Vietnam: A Soldier's Journal
By Jack Durish
4/5
()
About this ebook
Vietnam: A Soldier's Journal by Jack Durish is a personal memoir of the author's tour of duty in Vietnam during the war that tore America's heart in half. It is a tale of his adventures and misadventures while serving in the rear echelons of the 9th Infantry Division. This telling of the Vietnam story is not politically correct, just true.
Jack Durish
Jack was born in Baltimore in 1943. He is a decorated veteran of the Vietnam war, a sailor, a fisherman, and a grandfather; all the makings of a great storyteller. He was raised in Maryland on the shores of the Chesapeake Bay where he began a lifelong love of fishing, swimming, and sailing; avocations that he has practiced in more exotic locales including Hawaii, California, and Mexico. From rowboats to tallships, on deck and aloft, he knows the ropes and how to breathe life into salt water tales. Graduating from Law School at the height of the troop build up in Vietnam, Jack volunteered for the Army and earned his commission as a second lieutenant at the Infantry Officer Candidate School at Fort Benning, Georgia. He served with the 9th Infantry Division in the Mekong Delta of Vietnam where he learned the thrill and horror of war. During this time he investigated and reported on three individual actions that resulted in awards of the Medal of Honor providing him with deep insight into the character of valor and heroism. Upon discharge from active duty, Jack's life took an unexpected turn; he began working in advertising and public relations. He worked his way up the ranks from copywriter and creative director to become an advertising manager for a major international corporation, and ultimately, head of his own agency. During this period, he found time to write his first published work, Dream Pirates, a novella for young readers with limited literacy and students of English as a second language. He wrote his second published work, WordPerfect: Creative Applications, after abandoning the advertising business to become a successful independent consultant in the data processing industry. As a parent, Jack became a favorite resource of his children's teachers, visiting their classrooms to recite original stories he created in response to the children's suggestions. He anticipates that his grandchildren's teachers may call on him for encore performances. Ghost River and The Chocolate Dragon will probably make their way into the pages of a children's book one day, but Jack has many other tales he wishes to tell first. Throughout his life, Jack has preferred fact to fiction; real danger has always held greater fascination for him than imagined danger; and real acts of valor have seemed more heroic than fabricated ones. His passion for history began in high school when he began studying the American Civil War. After consuming virtually everything written on the subject, he began haunting the National Archives in Washington as well as any other place where he could get his hands on source material. Thereafter, he studied other periods of American history before branching out into world history. Although a voracious reader of many genres, history and historical fiction have remained his favorites. James Mitchner, Jack Whyte, and Jeff Shaara are a few of his favorite authors. Of course, as a sailor who has stood at the top of the mast on tall ships, Jack also counts Patrick O'Brian and Frederick Marryat among this group. It is no surprise then that his first novel, Rebels on the Mountain is a work of historical fiction, telling a story that begins at sea and then follows the rattle of musketry to the revolution in Cuba that Jack followed from the sidelines of the Cold War.
