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Small Things
bitter-winter streets of Johannesburg, where ‘harmlessness’ is an
‘unfortunate trait’ but tempestuous skylines offer space to breathe.
A trumpet and an indigent dog are his accomplices in survival.
But it is his obsessive love for the erratic, hardhearted Desiree that
remains the one constant in his life and impels his search for the
elusive meaning of existence.
Through his protagonist, the trumpet-playing philosopher
poet, Mohlele weaves his unique magic with words, posing
powerful questions in his inimitably individualistic
and evocative style.
ISBN: 978-1-86914-245-2
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thunderstorm. She knew this, and I suspect it meant a lot to her. That
was why I once inquired if she ever thought of me, to which she, with
fire in her eyes, countered: ‘What do I have to do for you to leave me
alone?’ I was beyond bliss. The rebuke was a step in the right direction.
Preferable to her more direct protests, the famous: ‘Stop staring at me!’
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‘Ask for God’s forgiveness then, my son,’ said Father Ben. I was, all
along, convinced I was talking to God Himself. But the voice, of a
sombre yet amused Father Ben, hiding behind the confession box,
caused me untold embarrassment every time our paths crossed. Each
time Father Goebbels said: ‘God loves all his children,’ I asked, irritated:
‘Doesn’t God ever tire of hearing the same prayers over and over again?’
Father Goebbels warned me against such erratic thinking and, visibly
annoyed, said everything has its place in the universe. ‘Don’t be like
your people, bowing to dead things in search of salvation. Don’t engage
in satanic rituals, drumming to evil spirits. Refrain from lust, voodoo
and greed, and from polygamy. Why does a man need three wives, if
not to satisfy base, wild instincts? Jesus – only He is the way, the truth
and the life.’ John 14.6. If everything indeed belonged somewhere, I
pondered, why was Desiree blind to my adoration of her? Why did
Jesus allow such persecution?
Father Goebbels expected us to do odd jobs in return for sanctuary:
remove weeds from flower beds, collect and distribute mail, ring the
church bell on general and specific occasions. I was a captive of that
bell, in all kinds of weather. I imagine the bell grew tired of me, as I did
of it. All Father Goebbels needed to do was frown, and I knew. I would
run to the tower, yank that rope to the deafening din announcing Mass
or afternoon prayers. I ran in for Mass, rang the bell again to mark the
end of prayers. It was only then that I was free – yet under Father
Goebbels’s eagle eye, his sour smiles.
For reasons known only to him, Father Goebbels concluded I was
never to be trusted with anything. Not even removing weeds from the
vegetable gardens, or remembering to ring that wretched bell. There
was always his hostile eye, his lemon smiles, following me around. He
was creepy: like an uninvited, cynical mortician at a wedding reception.
The Dutch, said Father Goebbels, came to the Cape in 1652, to establish
a refreshment station. To save sailors bound for the East from scurvy.
Such simple-minded fools. Why endure the wrath of the sea, risk losing
your teeth and drowning, for a few bags of spice? Father Goebbels refused
to answer why most black people I knew shone floors, dug furrows . . .
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