 'onderin+ how to inter*ret this wantin+ to "ive u* to su(h hi+h standards +ave rise to a ,ee"in+ o, D/an I rea"") do a"" thatQE One (an ,ee" dis(oura+ed and des*airin+ $e(ause one is "oo0in+ Intuitive Awareness at "i,e in terms o, idea"s& But then the tea(hin+ o, the Buddha isn1t $ased on idea"s $ut on Dhamma- the wa) thin+s are& at "i,e in terms o, idea"s& But then the tea(hin+ o, the Buddha isn1t $ased on idea"s $ut on Dhamma- the wa) thin+s are& ou1re aware o, even )our own (om*u"sive attitude- DThere1s somethin+ I1ve +ot to do&E ou1re aware o, that (om*u"sive ,ee"in+- attitude- or $e"ie, that I'm a *erson with a "ot o, ,au"ts and wea0nesses- whi(h is eas) to $e"ieve is $ein+ honest and rea"isti(& Then we thin0 that in order to $e(ome an en"i+htened $ein+ we1ve +ot to +et over these and +et rid o, them in some wa) and $e(ome an Arahant& One sees that this is how the mind wor0s& This wa) o, thin0in+ is o,ten what we read into the s(ri*tures& But in terms o, re,"e(tive awareness- )ou rea"") noti(e that su(h a wa) o, thin0in+ is somethin+ )ou1ve (reated in )our mind# DI am a *erson with a "ot o, ,au"ts and wea0nesses and I1ve +ot to *ra(tise hard in order to over(ome them&E That1s somethin+ I1m (reatin+ in m) mind& I1m (reatin+ that attitude& That1s not the truth- that1s a (reation& That whi(h is aware o, a"" this is the awa0ened state o, $ein+& ou start to noti(e the di,,eren(e $etween this Intuitive Awareness awareness and what )ou (reate $) ha$its $ased on atta(hments& awareness and what )ou (reate $) ha$its $ased on atta(hments& So awa0enedness- then- is "earnin+ to "isten and trust in the most sim*"e state o, $ein+& It1s not jhRna or a$sor*tion in an)thin+& It1s *ure attention& So i, )ou trust in this *urit)- there are no ,au"ts in *urit)- are thereQ It1s *er,e(t& There1s no im*urit)& This is where Intuitive Awareness to trust- in this attentiveness to the *resent& On(e )ou tr) to ,ind it- then )ou start +oin+ into dou$t& Trust it rather than thin0 a$out it& Nust trust in the immanent a(t o, $ein+ awa0e- attentive in this moment& 'hen I do this- m) mind re"aBes& I hear the sound o, si"en(e& There1s no se",& There1s *urit)& I, I start ,ee"in+ that I shou"d $e doin+ somethin+ then I1m aware o, it& I1m aware o, the 0amma!vi*R0a Gresu"t o, a(tionH o, havin+ $een throu+h the Ameri(an edu(ation s)stem and havin+ driven m)se", throu+h this in(redi$") (om*u"sive wa) o, "ivin+ "i,e& So the 0amma!vi*R0a arises& In this state o, *urit)- it1s not *ersona"& It1s not sa)in+- DAjahn Sumedho is *ure now&E It1s $e)ond that& ou1re not ta"0in+ a$out it in an) 0ind o, *ersona" wa)& It1s a re(o+nition- a rea"i_ation& It1s what )ou tru") are- it1s not a (reation& I1m not (reatin+ the *urit)& I1m not (reatin+ an idea" o, it and then de"udin+ m)se", with it& to trust- in this attentiveness to the *resent& On(e )ou tr) to ,ind it- then )ou start +oin+ into dou$t& Trust it rather than thin0 a$out it& Nust trust in the immanent a(t o, $ein+ awa0e- attentive in this moment& 'hen I do this- m) mind re"aBes& I hear the sound o, si"en(e& There1s no se",& There1s *urit)& I, I start ,ee"in+ that I shou"d $e doin+ somethin+ then I1m aware o, it& I1m aware o, the 0amma!vi*R0a Gresu"t o, a(tionH o, havin+ $een throu+h the Ameri(an edu(ation s)stem and havin+ driven m)se", throu+h this in(redi$") (om*u"sive wa) o, "ivin+ "i,e& So the 0amma!vi*R0a arises& In this state o, *urit)- it1s not *ersona"& It1s not sa)in+- DAjahn Sumedho is *ure now&E It1s $e)ond that& ou1re not ta"0in+ a$out it in an) 0ind o, *ersona" wa)& It1s a re(o+nition- a rea"i_ation& It1s what )ou tru") are- it1s not a (reation& I1m not (reatin+ the *urit)& I1m not (reatin+ an idea" o, it and then de"udin+ m)se", with it& Intuitive Awareness isn1t "i0e $e"ievin+ in somethin+& It1s "earnin+ to re"aB and $e& Trust in the a$i"it) sim*") to $e here- o*en and re(e*tive to whatever is ha**enin+ now& Even i, what1s ha**enin+ is nast) or whatever the (onditions )ou1re eB*erien(in+ are- that1s not a *ro$"em i, )ou trust in this *urit)& isn1t "i0e $e"ievin+ in somethin+& It1s "earnin+ to re"aB and $e& Trust in the a$i"it) sim*") to $e here- o*en and re(e*tive to whatever is ha**enin+ now& Even i, what1s ha**enin+ is nast) or whatever the (onditions )ou1re eB*erien(in+ are- that1s not a *ro$"em i, )ou trust in this *urit)& /onventions themse"ves are "imited ,or their nature is im*er,e(t and (han+in+& .a)$e )ou eB*e(t even the (onvention to $e *er,e(t& Then ma)$e a,ter a whi"e )ou $e(ome (riti(a" o, the (onvention $e(ause )ou see ,"aws in it& It isn1t as +ood as )ou thou+ht- or some o, it doesn1t ma0e sense or thin+s "i0e this& But re(o+ni_e that a (onvention is "i0e an)thin+ e"se- it is ani((a- du00ha- anattR Gim*ermanent- unsatis,a(tor)- non!se",H& TheravRda Buddhism is a (onvention $ased on mora"it)- doin+ +ood and re,rainin+ ,rom doin+ evi" with a(tion and s*ee(h& It1s a wa) o, "ivin+ where we a+ree to ta0e res*onsi$i"it) ,or how we "ive on this *"anet- in this so(iet)& The (onvention o, TheravRda Intuitive Awareness Buddhism- whether )ou ,ind it a"" a+reea$"e to )ou or not- is a tradition with a "ot o, *ower ,rom $ein+ so o"d and an(ient and is sti"" use,u"& It1s sti"" a via$"e tradition that wor0s& It1s not a matter o, it havin+ to $e *er,e(t ,or us to use it- $ut o, "earnin+ to use it ,or awa0ened awareness& Buddhism- whether )ou ,ind it a"" a+reea$"e to )ou or not- is a tradition with a "ot o, *ower ,rom $ein+ so o"d and an(ient and is sti"" use,u"& It1s sti"" a via$"e tradition that wor0s& It1s not a matter o, it havin+ to $e *er,e(t ,or us to use it- $ut o, "earnin+ to use it ,or awa0ened awareness& These di,,erent terms (an $e ver) divisive& I, we atta(h to TheravRda and start "oo0in+ down on ever) other ,orm o, Buddhism- then we thin0 that the)1re not *ure- the)1re not ori+ina"O The)1re hi+her- $ut the)1re not ori+ina"& 'e (an +et arro+ant $e(ause we1ve +ot our own wa) o, justi,)in+ our (onvention& But this is a"" *"a)in+ with words& I, we "oo0 at what is +oin+ on in words- we1re just (reatin+ .ahR)Rna- HTna)Rna and Lajra)Rna in our minds& The re,u+e is in Buddha- not in these I)Rnas1& The Buddha 0nows that ever) thou+ht is (han+in+ and not!se",& So trust in that- in Intuitive Awareness the sim*"i(it) o, that& Be(ause i, )ou don1t- then it is +oin+ to arouse )our o"d (om*u"sive ha$its o, thin0in+ DI1ve +ot to do more- I1ve +ot to deve"o* this- I1ve +ot to $e(ome a Bodhisattva- I1ve +ot to +et the hi+her *ra(ti(e +oin+-E and on and on "i0e that& the sim*"i(it) o, that& Be(ause i, )ou don1t- then it is +oin+ to arouse )our o"d (om*u"sive ha$its o, thin0in+ DI1ve +ot to do more- I1ve +ot to deve"o* this- I1ve +ot to $e(ome a Bodhisattva- I1ve +ot to +et the hi+her *ra(ti(e +oin+-E and on and on "i0e that& In Buddhist monasti(ism the ,our reCuisites are an eB*ression o, this& ou don1t have to have the $est ,ood and the $est ro$es and a"" that- $ut what1s adeCuate in terms o, surviva"& Is there an) *ro$"em in terms o, havin+ a *"a(e to sta) or medi(ine ,or si(0nessQ It doesn1t have to $e the ver) $est& In ,a(t- the standard is o,ten esta$"ished at the "owest *oint- "i0e ra+ ro$es rather than si"0 ro$es& Then the Dhamma!Lina)a is res*e(ted and tau+ht& These +ive us a sense o, a *"a(e that we (an "ive& Standards aren1t *"a(ed at the ver) $est- $ut i, the Dhamma is tau+ht and the Lina)a is res*e(ted- the ,our reCuisites are adeCuate- then that1s +ood enou+h& So +o ,or itO 4o ,or the *ra(ti(e rather than Cui$$"e a$out the rest& It1s $etter to deve"o* one1s awareness rather than +oin+ a"on+ with one1s ,ee"in+s o, (riti(ism or dou$t in Intuitive Awareness dea"in+ with the *eo*"e and the *"a(e )ou are in& dea"in+ with the *eo*"e and the *"a(e )ou are in& 'hen *eo*"e +o on se",!retreat- the) "et +o o, the stru(ture and are thrown onto their own& 'hat ha**ens when )ou1re on )our own and no$od) 0nows what )ou1re doin+Q ou don1t have to "oo0 around to see i, the senior mon0 is wat(hin+ )ou& ou1re "e,t to )our own devi(es so )ou (ou"d s"ee* a"" Intuitive Awareness da) or )ou (ou"d read nove"s or +o ,or "on+ wa"0s or )ou (ou"d rea"") *ra(tise hard& There1s a who"e ran+e o, *ossi$i"ities and it1s "e,t u* to )ou to noti(e that ,ee"in+ o, what ha**ens when the stru(ture is removed& It1s not that one does this in a jud+menta" wa)- $rin+in+ $a(0 the Ishou"ds1- "i0e DI shou"d *ra(tise so man) hours a da)- sit so man) hours- wa"0 so man) hours and do this and do that- +et m) *ra(ti(e- +et m) samRdhi- to+ether rea"") +et somewhere in m) *ra(ti(e&E Not that that1s wron+- $ut that ma) $e a ver) (om*u"sive thin+& I, )ou don1t "ive u* to it- then what do )ou ,ee" "i0eQ Do )ou ,ee" +ui"t!ridden i, )ou don1t do what )ou1ve determined to doQ Noti(e how the mind wor0s and to awa0en to it& da) or )ou (ou"d read nove"s or +o ,or "on+ wa"0s or )ou (ou"d rea"") *ra(tise hard& There1s a who"e ran+e o, *ossi$i"ities and it1s "e,t u* to )ou to noti(e that ,ee"in+ o, what ha**ens when the stru(ture is removed& It1s not that one does this in a jud+menta" wa)- $rin+in+ $a(0 the Ishou"ds1- "i0e DI shou"d *ra(tise so man) hours a da)- sit so man) hours- wa"0 so man) hours and do this and do that- +et m) *ra(ti(e- +et m) samRdhi- to+ether rea"") +et somewhere in m) *ra(ti(e&E Not that that1s wron+- $ut that ma) $e a ver) (om*u"sive thin+& I, )ou don1t "ive u* to it- then what do )ou ,ee" "i0eQ Do )ou ,ee" +ui"t!ridden i, )ou don1t do what )ou1ve determined to doQ Noti(e how the mind wor0s and to awa0en to it& Intuitive Awareness not what we1re here ,or& The onus is on ea(h one o, us- isn1t itQ It1s a$out wa0in+ u*& not what we1re here ,or& The onus is on ea(h one o, us- isn1t itQ It1s a$out wa0in+ u*& ^ either )ou shou"d or )ou shou"dn1t& 'hat we1re tr)in+ to do here is to +ive a situation where )ou are en(oura+ed to trust and to (u"tivate this& 'hen we sa) I(u"tivate1 it1s not "i0e havin+ to do an)thin+& It1s more "i0e "earnin+ to re"aB and trust in $ein+- the ,"ow o, "i,e& Be(ause "i,e is "i0e this& Li,e (han+es& ou (an see this in the *ast )ear here at AmarRvatT- the (onstru(tion and the o*enin+ and a"" the am$ien(e around that& Now that *eriod is over& It has (han+ed& It1s "i0e this& I remem$er when I ,irst went to 'at 3ah 3on+- there was su(h an es*rit de (or*& 'e were rea"") there with