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UNIV 392
Scott Harris
29th July 2015
I am Transformed
As the summer comes to end and my job as a college coach comes to an end,
I have come to understand the true vagueness and intertwined complexity of what
leadership truly entails. Coming into the college coach position at the summer of
2014, I came in with my mentality set on becoming the outspoken leader that the
staff deserved. I had an aspiration of becoming a leader and role model that
encouraged others, and truly showed a motivated mind full of wisdom. In other
words, I came into the job with the traditional view of what leader meant. In fact I
attempted to surmount this image I had of what a leader entailed. What I came to
find from this experience was that this leadership experience would only work in
specific situations. To a certain extent, I achieved the goal of that summer. I
managed to gain an extensive knowledge I didnt know about myself. I also had the
great opportunity to inspire many students when I worked in specific with the
Summer Enrichment at Loyola (SEaL) program. However, as I soon came to
understand was that being this kind of leader proved to be detrimental to some, if
not all other college coaches. Some of the college coaches who I worked with last
year did not get the opportunity to experience what I did in accordance with my
inability to step down, as what I considered to be an all or nothing leadership
position. I hindered others ability to be leaders on account of my wanting to be the
best. However, I would soon come to understand that moderated leadership might
have proven to be more effective.
Thus, when I decided to return for the summer of 2015 as a college coach, I
took it upon myself to approach the leadership position with a little more thought. I
wanted to be a moderated leader which entailed the use of context dependency. In
other words, I wanted to continue being a leader, but with that being said I also
wished to know when it was appropriate, if not necessary, to step down as a leader
and allow others to shine. More importantly, I wanted to have the ability to know the
right time to switch. This was my goal for the summer: the ability to know when to
step up to the plate, when to step down as a leader and allow others to achieve
their own endeavors. Having almost completed this summer and taken this course
in Ignatian leadership, I have come to appreciate the true complexity of leadership.
For example, learning that there is a complex symbiotic relationship between leader
and subordinate and the several different practical approaches that effect the way a
leader should respond to their subordinate. However, this was the troubling
question that I asked myself the majority of the summer: when is it appropriate to
be a leader, and when is appropriate to be a subordinate?
As the summer progressed and the job got harder, the myriad of students
became overwhelming. I was in a state of distraught and discomfort as the students
became rowdy and short-tempered with the college coaches. The amount of mental
breakdowns that occurred this summer was uncanny. I was considering the ways in
which to deal with the debilitating mental state I was in. With my previous health
issues Ive had, continuing the job was beginning to hinder my ability to live a
healthy lifestyle. This is when Ignatian love-driven leadership became the mantra of
my summer. I kept remembering the significant message of love-driven leadership,
Refuse no talent, or any man of good quality (Lowney 170). Love-driven
leadership was what led the Jesuits to see the value in all, regardless of past
leader, always leader. Although I may not always step up to the plate, I may choose
to simply watch others develop their own leadership roles. More importantly, I have
come to understand that self-awareness truly defines the leader. I could not have
done any of this without truly stepping back from everyday life and seeing myself
interact with others as if I were a disembodied spirit. Although I will continue to
define what my leadership skills are with times passing, there is one thing that I
have found to be fixed: I have been transformed.