Navigating Out of The Static - On The Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

NAVIGATING OUT OF THE STATIC ON THE ULTIMATE STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS
by Cristina McGibben
NAVIGATING OUT OF THE STATIC ON THE ULTIMATE STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS Stream of consciousness is a narrative device used in literature "to depict the multitudinous thoughts and feelings which pass through the mind. Another phrase for it is 'interior monologue'. - Wikipedia The term stream of consciousness or stream of conscious thought has been used over the ages by writers for various reasons to let their thoughts flow, to energize their creative side and even to break through the writing blocks they may run into. It is a powerful tool and can often be insightful. Allowing your thoughts to flow can be a mind-based process, but I would like to offer the possibility that perhaps, at times, it comes from another place, deep inside of us that higher-self that has a greater understanding with a wider expanse of information from an unlimited and universal connection to our co-creative spiritual side that contains the power to manifest the changes we want in our lives. And so that is how this book shall be written - in the form of an ultimate stream of consciousness. Over the years I have experienced many times in my life where I pulled, from deep within, something that was beyond my years or apparent knowledge store of available information. Essentially, I believe we always have that little part of us built in that knows its way back home to the Source of all things and to happiness itself. This little tool, this little writing exercise, that is so often utilized by authors across the world, maybe more than just our minds thinking out random ideas. I would like to share with you my ultimate stream of consciousness in an effort to help navigate through the static that has overtaken so much of our world and especially for those of us who have fallen into a state of absolute discontent and depression as a result. This is how I navigated my way through it. Now sometimes in the silence we hear this little voice that comes over us and nags for us to listen and another larger booming voice of static that dampens it with the sounds of right and wrong and judgment and complaints. The little gentle voice is never gone though, its always there. Entirely in the back of our minds we think this little presence is some mystery or some guardian angel looking out for us. Frankly, what really matters is that its even there. This little reminder that what we see is not all there is; that things are not what they seem. What feels like a life time ago, I romped in the play grounds of a beautiful Episcopalian school that my mother worked several jobs to afford for me to attend. The children were unusually harsh in this upper class educational system in their effort to jockey for perceived power and status over one another, as all kids do but there were a lot of wealthy kids in this school and for whatever reason it seemed exacerbated by that. Also, there was even more severe competition found between those who were of similar statures of family wealth. The poorer kids apparently did not pose much of a threat, which was kind of nice because it largely took us out of the line of fire. In contrast to this, there was a man that stood out from the crowd, a former Navy man we called Father Sneary. He ran the school and the church services. He was unlike the rest, he would light up a room when he entered it; a gentle man of gardening and honesty. He walked the path of true spirit. It was in him that I found peace there in the midst of such infighting. I wasnt a rich kid, and somehow he was a reminder that rich was not in the
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house you owned of the car your parents drove; true wealth was in your spirit, your actions, your heart and your mind - or shall I say in minding your mind. Mind was definitely the challenge in my particular case. I drove myself to madness in a depression that came from almost nowhere. It started when I was around five years old, maybe even before that. I remember sitting on top of our dog kennel after climbing up to it from the fruit tree nearby. I sat up there writing in this little book some dark and hopeless thoughts, almost like poetry. I even distinctly remember thinking it was unnatural for a child to write such dark things. A thought a five year old would usually not have. Today, life is a staggering of memories for me. It seems trying to pull any details is almost impossible. I am able to wrestle from my mind the concepts obtained over time and yet the specifics on any of those are always out of reach. It became such a frustration that I eventually turned to methods of memory like databases and spreadsheets, especially in the workplace, in order to recollect the details of the concepts I retain so easily by comparison. Its odd though its almost as if the details fade because they are so unimportant. I find reading books to be equally as strange. In some cases I can read all the way through the book, but there is often a situation where sections are un-absorbable. As if my mind rejects certain data. History was especially impossible, as was economy. I found that over time the history books became adjusted in their own memories. Like the data was just rewritten midstream. Not to say its conspiracy just that for whatever reason someone found it necessary to change the way it was retold. It was, in fact, a very humorous moment when a friend of mines dad went on a ranting rampage about how the history book was wrong. He was so red in the face I thought he might have a heart attack right there on the spot. He was a lover of history and seeing the text book of his son adjusted to what he believed to be lies was a very upsetting moment for him. Ironically, I believe his son went on to be a teacher later in life. So essentially, I have come to believe that this little trait of mine is almost like an untruth filter. And while some of the stuff I read is fiction, even that has its own metaphors and similes and life lessons to be ascertained from. It has continuously shown me over time that when that data is off-track of the spiritual center I am unable to get through it. In other cases I cannot seem to consume the information until the time is right or certain events have occurred preliminarily prior to me reading whatever that may be. Its a strange predicament to be in and it has resulted in some very odd situations. Overall the education I received at this private school through eighth grade was stellar. We read the Odyssey and Iliad in sixth grade. We learned to interpret and devise the meanings and the metaphors of many books and authors. All of which has led to me to see life in much the same way. Its a beautiful story really, unless you are a depressed person. When the darkness first sets in on you its like a sunset. Its not immediate really; its more like a falling sensation. Every day seems a little bleaker; every action you take feels a little more meaningless. The actions of others seem threatening and heartless, even when they are done in faith and good nature. All things seem filtered through a foggy glass. Its a huge struggle. Its a daily routine to get up and try to go through the motions of pretending, pretending you are normal. As you get older you realize there is no normal and that most of the people we share the roads with each day are struggling all the same. We call it different names, different byproducts, there
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are a thousand conditions and a million scenarios but in the end what it all boils down to is reality; our reality. I write this from a perspective of someone who has seen the darkness, up close and personal, from the inside out. Its an empty room in a windy city, dust spiraling across the floor. Occasionally you run into others who are there with you but even that is a faade because they exist inside their own minds, as well, like captives. Their true presence is often never found. The saddest irony is that most of the people we turn to for help - they have a pill or a problem. The pills dont help and most of them have their own problems, their own realities, and they cannot begin to help you with yours because they are so far into the rabbit hole themselves. It is not a matter of a degree or a fancy title, or even the company they keep; its a matter of spirituality. I notice now, what I didnt then, is that the people I drew the most strength from were never the psychiatrists or the psychologists or the one-off counselorsit was from the individuals who were connected to a higher sourcepeople like Father Sneary who had it figured out. Strength doesnt come from your ability to cope; it doesnt come from a perfect life or a pedigree - its perspective. Its all perspective. Its your energy body and your spirit and your connection to that central energy that is the great neutralizer of all things in the universe. Everyone has their own road to finding this outsome stories are more exciting or treacherous than others. Some just never find their way back home in this lifetime and so they are destined to repeat it until they do. As a good Aquarius I always found interest in the most bizarre things. It wasnt to get attention. I just never believed that the world I looked around at was what it seemed. I found books on magic, ghosts, aliens, and other world mysteries always very intriguing. Obviously, I am not alone in this because of the huge demand for books of these sorts. I could spend an entire day on any one of these subjects if only I could remember the details, but, no, sadly only the concepts remain. Its for that reason that I, for so long, felt that even attempting to write any of this down seemed like such a pointless endeavor. People love proof. People love examples and footnotes. Its for that exact reason that we suffer so much in life. Our minds are like the devil on our shoulder. It tries to label, it tries to decipher meanings of the actions of others, it tries to identify itself and by doing so it isolates itself. It reinforces its belief that people are different, that we are individuals and that our needs are, in fact, the only ones that matter. And when you look around at the selfishness and the greed and the embattled persons and counties of the world then you start to see just how far that littler devil has taken usdown the wrong road. You see the details which the mind finds as its means of self-sustaining are, in fact, as far away from the spirit as you can get. Its about what feels right. So reading this through, if it feels rightthat is the higher-self calling. Its that same gift of sensing untruths and for that reason the concepts and the keys to this are, as it turns out, all that really matters because the details are just derailments back to ways of sustaining the mind. Just to keep your mind out of its element, and spirit on its toes, I wont even add tables of contents or sections and titles. Just go with the flow and try to identify what feels right to you and temporarily set aside the things you have been indoctrinated to believe. So I watched a lot as a kid - watched people. Inside of me was this Great Hope for humanity. I always loved people, even on days I didnt. I saw the ugliness they had but somehow I always tried to find the good in them despite it. Even my relationships had the fixer built into them. I always thought the worst people had a light inside that just needed to be turned on. I made the mistake of thinking that I single-
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handedly could do that. There was a point, finally, in one of those relationships where I hit this wallthis wall of complete collapse.and I wanted so badly to become like them. I wanted so badly to believe as they did that people would only hurt youthat people werent worthy of your trust and that they had to earn it. Up until that point I believed that all people deserved your trust unless they warranted something to lose it. Apparently, as it turns out, going in believing everyone was bad was safer. This person had been so traumatized, so hurt, that this was their approach to life. It seemed that my approach to relationships was riddled with the same pain and outcome over and over again and the only solution was to start people off with a wall from now on. And so I did. I changed. I withdrew. I blocked out feelings after enough damage had been done. I became somethingelse. It was safer, but only because it was non-existent. I stopped existing. I lost my love for people, my love for humanity, my open trust for anyone at all. I doubted most of what people said outright, often dismissed it. It was safer that way. You could only trust yourself. And in the end I would realize that, in fact, it was me that was hurting myself the entire time. Its what we see in others, its what we perceive that hurts us and that interpretation of the details that the mind feasts upon which causes us such amazing pain, because after its three-course meal of interpreting the actions of others it then defines for us the right and wrong of their ways. And so we end up believing that the actions of others are against us and that hurts deeply because it is the opposite of true life where all things are in perfect sync, even things we dont agree with on the surface level. We have been fooled, manipulated, dominated by our minds and made to resonate at a frequency that is so low that even we couldnt find ourselves in a snow storm. Now, every path is different but all roads lead to the same place. This body you wear is tangible, but if you have ever seen a spirit leave a body, i.e. a dead body, you will know that they are gone. Everything about them changes. They become almost like clay, as if they are not real anymore. In fact, they are not real anymore because what made them real was the spirit that was contained in that clay. What made them real is the same thing that makes a lot of people so unreal today as they disallow that spirit to flourish and manage their everyday lives. We have found such a temporary satisfaction from the material world and yet we still seem to think that next purchase will make it better. You can name the television shopping program of your choice. There is no end to the need of people to be fulfilled but in actuality materials will never be able to fulfill you. Its a cycle, much like depression; its a bitter cycle of disappointment caused by a lack of understanding. Its a lack of understanding that what we search for cannot be found in any particular thing. Depressed people are often depressed because they are searching for something to make the depression go away, be it a person, purpose, place or pill. Its an impossible game to win when you are playing by the wrong rules. Worse, if you ask them what will make them happy, often they will say nothing; nothing, when in fact, the answer is everything - that connection back to everything. So I am sure you are quite baffled now, the running in circles perplexing you, but I assure you in the end this will make sense. So as a child I believed in people, despite watching the cruelness of children who believed that money entitled them to status and in that status the right to abuse others less fortunate than themselves. Not realizing their connection to everything and how, in fact, they were hurting themselves in the grand scheme of things. Regardless, it is a fairly normal routine for children and it doesnt stop at adulthood. Additionally, I had disabled parents who were always there for me but had (what seemed at the time) to
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be very bad luck in life. My uncle was non-existent in my life, as was my father. My best friends for a very long time were three teddy bears and a handful of German Shepherds that my aunt bred for show. I could run through all the usual sob stories telling you how imperfect my life was, but was it? Time passes over us like a washing board, it rubs us roughly at times and softly at others. It purges us of our imperfections and makes us clean again. It is not always an easy ride and, in fact, for some, life has to apply more force than it does for others to makes its lessons known. When I look back at my life now I know that, literally, every step along the way was utterly necessary and perfect. And I hated parts of it wouldnt want to relive it in any wayeven knowing what I know todayand yet I realize that those moments, as troubling as they were at the time, were absolutely and unequivocally necessary. As a kid, and as an adult, I found solace in writing. I wrote whatever came to mind then re-read it over and over again afterwards. Often the writing never felt like my own. When I wrote for school papers I would often write the entire document and due to the requirement to include a rough draft I would have to go back and create one from the final. Always As in writing. It was easy. I loved writing, mostly thoughts and philosophies. I found that my darker writing was only something that I was interested in reading. Most people apparently liked to read the happy stuff. In writing it down it served as a therapy for the depression I struggled with, as if writing it down made it exit the body onto the paper and then I could go back to being normal again for faade purposes. Eventually that failed to help. I drew pictures of dark things, especially in high school where I was most miserable. When that stopped working I started cutting my hands. It got peoples attention but it was mostly just a way to release the anger and sadness that I felt was caused by other people or by forces I couldnt control. Like the writing, it was easy. Ironically, it was the writing and not the cutting that landed me in a hospital for suicidal kids. I was there for maybe a week. There was a boy there that had some disease, but they wouldnt tell us what it was. Apparently it was fatal for him. He was the sweetest kid and despite his situation he was a beacon of light in this terrible place. In stark contrast, the nursing staff acted almost put off by the fact that we were even there and yet he would shine when he saw us. He would come over to greet us and wanted to play with us. He was maybe half our ages. This boy, who was dying, was alive in a room full of people who wanted to be dead and one could absolutely not miss the irony and the beauty in that lesson for all of us. If that was his only purpose in life to be in that place at that time that would have been enough. And while I do not remember the details of his face or name I remember his spirit as plainly as if it were right here with me today. This brings us back to my earlier statement about how people who have it figured out are the guides for us who dont. We just need to be paying attention enough to notice. I think so many of us believe that there will be someone that comes skipping along that will save us. Unfortunately, that skipping someone is you. Only you. Now because all things are so beautifully and perfectly connected that universal source has its way of sending you what you need, but that trip back home to your spirit is a journey that only you can make. No one can carry you through that threshold. So it all boils down to a decision that you have to make, but sometimes what a decision needs is information. I am here to help you add to that information, information that is not in detail and riddled with food for the mind, but instead comes from concepts that you will have to feel inside from your spirit and resonate with and if you dothen you will know its truth.
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Now, see if this one has played out for you: you get into a relationship and it seems amazing at first and eventually you start to find flaws in the other person. Things maybe you didnt see initially. And since you are mostly happy you tend to work on the relationship by transmuting your partners behaviors into something more pleasurable to you. Eventually they manage to change that thing for you and then there is another, and another, or in some cases the thing they changed also begins to annoy you. In your mind you keep telling yourself that if they only changed x things would be good. But it never works does it? It never does get better? In fact, it tends to get worse, and worse. Eventually the person is so transformed that you barely recognize them anymore and then you tell them they have changed. At some point the relationship is strained or broken. Often the things you dislike are even traits that you, yourself have. And it can be any type of relationship, work, home, family, etc. What happened there you think? I am so unlucky! Well, no. The fact is your mind has self-preserved. For the mind, like the movie Highlander, there can only be one. In an effort for it to remain unchallenged it must dominate all others. It must be in a state of winning at all times. In order to win it must assess the threat and it must not only beat the game it must set the rules of the game to ensure it will win. And so it does. That budding romance where both people once loved each other as they were becomes thwarted with over evaluated scenarios. We have wants and needs that were implanted there by others or manufactured by the mind. It is like an out of control child or a machine with no conscience, incredibly intelligent with no way to shut it off. Or can we shut it off? In fact, shutting it off is what some of the greatest spiritual masters have told us to do. I have a somewhat different way of thinking about it. To believe that the mind is a roadblock somehow undermines the omniscience of the universe. Obviously, the mind was instilled in us for a purpose and its purpose, having been forgotten over the years, has changed for us as humans. The mind is a giant computer, it remembers, it compensates, it evaluates. Its there to help us survive but its not designed to fulfill us. It would be a great ally if the spirit driver was still at the wheel. But as we buried our spirit the mind has had to take the wheel and it has done so as a survival endeavor to save itself. It was never meant to be the driver. We are on auto pilot as a result and without connection to spirit we become insanely lost down a windy road with no clue where we are. As we awaken, we realize just how far off the path we have gone. Keep in mind, there is always the possibility of turning the car around - if not in this life time, then in the next. As long as your mind is the driver, it will react in a way that is selfpreserving and not in a way that is universally connected. It will kill, murder and maim to save itself. It will destroy the earth if it means finding a way to feel complete again. It, too, suffers without spirit and yet its innate function moves away from spirit without realizing what its doing. Like a child building a sand castle before high tide it is completely unaware of the bigger situation because its sole focus is solitary in nature. Now the true function of the mind is somewhat questionable, most feel its the primary component of the body and without it nothing else works. I will clarify that the mind has the transmitting mechanisms to help spirit reconnect to the universal consciousness but it cannot do it by itself, that too must be turned on by spirit. So for now the mind is your super computer - that part of your anatomy that runs the machinery, but it was never meant to run the spirit. It was never meant to decide the course of your spiritual experiences here on the planet. Simply put, it doesnt have the information. It contains data for
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this body but not to all existence. So its data is incomplete and thus all of its actions, as a result, are not only inefficient but, most importantly, its decision making is flawed. It tries to survive. It tries to keep the body alive, to do what its programmed to do, to run the machine. It tries to achieve completeness in the only way it knows howthrough what it can touch, taste, see, smell, hear and consider. It only knows that something is missing, but what that is cannot be put into one of its primary senses and so it tries to associate it with one of those things to solve the mystery. It, further, cannot make sense of emotions whatsoever so it must attribute emotions to something physical. We find explanations in bad relationships, failed parenting, hormone imbalances, and physical pain. We see therapists who endeavor to tell us the causes of our emotional outbursts and struggles to cope. Often they give up and hand us a prescription that should solve every woe. Everything and everyone caters to the mind driver that is trying to keep us going while the spirit driver is passed out cold in the back. And in many cases I do mean out cold. I can almost imagine the funny look on your faces now as I describe this. So the mind, poor little thing, it does its best, but its really a rather confused and ill-informed little guy who is trying to do a job that is way above his pay grade. Unfortunately, the side effects of his driving and the worlds continuous efforts to help him map out his way to unachievable happiness have resulted in an entire world filled with people driven by their minds making bad decisions based on material needs to fulfill that undefinable happiness that only spirit can achieve. The mind can never drive you to that happy place. It cannot because it, itself, is made of the same material that forms that dead clay body. It cannot reach the spirits state of pure unconditional love and energy. Not ever. Only the spirit can achieve that - only your spirit and through you. That means you have to give it the wheel and have the mind take the back seat. The mind is an important functioning part of our lives and its purpose is not to be downplayed, but the true role of man to achieve that higher purpose and connection to itself and all things as one, that can only be achieved through spirit because it is made of the same fabric as the universal energies. Only it can integrate and bring you back to your Source. Now there is someone out there shaking their head and saying I am not going to church, no way, no how and believe me when I say that church is often where many minds meet to decide which way to drive. That in itself should tell you all you need to know. Not to say that spirit cannot be uplifted in a social setting and with love and support, or that those that have it figured out will not be found there but it is not the primary solution. The spirit, true spirit, is found inside yourself. Its not found in a church or a hymn book. Sometimes these provide excellent lessons on the path, but remember that mind cannot carry you through the threshold and neither can any ones opinion of right and wrong or good religion/bad religion. When its right you will know it, because you will feel it. Finding that path back through your central point is imperative. I used to refer to it as mans built in bible. There is a point that connects you to this body. Much like the Metatrons Cube it is restricted outwardly (much like the body) but inwardly it is infinite. So we go inward to connect to Source. This is why finding true happiness outside of our self is absolutely impossible. This is the misconception of the depressed person. Their mind rules and drives us (albeit not intentionally) to suffering while the spirit sleeps which presents what feels like emptiness - something so piercing and painful that it quite literally drives the depressed person to such desperation that they would end their life to stop the sensation. That emptiness, which is translated by the mind to something it can understand tangibly, as being caused by someone or