Related to Vietnam
Related ebooks
Infantry School: A Soldier's Journal Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5SitRep Negative: A Year In Vietnam Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsNam Sense: Surviving Vietnam with the 101st Airborne Division Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Full Battle Rattle: My Story as the Longest-Serving Special Forces A-Team Soldier in American History Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Murphy's Law: My Journey from Army Ranger and Green Beret to Investigative Journalist Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Proud Bastards: One Marine's Journey from Parris Island through the Hell of Vietnam Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Just Another Day in Vietnam Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5One More Wake-Up: A Memoir of a Year Spent in Vietnam Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Michael J. Thompson. Chasing Shadows Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Mickey 6 Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5The Jim Hollister Trilogy: Three Novels of Vietnam Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsDEPLOYMENT VIETNAM -Part 1 Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Alpha One Sixteen: A Combat Infantryman's Year in Vietnam Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Tour of Duty Afghanistan: Morgan Fox Adventures - The Legend Begins Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Night Work: A Novel of Vietnam Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsCherries: A Vietnam War Novel - Revised Edition Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5We Few: U.S. Special Forces in Vietnam Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Fifty Dead Men Walking Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5A Requiem for Crows: A Novel of Vietnam Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5We Walked Across Their Graves: Vietnam 1967—The Que Son Valley Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Days of Valor: An Inside Account of the Bloodiest Six Months of the Vietnam War Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Fires of Babylon: Eagle Troop and the Battle of 73 Easting Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5...and a hard rain fell: A GI's True Story of the War in Vietnam Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/512, 20 & 5: A Doctor's Year in Vietnam Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Tango 1-1: 9th Infantry Division LRPs in the Vietnam Delta Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Appetite for Destruction Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Vietnam: A View from the Front Lines Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Sniper in Helmand: Six Months on the Frontline Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Blood Clot: In Combat with the Patrols Platoon, 3 Para, Afghanistan 2006 Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsSOG Medic: Stories from Vietnam and Over the Fence Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Personal Memoirs For You
I'm Glad My Mom Died Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A Child Called It: One Child's Courage to Survive Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Dry: A Memoir Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Lost Connections: Uncovering the Real Causes of Depression – and the Unexpected Solutions Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Diary of a Young Girl Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance: An Inquiry Into Values Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Glass Castle: A Memoir Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A Stolen Life: A Memoir Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Mediocre Monk: A Stumbling Search for Answers in a Forest Monastery Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Too Much and Never Enough: How My Family Created the World's Most Dangerous Man Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Maybe You Should Talk to Someone: A Therapist, HER Therapist, and Our Lives Revealed Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Just Mercy: a story of justice and redemption Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Everything I Know About Love: A Memoir Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Stash: My Life in Hiding Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Maybe You Should Talk to Someone: the heartfelt, funny memoir by a New York Times bestselling therapist Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Pity the Reader: On Writing with Style Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Seven Pillars of Wisdom: A Triumph Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Becoming Sister Wives: The Story of an Unconventional Marriage Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Becoming Free Indeed: My Story of Disentangling Faith from Fear Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5A Billion Years: My Escape From a Life in the Highest Ranks of Scientology Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A Man of Two Faces: A Memoir, A History, A Memorial Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Son of Hamas: A Gripping Account of Terror, Betrayal, Political Intrigue, and Unthinkable Choices Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Bad Mormon: A Memoir Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Mommie Dearest Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Choice: Embrace the Possible Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Solutions and Other Problems Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Me: Elton John Official Autobiography Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Related categories
Reviews for Vietnam
5 ratings1 review
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Interesting read. The author does a good job in describing his one year experience serving in Vietnam.
Book preview
Vietnam - Jack Durish
PREFACE
Survivor's Guilt
I SAT ON THE STEPS of the Lincoln Memorial in Washington, D.C., looking in the direction of the Vietnam War Memorial. I wanted to go, but I couldn't. I feel that I'm not worthy.
I trained to be an infantry officer. I received six months of infantry officer training in addition to Basic Combat Training and Advanced Infantry Training, eight weeks each. However, towards the end of it all I was asked to volunteer for the Adjutant General's Corps, to be a commissioned officer in charge of a clerical staff, and, I still don't know why, but I did. It's obvious why they asked. I was several years older than my classmates and had a post graduate degree. There was at least one other officer candidate who encouraged me to take the branch transfer because he didn't think I could kill. Sadly, I knew I could.
That decision has haunted me ever since. Many of the young men I trained with died. I didn't. No one succeeds and graduates from Infantry Officer Candidate School without bonding with the other candidates in their class. We supported one another. We bore the same tests and harassment. We struggled, sweat, and hurt side-by-side. Less than half of us who started completed the course, and those who graduated and were commissioned shared a peculiar bond meant to bear us throughout the crucible of war. We would never fail or abandon a comrade. But, I feel that I did. As they marched to the front, I marched to a division headquarters. They wore the crossed rifles, the insignia of infantryman, and I wore the Shield of Shame,
the insignia of the Adjutant General's Corps. They had one MOS; 1542, Infantry Platoon Leader. I had two, 1542 and 2200, Administrative Officer.