Luan+ 3or /hah& There were on") twent)!two mon0s and we were rea"") +ettin+ somewhere- we were rea"") a (ra(0 troo*- to* +rade- to* +uns& Then a ,ew )ears "ater- I $e+an seein+ thin+s that I didn1t "i0e and +ot ver) (riti(a" o, it- thin0in+ it was a"" ,a""in+ a*art& Then I saw it ,a"" a*art- a,ter Luan+ 3or /hah had his stro0e& I remem$er a ,ew )ears a,ter that- +oin+ to 'at 3ah 3on+& At 'at 3ah 3on+ the) had an inner monaster) where the mon0s "ived and then the outer *art where there was a s*e(ia" 0u]i GhutH ,or Luan+ 3or /hah whi(h a""owed ,or nursin+ (are and a"" 0inds o, thin+s& Intuitive Awareness In addition to this the) had an outer sR"R Gha""H where *eo*"e (ame to visit& In addition to this the) had an outer sR"R Gha""H where *eo*"e (ame to visit& Thin+s (han+e& Now we o*en to (han+e& 'e1re not demandin+ that it (han+e in an) wa) that we want it to or that when it1s at *ea0 that we (an 0ee* it that wa)& It1s im*ossi$"e& Even in )ourse",- )ou (an $e aware when )ou1re at )our $est or )our worst- when )ou1re ,ee"in+ rea"") +ood and ins*ired and "ove the "i,e- and when )ou1re ,ee"in+ down- des*airin+- "one")- and de*ressed and disheartened& This awareness is )our re,u+e& Awareness o, the (han+in+ness o, ,ee"in+s- o, Intuitive Awareness attitudes- o, moods- o, materia" (han+e and emotiona" (han+e# Sta) with that- $e(ause it1s a re,u+e that is indestru(ti$"e& It1s not somethin+ that (han+es& It1s a re,u+e )ou (an trust in& This re,u+e is not somethin+ that )ou (reate& It1s not a (reation& It1s not an idea"& It1s ver) *ra(ti(a" and ver) sim*"e- $ut easi") over"oo0ed or not noti(ed& 'hen )ou1re mind,u"- )ou1re $e+innin+ to noti(e# it1s "i0e this& attitudes- o, moods- o, materia" (han+e and emotiona" (han+e# Sta) with that- $e(ause it1s a re,u+e that is indestru(ti$"e& It1s not somethin+ that (han+es& It1s a re,u+e )ou (an trust in& This re,u+e is not somethin+ that )ou (reate& It1s not a (reation& It1s not an idea"& It1s ver) *ra(ti(a" and ver) sim*"e- $ut easi") over"oo0ed or not noti(ed& 'hen )ou1re mind,u"- )ou1re $e+innin+ to noti(e# it1s "i0e this& 'e (an a**") this awareness to ever)thin+- su(h as $ein+ *ersona"") wounded& 'hen some$od) sa)s somethin+ that is hurt,u"- as0 the Cuestion- D'hat is it that +ets hurtQE I, some$od) insu"ts me or a$uses me in some wa) and I ,ee" hurt or misunderstood- o,,ended- anno)ed or even an+r)- what is it that +ets an+r) and anno)ed- that +ets o,,endedQ Is that m) re,u+e ^ that *ersona"it) whose ,ee"in+s +et hurt and Intuitive Awareness u*setQ I, I have awareness as a re,u+e- this never +ets u*set $) an)thin+& ou (an (a"" it an)thin+ )ou want& But as a *erson- I (an $e easi") u*set& Be(ause the *ersona"it)- the sa00R)a!di]]hi- is "i0e that ^ $ased on me $ein+ worthwhi"e or worth)- $ein+ a**re(iated or not a**re(iated- $ein+ understood *ro*er") or misunderstood- $ein+ res*e(ted or not res*e(ted- and a"" this 0ind o, thin+& u*setQ I, I have awareness as a re,u+e- this never +ets u*set $) an)thin+& ou (an (a"" it an)thin+ )ou want& But as a *erson- I (an $e easi") u*set& Be(ause the *ersona"it)- the sa00R)a!di]]hi- is "i0e that ^ $ased on me $ein+ worthwhi"e or worth)- $ein+ a**re(iated or not a**re(iated- $ein+ understood *ro*er") or misunderstood- $ein+ res*e(ted or not res*e(ted- and a"" this 0ind o, thin+& Intuitive Awareness 'her 'her'her'her'her'here do water 'her'her'her'her'her- ear - ear- ear- ear- ear- earth- ,ir th- ,irth- ,irth- ,irth- ,irth- ,ire- J wind e- J winde- J winde- J winde- J winde- J wind have no ,ootin+Q have no ,ootin+Qhave no ,ootin+Qhave no ,ootin+Qhave no ,ootin+Qhave no ,ootin+Q 'her 'her'her'her'her'here ar e are are are are are "on+ J shor e "on+ J shore "on+ J shore "on+ J shore "on+ J shore "on+ J short- t-t-t-t-t- (oarse J ,ine- (oarse J ,ine-(oarse J ,ine-(oarse J ,ine-(oarse J ,ine-(oarse J ,ine- ,air J ,ou"- ,air J ,ou"-,air J ,ou"-,air J ,ou"-,air J ,ou"-,air J ,ou"- name J ,or name J ,orname J ,orname J ,orname J ,orname J ,orm mmmmm$r $r$r$r$r$rou+ht to an endQ ou+ht to an endQou+ht to an endQou+ht to an endQou+ht to an endQou+ht to an endQ /ons(iousness whi(h is /ons(iousness whi(h is/ons(iousness whi(h is/ons(iousness whi(h is/ons(iousness whi(h is/ons(iousness whi(h isnon!mani,estative- non!mani,estative-non!mani,estative-non!mani,estative-non!mani,estative-non!mani,estative- "imit"ess- not $e(omin+ an)thin+ at a""# "imit"ess- not $e(omin+ an)thin+ at a""#"imit"ess- not $e(omin+ an)thin+ at a""#"imit"ess- not $e(omin+ an)thin+ at a""#"imit"ess- not $e(omin+ an)thin+ at a""#"imit"ess- not $e(omin+ an)thin+ at a""# Her HerHerHerHerHere water e watere watere watere watere water- ear - ear- ear- ear- ear- earth- ,ir th- ,irth- ,irth- ,irth- ,irth- ,ire- J wind e- J winde- J winde- J winde- J winde- J windhave no ,ootin+& have no ,ootin+&have no ,ootin+&have no ,ootin+&have no ,ootin+&have no ,ootin+& Her HerHerHerHerHere "on+ J shor e "on+ J shore "on+ J shore "on+ J shore "on+ J shore "on+ J short ttttt(oarse J ,ine (oarse J ,ine(oarse J ,ine(oarse J ,ine(oarse J ,ine(oarse J ,ine,air J ,ou" ,air J ,ou",air J ,ou",air J ,ou",air J ,ou",air J ,ou"name J ,or name J ,orname J ,orname J ,orname J ,orname J ,orm mmmmmar ararararare a"" $r e a"" $re a"" $re a"" $re a"" $re a"" $rou+ht to an end& ou+ht to an end&ou+ht to an end&ou+ht to an end&ou+ht to an end&ou+ht to an end& ' '''''ith the (essation o, (ons(iousness ith the (essation o, (ons(iousnessith the (essation o, (ons(iousnessith the (essation o, (ons(iousnessith the (essation o, (ons(iousnessith the (essation o, (ons(iousnessea(h is her ea(h is herea(h is herea(h is herea(h is herea(h is here $r e $re $re $re $re $rou+ht to an end& ou+ht to an end&ou+ht to an end&ou+ht to an end&ou+ht to an end&ou+ht to an end& GKevaddha Sutta ! Lon+ Dis(oursesH GKevaddha Sutta ! Lon+ Dis(oursesHGKevaddha Sutta ! Lon+ Dis(oursesHGKevaddha Sutta ! Lon+ Dis(oursesHGKevaddha Sutta ! Lon+ Dis(oursesHGKevaddha Sutta ! Lon+ Dis(oursesH Intuitive Awareness 56; /ons(iousness /ons(iousness is a su$je(t that has $e(ome Cuite im*ortant these da)s& 'e are a"" eB*erien(in+ (ons(iousnessA we want to understand it and de,ine it& Some *eo*"e sa) that the) eCuate (ons(iousness with thin0in+ or memor)& I have heard s(ientists and *s)(ho"o+ists sa) that anima"s don1t have (ons(iousness- $e(ause the) don1t thin0 or remem$er& This seems ridi(u"ous& But in terms o, this moment- ri+ht now- this is (ons(iousness& 'e are just "istenin+ ^ *ure (ons(iousness $e,ore )ou start thin0in+& Nust ma0e a note o, this# (ons(iousness is "i0e this& I am "istenin+- I am with this *resent moment- $ein+ *resent- $ein+ here now& Ta0in+ the word I(ons(iousness1 and ma0in+ a menta" note# D(ons(iousness is "i0e this&E It1s where thou+ht- ,ee"in+ and emotion arise& 'hen we are un(ons(ious we don1t ,ee"- we don1t thin0& /ons(iousness- then- is "i0e the ,ie"d that a""ows thou+ht- memor)- emotion and ,ee"in+ to a**ear and disa**ear& /ons(iousness is not *ersona"& To $e(ome *ersona" )ou have to ma0e a ("aim to it# DI am a (ons(ious *erson&E But there1s just awareness- this entran(e into notin+ the *resent- and at this moment (ons(iousness is "i0e this& Then one (an noti(e the sound o, si"en(e- the sense o, just sustainin+- $ein+ a$"e to rest in a Intuitive Awareness natura" state o, (ons(iousness that is non!*ersona" and non!atta(hed& Notin+ this is "i0e in,ormin+ or edu(atin+ onese", to the wa) it is& 'hen we are $orn- (ons(iousness within this se*arate ,orm starts o*eratin+& A new$orn $a$) is (ons(ious- )et it doesn1t have a (on(e*t o, itse", $ein+ ma"e or ,ema"e or an)thin+ "i0e that& Those are (onditions that one a(Cuires a,ter $irth& natura" state o, (ons(iousness that is non!*ersona" and non!atta(hed& Notin+ this is "i0e in,ormin+ or edu(atin+ onese", to the wa) it is& 'hen we are $orn- (ons(iousness within this se*arate ,orm starts o*eratin+& A new$orn $a$) is (ons(ious- )et it doesn1t have a (on(e*t o, itse", $ein+ ma"e or ,ema"e or an)thin+ "i0e that& Those are (onditions that one a(Cuires a,ter $irth& viSSRUaV anidassanaV anantaV sa$$ato *a$ham ^ a mouth,u" o, words that *oint to this state o, natura" (ons(iousness- this rea"it)& I ,ind it ver) use,u" to ("ear") note# D/ons(iousness is "i0e thisE& I, I start thin0in+ a$out it- then I want to de,ine it# DIs there an immorta" (ons(iousnessQE Or we want to ma0e it into a meta*h)si(a" do(trine- or den) it- sa)in+- D/ons(iousness is ani((a- du00ha- anattRE- Gim*ermanent- unsatis,a(tor)- not!se",H& 'e want to *in it down or de,ine it either as im*ermanent and not!se",- or raise it u* as somethin+ we ho"d to as a meta*h)si(a" *ositionin+& But we are not interested in *ro("aimin+ meta*h)si(a" do(trines- or in "imitin+ ourse"ves to an inter*retation that we ma) have a(Cuired throu+h this tradition- $ut in tr)in+ to eB*"ore it in terms o, eB*erien(e& Intuitive Awareness This is Luan+ 3or /hah1s D3en *a((attaVE- somethin+ that )ou rea"ise ,or )ourse",& So what I am sa)in+ now is an eB*"oration- I1m not tr)in+ to (onvin(e )ou or (onvert )ou to m) Dview*oint&E This is Luan+ 3or /hah1s D3en *a((attaVE- somethin+ that )ou rea"ise ,or )ourse",& So what I am sa)in+ now is an eB*"oration- I1m not tr)in+ to (onvin(e )ou or (onvert )ou to m) Dview*oint&E Is (ons(iousness somethin+ to do with the $rainQ 'e tend to thin0 o, it as some 0ind o, menta" state that de*ends on the $rain& The attitude o, 'estern s(ientists is that (ons(iousness is in the $rain& But the more )ou eB*"ore it with sati!sam*ajaSSa and sati*aSS R )ou see that the $rain- the nervous s)stem- the who"e *s)(ho*h)si(a" ,ormation here arises in this (ons(iousness and it is im$ued with this (ons(iousness& That is wh) we (an $e aware o, the $od)& Re,"e(tin+ on the ,our *ostures ^ sittin+- standin+- wa"0in+ and ")in+ down& Bein+ aware o, sittin+ as it is $ein+ eB*erien(ed now- )ou are not "imited to somethin+ that is in the $rain- $ut the $od) is in the (ons(iousness- )ou are aware o, the who"e $od) in the eB*erien(e o, sittin+& That (ons(iousness is not *ersona"& It1s not Intuitive Awareness (ons(iousness in m) head and then (ons(iousness in )our head& Ea(h o, us has our own (ons(ious eB*erien(e +oin+ on& But is this (ons(iousness the thin+ that unites usQ Is it our Ioneness1Q I1m just Cuestionin+A there are di,,erent wa)s