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something or a lack thereof, where in fact, it is a lack of an awakened spirit and connection to Source that creates that feeling of being alone, hopeless or helpless. Such a compelling argument the mind makes that the depressed person can absolutely not see it as anything but what the mind has presented because in their desperation they need a solution and quickly. So the lines of fantasy begin to amplify. We assume that what we are told and sold are the real deal. It becomes of such importance for the ruling classes minds to remain in a state of control that they have gone to amazing efforts to keep it that way; our politics, our religions, our media, our corporations. Much of it is without spirit, functioning at a primal survival mode to the point where it would feast upon its own before giving up the control it exerts (in effect self-destructing without even being aware it is doing so). It doesnt realize that the control it has is actually, in fact, a delusion of the mind. You cannot control the world. You cannot control the universal spirit through the mind it is the tail wagging the dog. A depressed person starts to sink, thinking this is all there is, this bill of sale in their hands. They may find themselves not even wanting to start their day. Maybe they just cant believe it. Maybe its not worth living for. Well they would be right if that was the point of living, it would indeed not be a reason for living at all. The challenge here is the perspective and the information that is lacking. A world that exists for pure material purposes is indeed a hollow and empty world and unworthy. That disconnect from our spiritual nature, the side that has been flattened over with bargain shopping, fancy structures and societal scoffing, that has been truncated into a very small and menial function of humanity much like a footnote. Its quite the opposite and the depressed person senses this. Often they dont know why they are depressed. They feel like there is no meaning to life whatsoever. They are disconnected and feel empty because their connection to spirit is asleep in the back seat. They only know that something is very wrong. They dont know what it is. In their frustration they feel helpless and eventually hopeless. So some fall through the mind-generated void of depression and end their lives. Others just give up and live as walking corpses through it. Others take medications for quick salvation while many try to follow their minds proposed solutions of obtaining new relationships, better cars or fancier toasters. Not to say that some people arent really sick, or that people shouldnt take medications, but the solutions never feel like true resolution to their problem. Half the time the medications just turn off all feeling completely and many bounce on and off their medications as a result. There are two things happening here, we try to solve the equations in a mind based way so we handle the chemical imbalances with the medications. Of course the pharmaceutical corporations love this solution because it profits them and their own efforts to pacify their own minds need for control. We have long had access to something called neurofeedback which is a nice solution to the flip side of the mind imbalance equation treating the electrical firing patterns without medication instead of resolving it chemically. Unfortunately that cant be bottled and profited from as easily and so it is labeled as experimental decades of success later so most conveniently cannot afford it because it is not covered under the insurance programs. The other side of the coin in this equation is the energy body which is usually not factored in. Now if spirit were running things it would tell you that not everything can be seen with the naked eye. In fact,
spirit would tell you that most of the universe cannot be seen with the naked eye and to think that it can is just plain silly. Mind, however, cannot accept that concept. Well, the body itself has an energy body that surrounds it. Yes, seriously. And just like the electrical imbalances in the body, it too, can be out of balance. Anything can affect it, the power wires overhead, the chemicals in your food and water, the poisons in your air, television, radio, relationships, etc. All of it affects that energy body. Along with that energy body, you also have a resonant energy or frequency. This has been shown in university studies that the cells in your body actually emit a frequency. At certain levels of lower frequencies in your cells you get sick, sometimes very sick. At higher levels you dont. Now this would certainly not make a profit for a pharmaceutical company if everyone raised their personal frequency. So let me share this fun little fact with you. Before my endeavors to shift my state of consciousness I was considered a very sick kid, even a sick adult. I missed a ton of school with kidney infections, fevers, colds, flus, you name it. I was even put in reverse isolation as a baby. More recently, as a I worked in the last few years with solfeggio tones, binary beats, neurofeedback, frequency induced water (528 hz) and mediations, I have found that I am the last to get a cold, if at all, and to date (knock on wood) I have managed to avoid everything I have run into even when my own little kids, family and co-workers were kicking out the germs my way. Oddly my body did reject a sick organ gall bladder which after being removed has been contributing to my health improving even further. This new found health has been a highly unusual change of events for me and I quite literally share this as a personal experience that these things can and do help. I will get into those more later. Now when it comes to depression there are a lot of self-help books out there, a lot of therapies and medications but all in all there is no overnight fix. The reason things work for some people and not others is because everyones path is different, heck everyones bodies are different and most importantly their thinking processes are different. We discussed auras and energy a little bit but lets see if we can shed a little more light on that subject. Now there are a ton of religions and books on meditation and spiritual guidance. I am not talking about any of these necessarily. The energy that you have that surrounds your body has both a magnetic and frequency/wave quality. Colors, sounds, music, air quality, and other bodies in your immediate vicinity will affect this. I think by now you have probably seen at least one bumper sticker that says kill your television. Now while I dont condone the abuse of your poor little unsuspecting TV, I will say that during the first few weeks or month if you can manage to disconnect from radio and television entirely (or as much as possible) you will give yourself a huge advantage in any healing process. Also, just for disclaimer, I dont want people to think they should stop taking necessary medications either. In fact, as you repair damage to your system you may be able to work with your doctor to get off the medications properly if you are achieving maintained success in this process. Dont put yourself and your family in danger - things will play out the way they are meant to and if this doesnt work then try another path, but whatever you do just keep trying. Now the aura energy also has colors that we cannot see and different types of energies. They play different roles and are not only affected by outside contributing factors and the different aspects of your life but most importantly they are affected by how you think and what you eat. Each particular area of the aura can be read about easily online and I am not here pretending to be a yogi master. I will share with you (and this is just to tell you what I used) that I found some audio assisted meditations from
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www.secretmeditations.com (you can find their music on Amazon) and I found them to be amazing at assisting with the rebalancing of the key points of your aura (chakras). When you rebalance your chakras via meditation it will take time and repetition and its (again) not a permanent fix. You will need to redo this anytime you feel out of whack so to speak. Remember that there are always outside influences and situations which may affect your mental state and all of that can re-misalign your once balanced aura. As you slowly repair this energy body you will start to feel calmer, healthier and almost a little bit timeless. You may notice things around you (plants, trees, flowers, animals, children playing). You may feel like you are in an almost suspended state. Its imperative that to maintain this state you must do your best to mind your mind or manage your thoughts. Recognize the minds inner dialog as just thatstaticannoying, useless static. Quiet your mind and turn off the static. As you become more aware of that static in your head, as you identify it it becomes easier to separate your spirit from the minds confused state. Just staring at an object and taking it in without any judgment whatsoever is a great exercise for this. Living in this momentthis is a vital key to empowerment and healing. There is nothing in the past or future that matters. Believe me. The entirety of your choices is made right here and now. Your decision to be happy is right now. It is not dependent upon anything in the past which you can do nothing about and there is nothing in the future which you can have total control over either these are powerless states of consciousness and spending time thinking about these things will undermine your healing efforts and move you away from Source. Now taking steps in the moment, like balancing your chakras will of course help you to pave a healthier path to the future just as long as you recognize that you are making that decision right this moment not living in some future wonderland in your mind. So the aura expands out from your body and its like an outer shell of your physical form. Because we cannot see it (although some photography claims to do that now) normal medicine doesnt factor it in to the whole health equation, heck it rarely even factors in nutrition. For both things there are, however, people that can help with this, like Naturopaths and Reiki practitioners (light workers) and others that you can reach out to as well, but know thisif you do not mind your mind none of this will last for very long. I repeatyour state of mind can override all the healing avenues you explore, including medications and surgeries. You must let the spirit drive. You have to learn to put your mind as the back seat driver. The only way to do this is to identify it. Just imagine your favorite mystery novel that point in every book where they finally figure out the whodunit and proclaim, The Butler Did It! That will be you with your inner mind dialog. You will be shocked at the crimes your mind has been committing against you unwittingly. But identifying your minds dialog- catching that thief in action you can make it just as fun as any mystery novel, but whatever you do make sure you embrace that full time crime fighter role because you will have to catch it in the act to find out what its up to. In fact, I am sure at some point you have heard the old GI Joe saying that knowing is half the battle. Not only do you need to know what its saying, but more importantly how it says it. Once you recognize the voice of the mind the things its saying and the tone it deliberates in you have a good chance of getting it under control because you will start to recognize
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it more easily over time. Whats more important is that you know it is not who you truly are as the spirit driver. Now as a depressed person, we all know how the battle goes; we have good days and bad days. When we have bad days we get down on ourselves. Sometimes we get down on other people because they are not fulfilling our needs. When that inner mind dialog starts in we think its our own thoughts. I know, speaking personally, that sometimes those thoughts made me angry with myself for even thinking them. Often it would create a rise inside of me that was uncontrollable. I would act first and feel bad afterwards. Its vital that you take the time to recognize that voice it literally has a unique voice that plays in your mind. Once you recognize it, like anyone elses voice, you will be able to identify it from the softer kinder voice of your spirit. This may sound a little schizophrenic but its not. The moment you have an idea that comes into your mindtry not to act. Keep listening. Listen for that particular voice. Listen to the way it phrases things. It will use the words always, never, and often it will play the martyr or the judge and jury. Its function is to record data to help you survive.teach you to look both ways before you cross the street. While I joked above about crime fighting, in truth its not an evil source to be reckoned with. Its a child that needs direction. As with any child you need to be kind to it. In your mind say NO. Say it out loud if you need to. Who cares if people hear you everything is connected your individual success in this helps the overall advancement of all spiritual growth on this planet and I will get into that more later on. This is important. You have to get your mind back in check. You need to get spirit to drive. Its voice is soft and it comes from a source of unconditional love. Its easy to be drowned out if we let it. We have to let it have its voice back if we are to know how to get back on track. Do not associate the darker thoughts in your mind as who you are. They are not who you are. Now here is a very important key to the above information. You will not always catch your mind in the act of its inner dialog in time. You will not always beat your mind to the punch before it tricks you into reacting. Assuming that happens, I want you to keep in mind that forgiveness is something the mind is not capable of because it is a recorder of history. Again, its designed to keep you safe. It records the bad things that happen so you wont get injured or killed. Its your survival mode. It keeps the body going, it keeps you safe. Its a score keeper. So, its not designed to forgive because its not designed to forget. True forgiveness comes from spirit. Because all things are interconnected they affect all other things, not just on our little planet but all through the universe. Yes its that big a deal. So every time you may have thought your little life was meaningless it was actually quite the opposite. All your experiences are not just yours, but being shared with the universe as well. The universe is experiencing itself every instant right beside you. Regardless of what you call it in any religionwhat you do impacts everything. I will explain more on that later. The reason this is key is this. When you have a moment when you fall down and dont counter block the minds manipulative dialog do not, repeat, do not give up or get down on yourself for it. Lets say you go off half-crazy on a loved one or you have a day where you just cannot get off the couch because you are sad. Its okay. Loving yourself means forgiving yourself for not being perfect and because you are connected to everything else loving yourself also means forgiving others for not being perfect. You cannot do this through the mind, so dont try to talk yourself into
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forgiving yourself it will just make things worse. You will need to take a breath and just let it go. Its that simple. Dont think about it, dont dwell on it - just let it go. Its gone. Remember what I said about the past. Its a powerless state of consciousness. Dwelling on that undermines your ability to heal and be empowered. Breathe in for five seconds through your nose then breathe out for five seconds through your mouth and let that feeling of momentary failure go. I think Oprah said it best when she explained it as Spiritual Muscle. You are, exactly that, building your strength. If you have ever gone to the gym you will know that there are days where you just cant lift as much as you usually do. Allow yourself to be okay with it. You are a perfect being inside of an imperfect body. The mind is part of that imperfect body and just as a child learning to walk your spirit needs to learn to drive. Its a learning process. You dont give up on a child that falls down, you tell them to try, try again and that same rule applies here. Loving yourself and forgiving yourself is a huge part of this process. Most importantly recognize this as an off moment that has passed and aim for the moment you are in to step up your game. Your mind may have won the battle but it hasnt won the war. As long as you are still in the game, still trying, then you have not failed. I will remind you that if you think this can be done overnight then you are setting yourself up for failure. This is a process. You dont build a weightlifters body in one trip to the gym. Just keep going. Now the vital part about identifying the minds voice is very important but there is yet another way to help counteract the negative impacts the mind has in your thinking. Many people refer to this as mantras. Its basically repeating something consciously in your thoughts, or out loud, that help shift your state of mind. I think in most religions of the world you will find a repeating concept of being grateful. Why does this matter? Well, when you are grateful you are in the moment and you are appreciating what exists. You are not focusing on what doesnt exist or what is wrong with your life, others, or in the world. When you spend a few moments every day to list off the things you are grateful for there are several things occurring such as: you are reversing your negative polarity back over to a positive one and prompting spirit to drive; you are empowering the moment you are in and thus connecting yourself back to your source; you begin emanating a good vibrational energy which helps heal your aura and will also help you to receive more of what you appreciate; you are focusing on positive things and therefore teaching yourself to change your perspective. Do this every day consistently and you should begin to see the shift in your attitude and more positive events in your life unfold. This is one of the most simple and empowering things you can do to change your life. As you identify the things you are grateful for you are increasing your vibrational resonance. This affects not just your own mental state but the way others may react to you as well. It may help bring about positive changes in your life because you are resonating with positive energy. You may seem lighter, brighter. No matter who you are, or what your situation, there is always something in your life that you can be grateful for. By far, this is one of the easiest and most powerful things you can do to help yourself. Put this knowledge to use, but keep in mind that changing other peoples behaviors is not your concern here only your own. Now this next part contains a very important and challenging concept that I want you to try to grasp. Many people will absolutely struggle with this because, to them, it means accepting murders and
massacres along in the mix. And it is this.all things happen for a reason. Yes, all things. Regardless of what position you choose in life, the world will continue to conduct its affairs despite your theories about it. Certain laws will always be what they are - like polarity and gravity - no matter how much you might dislike them. There has long been a struggle of people believing in destiny. There are people that believe we decide our destiny and others that believe it is predetermined. I have come to the ultimate conclusion that really it is both. As spirits connected to a higher consciousness we have both freedom and duty. We have a duty to one another and freedom to create alongside that higher creator power. We are co-creators in this universe, as are all the other beings on other planets, plants, animals, etc. There are some things that will occur because the circumstances are what they are. For example if we continue to pollute our water ways eventually we will live in a poisoned environment. If we blow up a country with an atom bomb, people will die. These are givens. We choose what we do, each of us, every day. We are led to believe that as individuals we are powerless in the major decisions of mankind. This is a very interesting belief. Now these choices that we make, there are thresholds where circumstances become imminent. A second sun in our galaxy appearing would have certain known affects. Never, however, underestimate the spirit. Not only does your mind affect your decisions and your life, it affects everything in the universe as well, and so the idea of being a single impertinent individual is entirely wrong. Here is why. As we experience life those experiences feed back to the central energy point that is the whole spirit. We are a piece, it is the whole. We come from the whole. We are never truly separate from it although our mind may sincerely want to believe that. We arent, it just isnt the case. Sorry. Now we can have a disconnection from our ability to sense and access it but that is our choice. We are co-creators after all. We do get the freedom on whether we are paying attention and listening to that softer voice of our higher selves. So how does the fate thing work? Well as I said above, the key here is that certain things (once you get to a certain point) are bound to happen. As co-creators we can swim though life turning and twisting, making our choices. There is a point where all those choices of the co-creators perfectly collide and become a fairly certain and definable prophecy of something to come because we may have crossed a threshold that has made it virtually impossible to change course from in time. How the perfect allknowing universal source fits in is that as we swim, as we turn, it ensures that the water (or all other actions, experiences and desires of all the other co-creative forces in the universe) perfectly conforms to our body (i.e. the outcomes in our life) and so we actually do have a very significant co-creative input into our life story - thus fate is not fully planned out and is in fact largely in our own hands at every moment. To give a simpler analogy we say what kind of wedding we want (i.e. life outcomes) and the wedding planner (i.e. the universe) works out most of the details for us to make that happen. The forces we think are so out of control are actually meeting us in a perfect harmony, altering circumstances and outcomes based on the decisions we make, conforming around us with perfect harmony with our every choice. So at all times the universe is absolutely perfect, but it is adapting to the choices you make, which will at one point or another reach a critical threshold that will ultimately result in expected outcomes. This is why who you have driving matters so much. Lets say you are driving cross country to see your family and there is a sudden tire blow out. You realize that you left your spare tire in the garage when you were clearing out your car. A nice person stops to
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help you. You spend some time talking to them and you find out they were having a tremendously bad day before they stopped to help you. You smile and laugh with them and now they are feeling a lot better. Their state of mind changes and the next person they meet will be equally as affected. Now, you made a choice to drive to your familys house, the universe adapted to that choice. It also adapted to the choice of the man who helped you and everyone he meets thereafter and all points in between. Further, your story may affect the family you go to see as well. Its a huge wave of effects just in your one decision. Is it chance? No, its not. Its not because you are a co-creator connected to the whole. That is powerful, powerful stuff and that is why the decisions you make (and who you have driving) are so vital. As you make choices, decisions, you are resonating out a frequency to the whole universe and like water it adapts around you. All things will align in a perfect correlation depending on the decisions you make. The most confounded and profoundly incorrect thing you can ever allow yourself to believe is that you are ever actually disconnected from the Source because without that you lose sight of just how important one person can actually be not because they are one person but because they are a vital piece of the cosmic puzzle that links all people and all things. That is why even the lower frequency generating individuals (criminals, etc.) have their role to play as well and while you may not understand them i.e. you dont resonate at their frequency - it doesnt make them any less important to the overall picture. Remember that this universal energy is all-knowing, all-seeing, and all-powerful with the full capacity to form a perfect scenario every time based on the frequency you emanate, the choices you make and the things you are requesting in your thoughts. I assume you are probably thinking, Well I had some really bad stuff happen to me over the years do you mean to say that I made those things happen? Yes and no. You have to remind yourself that you are connected to the whole and the things that may happen to you may also be related to the needs or decisions of others as well. What I can say is that there is always a lesson there and there is always a bigger picture. Sometimes we are given a hint or a clear explanation as to just what that is and other times we have to go on faith. Realize this, however, that once you empower yourself into the knowledge that everything is connected and that there is a universal mastermind of energy that is all-knowing, allseeing, timeless and completely capable of mapping out the intersecting lines of all life in the universe to perfection you can finally sit back and relax. Make the best decisions you can but when the bad happens you can rest assured that there is a good reason for it whether you can see it now or not. It tends to take the sting out of the worst possible situations. Now the important thing for you to remember - your job - is to not reside in the past or the future too heavily. Its okay to reflect here and there but if you are spending the majority of your time in that state or in a state of worry then you are disempowering yourself and moving away from the spiritual center that connects you to that universal consciousness. Your power is truly at this very moment many speakers and spiritual guides in life will tell you that very thing but its true, so its virtually impossible for me to not repeat it here once again. So when the bad stuff happensthis is where you take a bad moment and you release it knowing that there is a bigger picture you may not be able to see. You take the sting out of it by knowing that the universe knows what its doing. You focus on your positive outlook. This is key. Why is this key? Remember what I said about your resonating frequency? Well, if you take a bad moment and you become absorbed in that negative moment you begin resonating at a