I could have avoided all that strain and pain, and taken a direct commission. I was offered one, to be a commissioned officer in the Judge Advocate General's Corps, the Army lawyers. I voluntarily enlisted in the Army after graduating from Law School in 1965. I would have been a captain had I served as an attorney, but would have been obligated to serve on active duty for four years. I graduated from OCS as a lieutenant with just a two-year obligation. The funny thing is that I ended up serving for more than five years and even tried to become a lifer
(one who serves until retirement after 20 or more years).
The error of my decision began to press on me just a few weeks into my tour of duty in Vietnam. I had arrived in-country shortly after being commissioned. My classmates arrived several months later inasmuch as they had been given short term assignments stateside before being deployed. I suppose this policy was created in recognition of the fact that infantry lieutenants had a life expectancy in combat just short of the common housefly. They were very expendable. I met one at the Post Exchange (PX) at our division headquarters shortly after he arrived in-country. He was on his way to take command of a combat platoon. I can't remember his name, but I remember meeting his young wife at our graduation ceremony. That memory would later haunt me as I wrote her of her husband's death in combat. I was in charge of casualty reporting at that time.
My guilt drove me to embark on many adventures that were outside the scope of my duties in the rear with the gear. I suppose that I exposed myself to some unnecessary risks in a vain attempt to expunge the regret. Here I am, more than 40 years later, still trying to reconcile myself to that decision.
However, my age and education, as well as my vantage point serving at an infantry division headquarters, provided me with insight into aspects of the war that were not available to those fighting for their lives. Their vision was often limited to the view through their gun sights, and their attention was riveted solely on survival. I, on the other hand, could indulge my curiosity.
I was also given many opportunities to travel around our division's tactical area of operations, to investigate and report on acts of heroism. My law degree attracted the attention of the division's Judge Advocate General, and I was assigned to serve as defense counsel at courts martial. The Provost Marshall, commander of the division's military police, engaged me in hearings on the status of prisoners of war and criminal investigations.
History has been a passion of mine all my life, especially military history, and this has helped broaden my perspective. Whereas most of this book is based on personal observations and experience, the last chapters include information that I could not have possibly learned in Vietnam. However, my experience there inspired questions that I was compelled to study and answer in later years. Why were we there? Why did our nation revile us when we returned? Did we accomplish anything worthwhile even though our government abandoned the South Vietnamese? Why does the tragedy of Vietnam continue to influence our foreign policy and make us timid in prosecuting war against our enemies?
My conclusions are not popular. They are contrary to the lessons being taught in our schools and propounded in our popular media. I won't ask your forgiveness if you are offended. I will simply be offended if you dismiss me as wrong without empirical evidence.
I propose to correct history.
CHAPTER ONE
A Little Detour
I SPENT A YEAR getting ready to go to Vietnam as an infantry officer, but was commissioned into the Adjutant General's Corps at the last minute. Along with my commission, I was handed orders to report to the 185th Military Intelligence Company in Saigon after a brief, six week, stint at Fort Benjamin Harrison, Indiana to learn how to be an administrative officer.
During a week layover at home, I reconnected with my girlfriend - the one who had sent me a Dear John
while in Officer Candidate School - and we reconnected.
Yes, I was really that dumb. (That last statement shouldn't require any explanation if you think about it.)
When I arrived at Ben Harrison, I was told that there was only one room left at the Bachelor Officer's Quarters on post. I slipped away and didn't return until after another lieutenant had taken it. That way I was able to collect a substantial amount of TDY (Temporary Duty) money for living off post, and was able to replenish my savings that were sorely depleted after I had to buy new uniforms as an officer.
I met up with three other lieutenants who had graduated from Officer Candidate School with me, and we found a two-bedroom apartment to rent by the week. It was located in a building filled with a surprising number of young women. Only one of the other lieutenants was married and we became popular additions to the community.