o, "oo0in+ at it& 'hen we "et +o o, the di,,eren(es ^ DI am Ajahn Sumedho and )ou are this *ersonE ^ when we "et +o o, these identities and atta(hments then (ons(iousness is sti"" ,un(tionin+& It1s *ureA it has no Cua"it) o, $ein+ *ersona"- no (ondition to it o, $ein+ ma"e or ,ema"e& ou (an1t *ut a Cua"it) into it- $ut it is "i0e this& 'hen we $e+in to re(o+ni_e that whi(h $inds us to+ether- that whi(h is our (ommon +round is (ons(iousness- then we see that this is universa"& 'hen we s*read mettR to a $i""ion /hinese over in /hina- ma)$e it1s not just sentimenta"it) and ni(e thou+hts- ma)$e there is *ower there& I don1t 0now m)se",A I am Cuestionin+& I am not +oin+ to "imit m)se", to a *arti(u"ar view*oint that I have $een (onditioned $) ,rom m) (u"tura" $a(0+round- $e(ause most o, that is *rett) ,"awed an)wa)& I do not ,ind m) (u"tura" (onditionin+ ver) de*enda$"e& (ons(iousness in m) head and then (ons(iousness in )our head& Ea(h o, us has our own (ons(ious eB*erien(e +oin+ on& But is this (ons(iousness the thin+ that unites usQ Is it our Ioneness1Q I1m just Cuestionin+A there are di,,erent wa)s o, "oo0in+ at it& 'hen we "et +o o, the di,,eren(es ^ DI am Ajahn Sumedho and )ou are this *ersonE ^ when we "et +o o, these identities and atta(hments then (ons(iousness is sti"" ,un(tionin+& It1s *ureA it has no Cua"it) o, $ein+ *ersona"- no (ondition to it o, $ein+ ma"e or ,ema"e& ou (an1t *ut a Cua"it) into it- $ut it is "i0e this& 'hen we $e+in to re(o+ni_e that whi(h $inds us to+ether- that whi(h is our (ommon +round is (ons(iousness- then we see that this is universa"& 'hen we s*read mettR to a $i""ion /hinese over in /hina- ma)$e it1s not just sentimenta"it) and ni(e thou+hts- ma)$e there is *ower there& I don1t 0now m)se",A I am Cuestionin+& I am not +oin+ to "imit m)se", to a *arti(u"ar view*oint that I have $een (onditioned $) ,rom m) (u"tura" $a(0+round- $e(ause most o, that is *rett) ,"awed an)wa)& I do not ,ind m) (u"tura" (onditionin+ ver) de*enda$"e& Intuitive Awareness se", nowQE ^ that 0ind o, thin+A it1s a ("ear 0nowin+& se", nowQE ^ that 0ind o, thin+A it1s a ("ear 0nowin+& 'hen we are $orn into *h)si(a" $irth- we have Intuitive Awareness (ons(iousness within this ,orm- within a se*arate ,orm& This *oint o, (ons(iousness starts o*eratin+- and then o, (ourse we a(Cuire the sense o, ourse"ves throu+h our mothers and ,athers and (u"tura" $a(0+round& So we a(Cuire di,,erent va"ues or sense o, our se", as a *erson- and that1s $ased on avijjR ^ not Dhamma- $ut on views- o*inions and *re,eren(es that (u"tures have& That1s wh) there (an $e end"ess *ro$"ems around di,,erent (u"tura" attitudes& Livin+ in a mu"ti(u"tura" (ommunit) "i0e this- it1s eas) to misunderstand ea(h other- $e(ause we1re (onditioned in di,,erent wa)s o, "oo0in+ at ourse"ves and the wor"d around us& So remem$er that (u"tura" (onditionin+ (omes out o, avijjR Gi+noran(eH o, Dhamma& 'hat we are doin+ now is in,ormin+ (ons(iousness with *aSSR- whi(h is a universa" wisdom rather than some (u"tura" *hi"oso*h)& Buddha!Dhamma- when )ou "oo0 at it- is not a (u"tura" tea(hin+& It1s not a$out Indian (u"ture or (ivi"isationA it1s a$out the natura" "aws that we "ive with- the arisin+ and (easin+ o, *henomenaA it1s a$out the wa) thin+s are& The Dhamma tea(hin+s are *ointin+ to the wa) thin+s are ^ that isn1t $ound in to (u"tura" "imitations& 'e ta"0 a$out ani((R- du00ha- anattR& That1s not Indian *hi"oso*h) or (u"ture- these are thin+s to $e rea"ised& ou are not o*eratin+ ,rom some $asi( $e"ie, s)stem that is (u"tura"& The Buddha1s em*hasis is on wa0in+ u*- on *a)in+ attention rather than on +ras*in+ some do(trina" *osition that )ou start with& This is wh) man) o, us (an re"ate to it- $e(ause we1re not tr)in+ to $e(ome Indians or (onvert to some re"i+ious do(trine that (ame out o, India& The Buddha awa0ened Intuitive Awareness to the wa) it is- to the natura" "aw& So when we are eB*"orin+ (ons(iousness- these tea(hin+s "i0e the ,ive 0handhas are s0i",u" or eB*edient means in order to eB*"ore and eBamine our eB*erien(e& The) are not "i0e Dou have +ot to $e"ieve in the ,ive 0handhas and $e"ieve that there is no se",& ou (annot $e"ieve in 4od an) more& To $e a Buddhist )ou have to $e"ieve that there is no 4od&E There are Buddhists that do have this menta"it)& The) want to ma0e do(trina" *ositions a$out $ein+ Buddhist& But to me that tea(hin+ is not $ased on a do(trine- $ut on this en(oura+ement to awa0en& ou are startin+ ,rom here and now- ,rom awa0ened attention rather than ,rom tr)in+ to *rove that the Buddha a(tua"") "ived& Some$od) mi+ht sa)- D.a)$e there was never an) BuddhaA ma)$e it was just a m)th&E But it doesn1t matter- $e(ause we don1t need to *rove that 4otama Buddha a(tua"") "ivedA that1s not the issue- is itQ 'e are not tr)in+ to *rove histori(a" ,a(ts- $ut to re(o+ni_e that what we are a(tua"") eB*erien(in+ now is "i0e this& to the wa) it is- to the natura" "aw& So when we are eB*"orin+ (ons(iousness- these tea(hin+s "i0e the ,ive 0handhas are s0i",u" or eB*edient means in order to eB*"ore and eBamine our eB*erien(e& The) are not "i0e Dou have +ot to $e"ieve in the ,ive 0handhas and $e"ieve that there is no se",& ou (annot $e"ieve in 4od an) more& To $e a Buddhist )ou have to $e"ieve that there is no 4od&E There are Buddhists that do have this menta"it)& The) want to ma0e do(trina" *ositions a$out $ein+ Buddhist& But to me that tea(hin+ is not $ased on a do(trine- $ut on this en(oura+ement to awa0en& ou are startin+ ,rom here and now- ,rom awa0ened attention rather than ,rom tr)in+ to *rove that the Buddha a(tua"") "ived& Some$od) mi+ht sa)- D.a)$e there was never an) BuddhaA ma)$e it was just a m)th&E But it doesn1t matter- $e(ause we don1t need to *rove that 4otama Buddha a(tua"") "ivedA that1s not the issue- is itQ 'e are not tr)in+ to *rove histori(a" ,a(ts- $ut to re(o+ni_e that what we are a(tua"") eB*erien(in+ now is "i0e this& Intuitive Awareness hi+hest heaven rea"mH- whi(h is more re,ined& This is a (oarse rea"m where we run the +amut ,rom that whi(h is (oarse to that whi(h is re,ined& 'e have +ot to dea" with the rea"ities o, a *h)si(a" $od)- whi(h is Cuite a (oarse (ondition& In deva rea"ms the) do not have *h)si(a" $odies- the) have etherea" ones& 'e wou"d a"" "i0e etherea" $odies- wou"dn1t weQ .ade out o, ether rather than a"" these s"im) thin+s that +o on inside our $odies ^ $ones- *us and $"ood- a"" o, these )u(0) (onditions that we have to "ive with& To de,e(ate ever) da) ^ devatRs don1t have to do thin+s "i0e that& Sometimes we "i0e to (reate this i""usion that we are devatRs& 'e don1t "i0e these ,un(tionsA we "i0e *riva()& 'e don1t want *eo*"e to noti(e $e(ause o, the (oarseness o, the *h)si(a" (onditions that we are "ivin+ with& But (ons(iousness in("udes the +radations ,rom the (oarse to the most re,ined& hi+hest heaven rea"mH- whi(h is more re,ined& This is a (oarse rea"m where we run the +amut ,rom that whi(h is (oarse to that whi(h is re,ined& 'e have +ot to dea" with the rea"ities o, a *h)si(a" $od)- whi(h is Cuite a (oarse (ondition& In deva rea"ms the) do not have *h)si(a" $odies- the) have etherea" ones& 'e wou"d a"" "i0e etherea" $odies- wou"dn1t weQ .ade out o, ether rather than a"" these s"im) thin+s that +o on inside our $odies ^ $ones- *us and $"ood- a"" o, these )u(0) (onditions that we have to "ive with& To de,e(ate ever) da) ^ devatRs don1t have to do thin+s "i0e that& Sometimes we "i0e to (reate this i""usion that we are devatRs& 'e don1t "i0e these ,un(tionsA we "i0e *riva()& 'e don1t want *eo*"e to noti(e $e(ause o, the (oarseness o, the *h)si(a" (onditions that we are "ivin+ with& But (ons(iousness in("udes the +radations ,rom the (oarse to the most re,ined& Intuitive Awareness 'e (an a"wa)s see ourse"ves in terms o, what1s wron+ with us as a *erson& As a *erson there are a"wa)s so man) ,"aws and inadeCua(ies& There is no *er,e(t *ersona"it) that I have ever noti(ed& 3ersona"it) is a"" over the *"a(e& Some o, it is 0ind o, a"" ri+ht and some o, it is rea"") wa(0)& There is no *ersona"it) that )ou (an ta0e re,u+e in& ou are never +oin+ to ma0e )ourse", into a *er,e(t *ersona"it)& So when )ou are jud+in+ )ourse", on a *ersona" "eve"- there seems to $e so man) *ro$"ems- inadeCua(ies- ,"aws and wea0nesses& .a)$e )ou are (om*arin+ )ourse", to some idea" *erson- some unse",ish and su*er"ative *ersona"it)& That whi(h is aware o, *ersona"it) is not *ersona"& ou (an $e aware o, the *ersona" as a menta" o$je(t& These *ersona"it) (onditions arise and (ease& ou ,ind )ourse", sudden") ,ee"in+ ver) inse(ure or a(tin+ ver) (hi"dish $e(ause the (onditions ,or that *ersona"it) have arisen& 'e (an a"wa)s see ourse"ves in terms o, what1s wron+ with us as a *erson& As a *erson there are a"wa)s so man) ,"aws and inadeCua(ies& There is no *er,e(t *ersona"it) that I have ever noti(ed& 3ersona"it) is a"" over the *"a(e& Some o, it is 0ind o, a"" ri+ht and some o, it is rea"") wa(0)& There is no *ersona"it) that )ou (an ta0e re,u+e in& ou are never +oin+ to ma0e )ourse", into a *er,e(t *ersona"it)& So when )ou are jud+in+ )ourse", on a *ersona" "eve"- there seems to $e so man) *ro$"ems- inadeCua(ies- ,"aws and wea0nesses& .a)$e )ou are (om*arin+ )ourse", to some idea" *erson- some unse",ish and su*er"ative *ersona"it)& That whi(h is aware o, *ersona"it) is not *ersona"& ou (an $e aware o, the *ersona" as a menta" o$je(t& These *ersona"it) (onditions arise and (ease& ou ,ind )ourse", sudden") ,ee"in+ ver) inse(ure or a(tin+ ver) (hi"dish $e(ause the (onditions ,or that *ersona"it) have arisen& Intuitive Awareness see DHe1s a midd"e!a+ed man-E Gthen I was midd"e a+edOH $ut the) wou"d sti"" sometimes a(t "i0e I was their (hi"d& Then )ou ,ee" this re$e""iousness and ado"es(ent 0ind o, resentment a$out $ein+ treated "i0e a (hi"d& So don1t $e sur*rised at some o, the emotiona" states that arise& Throu+hout )our "i,e- as )ou +et o"d- 0amma ri*ens and then these (onditions a**ear in (ons(iousness& Don1t des*air i, )ou ,ind )ourse", at ,i,t) )ears o"d ,ee"in+ ver) (hi"dish& Nust $e aware o, that ,or what it is& It is what it is& The (onditions ,or that *arti(u"ar emotion are *resent so then it $e(omes (ons(ious& our re,u+e is in this awareness rather than in tr)in+ to ma0e )ourse", into an idea" man or