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God's Country The Legend of the Mountain Men
God's Country The Legend of the Mountain Men
God's Country The Legend of the Mountain Men
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Faced with the prospects of being forced to be a surgeon by his domineering father, Jake Stanton realizes that not only does he hate the slaughterhouse known at the Jesuit Hospital in St. Louis, where he and his father have just relocated, but he hates cities in general.

Driven nearly insane by the carnage he faces on a daily basis, Jake quits and goes to work on the docks. There, he meets mountain man Dan McNeil, who promises to take him to the Rocky Mountains. 

The adventure changes Jake forever; he returns to St. Louis briefly, then goes back to the west permanently. In the back of his mind, a young girl named Becky, who he met in St. Louis, always remains. The manner in which he reunites with her is so strange even he can't believe it..

This is a rather long novel, as it follows Jake through his life well into his 70s. He sees it all; the destruction of the trapper's way of life, the decimation of the Indian nations, the endless strife and war in the young nation, and the death of everybody he knows. Through it all, he never loses his passion for his beloved Rocky Mountains and what they stood for in his day.

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Release dateJan 7, 2016
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    God's Country The Legend of the Mountain Men - charles fisher

    Montana, 1845

    Five miles west of the Tongue River Reservoir

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    Jedediah Cooper was having a hard time of it. He was bent low to the ground, his  back muscles rippling beneath his linen shirt as he heaved against the wheel of the wagon, which was stuck fast between two rocks. He strained until the cords in his neck appeared ready to explode from the effort. The wagon moved imperceptibly forward then lurched backwards, dashing Jed’s  hopes and nearly breaking his wrist.

    Judas Priest! he yelled, and kicked the offending wheel as hard as he could. He stood back and mopped the sweat from his face with a rag, then noticed a man sitting astride a black stallion a hundred feet away. The man was motionless; not even a strand of his shoulder length gray-black  hair moved in the warm late October sun. He was atop a low rise of rock,  dispassionately watching Jed struggle with the stuck wheel.

    Damn busybody, Jed muttered to himself. Might at least get down off that horse and give me a hand. Thomas! Get me a pole to move this rock.

    Ten year old Thomas Cooper jumped up from the shade of the wagon and ran off to look for a length of wood. Faith Cooper brought her husband a dipper of water to quench his thirst.

    Is it moving, Jed? she asked timidly. The others are getting farther away.

    Jed looked up and saw that the little caravan was now about two hundred yards away.

    Inconsiderate lot, aren’t they? he spat. You’d think one of them would help me. Fine neighbors they’ll make.

    Well, they did say that everyone was on his own when we left that trading post, Faith said quietly. Jed shoved the dipper back at her and glared at the departing wagons.

    I know. But my God, what kind of people are they, to leave one of their own stuck in the middle of nowhere? How will we ever catch up to them now?

    I don’t know, Faith said worriedly. She turned around and suddenly took notice of the man on the horse. Who’s that? And why is he  staring at us?

    I don’t know, Jed said in exasperation. He looks like a white man, but he’s dressed like one of the Indians we’re supposed to watch out for. I wonder if he’s dangerous.

    I don’t think so. If he was going to attack us, he would have done it by now.

    Yes, I suppose so, Jed said. We’re certainly helpless enough.

    Tommy Cooper appeared from behind  the wagon with a long stick in his hand.

    Here, Pop, this is all I could find.

    It looks stout enough, Jed said, taking the pole from his son.  He jammed the stick between the rocks, and  leaned into it. The stick bent somewhat, and just as Jed gave it one mighty pull, it broke in two and dumped him on his ass in the dirt.

    Goddamn it! he bellowed. Now what?

    Such language, Jedediah! Faith exclaimed. Do not take the Lord’s name in vain, especially in front of the boy.

    I’m sure the boy knows how to curse already, Jed said in disgust. I did at his age.

    I hope not, Faith said, and went back to her spot in the shade. Jed turned his attention to

    the wheel, and Tommy wandered off in the direction of the stranger. By the time Jed noticed where he had gone, it was too late; he appeared to be talking to the man. What the hell, Jed thought; maybe the boy will get him to come over and help.

    Help was the farthest thing from Tommy’s mind. He had heard all about  Indians at the trading post, and had even seen a few off in the distance. This man looked like he might be an Indian, and Tommy wanted to see if he could get him to talk. When his father wasn’t looking, he bolted for the rise of rock the man was perched upon.

    The first thing Tommy noticed about the man was his physical size; he was a monster. He had to be  seven feet tall,  had arms that rivaled the diameter of most men’s legs, and a neck like a tree stump.  As Tommy drew closer, he could see that the man had deep blue eyes and a full  beard; so much for the Indian idea, he thought, for he knew that Indians always plucked their facial hair.

    Tommy could see a muslin shirt underneath the man’s tunic, but everything else he wore was tanned smoky deerskin edged in fringe. His leggings came right to the soles of his moccasins, which were loose and soft looking. A wide leather belt held two  pistols and a brace of Jim Black’s finest Arkansas toothpick knives. The only other things he wore  were a powder horn and bag for his shot, and Tommy knew that he  would have a fine rifle, probably a  Hawken, the best there was. A wide brim beaver skin hat completed the outfit.