The girls took pity on us, and we were treated to many home cooked
meals. Unfortunately, most were pretty bad and the guys insisted that I do the cooking. (I had been cooking since I was eleven years old.)
A trio of young women lived across the hall, and I became friends with one of them. Unfortunately, I maintained a hands off policy in deference to the girl back home (yeah, the one who had sent me the Dear John
and who would repeat the performance while I was in Vietnam. Now you must understand the part about me being really dumb.)
We took weekend trips. A young man we met in Cincinnati introduced us to a couple of his girlfriends, and we drank and danced at the Whiskey A Go Go in the Metropole Hotel. There were girls in scanty costumes and boots dancing in cages, but we missed any of the famous bands that used to play there. We drove the girls to a roadhouse in Covington, Kentucky the next night, Sunday, and drank and danced there until after midnight. It was a race to make it back to Fort Benjamin Harrison in Indianapolis in time to report for duty Monday morning. Needless to say we weren't at our best that day.
We visited Chicago. I remember quite vividly the elevator ride to the restaurant at the top of the John Hancock Center in Chicago, and the descent, especially the descent. We were crammed into the car with far too many other passengers, and someone found the Go
button. It only had two stops: Street and Restaurant. We dropped 108 floors faster than I could have fallen had I jumped off the roof. It was similar to riding in a dive bomber. (I know, I rode in the back seat of a U.S. Navy Dauntless built by Douglas Aircraft Company during World War II. The father of a friend had flown them during the war and had restored one for his personal use.)
I also remember well driving on the Interstate Highways to Chicago. The potholes from that winter's plowing had not yet been repaired, and we hit a few that I thought might swallow the car.
I had rented a Chevrolet Chevelle during the six weeks that we were at Indianapolis. However, we used the cars that the other lieutenants had brought with them for our trips since I had to pay mileage. Renting cars in those days was different than now. You paid a flat rate per day plus mileage. It was the first time I had ever rented a car and discovered that it was an opportunity to try things that I would never do with my own car, like placing the transmission in Park while it was still moving. (You're dying to know what happened, aren't you? Well, it made a ratcheting sound until the car had slowed to a crawl and then engaged. The car stopped suddenly and rocked back and forth a few times.)
After learning the intricacies of Army paperwork and the Functional Filing System, I went back home to dump my excess gear and have another week with my girlfriend. Despite all the young women I met in Indianapolis and on our road trips, I had remained true.
What an idiot.
CHAPTER TWO
Too Much to Drink
I ARRIVED IN Oakland, California, on the date specified in my orders and reported to the Army Terminal for transportation to Vietnam. The sergeant at the reception desk scanned my orders, handed them back, and told me to return the following morning.
What was I supposed to do? He gave me a tired look and explained that he didn't have a seat for me that day. He might have one the next day. I guess he had repeated that explanation countless times every day and didn't have the patience to recite it for another idiot lieutenant.
I knew a girl who had moved to San Francisco about the time I joined the Army, and I decided to look her up. She grabbed her boyfriend and a friend to be my date,
(here I am again with another girl and too stupid to take advantage of the opportunity), and we went out on the town. They had me return my rental car and threw my duffel bag in the trunk of their car. The party lasted until they delivered me back to Oakland the next morning.
They waited while I checked in and learned that they still didn't have a seat on a flight for me. I was again instructed to come back the next day.
It was April, 1967, and a chartered flight was taking off every twenty minutes, 24/7, and I still couldn't get a seat. It was the height of the Vietnam buildup.
The party continued another 24 hours and I was begging for a seat the next morning. I didn't think I could survive another day. If I was going to die, please let it be in Vietnam where I could at least be decorated with a Purple Heart.
The last thing I remember was a kindly policeman coaxing me to return the stone cupid I was carrying out of some park, somewhere, sometime in the middle of the night. The sergeant at the Oakland Army Terminal took pity, and I joined a queue headed towards a bus.