woman see DHe1s a midd"e!a+ed man-E Gthen I was midd"e a+edOH $ut the) wou"d sti"" sometimes a(t "i0e I was their (hi"d& Then )ou ,ee" this re$e""iousness and ado"es(ent 0ind o, resentment a$out $ein+ treated "i0e a (hi"d& So don1t $e sur*rised at some o, the emotiona" states that arise& Throu+hout )our "i,e- as )ou +et o"d- 0amma ri*ens and then these (onditions a**ear in (ons(iousness& Don1t des*air i, )ou ,ind )ourse", at ,i,t) )ears o"d ,ee"in+ ver) (hi"dish& Nust $e aware o, that ,or what it is& It is what it is& The (onditions ,or that *arti(u"ar emotion are *resent so then it $e(omes (ons(ious& our re,u+e is in this awareness rather than in tr)in+ to ma0e )ourse", into an idea" man or woman mature- res*onsi$"e- (a*a$"e- su((ess,u"- Inorma"1 and a"" the rest ^ these are the idea"s& Here I am not "oo0ed at as a (hi"d& I1m the o"dest *erson hereO ou ma) see me in terms o, a ,ather ,i+ure- $e(ause an o"d man "i0e me $rin+s out the sense o, authorit)& I1m an authorit) ,i+ure- a *atriar(h- a ,ather ,i+ure- a ma"e ,i+ure ^ a +rand,ather") ,i+ure to some o, )ou& It1s interestin+ just to see this state when the (onditions are there& Rationa"") )ou (an sa)- DHe1s not m) ,atherOE $ut emotiona"") )ou ma) ,ee" "i0e that- a(tin+ to me "i0e I1m a ,ather- $e(ause it1s an emotiona" ha$it& 'hen the (onditions ,or that 0ind o, ma"e authorit) ,i+ure are *resent- then this is what )ou are ,ee"in+- it1s "i0e this& There1s nothin+ wron+ with it- just noti(e it1s the wa) it is& Trust )our re,u+e in this awareness- not in some idea that )ou shou"dn1t *roje(t ,ather") ima+es onto me- or that )ou shou"dn1t ,ee" disem*owered $) a ma"e authorit) ,i+ure and thin+s "i0e this& I, )ou ,ee" disem*owered $) me- then Intuitive Awareness just re(o+ni_e it as a (ondition that has arisen- rather than $"amin+ me or $"amin+ )ourse",- $e(ause then )ou are $a(0 into the wor"d )ou are (reatin+ ^ )our *ersona" wor"d- and $e"ievin+ in that as )our rea"it)& just re(o+ni_e it as a (ondition that has arisen- rather than $"amin+ me or $"amin+ )ourse",- $e(ause then )ou are $a(0 into the wor"d )ou are (reatin+ ^ )our *ersona" wor"d- and $e"ievin+ in that as )our rea"it)& Our re,u+e then is in this awareness rather than in tr)in+ to sustain re,ined eB*erien(es in (ons(iousness as our re,u+e- $e(ause )ou (an1t do it& ou (an ma)$e "earn- throu+h deve"o*in+ a s0i",u" use- to in(rease )our sense o, )our eB*erien(e o, re,inement- $ut inevita$") )ou have to a""ow the (oarse to mani,est- to $e a *art o, )our (ons(ious eB*erien(e& Restin+ in this (ons(ious awareness is re,erred to as D(omin+ homeE or Dour rea" home&E It1s a *"a(e to rest- "i0e a home& The idea o, a home is a *"a(e where )ou $e"on+- isn1t itQ ou are no "on+er a ,orei+ner or an a"ien& ou $e+in to re(o+ni_e throu+h a sense o, re"ie,- o, just $ein+ home at "ast- o, not $ein+ this stran+er- this wanderer out in the wi"derness& Then the wor"d Intuitive Awareness o, Ajahn Sumedho (an arise and it1s "i0e )ou are not at home an)more- $e(ause Ajahn Sumedho is an a"ien- a stran+erO He never ,ee"s Cuite at home an)where& Am I Ameri(an nowQ Am I British or am I ThaiQ 'here do I ,ee" at home as Ajahn SumedhoQ I don1t even 0now what nationa"it) I am an)more- or where I ,ee" most at home& I ,ee" more at home here than in Ameri(a $e(ause I1ve "ived here ,or so "on+& In Thai"and I ,ee" at home $e(ause it1s the *aradise ,or Buddhist mon0s and the) treat )ou so we""- $ut sti"" )ou have to +et visas and )ou1re a"wa)s D3hra 2aran+&E Here in En+"and- no matter how man) )ears I am here- I am sti""- to most *eo*"e- an Ameri(an& 'hen I +o $a(0 to Ameri(a I don1t 0now what I am ^ Dou don1t "oo0 "i0e an Ameri(an an)more& ou1ve +ot a ,unn) a((ent- we don1t 0now where )ou are ,romOE That1s the wor"d that is (reated& 'hen it dro*s awa)- what1s "e,t is our rea" home& o, Ajahn Sumedho (an arise and it1s "i0e )ou are not at home an)more- $e(ause Ajahn Sumedho is an a"ien- a stran+erO He never ,ee"s Cuite at home an)where& Am I Ameri(an nowQ Am I British or am I ThaiQ 'here do I ,ee" at home as Ajahn SumedhoQ I don1t even 0now what nationa"it) I am an)more- or where I ,ee" most at home& I ,ee" more at home here than in Ameri(a $e(ause I1ve "ived here ,or so "on+& In Thai"and I ,ee" at home $e(ause it1s the *aradise ,or Buddhist mon0s and the) treat )ou so we""- $ut sti"" )ou have to +et visas and )ou1re a"wa)s D3hra 2aran+&E Here in En+"and- no matter how man) )ears I am here- I am sti""- to most *eo*"e- an Ameri(an& 'hen I +o $a(0 to Ameri(a I don1t 0now what I am ^ Dou don1t "oo0 "i0e an Ameri(an an)more& ou1ve +ot a ,unn) a((ent- we don1t 0now where )ou are ,romOE That1s the wor"d that is (reated& 'hen it dro*s awa)- what1s "e,t is our rea" home& Intuitive Awareness 5>@ Trustin+ in Sim*"i(it) The attitude o, I(onvivia"it)1 is an attem*t to en(oura+e )ou to see the ho") "i,e as somethin+ $eauti,u" and enjo)a$"e- and to o*en to it rather than just shut down& Sometimes we see meditation as a wa) o, shuttin+ ourse"ves o,, ,rom thin+s rather than o*enin+& Remem$er- whatever is said is "imited- so when we sa) Ishut down1 these are on") words whi(h (onve) some meanin+ to )ou in whatever wa) )ou +ras* them& In an) re"i+ious tradition there is a "ot o, (on,usion $e(ause what is said at times seems to $e (ontradi(tor)# at one moment )ou are $ein+ to"d to shut down- ("ose )our e)es- (on(entrate )our mind on the $reathA and then to o*en u* with mettR ,or a"" sentient $ein+sO This is just to *oint out the "imitation o, words and (onventions& 'hen we +ras* these (onventions- then we tend to $ind ourse"ves to a *arti(u"ar view& 'e mi+ht even $e en(oura+ed to do this $) tea(hers and the wa) we inter*ret the s(ri*tures& But remem$er to $rin+ $a(0 the awareness that ea(h o, us as individua"s eB*erien(es- whi(h is the (enter o, the universe& 'hen )ou see )ourse", in *ersona" terms as someone who needs to +et somethin+ or +et rid o, somethin+- then )ou "imit )ourse", to $ein+ someone who has to Intuitive Awareness +et somethin+ the) don1t )et have or +et rid o, somethin+ the) shou"dn1t have& So we re,"e(t on this and "earn to $e the witness- Buddho ^ that whi(h is awa0e and aware- whi(h "istens to and 0nows *ersona"it) views and emotiona" states without ta0in+ them *ersona"")& +et somethin+ the) don1t )et have or +et rid o, somethin+ the) shou"dn1t have& So we re,"e(t on this and "earn to $e the witness- Buddho ^ that whi(h is awa0e and aware- whi(h "istens to and 0nows *ersona"it) views and emotiona" states without ta0in+ them *ersona"")& 'hat I en(oura+e is a movin+ toward sim*"i(it)- rather than (om*"eBit)& 'e1re a"read) (om*"i(ated *ersona"ities& Our (u"tura" and so(ia" (onditionin+ is usua"") ver) (om*"i(ated& 'e1re edu(ated and "iterate- whi(h means that we 0now a "ot and have a "ot o, eB*erien(e& This means that we are no "on+er sim*"e& 'e1ve "ost the sim*"i(it) that we had as (hi"dren and have $e(ome rather (om*"i(ated (hara(ters& The monasti( ,orm is a move toward sim*"i(it)& At times it ma) "oo0 (om*"i(ated $ut the Intuitive Awareness who"e thrust o, the Dhamma!Lina)a is toward sim*"i,)in+ ever)thin+ rather than (om*"i(atin+ it& who"e thrust o, the Dhamma!Lina)a is toward sim*"i,)in+ ever)thin+ rather than (om*"i(atin+ it& One tends to thin0 that *eo*"e in the *ast had more *arami and a$i"it) to awa0en and $e ,u"") "i$erated than us& 'e see ourse"ves throu+h (om*"i(ated memories and *er(e*tions& .) *ersona"it) is ver) (om*"i(ated# "i0es and dis"i0esA it ,ee"s ha**) and sad- it is so (han+ea$"e that it (an a"ter in just the sna* o, a ,in+er& .) emotions (an $e tri++ered o,, into an+er in a moment just $) some$od) sa)in+ somethin+ that irritates me& 'hen the (onditions arise then the (onseCuent state (omes to $e# an+er- ha**iness- e"ation- et(& But with sati!sam*ajaSSa we1re "earnin+ to sustain an awareness that trans(ends these emotions& I, we (ou"dn1t do this then there wou"d $e no ho*e- no *oint in even tr)in+ to $e Buddhist mon0s or nuns- or an)thin+ e"se at a""& 'e1d just $e he"*"ess vi(tims o, our ha$its and no wa) out o, $ein+ tra**ed in the Intuitive Awareness re*etitive *atterns wou"d $e *ossi$"e& The wa) out o, it is awa0eness- attention& /onvivia"it) is +oodwi""- ha**iness- $ri+htness- we"(omin+- o*enin+& 'hen I1m (onvivia"- I1m o*en& 'hen I1m in a $ad mood then I1m not o*enO Leave me a"one- don1t $other meO re*etitive *atterns wou"d $e *ossi$"e& The wa) out o, it is awa0eness- attention& /onvivia"it) is +oodwi""- ha**iness- $ri+htness- we"(omin+- o*enin+& 'hen I1m (onvivia"- I1m o*en& 'hen I1m in a $ad mood then I1m not o*enO Leave me a"one- don1t $other meO In awa0ened awareness there1s no +ras*in+& It1s a sim*"e- immanent a(t o, $ein+ here- $ein+ *atient& It ta0es trust- es*e(ia"") trustin+ in )ourse",& No one (an ma0e )ou do it or ma+i(a"") do it ,or )ou& Trustin+ this moment is there,ore ver) im*ortant& I am $) nature a Cuestioner- a dou$ter or s(e*ti(& I don1t $e"ieve easi")- I tend to dis$e"ieve- and I1m sus*i(ious o, thin+s& This is an un*"easant (ondition to have to "ive with- $e(ause I wou"d "ove to $e"ieve in somethin+ and just Intuitive Awareness rest in a $e"ie, that I am ,u"") (ommitted to& rest in a $e"ie, that I am ,u"") (ommitted to& Learnin+ to trust in this awareness is an a(t o, ,aith $ut it is a"so ver) mu(h a"i+ned with wisdom& It1s somethin+ that )ou have to eB*eriment with to +et a ,ee"in+ ,or& No matter how we"" I mi+ht des(ri$e or eB*ound on this *arti(u"ar su$je(t- it is sti"" somethin+ that )ou have to 0now ,or )ourse",& Dou$t is one o, )our main *ro$"ems- $e(ause )ou don1t trust )ourse"ves& .an) o, )ou stron+") $e"ieve that )ou are de,ined $) the "imitations o, )our *ast- )our memories- )our *ersona"it)A )ou1re thorou+h") (onvin(ed o, that& But )ou (an1t trust that& I (an1t trust m) *ersona"it)A it wi"" sa) an)thin+O Nor (an I trust m) emotions- the) ,"i(0er around and (han+e (onstant")& De*endin+ on whether the sun1s out or i, it is rainin+- or i, thin+s are +oin+ we"" or ,a""in+ a*art- m) emotions rea(t a((ordin+")& 'hat I trust is m) awareness& It is somethin+ ,or )ou to ,ind out ,or )ourse"ves- )ou (an1t just trust what I sa)& An)thin+ I des(ri$e now is just an en(oura+ement ,or )ou to trust& Intuitive Awareness This in("usive awareness is ver) sim*"e and tota"") natura"& The