    Tommy was now six feet away, and the stallion pricked its ears and flared its nostrils. It watched the youngster with a wary eye, wondering in its equine mind if such a small creature could pose a threat to the giant on its back. It decided that it could not, and went back to dozing in the warm fall air. Tommy walked up to the rise of rock and smiled.

    Hi, Mister, are you an Injun? I know they don’t got beards, but you still look like one. Jake Stanton put his head back and roared with laughter.

    Who, me? Hell no, boy, I ain’t no Injun. I be a white man like you and your pa. Jake smiled and sat up several inches taller on the stallion’s back. I are a mountain man, he said proudly.

    What’s that? Tommy asked.

    Free trader of Injun goods and killer of the mighty Blackfeet warrior, Jake said, pointing to a pair of feathers hanging from his horse’s bridle. When a Piegan war party sees me comin’, they move to the other side of the plain.

    Why do you dress like an Injun?

    Everybody what lives out here dresses like Injuns, Jake smiled.

    Oh. Is that a Hawken rifle?

    Jake slid the monstrous fifty caliber piece out of its  case and held it aloft.

    That it be, he said. Ain’t nothin’ else shoots as straight or as far. I kin drop a elk at three hundred yards, or kill a Injun down by the Yellowstone country if I am of a mind to do so.

    Tommy was astounded; here was a real live western man, talking about hunting, shooting, and Injun killing. No boy of Tommy’s age had ever talked to a man like this. When he got to California, he would have tales to tell that nobody could best.

    How far is it to the Yellowstone? Tommy asked, eyeing the big rifle.

    Oh, three, maybe four hundred miles, Jake said casually, a twinkle in his eye. I kin pull this here trigger on Monday, and long about Tuesday afternoon some poor Injun will keel over dead, sure as I’m  sittin’ here.

    Wow! Tommy exclaimed. Wait til my Pop hears about this!

    Jake looked over to where Jed was still wrestling with the stuck wheel, then looked over to the distant wagon train and nodded slightly, as if something  had happened exactly the way he had hoped it would.

    Your pa be stuck pretty good, he smiled. Maybe I ought to  go give him a hand.

    Yeah, he can’t get loose of them rocks, Tommy said. He’s afraid we won’t be able to catch up to the others.

    Best thing that could happen, Jake said as he got down from the horse.  Let’s go dig him out.

    Jed was still trying to figure out how to free the wheel, and Faith was standing in the shade watching, a worried look on her face. Jake smiled at her as she turned to look at him.

    Ma’am, he said, tipping his hat. He walked over to Jed. Boy says you’re stuck. Seeing as how I ain’t real busy right now, I figure to help you out.

    That’s right nice of you.  More than  I can say for that other bunch, Jed  said, nodding toward the departing wagons. They just left me here to fend for myself.

    Yeah, Jake sighed. Well, let’s see what we got here. He bent down and made a measurement in his mind, then went to look for something. He came back with  a large wedge shaped rock. He shoved it between the two rocks that held the wagon prisoner,  and looked up at Jed. Got a sledge hammer?

    Yes, Jed said, heading for the wagon’s rear. He produced the hammer and held it out to Jake, who just stared at it.

    Don’t give it to me, he said. Ain’t my wagon. He pointed to the wedge. Hit ‘er a good whack.

    Jed hit the wedge with all the strength he had, then stood back. Five inches of the wedge had disappeared. Jake nodded.

    That’ll do, he said. Jed got behind the wagon and was about to get down into his push position when Jake held up a hand. Hold on there, friend. Ain’t no need to go killing yourself pushing this here contraption. Let an old hand show you how it be done. Jake walked over to the team of horses, took the bridle of the closest one in his hand, and pulled one of his pistols.

    He isn’t going to shoot the horse, is he? Faith whispered.

    Jake fired the pistol, and the two horses bolted. He went with them  until the wagon had been pulled free, then  hung his massive bulk from the bridle, stopping the team dead in its tracks. He holstered the pistol and walked casually back to Jed and his family.

    There you  be, he said.

    That was something! Jed said. I’ll have to remember that in case I get stuck again. We have a long way to go; any advice you can give us about this place?

    Sure, Jake said. Go back home. You folks don’t belong here.

    Why? We aren’t going to stay here, we’re going to California.

    No you ain’t, Jake said. And neither are them damn fools up ahead.

    I don’t understand, Jed said. Are we going the wrong way? There’s supposed to be a pass up ahead, through the Madison range, then the Pioneer.

    Yeah, there be a pass, but no white man except us mountain men ever seen it, and none ever will, less they bring the  Army along for an escort. Them wagons is headed for Crow country, and that’s as far as they’ll get. Probably got Crow scouts watching ‘em right now.

    You mean Indians, don’t you? Faith asked. We have a gun. Won’t we be safe?