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lower frequency. Now keep in mind what I stated earlier about same energy begets same energy. If you begin resonating at the lower frequency, focusing on the negative stuff guess what you will be guaranteed to get more of it. Have you ever known someone with the worst possible luck. That guy who goes to the store, breaks his eggs walking out to the car, gets held up by a thug and his wallet stolen, then finds out he lost his keys somewhere in the middle of all this? Maybe thats a dramatic example but we have all known those people who have this revolving door of bad stuff happen to them. Sometimes its us. This is when you have the most control right here, right now. This is when you take that deep breath, you go over your list of what you are grateful for change your frame of mind then just look around at the trees, at the plants, at the birds. Take it in. Breathe. Consider that there may be a good reason for all of this, and that the universe has this figured out even if you dont and that is how its meant to be. You are not omniscient so for the sake of helping remain in this peaceful state you can humor yourself with a few possible scenarios (briefly do not dwell on them long). Lets say bad luck guy I described above is you. What if the guy who was desperate enough to rob you needed that money to survive more than you did. Maybe he was there to delay you maybe the keys were too. Maybe if you were in that car on time, as planned, you would have been in a car accident driving home. These are things you cannot possibly know. All you need to know is that because the universe has the absolute knowledge of all things, as long as you have faith in that, and continue resonating in a positive frequency then its fairly safe to say that the universe had its reasons and its not likely something you brought to yourself. Now another thing to consider is, still keeping in mind that the universe is answering your frequency call with perfect harmony and balance check in with yourself what was the state of your mind at the time that happened? What thoughts were you thinking about? Were you angry, hostile, frustrated, tired, annoyed at the clerk, etc? If you were, in fact, generating a negative vibration you may have contributed to those frequencies returning to you with universal responses. Again, as long as you remain in a state of positive vibration and keep the mind driver in check (not letting the random negative or fear based thoughts dominate your inner dialog) you have the co-creative power to eliminate your contribution to negative outcomes in your life. Check in with yourself when bad things happen. Make sure you change the way you are thinking. Be grateful and focus on your surroundings and breathe. By doing this you can often cause an immediate shift in your situation and your important role in the greater scheme of any bad things that may occur. As any normal person, you may be asking yourself, does that mean I need to accept bad things that happen and bad people? No, it just means that you dont have to resonate with it. You cannot personally change the outcomes of bad things that have happened so that part you need to let go of otherwise you will be disempowering yourself. By changing your perception and perspective you are empowering yourself in the moment to do your part in ensuring that your frequency shifts so that you can prevent that type of experience going forward (to the extent the universe concurs in the bigger picture of things that is). There is an old serenity prayer that says it best, God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. This is the concept here. You have the power to change your perspective, your minds inner dialog, and your frequency resonance. Beyond that, knowing that you are doing your part should allow
you to find solace in the fact that any bad things occurring at that point are probably very necessary in order for the universe to unfold in its perfection and balance in a precise game of polarity and duality. To really understand the frequency comments above we will need to take a small look at what has been formally named the law of attraction in many circles. There are a lot of very good and informative books, websites and movies on this so you can look into it further if you like. The basic concept of the law of attraction is that you are sending out energy and that same type of energy returns to you. The people who practice this basically have taken their co-creator role to a new level and have used meditation, visualization, mantras (repeated positive sayings) and various other methods to essentially create the life they want. Some use it for material benefits, but many use it for the whole package life upgrade. This is a very complicated topic, but understanding that by changing the energy you put out to the universe will change the course of your life. That is a very powerful concept. So, when we master the first step of changing our focus and move into the next step of defining what we want in our life that changes the game quite a bit. There are a couple of things that I learned over the years that I havent found much of in my investigations into the law of attraction materials and I do want to share those with you in case you decide to look into this more. Firstly, as I somewhat touched on above with the universal balance explanations, there are things that are fairly set in stone and we may or may not know what those are. That doesnt mean you shouldnt shoot for the sky in your goal setting but it does mean that if you dont achieve it in this life time there is probably a larger universal reason so we must return back to that understanding that the universe knows what its doing. Secondly, the old adage do as thou wilt but harm none is a very important thing here. We need to make sure that whenever we are asking something from the universe that we are certain to make known our desire for it to be in harmony with the universe. Lastly, depending on what you are trying to achieve you need to be patient and unwavering. Much like the water analogy described earlier, where we turn and the universe moves to meet us in its perfection (again factoring in the energy we are emanating and attracting) large shifts in our movement such as a complete reversal of attitude can cause large ripples, waves even perhaps. I want you to envision a boat on the ocean. When it turns slightly, adjusting itself moderately, it has a very smooth transition, but when the boat makes a dramatic spin it rocks and hits the waves in its changing of course. Also note, that when it changes so abruptly it still has a heavy load to make the maneuver because its going against the currents of its former direction due to its severe course correction. What does this mean in normal terms? Lets say you have badly gotten into debt, you have made huge efforts to change your perspective and improve your positive frequency, and highlighted the key things you want to have happen in your life. Depending on how big the boat (or problem) it may be a slow, albeit still a dramatic and rough, turn. This means it may not be a quick change in your life. Not only that, but you will still have to wade through the rough waves that are catching up with you from your prior decisions. In my particular case I could feel that I was on the right track but there was a horribly rough patch of time. I knew if I stayed on course and visualized myself getting through the
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tough times, all the while doing my best to remain confident that would happen, then I would make it through and get to the other side in much better shape, but it was a very tough time. Staying focused in the midst of perceived adversity from the old pattern of the waves you are moving through, and out of, will be one of the major struggles on this. Stay the course. Do not get knocked down by the wave of the transition do not get defeated because its a tough change of course. You will have to work your way through all the effects that were generated by the universe as a result of your prior way of thinking and decisions that you made. There seems to be a delay effect depending on how big the change is so its important that you do not assume this will be an immediate fix. It takes some time for the bigger issues to resolve. I would advise that you start small to help yourself see the results so you dont get discouraged at the beginning much like a diet dont get on the scale every day but keep working out all the same and results are sure to show themselves and often in the most unexpected ways. When I say keep working at it I mean stay on track with your perspective, stay in control of your minds inner dialog make sure spirit is driving, stay positive, keep going with whatever solutions you choose to help with this spiritual reconnection (mantras, meditations, a walk in the park, whatever) and keep up with the positive visualizations and grateful appreciation of your life just keep doing it, even if its just one thing every day. So how does that law of attraction thing work? Again, I would advise anyone reading this to pick up a few books or research the law of attraction materials set forth by people who have been successful in mastering this method in their daily lives consistently. I will give you a brief overview of the basic concepts, however. First, again, you need to get your mind in check because part of the key to this is the ability to focus for a fair amount of time. If your mind gets away from you every few minutes this will be a struggle. I will share with you a few tools as we go along which I used in this overall process (keep in mind I am not getting paid to extend these options out to you they are just what I used to help me succeed in this transition period). There is a man who has developed sounds/music that is based on the golden ratio and this particular sound was amazingly helpful at getting rid of my inner mind dialog. It almost acts like a long interruption. Its made by a man named Marcus Knudsen a music program he developed called Xpherience (http://www.xphirience.com). Now I am pretty sure he has samples you can use. If you want the full cd he sells various packages of sounds he has developed. Again this was very useful at the beginning stages of trying to overcome my mind dialog and I noticed I slept a lot better, as well, after using it. Some of the areas we have covered already are particularly vital to the success of using the law of attraction and so even though they may have some redundancy I am going to go over them carefully to ensure you have them well engrained. Tuning into your thoughts is, again, very key for this process to work. I found that if I was feeling grumpy, tired, angry, annoyed, scared, or similar feelings of general discontent I would try spying on my minds inner dialog to hear what it had going on. Its as simple as just paying attention to the spam thoughts running wild in the background during your day. If you need to, set a timer so you can remind yourself to periodically listen in. Practice makes perfect. After a while you will start to notice when the time is right for doing this. Particularly, if at any time you feel
discontent for any reason then its time to start paying attention to the minds dialog to figure out why. Make sure you identify your spirit-self separate from the mind-self, in doing this you take an outsider approach to the situation. As I said before, the better you get at this the sooner you can stop yourself from reacting to the fabricated mind realities. An important tip on thisbefore you tune in, make it a point to tell yourself that you will form no opinions on the arguments your mind is having with itself. Just simply watch whats going on as if you were a complete stranger to the situation. Once you feel solidly neutral its safe to engage in the discussion. Now, change the dialog; flip the manual switch. At this point you will want to begin walking through what you are grateful for. Use words that have no negatives in them for example instead of saying nothing bad will happen today say today will be a good day. The universe doesnt hear negatives (not, dont, cant, wont, didnt, so forth) so changing that dialog means changing not only the way you think but the way you actually speak inside your own head. This alone can be a challenge. If you say something wrong, say it again the right way dont get hung up on it, just fix it and move on remember this moment is the key so whatever you do in this moment is all that matters. Just restate it. Problem solved. Another powerful way to check in with yourself is to turn off all noise around you (no television, computers, people) just find a nice quiet silent place or if you have several noisy children like I do try just sitting in the bathroom for a few minutes. In the silence, that is when your thoughts are most noticeable. The goal here is to try to sit in silence without thought. Expand on this and try to go for a long as you can - the longer the better. Practicing this ability to focus will help ensure your ability to focus on attracting the changes you want in your life. So after you figure out how to get your minds dialog in check, again you will re-focus on positive thoughts and being grateful in order to change your energy frequency to a higher and more positive emission. If it helps meditate, read a positive book or poetry, go for a walk and take in nature, look at a happy picture, etc. use whatever helps shift your mood. You will need to do this because the whole point of the law of attraction is to draw things to you that you want. If you are saying you want positive changes, but in your body you are exerting a low vibration and your mind is full of negative thoughts then regardless of the words coming from your mouth you will get back what you are emitting. Law of attraction is essentially your co-creative ability with the universe. You need to really think about what it is you want to achieve. Remember that as you turn, the waters of the perfect universe will meet your body with the means of helping you get to your destination. What that means to you is that you are the microcosm, the universe is the macrocosm. In database development terms its a one to many ratio. You are the one it is the many. You are making the decisions for your life and the universe is trying to figure out how to make that happen in correlation to all the many relationships that surround you and everything that stems out from there. You tell the universe what you need and it finds a way to link everything for you. Remember the serenity prayer. Because you are not all-knowing and all-seeing trying to understand how to make your dreams come true in the midst of the intricate connections and balance of all things is way beyond your capacity. This is where faith comes in. You do your part and it does its part. Assuming what you are asking for is not out of sync with the universe and your higher souls purpose then you will be able to achieve it. Identify what it is you want for your life, and ask the universe for its
assistance. Here is where I struggled and here is where the focus part becomes so important. You will need to sit and focus on what that is (and I mean every detail) as if you were right there living it, feeling it, breathing it. What does it feel like, smell like, sound like. What do the people around you look like, the house you are in, the car you drive, or the job you go to? You have to literally create this as a real experience in your mind for yourself. Use terms that are in the present, solidifying it, as if its already in existence. Right about at that point your mind will probably start kicking in with skepticism because you will be saying things like I have no worries about money while your mind starts listing off all the bills on your kitchen table, so if that happens just let the thought go, breathe and start over but dont disempower the moment you have by worrying about it. Remember the boat analogy. You are crossing the old waves of your prior direction and so you must stay focused on your newly decided destination. Those bills on the table are the results of prior bad direction (prior waves) and you will just wade through those and it will pass just as everything else does, but you need to stay on course despite the rough waters and make sure you dont capsize your success with doubt and fear half way through the turn. You literally need to be certain, be focused, envision every detail, and fully experience this future you want as it were right here and now. Give it life as a creator would. Treat it as though you are carving out the life you want from clay. Imagine what would it look like, every curve, every detail. Just like sculpting, its right there in front of you all the time you are creating it, even if its not in the kiln yet it doesnt matter its happening right now its being crafted and created right now by your consciousness and so in reality it really is in existence right now its just that the effects the new waves spawning - from that conscious co-creation need a little time to be sorted out as to the hows so that what you are defining in that clay is properly balanced with the whole and perfect harmony of the universe this must happen before it can manifest in the world of matter. Another powerful tool is to write it down or even draw it if you can. You need to avoid self-doubt at all cost, but in the event things do not unfold exactly as you have molded them in your mind, remain at peace and remind yourself that the universe has a master plan that it must also continue to unfold, so if you dont receive everything you expected it is no grounds for giving up on your vision, in fact perhaps change it up a little bit and give it another go. As you start to envision these changes in your life its also equally important that you allow yourself to believe in the possibility of it. As we talk about believing in possibility I want to encourage you, especially if you are having difficulties getting through that stage, to take a little time to watch a few videos or read some articles about Quantum Physics. Many people struggle at this belief stage. There are probably several reasons for this, including self-esteem. A major reason, I can only assume, would be the internal religious struggle to accept that we are cocreators in the universe. It might seem almost impious to think of ourselves on the same level as God, for those who believe in God. Again remember the microcosm/macrocosm concept. From a religious perspective its believed that God created us in his own image. He is always with us and so of course he experiences our life along with us the entire time. He has given us freedom, but that freedom has often
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been translated by our minds into a sense of separation. As you go inward back to your source and reconnect you realize that separation is not actual reality. So, despite our delusion of separation, our good and bad experiences are actually being shared back to God and to the whole universe which makes it a pretty good argument for us to stop living out self-inflicted negative experiences. As with any parent, we want our kids to succeed and be happy and its our duty to give our children the tools they need to be successful but at some point it is up to them to use those tools we gave them. Why would God be any different? We have been given access to those tools at all times by always being connected to the Source. We have been given a lesser form of co-creation, but we can never truly overpower the decision making of the macrocosm so there should be no cause for alarm when it comes to shaping your life. All things happen perfectly. You shape your life every day regardless, such as deciding to have a family, or change a job, or go to school, etc. Now I mentioned Quantum Physics earlier above because, while I am no physicist, what I have been able to take away from the materials is the basic understanding that the world we can see and explain is only about 99% of the universe. For a very long time now, science and religion have been determined to be at odds. Religion sought to find solutions of a spiritual nature while science has sought to find answers to those same problems by understanding them from a more material based perspective. Slowly as science evolves it is beginning to understand that they have been trying to understand the universe based on the 1% of what they can see. The universe is as infinitely small as it is big which is what makes trying to find the smallest particle a rather humorous endeavor in futility as we continuously chase down new (and larger) technology to find a smaller and smaller component to the universe. Science has begun to realize that the universe is a giant sea of consciousness and that, in fact, consciousness affects matter and that waves and frequency play a large role in this. As they make this giant leap away from the restrictive material way of thinking they are slowly becoming more aligned with the spiritual concepts that have been present for ages and are now able to better define those with science as they continue down this path. This falls into place when you consider your power of cocreation when it comes to the law of attraction. The universe being largely conscious and that consciousness can affect matter. So in light of that understanding minding your mind becomes a much bigger deal. You have the ability, through thoughts and focus, to manifest the things in your life that are in balance with the macrocosm of the universal plan and it will find the path for you if you stay focused on your destination. This is how the universe works in its perfect alignment and so by default this concept could not be out of sync with Gods expectations for you to be a part of that creative process in fact I can only assume that Gods counting on it. You came from consciousness and you will return to consciousness. You are sharing your experiences with the whole universe so make the best of them. Believing in the reality that you can manifest and shape your life should be no challenge once you honor and accept the gift you have been given to be a part of this co-creative process with the universe. You have now, and always had, the power to make changes in your life. Unfortunately many of us were sold a bill of goods as to how to make that happen, i.e. get a good job, go to college, find a perfect partner,
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have a family, etc. All these are fine goals to have, but reality does not necessary play out that way. When we fail to live up to the predisposed expectations of a perfect life we can often feel like we are left wanting. So the challenge here is to stop focusing on what you dont have or dont want and focus on what you do want while at the same time identifying what you are grateful for in your life so that you can manifest more of it. Let go of the preconceived notions that are contributing to the discontent in your life. Living your life to the fullest is one of the greatest gifts you can give back to the universe. Reconnecting to the Source and finding that you were never alone, finding that you are not powerless as you may have thought, and that luck does not exist, but is instead what you emanate through manifested thoughts - these are huge and empowering concepts for anyone and especially for those who struggle with depression. There is, however, another aspect to this equation with respects to the success of believing you can manifest the changes in your life and that is belief of ones worthiness and whether they are worthy of receiving such success and happiness. The depressed person can, at times, feel unworthy. In fact, often we can find it easy to believe in other people and not believe in ourselves. You can name any valid reason for how we got to be that way but the details are impertinent because all that matters is this moment. Lets go back to the connection to all things. Remember the old love others as yourself, well what if you love others and not yourself? I, personally, found myself in this situation many times. Here is the part you need in order to reconcile this way of thinking. You arent you. You are everyone. You are everything. You cannot separate yourself from the whole without separating from yourself. Its a selfinflicted delusion of isolation. The only way you can truly love others is in fact to love yourself. Everyone has heard this at some point but its true on a much larger scale than they could have begun to imagine. It means loving everyone, no matter how much they may not resonate at your frequency (i.e. you may disagree with them on any level or maybe you even labeled them as evil). Everyone, no matter what their lot in life, plays a vital role to the bigger macrocosm and is connected as one at the Source. That is where the concept of love thy neighbor comes from. We are so absolutely and completely connected that to believe otherwise bares the notion of the original sin of separation (sin i.e. to miss the mark). If your self-disparagement is of a physical basis you need to remember that matter is 1% of the universe. This body you currently reside in is only a vehicle to the experiences you are here to receive. Now let me clarify that living in healthy and conscious ways is important because it does help to raise your overall frequency, but the cosmetic effects of this body are mostly irrelevant to your overall goal to elevate your soul and the planet along with you. The conscious experiences you have are what you take with you and the experiences you share with others are what they take with them upon leaving this body. That is all that remains. From the research I have run across its been said that there are nine levels of your higher-self and equivalently nine levels of planets each at a different threshold of spiritual consciousness. Upon completion of all nine levels one finally arrives back to remain with Source in a nirvana-like state. Understanding your true purpose and your ultimate connection to all things should dissolve and bring to
