03 - [Park Chanyeol]

After she was gone, I no longer knew the meaning of smiles. Hello everyone, Im the happy virus Chanyeol. I pretended to look happy as smiled at the camera. After that, a clear and soft voice came from beside. Hello, Im..ermin charge of eyeliner in the group, Baekhyun. slender fingers swaying before my eyes. How annoying. Actually, many of the viewers are very curious about this, The host looked at us, interested, there are some rumours saying that Baekhyun and Chanyeol dont get along with each other. Is this true? Just when I felt that guy was about so say something, the host cut in. Is it because of women? Not at all. I immediately denied, I dont even know where these rumours came from, there must have been some misunderstanding. All of the members are really close with each other, and, none of us have had a girlfriend since debut. I felt Baekhyun tilt his head to take a glance at me. Denying it did make me feel a little uneasy. After all, the interviewer this time was rather famous in the entertainment industry. Things between me and Baekhyun arent exactly unknown, and it was unlikely for him to be unaware of it. But there could be nothing done. Being artists, every second was acting. The interviewer gave us a long and meaningful smile, So its just like how everyone sees it to be? All the members are very close? Yes. This time, it was Luhan who replied. Then are there members who behave very differently off-camera? He waved to the camera,

Before I could respond to the question, I heard Sehun spoke. Chanyeol hyung, he Luhan turned around to look at Sehun and stepped hard onto Sehuns feet where the camera could not capture. Ah, noactually, its Baekhyun hyung, he Luhan was about to roll his eyes. Of course the one with the biggest difference off camera would be Sehun, Kyungsoo who was silent the whole time replied, Sehun always seem meek and obedient infront of the camera, but when he is with us, he messes around a lot. The interviewer carried on with the other topics, but I did not feel like listening anymore. - - Byun Baek hyun, looks like both of us are pretty good at acting.

I say, maknae, please think before you speak will you? You shouldnt be finding more topics for the host to talk about! When the show ended, Tae Shin Hyung reprimanded Sehun while jabbing a finger at Sehuns forehead. ButIt wasnt even anything sensitiveSehun complained while pouting. Who said it wasnt? Why dont you go look at the newspapers! Its alright, Tae Shin Hyung. It isnt that severe. I tried to advice. Yeah, yeah. Schedule is over now, lets go eat. Sehun said. Hm, I heard theres this restaurant which is pretty good, why dont we go try the place out? Luhan immediately followed with the flow of the conversation, Come with us too, Baekhyun? It was only then when I noticed Byun Baekhyun who was standing the furthest away. He who originally had his head down looked up at the sudden question directed at him. - - The face that I dislike looking at the most. NNevermind. Come with us.

Its alright my stomach doesnt feel wellall of a sudden, I think Im going back to rest first If you looked closely, his face did seem a little pale. Even so, he looked ridiculous to me. You are saying this, so someone would care for you right? You dont suit trying to act pitiful, Byun Baekhyun. Chanyeol Luhan was pulling at me. Thats because no one will be fooled by your acts anymore. Park Chanyeol. Luhan stopped me in a stern voice, Enough. Byun Baekhyun only lowered his head, and remained silent. I remained silent as well, because I did not want to ruin everyones mood. I stared at him coldly with my arms folded, seeing if he could try to come up with whatever new tricks. Luhan asked him in a soft voice, Do you feel unwell? I should accompany you back first. No, its fine, I can walk back by myself. He kept his head looking downwards. Pretending to be exhausted and worn out, trying to earn more pity huh? Maybe you should cut down a little on that, no one will be on your side. If you did something wrong, you should just stand there quietly. No - you should just disappear. Dont ever dream of being forgiven, even if the others can, I wont ever. It was right that you didnt come with us. Seeing you ruins my mood. I left the cold words before walking out. How did we become like this? Our group.

Or maybe I should say, Byun Baekhyun and I, how did we become like this? Nevermind, I dont want to recall. Whenever I think of his name, it makes my hands clench up. It was all because of him Suddenly, I recalled when I was asked about my ideal type on the interview just now. My ideal typeitd be good if she had long black hair, eyes raised at the ends, even better if she has a pretty eyesmile. Someone who is petite and delicate. She is very pretty. Very pretty when she smiles, very pretty when shes angry, even her lashes and fingers are pretty. Hayeon ah, did you hear that? Im always thinking of you. Do you know? Im yearning for you. When you are watching the television, surfing the internet, listening to music, will you be reminded of us? Then think of me as a total jerk. I wanted you to be by my side like crazythought of you like crazy. If I could see you again, I will go to all lengths to make you stay, and never let go of your hands. My Hayeon ahI really, miss you. When we returned to the dorm, it was already in the evening. I pushed open the bedroom door, and saw Byun Baekhyun he was curled up on the bed. He only looked up to take a glance at me when I entered, and then closed his eyes again. They arent here now, I looked at him icily, you dont need to bother act pitiful. yea Always acting like this, what for? To make everyone think that I always bully you? I told you, dont even dream about it. No one will stand at your side.

 He continued to keep his eyes closed, silent. It made me even more infuriated. I immediately dashed forward to tug his blanket off and pull him up from his position. Dont fucking pretend to be dead. He opened his eyes to look at me, face full of weariness. I feel really unwellI dont want to speak. You dare talk to me like that. Are you crazy, Byun Baekhyun. I tightened my grip on him as I said menacingly. Hes brows knitted a little, and his lips were almost colourless, looks like hes really sick. So what. Hes not good enough for my pity. Chanyeol, let go of me. Hes voice was weak. I let out a dry laugh. What if I said no. Park Chanyeol. What. He used all his strength to look up at me, dry and pale lips shivering in the process. Just, let me off for oncejust today. Just today. I smirked. And pulled him out of the bed to pin him against the wall, and leaned in to kiss him hardly. I wanted to gnaw on him, to tear him apart, and I wanted to see him in unbearable pain. His expression did twist up in pain, one hand continued to press down on his stomach, while the other, weakly grabbing onto me to prevent himself from falling. I must be crazy. - - This person before me.

- - I wanted to destroy him like crazy.