    Safe? Not with one rifle.  If you is smart, you’ll turn this wagon around and get back to whatever  post you  came from.

    But why would the Indians  want to hurt us? Faith asked. We aren’t going to hurt them. We’re just passing through.

    You is white, is why. Them savages hate anything white, except maybe for the snow. More and more settlers been showin’ up lately, and them Injuns  think all the white people in the world is comin’ to take their  land.

    What would they do to us? Faith asked.

    Jake looked at Tommy, and motioned to Jed.

    Send the boy to fetch firewood, he said. Jed nodded.

    Go ahead, Thomas. You heard Mr.......what is your name, anyway?

    Jake Stanton. After Tommy had left, Jake  went on. Look here, friend.  First of all, Injuns or no Injuns, you  still wouldn’t make it through them mountains this  late in the year.  The  pass you  need to go through is already under  sixty feet of snow.  You got to get through them mountains before September.

    But what about......the Indians? Faith asked.

    Them savages love to kill white people, but they do it real slow. They’ll grab that wagon train, then they’ll pick over all the belongings and burn the rest. Them what resists might be killed right off;  them is the lucky ones. The rest get took to the Crow camp. After the braves get likkered up, they’ll commence to torturing everybody they got left alive. They take the women  that is with child and slits their bellies open right in front of their husbands, and if they got grown young ‘uns like yours, they cut  ‘em to pieces and make the parents watch. Sometimes they  has the dogs rip ‘em  apart. You want that to happen to your boy,  you  go  catch up to them wagons. But when them murdering bastards pull his liver out and show it to you, remember what old Jake said. 

    Good God, faith whispered. How does anybody get to California  safely?

    Northern Pass, Jake said. That be Flathead country, and they is more tolerant of white folk. You get back to wherever you come out of, and sit the winter there. Come March, you light out with somebody who knows the way.

    We can’t do this, Jed. We have to do what Mr. Stanton says. We have to go back to the post. We can’t risk Tommy’s life.

    What about the others? Jed asked. They don’t know any of this.

    Hell with ‘em, Jake shrugged. Let ‘em go.  I reckon I’ll find the pieces of ‘em later on. It ain’t a pretty sight,  with arms and legs and innards all over the place, but there’s always one good thing about it when you come across a mess like that.

    What could be good about it? Jed asked.

    That it ain’t you, Jake said quietly.

    How have you survived out here? Jed asked. You’re white. Don’t the Indians hate you as well?

    That’s right, Mr. Stanton, Faith said. They must not like having you here. Why don’t they try to kill you?

    They give it a try once in a while  when they get feelin’ sorry for themselves, but the mountain men don’t take kindly to some red savage tryin’ to lift their hair.  But once in a while they will  ransom one of us off.

    Ransom? What do you mean? Faith asked.

    Jake turned away with the look of a man who had seen all the horror and inhumanity anyone could imagine. You never mind that. I been took one time, but I got away. I be big medicine now, ‘specially with the Crow, so they leave me alone.

    I think I’d leave you alone too, Faith smiled. For a man your age, you are a remarkable specimen. How old are you, if you don’t mind my asking?

    Jake frowned and rubbed his beard for a minute.

    Don’t rightly know. What year this be?

    Eighteen and forty-five, Jed said.

    Well I’ll be, Jake said. I were nineteen when I come here for good. It were eighteen twenty-eight, I believe.  I guess I am up there.

    That makes you thirty-six, Faith said.

    Where did you come from? Jed asked.

    Massachusetts, then St. Louis later on.  I ain’t  goin’ back, either. The critters and the buzzards kin pick my sorry old bones when I die.  Then old Jake will always be a part of this here country, passed on from critter to critter. You see a litter of wolf pups some day what is seven feet tall, that’s me comin’ out in ‘em.

    This place sounds crazy, Faith said. Why do you like it here?

    This be true Paradise, Jake said reverently. You got everything here; game, plenty of fur to trap, and a million stars to sleep under at night. And the mountains, he said quietly. Always the mountains. They be the most beautiful thing I ever seen.

    They are striking, Faith said. But it seems so dangerous.

    Life be dangerous anywhere, Jake said. A  man my pa were doctoring in Boston fell off his horse when a saddle strap broke, and got kicked in the head. He were never the same after that. And that be civilized country, so they say.

    Your father is a physician? Faith asked.

    That he is. Again, Jake seemed hesitant. I learned it too; I saved a lot of trapper’s hides, and a few Injuns as well. And a cougar.

    A cougar? You fixed up a cougar? Jed asked. Why?

    That be a long story, Jake said sadly. Let ‘er go.

    Tommy had returned with the wood, and  was anxious to know what was going to happen next.

    We’re going back to the post, Thomas, Jed said.

    We are? How come? The disappointment in his face was obvious.

    Mr. Stanton said it’s too dangerous to go this way, Faith said. There’s too much snow. We’ll wait for  spring, then we’ll take a safer route to California.

    Oh, he said. Is Mr. Stanton coming with us?

    Jake shook his head.