mind sto*s and )ou are just o*en and re(e*tive& Even i, )ou1re tense and u*ti+ht- just o*en to it $) a((e*tin+ it and a""owin+ it to $e as it is& Tension- des*air- *ain ^ )ou just a""ow )our eB*erien(e to $e eBa(t") as it is rather than tr) to +et rid o, it& I, )ou (on(eive o, this o*enness as a ha**) state- then )ou (reate a menta" im*ression o, it as a *"easant state- that )ou mi+ht not $e ,ee"in+ and that )ou wou"d "i0e to ,ee"& Bein+ in a *"easant state o, mind is not a *rereCuisite ,or in("usive awareness& One (an $e in the *its o, he"" and miser) and )et sti"" o*en to the eB*erien(e o, $ein+ aware- and thus a""ow even the most u*settin+ sates to $e just what the) are& This in("usive awareness is ver) sim*"e and tota"") natura"& The mind sto*s and )ou are just o*en and re(e*tive& Even i, )ou1re tense and u*ti+ht- just o*en to it $) a((e*tin+ it and a""owin+ it to $e as it is& Tension- des*air- *ain ^ )ou just a""ow )our eB*erien(e to $e eBa(t") as it is rather than tr) to +et rid o, it& I, )ou (on(eive o, this o*enness as a ha**) state- then )ou (reate a menta" im*ression o, it as a *"easant state- that )ou mi+ht not $e ,ee"in+ and that )ou wou"d "i0e to ,ee"& Bein+ in a *"easant state o, mind is not a *rereCuisite ,or in("usive awareness& One (an $e in the *its o, he"" and miser) and )et sti"" o*en to the eB*erien(e o, $ein+ aware- and thus a""ow even the most u*settin+ sates to $e just what the) are& Intuitive Awareness In this awareness it1s not that )ou 0now an)thin+& ou1re just a""owin+ thin+s to $e what the) are& ou don1t have to *er(eive them with thou+hts or words- or ana")_e themA )ou1re just a""owin+ the eB*erien(e to $e- just the wa) it is& It1s more a (ase o, deve"o*in+ an intuitive sense- what I (a"" intuitive awareness& 'hen )ou (an $e+in to trust in this awareness )ou (an re"aB a $it& I, )ou1re tr)in+ to (ontro" the mind then )ou tend to +o $a(0 to )our ha$its o, tr)in+ to ho"d on to some thin+s and +et rid o, others- rather than just a""owin+ thin+s to $e what the) are& In this awareness it1s not that )ou 0now an)thin+& ou1re just a""owin+ thin+s to $e what the) are& ou don1t have to *er(eive them with thou+hts or words- or ana")_e themA )ou1re just a""owin+ the eB*erien(e to $e- just the wa) it is& It1s more a (ase o, deve"o*in+ an intuitive sense- what I (a"" intuitive awareness& 'hen )ou (an $e+in to trust in this awareness )ou (an re"aB a $it& I, )ou1re tr)in+ to (ontro" the mind then )ou tend to +o $a(0 to )our ha$its o, tr)in+ to ho"d on to some thin+s and +et rid o, others- rather than just a""owin+ thin+s to $e what the) are& Nust the thou+ht o, *artin+ has a (ertain e,,e(t on (ons(iousness& 'hatever is ha**enin+ ,or )ou now is that wa)- it is what it is& Se*aration and the idea o, se*aration is "i0e this& It1s a matter o, re(o+ni_in+ what it is $ut o, not jud+in+ what )ou see& As soon as )ou Intuitive Awareness add to it in an) wa)- it is more that what it isA it $e(omes *ersona"- emotiona"- (om*"i(ated& This sense rea"m in whi(h we "ive- this *"anet Earth- is "i0e this& One1s who"e "i,e is an end"ess *ro(ession o, meetin+ and se*aratin+& 'e +et so used to it that we hard") noti(e it or re,"e(t on it& Sadness is the natura" res*onse to $ein+ se*arated ,rom what one "i0es- ,rom *eo*"e one "oves& But the awareness o, that sadness is not itse", sad& The emotion we ,ee" is sadness $ut when the emotion is he"d in awareness then the awareness itse", is not sad& The same is true when $ein+ *resent with thin0in+ o, somethin+ that +ives rise to eB(itement or jo)& The awareness is not eB(ited- it ho"ds the eB(itement& Awareness em$ra(es the ,ee"in+ o, eB(itement or sadness $ut it does not +et eB(ited or sad& So it1s a matter o, "earnin+ to trust in that awareness rather than just end"ess") stru++"in+ with whatever ,ee"in+s mi+ht $e arisin+& add to it in an) wa)- it is more that what it isA it $e(omes *ersona"- emotiona"- (om*"i(ated& This sense rea"m in whi(h we "ive- this *"anet Earth- is "i0e this& One1s who"e "i,e is an end"ess *ro(ession o, meetin+ and se*aratin+& 'e +et so used to it that we hard") noti(e it or re,"e(t on it& Sadness is the natura" res*onse to $ein+ se*arated ,rom what one "i0es- ,rom *eo*"e one "oves& But the awareness o, that sadness is not itse", sad& The emotion we ,ee" is sadness $ut when the emotion is he"d in awareness then the awareness itse", is not sad& The same is true when $ein+ *resent with thin0in+ o, somethin+ that +ives rise to eB(itement or jo)& The awareness is not eB(ited- it ho"ds the eB(itement& Awareness em$ra(es the ,ee"in+ o, eB(itement or sadness $ut it does not +et eB(ited or sad& So it1s a matter o, "earnin+ to trust in that awareness rather than just end"ess") stru++"in+ with whatever ,ee"in+s mi+ht $e arisin+& Desire is natura" to this rea"m& So wh) shou"dn1t we have desireQ 'hat1s wron+ with desire an)wa)Q 'e Intuitive Awareness stru++"e to +et rid o, a"" our desires& Tr)in+ to *uri,) our minds and (onCuer desire $e(omes a *ersona" (ha""en+e- doesn1t itQ But (an )ou do itQ I (an1t& I (an su**ress desires sometimes and (onvin(e m)se", that I don1t have an)- $ut I (an1t sustain it& 'hen )ou (ontem*"ate the wa) thin+s are- )ou see that this rea"m is "i0e this ^ what is attra(tive and $eauti,u" one desires to move towards- and to +ras*A what is u+") and re*u"sive +ives rise to the im*u"se to withdraw& That1s just the wa) it is- it1s not some 0ind o, *ersona" ,"aw& In that movement o, attra(tion and aversion there is an awareness that em$ra(es $oth o, them& ou (an $e aware o, $ein+ attra(ted and aware o, $ein+ re*e""ed $) somethin+& stru++"e to +et rid o, a"" our desires& Tr)in+ to *uri,) our minds and (onCuer desire $e(omes a *ersona" (ha""en+e- doesn1t itQ But (an )ou do itQ I (an1t& I (an su**ress desires sometimes and (onvin(e m)se", that I don1t have an)- $ut I (an1t sustain it& 'hen )ou (ontem*"ate the wa) thin+s are- )ou see that this rea"m is "i0e this ^ what is attra(tive and $eauti,u" one desires to move towards- and to +ras*A what is u+") and re*u"sive +ives rise to the im*u"se to withdraw& That1s just the wa) it is- it1s not some 0ind o, *ersona" ,"aw& In that movement o, attra(tion and aversion there is an awareness that em$ra(es $oth o, them& ou (an $e aware o, $ein+ attra(ted and aware o, $ein+ re*e""ed $) somethin+& Some mi+ht a((use me o, tea(hin+ a *ath where it doesn1t matter how )ou $ehave- that )ou (an just do an)thin+ and just wat(h it# )ou (ou"d ro$ a $an0 and sti"" $e mind,u" o, )our a(tionsA )ou (ou"d eB*eriment with drin0in+ and ta0in+ dru+s- or see how mind,u" Intuitive Awareness and aware )ou are when ha""u(inatin+ on mushroomsO I, I did tea(h that- the door wou"d $e wide o*en- wou"dn1t itQ I1m not *romotin+ that view*oint F I1m not a(tua"") sa)in+ )ou shou"d disre+ard the *re(e*ts F $ut )ou (an see how- i, )ou1re (au+ht in a ri+hteous view- that )ou wou"d assume that I1m *romotin+ the o**osite F sa)in+ that *eo*"e shou"dn1t a(t in the wa) )our ri+hteous view*oint determines the) shou"d& and aware )ou are when ha""u(inatin+ on mushroomsO I, I did tea(h that- the door wou"d $e wide o*en- wou"dn1t itQ I1m not *romotin+ that view*oint F I1m not a(tua"") sa)in+ )ou shou"d disre+ard the *re(e*ts F $ut )ou (an see how- i, )ou1re (au+ht in a ri+hteous view- that )ou wou"d assume that I1m *romotin+ the o**osite F sa)in+ that *eo*"e shou"dn1t a(t in the wa) )our ri+hteous view*oint determines the) shou"d& Some o, )ou are *ro$a$") thin0in+- D'e"" I1m not read) ,or that )et- what )ou1re tea(hin+ is ,or advan(ed students& I need to just to "earn how to $e a +ood mon0 and a +ood nun&E This is ,ine- "earn how to $e a +ood mon0 or nun- $ut a"so (onne(t with just $ein+ aware& Intuitive Awareness The thin+ is not to tr) (om*"i(atin+ )ourse", even more $) ado*tin+ another ro"e- $ut to "earn to see and o$serve how the restri(tions o, this ,orm $rin+ into the o*en one1s resistan(e- indu"+en(e- atta(hment and aversion- to see that a"" o, these rea(tions are I"i0e this1& In this wa) )ou1re +oin+ $e)ond the dua"isti( stru(tures o, thou+ht and (onditioned *henomena& ou re,u+e is in the death"ess- the un(onditioned ^ in Dhamma itse", rather than someone e"se1s view a$out Dhamma& The thin+ is not to tr) (om*"i(atin+ )ourse", even more $) ado*tin+ another ro"e- $ut to "earn to see and o$serve how the restri(tions o, this ,orm $rin+ into the o*en one1s resistan(e- indu"+en(e- atta(hment and aversion- to see that a"" o, these rea(tions are I"i0e this1& In this wa) )ou1re +oin+ $e)ond the dua"isti( stru(tures o, thou+ht and (onditioned *henomena& ou re,u+e is in the death"ess- the un(onditioned ^ in Dhamma itse", rather than someone e"se1s view a$out Dhamma& One (an sa) Ddon1t $e se",ish- don1t $e stu*idE& Intuitive Awareness Emotiona"") we are "i0e that& I, we1re emotiona"") atta(hed to the wa) that we do thin+s then we do ,ee" threatened $) an)one who Cuestions it& I1ve ,ound in m) own "i,e that whenever I +et u*set $) someone (riti(i_in+ TheravRda Buddhism- our San+ha- or the wa) we do thin+s- it is due to m) *ersona"it) and its tenden() to atta(h and identi,) with these thin+s& ou (an1t trust that at a""& But )ou (an trust awareness& As )ou $e+in to re(o+ni_e it and 0now it- )ou (an rest more in $ein+ aware and "istenin+ to the sound o, si"en(e& As )ou sustain awareness in this wa)- (ons(iousness (an eB*and and $e(ome in,inite& 'hen this o((urs )ou are just *resent in a (ons(ious moment and )ou "ose the sense o, $ein+ a se", ^ $ein+ a *erson- this $od)& It just dro*s awa) and (an no "on+er sustain itse",& Emotiona"") we are "i0e that& I, we1re emotiona"") atta(hed to the wa) that we do thin+s then we do ,ee" threatened $) an)one who Cuestions it& I1ve ,ound in m) own "i,e that whenever I +et u*set $) someone (riti(i_in+ TheravRda Buddhism- our San+ha- or the wa) we do thin+s- it is due to m) *ersona"it) and its tenden() to atta(h and identi,) with these thin+s& ou (an1t trust that at a""& But )ou (an trust awareness& As )ou $e+in to re(o+ni_e it and 0now it- )ou (an rest more in $ein+ aware and "istenin+ to the sound o, si"en(e& As )ou sustain awareness in this wa)- (ons(iousness (an eB*and and $e(ome in,inite& 'hen this o((urs )ou are just *resent in a (ons(ious moment and )ou "ose the sense o, $ein+ a se", ^ $ein+ a *erson- this $od)& It just dro*s awa) and (an no "on+er sustain itse",& Intuitive Awareness to do that 0ind o, *ra(ti(e- $ut i, )ou ho"d on to it then )ou are "imited $) it- )ou (an1t ta0e "i,e as it (omes and instead )ou $e(ome (ontro""in+ o, ever)thin+& The resu"t o, this t)*e o, *ra(ti(e is that "i,e has to $e a (ertain wa)# DI have to $e at this *"a(e- "ive with these *eo*"e- not with those t)*e o, *eo*"e- I need these stru(tures and (onditions in order to $e a$"e to +et m) samRdhi&E So then )ou are $ound to that wa) o, stru(turin+ )our "i,e& to do that 0ind o, *ra(ti(e- $ut i, )ou ho"d on to it then )ou are "imited $) it- )ou (an1t ta0e "i,e as it (omes and instead )ou $e(ome (ontro""in+ o, ever)thin+& The resu"t o, this t)*e o, *ra(ti(e is that "i,e has to $e a (ertain wa)# DI have to $e at this *"a(e- "ive with these *eo*"e- not with those t)*e o, *eo*"e- I need these stru(tures and (onditions in order to $e a$"e to +et m) samRdhi&E So then )ou are $ound to that wa) o, stru(turin+ )our "i,e& /omin+ into the tem*"e this evenin+ was ver) ni(e indeed& The sti""ness o, the *"a(e is ,antasti(- isn1t itQ This is the $est *"a(e in the who"e wor"dO That1s on") an o*inion- )ou 0now- not a *ronoun(ementO I ,ind the sti""ness and si"en(e in this *"a(e to $e *a"*a$"e as soon as )ou (ome in& But then- (an I s*end the rest o, m) "i,e sittin+ in hereQ Sti""ness is here in the heart& The sti""ness is a$out $ein+ *resent- it1s not de*endent on a tem*"e or a *"a(e& Trustin+ in )our awareness )ou $e+in to noti(e that even in the midst o, *"a(es "i0e London and Ban+0o0- in (on,usin+ or a(rimonious situations- )ou (an a"wa)s re(o+ni_e this sti""ness on(e )ou va"ue and a**re(iate it& It does ta0e determination to $e a$"e to do this& .u(h o, the time it Intuitive Awareness doesn1t seem "i0e an)thin+ and havin+ +oa" F orientated *ra(ti(es seems more attra(tive# DI want somethin+ to do- somethin+ to +et m) teeth intoOE 'e1re (onditioned a"wa)s to $e doin+ somethin+ rather than just trustin+ and o*enin+ to the *resent& 'e (an even ma0e this into a $i+ dea"# DI1ve +ot to o*en to the *resent a"" o, the timeOE Then we just +ras* the idea o, it- whi(h is not what I mean& doesn1t seem "i0e an)thin+ and havin+ +oa" F orientated *ra(ti(es seems more attra(tive# DI want somethin+ to do- somethin+ to +et m) teeth intoOE 'e1re (onditioned a"wa)s to $e doin+ somethin+ rather than just trustin+ and o*enin+ to the *resent& 'e (an even ma0e this into a $i+ dea"# DI1ve +ot to o*en to the *resent a"" o, the timeOE Then we just +ras* the idea o, it- whi(h is not what I mean& Intuitive Awareness O$servin+ Atta(hment /ons(iousness is what we are a"" eB*erien(in+ ri+ht now F it is the $ondin+ eB*erien(e that we a"" have ri+ht at this moment& /ons(iousness is a$out the rea"m o, ,orm& 'e eB*erien(e (ons(iousness throu+h ,orm& 'hen we (ontem*"ate the ,our e"ements GdhRtuH# earth- water- ,ire- air and addin+ two more +ive us s*a(e and (ons(iousness- this is a tota"it) o, eB*erien(e in terms o, an individua" human $ein+& The *h)si(a" (ondition o, a $od) and the *h)si(a" rea"m whi(h we "ive in is a (om$ination o, these ,our e"ements- (om$ined with s*a(e and (ons(iousness& 'e (an (ontem*"ate the ,our e"ements in our own $od) as a wa) o, "oo0in+ at the $od) as a wa) where one does not see it as a *ersona" identit) or as somethin+ $e"on+in+ to onese",& S*a(e and (ons(iousness have no $oundaries- the)1re in,inite& /ons(iousness- then- is what we1re usin+ in meditation in order to (ontem*"ate the wa) thin+s are& 'e +et ver) (on,used $e(ause (ons(iousness is not somethin+ we (an +et ho"d o, in the wa) that we (an see earth- water- ,ire and air- or (onditions o, the mind F emotions& Be(ause we are (ons(ious we (an a(tua"") $e aware o, thou+hts- and emotions- or the $od) as it eBists and mani,ests at the *resent moment& Sometimes we thin0 o, (ons(iousness in a ver) "imited Intuitive Awareness wa)- just as arisin+ throu+h (onta(t via the e)e- ear- nose- et( ^ just in terms o, sensor) (ons(iousness& In this (ase (ons(iousness is ver) mu(h "imited to *er(eivin+ throu+h the senses& But it is *ossi$"e to $e+in to re(o+ni_e (ons(iousness that is non! atta(hed to the senses- whi(h is what I *oint to when I re,er to the sound o, si"en(e& 'hen )ou $e+in to noti(e that sound- then- there is (ons(iousness that is unatta(hed& As )ou sustain awareness with the sound o, si"en(e then )ou ,ind )ou (an $e+in to re,"e(t and +et *ers*e(tive on )our thou+hts- emotions- ,ee"in+s- sense a(tivit) and eB*erien(e whi(h a"" arise in (ons(iousness in the *resent& wa)- just as arisin+ throu+h (onta(t via the e)e- ear- nose- et( ^ just in terms o, sensor) (ons(iousness& In this (ase (ons(iousness is ver) mu(h "imited to *er(eivin+ throu+h the senses& But it is *ossi$"e to $e+in to re(o+ni_e (ons(iousness that is non! atta(hed to the senses- whi(h is what I *oint to when I re,er to the sound o, si"en(e& 'hen )ou $e+in to noti(e that sound- then- there is (ons(iousness that is unatta(hed& As )ou sustain awareness with the sound o, si"en(e then )ou ,ind )ou (an $e+in to re,"e(t and +et *ers*e(tive on )our thou+hts- emotions- ,ee"in+s- sense a(tivit) and eB*erien(e whi(h a"" arise in (ons(iousness in the *resent& Nust rest in this state o, o*enness and re(e*tivit)& Don1t atta(h to the idea o, it& ou (an atta(h to the idea o, the sound o, si"en(e and o, attainin+ somethin+ with it- or 0ee* (reatin+ some ,a"se i""usions around it& Intuitive Awareness That1s not it ^ it1s not a matter o, tr)in+ to ma0e an)thin+ out o, it- $ut o, ,u"") o*enin+ to this *resent moment in a wa) that is unatta(hed& This re(o+nition o, non!atta(hment is somethin+ )ou 0now throu+h )our awareness rather than throu+h a des(ri*tion& A"" one (an sa) a$out it is thin+s "i0e# Ddon1t atta(h to an)thin+-E and D"et +o o, ever)thin+&E But then *eo*"e atta(h and sa)- Dwe shou"dn1t $e atta(hed to an)thin+E That1s not it ^ it1s not a matter o, tr)in+ to ma0e an)thin+ out o, it- $ut o, ,u"") o*enin+ to this *resent moment in a wa) that is unatta(hed& This re(o+nition o, non!atta(hment is somethin+ )ou 0now throu+h )our awareness rather than throu+h a des(ri*tion& A"" one (an sa) a$out it is thin+s "i0e# Ddon1t atta(h to an)thin+-E and D"et +o o, ever)thin+&E But then *eo*"e atta(h and sa)- Dwe shou"dn1t $e atta(hed to an)thin+E and so the) atta(h to the idea o, non!atta(hmentO 'e are so (ommitted to thin0in+ and tr)in+ to ,i+ure ever)thin+ out in terms o, ideas- theor)- te(hniCue- *art) "ine- the TheravRda a**roa(h &&& and so it +oes on and on "i0e this- and we $ind ourse"ves to the (onditions- even thou+h the tea(hin+ is a$out "ettin+ +o or non!atta(hment& This wh) I rea"") en(oura+e )ou to o$serve atta(hment& Trust )ourse", in this awareness& And- rather than ho"din+ to the views that one shou"dn1t $e atta(hed- re(o+ni_e that atta(hment is "i0e this& In the ear") da)s I used to *ra(tise atta(hin+ to thin+s intentiona"")- just so that I wou"d 0now what atta(hment is "i0e- rather than havin+ some idea that I shou"dn1t $e atta(hed to an)thin+ and then in some des*erate wa) a"wa)s tr)in+ to $e deta(hed ^ whi(h wou"d have on") $een se",!de(e*tion- as the $asi( de"usion that +ave rise to the atta(hment had not $een *enetrated& Thin0in+- DI1m someone who is atta(hed and I shou"dn1t $eE is an atta(hment- isn1t itQ DI am mon0 who has a"" these atta(hments- these han+!u*s- and the)1re o$stru(tions and I shou"dn1t $e atta(hed to them- I1ve +ot to +et rid o, them- "et +o o, them&E The atta(hment to that resu"ts Intuitive Awareness in )ou ,oo"in+ )ourse", and end"ess") disa**ointin+ )ourse", $e(ause )ou (an1t do it that wa) ^ it doesn1t wor0& This is wh) I em*hasi_e this *ure state o, (ons(iousness& Now don1t just ta0e it ,or +ranted& Don1t tr) to ,i+ure it out or thin0 a$out it ver) mu(h# "earn to just do it& Nust (onta(t this resonatin+ sound or vi$ration- "earn to sta) with it ,or a (ount o, ,ive- or *ra(tise so that )ou +et used to it and a**re(iate it& I, )ou rea"") (u"tivate it- it +ives )ou this state where )ou $e+in to $e (ons(ious without $ein+ atta(hed- so that the (onditions whi(h arise in (ons(iousness ma) $e seen in the *ers*e(tive o, arisin+ and (easin+& in )ou ,oo"in+ )ourse", and end"ess") disa**ointin+ )ourse", $e(ause )ou (an1t do it that wa) ^ it doesn1t wor0& This is wh) I em*hasi_e this *ure state o, (ons(iousness& Now don1t just ta0e it ,or +ranted& Don1t tr) to ,i+ure it out or thin0 a$out it ver) mu(h# "earn to just do it& Nust (onta(t this resonatin+ sound or vi$ration- "earn to sta) with it ,or a (ount o, ,ive- or *ra(tise so that )ou +et used to it and a**re(iate it& I, )ou rea"") (u"tivate it- it +ives )ou this state where )ou $e+in to $e (ons(ious without $ein+ atta(hed- so that the (onditions whi(h arise in (ons(iousness ma) $e seen in the *ers*e(tive o, arisin+ and (easin+& To man) *eo*"e- "ove is the u"timate atta(hment# when )ou "ove some$od) )ou want to *ossess them& O,ten what *asses ,or "ove in modern (ons(iousness is a ver) stron+ atta(hment to another *erson- thin+ or (reature& But i, )ou rea"") want to a**") this word to that whi(h a((e*ts- then )ou have mettR ^ "ove whi(h is unatta(hed- whi(h has no *re,eren(es- whi(h a((e*ts ever)thin+ and sees ever)thin+ as $e"on+in+& Intuitive Awareness 'hen )ou $e+in to trust in the awareness- the (ons(ious moment that is in,inite- then ever)thin+ $e"on+s in it& 2rom the *ers*e(tive o, this (ons(ious $ein+- whatever arises in this (ons(iousness is a((e*ted and we"(omed- whether it1s throu+h the senses ,rom the outside or ,rom inside ^ the emotiona" and *h)si(a" (onditions whi(h $e(ome (ons(ious in this *resent moment& This sense o, "ove- a((e*tan(e and non!jud+ement a((e*ts ever)thin+ that )ou are thin0in+- ,ee"in+ and eB*erien(in+A it a""ows ever)thin+ to $e what it is& 'hen we don1t a""ow thin+s to $e as the) are- then we are tr)in+ to +et somethin+ that we don1t have or +et rid o, somethin+ that we don1t want& So in terms o, *uri,)in+ the mind- (ons(iousness is a"read) *ure& ou don1t need to *uri,) itA )ou don1t have to do an)thin+& 'hen )ou $e+in to trust in the awareness- the (ons(ious moment that is in,inite- then ever)thin+ $e"on+s in it& 2rom the *ers*e(tive o, this (ons(ious $ein+- whatever arises in this (ons(iousness is a((e*ted and we"(omed- whether it1s throu+h the senses ,rom the outside or ,rom inside ^ the emotiona" and *h)si(a" (onditions whi(h $e(ome (ons(ious in this *resent moment& This sense o, "ove- a((e*tan(e and non!jud+ement a((e*ts ever)thin+ that )ou are thin0in+- ,ee"in+ and eB*erien(in+A it a""ows ever)thin+ to $e what it is& 'hen we don1t a""ow thin+s to $e as the) are- then we are tr)in+ to +et somethin+ that we don1t have or +et rid o, somethin+ that we don1t want& So in terms o, *uri,)in+ the mind- (ons(iousness is a"read) *ure& ou don1t need to *uri,) itA )ou don1t have to do an)thin+& F we a((e*t $oth- non!