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    You Know What You Have To Do
    You Know What You Have To Do
    You Know What You Have To Do
    Audiobook5 hours

    You Know What You Have To Do

    Written by Bonnie Shimko

    Narrated by Cristina Panfilio

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    About this audiobook

    You do not kill a man in cold blood and then talk your way out of it. Other than her real name—Mary-Magdalene Feigenbaum—fifteen-year-old Maggie’s problems seem ordinary. She has tiffs with her too-critical mother, a crush on her cute psychologist, and worries that her only friend—fellow outcast Abigail—is morphing into a popular girl, leaving her behind. But Maggie has a few not-so-ordinary problems. A voice in her head is telling her to kill. And not just anyone. Each time the target is a person who has done something terrible to someone Maggie cares for. You know what you have to do, the voice commands. Maggie struggles to resist, but the voice is relentless. And as its demands escalate, her world begins to crumble. With rising suspense, this story of psychological horror introduces a narrator whose own unique voice and irreverent humor are unforgettable—an unlikely hero fighting a desperate battle against incomprehensible evil.

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherBrilliance Audio
    Release dateJun 4, 2013
    ISBN9781480519992
    You Know What You Have To Do
    Author

    Bonnie Shimko

    Bonnie Shimko is the author of The Private Thoughts of Amelia E. Rye, a 2011 ALA Best Book for YA and Letters in the Attic, winner of the Lamdba Literary Award. She lives in Plattsburgh, NY.