    Can’t do that, boy. Got to get back up to  my cabin before winter. Got to make meat.

    Will it be safe for us? Faith asked. We’ll be alone.

    Should be, Jake said. Mostly the Crow be west of here, two days or so. They’ll be keepin’ busy with your friends, anyway. They won’t know one got away.

    Then we should be on our way, Jed said, sticking out his hand. Jake took it, and Jed could swear he felt bones crack.

    Thank you, Mr. Stanton, Faith said. Will we ever see you again?

    Maybe, Jake said. I get down to them posts once in a while. You come up my way next spring, you give a holler. Everybody knows old Jake.

    So long, old Jake, Tommy said, sticking out his hand. Jake took it softly, then  reached into his tunic. He took out a beautiful piece of Indian jewelry and handed it to the boy.

    "Here, boy. This be a Crow talisman. It’ll bring good luck. You keep that around your neck. I’ll call you tset a’ cu tsi’ cikyata. The wolf mask wearer. You is maxpe now. That means sacred in Crow."

    The boy took the medallion and ran for the wagon to join his parents. As they pulled away, Jake walked back to his horse. He watched them until the wagon was a speck of dust on the horizon, and when he could see them no longer, he turned the stallion and rode away to the north.

    St. Louis, Missouri

    June, 1826

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    Nathaniel Stanton stepped onto the dock and looked around in disbelief. There was mass confusion everywhere; men were yelling and running, screaming out instructions to the Osage and Shawnee Indians who worked the loading crews. Riverboats powered by pole drivers, usually Swedes or more Indians, sat tied up at their moorings, swallowing monstrous amounts of cargo destined for the posts along the Missouri River. Others were there to be unloaded of their treasure from the west; fur pelts of unimaginable beauty, and beaver skins by the ton.

    It looks like a mad house, Nathaniel said to his  son Jacob.

    It sure does, young Jake said. Is it what you expected?

    Well, Nat said, I didn’t know what to expect. I suppose we’ll get used to it.

    Not me, Jake said under his breath. He was used to the relative desolation of their Massachusetts farm, and this was......crazy. This was a mob, plain and simple. No man should have to live like this, he thought as they walked through the throng of humanity towards Main Street. Horses and carts were packed into the narrow street, making movement all but impossible. Jake swore softly as he stepped into a huge pile of horse manure.

    Watch out for the horse  shit, Pa, he said. It’s everywhere.

    They reached a hotel, and Nat went in to obtain lodging. Their trip had been long and exhausting, and he wanted to rest before he checked in with the Jesuits, who still maintained the mission they had established in 1700. Here, Nat would take over the new hospital the Jesuits had opened.

    The trip from Boston had been an adventure for young Jake and a torture session for his father. They had taken a ship from Boston Harbor to Tuscorora, North Carolina, and had journeyed overland by wagon to the Tennessee River. They then traveled by barge  until they  came to the junction of the Mississippi and the Missouri,  fifteen miles north of St. Louis. For a man educated at Oxford the accommodations had been hellish, and Nat looked forward to a comfortable hotel room.

    Can I go look around, Pa? Jake asked.

    All right, but don’t stray too far. Stay away from alleys and saloons, and don’t go anyplace with anybody who approaches you on the street.

    Jake nodded and headed off toward the boat landing. He was seventeen now, and  stood over six foot five  and weighed  230 pounds; with his jet black hair and sparkling blue eyes, he was a handsome sight to the women who saw him walking down Main Street.  He drew smiles and appreciative glances, all of which he ignored. He had other things on his mind; a powerful, bizarre longing for adventure had been haunting him for well over a year, and at times the pull seemed so irresistible he felt he would explode if he didn’t find out what it meant. The only way he could describe it was the way he had related it to his father.

    I feel like a coyote put in a cage, he said one day for no reason. His father had dismissed it as the normal restlessness of a young man approaching adulthood.

    That will all go away once you’re in medical school, he said with a smile.

    The words medical school had so suddenly terrified Jake that he had almost bolted from the room. Whatever he was to do or become, it  wasn’t going to involve the medical profession;  he  had seen  enough of bloody rags, open wounds, and the glistening piles of  slop that resided inside the human body.  Jake viewed his internship as a  forced ghoulish apprenticeship from which he was sure he would emerge totally insane, and had begged to be released from his torture. Nat had refused.

    Not a chance, he had said sternly. You have to help me in St. Louis at least until I can find some doctors out there who know what they’re doing. Besides, you may as well keep working at it; that will make medical school that much easier.

    There were those words again.....medical school.  He’d bitten his tongue to keep from blurting out  that he would never go to medical school under any circumstances. And what horrors awaited him in St. Louis? He had never worked in a hospital before, but he had heard many gruesome stories about them. The fact that he could perform procedures at seventeen that most doctors couldn’t do after a lifetime of study was immaterial. He was destined for something else; the coyote wanted out of the cage.