(riti(a"")& That to me is what "ove is- it1s non!(riti(a"& That a**"ies most to what arises in m) (ons(iousness- m) own 0amma- emotions- ,ee"in+s and memories whi(h arise in the moment& Behind it a"" is the sound o, si"en(e& It1s "i0e Intuitive Awareness this enormous- vast- in,inite s*a(e that a""ows thin+s to $e what the) are- $e(ause ever)thin+ $e"on+s& The nature o, (onditions is to arise and (ease- that is the wa) it is& So we don1t demand that the) are otherwise or (om*"ain $e(ause we1d "i0e to ho"d onto the +ood stu,, and annihi"ate the $ad& Our true nature is *ure& 'hen we $e+in to rea"i_e and ,u"") trust and a**re(iate this we see that this is rea"& It1s not theoreti(a"- a$stra(t or an idea F it1s rea"it)& this enormous- vast- in,inite s*a(e that a""ows thin+s to $e what the) are- $e(ause ever)thin+ $e"on+s& The nature o, (onditions is to arise and (ease- that is the wa) it is& So we don1t demand that the) are otherwise or (om*"ain $e(ause we1d "i0e to ho"d onto the +ood stu,, and annihi"ate the $ad& Our true nature is *ure& 'hen we $e+in to rea"i_e and ,u"") trust and a**re(iate this we see that this is rea"& It1s not theoreti(a"- a$stra(t or an idea F it1s rea"it)& Intuitive Awareness that *urit) is im*ossi$"e to destro)& The *ro$"em "ies not in $e(omin+ im*ure $ut in the atta(hment to the i""usion that we (reate in our mind# the demon is so atta(hed to $ein+ a demon that he ,or+ets his ori+ina" *urit)- this *resen(e here and now& that *urit) is im*ossi$"e to destro)& The *ro$"em "ies not in $e(omin+ im*ure $ut in the atta(hment to the i""usion that we (reate in our mind# the demon is so atta(hed to $ein+ a demon that he ,or+ets his ori+ina" *urit)- this *resen(e here and now& Intuitive Awareness 5@8 Not Loo0in+ ,or Answers Not As0in+ ,or 2avours I used to hate the ,ee"in+ o, $ein+ (on,used& Instead- I "oved havin+ a sense o, (ertaint) and menta" ("arit)& 'henever I ,e"t (on,used $) an)thin+- I1d tr) to ,ind some 0ind o, ("ear answer- to +et rid o, the emotiona" state o, (on,usion& I1d distra(t m)se", ,rom it or tr) to +et some$od) e"se to +ive me the answer& I wanted the authorities- the Ajahns- the $i+ +u)s- to (ome and sa)- DThat1s ri+ht- that1s wron+- that1s +ood- that1s $ad&E I wanted to $e ("ear and needed some$od)- an authorit) ,i+ure that I trusted and res*e(ted- to strai+hten me out& Sometimes we thin0 that thin+s "i0e +ood tea(hers- meditation retreats- the *re(e*ts- the Re,u+es- or a wonder,u" San+ha are +oin+ to ma0e us rea"") ha**) and so"ve a"" our *ro$"ems& 'e rea(h out ,or he"* ,rom outside ho*in+ this or that wi"" do it ,or us& It1s "i0e wantin+ 4od to (ome and he"* us out o, the mess& And then when He doesn1t (ome and so"ve our *ro$"ems- we don1t $e"ieve in 4od an)more& EI as0ed Him to he"* and He didn1t&E This is a (hi"d"i0e wa) o, "oo0in+ at "i,e& 'e +et ourse"ves into trou$"e and eB*e(t momm) and dadd) to (ome and save the da)- to ("ean u* the mess we1ve made& Intuitive Awareness One time )ears a+o- I $e(ame ver) (on,used when I ,ound out that one o, our Ameri(an Buddhist nuns had "e,t our (ommunit) and $e(ome a $orn!a+ain /hristian& I had just $een sa)in+ to another nun- DShe1s rea"") wonder,u"- she1s so wise- she1s so *ure! hearted& She1"" $e a +reat ins*iration to )ou in )our nun1s "i,e&E I was rea"") em$arrassed and (on,used when I heard the news& I thou+ht- DHow (ou"d she ,a"" ,or itQE I remem$er as0in+ m) tea(her Ajahn /hah- DHow (ou"d she do thatQE He "oo0ed at me with a mis(hievous smi"e and said- D.a)$e she1s ri+ht&E He made me "oo0 at what I was doin+ ^ ,ee"in+ de,ensive and *aranoid- wantin+ a ("ear eB*"anation- wantin+ to understand- wantin+ him to te"" me that she1d $etra)ed the Buddhist re"i+ion& So I started "oo0in+ at the (on,usion& 'hen I $e+an to em$ra(e it and tota"") a((e*t it- it dro**ed awa)& Throu+h a(0now"ed+in+ the emotiona" (on,usion- it (eased $ein+ a *ro$"emA it seemed to disso"ve into thin air& I $e(ame aware o, how mu(h I resisted (on,usion as an eB*erien(e& One time )ears a+o- I $e(ame ver) (on,used when I ,ound out that one o, our Ameri(an Buddhist nuns had "e,t our (ommunit) and $e(ome a $orn!a+ain /hristian& I had just $een sa)in+ to another nun- DShe1s rea"") wonder,u"- she1s so wise- she1s so *ure! hearted& She1"" $e a +reat ins*iration to )ou in )our nun1s "i,e&E I was rea"") em$arrassed and (on,used when I heard the news& I thou+ht- DHow (ou"d she ,a"" ,or itQE I remem$er as0in+ m) tea(her Ajahn /hah- DHow (ou"d she do thatQE He "oo0ed at me with a mis(hievous smi"e and said- D.a)$e she1s ri+ht&E He made me "oo0 at what I was doin+ ^ ,ee"in+ de,ensive and *aranoid- wantin+ a ("ear eB*"anation- wantin+ to understand- wantin+ him to te"" me that she1d $etra)ed the Buddhist re"i+ion& So I started "oo0in+ at the (on,usion& 'hen I $e+an to em$ra(e it and tota"") a((e*t it- it dro**ed awa)& Throu+h a(0now"ed+in+ the emotiona" (on,usion- it (eased $ein+ a *ro$"emA it seemed to disso"ve into thin air& I $e(ame aware o, how mu(h I resisted (on,usion as an eB*erien(e& Intuitive Awareness The Buddha s*o0e instead o, one who "istens- who *a)s attention- who is awa0e- who is attentive here and now& One whose mind is o*en and re(e*tive- trustin+ in the *resent moment and in onese",& This is his en(oura+ement to us& Our attitude towards meditation need not $e one o, strivin+ to +et rid o, thin+s# our de,i"ements- our 0i"esas- our ,au"ts- in order to $e(ome somethin+ $etter& It shou"d $e one o, o*enin+ u*- *a)in+ attention to "i,e- eB*erien(in+ the here and now- and trustin+ in our a$i"it) to re(eive "i,e as eB*erien(e& 'e don1t have to do an)thin+ with it& 'e don1t have to strai+hten out a"" the (roo0ed *arts- so"ve ever) *ro$"em- justi,) ever)thin+- or ma0e ever)thin+ $etter& A,ter a""- there wi"" a"wa)s $e somethin+ wron+ when we1re "ivin+ in the (onditioned rea"m with me- with the *eo*"e I "ive with- with the monaster)- with the retreat (entre- with the (ountr)& /onditions are a"wa)s (han+in+A we wi"" never ,ind an) *ermanent *er,e(tion& 'e ma) eB*erien(e a *ea0 moment when ever)thin+ is wonder,u" and just what we want it to $e- $ut we (an1t sustain the (onditions o, that moment& 'e (an1t "ive at the *ea0 *oint o, inha"ationA we have to eBha"e& The Buddha s*o0e instead o, one who "istens- who *a)s attention- who is awa0e- who is attentive here and now& One whose mind is o*en and re(e*tive- trustin+ in the *resent moment and in onese",& This is his en(oura+ement to us& Our attitude towards meditation need not $e one o, strivin+ to +et rid o, thin+s# our de,i"ements- our 0i"esas- our ,au"ts- in order to $e(ome somethin+ $etter& It shou"d $e one o, o*enin+ u*- *a)in+ attention to "i,e- eB*erien(in+ the here and now- and trustin+ in our a$i"it) to re(eive "i,e as eB*erien(e& 'e don1t have to do an)thin+ with it& 'e don1t have to strai+hten out a"" the (roo0ed *arts- so"ve ever) *ro$"em- justi,) ever)thin+- or ma0e ever)thin+ $etter& A,ter a""- there wi"" a"wa)s $e somethin+ wron+ when we1re "ivin+ in the (onditioned rea"m with me- with the *eo*"e I "ive with- with the monaster)- with the retreat (entre- with the (ountr)& /onditions are a"wa)s (han+in+A we wi"" never ,ind an) *ermanent *er,e(tion& 'e ma) eB*erien(e a *ea0 moment when ever)thin+ is wonder,u" and just what we want it to $e- $ut we (an1t sustain the (onditions o, that moment& 'e (an1t "ive at the *ea0 *oint o, inha"ationA we have to eBha"e& Intuitive Awareness to ta0e re,u+e in our own a$i"it) to $e awa0e- to *a) attention to "i,e no matter what the (onditions mi+ht $e in the *resent moment& The sim*"e wi""in+ness to a(0now"ed+e thin+s ,or what the) are ^ as (han+in+ (onditions ^ "i$erates us ,rom $ein+ (au+ht in the *ower o, atta(hment- in stru++"in+ with the emotions or thou+hts that we1re eB*erien(in+& to ta0e re,u+e in our own a$i"it) to $e awa0e- to *a) attention to "i,e no matter what the (onditions mi+ht $e in the *resent moment& The sim*"e wi""in+ness to a(0now"ed+e thin+s ,or what the) are ^ as (han+in+ (onditions ^ "i$erates us ,rom $ein+ (au+ht in the *ower o, atta(hment- in stru++"in+ with the emotions or thou+hts that we1re eB*erien(in+& Tr) this out in )our meditation& Noti(e what )ou don1t "i0e- don1t want- hate- or are ,ri+htened o,& 'hen )ou resist these thin+s- )ou1re a(tua"") em*owerin+ them- +ivin+ them tremendous in,"uen(e and *ower over )our (ons(ious eB*erien(e o, "i,e& But when )ou we"(ome and o*en u* to the ,"ow o, "i,e in $oth its +ood and $ad as*e(ts- what ha**ensQ I 0now ,rom m) eB*erien(e that when I1m a((e*tin+ and we"(omin+ o, (onditioned eB*erien(e- thin+s dro* awa) ,rom me& The) (ome in and the) +o awa)& 'e1re a(tua"") o*enin+ the door- "ettin+ in a"" the ,ear- anBiet)- worr)- resentment- an+er and +rie,& This doesn1t mean that we have to a**rove o, or "i0e what1s ha**enin+& Intuitive Awareness It1s not a$out ma0in+ mora" jud+ments& It1s sim*") a$out a(0now"ed+in+ the *resen(e o, whatever we1re eB*erien(in+ in a we"(omin+ wa) ^ not tr)in+ to +et rid o, it $) resistin+ it- and not ho"din+ on to it or identi,)in+ with it& 'hen we1re tota"") a((e*tin+ o, somethin+ as it eBists in the *resent- then we (an $e+in to re(o+ni_e the (essation o, those (onditions& It1s not a$out ma0in+ mora" jud+ments& It1s sim*") a$out a(0now"ed+in+ the *resen(e o, whatever we1re eB*erien(in+ in a we"(omin+ wa) ^ not tr)in+ to +et rid o, it $) resistin+ it- and not ho"din+ on to it or identi,)in+ with it& 'hen we1re tota"") a((e*tin+ o, somethin+ as it eBists in the *resent- then we (an $e+in to re(o+ni_e the (essation o, those (onditions& This has $een a rea"") va"ua$"e thin+ ,or me to 0now& It1s tau+ht me not to as0 ,or ,avours in "i,e- or to ho*e