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    • 5/5
      I enjoyed this book. I liked that it was not focused on the actual crimes. It focused more on the daily life of the murder and life from their perspective. Including major life events and taking the read through each of the crimes. If a second book was available, I would read it.
    • 3/5
      Average psychological thriller. A quick read. Weird pro-life messaging appears then disappears in the middle of the novel -- wasn't sure what to make of that. Overall, an unremarkable but serviceable YA novel.
    • 2/5
      Due to copy and paste, formatting has been lost.You Know What You Have to do was a weirdly psychological thriller type book. I wasn't sure what to expect when I started it, and when I finished I was even less sure of my final thoughts. I don't really think that anything was actually resolved, or that there was any real moral to the story. Maggie kills several people throughout the book, and while you'd think that something would come from it, nothing ever really does. I found that to be endlessly psychotic.Speaking of psychotic, Maggie was really psychotic. I didn't see her as funny or feisty like the description says...I just saw her as psychotic. First impressions really suck. But they stuck, for her. From the very beginning she's hearing the voice in her head that tells her to kill people...and she does it (that voice was way scary). And as we know from YA books, psychiatrists are very easily played. Which makes me feel bad for their profession, but whatevs. It seems like they're always made out to be quacks in YA books. All Maggie does is lie to her psychiatrist, and he never really seems to catch on. You'd think that Maggie would try and get help, but no, she doesn't want anyone to know that she's crazy. Valid reason. But if she hates the voice so much, why doesn't she ever take the help that's offered to her? Not only that, but she crushes on her 35 year old psychiatrist. Imagines what it would be like if they were married. Sometimes, older men are attractive. But fantasizing about curtains for a man that old is so gross that I made up a term for it: ickles.I mean, a crush is okay, but I can't imagine having such advanced feelings for a guy his age at my age. Does that make sense? And then the guy her age? Well, he's crushing on her and stalking her and blackmailing her and what does she do? She blackmails and threatens him right back. The whole situation was downright freaky deaky.That's probably an accurate description of the entire book. Maybe I'm being a harsh critic, but You Know What You Have to do just didn't sit right with me. All in all, it's not really a book I would recommend unless I knew that you were into that kind of stuff.
    • 3/5
      A copy of this book was generously provided to me by the publisher via netgalley. All opinions herein are mine and were not influenced by the author or publisher in any way.This book was definitely not for me. Maybe it’s because I’m not in it’s target audience. Certainly, had I read this book 10 years ago (I’m in my late 20’s now), I probably would have enjoyed it a lot more. After sitting through countless critical reading courses and a few psychology courses (necessary for my degree ‘n all), I can safely say that what would be an enjoyable read for a teen turned into a nightmare for an adult.First, however, let’s talk about what I did like.I absolutely love the adults. I felt horribly sorry for both Roxie and Lonnie Kraft. Roxie, because she got the short end of the stick, so to speak, after she got pregnant with Maggie. Her parents died, her former boyfriend (Lonnie) ended up in the pen for killing his mother, and she was stuck in a loveless marriage with someone 30+ years her senior, all so she could provide for a baby she wasn’t ready to have. I felt immensely sorry for her and her situation, and in a weird, disconnected way, for Maggie, because she just doesn’t know.I actually really liked Dr. Scott, too. Maggie spends a lot of time crushing on him, but once you actually ignore her blather about marrying him and adding feminine touches to his house (like curtains), he’s actually not that bad a guy. He even -gasp- calls her out on lying blatantly to him. It was at this point in the novel that I thought maybe I could take some of it seriously, but definitely not all of it.Shimko’s writing flows well, also. While there’s a bit of a disconnect between Maggie, who is our (definitely) unreliable narrator, and the reader, Shimko writes Maggie’s views well and doesn’t hold back.But that’s about as far as the things I liked goes. So let’s talk about the things I didn’t like, because it’s actually only a couple of things, but for me, they’re major.At one point in the novel, Maggie goes out on a date with this guy from school, Jacob, who proceeds to feel her up in the back of the movie theater, and has the nerve to get mad when she tells him ‘no’. (Personal opinion time: I actually like sitting in the back of the theater for reasons unrelated to getting felt up, which includes no children as well as an ability to see the screen better.) Maggie complains to her friend, Abigail, who’s been reading a bunch of those teen mags that actually have really terrible advice. Abigail proceeds to tell Maggie that she “asked for it” (in other words, of course, but that phrase stands). Actually, what she said can’t be paraphrased. Here it is: “Well, no wonder. You never sit in the back row unless you mean business. It gives a guy permission to do whatever he wants.” … “Whatever Jacob did isn’t his fault. You gave him mixed signals.” (p 128 from the digital ARC)Um, no. No, Abigail, it doesn’t. This is victim-blaming in the worst way. At best, Abigail has been lead to believe this by her teen mags (like Cosmo and Redbook, which give ok hair tips, but nothing else worth reading, especially articles related to anything relationship or sex); at worst, Abigail has been lead to believe this by her parents, friends, and anyone else that keeps telling her that. But what bugs me is that no one bothers to correct her. No one says, “It’s really not your fault, Maggie.” No one tells Abigail it’s “not her fault”, either, when she has her own boy-related issues later in the novel.The victim-blaming doesn’t fly with me, at all, and it’s a subject that has to be touched carefully in books. I don’t mind it when it’s utilized well and ends up actually having a happy ending, but perpetuating the cycle is a sore spot for me, even as someone who’s never been a victim.Another thing I couldn’t stand was Maggie’s treatment of pretty much everyone around her, with the exception of her dog. She doesn’t seem to grasp the concept of friendship, or family. She constantly thinks badly of everyone around her (including going so far as to call someone she doesn’t even know a “slut”, just to appease Abigail, only to deny friendship with Abigail). She calls Abigail “frog face” because she wears a retainer at the beginning of the novel. She constantly refers to Roxie as being “easy” (mostly because she doesn’t know Roxie’s story with Lonnie, and she is constantly fueled by rumors floating around her small town about Roxie, but she doesn’t bother digging for the truth, and when it finally comes out, she still refers to Roxie as easy.)Maggie as a character bothered me, truthfully. I don’t really know where the author was going with her as a character, if she intended for her to be experiencing symptoms of schizophrenia, or if it was something else entirely. Nothing much actually