Yoga Journal

Hear Me Roar

“You’re better now, right?” people sometimes asked.

I had to hedge.

“Mostly,” I said. “I’m mostly OK.”

I wanted to be totally better, to have a clean break between sick and better. But illness like mine doesn’t work like that. It’s like having a cold that lingers, and you think every day might be the last day and tomorrow will be better, and then you forget what feeling better feels like and you just hang on, and “normal” changes, and you’re not sure if you still have a cold or not, until one day you wake up and you just don’t have a cold but you don’t know what broke it or why then. And I

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