    Jake continued on until he arrived at the docks, the ideal place for a young man to find work. Here he could sweat, strain, and wear himself out on a daily basis until he had enough money for............for what? Suddenly the thought made him laugh. Who was he kidding? His father wasn’t about to let him escape the gory, nightmarish world he had forced him into so that he could work on a loading dock. But you’re a man now, a voice inside his head said. Be your own man for a change instead of a replica of your father. If you want it, take it.

    Yeah, right, Jake sighed dejectedly. He looked up and down the docks as if hoping for his salvation to suddenly appear, then turned and trudged resolutely back toward the hotel. He stopped near a millinery store to look at some buckskin clothing, and didn’t notice the  young girl who had come up behind him.

    You don’t look very happy to be here, she said.

    Jake turned around to see a tall, slim girl of perhaps thirteen, with long dark hair and piercing gray eyes.

    I’m not, he said. Does it show that much?

    It’s the way you walk, she said. Like you  had the whole world on your shoulders.

    No, not the whole world, Jake sighed. Just the  Jesuit Hospital. My pa wants me to work there with him, and I don’t want to.

    Then don’t, the girl shrugged.

    You don’t know my pa, Jake said.

    Fathers are like that, the girl said quickly, looking over her shoulder. But you’re big and strong. What could he do to you if you disobeyed him?

    Thought never crossed my mind, Jake said. Suddenly, however, it occurred to him that he could disobey Nat if he really wanted to. But did he want it that badly, whatever it was?

    What about your mother? the girl asked. What does she think about this, or is she even allowed to think?

    She died, Jake said quietly. Three years ago. She always said I was destined to be great at something strange. What do you make of that?

    I don’t know. Medical work isn’t all that strange. What sort of work do you have to do at the hospital?

    Doctoring, Jake said. My father is a surgeon, and he’s been teaching me.

    That’s quite a good job, the girl said quickly. I know all about doctors. Again, she looked nervously behind her. Why wouldn’t you want to have a nice job like that?

    I hate it, Jake said. It’s truly disgusting, cutting people open and taking out their insides. I know somebody has to do it, but not me.  Oh, I forgot to introduce myself. I’m Jacob Stanton, but everybody calls me Jake. So, who are you, and what are you doing in St. Louis?

    My name is Rebecca Jefferson. My father is here on business.

    What does he do?

    He’s a partner in a bank. He lends money to people.

    Is he rich?

    Fairly, yes. He likes money, I’ll tell you that much.

    Great, Jake laughed. Maybe he’ll lend me enough to get out of St. Louis. What about  your ma? What does she do?

    She keeps the house for us. She’s a woman,  Jake. That’s what women do. Don’t you know anything? Becky looked at Jake curiously, but there was a smile under the look that said more than the remark.

    My ma was my pa’s nurse, Jake said. He  hired a girl to do housework. What about you? Do you want to be a housewife?

    I wouldn’t mind it, Becky said. If the right  man came along. Again, there was the look; Jake ignored it, but found himself wondering what would happen if he didn’t.

    Just then, a mean, mousy looking man appeared from around the corner. He walked briskly up to Rebecca and grabbed her by the arm. She looked at him with abject terror.

    There you are, he snapped. What did I tell you about running off by yourself? There are criminals in this city, he sneered, looking at Jake suspiciously.

    Not me, sir, Jake laughed. My father is a surgeon and is going to take over the Jesuit Hospital. My name is Jake Stanton. He stuck out his hand, but the other man simply stared at it.

    I don’t care who you are, or who your goddamned father is, he hissed. Stay away from my daughter, you hear me?

    We were just talking, Jake said.

    Find somebody else to talk to, Aaron Jefferson seethed. He whirled and stormed down the street, his daughter in tow.

    Miserable old bastard, Jake muttered, and headed back to the hotel

    What’s wrong with you? Aaron Jefferson snapped. Talking to strangers in the street, for God’s sake. You’re my daughter; didn’t you think how your conduct would reflect upon me?

    No, father, Becky said, looking at the floor of their hotel room. I’m sorry.

    Don’t do anything like that again, Aaron said. Or else.

    Becky knew what or else meant. She had heard her mother’s screams of pain often enough, and had taken a few shots herself. Now that she was approaching womanhood and men were starting to notice her, it was becoming apparent that more of her father’s attention would be focusing on her. But how was she supposed to find a husband if she couldn’t even talk to anybody?

    Can we invite him to dinner, father? That way you can get to know him while I do.

    No, Jefferson said abruptly. You’re too young. He’s a full grown man; he’s too old for you. Besides, we’re a thousand miles from home. This is a business trip. I didn’t bring you here to meet boys, Rebecca.

    But he’s nice. His father is a surgeon. He isn’t a common bum, you know.

    Jefferson turned suddenly and cuffed Becky in the side of the head. It was a mild blow, but held a promise of what was to come.

    Don’t cross me, girl. Not ever. The day I see that boy in my house is the day I die.

    The Jesuit Mission Hospital

    St. Louis, Missouri

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    Hold him, goddamn it! Nat Stanton roared. Jake renewed his grasp on their patient and leaned all of his weight against the thrashing, screaming man’s torso.