happens in the book except Maggie goes around killing people, and cleaning up after herself. So here’s the thing: if this is supposed to be Maggie experiencing what would later be diagnosed as schizophrenic symptoms (not necessarily the disorder itself, but she does display auditory hallucinations), I have a hard time believing it. If, on the other hand, it’s intended as a commentary on the human condition (or just the teenage condition) and the nature of good and evil, it’s a big bogged down in all the teenage melodrama.But what bugged me the most? I felt like there was no plot. Oh, sure things happened. But to what end? I felt like it wasn’t a complete story–I was left reading what was 5 of 6 total chapters, and the last one happened to be lost somewhere. Nothing happens to Maggie. At least two (possibly three) people know she’s killed someone, and no one does anything about it. Yes, she’s killed bad people. But the vigilante angle that Maggie tries to work doesn’t do so well, and I find it hard to believe that cops aren’t suspicious of (at least) three deaths in such a small period of time in a small town. Really, I wanted Maggie to be caught. I wanted the story to come full circle, and at least have closure, but I, as a reader, was denied.So over-all, I’m actually fence-sitting almost exactly half-way between liking it and not liking it. As I said before, if I’d been 10 years younger, I’d probably have really enjoyed it. But as an adult? Not so much. Definitely recommending to teens who want a quick read that’s different from normal faire.
    • 3/5
      It takes some guts to have as your main character a fairly upbeat, normal teenage girl who occasionally kills people at the command of the voice in her head. I'm still not sure what to think of this book. The epigraph beginning the book is from Ralph Waldo Emerson, "Every sweet has its sour, ever evil its good". It's clear Bonnie Shimko, the author wants to explore how every person labeled "bad" has some redeeming characteristics, or reasons for how they got that way and that alternatively people we see as "good" can have some serious problems. I just don't know how well Shimko pulls it off. The murders feel like they should have more weight. That no one seems to suspect anything seems unrealistic. The emotional resolution at the end isn't entirely satisfying. And yet the book did stick in my head. It didn't try for an easy answer. It didn't try to ease my discomfort at the heinous acts of the main character. It left me thinking about morality, ethics, and how people see themselves. It's a flawed book, but valuable. I'd love to hear what other people thought of it. Even more, I think it would be fascinating to hear teenagers discuss it. It's definitely worth a read.
    • 3/5
      You know, I've never been the type of person to like or even read a horror book. In fact I frequently avoid them like the plague. But I decided that I would try this one out and see what I thought of it. Even though it's not my cup of tea, I actually thought it was a decent read and this is coming from someone who thoroughly hates all horror books. So that must mean its good then, right? I'll say this, the title is creepy enough as it is.You Know What You Have to Do by Bonnie Shimko is the creepy tale of Mary-Magdalene, a girl who can hear voices in her head. Typically we associate voices in our head as the kind that tells us to be better or do better but this one is different. This voice wants something dark and sinister from Maggie. It wants her to kill people and even if they are "bad" people, it still doesn't seem right for her to kill them. But when she refuses, her head begins to pound until the point that she can't think straight and the only thoughts in her head are the relentless voice urging her to do awful things. At first the killings seem to be meant to help other people out and then something snaps. Even the most innocent, a baby, is being subjected to the voice's constant presence of murder. Is no one safe? It sure seems that way.The plot itself is unique and intriguing, even if it is increasingly getting creepier with each turn of the page. It's honestly a beautifully complex story that the author has created and I applaud how well she has done in making a unique plot. The writing style of the story is honestly well thought out and gives this eery feeling to the words that seem to just jump off the page. A haunting feeling resonates with the story. The words linger with you long after the story is completed. The plot twists are so well designed that they are as unsettling as the plot itself. It's crazy.Maggie is the main character of the story and I'm still trying to decide whether she is crazy or if the voice is legitimately there. She is a strong character with a willful personality which is why she refuses to ever accept what the voice tells her right off the bat. I admire her strength against the people and the things she faces. Even though I don't like horrors, I do like her character because she is very relatable and that's probably what made her story hard to read. I connected with her, only to have her suffer. Roxie is the mother that nobody wants and yet some people are unlucky enough to have. Controlling and scatterbrained are two words that should never be associated with mothers and yet that is what fits her to a 'T'. Harry who is her stepfather is the bright spot of the story. Unlike pop culture's perception of stepfathers, he seems to be a genuinely nice guy and the outcome of his story was really disappointing. Sadly it was not surprising either. Her birth father was a character that I wished was better explored and I actually wanted to know more about him. He seemed like an interesting character that could've had a story of his own.You know the creepy boy next door? The one that you are sure is peeping through your windows? Yeah, that's Lester. He goes beyond the puppy dog unrequited crush and turns into a controlling stalker that I wanted to strangle. If anyone was crazy in this story, it would definitely be him. I was sad to see her friend, Abigail, become something that she wasn't. It quickly became real that this best friend wasn't so great after all. I've always hated the sort of friends that are like Abigail and the author's portrayal of her character was very real. Jacob is the crush that seems to dominate the first quarter of the book. He seemed to be the sort of guy that everyone liked and just based on how he acted, I probably would've had a crush on him. It turns out that he isn't a great guy after all. You'll find out why.This story is a constant game of whether someone is really who they say they are. Do you trust someone completely? Should you, even after knowing them for years? This book makes you question everything, including yourself.
    • 4/5
      You Know What You Have To Do is a great YA thriller, full of suspense, bits of humor, and a mystery that will still keep you thinking long after you're done reading.Mary-Magdalene (who much prefers Maggie) hears voices; voices that tell her to kill. But you have to wonder - just *what* are the voices? Maggie's sub-conscious? Schizophrenia? Demon entities? You never know, so you can ponder to your heart's delight without anyone telling you you've gotten the whole idea wrong.It's hard to give a more detailed review without giving away the plot. Suffice to say that not only will teens love this book with its' spookiness and snarky lead character, but so will adults. It's a fresh treatment on what could have been a very ho-hum idea.