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light how small and unimportant any concerns you may have with your physical appearance are in the bigger scheme of things. Realize the true impossibility for you to successfully love others and isolate yourself from the equation. If you love them then you do them and the universe a disservice by not loving yourself as well. It is not possible to achieve spiritual awakening without understanding that separation from the whole and from the Source are a fabrication of your mind and are a delusion, not to mention disempowering. Ultimately, it will prevent you from achieving your happiness and overcoming any depression that may exist for you. Allowing yourself to truly experience happiness, to believe that you are fully deserving of the changes you are focusing on manifesting is a necessary step and something you will need to overcome if this is a challenge for you. Re-read this section if you need to, as many times as necessary for it to sink in, because its as simple as understanding the true meaning of: Love your neighbor, as yourself. Practice this. Start seeing yourself as thin, tell yourself what like about yourself, and give yourself a pat on the back when you do a good job. Find ways to uplift your spirit and find those sparks of beauty in yourself. It is not an act of selfishness or a compromise of humility. The universe created you and in that consciousness you are just as perfect as it is. Just like practicing the art of being grateful, find ways to be grateful for yourself there is always something to be grateful for. Doing this will greatly improve your happiness in life, your health will likely improve (heck in my case I actually lost weight), your energy frequencies will shift to a higher resonance and thus those same positive energies will reflect back to you from the universe and then any work you do to attract changes in your life will be much improved. So essentially, if you can remain focused, balanced, positive, clear on the vision of what you want and truly believe you can achieve that you will be on the right track and well on your way to altering your life and manifesting your own outcomes using the core elements of the law of attraction. Up until now I have been dribbling down the center court of what you will find in many of the spiritual, enlightenment and self-help books, but I will be pivoting at this point for a rather probably somewhat long winded detour. A necessary detour into the stranger experiences of my life so that you can see how things eventually dribble their way back to the basket every time. I gave you fair warning earlier that I am a true Aquarius and, as such, I love all things odd and mysterious along with technology and gadgets I admit. In fact it probably seems a little odd having a strong inclination to both spirituality and technology but what I love about technology is that it is so creative. Someone had an idea (much like with the law of attraction), they believed in it and put their heart and soul into it. They envisioned it and worked toward achieving making the probable possible. Its a wonderful and beautiful co-creative materialization of the power of people as long as its intended purpose is to help elevate the spirit. Much of that is in how its used and of course how its built. Eventually we will find that we are still very much in the dark ages of technology as we move our way to more alien type technologies that are far more synergistic to ourselves and the environment we live in. Unfortunately for that to happen, man must become more elevated spiritually and in turn help to elevate the planets overall frequency for us to survive to the next level and not decimate our planet. Its not as scary or impossible as it sounds but I am not going to sugar coat it because as I stated earlier there is a tipping point in prophecy where our
actions and manifested thoughts become too entrenched to change course in time and we are dangerously close to that tipping point which is why its so vital that everyone make this shift back to their spiritual center, and quickly. I believe in you. And there is no reason you shouldnt believe in you. You can do it. Its actually your number one job here on the planet, but humanity has become too buried in the mind up until now. But times are a changin folks and with every person that elevates themselves the more likely this planet is to make that shift successfully. In fact, I believe the more people who can manage this shift the less dramatic the physical planetary changes will probably be. I mentioned earlier about the levels of the planets and I regret to inform you that we are officially level 1 on low frequency so we have a lot of work to do and that means each and every one of us. Again, if you thought you were a small unimportant pawn in the world you have been sadly mistaken. With that in mind, reflect back to when I explained that intricate and extensive cause and effect that your actions have on everything and everyone around you and now factor in that your frequency affects that as well just shifting yourself can cause shifts in others around you. Its that simple. Everything is connected at a much more in-depth level than you could ever imagine. So to explain this a little better I will move on to the daisy chain of strange avenues I winded down after high school. I am going to need you to silence the inner mind dialog on this a bit and refrain from judgment on the topics, long enough to feel inside for the truths in what I will be sharing here because to the average well indoctrinated reader this may get a little far out there at times. I assure you I am not a cuckoo and these were very real events and actually experienced by an entire group of people I knew and ran across over the years. Most of these folks have played out their role and moved back into their mind driven daily lives, but that doesnt make their part in the process any less important. Now even if I could recount every detail of this, which I cannot because of how bizarre and complicated it became, I will do my best to highlight the pertinent information. Even if the story recount feels a little spotty at times as long as you retain the concepts that is the most important component of these experiences I will be sharing with you. I explained a little about my old Headmaster Father Sneary and the grade school experiences I am sure most of us have had with kids being cruel as they try to figure out who they really are watching those around them and mimicking those actions of the adults and their behaviors as well. As I left grade school, as the kids began to realize they would be parting ways many of them shifted into a state of acceptance of this family they had been a part of all those years. As they realized their affections for those people that would be missed, even the ones they had long invested mind dialogs about over the years, it seemed to fade and they had a kinder demeanor with each other. It was a very interesting experience watching the kids who had been at odds for years suddenly accepting each other almost unconditionally. Of course entering high school was like a reset switch where that entire process started over and when you consider the compounding effect of a much larger population you realize how lost a child in high school can feel in the crowd. That sense of displacement and the act of re-evaluating who you are within any new social setting can be overwhelming particularly because we have been coddling the mind-driver and learning from watching others who are mostly searching outside themselves for acceptance and
happiness. Kids, of course, learn by watching others (just as much, if not more so, than they do in a classroom) and so they have been applying that pre-programmed response to their situations for years. As a result each school being larger than the last (high school, next is college) it can become a daunting task of finding your place in an ever growing larger social group. The larger the school the worse it gets. People often gawk at the size of classrooms and they focus on the availability of the teachers to assist each childs individual needs but often in school its less about the school work and its more often about the experiences they have while they are there. A child that feels ostracized in a large high school is probably more likely to not want to upgrade to an even larger college. We have huge dropout rates and low college attendance and yes, while it can be due to affordability, I think most people (if they want something badly enough) will find a way to make it happen. So somewhere in their minds its probably pretty safe to say that something is holding them back. Now we can keep making the argument that the size of the classroom matters we can, sure but I want you to have an interesting little piece of information. I remember reading some interesting studies a while back about group meditation. The larger the group the more positive outcomes came about. Often you hear the term there is power in numbers. And everyone knows its easy to tear a page but its much harder to tear a phone book. Studies regarding collective and focused group meditation in certain parts of the world that were more troubled were shown consistently to help reduce the negative events and conflicts in those regions. They were able to graph out the actual increase of the numbers of those meditating with the improvements of peace in the focused upon region. What this tells me is that there is nothing wrong with large numbers of people coming together collectively. What this tells me is that what is missing is the spiritual component and that connection to one another. In theory a group of kids meditating on success at school should improve the overall success of the kids in that school. Unfortunately that is not the focus. The focus comes back to searching outwardly for acceptance, from our peers, from our teachers, in our grades and parents. All of this is what poisons the well. The minddriver is trying to assert itself and control its situation; it needs to find fulfillment in something it can explain with its primary senses. Since this is the behavior that is applied in the majority of our society, along with trying to find fulfillment via consumerism, our kids are destined to replicate this same behavior because this is what they have learned from all of us. If those same kids were taught to find their peace at the spiritual center, beyond their own part in the big picture by accepting that the universe is unfolding perfectly, not trying to change others or dominate them in an effort to satisfy the impossible mind-driver, knowing that everything is connected and resolves back into itself if society focused on teaching them this.if they knew all of this.you cannot tell me that we would have the school shootings and the school drop outs we do today. School would be an entirely different experience where the more was the merrier and just imagine the decline in the number of suicides and the reduced need for medications. Yeah its that big a deal. As each individual parent we have this ability to redirect ourselves (first) to a higher frequency and that can result in positive effects for those around us and that includes our kids and even our friends kids and its goes on infinitely from there. We are all teachers every day for one another but we cannot fulfill that role successfully until we first teach ourselves. In fact, this is one of the many reasons I think
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psychologists and psychiatrists generally have such a low success rate, especially because many of the people who run to that career path are often there to self-help. High school was a fairly morbid experience for me in the beginning because like most I was one of those kids looking outside myself for acceptance. Ultimately I found my home, strangely enough, with the hillbilly crowd (just one of the many classified groups you find in every high school). What was so lucky about this, now that I look back at it, was that we actually spent a lot of time surrounded by the uplifting tunes of country music, nature, camping, beach trips etc. It was a lot more nature based than some of the other groups I had to choose from. I also got to learn a lot about fixing cars and off-roading but thats a story for another day. I dodged a lot of bullets with this particular group of folks compared to some of my more trendy friends who fell deeply into the drug and party scenes. The hicks (as they referred to themselves) didnt do much in the way of drugs, although they enjoyed their beer, but most of their fun was in the experiences of being together and being out in nature or surrounding themselves with silly songs (although most couldnt dance to save their lives). All in all it made the rest of the high school experience far more pleasant. Why is that? Well you have people who are not poisoning their systems with harsher chemicals; they are upbeat when together so their frequencies would be somewhat higher; their overall drive to find happiness in nature was of course pertinent here. It wasnt all roses of course because they all still tried to find happiness outside their spiritual-center point but they did manage to generate a higher frequency which resulted in more genuine and deeper spiritual relationships. It was all too often that friends I had from other social groups would cry on my shoulder about the back stabbing events from the night before. The only down side to this, if you ask my mom, was that we skipped class too often because we would rather be out hiking at the park instead of wading around in the lower frequency energy generated at the school. Now in the midst of all this I had the up and down relationship. It was like this (which I didnt realize at the time) because both of us were trying to find outer happiness - in all its fallibility - in one another. It was my first real relationship, so of course I didnt have a clue as to how to navigate through it. Well my confused little mind-driver drove me right off the road into the nearest ditch and I sunk farther into the depression I already struggled with (before this at a much lesser interval). I became angry, frustrated, depressed, and suicidal. Grades suffered, attendance suffered, relationship with the parents suffered, relationship with boyfriend suffered, etc. So my mother put me, at the wonderful advice of the therapist, on Prozac. What I didnt know is that eventually (if they leave you on it long enough) your body will stop producing its own serotonin at least for a very long time just like it does with enzymes. Well they left me on this stuff for yearsyearsand so as I was graduating from high school and moving my way into college and away from where my therapist wasthe Prozac days were fading off from view. What I didnt know is that without the medication reading a book would become next to impossible. My moods were fine but the ability to retain information went bye bye and it took almost no time at all before I had to drop out of my full scholarship college classes. Now I kind of skipped over some pertinent, information from high school so I will cover just those components that matter before I meet back up at the after-college details. Now remember that I spent most of my childhood in an Episcopalian School. We had church three days a week and Sunday school of course. I was well indoctrinated into that faith, but thanks to Father Sneary I had a deeper
understanding of it than some may have experienced. Just being around him, watching the way he respected all walks of life and how he managed the kids that were causing problems with such patience and understanding. From where I sat it seemed like he cut through the toughest issues like a warm knife through butter. In fact, I dont ever recall hearing a single kid in that school say a mean word about the man. What I remember most about him was that regardless of the religion of the school or the religion of the child attending that school he always celebrated their faith. He always respected their faith. This is huge. Its huge because this is something that is so lacking today. What he had to have known, but never expressed, was that the majority of todays religions, they are like different cars the ride may be different but the destination is the same. Remember what I said earlier that it didnt matter what kind of car you drive well it doesnt. Some roads are bumpier, but if you are connected by spirit then whatever faith you choose is what is right for you. Judgment, and the need to control the path people take, is the mind-based driver trying to remain in control. If you are centered at the spirit then you are completely aware of how unnecessary this is. If you are judging others then you need to focus less on them and more on reconnecting to your own spiritual center. While your internal light can warm and affect others, you cannot exert control over them yes even your kids even if you think can believe me you cannot. Everything is connected, the universe is perfect, they are co-creators and you are only fooling yourself if you believe they dont have the same choices you do. The only damned you will find in this world, truly, is the damned mind-driver that keeps you in a sin state of missing the mark that prevents you from connecting to your spiritual center. If you really want to have a positive influence on othersthen work on yourself. You dont replace a broken light bulb with a broken light bulb. In other words, if your perspective is skewed by the minddriver how can you possibly expect to help someone else navigate successfully back to the Source? Once you find your spiritual connection you will be able to start accepting others for who they are and stop trying to empower your mind-driver by forcing its will on to them as it has been doing to you this entire time. Dont be fooled. Dont be focused on others. Dont be part of the compounding problem. Focus on you and by doing that all of society benefits via that infinite universal connection. If any of this isnt sinking in try thinking about it this way everyones finger prints are different; everyones DNA is different, so why would their spiritual footprint be any less different. Everyone has a unique and individual path in life and this is why there is no one religion that can work for everyone. So this acceptance of all other religions that I was taught by Father Sneary, and thankfully my parents were of the same opinion in life, allowed me to explore as many as I liked. I would read all types of indoctrinations and faiths never quite to a full level of assimilating of any of them but that was largely because I didnt think religion was necessary for me to connect to the Source. I did, however, figure there were some lessons there that I needed to know. I guess I always felt God was right there with me along for the ride the entire time. Now sometime during high school there was a rather odd happening. A friend of mine outside my little hick crowd had a brother who had been selling acid and one day, for what reason I couldnt begin to tell you, he brought me a Satanic Bible. The kind you get at any book store. I can only suspect that the
people who follow this program have a much more interesting set of rules than what they put on display for the average reader, but that is not particularly of concern to me. Regardless, I had read about many of the more common religions with an open mind so in an effort to better understand - what I laughingly referred to then as knowing my enemy - I read this thing, as much as I could tolerate of it that is. Thankfully because of my built in BS meter I didnt make it very far. I got to the part where they chastised practitioners of white magic, i.e. Wicca and the unforgettable quote of do as thou wilt. That was a little overwhelming of a concept. Complete disregard for everything and anything just do what you want. Well it really doesnt take much for a depressed person who already focuses mostly on the bad in the world to associate that line of thinking with whats largely wrong with the world today. After that I tossed the thing in the darkest corner and took a shower. Back then of course the mind-driver interjected its rightness and qualified the book and its followers as evil and these days I just see it as a large group of severely mind-dominated individuals who are convinced that disconnection from spirit is the most powerful way of doing what they want and the way to achieving ultimate power - although ironically its quite the opposite. I am not here to pass judgment on them its the path they have chosen to experience and their role in the world has its purpose in the ultimate web of the universe. If I consider the effect it had on me - it ushered me down roads of exploration I probably never would have explored as you will see. One of these roads was actually Wicca. I was baffled by what could offend the Satanists so much. Since I was floating around in the mind-driver world of good and evil I assumed it must be a darn good thing if they hated it so much. So I picked up some books and read everything I could get my paws on. I fell in love with the nature relationship, the ideas of balance, the masculine and feminine perspectives of God and while I never quite steered away from the God concept from the Episcopalian teachings I just assumed it fit in perfectly with the love and balance perspective of a white magic solution. Now remember I was a teenager here and still in mind-driver mode so the idea of being able to affect the world around me was a big deal because at that age everything feels pretty out of control. In fact, there was a nice little twist to the Satanic Bibles rule of do as thou wilt but harm none which felt pretty good so long as the things I did remained non-manipulative and coming from a place of wanting good and healing to occur. In general I figured it was a nice blend of religion, nature and, to some extent, control over my own life. My religious background made it difficult for me to go too far down the spells and rituals route. I mostly enjoyed setting up a circle which is safe and a strangely warm place (even when you are outside) from negative energies so just sitting in it felt amazing. I also really liked helping people with herbs for healing and using stone energy for various reasons. I had a few falling down moments of crossing the manipulation barrier and realized quite quickly what happens when you do that. It comes back to you in quite a much larger wave than you could imagine. In particular, I realized that money spells are bad because if you dont qualify what you are asking for carefully you will get that money right after you end up in a hospital and that love spells are bad if you are directing it with someone in mind even when its not for you. A person under such influence can become obsessed and scary and completely deviate from who they normally are. Now its fairly easily undone in most cases (except in cases of physical harm) but karma is a tricky thing and there is no telling just what you will get in the long run.
Things that seem harmless and well-intended still have consequences because of the ripple effect they create across the energies of the universe. To sum it up quite simply, with or without magic, the only difference in your co-creative power in the universe is that one is a direct exertion of creative force without the all-knowing information (and their many outcomes) that the universe contains versus going the more faith related route of focusing on what you need and knowing through faith that the universe will map it out in a way that is in perfect sync with everything else in the most harmless way. Magic, on some occasions gave me the impression that it was possible to push your will forward even if when it was at odds with the universal stream of things and so both methods work but only one has a more perfect alignment with the universe. I considered herbs and stones as readily available for our use in nature, and they seemed to be an entirely different thing altogether. Focusing on those for healing purposes was much safer and seemed to generate much less conflict, if any, in the universal outcomes. After learning much of these karmic effects the hard way as a self-initiated practitioner, as stated above, I dropped back into the more natural healing paths using herbs and stones, but I also, at times, found myself trying to help people get rid of negative energies from certain locations, homes or other troubled spots they ran across. I didnt go searching these out it just so happened that I would meet someone who needed the help. It was much later that I realized coincidences just dont exist. So I would go there and do what I could to help remove the negative energies. With most places it was a successful endeavor, except for one.Bedrock. Now Bedrock was, I believe, partially owned by the local utility company. Later we would come to find out that earlier on that region had been mined for silver and a common component back then to mine for silver was mercury. Mercury was known to be in the water supplies in certain quantities in the region and most people in that area didnt drink the water due to that and known leaks in underground tanks that had been used for other various storage. So obviously, mining silver had its hazards. After further researching that region we found a lot of articles on deaths relating to that area and to the mining that had been there. Still, for whatever reason, the kids just loved to go out there at night. Now here is where the things come back into time alignment in the recount of time between high school and college. It was during the summer in transition to college that I was asked to look into this place. My parents had already relocated up near Reno, NV where I was planning to attend college and so had my boyfriend at the time. As many girls do, I had picked the college based on where my boyfriend was moving to for his college nearby (same troubled relationship I mentioned earlier from high school). In the meantime, my best friend and I were both on the same page as far as our belief in God and yet we both also still followed a non-ritual based Wicca spin to our faith where both God and magic were alive and well operating in harmony. She joined in this little endeavor, as she had done so many times before, to help me remove the negative energies at this new location. She had an easier time of making friends than I generally did and it seemed we would have random tag along people now and then. We simply used prayer, stones, herbs, incense and positive energy sometimes we would setup a circle. We would try to help lay the foundation for bringing forth a shift in the vibrations at the location. Now before we heard about Bedrock, somewhere during this summer phase our paths crossed between her friends and their friends and other friends of those peoples friends and at some point in this chaos we had quite a large group of people who hung out at our local all-night Dennys restaurant. It was here
that folks heard about some of the places we had tried to help rebalance and that is when the topic of Bedrock came up. Apparently the crew here had a place that the kids would periodically go to hang out at and yes, in fact, sometimes drink or get silly. The problem was that some of them had been seeing things they couldnt explain, dark and rather disturbing things in some cases. Others just started getting freaked out by this place and didnt want to go there anymore. So we planned a little trip out there with the few that were willing to go one evening. We couldnt go during the day because again it wasnt clear to me whether it was public or utility and we didnt want to disturb anything or anyone. What we were trying to do was essentially good work or at least we sincerely believed it to be. Now despite our best efforts to help switch this place over it became increasingly obvious that because there were others visiting there that were promulgating negative actions and emotions (ongoing visitors doing drugs, drinking, practicing rituals - who knows) that any time we tried to help shift the energy positively it was quickly reversed. We had made several trips there and each time we lost footing with that energy and each time we became more prone to it actually affecting our own instead. We started noticing infighting amongst people who generally didnt argue. We would get split up even when we were trying to carefully follow one another and more than once we heard or saw things, both individually and collectively, that were rather unnerving. So we abandoned the effort to try to adjust the negative energy at that location because of the risk it had become to our own. In the midst of this I had, as was inevitable, time to finally get a clearer mind about my long overdue decision to split in my relationship. The time apart had served some good for me to finally feel like I could handle being alone. Alone was a scary and terrible concept for me back then, because again, I was trying to complete myself outside of myself. This large network of almost instantaneous friendships (after our little expeditions) served as a great source of replacement for the support I thought I needed back then to feel complete. Ironically, after I had made that decision down the road I ended up dating one of the people in this large group of friends. We were very close and he ended up being my first husband in the long run. In fact, we remain friends still today. Regardless of the new remote relationship, like a good child, I trotted off to college. My very supportive mother who believed I could achieve anything had somehow allowed me to be convinced of that enough that I had signed up for both honors English and Trigonometry simultaneously right out of the gate. Remember what I said earlier about the Prozac and the memory issueswell.honors English and Trig dont go over very well when you cant remember the things you are reading. So, I did the smartest thing I could and dropped out before I accumulated too much debt. Being unable to learn via memory will pretty much snuff out your chances of passing classes in todays academic structure. I had no idea at the time it was Prozac related or I probably would have started it back up, but all things happen the way they are meant to and the lessons I learned in the following years far exceeded anything I could have learned in the classroom. Stranger still, at this point my ex-boyfriend ended up living with my parents and had also decided not to pursue his college so moving back there was pretty much out of the question. I, instead, worked it out with my current boyfriend and his dad (his mom had passed away) for me to live there, work, and help pay the bills. I was intending, once I could figure out what was wrong with my memory retention issues,