Unfortunately, I was yanked out of line at the last minute. A corpsman asked if I had my vaccination record. No. Well, it wasn't in my medical records either and I had to be re-inoculated before I could get on the plane. The bus was loading as the corpsman pumped me with seventeen different injections, all in the left arm. I decided that I needed at least one good arm to salute with and also to defend myself when we arrived in country.
It was not a comfortable ride from there to Travis Air Force Base where a World Airways Boeing 707 waited. You never heard of World Airways? They did a lot of charter service for the Air Force in those days. Indeed, I think that the Air Force was chartering just about every available plane that could make it to Vietnam.
There was no separation of cabins. The plane had been fitted with passenger seats in every available space. The front row was jammed against the bulkhead that formed one wall of the latrine. As an officer, I was allowed to board first and made a beeline for the window seat next to the emergency exit over the wing. It was the only seat with any legroom.
You could almost feel the aircraft settling on its undercarriage as the men loaded and took their seats. Someone once told me that a Boeing 707 could fly even if you filled the fuselage with water. I think we severely tested that theory that day.
CHAPTER THREE
Where is Vietnam?
I REMEMBER ONE of the young candidates in Infantry Officer Candidate School who thought that Vietnam was somewhere in Europe. I wish it were. It would have been a helluva lot shorter flight
There was no functioning entertainment system. No music and definitely no movies. A young soldier sitting near me asked a stewardess about it. She replied that she was the entertainment.
She wasn't very good at it.
Travis was built with extra long and wide runways to accommodate B-52 bombers. We needed them. As our plane began to roll we looked at each other. It didn't take an experienced flier to realize that we were carrying the maximum load. The plane floated on its suspension. Every seam in the taxiway caused the plane to dip and float slowly back. The cargo compartments must have been even fuller than the passenger compartment.
When we turned onto the runway, the pilot took us to the very end and made a u-turn so that we could take advantage of every inch of pavement to accelerate and get airborne. He set the brakes and revved up the engines until they were screaming with white hot fury. The plane rolled from side-to-side, and we expected to take off as though launched from an aircraft carrier catapult. Instead, when the pilot released the brakes, we surged ahead like a giant glob of molasses pouring from a jar in January. We were worried. Well, I was. I had flown enough to know that we needed speed to lift off. However, I swear that birds were passing us on the runway. And they were walking.
Towards the end of the runway there were signs warning that we were approaching the end. (I'm not saying the end of what.) 5 - 4 - 3... I don't know how far apart they were, but the plane still hadn't rotated - the nose wheel was still firmly planted on the ground - when we passed 2.
I don't think the plane ever rotated. I believe that the pilot simply raised the landing gear like a woman might raise her skirts to cross a puddle, and we cleared the chain link fence at the end of the runway.
We circled until we gained enough altitude to clear the mountains circling Travis before heading northwest to Alaska. The planes headed for Vietnam alternated routes with the first stop being either Alaska or Hawaii. My plane went from Alaska to Japan to Guam to Wake Island to Bien Hoa, Vietnam. We were allowed to deplane and stretch our legs at each stop. I was comatose most of the time - almost 24 hours total, sleeping off a hangover and recovering some feeling in my arm.
Our first stop was in Alaska. I pointed my Yashika 35mm Single Lens Reflex camera out of the window and began snapping pictures of the mountains. I still have them. It was early evening and the shadows defined the ruggedness of the terrain in stark relief. Fortunately, the cold air in Alaska was heavier
than in California, giving the aircraft more lift, and we touched down more or less normally.
The cold air gave us reason to put our heads down and make a dash for the terminal when we deplaned. We had to wait inside while the ground crew refueled it. I remember running headlong into the terminal before looking up into the gaping jaws and outstretched forelegs and claws of a giant Alaskan brown bear. The taxidermist had done a good job. For an instant, I thought that I was about to be consumed. Although, given the ache in my arm, I might have welcomed it.
The landing at night in Tokyo was similarly sane. No bears though. We reached Guam in the daylight. It seemed that the runway there spanned the whole island. It was another designed