LS-1 "the meeting" Hi friends/readers , its me Anmol the narrator of this love story .

Every love story has an end but this mine one has no end. I was returning from mumbai back to vns in a sleeper coach just sitting and viewing outside the window and waitin g for someone who could fill my front seat . A station came , train stopped , pe ople in dozens came in , she was in that dozens . Her name was Aakansha. She was with her parents and what i was willing to happen it happened, they just sat in front of my seat . I was very happy from inside but i was simple guy so didnt ma de any such emotions on their sitting front of me. Aakansha faced me with a swee t dazzeling smile but only for some micro seconds, cos what i thought she was al so simple and sweet girl , dont wanted to show her emotions. I was going back to vns for my preparations for some entrances and i guess she was for vns too. She was very studious , reading some physics stuffs in the train only and i was lis tening "eenie meenie". I wanted to see her but it would be awkward for me and fo r her too cos still we hadnt exchanged a single word. While listening music i found her scratching her head and i thought she wasnt ge tting the answer so i thought its a nice one to talk her and at the same instant she asked me to help for that question, i was amazed i guess she also wanted th e same what i. I was a scholar of my school so i tried to solve and finally tol d her the solution , she admired me with thankyou and smiled on me. She smiled a nd i was on 7 stars . I was and was waiting that she could find problems in eve ry questions but now she was done with her study. Her parents were impressed , t hey asked about me and conversation started and mean while i talked to her, word s exchanged, "nice meeting with you", that what i said her .I was a lover to mus ic and love to play guitar, as i was handling it around so therefore she asked m e to sing a song and play this guitar, i tried my best and she loved to listen t hat song and gave a sweet smile and this time this smile was like out of the wor ld , it can shower all the beauties on your footsteps and a gentle smile came on to my face. Vns was not too far now, so i thought to have any contacting medium from her but it would create a bad impression towards her parents thats why i di dnt made any. Vns came , we both left away, she went her way with her parents an d me on my way...I was lil disappointed because of me cos i was having no contac t of her and i dont know why, she was coming into my mind after every minutes . Just to make ma mind favourable i went for facebook to search her, but couldnt f ound her. But god wants else, a miracle happened , just after an hour her friend request received on my id, but how she found that, cos my id was lil different but then suddenly i saw my guitar with a print "beinganmol" thats what my userna me was, from that day i loved my guitar more than before................... LS-2 "friendship time" It was impossible to live over moments without talking to her. I used to be on f acebook and she too .There was an "extra" in our relationship of friendship cos talking with friends have an end but our chats were endless and we sometime beco me "numb" to rub drops of tears in some situations. Anyway, there was a "keen" i n both of us to meet somewhere but due to some intuitions we cant accept to do t hat. We share same thoughts , same feelings ,same emotions and some times same words. Friendship to hmari achi ho hi gyi thi but i dont know , was there someth ing "else".But we never tried to tear that "something" up cos being in friendshi p was more than that. If we moved to that "something" then might be it wouldnt b e the same , then may be there would be the absence of that talks which we use t o share , those problems and all. I was in need of nothing now , her friendship was too caring and loving .I dont know why but whenever she used to ask me to do what i dont like doing, i do..... ....... "A sudden change brings a lot change", now we were in a great friendship and see ms to hold this relation for ever and ever.

LS-4 "the final words" Anmol , thats me, i was a shy guy, it was easy to talk her and chat with aakansh a but if there would be and eye contact , i toh have got i dont know what, watt lagni to pakki thi, but the problem of b eing shy was removed by her only with her own so much of efforts and labour. aur mujhe sone ki bahut aadat hai cos am very lazy and still the same i am. Because a great personallity has said "being lazy is one of the part of being in better being", ya i know aap log samajh jaoge ki woh mahan vyakti aur koi nhi main hi hun, please dont pick up the eggs now.Am big cartoon lover and she is too and we always do the same if on tv. I never became angry but when i got that ,its difficult to recover from it..... but its a fact that if a girl tries to cope someone with his difficulties, its b ecome easy for that person to cope up that. just like that aakansha was knowing how to make me recover from my anger and fin ally she makes me out of it, and now i am a changed man. Yup now i was lil excited to have a meeting with aakansh a and we met too at a mall but it was an worthless meeting cos she was with her friends and i was with mine , we don e ven shared a single word...but god was in our favour , we finally found time to spent ttogether at a restaurant jus t to have a meet but during that meet i never said those magical words because i cant....................... I dont want to ruin her life , one day i found my self very weak with uneven pai ns and different symptoms in my body occured, i went to doctor for checkup and it was nothing but "CANCER"..... I was having only two months, so i thought to live those two months with lots o f happy moments but i never told her about my problem and thats why i never uttered my heart lines.....She also never said what she wanted , i dont know why i was knowing her feelings and her thoughts but she never said me that. But that day came, it was 2 days before of those two months , she with full feel ings and emotions made those magical lines and i was wondering cos i was knowing those words which has to be replied but i was bound too, i couldnt made reply and i didnt made any that day. I am writing this letter just one day befor e my "end up" from life......... Hoping that she will find this writings and will forgive me............. LS-3 "why so?" She was a pain killer addictor , she used to have it for some less pains too and it was my time to change her, not only this she wanted to go off her life cos s he was used too up again her life cos what she wanted with his life , that thing wasnt favouring her. So this was a big task for me, cos i never want to lose he r. So i started my attempts as she had became very good sweet friend of mine and she also accepts what i say and ask her to do. so maine keh diya ki tu jyada p ain killers nhi legi, she accepted , but it was not easy for her too, toh maine bol diya, ki jab bhi tujhe pain killer lena hoga , just ask me, aisa nhi tha k i maine kuch kiya , it was her total effort ki ab usne pain killers se 98% chut kara pa liya tha. I was very happy now with that but there was a big problem whi ch has to be inherited, she wanted to die. His family was never in support of he r study outstation in any other city cos of some thoughts and all .And she feels her self a "weight" in her family cos of deep depression. His family loves her a lot but there was something which she doesnt like.

main hmesha use kehta tha tu aisa kbhi nhi kregi cos tere friends to tere jarura t hai, tere family to tere jarurat hai but main kehna to kuch aur hi chahta tha, but wo dil ke andar hi reh gya. Let it be there only till. I always insist her for not doing all these and she tries to undergo that but i dont know what matte red with her, uske saath koi na koi incident aisa ho jata tha ki fir se wo marne ke baare men sochne lagti thi. main kai baar usse gussa bhi ho jata tha, bus isiliye that she should change her mind but it was not possible for me to be upset from her for more time. But i k now she was trying her best to cope up with these situations and finally she did it, now she was happy with her life and knows how to manipulate herself against every situations.....And again it was the time to have a big smile on my face, but i guess this smile would have been more..........