to head for community college. Well, the unfortunate reality check for me here was that since I had spent the majority of my time as a kid (and teenager) mostly sick my mom never had me work and so I had no prior job experience except for showing dogs for my aunt. So, I ended up working in the fast food world of life to make a living for a while. Not the most mentally challenging or fulfilling job one can have. So to stay engaged and learning I kept on with my own studies of the mysterious. As life was running along in its apparent normal fashion, I researched all the wonderful and strange things I loved to learn about. I could retain most of it in concepts but the specifics would be out of reach. Often any magic related work I did ended up straight from the gut. People often told me when I worked in these areas I was almost like someone else, a calmer more knowledgeable me. I had reference manuals for plants and stones which was easy enough to pull from. I basically kept on with my usual routines finding new ways of working around the memory issues. Early into this new living situation, that group of friends had started to meld in the oddest ways. I had friends from high school and friends of my prior ex-boyfriend, who were still around off and on. They started to hang out with the friends my girl-friend had as well and there was a very strange blend of mods, hicks, preppies, street rats, mall rats and college kids round tabling at the Dennys together at whatever hour of night their shifts would collide. One particular evening, a friend of mine and my boyfriend and I decided to go for a drive out to the mountains where my hick friends and I used to go motor bike riding on occasion. Its a beautiful spot called Loma Prieta. We just drove up there and sat, looked at the stars and discussed everything and anything. The girl that had come with us, still to this day I dont remember how we met, but she had one of the most amazing energies about her. She was calm, very positive and almost operated from a higher place. Nowadays I would say that her inner connection to peace may have helped triggered our own. As we sat there discussing the universe and all its wonder all of us simultaneously stopped and looked at each other. Something wasnt quite right. Each of us, almost immediately, had the same experience and sudden understanding that there was some very important thing that we needed to do. Of course, we had no idea what the heck that was. All we had was a sudden sense of urgency, a need to move, a need to get moving, a need to get on track because it was important and whatever it was mattered on a very high level for the world and possibly even the universe. We pulled off the mountain and started driving down the hill and the fog was like nothing I have seen before. It was patches, wispy, almost like ghosts. It was a very strange feeling. We stopped at another all night restaurant once we got back into the main city and drank our coffee, perplexed, and trying to make some sense of direction out of what had occurred - the whole time asking each other if maybe we were just imagining it. The next morning we headed to the library (since internet wasnt an option back then) and we started shuffling through books trying to see if anything felt right, noting down the things that did or making copies of it. This became a routine. Eventually our discussions started to filter out at our Dennys groups. Other people started to pitch in too. Its what they started to pitch in that mattered. People starting bringing us written down poems that they felt were important, quotes or lines from songs, drawings, odd shapes or sounds they had seen or run into. Parts of books or carefully drawn or written out dreams
or dream sequences they had been experiencing. We collected all of this into what had eventually become known as The Binder. Because of the sense of urgency people automatically assumed there was a doomsday event looming. We of course explored those avenues as well. In looking back, we also had a group of folks who also participated in our circle sitting events and I remember at one point we even focused on group exercises regarding polarity in a pentacle setting where certain individuals had a negative polarity, some positive, some neutral and in effect created a balance within the pentacle. What baffled me back then makes perfect sense now. After a while the group ran dry on submittals and became frustrated at the fact that we couldnt put our finger on just what was going on. Closer to the end of this strange chain of events, when it started to wind down, I was introduced to a girl from a town an hour awayand as it turns outshe and her circle of friends were going through the exact same type of experience. We only met once and we exchanged certain details of information but apparently that was all she needed. The fact remained that it was highly suspect for three people to have the same experience, and even more so for that to occur in a much larger group, but the odds get even less likely when you have two entire groups of people experiencing the same type of unusual experience who havent met before. In addition, what seemed to happen over the course of this event was that the people who radiated certain frequencies (we referred to them as polarities back then) went farther down the road they were on. If they had an occasion to be cruel or use drugs they went further down the rabbit hole as if their frequency was accelerated by the exercises. If they were more positive they tended to go farther down that road as well. It was an interesting thing to observe. The more we tried to push the envelope to find the answers the more obscure everything became. So we gently walked away from the endeavor and I retained the Binder for safe keeping. After that we all made a conscious decision to return to normal. Unfortunately, it wasnt that easy for me. It seemed like every time I tried to do something normal I would hit a wall of odd intersections with random strangers. Here are just a few of those. I remember a young girl, a complete stranger, sitting next to me on a train at one point. She sat there telling me that something was wrong with the world and that there was something big in the future that was going to happen. In disbelief, I just sat there speechless wondering how I run into these people. Another time I had been reading a book that had a section in it about genetic engineering of plants and the dangers of it. I had a terrible time understanding this part and, frustrated, I agreed to take a quick break from it and drive a friend over to the Starbucks for a coffee. He took an unprecedented amount of time in the store. I decided to get out of my car to see if I could catch a glimpse of him inside (in case he had been kidnapped by some violent coffee-loving chimpanzees or something), but that was a wasted effort because I had been forced to park at the very end of the nearby Safeway parking lot. I stood there at the backside of the car, smoking a cigarette, now annoyed at both the book and the Starbucks. A man suddenly walks out of the Starbucks and he starts heading down the parking lot at what seems to be directly at me. As it turns out, it was directly at me. I assumed he was just being friendly at first and that I was in his path of directionality but I realized that wasnt the case the moment he jumped right into a
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discussion about genetically modified plants and how they cannot adapt to changes in the environment the way normal plants can and the dangers about why and how and the ultimate ramifications of all of that. Still stranger, he finished his little speech and moved on his waythe other directionseriouslyI was never even in his path of directionality. He had made it a point to come talk to me. He walked all the way down to the end of a grocery store parking lot just to deliver that message. Shortly after my friend comes shuffling along with his coffee with quite the perfect timing dont you think; a little too perfect. After my ex-boyfriend had moved out of my parents house and into the fire station house (as a mostly permanent volunteer fireman), my now boyfriend and I moved up there to go back to school being true to our commitment to return to normality. I took a class I wanted to take this time, and grabbed a psychology course, secretly hoping it might shed some light on the last years events. Instead the teacher discussed group experiences, mass consciousness and the Fatima incident, which if you look into that (and if I remember correctly) it was a mass witnessed event of prophecy experienced by three young children who related the messages back to the Pope, one of which was never released I believe. I became increasingly aware that the universe had no intention of letting me move along in sheepmode. So instead of continuing to go against the grain of the universe I decided to periodically keep up with the Binder research. I also noticed that periodically over time, just as I would continue to receive information, I would also run into people who needed information from it and I was happy to point them in the right direction. Now what happened after that, finally, was that I started to notice as the years passed, piece by piece, the answers would come. The internet was a huge acceleration to this because it made researching so much easier, but more importantly it allowed for the collective consciousness to be accessed instantly and the cross referencing of it with the data we accumulated in the binder to find the recurring patterns therein and that was another piece to the puzzle. While I dont remember all the information in the binder I do remember a few that were of particular importance. There was a tree metaphor that kept showing up and a phoenix. When I started linking them I ran across something called Ormus (Orbitally Re-arranged Monoatomic Elements). This stuff is so complicated that I hope this recant can even do it the slightest bit of justice but I would urge you to look up the Dallas Interview by David Hudson and read what he had to say. He was a man from Phoenix, Arizona who kept referring to this substance as the Tree of Life and Manna (defined as a substance that would give long life and spiritual advancement). He had stumbled across a way of manipulating gold in such a way that it had superconductive, superfluid, magnetic, anti-gravity, healing, and (if ingested) spiritually advancing properties. Let me assure you that plenty of folks in the government and corporations know about this stuff. At certain points in this process half the elements weight would disappear and reappear and it was assumed that the substance was reaching a zero-point energy. If you want to you can learn a lot more about this at www.miraculewater.com. Now David ran into a large amount of resistance from the EPA, and not surprisingly, as did a man who had taken his project on after wards in great length, in an effort to generate a gentler version of this substance from water. He warned me that he had remote viewer friends (people who claim to can see snippets of the future events) and that he knew when he was going to die and how and in fact he died in 2007. He also told me to invest in
gold and that was before gold hit the roof. No surprise that the skeptical mind-driver in me had advised against it in all its brilliance. I want to make sure that I say that I am not confident what people are selling online is the real deal, so I am not saying you should run out and buy these homemade products because I cannot confirm or deny if they are safe. It does, however, raise an interesting side-question with respects to the huge and sudden rush to buy gold and its skyrocketing value. Another item from the Binder was the quote that he doesnt watch his watch like I do. In its simplicity it has to do with time relativity. Not only was man meant to live much longer than he does today, but time itself is operating in all facets at the same time. Future, past, present, life time across life time - all things are occurring concurrently. Time travel is more than a real possibility but we need to factor in the lesson that was learned from the experiments with spell casting and that is the universal ripple effect that can occur so we cannot be sure what the outcomes of those effects would be. For now just remember to focus on being in the present moment because that is where your power lies. Time is not what it seems especially when you factor in that the spirit never dies. It continues to cycle and raise its frequency and the frequency of its inhabiting planet as well. Additionally, for the longest time I kept a key, a skeleton key. If you asked me where I got it I wouldnt be able to tell you, but I had it hanging from a teddy bear so I wouldnt lose it. I knew it didnt go to anything in specific but that it was a very important metaphor to something much larger. Eventually I did misplace the teddy bear and one day another bear with a similar key dangling around its neck appeared in my house. Apparently I hadn't figured this one out yet and the universe planned to remind me. So one of the dreams that was shared and sketched out into this binder was a dream about what appeared to be catholic priests chanting and swinging incense and there were two spinning cylinders in an X formation, one blue and one orange. In this dream there was a metal gate with the words MAJIC on it. The top of the gate itself was shaped somewhat like a rounded M with curving tops like the M in a McDonalds sign. For so many years, that dream, which was explained in such detail, stuck with me. I drew it and redrew it. I looked in books, online, everywhere. I ran across all kinds of things but none of them rang true for me although may still have some relation. I was looking for the words and some explanation of what (besides the obvious) they meant. Now the gate was locked and the sense was that it needed a key. So I drew this one day sitting on the couch and it spun to the side a bit and it occurred to me that the gate looked a lot like the lines on a music sheet. I was looking at it wrong. It had to do with sound. I looked up and there was the bear and key sitting in front of me over the mantle of our fireplace. To open the MAJIC of the gate you use soundand the spinning cylinders as it would seem were potentially representing DNA. The key was sound - frequency. Now one more quick note, its quite often that I have found multiple answers to each puzzle. With respects to the sound puzzle, if you look into this concept more you will see a lot of quotes from people as well as biblical quotes - In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. It was sound. Creation formed from sound. Look that up on YouTube sometime and check out the plethora of videos that show how sounds can create mandalas in sand or various changes in the state of matter. Its completely possible that sound was a major component in the creation of man. We already discussed how man has frequencies. Now if you look around online you will start to find that many people are figuring out this very thing - and that sound can be used to repair DNA. There
is a 528 Hz frequency that is used by geneticists for that very purpose. A man named Dr. Leonard G. Horowitz has a very detailed book, along with (of course) much controversy. Despite these controversy that information has fit into place perfectly with the binder information and so I am going with my gut here. He also has another called Love the Davinci Code which was an interesting perspective. It explains his theories about the real meaning of the Vitruvian Man man in a pentacle formation - and several frequencies which have been devised to be the Solfeggio Tones. It is worth a read and for me was very enlightening. I especially found it interesting after our human pentacle and polarity exercises from long ago. One of the key concepts was the idea of right brain and left brain balancing. He explains how Davinci practiced using both sides of his brain. Now its not my place to cover the concepts he outlines in his book, although I do highly recommend reading it, but I merely need to highlight that point gently before I later step into another recurring pattern in my life over the last few years in order for you to understand why its important. So, lets talk a little bit about the use of sound based healing and the repairing of DNA though certain frequencies. I have been using the Solfeggio tones associated with the chakra points to help rebalance the aura in my body and also to help with the possibility of DNA repair. You can buy these frequencies, find them for free at some websites and probably get a cd or a set of tuning forks in the metaphysical shops. If you have a smart phone, there are even apps for that. You can get free frequency generators and plug it in yourself if you need to or just listen to them at YouTube. If you go to CNET downloads you can also pick up a program called Gnaural (if you can figure it out its not too hard) but its free and you can make your own tones there or setup binaural beats, as well, which I will try to explain a little more about later. I would advise making sure you do your homework though before messing with any of this, especially if you have struggles with mental conditions because frequencies can have a very immediate impact on your state of mind. Dr. Horowitz also has spent a good amount of time dedicated to taking our current music which he believes is set to an altered scale to adjust the songs people send him into the old Solfeggio Scale and he has an entire web based radio site where people can listen to that music. Its actually pretty nice and I think its called 528 Radio. If you search for it online you will find it. Now I wanted to share that recurring theme that I have had running in my life and that is the tendency to see repeating numbers everywhere I look. It started with the numbers 111 and 1111. It has since, as I have branched out, moved into other alternating patterns of numbers all of which you can find some details on at the following website: http://www.spiritual-path.com/numerology.htm. Its somewhat generic but apparently these folks have been tracking the repeating sequences to determine the outcomes that they often portend. What I found, however, was something even more interesting. Apparently, there have been university studies that found that the 110-111 Hz frequencies may help to balance brain hemisphere dominance. If that is true then this is a nice way of doing what Davinci did except more easily with a sound based technique. What I noticed in trying this myself was how strange things sounded when I was running this frequency. Some things literally sounded like they were right next to me when they were well off in the distance. The ancient temples for chanting were designed to generate the 110-111 Hz Frequency. Now the importance of shifting to a more right brain hemisphere dominance is that the emotional side is housed here and if you are interested more on that it is worth
reading about the experiences of Dr. Jill Holte Taylor and her details about experiencing universal connection after her left brain affected stroke. If the goal of the ancient religions was to elevate peoples consciousness then it makes perfect sense why they would focus on chanting in temples that were specially designed to generate these particular frequencies. Now there is one other piece to this and that is the whole body reverberation to that particular tone which you would experience inside a temple but not from listening to frequencies, in lets say, a set of head phones. That would be the same full body effect of a symphony and so I can only assume the tones via your ears will not have the same full impacts or benefits of that resonating frequency in a temple or symphony building. On the flip side the 1111 Hz frequency is a delta deepening frequency. While I am certain it is an important frequency due to its recurring patterns in my life I havent quite connected the dots to that latter frequency as of yet. I will say that using it will put you into a state of deep sleep very quickly. I assume that would have some healing benefits in and of itself, especially for people who have a difficult time sleeping. Well I promised you a mid-court pivot and I delivered. The point of what I have shared with you from all the above is as follows. When I talk about your frequency I actually mean it. Frequencies affect you, but you also generate your own. The things around you affect you, especially the sounds and energies of those in your vicinity, but you, as a co-creator, you are responsible for your own energies. By managing those you are doing exactly what you came here to do. And if you were trying to figure out your lifes purpose, elevating the consciousness of an entire planet by elevating your own sure beats the pants off any job you could possibly imagine as far as a level of importance goes. What is so pertinent about the story of the Binder is that it shows, in real experiences, that there is a true universal consciousness shared by people. That creation happens every moment through sound, through thought, through manifested will. You have the ability to create as co-creators with the universe. Together, at a higher consciousness level, as well as in the everyday, we hold the key to solving the problems here on this planet. And while there is a sense of urgency and a demand for us to act, which may or may not be at that tipping point yet, the powerful part is that required action is spread across all of us as collectively and individually - not just here, but throughout the entire universe. We are getting a lot of help from the universe right now to make this happen. The people here have to make the shift and overcome the mind-based driver in order to abandon this fraudulent notion of separation and take your place connected back to your center Source so you can do the job your spirit truly came here to do. I know what I am proposing may not fit into the average day life you have right now. At least you may not think it does. It could sound like an outrageous and unachievable goal. In actuality, its as simple as you using whatever methods feel right to you to reconnect to your spiritual nature, find that connection to all things. Whatever works for you, do it. I have highlighted several options, and they are quite obviously not the only ones out there, but the core fundamentals will be the same no matter what path you choose. As with the Binder, its where you find the connections, the consistencies, the redundancies, the repeating patterns and messages within that collective consciousness shared by one another that is the universe calling to you. If you can begin to find those patterns in your life then you have the bread crumbs to make your way back to Source and from there all solutions become available.
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As you have been reading, you have heard me discuss shifts in the planet and in consciousness and the possibility of world changes. Attempting to capture for you some of the key highlights in the work we collected for the Binder brought me back a bit to that time and I remember there was a lot of fear because of it and an overwhelm because we didnt understand how a bunch of kids could make a difference. We felt burdened by that sense of not knowing, that drive for survival and a sense of desperation. There are tons of dooms day scenarios out there in the world today so I am going to ask you a very important question. Why do you think it scares people so much? There are people who have built entire basements of food, stockpiles of guns, manual generators, you name it; folks who are preparing for end times. Think about it, carefully. Think about what we discussed earlier. Where does their real power lie? Every day they spend focused on an outcome that may or may not happen; convinced that they need to save this carbon body. Are they just as concerned for the spiritual advancement of their soul? What if they go to church every day? What if they say their confessions? Are they safe then? What is safe? Time and again I have read books and experiences of people who have been beyond the world of matter. Everything from after death experiences to people who have been visited by other world beings and were given an opportunity to understand what real consciousness feels like in a time travel state. If you want a wonderful detailed example of this pick up a book called Light Water by Alexander R. Putney. In addition, in my own experience of my aunt recently passing away, I was given what I called a huge energy hug before she left. As she transited her body, the hair on my neck and arms stood straight up. I could sense her moving towards me and gave me what I could only describe later as a huge hug of the most unconditional love you could even begin to imagine. It made my eyes well up. I didnt need the nurse to confirm she had moved on because she already informed me of it in the most beautiful way. A lot of people can simply not accept the concept of life after death. The mind-driver must remain in control at all times and preserve itself (and thus its carbon form). People with a heavy handed minddriver have a much lower chance of experiencing wonderful things like that hug. Even if they did, they likely wouldnt believe it or would associate it with some rational explanation - that is assuming they even noticed it. Whats more interesting is how a depressed person may in some cases spend their time wishing to end their life and the misery they believe they are undergoing, but if you think about it - why would they even consider that unless somewhere in their being they believed the next place would be better. Maybe they just believe all things just cease to exist when they die? Considering science has already shown that energy doesnt die; it changes forms, why would a persons energy be any different? When we talk about fear of world changes I am reminded that it is a pretty common thing to hear the phrase people dont like change. If that were true then why buy the newest smartphone or that car with the new computer technology in it. Why do people install water waste reduction faucets in their homes or hand dryers in their buildings? Do we really hate change that much?
