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    The Incest Diary
    The Incest Diary
    The Incest Diary
    Audiobook3 hours

    The Incest Diary

    Published by Macmillan Audio

    Narrated by Barbara Rosenblat

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    About this audiobook

    “In the fairy tales about father–daughter incest—‘The Girl Without Hands,’ ‘Thousand Furs,’ the original ‘Cinderella,’ ‘Donkey Skin,’ and the stories of Saint Dymphna, patron saint of incest survivors—the daughters are all as you would expect them to be: horrified by their father’s sexual advances. They do everything in their power to escape. But I didn’t. A child can’t escape. And later, when I could, it was too late.”


    Throughout her childhood and adolescence, the anonymous author of The Incest Diary was raped by her father. Beneath a veneer of normal family life, she grew up in and around this all-encompassing secret. Her sexual relationship with her father lasted, off and on, into her twenties. It formed her world, and it formed her deepest fears and desires. Even after she broke away—even as she grew into an independent and adventurous young woman—she continued to seek out new versions of the violence, submission, and secrecy she had struggled to leave behind.

    In this graphic and harrowing memoir, the author revisits her early traumas and their aftermath—not from a clinical distance, but from deep within—to explore the ways in which her father’s abuse shaped her, and still does. As a matter of psychic survival, she became both a sexual object and a detached observer, a dutiful daughter and the protector of a dirty secret. And then, years later, she made herself write it down.

    With lyric concision, in vignettes of almost unbearable intensity, this author tells a story that is shocking but that will ring true to many other survivors of abuse. It has never been faced so directly in an audiobook.

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherMacmillan Audio
    Release dateJul 18, 2017
    ISBN9781427290564
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    • 1/5
      This book is way beyond graphic! So incredibly unnecessary. I feel like it was written with the pedofile in mind! Like they are getting pleasure right under our noses! I'm an incest survivor myself and I can tell you this woman's response is not like anything I could ever imagine! You're just trying to pave a way for this crime to be exceptable! And conditioning people it's ok to enjoy it! Shame on all of you! It's so obvious what the (conveniently anonymous ) author is doing! And allowing such pornography is just heartbreaking! The verbiage this woman uses when she's talking about her own father's body is completely nauseating! Sick, sick, sick! I don't usually write a review before completing a book, I must admit. But I got more that halfway only because I did feel compelled to review it! I could go no farther, though! Complete trash of the lowest caliber! I can't believe people actually believe this person! I feel they are a creepy, nasty pedofile in some dank dark basement writing out their fantasies and getting some kind of disgusting thrill knowing that they are forcing it on unsuspecting readers by labeling it a diary by a victim! Ha! The depavity is off the charts!
    • 5/5
      Brutal but important subject matter, beautiful writing, excellent reader for the material
    • 5/5
      I am not sure how to rate this title. Morbid curiosity got me started and helped me finish and now I am completely numb. At first, I kept thinking, "This isn't real, this is someone's sick fantasy", but then the author peeled back layers of herself little by little and I don't think it's fake at all anymore. It's a hellish reminder that there are true, unrepentant monsters out there and that there are people, like the author, who feels things and went through things that she should have never experienced and felt to begin with and her whole, entire life has just been this broken loop. The true safety and love she should've received from her family was robbed from an early age and I am just so nauseated and heartbroken.

      I'm finally rating it the way that I am, because this took a lot of courage to write and publish. There is so much raw emotion packed into this story and her story deserves to be heard, no matter how hard it may be to process.

      I don't know who you are, unknown author, but I hope you are doing better these days and I am just so devastated that you were robbed of everything.
    • 4/5
      The reader is outstanding. You can feel her emotions in her words and the fluctuations of her voice.
      The story is eerily nauseating due to the criminal act of the father. At one point, I thought I would vomit!
      But in retrospect, I see another side of the victim that you would not expect. And many can learn from.
      Definitely NSFW or children!
      This is a wonderful learning tool!
    • 1/5
      Deeply disturbing. Very sorry I chose to listen to it.