that i, I meditate a "ot- I (an avoid un*"easant eB*erien(es& D4od- I1ve $een a mon0 ,or thirt)!three )ears& 3"ease reward me ,or $ein+ a +ood $o)&E I1ve tried that and it doesn1t wor0& To a((e*t "i,e without ma0in+ an) *"eas is ver) "i$eratin+- $e(ause I no "on+er ,ee" a need to (ontro" or mani*u"ate (onditions ,or m) own $ene,it& I don1t need to worr) or ,ee" Intuitive Awareness anBious a$out m) ,uture& There1s a sense o, trust and (on,iden(e- a ,ear"essness that (omes throu+h "earnin+ to trust- to re"aB- to o*en to "i,e- and to investi+ate eB*erien(e rather than to resist or $e ,ri+htened $) it& I, )ou1re wi""in+ to "earn ,rom the su,,erin+ in "i,e- )ou1"" ,ind the unsha0a$i"it) o, )our own mind& anBious a$out m) ,uture& There1s a sense o, trust and (on,iden(e- a ,ear"essness that (omes throu+h "earnin+ to trust- to re"aB- to o*en to "i,e- and to investi+ate eB*erien(e rather than to resist or $e ,ri+htened $) it& I, )ou1re wi""in+ to "earn ,rom the su,,erin+ in "i,e- )ou1"" ,ind the unsha0a$i"it) o, )our own mind& Intuitive Awareness 4"ossar) The ,o""owin+ words are most") 3R"i- the "an+ua+e o, the TheravRda Buddhist S(ri*tures GTi*i]a0aH& The) are $rie, trans"ations ,or Cui(0 re,eren(e- rather than eBhaustive or re,ined de,initions& A Ajahn# GThaiH Tea(herA ,rom the 3R"i R(ari)a# in the 'est a $hi00hu or sT"adharR who has (om*"eted ten rains retreats GLassaH& AttR# Litera"")- Ise",1- i&e& the e+o- *ersona"it)& AnattR# Litera"")- Inot!se",1- i&e& im*ersona"- without individua" essen(eA neither a *erson- nor $e"on+in+ to a *erson& One o, the three (hara(teristi(s o, (onditioned *henomena& Ani((a# Transient- im*ermanent- unsta$"e- havin+ the nature to arise and *ass awa)& One o, the three (hara(teristi(s o, (onditioned *henomena& brammaUa# .enta" o$je(tsA in Thai usa+e as"o mood- emotion& Ari)a# No$"e& Asu$ha# Non!$eauti,u"& Asu$ha!0ammR]]hRna is a *ra(ti(e that invo"ves (ontem*"atin+ the various unattra(tive *arts o, the $od)& Atta0i"amathRnu)o+a# Se",!morti,i(ation- se",!torture& AvijjR# I+noran(e- not 0nowin+- de"usion& AvijjR*a((a)R saa0hRrR# I+noran(e as a (ondition ,or menta" ,ormations& B BhRvanR# .editation or menta" (u"tivation& Bhi00hu# A ,u"") ordained Buddhist mon0& Bodhisattva# Litera"")- Ione who is intent on ,u"" en"i+htenment1& En"i+htenment is de"a)ed so that a"" the virtues G*RramTH are deve"o*ed& D DevadWta# Litera"")- Iheaven") messen+er1& There are ,our su(h Intuitive Awareness messen+ers# o"d a+e- si(0ness- death and a renun(iant& DesanR# A ta"0 on the tea(hin+s o, the Buddha& messen+ers# o"d a+e- si(0ness- death and a renun(iant& DesanR# A ta"0 on the tea(hin+s o, the Buddha& turesA not do+mati( in (hara(ter- $ut more "i0e a ra,t or vehi("e to (onve) the dis(i*"e to de"iveran(e& A"so the truth towards whi(h that Tea(hin+ *ointsA that whi(h is $e)ond words- (on(e*ts or inte""e(tua" understandin+& Dhamma!Lina)a# The tea(hin+s and monasti( dis(i*"ine& Dhutan+a# S*e(ia" renu(iant o$servan(es& Du00ha# Litera"")- Ihard to $ear1& Dis!ease- dis(ontent or su,,erin+- an+uish- (on,"i(t- unsatis,a(toriness& One o, the three (hara(teristi(s o, (onditioned *henomena& H HTna)Rna# Litera"")- I"esser vehi("e1& A term (oined $) .aha)Rna Buddhists ,or a +rou* o, ear"ier Buddhist s(hoo"s& One o, the three major Buddhist traditions# see TheravRda& N NhRna# .editative a$sor*tionsA dee* states o, ra*ture- jo) and one!*ointedness& K KRmasu0ha""i0Rnu)o+a# Sensua" indu"+en(e& KRmarR+a(arita# A "ust,u"- +reed) t)*e *erson& Kamma# A(tion or (ause whi(h is (reated $) ha$itua" im*u"ses- vo"itions- intentions& In *o*u"ar usa+e- it o,ten in("udes the resu"t or e,,e(t o, the a(tion- a"thou+h the *ro*er term ,or this is vi*R0a& Kamma!vi*R0a# The Ie,,e(t1 or resu"t o, 0amma& Khandha# 4rou*- a++re+ate- hea* ^ the term the Buddha used to re,er to ea(h o, the ,ive (om*onents o, human *s)(ho!*h)si(a" eBisten(e& G2orm- ,ee"in+s- *er(e*tions- sense!(ons(iousness- menta" ,ormations&H Ki"esa# De,i"ementsA unwho"esome Cua"ities that ("oud the mind& Ku]i# hutA t)*i(a" a$ode o, a ,orest $hi00hu& Intuitive Awareness Lo0avidW# IKnower o, the wor"d&1 An e*ithet o, the Buddha& Luan+ 3or# GThaiH Litera"") means Irevered ,ather1& Tit"e o, res*e(t and a,,e(tion ,or an e"der mon0& Lo0avidW# IKnower o, the wor"d&1 An e*ithet o, the Buddha& Luan+ 3or# GThaiH Litera"") means Irevered ,ather1& Tit"e o, res*e(t and a,,e(tion ,or an e"der mon0& N Ni$$Rna# Litera"")- IeBtin+uishin+ o, a ,ire1A 2reedom ,rom atta(hments- Cuen(hin+- (oo"ness& The $asis ,or the en"i+htened vision o, thin+s as the) are& 3 3aSSR# Dis(riminative wisdom& 3WjR# A devotiona" o,,erin+& 3R"i# The an(ient Indian "an+ua+e o, the TheravRda /anon- a0in to Sans0rit& The (o""e(tion o, teBts *reserved $) the TheravRda s(hoo" and- $) eBtension- the "an+ua+e in whi(h those teBts are (om*osed& 3a]i((asamu**Rda# IDe*endent ori+ination&1 It eB*"ains the wa) *s)(ho!*h)si(a" *henomena (ome into $ein+& 3a]i*adR# Litera")- Iwa)-*ath1A *uttin+ the tea(hin+s into *ra(ti(e& 3RramT# I3er,e(tion1# the ten *er,e(tions in TheravRda Buddhism ,or rea"isin+ Buddhahood are +ivin+- mora"it)- renun(iation- wisdom- ener+)- *atien(e- truth,u"ness- determination- "ovin+!0indness and eCuanimit)& 3aramattha!sa((a# U"timate truth& 3en *a((attaV# GThaiH Somethin+ that )ou rea"ise ,or )ourse",& 3iUca*Rta# A"ms ,oodA or the a"ms round on whi(h the ,ood is re(eived& Intuitive Awareness R R i&e& earth- water- ,ire and air Gso"idit)- (ohesion- tem*erature and motion or vi$rationH& S SaSSa# 3er(e*tion Saa0hRrR# .enta" ,ormations& Sa00R)a!di]]hi# 3ersona"it) view& SR"R# A ha""# usua"") where the monasti(s eat their ,ood and other (eremonies are he"d& ST"a# .ora" virtue- a"so used to re,er to the *re(e*ts o, mora" (ondu(t& ST"adharR# I One who u*ho"ds virtue1- a term used ,or Buddhists nuns ordained $) Ajahn Sumedho& SamRdhi# .editative (on(entration SamaUa# Renun(iant Gtermed ,or ordained mon0s or nunsH& SamsRra!va]]a# The (ir("e o, $irth and death& San+ha# The (ommunit) o, those who *ra(ti(e the Buddha1s wa)& .ore s*e(i,i(a"")- those who have ,orma"") (ommitted themse"ves to the "i,est)"e o, a mendi(ant mon0 or nun& Sati!*aSSR# Litera"")- Imind,u"ness and dis(riminative wisdom1& Sati!sam*ajaSSa# Litera"")- Imind,u"ness and ("ear understandin+1& A"so intuitive awareness- a**er(e*tion& So0a!*arideva!du00ha!domanassu*R)RsR# Litera"")- Isorrow- "amentation- *ain- +rie, and des*air1& Sutta# Dis(ourse o, the Buddha& T TheravRda# Litera"")- IThe Tea(hin+ o, the E"ders1- is the name o, the o"dest ,orm o, the Buddha1s tea(hin+s with teBts in the 3R"i "an+ua+e& The ISouthern s(hoo"1 o, Sri Lan0a and South! East Asia& Intuitive Awareness U U d and rea"ise the tea(hin+s o, the Buddha& Lajra)Rna# A Buddhist s(hoo" that ma0es eBtensive use o, s)m$o"s and mantras to (onve) tea(hin+s& Asso(iated with Ti$et *rimari")& LedanR# 2ee"in+s or sensations- o, *"easure- *ain or neutra"it)& LiSSRUa# Sense!(ons(iousness- (o+ni_an(e& Lina)a# The monasti( dis(i*"ine- or the s(ri*tura" (o""e(tion o, its ru"es and (ommentaries on them& Li*assanR# Insi+ht meditation- I"oo0in+ into thin+s1 Live0a# Litera"")- Ideta(hment1 or Iso"itude1& ' 'at# GThaiH .onaster) or tem*"e&
Rna# Litera"")- 1vehi("e1& Intuitive Awareness Intuitive Awareness 58: Bio+ra*h) Ajahn Sumedho was $orn in Seatt"e- 'ashin+ton- in 5?6>& A,ter servin+ ,our )ears in the US Nav) as a medi(- he (om*"eted a BA in 2ar Eastern Studies and a .A in South Asian Studies& In 5?@@- he went to Thai"and to *ra(ti(e meditation at 'at .ahathat in Ban+0o0& Not "on+ a,terwards he went ,orth as a novi(e mon0 in a remote *art o, the (ountr)- Non+ Khai- and )ear o, so"itar) *ra(ti(e ,o""owedA he re(eived ,u"" ordination in 5?@9& A"thou+h ,ruit,u"- the so"itar) *ra(ti(e showed him the need ,or a tea(her who (ou"d more a(tive") +uide him& A ,ortuitous en(ounter with a visitin+ mon0 "ed him to U$on *rovin(e- to *ra(ti(e with Lenera$"e Ajahn /hah& He too0 de*enden(e ,rom Lenera$"e Ajahn /hah and remained under his ("ose +uidan(e ,or ten )ears& In 5?9<- Ajahn Sumedho- esta$"ished 'at 3ah Nana(hat- Internationa" 2orest .onaster) where 'esterners (ou"d $e trained in En+"ish& In 5?99- he a((om*anied Ajahn /hah to En+"and and too0 u* residen(e at the Ham*stead Lihara with three other mon0s& Ajahn Sumedho has ordained more than a hundred as*irants o, man) nationa"ities and has esta$"ished three monasteries in En+"and- as we"" as $ran(h monasteries oversees& He is (urrent") resident as senior in(um$ent at AmarRvatT Buddhist .onaster) in Hert,ordshire& Intuitive Awareness &&&I.editation1 (an mean a"" 0inds o, thin+s& It1s a word that in("udes an) 0ind o, menta" *ra(ti(es- +ood or $ad& But when I use this word- what I1m main") usin+ it ,or is that sense o, (entrin+- that sense o, esta$"ishin+- restin+ in the (entre& The on") wa) that one (an rea"") do that is not to tr) and thin0 a$out it and ana")se itA )ou have to trust in just a sim*"e a(t o, attention- o, awareness& It1s so sim*"e and so dire(t that our (om*"i(ated minds +et ver) (on,used& D'hat1s he ta"0in+ a$outQ I1ve never seen an) sti"" *oint& I1ve never ,ound a sti"" *oint in me& 'hen I sit and meditate- there1s nothin+ sti"" a$out it&E But there1s an awareness o, that& Even i, )ou thin0 )ou1ve never had a sti"" *oint or )ou1re a (on,used- messed!u* (hara(ter that rea"") (an1t meditate- trust in the awareness o, that ver) *er(e*tion&&& &&&I.editation1 (an mean a"" 0inds o, thin+s& It1s a word that in("udes an) 0ind o, menta" *ra(ti(es- +ood or $ad& But when I use this word- what I1m main") usin+ it ,or is that sense o, (entrin+- that sense o, esta$"ishin+- restin+ in the (entre& The on") wa) that one (an rea"") do that is not to tr) and thin0 a$out it and ana")se itA )ou have to trust in just a sim*"e a(t o, attention- o, awareness& It1s so sim*"e and so dire(t that our (om*"i(ated minds +et ver) (on,used& D'hat1s he ta"0in+ a$outQ I1ve never seen an) sti"" *oint& I1ve never ,ound a sti"" *oint in me& 'hen I sit and meditate- there1s nothin+ sti"" a$out it&E But there1s an awareness o, that& Even i, )ou thin0 )ou1ve never had a sti"" *oint or )ou1re a (on,used- messed!u* (hara(ter that rea"") (an1t meditate- trust in the awareness o, that ver) *er(e*tion&&& Heme" Hem*stead- H35 6B7- En+"and www&amaravati&or+ 2or 2ree distri$ution