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The type of changes people tend to not like are the ones that challenge the mind-drivers sense of who it is or its control over its world. If an older employee is asked to report to a younger employee you may find that older workers mind-driver is suddenly fully engaged in what it believes is a battle for survival to sustain itself. Its entire existence of what it has fashioned for right and wrong have suddenly been placed in a state of upheaval. No matter how much the transition may or may not have made sense for the business (and also regardless of how well the two may get along) there may be a silent war now in play. Their frequency shifts lower, the energy bodies of these two sense the shift and things become awkward. Whats so key in understanding this most basic example is that when the mind-driver is in charge of us, we become virtually insane with thought. Even when the situation may make the most sense when carefully considered, it will not matter if our mind-driver feels threatened, and if it gets ahead of us. As discussed earlier, it can get us to react and behave in desperate ways or experience feelings which, regardless of the definition you associate to them, all boil down to survival mode at a most primitive fear based level. There is a very simple and yet powerful way to identify this. You can pretty much boil down the seven deadly sins down into a big fear soup. Any feeling that makes you feel discomfort is coming from a place of fear. Its as simple as that. Lets look at the guy who murders his wife. At face value we chalk him up to being a psychopath. If you start digging you may find a child history of trauma, or a sense that she was cheating, the list could go on forever. Eventually when you dig far enough you will find that all things like this all come down to fear. Hate crimes are just people acting in fear of something different from themselves; their mind-driver has them fully convinced that to maintain their status of being superior (or safe) there must of course be something inferior (or something that would harm them). Even those who have no explanation, that enjoy causing harm, somewhere along the way their body began resonating from a fear based disposition, potentially even from genetic defect. Regardless, its still fear fueling it Now I explained to you that the firsthand experience I was so kindly given in that huge energy hug my aunt gave me on her spiritual passing, but I want you to actually share that hug with you as much as I possibly can. What the afterlife (and what spiritual consciousness) feels like is a pure and unconditional love. Its almost so strong that breathing becomes impossible. For those of you that have children, and were happy about that, it has been described to me in meditations that you achieve that same moment and feeling of unconditional love when you share that moment with a newborn or small child. It doesnt even have to be your own if you love kids. For a biker maybe its a beautiful ride in the country on a warm day. To the astronomer, it can be an evening under the stars with a friend. A sunset or sunrise will also often give you this sensation if you allow yourself to be in that moment. It can be as simple as laying on the beach in the sun, when all thoughts fade. Some people experience it in a relationship where they hold no judgment of the other person and accept them for who they are. It can be experienced as a result of religion or in the act of making love or via tantric spiritual practices. You can use mediations, Kundalini exercises or even astral travel experiences. Some try to recreate these experiences with drugs which is why it becomes so hard for them to stop using them because they do not want that feeling to end. We can experience this feeling in our friendships or families by just being around someone who lets
us be who we are. These are just some of the ways people experience that unconditional love of the Source. It is a pure warm, energy, without judgment, a sense of total completion, love and belonging. Now imagine just one of those experiences I listed above and now try to imagine that feeling amplified to such a huge magnitude that you are completely surrounded by it like a huge blanket except from the inside of your being out into the infinite universe. Imagine that same unconditional love flowing out from the very center of you, covering every inch of you, shifting out to every single thing and being in the vicinity of you, imagine it is a giant sea of floating particles in the most beautiful shifting colors like a floating intangible fabric as it grows out, outward still, touching everything as it goes, connecting everything just by its mere existence while welcoming every being or object just as it is into its perfectly unfolding and ever growing, ever flowing presence. Gliding through and encompassing all matter and all beings, like water. Winding out into the universe, to other planets, their inhabitants, their waterways and mountains, across their very beings, their birds, their plants, and then on to the next planet, their moons, stars and sunsin an energy of absolutely unconditional love that tenderly ties everything back into one single Source of unity with its ultimately connected essence of existence through universal consciousness. So I ask you again, what do you have to be afraid of? If our bodies die, and energy doesnt then there has to be more; infinitely more, because energy just changes forms. While I will not say this life is an illusion, its very real, but the perspective of what we really are is what isnt real. The concept of death is what isnt real. The belief that this is all there is that is the illusion. Allowing our carbon based minddriver to convince us that we have something to fearwell that is the greatest illusion of all. Fear, aside from making us act in the most desperate ways, generates a very low frequency state. Your very DNA will compress in a fear state making you less receptive which compounds the problem. There is very little you can achieve in this mode. If you attribute success to having a big house, fancy car, or owning a business then what happens when its your turn to pass beyond the veil of the material world? Folks have told you time and again that you cant take it with you. That never stops people from trying though. Maybe you can achieve pure unconditional love by establishing your power and dominance over a rat packing materialistic world if you can just maintain your legacy and establish supreme and ultimate wealth through your children and corporate gainsseriouslycome on now. I only chuckled there because I just cant relate. Once you see this for what it is, you realize what a lesson in futility it is to create such a kingdom made of sand. Remember when people thought the world was flat? No you probably cant because you werent alive then. The reason you know that at all is because of the many spirits who have walked this Earth to pass on that history. That knowledge has been passed on from generation to generation through our consciousness and our communication; the same timeless, consciousness of the universal cosmic fabric. Within that universal stream are countless detectable and undetectable waves and frequencies. At a fear level we are operating, as stated, at a very low vibration. When enough of us do thisthen our planet does too. Now the unconditional love frequency operates at a very high energy vibration. The stronger and higher your vibration the more you will be able to connect with your higher consciousness, that spiritual center. The lower, the more disconnected you will feel and so you will turn to other means
and methods of feeling complete whether it is through others, materials, medications or more dangerous drugs. Just because you cant see these things doesnt meant they arent there. Look, air! Get the point? Okay, lets do a quick recap. Lets say you were able to accept that you may have a mind-driver that is causing you to see things in a way that may be off the beaten path. And the possibility that there is a connecting fabric of universal consciousness linking all things. Further you are willing to accept the idea that you have a spiritual center that you can connect to and that it communicates through thought and sound (i.e. waves and frequencies). Further still, if sound is, in fact, the great sculptor of all things matter then wouldnt it be fairly safe to say that your ability to serve in harmony with the universe as a cocreator is greatly dependent upon you not being in a low-vibratory, fear based state? There is an important challenge here to make the connection that even though we cannot necessarily hear the universe, that doesnt mean it cant hear us. We discussed the people who have recurring bad things that happen to them. Those resonating at a lower vibration, pulling to them similar lower vibration results and experiences fear generating experiences. It is the individual co-creating a fear based experience of its existence on this planet and those outcomes are a manifestation of that generated lower vibration. The universe is hearing them and responding with what is being communicated out to it. There is no right and wrong in an unconditional love state. If you obsess about a flat tire, you will very likely get a flat tire because the universe loves you unconditionally and will give you what you ask for. I will give you a personal example. Several months before, I had backed up into my husbands truck, as he had the corner sticking out behind the bushes in front of our drive way. It was foggy and I simply didnt see it. It broke the tail light and the brake bulb. I kept procrastinating getting the bulb replaced. Several weeks went by and I started seeing police around pretty frequently. Each time I thought, gosh I need to get that light fixed. This continued several times. Finally, one night only a few blocks from home, a police officer pulled up to the last light behind me. The thought flashed in my mind again and I instantly turned to my husband and said, shoot I just made that happen and two seconds later the police man pulled us over and asked us to get it fixed. Nothing terrible happened from it, he was just looking out for us, but it was immediately clear to me that my line of thinking was bringing that to fruition. Of course, now, we also have to keep in mind the universe could have millions of reasons and other related outcomes for that happening, but essentially I had added my own consciousness into that outcome aside from just the obvious procrastination of getting it fixed. Whats more is the repetitiveness, the coincidences. I had seen a lot of police in that few weeks, more than I ever normally would. When you see those patterns happening be sure you check in with yourself and try to find out if you are coming from a place of fear so that you can either take the appropriate action or make active mental corrections to your thinking to which we have gone over in great length. Essentially, the Source and the universe operate in a beautiful unconditional state of love and so the idea of returning into that state should be no cause for fear. Concerns about the future (while a disempowering state to the co-creator whose power resides in the moment) are not based upon anything except the mind-drivers fear based state. Even if the world ends tomorrow, we will just go
back into the fold and return later in a different form to continue our spiritual evolvement. We will continue to co-create and assist in the universal experiences of the cosmic consciousness. Sure does change the way one thinks about reasons for building that bomb shelter, while you are free to do so, is it really necessary? A better question still - would you do it with some great excitement on the off chance that you get to remain and help to the survivors of humanity forge out a new path in the future, or would you be doing it from a position of fear in order to preserve your body and your family? My point is, we can consider earth changes that may or may not occur as a bad thing or we can see them as an opportunity or even part of the larger cosmic plan. Our bodies and any pain we might experience in any upheaval are temporary. If we lose family and friends, we will connect with them again when its our time. That might seem like a cold point of view, but its actually a connected point of view. It comes from a place of no fear, only love. When you get to that point you should have no fear of death or losing loved ones, while you might miss them in our definition of time they are in actuality always right there with you. With some practice you can probably even communicate with them in a connected state of meditation. Additionally, remain aware that the great macrocosm of the universe (and all its co-creators) have important roles in this whole unfolding. We need to step up and do our part; we need to reconnect to find that appreciation for all life. Just because the afterlife, or that state of universal consciousness, might sound great, doesnt mean we should shoot drugs or try to commit suicide to get there sooner. Its our job to live our lives to the fullest, to share those experiences back to the whole. If you are someone who has been left behind by someone you love, then the most amazing thing you can give them is all the wonderful experiences of your life, now. If you are angry about being left behind stay focused on listening to the mind-driver thoughts that are causing that discontent. Pull out your book of many things to be grateful for in life. Drop all focus and find something in nature to stare at and try to think of nothing, just breathe and be alive. Once that starts to kick in, then remind yourself that you are a part of the cosmic plan, a co-creator in that. You are here to do a job for your own spirit, to elevate it and in turn to help the planet do the same. Its a big job and the more of us that manage to follow these concepts, to reconnect; the more likely it is to succeed. So the macrocosm and microcosm, both are impacted by your vibratory frequencies. Your own cocreative input into your life at the microcosm level, as well as your input into the overall energies of the planet and the universe at the macrocosm level. Your ability, and effectiveness, to change the outcomes in your life is highly dependent upon this being a main point of endeavor to raise your personal frequency, even to the point where your own health and longevity depend on it. Anyone that has had cancer, and anyone that has treated cancer, will tell you that state of mind is a major contributing force to cancer. Several years ago, I, myself, had a rather scary moment where I was told I had pre-cancer cells. I was due to go in and have a large section of my cervix removed, as a result, to help with prevention. I was also told the procedure meant I couldnt have any other kids in the future. Prior to this happening, I was an emotional wreck and nothing in my life seemed good, even though I had a beautiful little boy at home, a great job with a wonderful company in down economic times, a lovingly supportive family, and a roof over my head. Yes, I had my reasons, just as we all find a way to justify feeling bad (for the mind-drivers benefit), but looking at it from a neutral viewer perspective the
bad didnt even remotely outweigh the good. As I wandered into the hospital I knew my life had to change or there would be a next time with cancer because my negative feelings were contributing to this physical condition. I was admitted for the procedure and they drew blood and ran their tests, put me under with the anesthesia and as I woke up I was facing the wide eyed Cheshire cat grin of my doctor who told me I couldnt have the procedure because I was pregnant. Not only that, but there was a chance the pregnancy would reverse the pre-cancer cells on the cervix. Sure enough it did. So this was my little wakeup call from the universe. We say it works in mysterious ways, but to the universe its no mystery at all. We covered a lot on the mental, energy and frequency topics but there are obviously many other factors in play here, such as magnetic fields, polarity and the effects of water. Since I dont pretend to be a physicist I will leave the magnetic field discussion up to them to share with you. I will say that it plays a major role in conjunction with the things we have discussed with respects to space travel, and levitation, as well as your energy body. In fact, its no secret that magnets have been used as a method in healing for a very long time. I would rather, however, like to focus more on the concept of water at least to the extent of information that I can remember that is pertinent to our discussion. Now if you look up anything online to do with conscious water or Masaru Emoto you should easily find an incredible amount of information about how water, through prayer, thought, or sound will change to various shapes, some often like a mandala. Water that has been heavily processed, contaminated or exposed to negative thinking or bad energies will be grotesque in shape when viewed with this method. Seriously consider what I am telling you right now. Your body is mostly water. There is the obvious pollution component, what the mind-driver would focus on of course the chemical tangible components but when consciousness is applied to water in a spiritual way the water becomes beautiful; even polluted water. A lot of people through vortexes, magnetics, ORMUS generating technology (as explained earlier) and frequency technologies have been finding interesting results with water. One study I read explained how water would change shape to words that were chosen. Water can also be imprinted with messages, written words like Love, Happiness, Joy, etc. Different music will also affect it in similar ways. Rock music for example distorts the structure of water into a shattered state. One should assume such sounds would have the same effect on the water inside of our own body. Other areas of research I spent time on were very passionate about the concept of water itself being conscious and that it acts like a huge conscious data store of information for the planet. For our purposes, I want us to focus on the healing properties of water and I dont mean just getting enough every day, but the actual spiritual quality of the water. We tell our kids, as they chomp down on the junk food garbage in, garbage out, well this same rule applies. Its not the quality of the conditioning and purification of the water that you should concern yourself with, as much as the spiritual conditioning of the water. If you don't believe this check out the Hutchison-Lazaryan Frequency Generator sometime. I dont know enough about the variety of machines out there on the market for home use or the validity of all the things they are promising to do for you, but I can make this fairly simple for folks if they have a home computer or a smart phone. If not, there are probably other ways to generate a single frequency
sound at home, so check into that if you need to. If you remember earlier I mentioned about the Solfeggio tones and the DNA frequency repair. Well if you take a glass of water, a set of headphones and a generator application that can run a 528 Hz frequency you can restructure your own water. Heck you can use headphones and a YouTube video that has that frequency if you need to. This water has shown very interesting results in studies on blood work as well. I, myself, have noticed major increases in my health after doing this, even if its just a little sip at a time, or one glass a day. When I dont have what I need with me, I simply pour a glass of water, focus on it, thank it and send messages of grateful appreciation and love to it. If you dont want to get funny looks from people while you do this, just say it in your head. Do that for a few minutes, or even say a prayer if that works for you before you drink that glass of water. With the 528 frequency, which I tend to run for about three hours, eventually the water will actually taste different. Of course, starting with a healthier source of water to begin is never a bad idea either (Brita Filter, etc.). The closest I have had to natural water that tastes like structured water was water from a well up in the Sierra Mountains of California (we were told it had been tested to be 99% pure), which was almost non-quenching because I was so used to city water. Regardless, all of this definitely brings an interesting new perspective to the more spiritual practice of blessing food and water. Now, whats more, if you get a chance to read that book I mentioned earlier Light Water it will give you a whole new eye opening understanding about water and to quickly generalize it there are very special areas of water on our planet which have natural healing, longevity properties. It gets far more complicated than that, but do expect some very fun times in the future as far as energy, healing and spiritual advancement go especially regarding future HHO Plasma techniques. For now, restructuring your water is a great, and simple, way to get a leg up in the spiritual healing process. As one begins to start the process of inner healing and making the connection back to the spiritual center, things in your life will begin to transform, especially the way you start to obtain information. The more right you are with the universe and all the things in it, the more information will start to become available to you. Its not necessarily because it was not available to you, but more that you couldn't receive it. When we have the mind-driver blinders on, intricate events seem like coincidences or luck (bad or good regardless). What we used to shrug off as such previously, suddenly begins to unfold before us with a more awesome understanding that its all connected and that everything happens for a reason. Let's consider something that, at face value, is an atrocity; let's look at a school shooting. The spirits that elected to play out that event, children to us, eternal to the universe, may be fulfilling a much more, and longer lasting, important role. Without being able, as mere humans, to understand the entire complexity of it, its safe to say that society has no choice in such an extreme event but to raise their awareness that things need to change to prevent this type of behavior in the future. While the majority of the populace may remain glued to their televisions until the next major news event buries the story, there will always be a handful of people who are impacted that will act on this. Those few, even ifs its just one person (as we have explained earlier) can still have a serious capacity for raising the consciousness of mankind. If its not enough, it will happen again and again until the lesson is learned. Have you experienced anything
like this in your life? The repeating occurrence of the same type of situations, over and over. There is of course the law of attraction factor (bringing to us the energies we emit in resulting situations), but there are also the goals the universe, and the individual soul, have while it is serving in the world of matter. In order to try to help you grasp this I will try to explain what finally triggered the changes for me. We have discussed the battle I had with depression. We haven't necessarily discussed what it took to overcome it. While it would be impossible to recount every explicit detail, I will endeavor to explain the key points that matter the most. Depression, while it can be physical, regardless is affected by perception. We wake up in the morning, look around, listen to the inner mind-driver dialog and find everything that is wrong in our world. Each second that goes by is just another brick in the wall of our unhappiness, which is ironically walling us off from our happiness. Our unhappiness will draw to us the people who are just as miserable and withdraw from us those who are more upbeat about life. Now to the person who has it figured out and has achieved a strong spiritual center they will be able to easily glide between the two groups without inner resistance, but just because a person appears happy doesn't necessarily mean that they are spiritually centered. It is more likely that they have found a way to supplement that feeling in some other way, be it a relationship, their children, their job, financial freedom, whatever it is that helps them fill that gap. In that way, they have been able to create enough of a happiness bubble that spiritual centering is in a sense replaced. The two polarized groups will not congregate easily because they have a different energy output so they will often feel awkward around each other. Now, if you were to take away whatever the supposedly happy person is using to supplement their feelings of seeming spiritually centered it is very likely that they will just as easily collapse into depression. You will notice, in groups like this, that they will (both sides) find reasons to judge the other group. The easiest way to pick a more spiritually centered individual from a crowd is to note that they will likely refrain from judging people, even when prompted by others to do so, and will easily migrate through all types of personalities and social class structures fairly comfortably. Its likely that they will be at ease in various types of situations and environments and less likely to react rashly. That is because their true peace is located inside themselves and in their confident connection to the whole. It gives a new twist to the old saying Wherever you go, there you are. So for me, there were revolving lessons that I could never quite put my finger on. I had an unexplainable unhappiness from childhood that I could always find excuses for to justify. I had relationships with repeating patterns of the exact same failed outcomes - give or take a few distinctions. My job seemed pointless, having kids seemed overwhelming, my marriage wasn't how I pictured it, my husband was out of work a lot due to his seasonal profession and my parents seemed to be in a bad state all the time as far as health and finances. Collectively the world felt like it rested on my shoulders. Each year it seemed to get worse, I grew distant from the ones who loved me. I had nothing nice to say. I was bitter, sarcastic, and cynical. I forced myself to do my job finding reasons to stay forward moving, such as the Owners being so understanding of my many plights. It was a bleak world and the only way to keep surviving was to find some motivational points to force day to day movement, yet it felt like an unnatural movement forward. It was like walking in mud or quicksand, literally. You talk yourself into
getting out of bed. You convince yourself to get ready for work. You go through the motions of taking care of the family as part of the job. I was so far beyond the point of wanting to die, as far as I was concerned I was already dead and just mimicking the living. Finally, after hitting a rock bottom state (what I thought was a rock bottom state) I received a call from my mom saying my aunt, who had been my second parent growing up, was in the hospital again and this time it was likely she wouldn't make it. We had been through this before with her for several near death experiences but this time was dire and it seemed like there was no hope for her to get through it. That night, as it sunk in, I watched the web video of Les Miserables on my cell phone. I hadnt seen it since I was a young teenager when my mom had taken me to see the play. I didn't understand much of it then, but I do now. Each person's threshold for hitting rock bottom is different and everyone's paths to return to spirit are different. To me, this was my rock bottom. I sat there, horribly disgruntled with life, in misery from the situation and hating every second of existence. This was my life; this miserable, horrible place. I didn't want it to be like this. I didn't want life to be this awful place. I could literally hear myself in my own head chanting that I hated life. And then in the silence, a question followed. Why? Suddenly it occurred to me. It was a choice. The power of understanding that my misery was a choice I was making in that very moment meant that it was a choice I was making in every moment. I had the power to decide if I hated life. I had the choice to look around and see it as bad or good. If I didnt want life to be bad, all I had to do was to stop seeing it that way. I knew this would be a process to stay in this frame of mind, but making that choice was the fire-starter. I knew I didn't want to lose this spark of understanding and fall back into that darkness ever again and I heard myself asking the 'powers that be' to help me. The next day, I grabbed a tablet and a pencil and just started drawing. One of the things I drew was the MAJIC gate from the Binder, again. Distracted by a television show it had slid to a sideways position and that is when I realized it was reflecting a music sheet. From there the information started to accelerate. I opened myself to looking for answers that were readily there. I just hadnt been open, or in the right perspective, to see and recognize them. The music reference pointed me to the use of frequencies for healing and solfeggio tones for brain balancing and repairing the body and DNA, next the meditations for brain and aura balancing and law of attraction came to the forefront soon after. I also ran into a very well done documentary on after-life which helped pacify my concerns about my aunt. I had opened myself up to the possibilities and let my inner voice lead the way, and then the entire universe stepped forward to put me in the direction of selfhealing. I had finally listened to that spiritual center's guidance. Apparently, the universal consciousness has to untie its shoes completely before it can re-lace them properly and that is how I expect the world changes to be as well. Even on days I wasn't particularly in the mood to work on myself I would try to do something, even if it was just a quick listening to the solfeggio tones for a few minutes, or restructuring my water with frequency so I could drink it later on. The key is I didn't quit. I always did something even if it was small it
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was meaningful. The information is still accelerating today. The more I tune in, the more I understand, and the more I realize that I don't need to understand as long as I am doing my job in the universe and making sure I stay connected because the universal consciousness will fill in all the missing pieces. I have had many very interesting and strange experiences since that day. For example there is humming around the head, especially at both ears, that I can hear and its not the power lines because it happens everywhere. Also, at one point - one night - as I drove through the downtown area, close to the large auditorium that hosts all the big shows, I heard countless songs from rock and roll to symphony loudly in my head at all once. I was able to discern some of the songs individually even though they were playing simultaneously. It was like time merged and I could hear all the musicians playing all at once. As I drove away from the vicinity of the downtown center it faded away. It was a very cool experience and I am sure at some point that will be explained just as everything else has. I also sometimes get ideas or words that pop into my head that lead me down a new road for more information. Its a cosmic experience that is feasibly open to anyone who can take these steps. So how does this relate to the school shootings example? Well, quite simply, just as we, as individuals, have varying levels of rock bottom to hit, as a society we do too. Unfortunately, the more we ignore the repeating patterns the more frequent and more potent the messages get (the untying of the shoes). At some point people will say enough is enough and once we have the necessary amount of people shift their consciousness and make adjustments to the way we deal with the situations then we will see rapid changes for the better (the re-lacing effect). Its my belief that any spirit that is participating in a tragedy is generally doing so to help advance the overall consciousness of our kind. Their willingness to make that sacrifice for the greater good should be appreciated by all of us and the way we show that appreciation is by recognizing it and then making the choice to change it. Now I have actually heard a lot of people over the years say that the easy rode is the path of the devil. After experiencing the things I have in my life, I have to disagree. Where you see the most resistance in your life that is because you are off the path to begin with. You are off-roading with the mind-driver. The reason some people refer to God as a harsh teacher is because we are so stubborn. Think of us as children growing up that don't want to listen, they just want to learn everything the hard way. So we make it hard, harder still, until we reach our own unique boiling point of resistance that last straw that flips us into a point of finally learning the lesson (again untying the shoe before its re-lacing). Furthermore we do these silly things then blame God or the universe for our bad decisions, and in fact I have seen my own kids do this and blame me. If you think a rich person has it easier than a poor person, you are actually wrong. Certain things may be easier, yes, but how many divorces have they had, how many homes have they bought and sat miserably inside of, how many companies have they acquired only to unsuccessfully fill that void, how many of their children have they alienated or misguided in the process of chasing that dream? Its a different path to unhappiness, but its the same state of feeling incomplete. As a species we are especially stubborn and the more of us that accept something as truth the harder change is because we then not only have to change the opinion of the individual but that of the greater collective as we manifest this shared reality. That, of course, means that greater force and more extreme circumstances may be required to get us to make that change. The universe actually makes it so easy, so simple so
simple in fact that we don't believe its possible. The student to the holy man says what do mean just breathe I have too much to do?!. We always have to qualify things and set rules because of that minddriver. We are the ones who make it hard on ourselves; the universe is constantly working to correct the imbalance by applying enough force to create a reversal of that polarity with the greater goal of bringing us back to a state of balance so we can reconnect to our spiritual center. While we have done a good job of concerning ourselves with understanding the mind-driver and its function and how it complicates and sabotages our spiritual progress and happiness, there is a rather complicated component to our mind that is still a challenge for science to fully understand. That is the subconscious mind and its purpose. I would like to share with you what I have been given from meditations which helped me to better grasp the subconscious mind. It was explained to me that the subconscious mind, much a like a computer, is a higher data store of information, but it is not our higher-self. Its important that we make sure we keep that distinction. It is not the higher-self because it is actually incomplete. It does however contain a lot of information about the higher-self. Think about when you go on a trip. You pack what you need to be able to do what you want when you get there. Maybe its a bathing suit or a jacket depending on the weather, or maybe its a laptop if you are going on a business trip. Our higher-self packs for the trip when it comes here. The subconscious mind has access to prior information on past lives, karma, details of its objectives and continues its recording and processing of the events that have been occurring day to day as well. It may contain knowledge of possible future events, but is largely a data store of a historical nature and it also contains the knowledge of how to heal itself if accessed. People who practice past life regression, or access information from traumas which are not currently remembered in the conscious state, are accessing the subconscious mind. People who use hypnosis for healing, weight loss, and smoking or alcohol cessation are doing the same. Karma, which is based on the self-inflicted outcomes of prior or future actions, is also stored here and is actually a very important function of the subconscious mind. Spiritual growth is a process both individually and collectively. We talked about the nine levels earlier on, but just as with any lesson learning from our prior experiences, it means remembering them or at least the lesson from them. Its vital that we have this data store with us at all times so we can continue our spiritual evolution back to the nirvana state and for the evolvement of the planet we are on. Now this data can also be problematic because its obtained over time. It takes a while to collect and store the information. A severe trauma experienced in this life time alone would be easier to overcome than a trauma that has been compounding over many life times. There have been observances of people who suffer trauma responses that do not seem to have encountered the particular experience in their life time, such as many unexplained phobias. There is a reason why hypnosis can be so effective on cases like this and that is because it can access such stored data in the subconscious mind. It is a very important process for us to purge the more negatively residing data in that subconscious data store. That is part of clearing karma. Who we were in past lives, personality quirks, as well as strange and unexplained behaviors that do not appear to be genetic or learned responses, are very likely housed in the subconscious storage. It is not only a data store, but a place of programming varying responses.