    Hurry up, Pa, Jake grunted, and looked away as Nat put his bone saw back into an inch deep cut just above the man’s mangled forearm and hand.

    Now! Nat yelled, and made several quick strokes with the saw. The patient shrieked horribly, then lay still. The bloody arm plopped onto the floor where it was retrieved by a nurse. Nat quickly cauterized the stump and bandaged it. There, he sighed as he finished. He was covered in blood from head to toe; even his hair was matted with the sticky red gore. Check him, son. I have to wash up. Nat headed for a wash basin, and Jake turned his attention to their patient.

    Uh oh, he whispered as he felt for the man’s pulse. There was none. He was a sickly white color, and his eyes were rolled up in their sockets. Pa? I think he’s dead.

    Really? Nat said casually as he washed his hands and arms. Wouldn’t surprise me, considering the state his arm was in. He lost a lot of blood.  He finished washing and came back over to the bed. He checked the man and nodded. Yep, he’s dead all right, he sighed. He motioned for two nurses to carry the man to the morgue. Jake just stared.

    That’s it? You saw a man’s arm off and let him die, then ship him to the morgue? Is that what hospital work is all about?

    Listen, son, Nat said with a mean look. I didn’t tell this idiot to stick his arm in a piece of farm machinery. That arm was beyond saving, and the procedure called for was amputation. Some patients don’t live through it. Get used to it. Nat turned away and stuck his head out the door, calling for the next patient.

    Shit, Jake whispered, and went to the basin to wash his own hands. He dumped the bloody water into a drain and refilled the bowl, then turned to see who the next victim would be.

    This one is yours, Nat said after he finished his examination. Simple appendicitis.

    Jake looked at the patient, a man of  thirty, who was staring at the two of them in wild eyed fear.

    You best put him out before he spooks, Jake said.

    Okay, Nat shrugged, and cracked the young man in the jaw with a brutal punch. There. How’s that? Meet with your approval? Hurry up and cut him before he wakes up.

    Jake had the man’s appendix out in five minutes. He threw the semi rotted organ into a tray and quickly stitched the wound closed after packing it with a poultice. As he put in the last stitch, the patient began to moan and move around.

    Just in time, Nat said approvingly. Good job, son. This one lived! How about that, he snickered, and went to the door.

    Real funny, Pa, Jake said. I hope that’s it. I can’t take much more of this.

    One more, Nat grinned. You’ll love this one.

    The nurses carried in another man, and Jake noticed that he wasn’t much older than himself.

    What’s wrong with him? Jake asked. He’s too young to look that sick.

    Take a look, Nat said as he removed the sheet. This ought to cure you of any ideas you may have about those girls you see around the beer halls.

    Jake stared in disbelief; the man’s penis was swollen to three times its normal size, and his testicles as well. Red streaks of infection radiated from the area, which was slick with pus.

    Jesus God, Jake muttered.

    Waited a bit too long, there, pal, Nat said to the youngster. Some herbs in water might have stopped this, but not now.

    What.........are you going to do? the man squeaked.

    Nat held up a scalpel and pointed at the man’s groin with an evil smile.

    No! the man roared suddenly, and tried to get up from the table. Two nurses grabbed him and forced him back down, and Nat slammed him in the side of the jaw with his fist. The struggling stopped.

    I can’t watch this, Jake said, and headed for the door.

    Get back here! Nat yelled. Don’t you ever walk out on a patient, you hear me?

    Aw, come on, Pa, Jake pleaded. You’re going to cut off his...........

    I’m not going to cut it off, Nat laughed. Not this week, anyway. Might not have to, he sighed as he examined the offending organ. From the looks of this, it might fall off all by itself.

    Nat put a tray under the man’s genitals and started cutting. He sliced open the scrotum, and discovered that the testes were infected beyond repair.

    There go your plans for a family, he mumbled as he removed them. Jake felt faint, but grabbed the bed and forced himself not to go out.  Nat sliced the man’s penis open, drained it, and flushed it with hot water. He stitched everything up and threw his instruments into a tray. There, he declared. That appears to be it for today. How about some lunch, son? I hear they have good sausage at the hotel.

    I ain’t hungry, Jake said quickly. I’ll probably never eat again the rest of my life after what you just did to that poor bastard.

    You want to screw dirty whores? This is what you get, Nat said . Keep that in mind.

    After seeing that, I’ll be afraid to even use the thing to take a leak, never mind anything else.

    Go back to the hotel, Nat said with a wave of his hand. I have paperwork to do.

    Jake washed up again, even though he hadn’t touched the last patient, and headed for the door.

    Welcome to modern medicine, Nat called out as he left.

    Jake dutifully put in his time at the hospital, and the effects  began to manifest themselves in odd ways. After a week of the awful horrors encountered practicing medicine according to his father’s standards, he had a nasty twitch in his neck  and he was having trouble sleeping. He often found that he could not concentrate on his bloody work, which brought screams of pay attention!  from his father. He had lost his famous appetite, as well. Even his father commented upon it.

