THE WORLD AND I LOVE YOU

> Preface The reason I smile a lot, hmm Park Chanyeol held onto the mike, looking into the camera with his bright and wide eyes. Its because I am always grateful for Gods gift of happiness. Byun Baekhyun looked down to adjust his sleeves and looked up towards Chanyeol again. Theres so much support from our kind fans, Park Chanyeols voice was soft, mixed with only a slight bit of happiness. Byun Baekhyun continued to gaze at Chanyeol silently. And having my wonderful members beside me, Park Chanyeol turned his head to sweep his gaze across the members, and unavoidably met eyes with Byun Baekhyun. And looked away immediately. All in a second. That's why I always feel really blessed. Park Chanyeol smiled brightly, turning forward to face the front again. -- Youre lying. Byun Baekhyun turned away from Park Chanyeol, letting his thoughts drift away. The noises from the crowd below the stage, the members squabbles, were like noises from another world. Only that persons deep voice resonated at the bottom of his heart for countless number of times. Amidst the happy atmosphere, Chanyeol smiled happily and started to cut the cake. The heart shaped icing on the cake was sliced into half. I feel really blessed. -- Stop lying.

> 01 [Byun Baekhyun] Punishment If I exist, you wouldnt feel any happiness. Right? Park Chanyeol. Due to the fact that there would schedule the next day, Park Chanyeols birthday party ended slightly earlier. Most of the members have returned to the dorm, but Park Chanyeol took a leave from the manager to meet a friend. Luhan Hyung followed along. Before they left, Luhan Hyung turned around as he held onto Park Chanyeol, Baekhyun, do you want to come with us? I could see a displeased expression form on Park Chanyeols face from the corner of my eyes. I forced a tight smile, Nevermind, Im going back to rest. Luhan looked at me silently, eyes filled with what seemed like unhappiness. I did not look at him, but instead waved at him before walking back upstairs. Recently, I was always feeling worn out. I have no idea how that person have the energy celebrate a party and then go out to play for the rest of the night. Probably because it was his birthday, and it has been long since he was this happy. After washing up, I lay on the bed. From my room, I could hear Sehun and Kyungsoos voices from outside, but it stopped after sometime and I figured that they had probably gone to sleep. It wasnt long before I fell asleep unknowingly as well. When I was awoken, it was already 3am in the morning. The person outside the door was twisting the door knob furiously, but it would not open. I did not need to think to know who it was. Draping a jacket across myself, I climbed off the bed to open the door for him. Yah. The person was reeking with the smell of alcohol, causing me to frown.

Youre back. Yah, why did you lock the door. The door wasnt locked; it was just that you couldnt open it. I said in a small voice. I waited for him to stagger into the room and closed the door behind him. I knew it would be difficult to reason with a drunken person, and I did not plan to continue doing so. Byun Baek Hyun. Yes? You, dont you owe me a birthday wish? He came closer and grabbed my shoulder. I instinctively shrunk a little, while watching his bright orbs shining in contrast to the dark room. I said it at the party earlier. I want to hear you say it again. I watched the strange man. Park Chanyeol, youre drunk. Shut up on the crap. Damn. I knew the results of going against him, thus I had to comply. Happy birthday. I said. -- Even if they were words of compliance, I still end up in the same horrible state. A slap came straight at my cheeks. HahahahahahaHow funny. He burst out laughing maniacally. The suddenness startled me, but despite the pain on my cheeks, I still hurriedly grabbed onto him. Everyones sleeping now. Ha, Byun Baekhyun, you are becoming funnier, He forcefully pushed me away. I knocked into the wall behind me, but he immediately came up to press me down against it. Do you know, Byun Baekhyun, His voice was low, but to my ears, they were like menacing

growls, the way you go around acting like you care for the others is extremely funny. The way you wish me happiness is funny as well. I know, I know. Watching his agitated face, my heart ached. You cant feel any happiness? Still? Even on his birthday, he could not feel any happiness. It was all because of me right? It was all because of me. Chanyeol I watched, heart aching. Although I knew that he would most definitely go insane even when he was drunk, I tried to grab onto his hands that were pressed down on my shoulder. Dont touch me. He swiped my hand away with force, becoming even more agitated and enraged with my touch. But his words were filled with sadness. Hatoday was my birthday She was supposed to celebrate it with meshe was supposed to be by my side. But because of because of you this bastard. But you still dare wish me happiness, you reallydeserve to die. Yes. I deserve to die. I caused the one whom I love to be hurt to this state. Byun Baekhyun, you really deserve to die. Chanyeol Apart from calling your name, I dont know any other word of consolation. You must have once made a promise with her, maybe. Made a promise about how sweetly you would spend your birthday with her, holding hands and full of smiles. But now, all those promises are ruined. But thats all because of me. All because of me.

What gives me the rights to console you? Byun Baekhyun, you must be ecstatic now. Right? One of his hands suddenly took grip in the roots of my hair and forcefully pulled my head upwards to look up at his face. You want to have me, you want the person that I love to leave me. No, Chanyeol. Its not like that. You only want for yourself to be happy. Chanyeol-ah Are you that desperate for me to fuck you? His agonized eyes suddenly became fierce and enraged. He gripped at my hair with even more force and used his other hands to start tearing off my loose pyjamas. ChanChanyeol, no, you cant do this today, theres shedule tomorrow morningno, Chanyeol I started begging him and attempting to block his movements with my hands, wanting him to stop. Shouldnt you feel happy like this now? Byun Baek hyun. His movements were rough from the alcohol in his system. No. Park Chanyeol was always rough with me, even if he was perfectly awake and aware. He hates me. Him who I love, hates me to the bones. It was as if he found it too much off a hassle, he grabbed me and threw me onto the bed and immediately climbed on top on me. The bed made a loud noise, I panicked but dared not move, afraid that the other members might hear the commotion. Luhan Hyung.Is Luhan Hyung asleep? Didn't hejust come back home? I asked breathlessly. Dont talk about other people. Park Chanyeol said into my ears without a trace of warmness. I thought you only cared about me? And would do anything for me? I could not speak anymore and watched him in the darkness, like the god of fury that was about to take me down.

Actually if you were a little bit more drunk, you could have pretended that I was her, at least you would have been a little bit more gentle. Instead of being like this, instead of the purple bruises that would soon appear on my skin. The Park Chanyeol that slapped me again to make me lie still. The Park Chanyeol that ripped off my shirt in a quick moment. The Park Chanyeol that looked at me with such fury as if he wanted to rip me into pieces. The Park Chanyeol that turned me over and thrust roughly into me. Ah My fingernails dug into my palms, forming a fist, and I bit down hard on the bed sheets below me. It was too painful. - - Even if it was like this, it's the Park Chanyeol whom I love. He was like a beast that was attacking in the darkness, hands gripped tightly on my waist. Not bothering to even speak, he grunted as he continued entering my body. It was of such pain that I was close to losing consciousness. There was cold sweat dripping down my forehead, but I did not dare to make any sound apart from the whimpers buried deep down in my throat. This was a punishment that you are giving me, but yet I feel happy. I must be crazy.

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