Think of its true purpose as learning a new language before you travel abroad. In fact, learning languages subliminally isnt unheard of. The simplest example of this is hypnotism where people are programmed to respond in a certain way with key words. That programming was actually designed to help us for our trip here, but it can be used in a more negative way as a control device over the conscious mind when it is brought the forefront. In such a case, the subconscious state acts like a computer as opposed to our consciousness and, as such, we can be made to act in ways that our spiritual selves would not necessarily allow. In the subconscious storage there can also be access to more complex information like a higher knowledge of mathematics, science, history, etc. Whatever is in the suitcase that your spirit packed for the trip will be stored here. Its quite possible that people who have conditions like autism may be experiencing a conflict between the subconscious and conscious states. In theory, it may explain why they are so innately gifted in certain aspects that are likely contained in the subconscious data store, yet struggle to function at the more conscious state which is where our ability to connect and relate to one another is housed. Whether the subconscious mind can connect to other minds by thought, telepathy, etc. is not something that was clarified, but what was made clear is that the conscious mind (although this may be contradictory to some beliefs) is where our true link to our Source happens. Spiritual teachings across the world and throughout our history confirm that this very moment is what matters; its where your true co-creative power lies and thus your connection with your spiritual center. So with that in mind its probably unlikely that the subconscious mind is where universal conscious communication occurs, however, its possible that the memory of how to make that connection is stored there even if the power to do so is not. We talked about the referenced long term data store housing karma, whether the true subconscious mind is specifically contained in the energy body, DNA, or actual matter of the brain is unknown to me. Karma has been described differently, or in different terms, by many cultures, but as I understand it karma is something we inflict upon ourselves. There are plenty of people who commonly say they are their own worst critic or enemy and karma is similar. There is a difference between the waves of the universe and any conflicts we may cause as a result of enforcing our will against its natural flow. The universe is always course correcting in its perfection, but we are also self-governing with that same universal instinct. Karma is used for spiritual evolvement. Karma is the definition of the outcomes of your thoughts or actions regardless of time because time is irrelevant. If you believe what you have done is wrong then wrong may return to you in a conscious endeavor to restore balance so you can return to your path of achieving the highest connection to Source. While it is like the spiritual teacher that is always beside you, through conscious connection, it is actually a result of thought that is enacted by you. In other words, while there are universal waves to the macrocosm which create counter effects to maintain perfect balance, karma is, in a sense, the waves of the microcosm for the spiritual return to perfect balance. This is why forgiveness is very important. Remember your true power to heal is in the moment. Forgiving yourself, and endeavoring to make changes to prevent a repeat of whatever caused you to store it as bad karma in the first place, can help
stop the recurring, or pending, negative karmic response. This is a vital key to why the power of forgiveness is so important, along with the idea of confessing your sins. The challenge is that we have to make strides to change that way of being or thinking in order to continue our path of spiritual evolution - otherwise that karmic pattern will return. Another consideration is that the more we experience something, the more permanent it becomes in the subconscious storage. So when we discuss making changes to our way of thinking that means that we would need to maintain that long enough to get it engrained into the subconscious mind. Imagine how much damage, over time, the conscious mind-driver could do to the subconscious data store if left unchecked. If, instead you are consistently making strides to change your way of thinking it will, however, get easier over time. Let me share with you an example of this. I noticed that even as I made the conscious changes in my life, I would still grind my teeth at night. Every night when I woke up, even though life seemed beautiful, I would have a raging headache and sore jaw in the morning. My conscious and subconscious mind seemed to be conflicting. I couldnt understand how my conscious mind was so easily remaining in this happy state and yet my sleeping mind was obviously still in a place of discontent. This went on for months and still happens on occasion. I have been noticing that over time it has gotten slowly less consistent and severe. With time and repetition, the subconscious mind changes its reference. Granted this can be expedited with direct access, such as hypnosis, but the subconscious mind moves more slowly as it processes the large amount of acquired data. It may take all the data in, but the things that generate manifested external response seem to take longer. I believe this is by design, however. If every little bad thing that we saw, or experienced, was immediately stored and created a manifested external response we would be in a rather permanently frenzied state. So, the mind data gathers, processes and - over time determines which experiences require an external response to communicate that important message to the conscious mind. Now, in some cases, you have people who experience the same event with different behavioral outcomes. Lets say a bank robbery. One person may be severely traumatized by this experience and have to enlist for years of therapy, becoming socially terrified, whereas another may shrug it off and consider themselves lucky for surviving the situation in one piece and thereafter build stronger bonds with family as a result of the event. What is the variable? Perspective? Sure. But also factor in the timeless data store of the subconscious mind, and any past experiences. Then consider that the subconscious mind, through a normal process, takes a while of experiencing similar events or experiences before it comes to the forefront affecting the conscious behaviors. In other words, we arent designed to be frail. We are designed to go on our trip prepared with what we need and to evolve from karma and repeating patterns. Its very likely that the person who had such a severe response to the bank robbery may have experienced that situation in past lives, may have had several experiences in this life time or across others where they felt like a victim, or they may even have been a robber in a past life triggering a karmic response. Either way, the subconscious data store, very likely, had exposure to this before. One could always explore that with a past life regression session, but, regardless, the power to heal is in this moment.
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In part, being able to free ourselves of any karmic effects means forgiving ourselves, or whoever (or whatever) experience may have caused us to feel discontent. Identifying where these feelings may be coming from can be beneficial to the healing process, but knowing how the subconscious mind and karma works can be just as important. We may simply need to accept that we may be experiencing a karmic or long term recurring event, let it go and forgive as needed in order to remove that roadblock. Understanding how time actually works can also be a very powerful tool for healing. I will explain it, not from a scientific approach, but as it was explained to me. Picture an artist with an oil painting. Slowly there are strokes made, stokes over strokes, paint over paint, where there is an error there is a correction. If the correction is very noticeable it may take several passes of paint to get it back to the intended final picture, like karma. Past coats of paint layered over with new coats of paint and the next stroke painted already in the artists mind. The artist can see the picture they want to paint, but its a process. So the past coats of history are layered over with the new coats of present and the minds eye of the artists future coats that are forthcoming. Now all of these layers still compile the entire picture at all times in the present. All layers exist simultaneously and come together at the very moment of the brush stroke. This is why the brush stroke of the current moment is the most important key to cocreation. Each of us are working carefully on our paintings; meanwhile the universe maintains the museum containing all works of art and determines how each of those will be displayed and in what order so that they perfectly complement one another. Some work is dark, some light, but together perfect and constantly evolving until their final completion to be housed in the grand hall, i.e. nirvana. Assuming time travel is possible, in theory we could go back and change the picture and prior stokes of the past, but our spirit would still be in the present while it did so, because it is always in the present regardless of time line. So time is transcended, because all the many layers that compile the painting are always coming together in that moment - and only at that moment where the point of conception meets the brush on the canvas. The artist paints for himself, not for others, coming from that point of spiritual center, because by doing so all pieces in the museum benefit. The same idea of working on ones self for the benefit of the all. This is how works of art are truly created in coming from a place that is so perfect and harmonious that it can reach the core of men and bring forth emotions and changes to an individual or an entire society. No one can dispute such creation as anything but that of the transcendence of spirit itself. So, too, shall each of us, and our work here, have that same universal impact on consciousness with the constantly shifting picture of how we define and paint out of lives. Understanding that time is a fabricated form of measurement, that all time lines come together at the point of universal consciousness, and as such we must identify the creative energy with which we are painting in order to determine, with each thought, whether it is a stroke of fear or a stroke of love. This is the power you have to define your own picture, with every stroke of your manifested thought. Lets take karma completely out of the equation. Envision a stream with a strong current. We can elect to swim against the current, but while we may still achieve getting where we believe we are supposed to go, it is certain to be a rough, lengthy and perhaps even treacherous path. There are certain flows to the universe and when we are in harmony with those, of the same directionality, we naturally grow accustomed to going where the current takes us, dropping us off at the location of an unknown and
perhaps distant shore. We become flexible and willing to adapt. If we fight the course of this flow we begin swimming upstream and flounder. So, naturally, being in the current, as a spiritually-centered being, is ideal and, in fact, is not scary at all. The only scary part is that we dont have all facts. This is alleviated once you have faith that the universe has already figured it out. We know eventually we will land whenever and wherever we are meant to land and if we stop resisting and find our spiritual-center (remaining open to all possibilities) from there we will do whatever we are meant to do. This is not necessarily the same as destiny, but more the allowing of yourself to be successful in manifesting your destiny because you are also going with the ebbs and flows that the universe is requiring. As part of the co-creative body its our duty, not only to take the steps we feel are right for us to fulfill our role in the world, but in remaining connected to our spiritual-center we understand that it is also our duty to acknowledge and accept that we have a role as part of the greater collective universal consciousness. How does this play out in real life? Refer back to the tire blow out example for a moment. That persons original desire was to visit family. Instead they were diverted off onto the current of a blown tire for the purposes of serving an important role in a healing moment for the person who stopped to assist them. Now you may have thought it was the other way around. Things are not always as they seem, good and bad events can have the most unanticipated outcomes for unexpected participants (sometimes for all participants). So the person with the blown out tire, metaphorically whisked away on the current of universal connection, manages to stay positive and not dwell on the perspective of lost time with the family members, but instead finds shared inspiration in this chance meeting. This event picks up the spirits of the person who stopped to help them. Now lets say, instead, they resisted the current, dwelled on the crummy circumstances, and could see no good outcome from this absolutely wasted afternoon. They are grateful for the help, yet complain about how they could have been spending time with their family wasting valuable time because they didnt remember to put the spare tire back in the car. Life is so unfair! Does this mind dialog sound familiar? Its quite possible that this negative state of mind may not change the positive outcome for the person who stopped to help them. That is actually up to the perspective of the person who stopped. Doing a good act maybe all they needed to feel better. It is, however, our decision on how we see such currents, or unexpected forces, which we are sure to experience in life from time to time. There is a commonly referred to concept in religions of serving God. Some people misconstrue this as destiny. Its okay to consider it as destiny but its important to remember that while we may have destiny-like events happen, our lives are still very much part of our own making. Once we get back in that car from that point on destiny is back in our court until the next time you are called to serve. You still have choices, if you had decided to go take a vacation to Hawaii instead and were not on that road at that time, the universal consciousness would have found a more likely candidate to fulfill that function. That doesnt mean you wont get called on later for something else. What is important here is to understand that while we go about our day, consciously (or unconsciously) trying to forge out our path we also have a duty to one another collectively. How we perceive those
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moments is up to us. We can consider it as something special and be grateful for the opportunity of the reminder that we are all connected, or we can resist every request and be all the more bitter about it, gradually winding ourselves upstream into an obstinate and exhausted conflict with the universal flow. That type of experience, of course, exists in a mind-driver state, but its just one more thing that compounds our further disconnection from our spiritual-self and any poor health or unhappiness that result. Once you start to recognize these moments, even if they are heart-wrenching moments, or appear as setbacks, small annoyances, frustrating times, or depressing things that are occurring. If you can primarily rule out that the event is not being caused by your inner manifested thoughts via the laws of attraction, then it is very likely that the experience is actually a consciously connecting event. You were chosen to be a part of this moment, whatever that outcome may be. That is a very special thing, no matter how it may present itself at the time. By accepting your role to serve in this process you can see the good in even the seemingly worst moment. You then fall back into alignment with your own spiritual-center and simultaneously with the spiritual-center of the universal collective. Imagine all the hands on the clock pointing to twelve. Its that moment. Now for the science junkies out there, admittedly I am not one of them, but there is a bit of rather interesting information that I was given and wanted to share (to what end I am not sure yet, but thats okay). As I read a book about the laws of attraction one night I remember reading the section regarding the law of polarity. Now it felt pretty incomplete to me, like it was far more important than this little section had provided. I took a while and spent some time meditating to better understand it. The concepts were a bit over my head, but regardless here they are. My understanding is that Source, God, whatever name you apply here, is at the centrifuge of polarity. That at that center point it creates a quivering state. Whats interesting about this concept is some of the things I had read about (Kundalini, Ormus, and even Tantric practices) explained how those who achieved, even momentarily, an enlightened state will feel almost orgasmic at a certain level of attaining that heightened connection. Whats more it referenced a polarity barrier. When I later tried to understand more about the polarity barrier, I was told that if I looked for the words Tesla and Polarity Barrier I would only get a few results in any search engine and that only one would contain what I was looking for. Sure enough what I ran across was the Light Water book on the Scribd site. If I understood its brief notation on the subject correctly, then it seems that crossing that barrier (achieving that state) may play a key in world to world travel. If thats true then I would think it would be very difficult for other species to travel here if they were of a lower frequency - but thats just a side thought. For our purposes, I simply wanted to share with you an interesting perspective of what the state of being completely connected to source may feel like once ultimately achieved. It also poses the concept that all things positive and negative are divided out from the Source into that resulting polarity and I assume it all cycles back into Source. The important part is, we get to choose which polarity we want be in with our manifested thoughts and that in turn plays out with the laws of attraction to return to us like energy.
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While we are continuing to touching on, what some may feel are stranger topics, there is another area that I would like to offer some clarification on and that is ghosts and what some refer to as demons. Here is the best summary I can offer. Consciousness does not require matter to exist. With that in mind, its pretty easy to understand how a disgruntled ghost can stick around decades of our defined time later. If a person, and their consciousness, is disconnected enough from Source and so entrenched in the world of matter that they are unwilling to move beyond it, they do not require a state of matter to continue that existence. They may continue to act out their existence in a more plasma based state. We can only hope that somehow that gets alleviated for them, but its something to consider when you are going through the motions of this life. Re-establishing our spiritual-center, by whatever means, is important to avoiding an end result such as this. Some spirits can simply not let go, be it person, place or thing. It can even be the painfulness of a loved one who doesnt want to let them go and so they elect to stay. Its not healthy for this to occur. Now while I no longer entirely sold on the old definitions of hell, necessarily, I do think this particular state is pretty close to it. Hell is, at the very least, in the perception. A demon, as some categorize it is similar, except much farther down the matter-loving spiral of dementia and spiritual disconnection. There is a lot of varying opinions on demons, but one can pretty safely surmise that they are conscious beings that are probably residing at the lowest possible vibration. What I have experienced, personally, is that I am quite certain that I have been face to face with a person who was overcome by a severely lower vibration spirit. I dont speak of it lightly and it was a very humbling and scary experience at the time. While we did everything we could to successfully split the ties of this connection between this low frequency being and our friend, just as with purging locations of negative energy, it came down to the persons will. He elected to continue manifesting the same thought processes, frequenting the same places and promoted the same negative behaviors that drew that low level energy to him in the first place. And so, even though we were able to help initially, it was obvious that some part of him chose to return to that symbiotic relationship. If allowed to, a low vibration spirit, which is consciously remaining, can supersede your own conscious decisions and affect your body and family in harmful ways. I have watched well done documentaries of repeated possession experiences and it often had the same underlying theme. Its a choice. You can allow negative energies to piggyback on your matter body if you choose. In an event like that its important to try to identify what it is about that relationship that draws you to it in the first place. One of the documentaries we watched was of a young girl who had been physically harmed by a highly manifesting, low vibration spirit. People just couldnt believe this innocent child was a victim, but when we watched how much attention she got as a result of the situation it was easy to identify where the point of satisfaction was for her that kept her open to this re-occurring. These situations can create a type of temporary fulfillment for both the hijacked and hijacker that is meant to be achieved more permanently in a spiritually-centered state. Now this discussion is not meant to generate fear based-thinking. It is, however, meant to help provide an example of what an extremely low vibration state of disconnection from the spiritual-center can present itself as, just as we alternately described the potential experiences at the highest vibrational state. Luckily most people do not experience situations like this; most people fall somewhere in the middle with one foot on and off the spiritual trail.