    What’s wrong with you? he asked one day at lunch. You’re daydreaming all the damn time. You don’t eat right, either; you haven’t even touched your food.

    Looks like something we just took out of a patient, Jake muttered.

    It’s a steak, Jacob, not a tumorous growth.

    Thanks, Jake said, slamming his fork down. I needed that. Now I won’t be able to eat at all.

    You’d better get used to this, son, Nat said with a smirk.

    How the hell am I supposed to get used to people yelling and screaming, and blood squirting all over the place? Jake exclaimed. It was never like this back home.

    You never worked at the hospital, Nat said. I only let you do procedures in the operating room at home. Those people were out cold by the time I brought you in. I didn’t think it would be good for you to see the other side of medicine right away; that’s something you have to build up to. It’s unpleasant, but you can get used to it. I did.

    Unpleasant? We sawed a man’s leg off three inches below the hip yesterday, and he woke up in the middle of it.

    I didn’t hit him hard enough, Nat shrugged. It happens.

    Christ, Jake muttered to himself.

    Try to eat, Nat said. You need your strength.

    Don’t they have anything you can give people that will knock them out so they won’t feel the pain? Jake said.

    Just this, Nat said, holding up a right fist that was scarred and gnarled from years of punching his patients.

    Somebody ought to invent something, Jake sighed.

    Some day they will, Nat shrugged. Some doctors make their patients drink whiskey until they pass out, but that isn’t good for a sick person. Hey, who’s that girl you’ve been talking to? She’s pretty.

    Her name is Becky Jefferson. She’s here from Philadelphia on business with her pa. Nasty old bugger, he is.

    Possessive father, eh? Be careful, Nat said. I don’t want to have to put you back together in the hospital.

    Aw, it ain’t nothing like that, Jake said. As for her pa, he better not put his hands on me, or he’ll know the reason why.

    Stay out of trouble here, Nat warned. We can’t have the law after you over some girl.

    All we do is talk, Jake said. She sneaks off when her pa is at one of his meetings.

    Keep it public, Nat said. Don’t take her to any hotel rooms or anything he could misinterpret. He might catch you talking to her, but if you’re on the sidewalk or in a public place the worst you’ll get is a tongue lashing. Do you like her?

    She’s nice enough, Jake shrugged.  I don’t have anything to compare it to, though. I never had a real girl friend back home. I was always too busy.

    Well, Nat sighed, a man can do worse things than taking a wife. Maybe you should give it some thought. How old is she?

    Thirteen, Jake said. I don’t know about the wife thing, though. I’m not ready for that. She’s kind of young, anyway.

    Old enough to bleed, old enough to butcher, Nat smirked. She has tits, doesn’t she?

    Come on, Pa, Jake laughed. I’m not getting married.

    Don’t let that castration we did get to you.

    Who wouldn’t it get to, Jake said as he poked at his lunch.  Jesus, I can’t even piss without that boy’s face popping up in my head.

    You worry too much, Nat said. I imagine you could use a woman, he snickered. You must be ready to explode by now.

    I can wait, Jake said. I have other things on my mind.

    Such as?

    We had this talk already, Jake said. You know how I feel about doctoring.

    That will pass, Nat sighed. I went through the same thing myself, and so did every professor I ever had. You should have seen the things we had to do in the war. You think this place is bad? You haven’t seen anything until you’ve seen an Army hospital full of men who have been blown apart by cannon fire and rifle balls. I saw a man one time who was.........

    Enough, Jake said quickly. Please.

    Stay out of combat, Jacob, Nat warned. It’s nasty business.

    I’ll try, Jake said. What would you do if I was a girl and somebody was out to marry me?

    Buy you a nice dress, Nat chuckled.

    Thanks. You’re a big help.

    No mystery you will ever encounter can compare to the female mind, Nat said.

    Women, Jake sighed, and tried to eat his steak.

    Jake saw Becky twice more during the next four days. The first time was in front of the hotel, and the second time she came by the hospital just as Jake was finishing up. It had been a horrible day; the worst yet. Two men who had carved each other like Sunday roasts had been brought in, and they had struggled mightily against the offered medical attention. Nat had nearly broken his hand trying to put the first man out, and the second one died before they could even get his clothing off. They managed to stitch the first man up, but he expired during the bandaging.

    Jake staggered down the hospital steps, covered in blood. He had washed his hands and face, but the rest of him looked like someone had poured a bucket of the red liquid over his head. Becky stared in disbelief as Jake trudged down the stairs. He looked at her with a blank expression, as if he didn’t even know her. She took a step back and tried not to vomit.

    Jake? Are you.......all right?

    He just stared at her with a dazed expression.

    Huh? What did you say?

    I asked you if you were all right, Becky said hesitantly.

    Oh, that. I’m just dandy, he grinned stupidly. You ought to see the other guy.

    What.......happened?

    Just another day at the  St. Louis slaughter house, he said. I can’t do this any more. Today was the last straw. Look at this, he said, holding out his hands. They were shaking badly.