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Another far reaching topic is one more which was certainly complicated and profound. When meditating I will often get often get understandings or even clear explanations of things that may intrigue me. At one point in this process I set a small challenge forward to eliminate any question in my mind as to whether this was beyond my own self, information that I was sure I didnt know. I wanted to know something that was beyond my inner impressions and soul searching. What I got back was complex and very difficult for me to process much less to endeavor to relay out to others. Most of it out almost beyond comprehension but the parts that did connect for me were relating to the relationship between pineal and pituitary glands and what we often classify broadly as left brain, right brain emphasis. Thanks to the balance of the relationship I received from my parents I learned both openness to possibilities from my mom and critical thinking and skepticism from my aunt. This is not always bad. It does challenge us to take what we hear and try to find proof of it or to apply it. Blind faith is not always the answer. Faith is important, but a willingness to move forward in faith, to look for the teachings around you, is equally as important. So with that I will do my best to share the pieces of information with you as well as the data I was able to find on this topic afterwards. The pineal gland was described as acting as an inhibitor. It also has a function which provides electromagnetic refraction which may affect the flow our energy around us. The spiritual cavity can act like the center of a guitar with respects to sound. It contains fluids and water as we stated earlier has the ability to contain consciousness. Also interestingly, you can look up the comments by Galen who had made mention of the first instrument of the soul. Due to the complexity of this writing I am going to paste that writing in here verbatim so this explanation is not misinterpreted by me for the purposes of this book: The diametrode which is a composite including several latent elements which are difficult to detect in the brain forms a centralized energy at center of the pineal and pituitary glands. Many refer to this as the psychic eye which is behind the forehead. This energy has many responsibilities including that which detects and works with the magnetic frequencies surrounding the body. The pineal gland operates as an inhibitor for frequency and access to the pituitary gland. The pituitary gland is the accessing agent for the activities of the right brained emphasized quadrant, but allows access to the higher consciousness. The more physical properties of these glands assist with the neuro-affective and physiological agents which may cause disparities and variations within the body through the use of chemical agents in the system which are naturally occurring. The diametrode requires balancing in order to allow for the proper alignment between the pineal and the pituitary glands. The pineal gland also has the function for the electromagnetic refraction which helps the nervous system and also creates the polarity and electromagnetic balance of the surrounding energy body. We must re-align that energy center which is commonly referred to as the psychic eye. The Rosicrucian methodology is partially correct in this endeavor as they have the proper understanding of the meditation and chanting processes required to make this connection and rebalancing effect occur. Unfortunately the part that needs to be understood is that there is also the impacts of the frequencies and the manipulatory effects driven from the society leaders at this time. Well aware of many of these, are the public, but what these few do not seem to understand is that there is a latent compound of hard to detect elements within the fabric and energy body of the brain which are affected much like birds with magnetism. The energy body can withstand much torture of low level frequency generation, but if paired with the telemetry of the left sided propulsion of the pineal gland refraction of the electro-magnetic spin to the energy body reversal is
possible and reverse polarity of the human has been a result. This must be undone for the population to be restored to balance. The more emphasis placed on the left hemisphere puts added emphasis to the pineal gland and when this occurs it enforces the inhibitor to further cut off access to the pituitary and the spiritual cavity. In the spiritual cavity, where the fluids exist frequencies are sent and received. The universe sends out frequencies between all living things via a method similar to your wave theory and sonar technology. The use of water is vital to this which is largely why the body is water based. The frequencies travel via the waves, magnetic resonance of the body forms and you will receive a calling out effect much like sonar detecting your presence at all times. This synergy that is created allows for input to the detected conscious being but it becomes impossible for that being to hear the caller, i.e. be connected to that universal consciousness if the diametrode does not have operation, which is dependent upon the pineal inhibitor not being in a collapsed position and the pituitary being in a full resonance position of balance. That cavity as discussed earlier, when associated with the power of the mantras, meditation principles of chanting or sound based frequencies or equipment which can create a humming effect or a reverberation throughout the body and in the head itself. Establishing the outer electromagnetic resonance and refraction is the first vital key and thus it is one of the first developed components of the brain matter. The canal is the sound generation cavity - it receives the hum, then the pineal and pituitary balance which allows for the diametrode to be open will then allow the body to hear the call. The currently soft undetectable elements of the brain compile the diametrode center point. While it is affected by the elements it is not a matter based constituent and so it cannot be seen with the current medical technology and yet its existence has been known for ages as the all seeing eye. This balance can be restored through frequency and with efforts to reduce the effects being placed on the public with the electromagnetic equipment currently utilized. It has been noted that electromagnetic stress can suppresses the immune system due to altered secretion of the pineal gland hormone melatonin. Its standard practice in everyday lives means that the pineal eye is often closed. It must be opened. As with your own eyes, when one is closed the concept of space is amiss, distance is not what it seems. For the vision to be accurate both eyes must be open and functional and the central vision (that central eye) will be opened as a result of that restored balance. The emphases of the chemicals which result from these two glands have many healing effects when in balance and obviously unhelpful results when out of balance. The chemical balance is not what is in question here; it is the electromagnetic and frequency balancing which is of concern. There are groups which have identified what they refer to as Polarity Reversal and with the assistance of herbs, meditations, mental processing and life balancing are able to help correct this. When the pineal eye is too far closed it can cause a reversal in the magnetic rotations of the energy body. When this occurs sickness of many kinds will result. Often what will occur is an inconsistency in the orbital energy or holes in the energy body in some cases. A person who focuses on the meditation aspects alone may make great progress in the endeavors to help restore the correct parameters for the pineal inhibitor function, however rebalancing the electromagnetic and energy body is of severe importance. The brain itself is an acting superconductor and the curvature of the brain allows for added conductivity. The central latent elements in the brain matter allow for ormus-like superconductive properties and spiritual assignment. Consider the skull design and curvature of the Dimetrodon for which the term diametrode bears resemblance. Also consider the Greek dialect of the prefix dia which means passing through, thoroughly, completely, going apart, or opposed in moment. The use of chanting and music for spiritual balancing to help rebalance the inhibitor
functionality between the pineal and pituitary is very important and frequencies can help in this process as the reverberation through that central spiritual cavity which affects this same reaction in the central eye. It is harder to maintain with frequency generation alone, because there is a dual aspect to the pineal process. Not only does it help to prevent harmful energy, frequency and electromagnetic effects upon the matter body; not only does it play the major role in the spin of the body within the universal spin of the universe; not only can it affect the outcomes of the health and emotional responses of the human being but it can also be affected by all these things in the reverse. This is where the inhibitor collapse can occur. When this becomes closed sound can be cut off, the resultant body would not be able to hear the incoming frequency call, the ultrasonic effects of the sound from the fluids of the spiritual cavity would still allow for connection and the effect of being heard but the ability to connect back would be severely impaired. Consider the dipole antennae with the resulting toroid pattern, its three dimensional design similar to the energy body waves and the similarity of it to the infinity loop. Now, as I stated earlier I was raised with one open minded parent and a skeptic parent. So, while I remained open to the possibilities I also understood the need to find some supporting data. Being that I had no information on this topic, I set forth to researching this information to ensure it was accurate and not partially affected by my thoughts on some unintended level. What I ran into was absolutely amazing. While I could not confirm everything in the writing I did find an extraordinary amount of helpful and related data. Now meditation endeavors to bring the brain into a balanced state within an alpha frequency. Some of the most spiritually advanced, like the Tibetan and Shaolin monks, can do things that are beyond what most believe to be possible like walking through walls. For them to reach this highly meditative and advanced spiritual state they could spend an entire life time working at it. Shortly after this I stumbled across something called Etherium Gold. This product actually aligns the brain waves into a balanced alpha wave state rapidly and they have shown studies on this via EEG tests, and kindly ran toxicology safety studies to ensure it was safe to use. Now obviously walking through walls takes more than an alpha wave meditative state but its a huge leg up. I believe this product probably has some links back to Ormus which I mentioned earlier. I have been using this over the last few months and it works very well to achieve a very balanced state rapidly, balances moods, and clears up the mind chatter. The humming sound also increases significantly. There is another product they provide which should be considered, as well, called Aulterra which claims to help with DNA activation and EMF impacts to the body and I have also found this to be good. I have a specific set of frequencies which induce a binaural beat to help with the brain balancing, at center they reflect the solfeggio standard tone but the difference between them creates a 9 hz alpha frequency. You can generate these yourself with the free download of the Gnaural program. I refer to these as the BioSync Frequencies in sine wave. Here is how you can make them and use the frequencies (hz) in this order to resync the brain and the chakras: 1) 169.5 & 178.5 (Results in 174 Solfeggio Central Tone and 9hz Alpha Differential) 2) 253.5 & 262.5 (Results in 258 Solfeggio Central Tone and 9hz Alpha Differential) 3) 364.5 & 373.5 (Results in 369 Solfeggio Central Tone and 9hz Alpha Differential) 4) 412.5 & 421.5 (Results in 417 Solfeggio Central Tone and 9hz Alpha Differential) 5) 523.5 & 532.5 (Results in 528 Solfeggio Central Tone and 9hz Alpha Differential)
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6) 634.5 & 643.5 (Results in 639 Solfeggio Central Tone and 9hz Alpha Differential) 7) 736.5 & 745.5 (Results in 741 Solfeggio Central Tone and 9hz Alpha Differential) 8) 847.5 & 856.5 (Results in 852 Solfeggio Central Tone and 9hz Alpha Differential) 9) 958.5 & 967.5 (Results in 963 Solfeggio Central Tone and 9hz Alpha Differential) Additionally, I ran across scientific documentation that discussed tiny piezoelectric crystal formations that have been found inside the pineal gland of humans as well as many articles discussing the potential superconductivity of the brain. What is so important to note here is the use of similar piezoelectric substances within the pyramids which have relation to the frequencies noted in the Giza Pyramid and many other sacred sites throughout the world. There are a couple of connect the dots books that I would highly urge you to read, particularly Alexander Putneys work, check out "Phi", any of his books on Tesla and a book called "The Codes" posted by Marion Garces on the Scribd site. If you are interested in the biological impacts of metal on our systems you can also check out a book called "Metal Complex DNA Interactions". What you will find is that the Mayans and Incas and other tribes had been using binaural whistles and musical instruments. They also had methods of creating healing waters which had Ormus like similarity including colloids such as gold and silver. All of these topics seem to tie back to much of the healing progress I have made so far. Further in The Codes book the author has figured out that the Solfeggio frequencies, when completed in their numerical sequences and mapped out flow back perfectly like an unending circle, almost like a god sequence. These numbers also reflect in various patterns and perfect repeating sequences and staggeringly they literally reflect in an opposite way such as 441 and 144. Now consider those numbers then read the book called The Tutankhamen Prophecies and pay particular attention to page 20 (this page is free to view on Scribd.com) and you will see there the representation of the 144 and reverse 441 on the mosaic mask of Palenque with the face of Lord Pacal mask found in Mexico. The central frequency of the Pyramid of Giza is thought to have a 1.45 hz heartbeat frequency. There are just too many recurring references to sound, water, colloids, and the raising of consciousness to be a mere coincidence. I am certain that these are key technologies that will free our minds to fix our fractured society. Now if we factor in the missing solfeggio tones that "The Codes" presents there would be several more here to generate that would be as follows which I have not done yet: 147, 174,417,471, 714,741 258, 285, 528, 582, 825, 852 369, 396, 639, 693, 936, 963 Following the same pattern one could feasibly create the same sequence from the center point of the tone with a -4.5 tone and a +4.5 tone to create the sync effect. I will be giving this a try at some point but I wanted to make mention of it here to ensure it has been considered. Ironically, if we factor in the reverse implications of the mirroring of frequency patterns we must consider its use for binaural (or tri) beat exploration. These would be as follows (keep in mind I have not tried them out so its merely speculation at this point). 147 = 741 |174 = 471|417 = 714|471 = 174|714 = 417|741 = 147| (Note it starts over at 147)
258 = 852 |285 = 582|528 = 825|582 = 285|825 = 528|852 = 258| (Note it starts over at 258) 369 = 963 |396 = 693|639 = 936|693 = 396|936 = 639|963 = 369| (Note it starts over at 369) An important comment here is that in my research I have seen noted that the brain will move itself to the higher frequency pattern so when it hears two sounds it will find the central tone, the difference in the tones, and it will elevate to the higher of the tones so using these in a slow escalation process helps raise the vibration and frequency of the system while balancing it. Regardless of all the work with frequencies, these alone are not sufficient to maintain a higher vibration of a person without the person controlling their way of thinking to a more positive state. I have personally used the first frequencies and see immediate benefit for the person using it, but if they return to a negative frame of mind the benefits tend to fade out until it is repeated again. Consistent use can certainly help the person maintain their state of mind and health, but it does require both control of mind and frequencies so I need to be clear on that. Now this next part I have to mention but I want you to avoid any fearful concerns because all things will happen as they need to in order for the world to improve but we must first accept what is in order for us to define what we decide will be. So, with that in mind I must also admit to finding many pieces of information regarding the impacts to those piezoelectric crystals in our pineal gland from things like fluoride, as well as detrimental impacts of EMF and dangerous frequencies that cause depression, illness and other health repercussions on the human body and mind from cell phones, towers, aerial spraying and smart meters. There are some people out there, we know them, who are on a fear based road and no matter what their behaviors they must be dealt with through compassion in order to heal but that does not mean that we put our heads in the sand and act ignorant of their actions and do nothing about it. We must work to override those actions with our intent and our compassion. Regardless of what the well paid for disinformation artists state it is pretty hard to ignore that things have gotten pretty strange in the world. Chemtrails, for example, are actually being sprayed on people and that was confirmed publicly by an ex-FBI director. Even if one chose to ignore his statements, one would have to also ignore the plethora of patents for aerial spraying which can be found easily on a Google search not to mention all the weather modification patents. So why do I mention this? What do these chemicals do? They do a variety of things, one of which staying on topic here - is that this particular combination of pollutants acts as a doping agent for superconductors. If the brain has piezoelectric crystals and is in fact a superconductor then not only are people getting sick from these things, they are also being turned off from that radio connection to their higher consciousness state and placed into a depressed and lower vibratory state. There are many stated ways on the internet of clearing out these chemicals, metals and toxins and contaminations in the pineal crystals of the brain (like fluoride which collects there) and I cannot speak for the majority of those. Personally, I have been using Shilajit, a product called Shilajit Super Tonic by Siddhi Energies. I tried a few others which didnt seem to have the same effects as this. I notice a discernible energy in my body (a buzzing feeling) after using this but I have been using it over too short a time to specifically say that it works. I do feel mentally clearer. I ordered this based on a well done research article which endeavored to find products that were of high quality. The other one they noted was Pure Ladakhi Shilajit by Future Alchemy. I do not believe these are the only good products out there they are just the ones from the research article. Also, again, I am not a doctor or directing you to get any of these things. I am only telling you what I have been using to try to remove the environmental
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chemicals from my system and the combination of the change in my mental perception, coupled with these various avenues for alternative healing has resulted in my health being better than ever before. Regardless of this knowledge, none of this should scare you and here is whyyou have the ability to overcome these stumbling blocks. Some of the processes I have noted herein will help with that. Additionally, remember that you are a co-creator in the universe through your focus and intent things are manifested. Wherever you place your well balanced and compassionate focused intent it acts much the same as law of attraction and effects will occur. This is why there has been such a push for inducing fear into the populations by the already fear induced groups who are running things. Whether they realize they are doing it or not is irrelevant, it simply needs to be changed. Simply being positive and not facing WHAT IS (the ostrich approach) will not be the solution here. Being aware of what is without fear or judgment and then focusing on truth and positive change is what will be the key. Every one of us has the power to make that happen and that is the secret those in that fear based state do not want folks to know because it is a threat to their mind-drivers. Regardless of their paranoia it is up to all of us who can see beyond the fog of fear to help them heal and to take corrective actions quickly. So, while your power is mostly realized in the microcosm of your own existence remember that on a collective level the macrocosm will also be affected. If enough of us are able to shed off the static and place our focused compassionate intent on the healing of those who have experienced these delusions and fear based reactions, as well as the healing of the planet, beneficial changes WILL occur. The more people who succeed in overcoming their own low vibration, who elevate themselves and bring others with them, the more we evolve and elevate our own self to the greater truths and light, it is then that the scales begin to tip in favor of healing. This is why the success of every individual's endeavor to overcome this self-inflicted (and externally inflicted) static matters so much. It matters more than you can imagine. It is for this reason that I want to wish you all the success possible in this endeavor. Quite literally, the fate of the world rests with you. Lastly, for those who just prefer the short version here is a cheat sheet for the steps that I have taken as a roadmap for significantly improved mental and physical health: Improved control of my mind and my perspective (read various books from Eckhart Tolle, Wayne Dyer, The 7 Hidden Keys and various other books which teach control of the mind). Shut off the TV/Radio for the first few weeks and used the meditations, water structuring and solfeggio tones daily (sometimes twice a day) while reading the above books. This really helped because it gave me a huge bump in my healing removing all the negative elements from news, talk radio, unhealthy music, etc. (all of which can actually harm the water in the body and the energy body). Listing what I am grateful for mentally, or written, at least once per day. Meditation I used the cd from secretmeditations.com at Amazon, but any will probably work but I particularly like that they use the solfeggio tones in the meditation. I used balancing of the chakras, quieting of the mind, and law of attraction meditations. Careful Statements I have been extra careful in the way I word things to avoid drawing negative energy and results to my endeavor to get healthy. Staying positive and avoiding
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negative terminology and thoughts is crucial as is visualizing the positive changes. Applying Law of Attraction techniques for healing and life changing is very helpful. Water restructuring I used frequency generators (via smart phone or computer w/ headphones on a glass) to structure my water to 528 hz. When I dont have time I bless my water and food (saying thank you and I love you). Water structure changes with our conscious thoughts and intent. (Alternatively I have sometimes used YouTube videos of 528 hz and various phone apps as well but I tend to stick with the plain frequency generator these days.) Listen by headphones to the full solfeggio scale every 1-2 days for a minimum of three minutes for each tone or sometimes use the BioSync frequencies instead (I listed those above) for assisting with chakra/alpha state/polarity balancing. There are also some alternative higher level healing solfeggio scales that people have online that are pretty nice. On occasion I used the 1111 hz for deep meditation or the 111 hz for brain balancing (I used ones from both YouTube and self-made with the Gnaurl frequency generator). Supplements: Well Rounded General Vitamin, D Vitamin, Iron (due to anemia), Zinc, Magnesium Malate, Etherium Gold, Etherium Black, Aulterra, Shilajit Super Tonic by Siddhi Energies.
On the cover of this book is a strange symbol, and it represents both the mind and the frog. The frog is a very special creature. It begins from the egg, forms in the waters as a tadpole, as it grows it learns how to walk on land and yet it can still travel between water and land while navigating across the lilies of in between. It is a symbol of duality and metamorphosis, transition and courage, clarity of thought in transition, embracing of personal transformation, changing the way of thinking; it is the symbol of creativity and intuition. Like the frog, mankind too must learn how to remain capable of swimming in spirit while walking in the world of matter in order to bring about conscious positive changes and thinking to promote our metamorphosis. Nothing in your life is more important than this; it is the divine calling of all of mankind to evolve. The time is now.
Copyright 2013 Cristina McGibben
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NAVIGATING OUT OF THE STATIC ON THE ULTIMATE STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS
This book is meant to assist you on your journey to the inner peace and happiness that is your destiny. Now, more than at any other time in history, the world needs every individual to navigate out of that darkness and back in to the light. The key to saving our world requires reconnecting to our universal consciousness followed by the collective manifestation of each persons focused compassionate intent for a brighter future. Everyone who succeeds in raising their vibration tips those scales further. This writing is a personal composition of many years of abstract experiences and studies into the unknown, as well as, meditations and messages portrayed through a steady stream of consciousness. An insider perspective of depression and alternative ways to successfully navigate out of the world chaos and the static of the human mind by allowing your spirit to....
RISE. Cast aside from the shadows, the frozen seraph lay dreaming. Forgotten were all the melodies dancing in their moments of light. Crossed by a beautiful hand, stricken through the air like a phantom. Reawakened, set free from the memories where it once sat and feared forever. Rise, back from the world of suffering madmen and eternal silent afflictions. Rise, from the cold and distant shores which left you in grotesque isolation. And yet on the cusp of the waters edge, shuddering from the chill. Warmth sets in and fades across its back slowly with each second. As the ice from its skin trickles back into a white glistening beauty of what it was. Rupturing from within the glow, it amazes all creatures with the reflection that it is so. Rise seraph, from the ice and the tyranny that has molded you to sadness. Rise, up from the ground where the flowing river departs from your tears. Hidden from yourself, becoming back to you, that which was always you. Forming, in a loving embrace the last fleeting weakness of all the sacrifices. Transformed by a long deep breath of air; drawing back to life its soul. No price too great, no time too long to see; everything that is this; as meant to be. Rise, from the blackened ground and dead world without the chains; back to the light. Rise, from within the heart of antiquity to the apex of all that loves you and sets you free.
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NAVIGATING OUT OF THE STATIC ON THE ULTIMATE STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

Copyright 2013 Cristina McGibben

Navigating Out of the Static On the Ultimate Stream of Consciousness

NAVIGATING OUT OF THE STATIC ON THE ULTIMATE STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS

Copyright 2013 Cristina McGibben

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