    My God, you’re covered in blood. What goes on in there?

    You don’t  want to know, Jake said with a wave of his hand. Don’t ever get sick. If you do, kill yourself. Save us the trouble of doing it for you. He began to amble off down the street, staring blankly at the ground.

    Where are you going? Becky called out.

    Dunno, Jake mumbled. Guess I’ll go find a pond and take a swim to get all this blood off me. Want to tag along?

    I can’t, Becky said quickly, looking behind her to make sure her father hadn’t had her followed. I’ll see you later, all right?

    Sure, Jake sighed, and trudged on down the road.

    Judas Priest, Becky whispered, and turned to go back to her hotel.

    Jake began having nightmares about the hospital. He dreamed of blood soaked, pus leaking zombies who crawled from worm filled coffins to attack him with surgical tools. One of them looked just like his father; the horrid thing was about to sink its rotted fangs into Jake’s throat when he woke up screaming. He had not slept another wink all night. He confronted his father at breakfast the following morning.

    I ain’t coming to work today, Pa, he said flatly.

    Why not? Nat said as he looked up from his cereal.

    I can’t take any more, Jake said quietly. Look. He held out his trembling hands.

    All right, Nat sighed resolutely. Take a few days off. I can’t have you cutting people with the shakes. I have a new man coming in today anyway; you can come back when you’re over this little incident. Yesterday was a bad one, wasn’t it?

    "Yesterday was the last one, Jake said quietly. I’m all done, Pa."

    You’ll get over it, Nat said as he stood to go. I’ll see you tonight. I have to go look at a house. We can’t live in this hotel forever. Go talk to your girlfriend.

    She isn’t my girlfriend. Not really, anyway.

    She’ll be leaving soon, eh?

    Yeah, Jake sighed as Nat left for the hospital. And she ain’t the only one.

    Aaron Jefferson concluded his business and Becky came to say good bye to Jake; she was waiting for him on the verandah of the hotel when he came down. She was standing near the end, leaning rigidly  against the railing, a pained expression on her face. Something about her didn’t look right, but Jake didn’t mention it.

    We’re leaving today, Becky said. Before I go, I have to ask you something.

    Sure, Jake shrugged. Just don’t ask me to operate on you.

    I won’t, Becky said, a strange look on her face. I want to know if you have a girl.

    No, Jake said quickly, images of his father’s castrated patient flashing through his mind. I only been here as long as you. I don’t know any other girls.

    Oh, Becky said. Would you like to have me for your girl?

    Well, he said, and looked off toward the west. I like you, but you live so far away. And there’s your pa; he doesn’t seem too happy to see me around you.

    All fathers are like that, Becky said. He can’t stop me if I want to see you.

    "He might try to stop me," Jake laughed.

    Then you must fight him and win. You can do that, can’t you?

    Whoa there, Jake said. Back up a piece. You live in Philadelphia, right? How far away is that?

    A thousand  miles. You could move there, she blurted out.

    What’s it like there?  Is it like this place?

    God no, Becky laughed. This is a hell hole. Philadelphia is civilized, like Boston. You lived there, didn’t you?

    Right next to it, Jake said. Wasn’t much  better than this, though. Too many people. I can’t live in a city.

    There are farms there, Becky said quickly. Didn’t you live on a farm?

    Yeah, he sighed. But  we had a hired man, and every time he tried to teach me something my pa would drag me back to the operating room. I did get to learn a few things, but I wouldn’t be able to run a farm. Come to think of it, I can’t think of any place I’ve ever been where I really would be happy. St. Louis certainly isn’t it. I don’t know what it is, but I have to get away from here. I have to find out.

    Find  out what?

    Where I belong, he said with a mixture of fear and desperation in his voice. It scares me to think that I might have to spend my life in a place like this. Does that sound crazy to you?"

    Well, it doesn’t make a lot of sense, I must admit, but I’ve heard that men sometimes think things like that. They have to go places and explore. But there isn’t really any place that’s much different from this, or Boston. It’s a small country, Jake. The civilized part, anyway.

    What about the uncivilized part? Out there? he said, pointing west.

    I don’t know, Becky said. She looked away and brushed at her eye. But if you don’t want me, you can just say so. You don’t have to make excuses.

    It isn’t that, Jake said. I just can’t see my way clear to do anything like that right now. It wouldn’t be fair to you. Maybe some day we can be together, he added quickly, sensing that the girl was about to start bawling like women liked to do.

    All right, Becky said. We’ll leave it at that. You go and have your adventure, or whatever you want to do, and when you’re ready you come see me. If I’m still available, that is, she said slyly. If we move, I’ll write to you here at the hospital.

    All right, Jake said. My pa will know where I am. What about your pa?

    Never mind him, Becky said. It’s my life, not his.

    You don’t like your pa much, do you, Jake said.

    Does it show that much? she laughed, remembering what she had said to Jake the first day she had met him.

    Some, Jake said. He doesn’t seem to be a likable sort.

    My mother and I have a difficult life with him, Becky said.

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